#trump’s shitty bibles

[socialjusticeinamerica]

#never trump #republican assholes #traitor trump #crooked donald #republican hypocrisy #republican party #trump’s shitty bibles #conman #grifter #snake oil salesman #charlatan

[gayleviticus]

there's a bit of discourse online around richard hays, a famous conservative bible scholar who wrote a famous book about new testament ethics where he came down against homosexuality, having now changed his mind and coming out with a lgbtq-affirming book later this year

and some people are a bit frustrated at how much harm he's caused and that he can just change his mind and be forgiven etc. i get it, especially for people who are no longer christian and not invested in affirming Christianity being a good thing.

but i also feel like. there's such a culture online for calling for 'accountability' and not letting people get off scot-free, which is valid, especially in a society where people often get to be shitty w impunity (e.g. trump, musk). but also like... is not writing a big book directly rebutting his previous position a form of accountability? some famous evangelicals have changed their position at their end of their lives verbally but too late to make any change to their legacy; i think actively working to rebutt your past self is a big deal.

and secondly. i think what's important here is a significant, well-respected conservative christian scholarly voice defecting to defend the affirming position. that's a big deal. there are people w similar trajectories like james brownson, but he's pretty much entirely famous now for being affirming. Hays seems like more of a game-changer.

and so i feel like - while i respect people's right to be annoyed and frustrated with the damage he has done - it feels almost... self-centred to be focusing on the man himself? like bruh i dont care about his personal sins or righteousness, that's God's problem; I would much rather be rejoicing in another crack appearing in the armour of non-affirming Christianity. i would rather rejoice in the resurrection than waste time geting mad bc there never should have been a cross in the first place. there is more rejoicing over one sinner who repents than 99 righteous etc.

plus, Hays is hardly the ringleader of christian homophobia. he contributed a brick in the edifice, sure, but idk. i think getting too mad at the man himself is to exonerate an entire system built on homophobia, and to prioritise twitter grievance games over the actual tangible effect of his change of heart

#religion #queer christian #gay christian

[elekinetic]

unpopular opinion (?) people who try and defend jason annoy the FUCK out of me. yes he was mourning his girlfriend but also do these people honestly think he was a good boyfriend to her if she didn't go to him when she was struggling ????? do these people honestly fucking think that he was good to her, judging by how aggressive and possessive he was when he found out about the drug thing??? INSISTING that she wouldn't do that??? he was a bad boyfriend. point blank. he barely knew her at all.

not to mention that he is literally an 80s version of a trump supporter. that kid was bigoted and based all of his bullshit on HIS own religious values and no, it wasn't explicitly stated that he was racist or homophobic, but like. it's subtext (barely subtext actually imo. people need to open their eyes). he clearly was, or would've been explicitly shown to be if he had survived longer. jason was not and never will be a good person, we are not supposed to SEE him as a good person, we are supposed to see him as the shitty bigoted far right bible thumper asshole that he is. i really wish people would stop defending him.

also, i'm sorry if this was a bit unarticulate. im bad at wording things

no i get where you’re coming from. i generally agree with you, but i also think it’s more nuanced than that. he’s an archetype and representative of oppressive power structures, but he’s also an example of how oppressive power structures will harm the ppl they’re designed to uplift. his (comparatively limited) victimhood doesn’t excuse or alleviate the harm he causes as a conduit of oppression, but the way he’s written emphasizes that there are no real winners here, just a scale of losses. the tragedy of jason is that he drank the koolaid that was spoon fed to him. jason wasn’t irredeemable at the beginning of the story. fuck, he wasn’t halfway through! there was time to unlearn, time to amend. but people told him he owned the world and it led to his own undoing. you don’t need to empathize or sympathize with jason—he caused and perpetuated real, tangible harm and represents some of the most hurtful parts of the world. but i think what he represents is really interesting. 

also like he wasn’t a great boyfriend, but he was also sixteen. i understand why he didn’t believe that his sweetheart head-cheerleader doe-eyed girlfriend was buying drugs, especially given the way eddie leaned into his own reputation and the way ppl thought abt drugs in the 80s (reagan era, remember?)

he’s the kind of racist/misogynist that makes harmful assumptions, but he’s not the overt, out loud and proud kind. that’s billy hargrove. dude said “those people.” jason votes for bush. billy votes for trump.

I think there’s a lot more nuance to jason’s character than people give him or the duffers credit for, and honestly I think his character and what he represents is one of the most interesting parts of season four

[shiftythrifting]

2/2 Tukwila Value Village

1. The perfect bowl for shitty pissys

2. Commerative wine glass from a Trump sponsored 10k/wine event with the most dog whistley of names. There was a set of 4

3. Somebody printed these out and framed them, peep that bible verse that doesnt seem to have to do anything with what else is on it.

4. Honestly held it sideways thinking maybe it was Korean but nope

5. Uh.

6. Their eyes haunt me

7. Baby Jackalope

8. Piss Orb

9. This shirt my wife found.

10. Honestly would have taken it if I still had my record player

#thrifting #shiftythrifting #submission #jesus #piss orb #la chancla #shirts #music and video #decorative plates #religion #wood #in frames #alcohol mention #tw: child abuse #piss orbs

[fipindustries]

you know it is a little unfair (albeit inevitable) that on top of all other priviledges white straight cis men get, they also have the priviledge of being conservative without being questioned why.

like a white man can be a conservative because that is what they believe in and will get the basic courtesy of people engaging with their arguments, stupid as they might be. if i come across a trump supporter i might try to argue why trump is a shitty human being, if i come across a libertarian i will try to explain why goberment regulation and welfare is actually good for the economy, if i come across a religious person i will try to argue why the bible is not a historically reliable text

but a minority person that is conservative more often than not doesnt get the courtesy of being engaged on the basis of their arguments. they cant just believe in what they believe in, they cant hold these thoughts simply because they genuenly think them to be true. a gay person who is a conservative cant just be a conservative, the fact they are gay HAS to be involved in the conversation somehow, usually people will center on psychoanalizing their self hatred or insecurities or monetary incentives and i imagine that must be extra infuriating for them.

#they are still idiots ofc #like at the end of the day they ARE voting for the leopards eating faces party #but to be honest so are most conservatives who are not rich its all different forms of deluded self destrcution

[stephenjaymorrisblog]

This Moment in History

June 9, 2023

Stephen Jay Morris

©Scientific Morality

Written documents like this are photos, frozen in time at the very moment of their inception. Through these, I can reflect on the past or the present. The future, of course, is unknown. In my current moment in time, the former U.S. president, Trump, will be indicted in some federal court for crimes he committed. Now, on the cyber bulletin-board, Twitter, his followers are raging. The formal indictment will take place in federal court in Miami, Florida this coming Tuesday. His followers are calling for a massive protest. I couldn’t even guess how it would turn out. Will there be a low turnout? Will there be a violent riot?  Will there be a counter demonstration? How about a police riot? Maybe nothing will happen at all. It’s a game of wait and see. I am sure glad I am a mere Homosapien and not omniscient, like God. Every tomorrow is a surprise to me. If I was God, I would have knowledge of every future event. I do pity God. He must live forever—a prisoner of infinity.  Me? If I am lucky, I’ll live until I am 85, maybe 93 tops. I can feel pain, pleasure, boredom, anger, love, sickness, good health, hunger, horniness, hatred, and envy. I embrace my mortality; I do not resent it. I was nonexistent before I was born, and I’ll be nonexistent after I die; which brings me to my next point…

Pat Robertson, founder of the Christian conservative movement, has died. You know the old expression: Only the good die young. Well, Pat was 93 when he kicked the bucket—a long life. He started the Trinity Broadcast Company, by which he had some TV show called “The 700 Club.” His voice was suave but came off as a mush mouth. He had this chuckle that sounded like a sociopath laughing after having killed someone. He was a fake Christian. His followers would put their hand on their TV sets and pray for their salvation, then they’d send him money! I think that’s what’s known as grifting. It’s bad enough that of most his followers were exploited by Capitalism and taxes, but God picked their pockets, also! Most of these pastors tell their parishioners that giving money to them is equal to giving money to God. Yup! That’s the scam!  You don’t need a pastor. All you need to do is to read the fuckin’ bible! Unless you’re some wealthy individual, you don’t even need an accountant; you can do your own taxes!

Early this month, Canada had some big wildfires burning across its southern forests, similar to when Australia did. Canada always sends us rain and snow, and other shitty weather. They also send us their social deviants like Steven Crowder and Gavin McInnes. “The Proud Boys” was started by some Canadian Illegal Alien!  “America First,” my ass! Well, guess where Canada’s toxic, wildfire smoke ended up? Throughout the Northeast Coast!

One morning last week, I went outside. At first, it was like a foggy day. Soon, the sky was an eerie orange, like Trump’s face, and there was an odor in the air like a fireplace in Poland. Smoke! I quit smoking six years ago, and here I was inhaling this exceedingly, unhealthy smoke again! I thought the Catskill Mountains were on fire. Pamela went to the post office and learned that the smoke was coming from fires in Canada. She said the employees advised that we stay indoors and close our windows. News reports soon related that the air over the entire northeast region was at an exceeding high, unhealthy level. New York City was featured in the news as having been engulfed in smoke for over three days. The New York Yankees game was canceled.

Was this a sign of God’s wrath against the Christian Nationalist heretics? I am an Agnostic, so I can pose a question like this. If it wasn’t, it was certainly a coincidence! The sky turned orange, Pat Robertson dies, and Trump gets indicted.  Hmmmm! Makes you think…

#stephenjaymorris #poets on tumblr #american politics #anarchism #anarchopunk #anarchocommunism #baby boomers #anarcho punk #anarchoindividualist #anarcho syndicalism #anarchocapitalism #anarcho communism #anarcho nihilism

[supersanderman]

Musicals and Gender Identity

My friends and I have been able to bond over a variety of things and one of them is musical theatre. I was a theatre kid growing up, although I had a very shitty director who treated his students like garbage, including me. I was only cast in two shows, blamed for breaking a spotlight he broke, lied to, and manipulated and it made me never want to do theatre again. But there’s something about Broadway and being able to blast a good musical number that makes all of your problems go away. And Broadway in particular also has been able to tackle some of the most pressing issues and themes in some of the best ways possible. One of my favorite shows is Rent with its rock style of music and deep themes such as living with HIV/AIDS, much of its songs like the titular title song “Rent” and “La Vie Boheme” act as commentary on the world and its priorities. Two lines in the show from the song “Finale B” hit very close to home, “Forget, regret, or life is yours to miss,” and “Give in to love or live in fear.” I have sometimes let the past dictate my life and I feel that now as I write this I continue to fight my past instead of growing and facing it. This especially comes through in grappling with my own queer identity, as for so long I didn’t know what I identified as, and my learning so late in life makes me question myself. Even now with my demi boy or masc-leaning non-binary identity, I still continue to question and wonder if I am satisfied with who I am. As for giving in to love, well, I think people need to look around. Drag shows and trans youth aren’t going to be the death of people. Guns are. Yet with republican lawmakers, many are willing to live in fear because they aren’t willing to give in to the principle of love and care for fellow humans. I especially despise when people use the bible as a means of going against LGBTQ youth, because religious freedom doesn’t mean the freedom to impose your religion onto others. There is a song from the musical “The Prom” which satarizes the idea of using the bible as a means to be anti-LGBTQ, insisting the rule that trumps the others in the bible is “Love Thy Neighbor.” Other LGBTQ musicals I love are Falsettos which focuses on queer relationships and HIV/AIDS in New York while also focusing on toxic masculinity and family dynamics and Kinky Boots which follows a failing shoe factory which switches to making boots for drag queens to stay in business. In Kinky Boots, the part of Lola was originally played by Billy Porter who I absolutely love. Other musicals such as Strange Loop which just opened focus on intersectionality and looks into the experience of a queer black individual. While I personally have not seen the show, I have heard nothing but rave reviews. I am also a sucker for Hamilton, which has a primarily POC cast. I personally missed broadway during COVID and feared that the pandemic would be the death of theatre. I saw Beetlejuice in fall and it was the first show I had seen in almost 3 years, and it was absolutely incredible. And even that show wasn’t afraid to poke fun at political and social issues. It was so refreshing to see a show after so many years of missing live theatre, and it has continued to inspire me to want to write my own show, potentially based around my own experiences. 

Speaking of my own experiences, it's finally time to detail the last piece of my identity. To start I have always felt that I didn’t fit the male gender, due to my being the complete opposite of certain stereotypes and typical traits. I never really felt that I was truly male, but I also never really felt truly non-binary. I felt that occasionally I felt more like a guy but other days I felt more gender-neutral. I didn’t know how to place my feelings until one day when a person in my section said some extremely sexist things and I finally went to my big and said, at this moment, I just don’t feel like a man, I don’t like men, and I don’t want to associate my gender with them because it's not me. They directed me to a new micro-label, demi boy, somewhere in the grey zone between male and nonbinary. I now feel so free, as some of my friends use they/them pronouns when referring to me. I definitely now feel more comfortable in my own skin, and I feel more masc-leaning nonbinary now more than anything, although I’m still comfortable with demi boy. I’ve realized more than ever that gender is fluid, and I have lived through that fluidity. It’s a beautiful thing really, and I’m thankful for finding an identity that fits me. 

[self-loathing-angel-of-thursday2]

Beautiful Spouse’s Thoughts SPN 12x08

LOTUS

“REALLY? Lucifer of the United States? Oh my god”

Laughed at the DeanCasCrowley interaction

“If you were going to pick the lock, you probably wouldn’t want to ring the doorbell first”

“That cross isn’t upside down”

“Did this happen within the last 10 minutes or something?”

“Called it but it’s not like they didn’t give it away though”

“Can’t he just swap?” Reference to the Bible burning his hand

“Yeah, they went there. *sigh* they should have stayed out of the politics”

“Nice” to Crowley smooshing the guy

LAUGHED AT LOUD to Rowena’s reaction

“Feels like you’re boning the devil?”

“Something’s changed because your going to birth the antichrist or something”

“pregnant”

“Isn’t this like the 2nd time ever that they’ve been pulled over?”

“The cop would never pull in front”

“Who is this classy motherfucker?”

“Little surprised they didn’t use a Rolls Royce but a Bentley is good enough”

“Turning into some James Bond shit?”

Laughed at Kelly’s reaction to Rowena, Cas, and Crowley

“Shitty smoke detectors”

“I really hope they don’t do the whole Donald Trump trope. That’d be really lame, because he was a really convenient excuse for a lot of dumb writing. I hated the Motherfucker just like the next guy, but Jesus Christ”

“Another day at the office”

“I thought he was supposed to go into the egg”

“He went through a vent? How do you know that you got him?”

“Maybe they’ll cut Sam’s hair before they put him in federal prison”

#beautifulspousewatchesspn #supernatural #supernatural s12 #supernatural rewatch

[fjordfocused]

.

#lol yall remember when the DC police used tear gas and armed force on a group of protesters #just so Trump could get a shitty photo op outside a church with his megacool bible. #i'd like you all to continue to remember that while people storm the capital with minimal pushback #all i'm gonna say about This Shit. stay safe.

[mrmallard]

There's a lot of talk rn about how The Satanic Temple are making headway in protecting abortion under religious freedom laws, and on one hand it's like "fuck yeah satanism rules" in a funny irreverent way and it gives people hope in a hopeless situation and stuff - but on the other hand, there's more to The Satanic Temple to consider before jumping headfirst into representing their party line.

This isn't a knock against Satanism, like I live in a culture that's been heavily influenced by Christianity and I value the philosophical and satirical values of Satanism as a counterpoint to a powerful institution that informs my day to day life. I'm interested in Satanism.

Rather, this is a knock on The Satanic Temple as an organisation.

I follow a blog called queersatanic who's one of four people being sued by TST. They've basically been hit with a SLAPP suit, and in lieu of having anything to go forward with, The Satanic Temple are stretching the case out for as long as they can to inconvenience these people. queersatanic does a lot of coverage on TST.

Here's the thing about The Satanic Temple:

They fucking suck in court, and they pull stunts like this to get eyes on them for the sake of getting more funding and more members.

This whole "abortion as a satanic ritual to use religious freedom laws against the people abusing them for conservative means" angle is a fun thought, but there's no precedent in practice. The Satanic Temple has gone to court twice about this, and they've lost both times.

And yet they advertise on this idea, like "become a Satanist to have an abortion under religious freedom laws!", despite knowing full well that's not a reality yet. It might never be a reality, because they keep losing in court.

If they can do that? That's a net good. I'm not shitting on the ploy itself, if it goes through I'm going to be happy. But for all their bluster, it hasn't happened yet and they've already tried twice.

The reason why this is such a sticking point is because they have a history of being litigious for the sake of bothering others, or to get attention. As much as it might serve a noble end, this is free advertisement in the same way their failed Sabrina lawsuit was.

Much like the Chilling Adventures of Sabrina lawsuit over the Baphomet statue, I think this is a publicity ploy. It's a scummy org using the situation as a recruitment drive.

Here's why I think that's the case.

A while back, The Satanic Temple tried to advertise that by joining the temple, your right to reproductive health would be guaranteed under religious freedom laws. The billboard company they went to said that they wouldn't put the ads up, because they weren't accurate.

The Satanic Temple sued them on the grounds of religious discrimination.

They tried to advertise under false pretenses, and they sued when they weren't allowed to. And it got them a bunch of coverage.

queersatanic and a bunch of other people are kicked out and sued for making pro-BLM posts on TST accounts? Not a peep. One is good publicity, one is bad publicity.

Speaking up about their efforts to make abortion a religious "ritual" in the wake of Texas's criminalisation of abortion? Good publicity.

Like I don't doubt that they want abortion being a religious freedom under the TST to be the case, and if they can get this through the courts, it's undeniably a blow to the religious right who've criminalised abortion. But I don't have faith in The Satanic Temple, because I think they're a shitty org doing this for attention and potential revenue than anything else.

And on that note - Doug Mesner, known professionally as "Lucien Greaves". One of the co-founders of The Satanic Temple.

In 2013, he was on a podcast to discuss a reprinting of a book called Might is Right. This book is popular in white supremacist circles, and The Satanic Bible - a book attached to an earlier form of Satanism known as LaVeyan Satanism - takes a lot from it. You can read about this podcast here.

During this podcast, a man named Tom Metzger comes on and starts dropping a ton of antisemitism.

Tom Metzger was in the KKK. I say "was" because he died recently.

He explicitly says "if you're Jewish, I'm not breaking bread with you", then starts talking about bloodlines. Doug Mesner tries to defuse the situation by calling himself an Aryan king, and then lets his co-host's wife talk at length, uninterrupted, about how she thinks the Holocaust is overstated.

Later on, Doug Mesner begins talking about eugenics, which he supports. His co-host's wife starts dropping blatant racism towards black people off the back of this. No-one moves to refute this or be like "woah", they just let this shit air out.

This co-host was Shane Bugbee, who's a co-founder of The Satanic Temple with Doug Mesner.

So we have a guy shilling for a book that's big in white supremacist circles, talking to a KKK member about holocaust denial and how it's okay to hate jews - direct quote from Doug Mesner, by the way - who also expresses support for eugenics. We have another guy whose wife is a virulent racist and holocaust denier.

These men started the Satanic Temple. These are its figureheads. And they can say "that was in 2013, I'm not like that any more" - but they had a pro-eugenics website up until 2017, and they kicked four people out of the group and sued them on trumped up charges following a string of pro-BLM posts made on social media. Those four people are still in court.

And like I get it - the thought of a group using religious freedom laws to legalise abortion is a beacon of hope in a very dark time for reproductive rights. But I'm making this post because people should be more informed on The Satanic Temple. It's a measure of hope, and I don't blame people for latching onto it. But this is a situation where you should look behind the curtain a bit.

Like I said before, I'm cool with Satanism. This isn't a refutation of Satanism - I think it's a really cool philosophy, and I think the stated goals of progressive satanic orgs are great.

Satanism makes for a great troll against the religious right, and you can use Satanism to criticize and dissect institutional religion. And yet there's nothing explicitly theistic or anti-theistic about Satanism - it's not a cheap trick you can pull to justify bigotry, though I'm sure that there are people who do. Satanism is basically a postmodern take on religion. I'm into that.

But The Satanic Temple has a lot of baggage that people should know about. This push to make abortion a religious act is one way of fighting a tyrannical piece of legislation that's completely fucking evil, but let's look at The Satanic Temple's track record. Because it belies a shallowness, a kind of shock-jock mentality, mixed with hypocrisy.

Love the action, hate the org. That's my stance on this, and this post has been an explanation of why I feel this way.

#antisemitism cw #racism cw #satanism #the satanic temple #long post

[whitehotharlots]

It’s all religion, and it’s all profane

Over the past few days I have delved, rather pointlessly, into the messy scenery of the UK’s ongoing gender wars. My interest was equal parts morbid and academic. I hoped to answer two questions. First, why is the back-and-forth between trans rights advocates and gender critical feminists so vicious in the UK, culminating not just in the threats and recriminations found in the war’s American iteration, but in women being blackmailed and even arrested. 

The second question is why is it even happening? That is, why is the UK in particular a hotbed for an ideological war of this type among liberal-identifying people, while in the US the feminist movement has accepted trans ideology more or less uniformly and with minimal pushback. My first inclination was that it was a matter of professional survival. Perhaps academic jobs aren’t as precarious in the UK, meaning that it’s somewhat safer for people to issue heterodox opinions. But, again, the viciousness of the first question seems to rebut my assumption in regards to the second. Losing your job is bad, but going to prison is worse.

Of course, I found no clear answer to either question. UK academe is utterly unknowable to an American who’s never experienced it. I found out what “O Levels” means but after that I got kind of lost. As much as a shitty lie our myth of academic meritocracy might be, the UK makes us look like a Dutch Montessori school run by doctrinaire Quakers. If your first name isn’t proceeded by Lord, Lady, or Sir, or if you don’t have a number after your name that’s at least as high as The Fourth, there’s not much of a chance you’re going to get yourself a gig within Oxbridge.

So I delved into the viciousness, and oh boy did I get what I was looking for. The English are renowned for their dry, cutting humor, but that’s because only the best of the best come into the American purview. The majority of pedestrian UK humor is a sort of sarcasm without jokes. Like, let’s say you brought home a sausage pizza. I asked you what the topping was and you said “It’s pepperoni, mate.” And then you opened it up and it was sausage and that made me confused and slightly pissed. That’s the extent of the comedic ability of your average Brit.

The fights, meanwhile, are more direct and blunt, really a sight to behold. Again, there’s no attempts at humor, which tend to accompany the verbal conflicts of Americans. When Americans fight, we’re usually doing it to try and get the people around us to think we’re cool. When UK people fight, they just want to hurt the other person.

Of course, there’s much in common between the US and UK iterations of gender discourse. Minor disagreements are regarded as violence, hyperbolic overstatements of harm are routine, and person who uses terminology that was considered progressive up until very recently can find themself labeled a Nazi for not making linguistic adjustments quickly enough. But it’s still somehow even more rancorous in the UK. You get a sense that they’re not in it just for online clout but out of a desire to cause real, physical harm to members of the other side. 

One of the more salient aspects of UK arguments is how their insults will often consist of a simple description of a person. Sometimes you’ll get “fat” or “snaggle toothed” or something most of us would consider mean. But other times it’s like “you blonde cunt” or “you working class shite” or something else that us Americans would never regard as an insult. Mentions of religion are surprisingly common. They say “you Catholic bigot” as opposed to “you bigot,” or “you deranged Protestant” instead of “you freak.” 

This really struck me. You’d never, ever see that in America. Firstly because it’s taboo (unless it’s a Republican talking about Muslims). Secondly, because we simply do not care. Your average religious American cannot articulate any meaningful difference between Catholics and Protestants. We have no need to, because as much as we love Jesus we don’t bother with any of the messy parts of religion, such as having a faint understanding of the faiths we claim to adhere to.

This, I have always felt, is the greatest folly of New Atheism. What are you gonna do, present a scientific case demonstrating the absurdity of the creation myth? You gonna stick solely to the bible and highlight its multiple hypocrisies and contradictions? What is that gonna achieve? These people had Donald Trump autograph their bibles. They think salvation can be purchased by giving 20% of their paychecks to millionaires who preach in stadiums. There’s nothing an outsider can do to profane their religion that’s more obscene than the manner in which they practice it.

(I recall a time in my mid-teens when I attempted to “A-ha!” a youth pastor with my knowledge of the story of Jephthah from the Book of Judges, who committed yahweh-approved ritualistic sacrifice of his eldest daughter. In response, the pastor informed me that he hadn’t read that part of the bible, and that his relationship with Jesus was more about the feelings it gave him than some words written down in an old book. Needless to say, he won the argument.) 

The UK is, even now, broadly to the left of the US in regards to their social safety net and most cultural matters (this is a low bar, for sure, but they do clear it). Perhaps people who us Americans would identify as liberal (in that they don’t openly want to murder poor people; they’ll often still do it, but they won’t giggle while doing it) aren’t as ideologically siloed over there. The Democratic party is, after all, an unworkable mishmash of a few dozen different concerns, and their basic strategy since the Clinton era has been to blame the incompatibility of those concerns for the fact that their governance is indistinguishable from that of the GOP. 

An American liberal therefore doesn’t focus on piddling things like principles or ideals or even whether or not a policy they support does the exact opposite of what it’s supposed to achieve. Paying too close attention to the workings of our coalition will reveal its manifest contradictions, which will in turn weaken it, and if gets too weak then we’ll once again have an evil fascist doing the exact same stuff that a good and honorable man like Joe Biden is presently doing. Instead, we must understand politics as a means of achieving self-actualization through the process of deferring our concerns to others. Those concerns are not addressed within the present system, no, and neither are our own, but worrying about cause and effect and results is not the point. It’s much more important to exist, to validate, and to listen. 

In the UK, politics is still understood as politics. It is a means of gaining and exercising power. In the US, politics falls eerily in line with our profane understanding of what religious devotion entails: an acontextual, borderline illiterate expression of ourselves, which we have been trained to believe connects us to some kind of higher power that unifies us as humans by calcifying our utter disconnectedness from one another. 

And so maybe that’s the difference? In the UK, people are delusional enough to think that politics is entered into by people who have something to gain or lose. In the US, it’s all about vibes.

[thedramaclubs]

Changing lives (reprise)

Summery: Roman and Remus get the rest of the reviews and it was horrible that it closed their show. They soon meet one of their old friends and Remus’s husband meets them and soon they find something on Twitter to change their lives

Ships: Logicality, Prinxiety, demus/dukeceit

When their singing

Remus-green

Roman-red

Janus-orange

C!thomas-pink

All-purple

“The rest of the reviews are in! New York post, associated press, New York times” exclaimed Joan with ther phone in the air everyone started to get excited and looked on their phones as Roman and Remus are about to listen to how great their musical is........or so they thought.

Everyone’s faces changed to a sad and disappointed look and started leaving

“What? What’s happening?” said Roman as he watch everyone look at him and his brother in sadness.

“This is not a review anyone wants when you have shitty advance sales. This is gonna close us” said Joan

Roman gasp and Remus was shocked “What didn’t they like was it the hip hop?”

“Yeah but not that”

“For gods sake sakes Joan read it.” The twins sat down as Joan read the horrible reviews.

“Ok here’s the highlights, “Remus Allen’s FDR might just be the most insulting misguided, offensive, and laughable performance that this reviewer has ever had the squirming misfortune to endure. Emphasis on the insulting because he try to make him self look like that he was trying to give me intrusive thoughts about FDR.”

“That’s how I normally look what the hell?!?!”

“I mean it’s not so bad” said Roman as he played with his dress

“DO HIM ALREADY!!” “What I’m just saying.”

“Watching Romans Eleanor Roosevelt, corking out a heavy-handed message of activism, is like paying an aging drag queen to shove a syurp-soaked American flag down my throat. And also Eleanor should have been played by a women”

Roman was on the verge of tears “Thats not criticism that’s a personal attack.” His voice cracked and Remus hugged him as he shed a tear

“If your considering buying a ticket to the show do yourself a favor. By a few feet of good heavy rope instead and then go hang yourself”

“Holy fuck, oh god, poopy. Was the show that bad?”

“It’s not the show it’s you two. Your just not likeable.”

“What?” They said simultaneously

“Nobody likes a narcissist.” They sat in silence over what they just heard. “Leave it to me I’ll go and try to change the narrative once again” Joan then left the twins alone in the bullding

“I hate this world” “this just hurts my heart, Where did everybody go?”

They talked over each other as the walk to the bar to find a man in a pink suit. “What can I get ya?” said the man “Yola mezcal blackberry smash” said the twins at the same time. “My condolences Roman. But remember you do have friends” said the man making their drinks.”

“Thank you. Who are you?”

“Thomas Sanders.......we’ve done five shows together.”

“Ugh Thomas went to Juilliard and won’t shut up about.” Whispered Remus as he told Roman “Oh right Thomas. Thomas haha....... why are you dressed like waiter?” I’m in between gigs at the moment. Honestly Roman I feel adrift as i did in my days before Juilliard” Remus proceed to chug a drink that was on the table as Thomas continued to talk about Juilliard and the two were just over it.

“Still I have played hamlet and I’m still known as that guy from the beloved early aughts sitcom “Talk to the hand” I question everything about my existence” As he continues to rant about the past what they didn’t notice as a man in a golden sequiny dress with a black hat and a yellow ribbon tied on it with long golden brown hair walking their way

“Hey guys!”

Roman and Remus turned around to see Janus Allen, Remus’s husband

“Jannie!!!” Remus picked up Janus and spun him around and soon dipped him into a kiss which turn into a make out session. “Ahem I know you two lovebirds haven’t seen each other all day but can it wait we’re still here ya know.” They both looked at Roman and giggle a little from embarrassment “Sorry your show closed on opening night again. Welcome to the world of the unemployed,hit me up next.”

“I thought you were in Chicago?” asked Remus “I totally didn’t quit just now 20 years in the chorus and still wouldn’t let me play Roxie Hart and now their letting Tina Louise play her” “That bitch is still alive” said Remus as he chugs another drink

“We’re wasting our lives.” Said Roman as they are all slightly drunk “Ok I refuse to give up we’re still celebrities we still have power.” “Yeah well The Times casted you out” said Thomas as he poured another drink “Yep they wrote you off as aging narcissist and I’m only allowed to call Remus that.” “I still don’t understand what’s wrong with that.” Said Roman as he drinks even more. “You know what we will become celebrity arsonist.” “Babe it’s call celebrity activist we are not burning down another building like last time.” “Ok everyone think of causes.”

“Poverty”

“World hunger”

“Too big we need something we can handle”

“Let’s see whats trending” said Janus “Trump, trump, trump, ooo how about this boy he’s all over Twitter. His names Patton Heart. He’s from edgewater, Indiana. He’s gay. He wanted to take his boyfriend to the highschool prom and the pta went apeshit and canceled it.”

We are now in Edgewater, Indiana and Patton Heart is watching the head of the pta, Mrs Green being interviewed. “We have very strict rules for prom. Young ladies must wear non-revealing dresses. Young men must wear suits or tuxes. And if a student chooses to bring a date it must be of the opposite sex” “Can’t you just ban this student?” “Well we’ve been advised that there may be some legal repercussions if we prevent this boy from attending so although it breaks my heart we have no choice to cancel prom.” We move to Mr Virgil Hawkins the principal “The first thing I’m going to do is contact the state attourney this is not about school rules this is a civil right case.” “Wait seriously?” Said Patton. “Yes and if word gets out people will get mad and next thing you know some modern day Eleanor Roosevelt is gonna come and hell’s gonna break loose.”

We move back to New York “We got to go down their and raise holy hell” exclaimed Roman “We’ll be the biggest thing to happen to Indiana since........whatever’s happen in Indiana are you with me!?!” Said Remus as he and Roman start stand on top of a table they all cheered “We’ll get Joan to tag along to find us a venue” “I just book us a non-union tour of Godspell and I goes through Indiana we can ride on the bus.” Said Thomas “Can we do this guys” Said Janus “You bet your sweet MILF ass we can jannie”

🎶 We are gonna prove that in this day and age being gay isn’t a crime. This is out moment to change the world one homo 🎶

🎶Homo🎶

🎶Homo 🎶

🎶Homo🎶

🎶At a time🎶

🎶 we’re gonna help that little homo, whether he likes it or not, when your a legendary thespian 🎶

🎶First you help the distressed 🎶

🎶Then you help the distraught🎶

🎶We’re gonna go to where the necks are red and lack of dentistry thrives, Why sing and dance when you can take a stance🎶

🎶And know your truly changing lives. We’re gonna March until that town looks like the end of act one in les mis. You don’t gotta have a Ph.D in psych to know that people kowtow to the folks in the biz🎶

🎶We’re gonna teach’em to be more PC the minute or group arrives🎶

🎶That’s right🎶

🎶Those fist-pumping🎶

🎶Bible-thumping🎶

🎶Spam-eating🎶

🎶Cousin-humping🎶

🎶Cow-tipping🎶

🎶Shoulder-slumping🎶

🎶Tea-bagging🎶

🎶Jesus-jumping🎶

🎶Losers and their inbred wives. They’ll learn compassion🎶

🎶And better fashion🎶

🎶Once we at last start changing lives!!!!🎶

🎶Now let’s go help that dyke🎶

People to tag/ @artissijules

This took a long time to write

#sanders sides #logicality #thomas sanders #livy writes #janus sanders #roman sanders #remus sanders #c!thomas #demus #dukeceit #sanders sides the prom au #ts joan #prinxiety

[rae-arts777]

I want to talk about my religious trauma

I just want to tell my story, I know mine is minor, I know there’s worst out there, but I’m hoping maybe mine cause reach out to anyone experiencing the same so they feel less alone

Let’s start way back

Edit: (sorry I should have put this earlier) TW: slight sexual assault, self harm, suicide mention

Growing up a christian adventist, I knew Friday night to Saturday was worship. No electronics or TV unless it was veggie tales, or a Bible cartoon, and church Saturday.

Of course I acted out a bit, and would get scolded for not staying still. My mother however wasn’t upset at me for ruining church, just upset I wasn’t behaving and granted don’t blame her cause I was a brat lol. I would get in more trouble if I went with my grandma. I was “disrespecting the lord in his house” and well...I mean it’s hard for a child to sit still for 8 hours wearing a dress and shoes that made me itchy and gave me blisters

Now church was fun in some sense. Got to see my friends, food after services, I loved being able to help in the kitchen and help the elders as well.

Good right?

Well...as a child, we think what we know if right. I thought the way we had church was common to everyone. When I started school, it was different for me. I asked “why do my friends go to church on Sunday?” My grandma told me “they just don’t know the proper way, it’s your duty to tell them”

I remember...being really horrible towards a kid who’s family was an atheist. We were still friends, but I will tell him “you’re trusting the devil”. My words never seem to hurt him since he laughed them off, but I never stopped...I look back and have so much guilt. So much guilt towards others too since I tried to tell them church was Saturday’s, and going on Sunday was wrong. I think about how horrible I was, cause my religion never taught me to be accepting to others beliefs, it taught me that it’s my duty to turn others to the right way. And that makes me upset. If my religion was the religion of “accepting everyone no matter what” then why is every one else’s religion the work of the devil? And why are baptism, also who was Christians, deem “evil” like Catholics in our religion.

Middle school. I started attending the church school. Hell

I didn’t like our new pastor, something about the way he said things just...didn’t stick. His kids were a nightmare. They torment everyone. Got teachers fired they didn’t like. And went crying to their parents if they didn’t get their way. No they were not toddlers. They were teens. One got in between my old best friend and I, and since then her and I were never the same.

Because I liked art and anime...I was the weird kid, so they constantly picked on me. Pastor kids telling me certain kids here didn’t deserve to be made by god. That god made a mistake. I told them to stop, but they would go “you just don’t know. It’s hard for us!!! We don’t mean what we say!” And looking and writing this now, that was the first gaslighting and toxic friendships I experience.

It made me more mad the pastor told the whole church that his kids were perfect children. And they set an example of how all the kids in the church could act. That pastor family was just horrible. Lies, manipulation, just rude. He would make side remarks about my mum’s blonde dye hair. He would say something to my mum if I wore pants or a leather jacket to church. Just the way he said things, made my mum feel like she was a horrible parent. They made side comments when my dad would finally show up.

“I’m sorry my dad wasn’t constantly gone, he’s was too busy fighting for our country.” Is what they would want us to say.

Church become a chore. Not a joy. And when we got a new pastor, one I started to connect with, we moved away and in with my grandma

Now highschool. This is where I started drifting away from religion. I love my grandma..I really do ...but she’s so extreme. The Bible this. The Bible that. I can’t have a normal conversation without her being up the Bible. Can’t watch a movie, show, or listen to music that’s not Christian without her bringing up the Bible or turning it into a Bible lesson. I hated going to church. I hated hearing “repent. The world is ending soon”

Hearing constant that our young generation is filled with the devil, feeling all the eyes of the elders on me as I’m trying to comfort someone’s child so they can enjoy church peacefully

Hearing anyone experiencing love towards the same gender is the devil’s working

That everything I like is filled with the devil

My grandma start forcing religion worst and worst down my throat. Saying I have to be prepare. I need to make my choice. Don’t I want to be in heaven with everyone? I need to give myself to god

I won’t see my family members who passed away Catholic.

That I need to tell my other side of the family who’s Catholic the right way

The news comes on....hearing the Bible says this the Bible says that

Trying to defend trump with the Bible

This pandemic is the first plague, the world will end soon

The studies getting more and more. I can’t even read the Bible just to study out of joy cause I feel like someone is breathing down my neck.

I’m getting a headache just thinking about it.

And then I’m introduce the rotten apples of my religion.

We shouldn’t wear mask it’s God’s air

Only having faith is god will keep you from getting sick and heal you

Ever remember of LGBT is going to hell

Woman who abortion are going to hell

People will tattoos go to hell

People who don’t read the Bible everyday are going to hell

People who want to make this religion more open and accepting, are hearing the devil and are going to hell

People who kill themselves are going to hell

Mental illness isn’t real; it’s just the devil and you just have to be happy cause you have god.

I told my mom I can’t do it anymore, I just can’t, it’s more forced down on me too much. If the world is ending what’s the point? What’s the point of college? What’s the point of life? What’s the point of looking for love?! Cause I’ve been told so many times my own children won’t ever get to adult or teen hood cause the world will end! What’s the point. I’m so grateful to have a mother who understands..

And it pisses me out with these Christian movies. A boy is about to kill himself, and is getting told “you’ll go to hell! You really want that?! To go to hell?!” Why are you showing this?! That’s a last thing a suicidal person needs to hear. They don’t need a fucking Bible lesson, they need comfort!!! As a person who’s tried drowning, choking, and harming themselves, I fucking know I wouldn’t want someone to find me and say “you’re going to hell for that!”

And then you have those horrible people who think just cause they are religious that it gives them a right to be a shitty person. My grandma would fucking forgive a murder if they came out as Christian.

I told my grandma once “I do want to be more involved with the church, I want to give a sermon” and she told me “you can give a small one, not a full one, god did not use women to preach, he used men. I rather you do the children’s story”

.......

The Vice President...some Christians hate her cause “god didn’t intend for women to lead, if he did his apostles would have been women”

my grandma says “she slept her way to the top!” But oh! She didn’t mind if trump, a man who’s assaulted god knows how many women was in office...

Forgive everyone....you’re suppose to forgive abusers..my bullies....I was told to forgive them even if they never said sorry..cause god wants us to forgive

I allowed..a boy to convince me to do things...cause men always knew what was right...it was ok as long as we didn’t have sex...and it was ok...cause he was a Christian boy...

I just try to be a good human...I have sickenly forgave so many people who’ve hurt me....and now...I’m the pushover...

But what I did was wrong...

I’ve just....drifted away slowly...my grandma has sort of stop trying, maybe cause I’m an adult so I can make my own choices..maybe my mum told her something...

But the things she says makes me feel ashame for being Christian....

For the longest time I thought we were perfect people...now that I’m older...I see we’re just as bad..if not worst...

It makes me so sick...just thinking..how I forgave people who HURT ME cause ...if I can’t forgive, then God doesnt want me.

If god really wants all of his “children” then why if it when we says “I don’t want to forgive the person who gave me this trauma” then it’s “i forgave you why can’t you forgive them? It’s so simple, you really can’t do something that simple? Guess you don’t want to go to heaven”

I’m so done

I’m so tired..

I have a headache and started crying a bit while writing this and there’s so much more. But my wrist hurts and just...I want to scream.

But for the majority...that’s my religious trauma.

I’m not hoping to gain anything, just to reach to anyone else who’s going through the same emotions...you’re not alone ok?

#talk #Rae talks #serious talk #religious trauma #that’s my story #ex christian

[jimlingss]

What do you think about fan fiction? As an English lit student, I find the reaction towards fan fiction a bit hilarious sometimes because so much literature is ‘fan fiction’ of other pieces of literature, eg paradise lost is a fan fiction of the bible. I guess because a lot of ‘women’ and/or members of the lgbtqia+ community (not to be confused with iffany trump’s lgbqia+ community) write fan fiction so people don’t view it as legitimate and view it as something stupid and retarded. (1)

Anonymous said: Yes, a lot of fan fiction is bad and a lot of it has a lot of smut but 1) a lot of fiction that’s published now is bad and you have to distil it since people can self-publish anything, including bullshit 2) sex is a big part of life and while I’m not a fan of no plot smut, when it’s integrated realistically and in a nuanced way it becomes just a reflection of reality. When Orwell writes sex scenes in 1984 no one says anything, but when ‘others’ do it it becomes a problem (2)

omfgggg when did this blog become a critical commentary on social issues and perspectives ahhahaha. What do you think I think of fanfiction? I’ve been writing it for over four years, if I wasn’t on board then I’d be the one with issues LOL

okay on a more real note, I agree. It’s actually pretty fucking sad that fanfiction gets such a bad rep in main media. I get it though. There’s a LOT of shitty fanfiction out there, gross ones, badly written ones, literal incoherent ones. and they often get the limelight because it’s ALWAYYYS more fun to shit on something than to praise it. that’s why when youtubers ever read fanfiction, it’s the poorly written ones because that’s what’s gonna get the views. It’s actually also the reason I NEVER tell anyone irl I write fanfic because to me, I take it pretty seriously and I love it. But I know the general consensus out there is to be weirded out and to think it’s bad. Writing is personal to me so I don’t want to be insulted or have to spend time to justify it, hence I don’t ever talk about it.

Fanfic doesn’t even always have to include smut, taking me for example and so many other sfw writers I know and support. 

Anyway, everyone’s gotta start somewhere. It’s not like first time writers are gonna start off writing their own book and freaking publish it. And sometimes, people don’t want to start writing original characters of their own. Fanfics are AMAZING. it’s a great way to start. it’s a great way to combine writing with whatever you like most. In my case, I love BTS and I love writing - so to be able to combine those two, for me, it has always been a privilege.

#i understand why it has a bad rep #but I obviously do not agree with it #and it's actually pretty sad I have to somewhat be ashamed of it and unable to talk about how much I write or how passionate I am about cer #*Certain plotlines #but honestly that makes more appreciative of the people that DO understand #all the feedback and followers are readers that DO get it #i know the people i've surrounded myself in are the folks that are on board #anyway don't even get me started on the hatred of reader x member fic #lol I LOVE WRITING IN SECOND PERSPECTIVE #like making the READER a CHARACTER? #that's fucking GENUIS #a whole new level of immersion #i didn't even know it EXISTED prior to writing fics #fight me if you disagree #Jimlings #Anonymous

[shaekingshitup]

Shae’s First Date

For anyone who is bored: the most brief (that I can recap because ya girl is a lengthy heaux) summary of my first date goes as follows:

EDIT: THIS SHIT AIN'T BRIEF. SORRY NOT SORRY 🤷🏿‍♀️🤷🏿‍♀️ But I put a TLDR at the end.

I matched with a guy on Bumble who had some cool hobbies and some of which overlapped with mine. We talked daily for almost 2 weeks before we met up in person and the guy was a very big charmer/woo-er. Like if I was messaging this kid I was constantly laughing and smiling

Tbh this was a lil bit of a red flag to me becauae I'm like: "no one is this charming. Something has gotta be up" & I legit came up with a few different scenarios. But I chose to shelf them because people do that to me all the time.

Like I'm just a really loving person and I will gas people up or go out of my way to make them happy if I can and people always want to try me like that can't truly be how/who I am or if I'm doing it it's because I'm trying to get at that person and they are always wrong. All the way from best friends to new acquaintances I really just like when people are happy. I mean the world's shitty already, if I can make your day easier or put smile on your face I'm game!

So we're on the phone one night (stayed up to 3 am sacrificing my sleep talking to this dude 🙄) talking more about who we are as people, what we're looking for in an ideal partner, etc. I told him straight up both via call and via message that honesty is really important to me. I value honesty with myself and also with others.

So also in this late night call things got a lil spicy 🌶 🌶 I was honest and told him that I'm pretty much a blank slate. Never fucked/sucked, etc or had anything like that done to me. He was taken aback like everyone I share this with is. Apparently I'm some sort of unicorn 🦄 out here in these streets to all y'all hoes. He makes a comment about stealing a kiss from me the next night and I said "I might allow it."

But the point is. I told him what it was. I was honest. That's my truth.

I didn't tell him that I'd never been on a date/kissed anyone because he didn't ask. Maybe if I would've said something, things would've been different. But I can't "what if" what's already happened y'all!

SO, day of. We messagin and snapping. I'm allll ready. We're going to a drive in and I'd never been to one before so I'm excited. I'm also just committed to making this a good time because I easily get distracted and often don't stop to take my experiences in to experience them fully. So I said not today!!

I got snacks. All of his favs and some of mine. I brought drinks and a blanket. I looked good.

Like I said in my pre-date post: I didn't have any lofty ideas about this dude being my soul mate or anything but I anticipated a good time.

He picked me up at our designated location. My sister met him and got his license plate; because apparently I had enough sense to realize I didn't know this nigga but not enough sense to later realize I didn't know this nigga.

It wasn't gonna take as long to get to the drive in as originally anticipated. So we went to a local park and sat in the car and talked because the park was PACKED and ya know RONA!

It was somewhat awkward because it was our first time talking face to face. But we found a groove and I'm extroverted af y'all. So, I can get people to have a conversation.

Topics range from our days, music and conspiracy theories which he's really into. What kind? Like: Shakespeare wrote the Bible is one. A lot of people that we know from media aren't really the original ones that we were introduced to is another. Ya know like that Beyoncé is not the real Beyoncé. There's two Trumps. There's two Hilary Clintons etc.

So at this point sensible me is like: this can be the point where you go home girl. You're 5 minutes away from your place. You can just say this ain't workin and cut it short.

OPTIMISTIC/BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT GIVIN/NAIVE SILLY ME IS LIKE: well, I 100% don't agree with anything you're saying just because you're saying it. But ya know, I don't know everything and I'm not in the business of judging people-especially since we just met and I don't want this human to feel uncomfortable. So, okay. I don't agree. But I won't judge. Let's just continue on.

If you haven't guessed by now which me I listened to, you may be just as silly as I am 🙃🙃🙃

But obviously I continued on and that's what I call mistake #1

So we're driving to the drive in. I'm realizing we're kind of different in ways. Most notable is that dude was raised Jehovah's Witnesses and celebrates 0 holidays & I'm in love with Halloween and at least birthdays.

We miss the drive in entrance due to my poor navi skills & he decides to smoke before we pull in. He offers it to me and I accept. This is mistake #2

Ya girl hasn't smoked in 6 years. I tried edibles recently. But that shit ain't the same. I really just feel like I said I wanted to be present and then I smoked and I was tired and everything was kind of dull?

So I'm high and sleepy but still a lil excited because it's my first drive in!! We get there and park and the drive in is really just a giant protection screen we all park in front of. Lmao. 😅 Idk what I was expectin but not that. But it was still cool. It's 10 and this movie still hasn't started because the last one is still showin credits.

Dude says he wants to chill in the back but he's going to the bathroom. I AM SLEEPY. THAT IS WHAT WEED DOES TO ME. Plus I was on the phone til 3 AM. So I'm like imma close my eyes before this thing starts since it's already late.

So while he goes to the bathroom I legit laid down in the back on a pillow because ya girl is a sleepy heaux 😴

He comes back and pits the pillow in his lap and is talking to me because this movie ain't started yet. My eyes are closed but I'm listening and everything and he's massaging my shoulders and whatnot. Eventually advertisements about common courtesy come on and what not. But that's not important and I don't move.

Soo he says something I'M ASSUMING IT WAS ABOUT THE KISS (I don't remember y'all. I'm about to skimp on some of these details because that high was really kickin in and I was feelin foggy.) But, I said "I would allow it." And he kissed me.

It honestly felt anticlimactic as fuck. Yeah my mind is kind of foggy because of the weed so I feel like I wasn't as fully cognizant as I would have been if I was sober minded. But also, it just happened

I'm in my head af. I've never done this and I'm sure I'm shit at it but I'm trying not to be ya know? Dude's tongue is in my mouth. His hand is under my romper.

So, I'm a roll with the punches kind of human and the rest of the film we pretty much are making out (lowkey meh), groping (I hate this word) & watching Deadpool ( for people who needed that detail)

As previously stated, all of this shit is new to me. But, I'm also not a "prude". I chose not to kiss/fuck anyone prior to this because it was what I wanted for a period of time. I couldn't do much in the date department because I was just not approached often or by people I wanted to entertain. But the opportunities for all that physical shit were presented and I chose not to just like I chose to engage in those activities on this date. I'm real big on not judging nor regretting those choices because those were what I wanted at one point and that's it. Soo if you got opinions about what I was out here doin, keep em to yaself.

We ended up making out and I feel like it was cool.. but just not great. We did other shit minus actual fucking. But it all just felt pretty muted to me. Not bad. Not uncomfortable. Just not great and I think in hindsight it was because I a) really didn't know and have an established connection with this dude and b) I was high.

He really wanted me to suck his dick and I was really hesitant to do that. Not even that much because I was checking off a lot of "firsts' or anything like that but because I swore I was gonna be shit at it due to 0 experience and that was what I told him. Like, I wanna be good at shit and also I would like if the person I was hooking up with was actually enjoying being with me ya know? Is that not a thing? Y'all just be out here tryna get ya nut and say fuck it to whomever you with? Lemme be a unicorn then. 🦄

But anyways, I did this and he says like nothing. I'm in my head af trying to recall upon all of my BP smut I've read and trying not to suck at sucking (SO THANKS TO ALL OF Y'ALL WHO BE WRITING SMUT!!). After a few minutes the car turns off and Ryan Reynold's ain't talking anymore. Sooo I take this as a sign that I should stop and tell him as much.

He turns the car back on so we can still hear the movie & I'm pretty much like half watching the movie and talking to him like: "Soooo. I did that and I feel like I was right." To which he responds, "I've had worse," which is like ya know the compliment of the century and the most reassuring feedback you can give someone who is insecure about shit they've never done.

We still ended up making out and I gave him a handjob and finished the movie. I can't recall if it was at this point or when he drove me home but he basically implied that I was a liar and that is the shit that literally makes me wanna go back in time and tell former me to never say yes to a date with this nigga.

He drove me home and I was pretty quiet listening to Ari Lennox (💕) and thinking/processing. He gets to my place and we're talking now that we're parked and tells me that he thought I probably wasn't right about never having sex before. He told me I probably just had sex like 3 years ago and it had been so long that's why I said that and that's why my pussy is so tight.

So, I'm real life hurt. I like to consider myself to be someone who has a good character and I am really big on honesty.

So I asked him why he said that if I told him from jump what it was. He told me that his ex lied a lot and that he just couldn't believe me..

And I know for certain that his assumption was independent of any of my actions. He literally just told me so. He projected his insecurities onto me. But I'm a sensitive ass heaux and that shit still shook me. PBS raised me right. I don't be out here lyin & I don't like when people try to tell me who tf I am.

We pretty much just ended up arguing about the night and he was doing it on purpose because he thinks it's sexy when women are mad. But when I get mad, I get done. If I let enough shit slide and you have the audacity to try and flip my script, I will fucking write you out of it.

Then I looked up at the time and realized I was sitting in this car arguing with nigga for at least 25 minutes. So I was just like: bitch, why are you still here?

I told him straight up that when I got out of that car he could forget about talking to me altogether and he was like: "I'll let you know when I make it home."

I told him he need not bother because apparently I'd finally gained some damn sense. I exited the car. He left. He hit me up when he made it home but I just deleted the app and removed him off of snap because I meant that shit.

TLDR; Went on my first date with a conspiracy theorist I matched with on Bumble and he told me I lied about my lack of sexual history.

#bumble #first date #drive in #story time #short stime #i need my mutuals to pray for me #because lordt #deadpool #ryan reynolds #ari lennox #personal #mine #big time sigh #im sorry I can't add the keep reading tab on mobile tk!

[plethodontidae]

hi! here’s some news! donald trump literally does not care about you! he doesn’t care about me either! he’s not a “good businessman” he’s been bankrupt several times, he’s not a “patriot” him and his shitty ass father BOTH dodged the draft, he’s not a “good christian man” he’s held the bible upside down and mispronounced several books of the bible and proceeded to not fix his mistakes.

i’m sure you all could’ve figured this out by now, but this blog is anti trump. so please, if you support trump or his beliefs in any way, unfollow me, block me, do whatever the fuck you need to do to STAY AWAY from here.

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