#trying to download what I can and get out

[sabahs-stuff]

Manifest appearance change. (Weight loss/gain)

(Success story)

❏First and foremost, Yeah, I know you shouldn't let go of your manifestation. Like detaching from your manifestation bla bla..

However, I have noticed that actively affirming appearance change is difficult for me because I love looking at my reflection in the mirror all the time. And I've to constantly remind myself to affirm. Every time I affirm, one of my inner voices started stating the opposite.

I weighed 47kg (I'm 5'3; I know it's the ideal weight, but I wanted to gain a little more). It was difficult for me to eat more. I believe it was about April 14 or 15. I decided to quit trying to eat more. I started to joke that I was gaining weight without eating,"are u kidding me? I'm eating nothing and also skipping dinner these days, so how tf am I gaining weight?" Some of my friends even laughed at me.🙂

Then, out of nowhere, my sister began complaining that I had gained weight, then few days ago I went to the doctor for a checkup, and they also measured my weight, it's 51KG now. Mind you, I skipped a lot of meals and wasn't eating at all. It was during the Mercury retrograde. I was quite depressed and saddened also someone so close to me died. But it took me like 10 days to gain 4kg. If that's not shocking idk what is.

So, this is what I did (•_•)

Reminder : "If you could make yourself believe that you have the exact appearance you desire, it would change"

Every time I ate, I told myself, "I should be dieting." And look at what I'M doing. I should start working out before it's too late. And that is all. Then I didn't even affirm anything during the day, ( I believe that if you can make your brain believe that you're pretty then you are😂 )

every time I looked in the mirror, I said, "Wtf? I'm gaining weight . "Shit, I need to diet." And trust me when I tell you at that exact moment your brain is going send you a thought "Stop lying; you're still skinny bitch"

But don't forget that you get to select what happens in your reality. If your mind wants to offer you lemons, make lemonade.😂

I said, "Yes, that's correct. If I want to lose my weight I need to affirm I'm still skinny" and I kept on saying "I need to lose weight or I'll gain more weight" just tricked my brain into thinking that I'm chubby and attempting to manifest becoming skinny. And I didn't focused on the end goal; I wasn't obsessed with it; I didn't give a damn about it, but whenever I noticed a little change, I freaked out as if something terrible had happened. And believe me when I say I freaked out it was Oscar worthy😂

I Remember, the first thing I noticed was that my hand was looking a bit chubby. I was screaming and even fake crying, 😭 "Damn this embarrassing, I need to work out, I'm gaining weight." I then searched and downloaded weight loss workouts online.

Trust me I was living the moment 😂. literally living in the end. It was easy at the time because my brain was literally blank. I had no feelings or emotions, so I fed my brain whatever I wanted, and it ate every thought I gave it. I'm happy with my weight now.

Here are some tips:

Your appearance is constantly changing with your affirmations and beliefs. So don't doubt whether this is going to work or not. 

Your manifestation will take time, depending on you and your beliefs.

And about mental health, I would post about it later, but it's important.

The more you visualize, the faster it will become a reality.Visualise everything; literally, everything you want, VISUALIZE 🙌 stay in your head

The amount of things I changed and manifested in my life is crazy; it's different for each person. But it took me a year to fully understand manifestation. So give yourself time. Spend time with yourself; the better you know yourself, the better you'll get in manifestation. Best advice: talk to yourself (in your head, of course, or others would think you're crazy, lol 😹.)  gossip with yourself; if you want to be tall tell yourself that you're tall and stick to it refuse to let go. ✊🏻

Hope you like it. It's my first ever post but clearly not the last 😉 feel free to ask any questions. 🩷

#subliminals #manifestation #manifesting #law of assumption #law of attraction #desired reality #desire #void success #void state #mindset #mental health

[pechoraflow]

to all my fellow WeHeartIt users

it is ok to cry

#years. YEARS of work #gONE. #I've been using that website for a DECADE #EVERYTHING IS GONE #I have just cried for a solid thirty minutes. #trying to download what I can and get out #if you have collections and you need to know how to retrieve what data you can #lmk I have links and instructions #weheartit #my virtual happy place #all gone #it's like Polyvore all over again

[mattodore]

found out while putting together matthias's oc page that his name has the exact same etymology and meaning as theo's name...

i’m sure this is information matthias is very normal about…

#theo is in fact a gift from god so jot that down ! #river dipping #i've been throwing myself into oc stuff bc i'm not doing hot mentally which is... tbh when i do my best writing 😭 #none of this is new tho i wrote the bios and 'at a glance' intros months and months ago when i first made an oc page #which is why i do plan on rewriting them but for now i'm leaving them like this... so i guess the echthroi page is done? #obviously echthroi has more characters than this but i haven't taken new screenshots of everyone yet... #i put the gray cas bg back in my game a few days ago only to completely forget i wanted to take new headshots for the oc page 😭 #like these are just placeholders... i want the backgrounds to match the oc page. oh... or maybe i could just do transparent pics? #i think i remember vyx made a post abt how to do that... will look into that when i open the game again. rn i'm at my keyboard 🧑‍💻 #like i am writing new things! started a google doc for theo yesterday and have been writing on it here and there since then #i've already cried in there... lmaooo. i like oc pages for sure but i think a huge google doc is what i really need to keep track of things #i drop so much lore in tags on here and it's like! river write that down somewhere else or you'll lose it 😭 #like i fr have never actually written down any of the info i've shared on here. i've just had all this oc knowledge stored in my brain. #so i went through and copied over a tonnn of tags and posts i've made into google docs but i just know i'm missing things i've probably #said in the tags of their core tagged posts... 🧍 if my blog didn't have so many posts i'd have an easier time going through it but 🤷 #and on top of that i've been making a bunch of posts about theo and matthias on my main acc. which is like 🧍 well great now there's more #i'm gonna lose track of...... i fr have gottt to get into the habit of actually putting things down in theo's google doc!!! #i'm just trying to figure out the best way to format it all but i've downloaded a few templates that i've been messing with. #...anyway. if it isn't obvious i'm trying to get back to posting on here. i'm opening my inbox now with the intent to just. #sit here in my inbox until i can get myself to reply. lads... avpd is actually so torturous i'm not kidding. #i feel like i'm dying trying to get myself to interact with people sometimes even despite how badly i want!!!! to interact!!! #theo and me and our avoidant trauma responses holding hands and skipping around together

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake…. #I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour. #I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing? #y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day. #but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!! #I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

[fox-guardian]

one thing about me is i fucking hate making new accounts

#ramblings with major #cursing #fighting for my life trying to look into a *shudders* dating app #recent reviews are garbage there's a subscription model that allegedly gets pop ups constantly on the app #and also the support section on their site is kinda also garbage #like i'd like to know about this feature. Without Having To Make An Account To Find Out What It Does #ESPECIALLY if i apparently have to PAY FOR IT FIRST #'what does this feature do' 'vague positive things :) also it costs money :) enjoy!!' #like bro. can i figure out what things are before you direct me to a part of The App I Haven't Downloaded Yet and go 'good luck!!' #anyway i am. struggling. <3 #i don't even have PHONE SPACE can i get a good WEBSITE INSTEAD #so i don't have to DOWNLOAD ANYTHING

[dinitride-art]

So, either I’ve become a master at animating people kissing (can barely even draw it) or something sketchy’s going on here. Oh, I can see where I fucked some of this up- I can see where I fucked some of this up- Jesus fucking christ.

Help

#byler #I don’t know what’s going on #but I mean #it’d make sense for it to be this degraded #if it was a bunch of pictures compressed together? #like just sixty or more frames shoved into one image #which I’m not even sure if that’s possible #so maybe I’m just seeing things #but I DONT have the knowledge to be able to make this on my own #and that’s what’s getting to me #because I can’t animate people kissing- i don’t have that shit download #like I can draw hands no sweat #but as soon as it comes to smushing two faces together? I’m out #I also don’t know why the backgrounds yellow #like if this is what’s actually happening #then a lot of my lines are messed up and in the wrong place #trust me trying to stare at this image and pic out three frames that made sense was HARD #but I could still pull out three imperfect frames #and that’s shouldn’t happen

[cookie-dough-writes]

shout out to everyones who's brains and nervous systems have been wrecked by stressors + the state of the internet + everything else going on. I promise we'll adapt and I promise things will be alright, focus on making good small decisions to protect your well-being like cutting certain platforms (instagram, twitter, whatever you feel like) and having a look through your follow list to see if unfollowing some people might help. try giving your brain a rest by letting yourself be bored some times. try doing a puzzle or a physical task without a podcast or music or netflix drama. consider not clicking on that expose video of someone you dont know. hesitate before telling someone off in the comments or joining in on an online argument that you can opt out of. protect yourself so you can make your world a better place. push yourself when needed. cut the onslaught of overstimulation where you can, if you want.

I am saying this as someone who's never felt at home irl, with adhd and dyspraxia, general awkwardness, chronic depression, struggles with regulation and im sure a bunch of other things. I really struggle reducing screen time because it often feels like the outside world rejects me, I'm sure some of you relate to that, but I'm taking small steps to make things easier for me in the long run and day to day. it doesnt matter if we don't reach some end goal of total and complete peace and purity or whatever, all that matters is that we're choosing to be more mindful of how we navigate this world of constant stimulation. and i fully believe in all of us :)

#inspired by the fact that im in a bit of a dip in this whole journey #i downloaded insta a few months ago and ive noticed it hurting me #the videos im watching on youtube arent ones i even really want to watch #im getting headaches #i cant cope with chores or being quiet at the moment #and life just hasnt been hitting the same #but thats okay because its all a part in it #so what im going to do is to avoid insta reels #be more mindful with the videos i click on #stop worrying about online discourse im not even apart of #stop worrying about having callout posts written about me because i have nothing to be called out over *nor* do am i even in a position whe #e that'd happen BUT because its just all over everywhere #so many people get exposed #that its now an anxiety for me #im going to go on more walks and do more yoga and sleep more #and it doesnt matter if i can only do bits of all that it only matters if i try #instagram #tumblr #twitter #terminally online #reminders #positivity #mental health #depression #anxiety #autism #asd #actually autistic #adhd #cookie rambles

[elegyofthemoon]

positive!! someone will come fix the internet finally tomorrow

negative!! i have to wait till tomorrow

#snow speaks #today the hotspots been super bad so ive been lowkey dying of boredom #which inevitably turned into 'hey what games do i have downloaded that doesnt require the internet' #explain to me why the hell do i have 13-2 downloaded and not the OTHER GAMES? #I COULD BE FINISHING LR A SECOND TIME ROUND BUT NOOO #i did get to see a paradox ending ive never seen before this game is so unserious sometimes its aslkjdfaslkh #i also didnt realize i maxed out majority of the roles oop :x obviously someone plays this game too much #fought the royal flanness and beat that in 3 mins and got the ending there which made me go :0 huh. #oHHHH I CAN GO DO OTHER PARADOX ENDINGS. oh thats gonna take a while though... mmmm #will try though #actually i shouldnt be complaining tbh i think ill be fine #its just academias gonna slow the quality im so stunned by how nicely it runs #ohhh academia. you awful maze of a city #i think i can beat caius tbh. i think im strong enough #or am i supposed to lose. oh well im gonna fight him anyways

[autisticlee]

how to make business plans: spend 2 weeks looking for a website to make a visual plan guide that you can collaborate with business partners, but you end up nowhere because all of them require paid subscriptions to do more than a few basic things. except you don't want to pay for these because you don't have a business yet and therefore no money!!!! but you need more than basic features (basically you can only put 50-100 items on your board with free account and i will definitely need more)

#WHY DOES EVERYTHING ON THE INTERNET HAVE TO BE SUBSCRIPTION NOW #i miss the days where you could use a website and all the features for FREE. #or at best only have one-time fee or subs for advanced stuff only profitable big businesses need and can also afford #the average person is starting to get locked out of the internet. we already pay for the internet itself. everything is too expensive #i need to make my own business so i can afford to live but everything to mae a business costs too much!!!!!!! #im too autistic for this shit. “this shit” being “a profitable member of society” #i cant get a big cool job to make a ton of money and then afford to easily become a millionaire #i bet most millionaires and all billionairs didnt work a day in their life to afford to start their businesses #and if they say they did they lie #lee rambles #i found a free unlimited one but you have to download the program and save everything locally #so it doesn't look like you cam collab with other people which defeats the purpose of what im trying to do 😭 #i wanted to use milanote or whatever its called because i liked how you can link separate pages to keep things clear/uncluttered #but i dont want to pay $12 a month i think it was? to put more than 100 items on the boards. that goes so fast #but i might have to use it and just cram things together in a messy fashion to not hit that limit...... #you can double the amount by referring people to make an account but still. i hate bekng limited #and being forced to pay to not have limits!!!! let me be free and only pay for advanced stuff i can live without for fuck sake #i dont know what im doing. but im making an attempt to business or something

[antirepurp]

girls who would not fit into a ps1 game

#soda offers you a can #i've done some of the jankest shit to axe the tri count as much as i can muster rn #i watched like a vid on hardware limitations of ps1 and n64 that said a tri count of 590-620 was common and. well. yeag #that said im going for whatever the fuck the digimon games were doing and from like casual observation + the models i downloaded #i think those had a few more tris to them like in general? #at least like from what i've seen of digimon world 2 that game tends to chug when it busts out multiple models so ??? #idk i might try to cut out a bit more geometry tomorrow or something im getting eepy

[nbstevonnie]

literally hate when someone is like "it's easiest if you do it this way" and their way is the most fucking convoluted piece of shit i've ever come across

#i literally just want to install a mouse jiggler #instead of there being a simple .exe file there's all this stuff that is NOT an .exe file #readme says 'best way to install is using chocolatey' #okay so you want me to download another program to download your supposedly very simple program #fine. i'll look at this stupid chocolatey thing #chocolatey: ALSO doesn't have a stupid .exe file #chocolatey: install using powershell :) #I JUST WANT MY MOUSE TO JIGGLE WHY IS THIS SO COMPLICATED #like. i'm not computer illiterate #but computer people assume that people are exactly as computer literate as them and it drives me nuts #i can do things if you're clear about what you want me to do - but they often skip steps / assume you have certain knowledge as standard #once i've looked things up i often understand what they want me to do but that doesn't mean i don't find the whole process SO irritating #(and i literally want the mouse jiggler because i'm trying to download something ELSE that i had half-downloaded #when i left my laptop for five minutes and whoops :) turns out that my screensaver came on and stopped the download #and the download refused to continue from where it was so i had to start from the beginning :) #and it's a massive file and had taken an hour to get to halfway :)

[onepiexe]

couldnt sleept i am. so. yeah.

#logbook #still sick. idk whats happening to my body. #i AM on the mend tho i sound and feel much bebtter but. havent been able to sleep overnight and stay asleep for 3 days. #even if i wake up once or twice i can roll over and try again but noooo. #ok loser (semi affectionate) #also had an email from the nursery i applied to at the beginning of the month. finally. #turns out the lady was sick also (man) but then she asked me to download and send back my app 😭 #tbc i get shes sick but i also let myself laugh a little in mild despair. anyways i responded this morning and RESENT my same app and #resume. i renamed them again for her if thats helpful. #so thats a good sign. they havent filled the position yet. #im trying to go back to sleep but i guess i'll turn on another uki mc vod and rest a bit then get up. nap later. #miss everybody. i have felt so unhuman these last 5 days lol. #oh yeah also need to respond to mst today she sent me stuff abt the job at l*wes 😔🙄😶

[theygender]

I'm trying to find a decent cheap laptop but the way search systems work pisses me off. Searching "non chromebook" or "-chromebook" just makes the search results show exclusively chromebooks. Filtering to only show Windows 10 Home and Windows 11 Home operating systems still shows almost entirely Windows 10S and 11S which are fucking useless and usually mean the computer has shitty hardware. There's no way to filter out eMMC storage systems or refurbished computers. I'm going to commit a crime and it will be the fault of whoever nuked google's search capabilities and then decided to never set up the search settings on any other sites correctly in the first place

#rambling #ughhhh #emmc might be doable if i was just buying it for myself bc ill only be using it for schoolwork #but i was trying to find one my gf and i could both use and she has projects which involve graphic design and video editing #and emmc doesnt work well with large file sizes #maybe i could get her an external hdd desktop drive? #i dont know if those work well with emmc either tho and trying to google it just shows me results of people explaining the difference #i already know the difference between emmc and hdd! im trying to find out if i can use an hdd external drive with emmc storage! #windows s would be a fucking nightmare no matter what tho #it makes it so that you can only use edge as your browser and only download things from the microsoft store #which 1) fuck edge 2) we're definitely going to need to download some software or other thats not on the microsoft store #it can be turned off apparently BUT computers are usually only designed to use windows s to compensate for unsecure hardware #so. still not ideal #i DONT want a fucking chromebook or macbook or samsung book or whatever the hell else #if i wanted a fucking tablet with a keyboard i would simply buy a tablet and then buy a keyboard #i managed to find some gateway laptops that met the specs i was looking for #but every review was like 'dont buy this laptop i bought it and it immediately stopped working and then killed my family in front of me' #so. guess im not going with those ones #imma have to just either keep looking or compromise on something i guess #unless i could get an hdd external drive to work with an emmc laptop... #probably will have to ask my qpp about that bc she knows computers and google is not being helpful

[noxtivagus]

evening has come again huh

#🌙.vent #i'm really sorry for the vents lately but i need a way to let it out. & this. this is as far as i can go with that #i need to do better again i know i can i have to :') people waiting for me. others n me.... #last night i downloaded a game for my friend. for her. & then another friend i told her i'll reply before the day ends :< 'take your time' #she said but sob she opened up abt smth n i wna help i really do & fuck it just hurts too bcs i know the ppl around me are. struggling too #i try not to put others b4 myself if i'm struggling like rn but :< i hate the helplessness. wish i cld do smth more for you #i wish i could at least be enough to help them. for you for you whoever you are i would always be willing to make these sacrifices #i'm gna cry it's been so overwhelming lately bcs i'm filled with so much hope and despair simultaneously #what do i do? which do i choose? how do i decide? how am i supposed to do. enough. find a balance #n then other friends i haven't gotten to replying yet today bcs oh i'm too worn down right now n i hate it so much i'm sorry #& other than all the stuff i want to do for myself and for others there's also things like school n #it hurts you know? i'm very much aware i've been worrying my family lately. i can't. sleep properly. i can't bring myself to finish eating #:< n then it also gets overwhelming when i. look to better things. bcs it gen makes me v happy when. idk i feel inspired or creative or wtv #but it hurts when it's also simultaneously so overwhelming bcs it's so hard to do something with it #& thinking of good memories. how fleeting those moments were. how times have changed. but also of. of how more may come #but maybe. maybe only if i'm better. if i'm not this hollow husk of my usual self? fuck i know i'm too harsh on myself. unnecessary pressur #i'm more than it i know. but at times it's just so hard to feel better when i'm. 🥹 i really really don't want to be a disappointment. #for others n. for myself.... bcs i know as always in the future. wtf the fuck happens then. i do know that parts of me will never change. #wnvr i look into my past i'll always know that i deserved being more kind to myself. bcs i'm human too. #this empty feeling of being stuck somewhere being hope n my despair hurts v much bcs it's so contradicting & overwhelming #n i wish in these moments i cld be enough for my future self. n for those around me #i wish i was better at communicating! tell everyone i know how much i appreciate them! how much i wish they'd stay in my life #i wish i cld really just say but i'm afraid that my honesty might scare you away. so instead i hide. you probably don't feel the same nyway #crying it hurts i think past experiences have made me too used to people leaving. but i can't be vulnerable enough to be #soft enough to the extent of being so honest. i've been hurt before when i was kind n younger n naive sure but oh so innocent #struggling sad n it was so bad then that i. oh i remember how it hurt.... i refuse to let myself go through that extent of loneliness again #i wish though that. i could. revive my mind. my motivation my inspo my creativity hasn't exactly dulled but it's become more passive #am i afraid that if i really be myself then i'll be alone again? if i'm weird if i'm too honest n soft n. i don't know. #it hurts feeling like i'm stuck with being too little n too much at the same time. how do i. just be. enough. for you. for me. #it hurts i'm crying i'm sorry i'm so sorry fuck i'm so overwhelmed n lost i don't want to think right now it feels so empty n i'm tired

[inkskinned]

i got rickrolled today but it didn't work because i have adblocker installed, so youtube just told me i violated the terms of service. yesterday i was trying to edit a picture as a joke for my girlfriend, and google made me check a box to prove i'm human because i wasn't "searching normally".

it isn't just that capitalism is killing fun and whimsy, it is that any element of entertainment or joy is being fed upon by this mosquito body, one that will suck you dry at any vulnerability.

do you want to meet new friends in your city? download this app, visit our website, sign up for our email list. pay for this class on making a terrarium, on candlemaking, on cooking. it will be 90 dollars a session. you can go to group fitness, but only under our specific gym membership. solve the puzzle, sign up for our puzzle-of-the-month-club. what is a club if not just a paid opportunity - you are all paying for the same thing, which makes you a community.

but you're like me, i know it - you're careful, you try the library meetings and the stuff at the local school and all of that. the problem is that you kind of want really specific opportunities that used to exist. you are so grateful for libraries and the publicly-funded things: they are, however, an exception - and everything they have, they've fought tooth-and-nail to protect. you read a headline about how in many other states, libraries have virtually nothing left.

do you want to meet up with your friends afterwards? gift your friends the discord app. you can choose to go to a cafe (buy a coffee, at least), a bar (money, alcohol) or you can all stay in and catch a movie (streaming) or you can all stay in bed (rent. don't get me started) and scream (noise complaint. ticket at least).

you want to read a new book, but the book has to have 124 buzzwords from tiktok readers that are, like, weirdly horny. you can purchase this audiobook on audible! your podcast isn't on spotify, it's on its own server, pay for a different site. fuck, at least you're supporting artists you like. the art museum just raised their ticket price. once, they had a temporary exhibit that acknowledged that ~85% of their permanent art galleries were from cis white men, and that they had thousands of works by women (even famous women, like frida! georgia o'keefe!) just rotting in their basement. that exhibit lasted for 3 months and then they put everything away again.

walmart proudly supports this strip of land by the street! here are some flowers with wilting leaves. its employees have to pay out-of-pocket for their uniforms. my friend once got fined by the city because she organized a community pick-up of the riverfront, which was technically private property.

no, you cannot afford to take that dance class, neither can i. by the way - i'm a teacher. i'm absolutely not saying "educators shouldn't be paid fairly." i'm saying that when i taught classes, renting a studio went from 20 bucks an hour to 180 in the span of 6 months. no significant changes to the studio were made, except they now list the place as updated and friendly. the heat still doesn't work in the building. i have literally never seen the landlord who ignores my emails. recently they've been renting it out at night as an "unusual nightclub; a once-in-a-lifetime close-knit party." they spent some of those 180 dollars on LEDs and called it renovating. the high heels they invite in have been ruining the marley.

do you want to experience the old internet? do you want to play flash games or get back the temporary joy of club penguin? you can, you just need to pay for it. i have a weird, neurodivergent obsession with occasionally checking in to watch the downfall and NFT-ification of neopets. if i'm honest with you all - i never got into webkins, my family didn't have the money to buy me a pointless elephant. people forget that "being poor" can mean literally "if i buy you that toy, i can't afford rent."

you and i don't have time to make good food, and we don't have the budget for it. we are not gonna be able to host dinner parties, we're not made of money, kid. do you want some kind of 3rd space? a space that isn't home or work or school? you could try being online, but - what places actually exist for you? tiktok counts as social media because you see other people on it, not because they actually talk to you.

there was a local winter tradition of sledding down the hill at my school. kids would use pizza boxes and jackets and whatever worked, howling and laughing. back in september, they made a big announcement that this time, rules were changing, and everyone must pay 10 dollars to participate. when im not scared shitless, i kind of appreciate the environmental irony - it hasn't gone below 40. so much for snow & joyriding.

i saw a bulletin for a local dogwalking group and, nervous about making a good first impression, showed up early. the first guy there grimaced at me. "sorry," he said. "there's a 30-dollar buy-in fee." i thought he was joking. wait. for what? the group doesn't offer anything except friendship and people with whom to walk around the city.

he didn't know the answer. just shrugged at me. "you know," he said. "these days, everything costs money."

#spilled ink #warm up #“why did u tag it warm up” bc i wrote it off the cuff while drinkin coffee lol #btw the 30 dollar buy in for the dog walking is bc they pay the organizer a small pittance so she can #run fb ads and stuff and like she does put in a lot of work i don't mind paying her #but that's exactly what im fucking talking about like. #ppl can't afford to volunteer their time anymore and we all understand it!!! everything costs money for everyone! #like we didn't have to use to say ''do you mind paying me back for the stuff we ate'' #we used to be able to afford to feed our friends once in a while!!!

[elegyofthemoon]

Fe3H Ask Game: 12, 17

>:O thanks zorua !!!

fe3h asks

12. How many routes have you completed?

All!! And for that very reason!!! I refuse to play it again!!!!

As much as I'd love to replay the game, playing all 4 routes burned me out so bad I feel aversion towards the idea of trying the game again asdkfjh It's a good game though!! But I really don't need to be throwing an extra 250 hrs on that game 😅

17. Which route did you do first?

Azure Moon!! I think it's very much the reason why I'm so fond of the Blue Lions. Also because this was my first FE game, they hold a special place in my heart for dragging me into FE (shoutout to Ashe in particular. Saw that little guy and went I WANT THAT ONE!!!! and proceeded to jump into the series lolol)

After that I think I went Crimson Flower > Silver Snow > Verdant Wind ! I can't remember how I decided on this... I think I knew I wanted to S support Claude since he was like a BIG fave while I was playing but you know "save the best for last" so that's how Verdant Wind was my end (it was such a good way to end the game though!! How cool was fighting against all the ancestors of the nobles >:OOOOOO)

As for Crimson Flower vs Silver Snow. I'm guessing after Azure Moon I thought "hmm Edelgard....I want to understand you." and that's how I got in there. Silver Snow back to back with Verdant Wind was not very fun though since it felt v similar to each other (or ... they were actualy the same...? I can't remember clearly but I remember the plot being so similar.)

#answered #not that it matters but like i think id rank my enjoyment for the routes as like #azure moon > verdant wind = silver snow > crimson flower #zorua adorable #BUT ANYWAYS !!!! #yeah dude like i have 450 hrs on 3h total and im just >_> uh..... #ik i was super fixated on the game so i really was just clawing through lines and stuff #(and wasting way too much teatimes with faves) #(dude my switch gallery is STILL filled w 3h photos and i need to clear it) #(so i can get some engage photos but x - x) #anyways im not coming back to this game #i did think about looking into warriors three hopes but #i think when the game was first coming out i saw mixed feelings on the game so i was a little hesitant :I #but ALSO i didnt hear whether or not we learn anything new.... which is kinda what i want.... #gimme more lore.... how much more insane can it go.... tell meeeeeee #i still have the demo downloaded so i /could/ try and see how i feel there bu 🤷🏻‍♀️as of now no plans