#touken baby au

[monicaiskanekisproperty]

Dancing in the dark

Kaneki smiled and spread his arms weakly, pretending to have someone between them.

There was a pleasant song playing in the background and Kaneki was sitting on the hospital bed, looking at Touka.

He closed his eyes, smiling.

"don't you think it's pretty?"

Touka watched as her weak husband totally ignored his pains and rose from his bed.

He held out his hand, still smiling.

"Will you allow me...this dance?"

He purposely used a courtly tone to make her smile.

Touka cracked a smile and looked to one side.

"I can't dance..."

Kaneki took her hand and placed the other on his wife's waist.

"me neither"

His smile didn't fade, it was totally at odds with his pale, thin face, but he radiated a certain light.

They did a slow dance, they just swayed.

As much as Kaneki might ignore his illness, it was there and he certainly couldn't move much.

He was tired.

"I love you"

He said softly.

Touka smiled.

"me too..."

She rested her head on her husband's chest and he heard her sobbing.

"I don't want you to...die... "

Kaneki kissed her head.

"don't worry...I'm not going anywhere..."

Sooo this is the first time I pubblish something I write in English aand I'm scared :")

It's very short I know hehe

Btw sorry for bad English but it's difficult to write a fic in English if you are Italian :D

Hope you enjoy this (I really hope so)

Bye :D

(also Kaneki has cancer in here. Sorry but my brain goes by itself)

SORRY AGAIN FOR BAD ENGLISH BYE

#tokyo ghoul #ken kaneki #kaneki ken #kaneki #loml #baby boy #Angst #Touken #Touka kirishima #Touken angst #Kaneki angst #Oneshot #fanfiction #Hc #Headcanon #AU #Alternate Universe

[fics-ladyshudragon]

WIPS

Just for my own sanity, here is the list of WIPs I currently have going. If anyone is interested in a particular one, let me know. I am notoriously bad at updating, so maybe someone verbally kicking my ass will change that.

Burden (AruAni) - A retelling of AoT if Annie was never in the crystal. Chapter 1 is posted on Ao3 (and has been for a few years LOL).

TouKen Fic - A retelling of Tokyo Ghoul & TG:re if Kaneki remained human (kinda). The lovely @honeytheriot has been helping me with proofreading because I type like a toddler.

Meet the Parent (AruAni) - Specifically to finish Chapter 2, ya know, the chapter with SMUT (and the final installment of my series where they meet on a cruise ship). Also on Ao3.

Soulless Sanctuary (AoT Zombie AU) - This is what I mean about not updating! But yeah, this one needs to be written out too (and it's not just me this time).

TouKen Fic 2 - Just pure fluff and smut taking place after Chapter 125 of TG:re. Also with some baby Ichika <3

Mikasa and Annie Fic - The lost girls have a heart-to-heart. Annie is preggers, Mikasa is having a crisis. The boys don't know how to compute. This one is after Moments but before Sea of Lovers.

AruAni Fic - Getting kinky and getting us to #6 LMAO (Post-Canon Series before Moments & Sea of Lovers).

#apollogirl7 #annie leonhardt #aruani #jeankasa #touken #snk #tgre #tokyo ghoul #touka kirishima #ken kaneki #armin arlert #mikasa ackerman #ao3 #fanfiction

[hakucho-art]

hi !!!! i really love ur art. ur so cool !!!!

what do u think about ichika. personally, i really love her. she’s so precious! also when she made that face to ayato pulling faces to her! and how everyone loves her! it’s so :’)

just would love to hear ur thoughts!

ANONIEEEE

You're so sweet!! Thank you <3

ICHIKA MY DARLING, I love her so much. My heart always makes a little jump when I see her BECAUSE that's touken's child!! Their baby! Their precious for whom they fought so much in order for her to live 🥺

I ESPECIALLY LOVE TEENAGER ICHIKA. Ahhhh the way Ishida drew her, despite having Kaneki‘s hair and eye colour, she looks so much like a Kirishima!

It's also really funny that you're asking that question now cause just yesterday, yuki and me were talking about a certain AU where she plays the main role lol. I even sketched and wrote smth for it!

Since you were so sweet, have a lil snippet of the sketch uwu

#asks #thank youuu

[darisu-chan]

Touken Baby AU Part 1

Okay, here’s the post I promised with my headcanons for an AU I had planned on writing years ago, but then other people started doing the same thing and I felt discouraged.

Here it goes: 

Kaneki decides to fight in the Anteiku Raid, but before going he visits Touka, knowing he could die. He goes to her apartment, trying to apologize or make her understand, but Touka in a spur of the moment decision kisses him. They end up having sex, before he leaves for good.

Touka wants to go after Kaneki, but Yomo convinces her to leave. She escapes with Yomo, being hopeful that one day Kaneki would return.

Kaneki, like in canon, “dies” and is taken away by Arima.

About two months after the raid, Touka realizes she’s pregnant. Scared, she ends up confiding in Yomo, who promises he’d always be there for her. Yomo also confesses he’s actually her uncle. Touka cries because she realizes she hasn’t lost her entire family.

Touka can no longer eat meat, for she just throws it up. She decides to try human food, and although it tastes horrible, she doesn’t throw it up.

Yomo finds a small apartment so that they can settle there.

Touka grows weaker as time passes by, which worries Yomo.

When Touka is around five months, they contact Nishiki again. 

Nishiki is surprised to find that his friend is pregnant, and when he notices how pale Touka looks, he decides to help her.

Nishiki researches about pregnancies, and what he knows about ghoul anatomy to help Touka. He’s not convinced the baby will make it, but creates a diet for Touka which includes both human food with nutrients as well as human meat. After her diet changes, Touka feels much better, and the baby seems to be healthy as well for it moves a lot.

Touka is also depressed because there have been no sings of Kaneki and neither Yomo nor Nishiki are confident that he’s alive. She wishes he was there for the baby. However, she finds comfort on the child growing inside of her and decides to be a good mom.

When the time comes for Touka to give birth, it’s honestly a mess. Yomo freaks out while Nishiki barks orders at him to get warm water, towels, scissors and other stuff. Meanwhile, Touka can’t do more than lay on bed. It takes almost a whole day for Touka to give birth. By the end she’s exhausted and honestly thinking that she won’t make it, when Nishiki announces he sees the head. With one final push, she gives birth to a beautiful baby girl. Touka names her after her mother, Hikari.

Hikari is almost an exact replica of Touka. She has dark hair, pale skin, and Touka’s nose. However, the eyes are Kaneki’s. Touka is happy she resembles her dad in that way.

Nishiki examines Hikari and says she’s healthy, so there’s nothing to worry about. He still keeps a careful eye on her.

The first few months, Hikari’s only food is Touka’s milk. Touka tries to keep eating human food to give Hikari the nutrients she’d need, but she can’t stomach it any longer. However, Hikari grows normally.

When she’s around five months old, they try giving her human food. They soon discover that there’s a limit with the amount of human food Hikari can consume before getting sick. She can eat human meat too.

Yomo buys Hikari a bunny plushie, which becomes her favorite toy.

At one point, Yomo asks Touka what she wishes to do now, given the fact she’s a teen mom. Touka says she wants to have her own coffee shop, similar to what Anteiku was. Yomo promises her one day they’ll have it.

Hikari keeps growing. Soon they find that even if she looks a lot like Touka, she’s much calmer than her mom. Sometimes, Hikari just sits looking pensive, even for a toddler. Touka smiles because in that sense Hikari takes after Kaneki.

Touka reads to Hikari every night before bedtime. She buys books that she thinks Kaneki would approve of for their daughter. Hikari loves books much like Kaneki.

Hikari starts speaking faster than Touka thought she would. 

As Hikari grows, Touka tells her about her father even if she doesn’t understand that much. She keeps a picture of him, which she shows Hikari telling her that’s her dad. The toddler often points to it, saying “dad” and nodding as if she understands that’s her dad.

Finally, they have enough money to rent a place to open their coffee shop. They remodel it, and Touka decides to decorate it with lots of books, confident one day Kaneki will return. That’s why she names it “Re.”

When Hikari is about two years and a half, :Re opens.

Okay, since this was becoming too long, wait for part 2. It’ll feature the events of Re. Hope you liked it.

#touken #kanetou #touken baby au

[chibi-koun]

No one knows why or how it happens, but rarely -very rarely- a sword smith will walk into his forge to continue working on his latest blade, and find a child with wings asleep next to the unfinished sword.

These living swords with two bodies are treasured and revered. They say no country is complete without a line of smiths capable of creating them. This is a story about swords, humans, and family.

#Touken Ranbu #fanfic #An AU in which the swords have wings #I don't know why #also some fantasy politics #but mostly family bonding #I made Izuminokami a baby again because actual child Izuminokami Kanesada is my jam #he'll grow up though

[xkanekitoukax]

Some MORE oneshot!Touken hcs... Continuing from this and this...

+ Ever since Ken has had the suspicion that Touka is pregnant he’s been a lot more careful with her. Their lovemaking is not as rough and after it all he asks her if she’s okay, if he’s hurt her. Touka has seen Ken have his tender moments, but this is a whole other level. She gets annoyed by him, but deep down it makes her heart flutter.

+ Touka makes her cake for Yoriko’s birthday. She follows the directions and ingredients exactly, but her cake ends up a little lopsided and when she decorates it, it’s a bit messy. She feels she failed, but Ken is right there to tell her it looks “cute” and he takes a bit of icing and tries it. It’s absolutely disgusting, but Ken makes a moan and makes that “this is so good” face to make Touka feel better. She feels slightly better about it, but then she tells him what would really make her feel better is if Ken goes with her to the party. He smiles, kisses her, and tells her, “I’ll go wherever you want me to go, Touka-chan.”

+ At the party, Ken was the center of attention for a while with girls ogling him again, but he hangs back to see Touka, Yoriko and other friends have a good time. Ken also chit chats with Yoriko’s new boyfriend, Takeomi Kuroiwa, a dove (Ken is careful to play human). And of course, Yoriko ended up loving Touka’s cake (and the little bracelet Touka also got her) and everyone else loved her cake too. Yoriko even tells Touka that she could end up working at the bakery she hopes to own soon. That really makes Touka feel good. Later on, Touka joins Ken and sits on his lap, he starts kissing the side of her neck. She tells him they should leave soon because she’s not feeling well. “The cake?” He asks her. “Yeah, the cake.” She lies. She never had a piece.

+ Touka is throwing up the whole night and Ken is right there to be with her, pushing back her hair and keeping it away from her face. Touka would normally tell Ken to leave her alone, but this time she’s comforted by his presence. Ken wants to bring up what saw Touka doing at the bookstore and tell her his suspicions, but wants Touka to talk to him first. If she is pregnant, why is she keeping it from him? He doesn’t let it bother him too much as he helps clean Touka up and helps her into bed. He spoons her, holds her tight and kisses the top of her head.

+ Ken and Touka are really accepting their relationship. Ken has pretty much made Touka’s flat his home, spending the night every night. Touka has let herself completely enjoy every moment she has with him. Things get disgustingly sappy as she admits to him that she loves waking up with him next to her. Ken tells her he’s all hers, telling her “You have made me so happy, little rabbit.” And it makes Touka go all red and bury her face in his chest. 

+ One day when they’re out and about, Ken is looking at cute coat for Touka as she gets distracted by some baby clothes. Her hands settling on a colorful onesie with little bunnies all around it. She turns around and tells Ken to not get the coat. “Why not, Touka-chan? It would look so good on you.” He says. “Because I won’t fit in it in a few months,” She lets out nervously as Ken looks at her intently. “I’m pregnant.” She admits. Ken sets the coat down and walks up to her, cupping her glowing face and stroking her cheeks with his thumbs. “I know.” He smiles.

#headcanons #touken headcanons #kaneki x touka #touken #touken babies will be the death of me #oneshot!au

[xellzios]

Hero

Disclaimer: Touken baby fluff for @madghoulworld and @mamasaiko, so that the former would let me out of the corner because I have a project with @lilacflamesss!

Words: 2404

Rating: Fluff

PREVIEW:

Sometimes, a hero is Papa going to work for me and Mama. He works all day but even if Kazuki is sad, Mama always tells me it is for Kazuki.

“Kazuki, Papa has to go to work now so take care of Mama while I am gone, okay?” Ken Kaneki smiled at his son, patting his head as they stood near the doorway of their small abode.

“I will, Papa. Leave it to me!” Kazuki puffed his chest eagerly, giving his Papa a bright, toothy smile. Ken chuckled at his son’s antics and leaned down to give him a kiss on the forehead.

“Have a good day at work,” Touka finally appeared from hallway, fixing her apron as she picked up Kazuki. The preschool settled himself and hugged Mama, his bed hair sticking all around his face. He gave his Papa the handkerchief he asked for, and watched as the older man kissed his wife and waved his hand goodbye.

It was a typical day in their household.

Sometimes, a hero is Papa going to work for me and Mama. He works all day but even if Kazuki is sad, Mama always tells me it is for Kazuki.

“Kazuki, Papa has to go to work now so take care of Mama while I am gone, okay?” Ken Kaneki smiled at his son, patting his head as they stood near the doorway of their small abode.

“I will, Papa. Leave it to me!” Kazuki puffed his chest eagerly, giving his Papa a bright, toothy smile. Ken chuckled at his son’s antics and leaned down to give him a kiss on the forehead.

“Have a good day at work,” Touka finally appeared from hallway, fixing her apron as she picked up Kazuki. The preschool settled himself and hugged Mama, his bed hair sticking all around his face. He gave his Papa the handkerchief he asked for, and watched as the older man kissed his wife and waved his hand goodbye.

It was a typical day in their household.

Sometimes, a hero is Mama spending her time to care for me and make Kazuki laugh, even if she is busy with the store.

The two of them cleaned the small coffee shop after breakfast, with Kazuki helping Touka sweep the floor. It made Touka’s heart well with so much pride at the sight of her son, especially since he was always enthusiastically helping her all around. Even if the broom was taller than him, that never stopped him from trying.

It never tire her to observe her son from where she worked near the counter. He would check every part of the store for any leftover dust, his eyes furrowing in concentration as he struggled to reach the small corner with the broom. And when he was finally done, he would run enthusiastically and hug her, two little hands still gripping the broom handle.

“Mama, I’m done! Did I do well?” Kazuki beamed, pointing at his handy work.

“Of course, my love! Let’s get you ready for the day!” Touka leaned down to him to kiss his cheeks, before holding him in her arms so that they would go back to their room. He was growing way too fast that she wished she could stop time to make him her baby for a while longer, but then again, she was proud of how he was.

Touka bathed Kazuki, both of them playing with the bubbles produced by the soap. She let her son lather the baby shampoo and instructed him on how to clean himself properly with a washcloth. When they were done, Touka carried his son in the bed and Kazuki giggled as Touka attacked him with tickles.

Mom and child spent a part of their time just laughing, trading tickles with each other. It was moments like these when Touka appreciated being a mom a lot – seeing her child happy and laughing, his bright gray eyes looking fondly at her for devoting her time. Kazuki was a very sweet kid, and a very independent one too, which was due to his father.

“Mama, will it be okay to wear these?” Kazuki pulled out his clothes from his baby cabinet some time later, handing it to Touka. Touka smiled at her son for being so independent and helped him out of his bathrobe.

“You’re gonna play a waiter today?” She asked as she watched her son put on his denim shorts and white shirt.

“I wanna help Mama today, since it’s Saturday!” he beamed.

Sometimes, a hero is Uncle Ayato helping me chase bad people out of the shop. He would give Kazuki a high five after.

But his Mama was already having a bad day a few hours after they opened the café. Kazuki could tell it by the way Touka was drying the dishes, scrubbing them a little too hard with the towel. He would look at the noisy man chattering away to get her attention, then would look back at his mother whose smile was as tense as her form.

Kazuki went inside the backroom of the café, duly observing the conversation. He wanted to know why his Mama did not like the man, but he didn’t understand what they were talking about. He watched as Touka started brewing coffee for him, responding when he asked her a question about being beautiful.

Kazuki had to agree though, his Mama was always pretty – even his Papa always said so.

But Mama didn’t seem to like it coming from the man, so Kazuki wanted to tell him to go away and not make her scowl.

“Kazuki, what are you doing? Why are you stalking Touka with a frown on your face?”

“Uncle Ayato!” the child smiled as his Uncle arrived, carrying a sack of coffee beans on his shoulders. He dropped the said sack on the container and crouched near him to pat his head. Maybe his Uncle would help him get rid of the weird guy that was making his Mama feel awkward.

“Mama is having a bad day because of that guy,” he pointed his tiny hands towards the man leaning on the counter, still talking to Touka.

“Your Mama can handle that easy,” came Ayato’s uninterested response. His sister had been dealing with these people for a long time, even before he had started helping in the café.

“But I don’t want seeing Mama frown,” the kid retorted. He whispered what he wanted to do to make him go away. Ayato laughed at his nephew’s antics, but he decided he would play along because it was fun.

When Touka finally went out from counter to get a customer’s order, the two of them sneaked inside, grinning at their plan. The man looked at them weirdly and asked what they were doing.

A few seconds later, he ran away screaming.

When Touka glanced back to see what the commotion was about, all she saw were three kakugans ablaze as the two of them peaked from behind the counter, laughing. With a sigh, she turned back to chastise them for chasing the customer away, but she couldn’t help but smile.

Her boys were always protective.

Sometimes, it is Gruncle Yomo buying ice cream with me when Kazuki gets bored that is a hero.

Uncle Ayato spent his time playing with Kazuki during the day, especially during the times when the café was slow. They played with riddles and cars, and even went outside to play fetch. Touka was busy manning the café, so he did not want to cause a problem by asking her to play with him.

But after a while, Uncle Ayato also had to go back to work, leaving Kazuki crouching at backroom with his small ball. Uncle Yomo seemed to have noticed this though, as he took a break from work.

“You look bored, kid,” Gruncle Yomo commented, looking down on him. He wasn’t a chatty type, even Uncle Ayato was better when talking to him. But Kazuki always had fun whenever they played together, especially since his Gruncle always brought him to the park to play ball. Still, he knew that the adults were busy, and Mama always taught him to be mindful when they were.

“I’m waiting for Aunt Hinami to arrive, so I’m bored,” he puffed, putting both hands on his face as he looked down the floor.

Yomo thought he looked sad, so he lifted him up in his arms, surprising the young boy. “Let’s go get you some ice cream.”

Kazuki’s face lit up, his Gruncle Yomo always knew what would make him feel better when he felt alone.

On others, a hero is Aunt Hinami helping Kazuki with his homework when Papa goes home late.

Kazuki was sad.

He had been staring at the clock for almost an hour now, counting time with his hand. Mama said that his Papa would be home soon, but Ken was always already home when the clock pointed to the number six.

Today though, the finger was already pointing at seven and his Papa wasn’t home.

He was worried, because Ken was usually never late. Mama was fixing his dinner now, so he didn’t want to sound too clingy by asking every ten minutes when his Papa would come home. He looked back at his homework, trying so hard to concentrate by counting with his hand. Aunt Hinami continued talking beside him, giving him some pointers on how to answer his Math problems. But after a while, he would put his pencil down and stare at the book.

Aunt Hinami started to notice.

“What’s wrong Kazuki?” Hinami asked, her face scrunched up with worry. Kazuki stared at her and back at the clock, hesitating. He didn’t want to worry his Aunt, because she was always kind and spend time with him even when she was busy.

“I, uh, I don’t wanna tell,” he said honestly.

Hinami looked at her nephew curiously, Kazuki had always been a very enthusiastic student so it was a wonder when he did not want to study or read. “Why not?”

“Mama said I should just wait patiently,” he retorted, embarrassed. His Aunt Hinami looked at the clock and figured out what was bothering him. She gave him a smile.

“He’ll be home soon, Kazuki-kun,” she said, patting his head.

“But what if he doesn’t come home? Aki said his Papa was late one time and never came back.”

Hinami could relate to the child’s worries, but she knew that the world they live in was now different. And that everything they went through had finally bloomed into a changing tide. Besides, her brother now had a reason to live and a future to look forward to.

She stood up, making Kazuki frown because he thought he saddened his Aunt as well, but Aunt Hinami just hugged him from behind. “Your Papa will always want to come home to you and your Mama,” she whispered gently.

Aunt Hinami always made him feel better.

He stood up from the chair, surprising his Aunt, then he leaned in to kiss her in the cheek. He grinned when he saw the surprised look on her face and went to sit back before his Mama would catch him standing up the seat, resuming on counting for his homework. All the while, Hinami resumed on guiding him on getting the correct answers as they finished the exercise.

Sometimes, it is Papa holding Mama and making her smile, especially when Mama had a bad day.

Ken returned home an hour after the café closed, his face sullen and tired. Work was hectic that day, with all the paper works and delays.

Kazuki excitedly went out of his room when he heard the door open, his impatient feet carrying him down the stairs so that he could greet his father. But he did not find him in the doorway anymore.

So Kazuki, now in his pajamas, looked around the house to search. He peeked in the kitchen, then walked down the hallway into the living room, where he found Papa kissing Mama in the crown of her head, hugging her. It was always in moments like these when he saw his Mama’s serene features, as if she was content. And whenever his Papa was around, his Mama always looked happy.

That’s why Kazuki always looked forward when the three of them were together.

Ken spotted his son as he neared them, so he let go of his wife and opened his arms. Kazuki ran and giggled as his father carried him and gave him a tight hug. “Welcome home, Papa.”

He kissed his son’s cheek and smiled, before he snaked his other hand on his wife’s waist to pull her closer. “I’m home.”

They would spend the rest of the day together, with Mama and Papa both reading him bedtime stories or singing nursery rhymes with him until he fell asleep in their arms. 

Sometimes, it is Mama holding Papa when Papa is sad. And sometimes, it is Mama and Papa letting Kazuki stay with them when Kazuki woke up scared because of the dark.

That night, Kazuki woke up afraid.

He dreamt his Papa never came back home, leaving his Mama always crying when she thought Kazuki couldn’t see. There was no more Papa to read Kazuki some stories, no more Papa to take him to the park. It scared him a lot that he woke up crying.

The rain was falling heavily and the sky was dark. He was back in his room, the only source of light being the small star lamp at the corner of the room. He woke up alone with no sight of both of them. It scared him.

He wiped the tears that stained his eyes and got up to bring his blue bunny, looking for his parents. When he finally closed the door into his room, he noticed that the door to his Mama and Papa’s room was askew.

He could hear his Mama murmuring gentle words, but he couldn’t decipher them, so he peeked as his mother gently held his father in her arms, his head resting on the crook of her neck. She would rub circles in his back as his Papa lay quiet.

He didn’t want to disturb them, but he still felt bad about that dream, so he finally opened the door to reveal himself.

“Mama, Kazuki had a bad dream too, like Papa,” he said, trying to hold back his tears as he sobbed. He now stood at the edge of the bed, Ken’s face looking up to his son with worry. Immediately, even though he was tired, he whispered something to Touka and stood up, scooping him into his arms.

Papa was always warm, it made him feel secured. He rubbed circles in Kazuki’s back, like how Mama did for him, humming his favorite lullaby. It always brought him to ease. “Don’t cry, Papa’s here. Mama’s here.”

Ken carried Kazuki to the bed when he stilled, sandwiching him between them. It was always moments like these that Kazuki liked the most, even when he had bad dreams. Because he was with Mama and Papa, so everything was alright. He reached out to Touka and took her hand, latching onto her as he finally closed his eyes.

There are many kinds of heroes, but family is my hero, because Kazuki loves them, and they love Kazuki.

Let me know what you think. :)

#touken #kaneki ken #touka kirishima #kanetou #touken baby #kazuki au #yomo renji #ayato kirishima #hinami fueguchi #tokyo ghoul #tg fanfic #shar.writes #my fanfiction #touken fanfic

[evanescentdawn]

Today’s writing:

—Did I just start and finished a little drabble for Haku’s awesome art? YES. It’s not really finished though. I want to add a little nsfw part, so. Still though it deserves the 🎉 ✨

—Started new wip curtesy of a prompt, and. No fucking clue on what it is about, but. It might be touhideken, or. Touken with Hide & Kaneki. It’s AU. Just got it started. Or...I thought so. I GOT AN IDEA. ITS GONNA BE GREAT.

—Okayyy, I was like. I seriously to just START writing for my lovely babies and ML. And guess who the fuck did? ME. I am so happy! And it’s an idea I’ve daydreaming over and over again lotssss of times. This ended up me creating a super long list of ML ideas that I want to write...SOBS

—there was another orv frantic fanfiction, which was fun! this help as being writing warm-ups, lol. it was yume-version, so just OCs/Canon stuff.

—I sort of edited the 240 smut wip. Do shifting stuff count? Well. Anyways. Yeah. I LIKE this wip, but also....urgh....it’s smut....which means it’s gonna be on big hiatus because that’s how it seems to go with me and writing smut. I stop half way, lol.

—edited the ichika time travel wip, too! which was only because I was gonna to snippet it for wipwednesday. I....could have written more, but also. Urgh.

#ignore me; im rambling #highlights

[rokutouxei]

Author Interview ✍️

Haven’t done something like this ever here officially, so this is interesting! Thank you @assomoir for tagging me~

Name: Cee

Fandoms: oof that’s a tough question because i have a lot but my most recent ones are Ikemen Vampire, Touken Ranbu, and Mystic Messenger. i do have a few other ikemen series (sengoku/revolution/live) WIPS i haven’t touched... and i haven’t watched anime or read manga in a while...  so yeah those for now.

Where You Post: here on my tumblr and on my ao3! I’ve only cross-posted some of the most recent ones though, so the bulk of my work is really in here. 

Most Popular One-Shot: surprisingly, at the moment it’s one fear.jpg (Ikemen Vampire) which was supposed to be the dumbest fic I have written ever. i swear i don’t understand how that blew up...

on ao3 it’s unfaithful (Mystic Messenger) which i’m pretty proud of.

Most Popular Multi-Chapter Story: i... have only ever written two multi-chapter stories and both of them are unfinished, and the better one of the two had like  70 or so follows and near a 100 reviews on FF.net. yes it’s that old. no i’m not coming back to it i think. no i’m not linking it, i wrote it when i was 12!

Favorite Story You Wrote: hmm that’s a tough one... usually when i finish a fic i just post them and “let them go”, but if i had to choose one, i’d pick a bunch from each fandom maybe? like with these hands you hold (Touken Ranbu), unfaithful (Mystic Messenger) as I said, then, now, always (Haikyuu). and that [spoilers redacted] fic I’m still revising for Ikemen Vampire.

i gotta say though, i have a soft spot for literally everything I have written for the crackship that is shishiyuka (Hirunaka no Ryuusei) because it’s my child, it’s my crackship, it is my baby. 

Story You Were Nervous to Post: i’m generally very nervous about posting fics and will make my friends read them over at least twice and triple check beforehand, but i’d say i was most nervous about unfaithful (Mystic Messenger). yeah, i liked it very much but at the same time i was so so so insecure about it. it was my first actual smut fic out in the world AND it was mild dubcon AND it had cheating in it and it basically had all the red flags possible and i was very worried about tackling it in fiction and how people would react. 

runner up is he will own me and i’ll embrace defeat (Ikemen Vampire) which was a completely different trainwreck of worry because, same, i didn’t know how it would be received. it felt very... intimate, in a different way that the regular smut fic is, and it felt very raw to get it out there.

How You Choose Your Titles: from songs, from poetry, “that one word that is basically the entire story”, or a meaningful clause or sentence from the story. if i think too hard about a title it begins to sound weird so i try to limit my decision making time as much as possible, keep it simple.

Complete: if my contents page didn’t miss any i have 113 finished works so far, not including stuff I wrote for @polyhaikyuu back in the days and also stuff I wrote pre-tumblr (back in FF.net). yes i have no life other than writing.

Incomplete: 

jk if you mean ongoing fics i have none because i only have the attention span for one-shots, but if you mean WIPS then i have, like, a bazillion. 

Do You Outline? i do, but not intensely? mostly I let the fic build itself in my head first, and then when it’s sort of becoming clear, I put it down into bullet points. i outline but only when there’s enough to outline, if that makes sense

Coming Soon/Not Yet Started: ooh i have a bunch on my folder right now but a sneak peek of the ones I want to write the most

- a sandwich smut fic with theo/mc/arthur

- a little thing about how arthur likes his coffee

- a modern AU theo/MC fic that’ll probably turn out to be an original novel with how expansive the entire thing is already, but we’ll see.

- my child, a series of fics (9) for theo’s route release in english, exploring his character, his interactions with MC and the other residents of the mansion, and mostly just me gushing about him

and yes, a thing in february to be done with a bunch of writer friends ;) i honestly don’t know how that’ll sail for me but i’m really excited to be doing it! 

Do You Accept Prompts? i actually do! i can’t promise to get to all of them immediately as i am a full-time student outside of this, but i do take them to consideration and i sometimes put themes together to make a fic. honestly the easiest way to get content out of me is to get me to talk about a character... i’ll probably just spam you with headcanons. 

Upcoming Story You Are Most Excited to Write: one of the nine fics for theo’s route release is really sweet and i want to start on it already but alas. and of course the february thing, which i’m sure you’ll hear about pretty soon! wait for announcements!!

tagging: @attoliattolis​, my shishiyuka co-parent! also omg i need more writer friends........

#not fic #about the writer

[kanekikenunot]

Listen a Touken Noragami au where Touka is a goddess and Kaneki is all the Shinki

King Neki- a Bra

Haise- I find you appealing apron

Black Reaper- High heels

Sasako- a mini skirt

Kuroneki- a heart shaped necklace

240- is sunglasses

Shironeki- a whip

Baby Neki’s- Two pistols

#tokyo ghoul #tokyo ghoul:re #this started with me thinking of Kaneki as a bra #touken

[lilacflamesss]

Shattered (Chapter 4)

Smutty Ayahina College AU

Summary: Hinami tries to deal with her sorrows through seeking Ayato out. Ayato can never turn away the girl he loves far more than he should. Two people with unrequited feelings, dealing with them in very different ways. Human AU. (7.6k words)

Warning: This fic contains unhealthy copic mechanisms, heavy sexual content, and plenty of problematic/ dubious things which I absolutely do not condone at all. This is a work of fiction that takes on a more mature, physical take on Ayahina’s relationship as opposed to the typical conventional one. Please feel free not to read this fic if it’s not your cup of tea!  In addition, this chapter contains a character (baby) death so, trigger warning for stillbirth. 

A/N: There’s no smut this chapter so I’m sorry for that! There’s also no Ayato in it lmao. But it’s a pretty heavy Touken chapter! There’s also a slight time skip between the Ken and Hinami bit in this chapter. About a couple of weeks, enough to at least let Touka recover from giving birth.

I’m really insecure about this fic right now. I lowkey had a breakdown before I posted this. I kept re-reading it over and over again but I still have so many worries about this... I’ve honestly never felt this way about a fic before. I’m sorry this took so long and even then I don’t know if it’s as good as it can be. I did try my best though, so I hope you guys continue to read and support this!  Please do reblog this and feel free to leave some comments! 

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 3.5 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 4.5 | Chapter 5

Preview: 

Touka and Kaneki come out of the kitchen with a couple of plates. They place them on the table and Kaneki takes a seat, while Touka walks away to the corridor. Hinami panics for a moment, wondering if Touka might have gotten annoyed, but she calms down the moment she notices an extra plate, a kiddish and smaller one.

“Is she going to get your daughter?” Hinami asks.

“Yeah. Ichika gets too distracted when she’s playing. She forgets she’s hungry and her stomach starts acting up,” Kaneki explains with a slight chuckle. “I hope you like omurice. Touka forced me to cook it today. It’s her father’s own recipe.”

“I don’t mind it,” she replies. Kaneki cooked. She’s going to eat Kaneki’s cooking. Her heart races at this thought. She’s watched dramas where girls ate the food guys they liked specially cooked for them. In the end, no matter how bad the food is, they always taste good because of love, right? She wants to squeal-- to think she gets to live through such a corny experience. Ayato will never cook for her. That guy would probably burn the apartment down in the process. But Kaneki can cook and he did. Really, he’s the perfect guy.

A silent voice in her head coughs at her. She’s supposed to be getting over Kaneki. He’s married. He didn’t cook this because he loves her; he cooked this because the woman he loves asked him to. But even as logic is being flung at her, Hinami turns away. She fixes her eyes on the plate of omurice. It looks like a normal plate but even then, she’s never been this excited to dig in.

“Touka thought Ayato might suddenly show up as well so she insisted on this,” Kaneki continues. “Apparently, it’s his favorite back when he was a kid. Their father always cooked it for him whenever he was down… We made some extra for him as well.”

“For Ayato? But he isn’t here…”

“Touka insisted that we packed it and get you to deliver it to him if you happen to be dropping by his place or something.”

“I could do that.” If she has some time to kill, she’d probably go back to her dorm to study a little more, but dropping by Ayato’s place isn’t a detour. It’s still on the way to school.

“I’m not too fond of it though…” Kaneki admits with a sigh.

“It’s really no problem, Big Brother! His apartment is on the way to school. Besides, I think it’ll be better if he has some proper lunch… Otherwise he’d just eat convenience store food again. I don’t have time to go over and cook some lunch for him.”

Kaneki remains silent for a while, before he glances at where Touka had disappeared to. He inches closer to Hinami and lowers his voice. “It’s not that Hinami… Personally, I’m just not a big fan of you hanging out too much with Ayato.”

He’s jealous… Hinami slams the thought down the moment it surfaces in her mind. God, it sounded so stupid.

“Ayato is a good friend,” she says. “He’s always there for me.”

“Are you sure he’s just a friend? It didn’t seem that way to me that day,” Kaneki grumbles.

“We’re not together.”

“Touka was very confident about Ayato’s feelings towards you,” Kaneki says. “And even I… I saw the way you were looking at him when you waited for him.”

Kaneki thinks she’s in love with Ayato. Hinami feels her throat go dry.

“Even if… that’s the case, Big Brother… why does this bother you?” she murmurs. He shouldn’t care, right? He’s in love with Touka. It’s not like Kaneki has feelings for her. He shouldn’t care about who she’s dating or seeing.

“Hinami…” Kaneki sighs. “Look… I care about you and I love you--”

Ken finds himself pacing to and fro. He wishes he can calm down and relax, but he knows he can’t. It’s not happening-- it can’t be-- especially not when his wife went into labour a whole month before the expected due date. He already knows that this isn’t going to be the easiest pregnancy for Touka. On the contrary, the doctors had warned them to prepare themselves for the worst. They had gone to multiple clinics for different opinions and every one of them had said the same thing. There’s too many complications. The baby might not survive. The had predicted that the mother’s life would be in danger as well and they had recommended an abortion. But Touka had been adamant to see the pregnancy to its end. Even if it’s hard, she wants to try her best to bring their child into the world, even if she had to risk her own life. Ken had wanted to argue, but he simply couldn’t when she was looking at him with that determined expression-- the very expression he fell in love with. At least, he’s glad she saved him the dilemma of having to choose between his unborn child and his wife. He wonders some time who’d he’d choose. Touka, perhaps… They could always try again, right?

Right?

Sometimes, it’s easier thinking about things like that. He’s sure he wouldn’t have been able to choose if he had been in that position. In times like this, he’s glad he has Touka by his side.

Ken continues to pace until he hears a throat being cleared. He looks at the other man who’s standing by along with him. Yomo is leaning against a wall, his expression as solemn as ever, while he holds Ichika’s hand. The small girl’s head continues to nod as she yawns and rub her eyes with her other hand. She looks at Ken, sulking visibly.

Sometimes, when Ichika looks at him like this, Ken recalls Touka’s brother-- the asshole who isn’t answering or even bothering about his calls and messages despite the fact that his sister is in labour right now.

“Papa…” Ichika whines. “I wanna go home.”

Yomo picks the child up and carries her in his arm, fixing Ken with a hard glare. Calm down, it seems to say and Ken nods. Yomo cradles Ichika, rocking her lightly as the kid nestles her head into his granduncle’s neck. He walks a distance away from Ken, probably to keep Ichika from whining even more in the middle of a hospital. Ken’s glad that Yomo’s around. He’s probably just as worried about Touka. She’s his niece and he’d been by her side and watched her for so much longer than Ken had. But Yomo’s staying strong and Ken knows he has to as well.

If the worst happens, he has to be there for her as well. She might be as strong as-- or even stronger than-- him. But he wasn’t the one who carried the child in his womb for eight months. He wasn’t the one who had to struggle with all the challenges of pregnancy just to bring a child into the world. No matter how strong his wife is, no matter how much she tries to prepare herself, if things don’t go well, he will have to be there for her.

It feels like an eternity before the light goes off, indicating that things within the room had ended. By then, Ken already knows what awaits him.

There wasn’t a cry after all…

He’s only allowed to see her much later, despite his chagrined protests, but that also gave him some time to get ahold of himself. A look of complete despair had passed through Yomo’s eyes as the doctor relayed the news to the both of them. He didn’t comment on the situation at all. All he said was that he was going home to tuck Ichika into bed. Maybe he wanted some time alone, or maybe he wanted to give Ken some time alone. Either way, Ken realises he feels relieved.

He takes some time to walk around the hospital, mind completely blank, heart completely empty. He doesn’t know what to feel about the whole situation. They had asked him if he wanted to see the kid. He had said no, because he can’t bring himself to see her, especially not without Touka by his side.

They already knew that it isn’t going to work out. They were already told that this is what awaited them. Even then, why does he feel so empty?

He wants to get a drink, but he decides not to. His stomach can’t hold anything in right now. If he eats or drinks, he might just throw up. Instead, he finds a spot with a vacant seat and sits down. People walk past him, but everything’s a flash and a blur. The only thing that really stood out was a little boy, running past him screaming and giggling. He held the hand of a little girl-- probably his younger sister-- pulling her along excitedly.

Ichika will never get to pull her younger sister along. She probably won’t even know about her until much later, and by then, it’ll be too distant a memory for her to really feel anything about it. Ken wonder what he’ll give up to be able to see both his children happy and together. Siblings are a precious kind of relationship-- the best in its own way. Ken himself doesn’t know what it feels like to have a sister or a brother. Perhaps the closest he has to a sister is the little orphan girl he’d bonded with a long time ago, right after her parents had died in a brutal car crash. But she grew older and they’ve gotten distant. He still can contact her if he wants to, but he doesn’t really keep in touch. He saw her some time back and it feels like she had grown and changed a lot as well. Yet there had been warmth that filled him when he laid his eyes on her back then, a certain indescribably pride at seeing how far she’s come. Maybe he should put more effort into trying to keep in contact with her. He did feel a little guilty about keeping his marriage from her.

It’s Touka who told him the joys of being a sister. It was her who said that she wanted a second child so Ichika won’t be lonely, just like how she believes she would have been lonelier if she hadn’t had her brother around. Ken wonders how she can continue feeling this way, especially since it had been ages since she had last talked to her brother.

He checks his phone again. He’d texted Ayato and called him a couple of times, but he’d gotten nothing from him. Ken had thought that Ayato would at least answer one of his calls. The other time he did, he had sounded apologetic and regretful. Ken had thought that it’ll have changed things within him, but he hadn’t visited even though he promised to so Ken really shouldn’t be too surprised about his absence now.

It would be nice if he did show up though, especially after all that happened. Perhaps Ken might have gotten a better outcome if he had mentioned the whole complication with the baby. He was in the midst of doing so, but he ended up deleting the text. He probably should leave it to Touka to decide if she wanted her brother to know.

Personally, Ken is still not too fond of that guy. If anything, he questions every single thing Ayato has done. He’s sure he hasn’t been given the full story yet. Touka doesn’t really like to talk about her brother, unless she’s talking about happier times when her entire family was still around. There’s nothing that Ayato had done subsequently that gets him on Ken’s good side at all. All he’s ever done is hurt Touka more and more. Perhaps, if they hadn’t already known about the problems with the baby, Ken might end up blaming the whole thing on Ayato. He did push his pregnant sister after all and he’d never bothered to check up on her. It was Ken who called to inform him, that too after Touka had mentioned how he probably was upset.

That jerk doesn’t deserve a sister like her, honestly.

His phone vibrates in his pocket and he sees that he has a call from the reception desk of the hospital. He knows what that means-- he can go and see Touka now. He doesn’t feel like talking to anyone, but he knows that he has to take this. The conversation is quick and he doesn’t talk much, just thanking the receptionist after she gives him Touka’s room number. He’s up on his feet seconds after the call, heading towards her in long strides.

It seemed like some time had passed since he sat down. Apparently wallowing in his hatred for his brother-in-law had distracted him a little and helped to kill time. Perhaps Ayato isn’t as useless as he used to think he is after all.

Touka’s a shell of her former self. Maybe that expression might be a little bit of an exaggeration. She doesn’t look that lost. She looked much more lost when they first met all those years ago, crumbling under the weight of their family’s financial burdens and her father and brother’s never-ending arguments. But she’s surely not herself right now either. Just twenty four hours ago, she was smiling at him with the usual twinkle in her eyes as she pulled out a new watch she had bought for him. It had caught her eye randomly and she had gotten it for him as an early anniversary gift. He had left it at home in the rush to get Touka into the hospital when she went into labor, but now he wishes he has something to hold onto to keep himself together.

When he enters the room, she doesn’t respond. She continues to stare out of the window, eyes clouded and downcast.

“Touka.”

She jolts a little at the sound of her name and she turns to look at him, offering him a wide, but weak, smile. “Ken…”

“You did well.” He crosses over to her and sits at the edge of her bed. Touka bites her lip and she shakes her head.

“I couldn’t… I didn’t manage to…” She chokes, stopping herself with a deep breath. He sees the water in her eyes and he sees her trying to hold them back. There’s absolutely no reason for her to hold back her tears, not now, not then, but she continues to do so as she has always done. Ken reaches for her hand, taking one in both of his, clasping it tightly.

“You did your best. I’m sure she knows and I’m sure she appreciates whatever you’ve done. In another life, I’m sure she’ll want you to be her mother as well.”

That isn’t lip service. They’re not empty words. He’s sure of it. Touka is a great mother to Ichika and he’s sure she’d have been one to their daughter as well-- their little girl who left them even before she could come to them. He wishes they at least named her, but they hadn’t chosen a name yet. They were supposed to have another month.

“I’m sure she’ll want you to be her father as well,” Touka says. Her voice is weak, but he sees in her eyes her belief in him, clearly mirroring his in her. “Where’s Ichika?”

“She’s at home. Yomo took her back so she could sleep. I think Yomo wants to give us space as well,” Ken admits. He rubs the back of Touka’s hand and Touka responds by tightly lacing her fingers with his, locking their hands into a secured grip.

“Did you… say anything to Ayato?”

“No… He didn’t answer my calls and messages.”

Her eyes widen at his words and he senses panic in them, though Ken doesn’t seem to understand why. “So you tried to contact him! What did you say?”

“You went into labour…”

“That’s all?”

“That’s all.”

The panic vanishes and she sighs a little. She’s smiling now, but again, it’s weak and melancholic. “That’s good… I don’t want him to know about what happened.”

“Why not?”

“He’ll blame himself…”

That really shouldn’t be Touka’s concern right now. Ken really doesn’t want her bothering about Ayato at a time like this. But it’s always been in Touka’s nature to worry about others before herself.

“Touka, your brother--”

“It’s not his fault,” she cuts in. “He did something wrong… I know that but… this has nothing to do with that…”

“Touka--”

“I want to see him… Ken, please, I really want to see him…”

“Touka, come on, you know that’s not going to happen,” Ken sighs. “He didn’t care one bit when he hurt you. He doesn’t care now that you gave birth as well.”

“No, he cares. I know he does…”

“So why isn’t he here?” Ken challenges. His bitterness goes unnoticed by Touka, who clamps up as his words, shivering lightly. Ken wonders if he’s too harsh. Maybe now isn’t the best time to be honest with her about that asshole. He reaches over for Touka and takes her by her shoulders, pulling her against him, arms wrapped tightly around her.

“Look, I’ll see what I can do, okay? If Ayato doesn’t respond, I’ll call Hinami instead. Will that be okay?” he asks.

“Hinami…?”

“You know, the girl who was with your brother the other day?”

Touka relaxes in his arms and he looks down to see a small smile spreading on her face. “Ahh… That strange girl who somehow saw something in my useless brother to fall for?” The cheeky, joking tone in Touka’s voice is enough to make Ken relax a little.

Despite his complete aversion to Hinami being in a relationship with Ayato, he’s glad it at least brings some joy to Touka with her now being able to rest easy that her brother isn’t alone like she feared. Though Ken still believes he’s better off talking to Hinami about and giving her a warning here and there. It’s not like Hinami has anyone else to do that for her as well. It must be why she managed to get along with Ayato in the first place-- they’re both alone, after all. Just like Touka was at one point in time. Ken wonders how that feels like. He’s been lonely before but he’s never been alone. He’s had Hide with him since he was young.

“I’ll call Hinami and see what we can work out, okay? Maybe she can convince your brother about coming along,” Ken says. He really doesn’t want to, but he guess he’ll have to give in if it makes Touka feel better. From the expression she makes, he knows she feels better.

“It’ll be nice… If we called them over for a celebration instead…” Touka murmurs absentmindedly. She looks at Ken, forcing her smile to remain on her face. But she’s a terrible liar, especially to him, who knows her so well. Her watery eyes are telling him that she’s anything but smiling on the inside. She’s weeping and falling apart and that all that’s holding her together right now is the slight hope that she might be able to see her remaining family as a whole again-- that same hope, wish and desire that she has always clung onto in the darkest moments.

Her child is gone, just like her mother and just like her father. She doesn’t want anyone else to go. And like it or not, Ken wants to make her wish come true for her. Even if her brother is the most detestable person on earth, even if he’s the person who’s made her silently cry to herself countless times over and over again, he wants to bring him back for her.

Hinami thinks her heart is going to leap out of her chest. It might be an exaggeration, but she’s quite certain it’s not an impossibility. Her heart is beating so hard. Her ribs might not be able to stand it. She wonders how much it would hurt if her ribs do snap. Ayato had mentioned breaking a couple of bones before and he had said it had hurt like a bitch, to quote his words that is. Well, Ayato being Ayato would have broken a whole bunch of bones at one go. Hinami’s always wondered what he did to even have that happen. He hadn’t said anything much about that incident, except scowl whenever he talks about it and admit that it had hurt far too much and that it wasn’t him, but someone else who broke his bones. Hinami had wondered who even would break Ayato’s bones, but considering his high school escapades, she’s not too surprised someone would.

But back to the point. It had hurt for Ayato. A broken rib would make her break down and cry.

She ignores the heart and her ridiculous thoughts and presses the doorbell. She’s staring at a normal door of a normal house, but she’s immediately taken in by what she sees. This is where he stays. This is the place he lives, where he eats his dinner, where he relaxes, where he sleeps, where he bathes, where he reads his books and where he can be himself. This is the place she has long to step into for years. She gets to see how she lives; she gets to know him even better, to see things no other person would.

Hinami hears footsteps from the other side of the door and she stiffens, hands running through her hair before smoothening out her dress as she takes one look at her outfit. She’s wearing a simple light green dress with a black cardigan-- nothing too fancy, but it’s still a cute outfit. She had asked Ayato for his opinion when she bought it, but she learnt from the experience how bad of an advisor he is when it comes to these kinds of things.

“That’s nice. It looks easy to take off,” he had said with the usual smirk on his face. Of course, that earned him an elbow to the rib. She does, also, vaguely remember him grumbling about how she looked good in anything so she didn’t really need a second opinion on it, but her mother used to say that about her as well.

The door opens and Hinami puts on the biggest smile she can manage. She doesn’t have to force it out. It comes naturally the moment she sees the face of the person who answered the door. Kaneki Ken looks as gorgeous as always, his charming smile and gentle eyes welcoming her and making her feel at home almost instantly. He’s beautiful, she thinks the moment he says her name in greeting and steps aside to let her in. She doesn’t need him to say anything else before she’s practically running into the house.

So this is where he stays.

“Thank you for coming, Hinami! I hope you’re not too busy today,” he says.

“No, today’s a good day.” She only has classes in the evening and it’s still just morning. She has all the time in the world before she has to leave.

The call from Kaneki had been sudden and out of the blue yesterday, inviting her over for lunch. Kaneki had asked her to bring Ayato along but Hinami knew that there was no chance he would accept coming over with her. She had been honest with Kaneki about that and hadn’t bothered to ask Ayato at all. Kaneki sounded conflicted by her words over the phone; on one hand he sounded a little upset, but on another, he accepted it a little too easily that Hinami felt he didn’t really want Ayato around as well.

“Touka is getting ready so give her some time,” Kaneki says.

“Is she with the baby now?” Hinami asks. Some time back, Ayato had told her that the baby was born already. She hadn’t asked for much details but she had doubted he knew anything much either.

“Yeah… about that…” Kaneki grimaces as he speaks, glancing deeper into the house before he takes Hinami’s arm and pulls her closer to him. Hinami stiffens. She didn’t think her heart can race even more than it had been doing so, but she was instantly proven wrong. She’s close to him-- so so close. Just a little more and she’d be pressed against his chest, maybe with his strong arms around her. That very thought itself is enough to make Hinami tremble.

“The baby… isn’t here,” Kaneki says, his voice dropping quite a bit.

“Oh-oh?” she gasps out, trying to focus on anything else but their proximity, even when her voice sounds faked and uncaring. “Where is it?”

“Hinami…” Kaneki sighs. His hand releases her arm before it moves to the back of his neck, rubbing lightly. “The baby… didn’t make it.”

She’s silent as the words sink in. Kaneki gives her the time to as well, eyes fixed completely on her. Normally, she’d probably be happy; he’s staring at her and only her right now. But right now, Kaneki is the last thing on her mind. The baby is gone. The baby died. But how? She wants to ask him, yet she holds back. An image flashes through her mind. Kaneki’s wife, on the floor, eyes wide in horror as her brother watches her a small distance in front of her. Touka had fallen when she was pregnant and that’s dangerous, right?

In that case, was the baby’s death all Ayato’s fault?

“I-I’m so sorry!” she cries out immediately. She feels obligated to apologize, even though she isn’t the one who had pushed Touka down. Maybe if she hadn’t stood out there that day, maybe if she had gone in the store with Ayato and waited with him, she wouldn’t have met Kaneki and Touka-- Ayato wouldn’t have met Kaneki and Touka. The baby could still have lived. Maybe if she had cut the conversation shorter. Maybe if she had taken his hand and run off with him before Touka could talk to him. Maybe. Maybe.

“It’s nothing to be sorry about, Hinami… We were already prepared for this,” Kaneki laughs flatly. He had laughed, but his sorrow poured out of his eyes. Hinami feels herself choking. Something feels like it’s rising in her throat. She hadn’t eaten anything but it feels like she’s going to throw up.

He was prepared, he said. The knew about it apparently… So was that phone call a lie? He had told Ayato that the baby was fine the other day, hadn’t he? Had he lied back then? Maybe he did it to calm Ayato down and to stop him from worrying. That would be a total Kaneki-like thing, lying and putting people before him so that others didn’t get hurt.

“I… I really am sorry, Big Brother! I’m sorry, this is all Ayato’s fault and--”

“It’s not,” he cuts in and Hinami looks up at him blankly. It’s… not? A lie. That had to be a lie. Kaneki is lying again to help with the guilt and not to worry them too much. Of course he’d be like this. It’s in his character. Kaneki is nice and kind.

“Big Brother, please. I know this is because he pushed her the other day so… Please let me apologize properly… to you and your wife…” She chokes as she speaks and as she blinks her eyes, she feels tears falling out. Hinami immediately wipes them away. She doesn’t want him to see her cry, especially not when it’s over his own kid’s death. Kaneki isn’t crying. Even if he looks like he’s about to cry, she doesn’t want to cry in front of him when he’s trying his best not to.

Kaneki takes a deep breath and sighs. He places his hands on her shoulders, turning her to face him completely. “Listen. I’m not going to pretend Ayato is the best person out there. He brought Touka a lot of stress and that could have let to some problems… but Touka’s pregnancy was problematic from the very beginning. We both knew this was going to happen. Ayato might have hurt Touka… but he didn’t kill our child.”

“That’s a lie…”

“It’s not a lie, Hinami… Why would I lie about this?” Kaneki sighs. “The baby was unlikely to survive in the first place… But Touka still wanted to pull through with the pregnancy for that slim possibility. It didn’t work out. The baby died. We were both pretty much prepared for it, though I’d appreciate if you don’t bring this topic up when Touka’s around later.”

She considers the words and nods with a sigh. “So… Ayato… He really didn’t do anything wrong?”

Kaneki’s eye twitches at her words and he forces out a smile, which honestly looked more like a grimace to Hinami. “Well… I wouldn’t say that… but… don’t worry. Your boyfriend didn’t kill his niece.”

Kaneki must really hate Ayato. Hinami had noticed that it usually was easy for Kaneki to pretend around people. She’d seen him interact with people she knew he disliked. He generally was nice to them and could easily hold a calm, composed face. One wouldn’t have been able to tell Kaneki hated them from merely looking at his conversation with them. On the other hand, Kaneki’s distaste for Ayato was practically scrawled all over his face. She wonders what must have happened between the two of them. Ayato hates Kaneki a lot as well. She’d all along assumed it was because of her feelings for Kaneki--

Wait.

“B-Boy...friend?”

Kaneki nods. “Yeah, Ayato. Your boyfriend.”

“He’s… not my boyfriend…”

“Oh? He’s not? Is he more? A fiancé? A husband?”

“B-Big Brother! It’s not… We’re not--”

“Don’t tell me… He’s the father of your future kid…”

Hinami chokes and she swears her cheeks must be red right now. There’s no way she wants Kaneki to know that she’s sleeping with Ayato. Definitely no way. Kaneki doesn’t have to know that she’s sleeping with anyone in the first place-- he shouldn’t. It’s hard to tell if Kaneki is joking sometimes and this is one of those times. His face shows clear interest and he seems genuinely curious about the situation. But for Hinami, this is terrible. Kaneki is getting the wrong idea. Kaneki, out of all people, is getting the wrong idea. He thinks she’s in a relationship with Ayato. Well, she is in some kind of a weird arrangement with him which she supposes can be called a relationship, but it’s definitely not what Kaneki has in mind.

“I-I! I don’t like Ayato at all!” she cries out. “We’re nothing. There’s nothing. Big Brother, the only one for me is--”

“Oh, that’s sad…” A voice cuts into Hinami’s words and it hits her how she was so close to admitting the truth to Kaneki. Hinami clamps up immediately, putting some distance between her and Kaneki before she turns to the source of the voice. Kaneki retracts his hands and even though she’s thankful for it, she can still feel his hands on her shoulders.

“I think Ayato will be pretty sad to hear that.” The words accompany the emerging figure of Kaneki’s wife. She runs her hand through her hair, before she smiles at Hinami, walking up to her slowly. “I think my brother seemed really taken by you…”

“Ms… Kirishima…” Hinami murmurs. Wait, is that right? Hinami wonders if she should have called Touka something else instead. Mrs Kaneki? Ms Touka?

Touka smiles and wraps her arms around Hinami, holding her tightly for a moment before pulling away. “Just Touka is fine. Are you here alone?”

“Yeah.”

“Ayato’s not with you?”

“He wouldn’t come even if I asked him to… I’m sorry,” Hinami admits. Touka’s face falls at these words and Hinami honestly feels bad for her. She doesn’t know what happened between the two of them, but she finds herself a little annoyed that Ayato would even think of making his own sister upset. He’s honestly lucky. Even if his parents are dead, he has a sister. Unlike him, Hinami has no one.

“It’s not your fault… He’s always been like that,” Touka sighs. “He’s a good person at heart, but he can be a little difficult at times.”

“Don’t you think you’re a little too optimistic about your brother, Touka?” Kaneki sighs. A look of slight annoyance crosses Touka’s face, but she says nothing except to turn around and walk towards the table a slight distance off.

“Don’t just stand there, Hinami. Come and have a seat. We have lunch prepared for you. I hope it’s not too early.” The sudden change in topic takes Hinami by surprise, but from Kaneki’s expression, it felt like it’s something they’ve talked about too many times before. He seems annoyed, but more so exhausted. Hinami wonders what really happened with between Ayato and these two, especially with how Touka and Kaneki seem to think very differently of Ayato.

Hinami takes a seat as Kaneki and Touka enter the kitchen. There’s a slightly awkward atmosphere around them right now and even though she can’t hear the exact words, she hears a soft discussion happening between the two of them in the kitchen. Hinami’s confused. They seemed to have a good relationship when she saw them previously. Kaneki looked so happy and proud to introduce her to Hinami. She also remembered how protective he was over her when she fell and how he had spammed Ayato with calls to try and get him to visit Touka as well. Kaneki and Touka had looked like they were so in love.

She wants to know what’s going on and the temptation to sneak over and eavesdrop was too much to resist. She quietly gets up and tiptoes over to the kitchen, pressing her body against the wall as she tries to listen. She doesn’t have to try too hard; she’s always had sharp ears.

“This is getting ridiculous, Touka,” Kaneki grumbles. “You need to stop.”

“You need to stop pretending that everything is Ayato’s fault and that we’re not responsible at all,” Touka grumbles back. There’s the clacking of what Hinami assumes are plates. They probably are preparing some food for her.

“He’s hurt you so much. Why aren’t you seeing that? He left you alone, Touka.” Kaneki sounds exasperated and Hinami grimaces. Why is Touka having a hard time accepting this? Ayato did leave her after all. He’s ignored her all these time and even when they finally met, he went back to pushing her away. Hinami knows that if she is to be in Touka’s shoes, she’d have given up by now.

“And whose fault was it he decided to leave, huh?” Touka challenges. “Kaneki, I know you didn’t mean to and I know it’s not your fault entirely… but you hurt him too, you know!”

That’s ridiculous, right? Someone like Kaneki hurting someone like Ayato? It doesn’t make sense to Hinami at all. Kaneki is kind and gentle. She doesn’t think he’s capable of hurting anyone at all. Ayato would never hurt her, but she knows that’s not the case for everyone. He’s always hurting Touka and Hinami knows about his old notorious reputation from back when they were in high school. He’d picked fights and broken hearts. To think that he’d get hurt by someone like Kaneki-- it’s absurd to the point she almost laughs.

But as she listens in to the conversation, she realises something once again. She’s nothing to these people. She knows nothing about them; she knows nothing about Kaneki. It feels like it’s always the case, with everyone. Everyone knows about her problems, but she knows no one’s. She doesn’t know what happened between Ayato and his family. He’s never told her, even though he sits by her side and listens to her every time she cries about her own. She doesn’t know about Kaneki as well, not even back when she was younger. She knew he was an orphan like her. She knew he was lonely like she was. But she doesn’t know what happened to his family, even as he always consoled her over the accident that stole her parents from her.

It’s been ten years, or perhaps even more. But even after all this time has passed, things hadn't changed after all. She’s still the same clueless little victim that no one will ever confide it. She wants to tell them that she’s not weak. But will they even listen? She’d spent so much time with Ayato, but he still doesn’t feel comfortable enough to open up to her.

This isn’t fair…

She returns back to her seat feeling more miserable than ever. She hasn’t found out what happened between them, but she doesn’t feel like finding out right now. Maybe ignorance was better. It’s certainly better than knowing all those things happened to people she thought are close and dear to her, yet being kept in the dark about it.

Touka said that Kaneki had hurt Ayato. Yet he kept silent about it even when Hinami spoke about how great of a person Kaneki is. Did that hurt him? Did she hurt him? She wouldn’t have done that if she knew what happened.

Touka and Kaneki come out of the kitchen with a couple of plates. They place them on the table and Kaneki takes a seat, while Touka walks away to the corridor. Hinami panics for a moment, wondering if Touka might have gotten annoyed, but she calms down the moment she notices an extra plate, a kiddish and smaller one.

“Is she going to get your daughter?” Hinami asks.

“Yeah. Ichika gets too distracted when she’s playing. She forgets she’s hungry and her stomach starts acting up,” Kaneki explains with a slight chuckle. “I hope you like omurice. Touka forced me to cook it today. It’s her father’s own recipe.”

“I don’t mind it,” she replies. Kaneki cooked. She’s going to eat Kaneki’s cooking. Her heart races at this thought. She’s watched dramas where girls ate the food guys they liked specially cooked for them. In the end, no matter how bad the food is, they always taste good because of love, right? She wants to squeal-- to think she gets to live through such a corny experience. Ayato will never cook for her. That guy would probably burn the apartment down in the process. But Kaneki can cook and he did. Really, he’s the perfect guy.

A silent voice in her head coughs at her. She’s supposed to be getting over Kaneki. He’s married. He didn’t cook this because he loves her; he cooked this because the woman he loves asked him to. But even as logic is being flung at her, Hinami turns away. She fixes her eyes on the plate of omurice. It looks like a normal plate but even then, she’s never been this excited to dig in.

“Touka thought Ayato might suddenly show up as well so she insisted on this,” Kaneki continues. “Apparently, it’s his favorite back when he was a kid. Their father always cooked it for him whenever he was down… We made some extra for him as well.”

“For Ayato? But he isn’t here…”

“Touka insisted that we packed it and get you to deliver it to him if you happen to be dropping by his place or something.”

“I could do that.” If she has some time to kill, she’d probably go back to her dorm to study a little more, but dropping by Ayato’s place isn’t a detour. It’s still on the way to school.

“I’m not too fond of it though…” Kaneki admits with a sigh.

“It’s really no problem, Big Brother! His apartment is on the way to school. Besides, I think it’ll be better if he has some proper lunch… Otherwise he’d just eat convenience store food again. I don’t have time to go over and cook some lunch for him.”

Kaneki remains silent for a while, before he glances at where Touka had disappeared to. He inches closer to Hinami and lowers his voice. “It’s not that Hinami… Personally, I’m just not a big fan of you hanging out too much with Ayato.”

He’s jealous… Hinami slams the thought down the moment it surfaces in her mind. God, it sounded so stupid.

“Ayato is a good friend,” she says. “He’s always there for me.”

“Are you sure he’s just a friend? It didn’t seem that way to me that day,” Kaneki grumbles.

“We’re not together.”

“Touka was very confident about Ayato’s feelings towards you,” Kaneki says. “And even I… I saw the way you were looking at him when you waited for him.”

Kaneki thinks she’s in love with Ayato. Hinami feels her throat go dry.

“Even if… that’s the case, Big Brother… why does this bother you?” she murmurs. He shouldn’t care, right? He’s in love with Touka. It’s not like Kaneki has feelings for her. He shouldn’t care about who she’s dating or seeing.

“Hinami…” Kaneki sighs. “Look… I care about you and I love you--”

Her eyes go wide and it feels like her body freezes, as does the time around her. He said it. He said he loves her. This feels too surreal. Kaneki loves her? But why? Why would he love her? What’s so special about her? She’s not nearly as pretty as Kaneki’s wife. She doesn’t know a thing about that woman, but even then she already knows she’s amazing. She has to be a strong person after all she’s been through. Hinami isn’t a strong person. She’s weak. She’s a crybaby. There’s no reason he should love her; there’s no reason anyone should love her when there are others around.

Now that she’s thinking about it, she’s never asked Ayato why he was so in love with her as well? She had hurt him a lot but he’s still by her side. She’s never thought anything about her was attractive and lovable in the first place.

Big Brother… I… She doesn’t know what to say. Should she accept it? Should she turn him down? She and Ayato are not officially dating, even if they hang out too much for normal friends. But Kaneki isn’t just together with another woman; he’s married and he has a family. She doesn’t want to ruin that.

“--You’re like a little sister to me,” Kaneki continues and Hinami feels like she’s on a roller coaster. Never once had her hopes risen so high up only to come crashing down in the matter of seconds. Of course, that’s what he means. She feels so dumb for taking it another way— so dumb that she feels like crying right there and then. But Kaneki continues to talk and she’s thankful that she’s able to look down at her food and not keep eye contact with him. He seems oblivious to her emotions, or even if he did notice, he must have taken it as her response to what he’s saying. What’s he saying, again? She realizes she hadn’t been paying attention.  

“I don’t get it,” she grumbles instead.

“God, are you listening to me?” he sighs. “I’m telling you that the only thing Ayato’s good at is hurting the people who loves and cares about him. I don’t want you to get hurt, Hinami. You’re the closest I have to a family outside of my wife and kid.”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” She’s annoyed. She’s so so annoyed. She can’t believe the situation.  She wants to slam her head against a wall and black out permanently. The embarrassment is killing her.

“Fine then. I’m telling you straight right now. End things with Ayato and stay away from him.”

That snaps her out of her thoughts and she looks at Kaneki, eyes wide in disbelief. “What? But why?”

“How many times are you going to make me repeat myself?” Kaneki groans. “He will hurt you, Hinami. You might think the both of you are in love now but it won’t stop him from hurting you. He hurt his own sister, for god’s sake.”

“He won’t hurt me…” Hinami murmurs.

“I’m telling you, he will. You think you’re in love but—”

“I’m not in love with him, Big Brother,” she cuts in. “You got it all wrong. It’s Ayato who loves me.”

Kaneki’s brows furrow at her words, but he stays silent as Touka shows up, carrying a sulking little boy in her arms. “I’m sorry for the delay. Ichika wouldn’t stop her game,” she laughs. She takes her seat in front of Hinami and places Ichika on the seat beside her.

“It’s fine,” Kaneki says, eyeing his daughter. “You have to listen to Mama more or I’m going to take all your games from you.”

Arata looks horrified by this statement, but Touka only sighs and pats her daughter’s head. “Don’t listen to Papa. Don’t worry, he won’t do that,” she says. Hinami watches as Touka takes a spoon and scoops up some food for Ichika before holding it out to her. The girl takes the spoon and slowly puts it into her mouth before she starts chewing on in. Touka smiles, ruffling her hair. “That’s my girl.”

“They grow up so fast,” Kaneki sighs. “Look at my girl, Hinami. She’s feeding herself now.”

Hinami chuckles. Watching Kaneki and Touka with Ichika makes her feel really warm and soft. This must be what it’s like to be a part of a family, she supposes. It’s been far too long since she had one. She doesn’t really remember what it felt like to be doted on and loved. Touka and Kaneki must be extra protective of Ichika right now, especially since they had lost their other child. She can see it in both their eyes; they’re looking at her with a different look than they did the other day she saw them.

Everyone is going through their own things. And again, she feels like an outsider. She doesn’t know how things are going for them now and even if she asks, they will probably tell her not to worry and that everything is fine.

“Are you thinking about your parents?” Hinami’s head snaps up at Touka’s voice and she looks up at her in surprise. The older woman’s eyes soften and she reaches out to Hinami, placing her hand over Hinami’s. “You had a distant, nostalgic look in your eyes when you’re looking at us with Ichika. Kaneki told me you lost them some time back and you’ve been alone since then.”

“No… I… I just realise… it’s been so long. I forgot what it’s like… to be a part of a family.” It’s hard to speak about it. She’s choking as she does. But she forces herself to keep in her tears. She doesn’t want to cry now. She shouldn't. It’s not her who should be sad. She lost her parents years ago. Touka and Kaneki are the ones who are grieving now.

“Kaneki says you’re like a sister to him. I hope you can see me like that as well. You’re welcomed to be a part of this family, Hina, you really are,” Touka continues. She called her ‘Hina’. No one’s ever called her that aside from her parents and Ayato.

“You saved me once from the loneliness I felt when my own parents died. I know we’re not as close now, but I hope you realise you’re not alone in this world,” Kaneki murmurs.

“Nobody ever is alone, Hinami. Even if you can’t come to us, I’m sure you can rely on Ayato at least,” Touka continues. She pulls her hands away and picks up her spoon. “Now, eat. The food’s going to get cold.”

She doesn’t think she can eat. Her stomach is churning and the lump in her throat hasn’t faded. She wants to cry, but it’s not because she’s sad. She feels something else right now. She wants to say something but she doesn’t know what. Instead, she picks up her spoon begins eating as well. The food is delicious. She’s not too surprised it is, considering Kaneki cooked it. She’s never eaten Kaneki’s cooking before but it’s rare that Kaneki is ever bad in something. But she wishes she can enjoy it as much as she wants to, but her mind is reeling from everything.

A family sounds nice. It’s something she has along dreamed of-- herself, back with her mother and father. They’ve always been there for her back then and it felt empty when they were gone. She knew she only managed to pull through and survive because Kaneki was there by her side. They drifted the moment Hinami was old enough to stand on her own two feet. She hadn’t forgotten him back then. Her longing for him only grew. Perhaps it was the security that Kaneki gave her that made her fall for him and to continue longing for him to be by her side again.

I love you. You’re like a little sister to me.

She still feels really sick. Maybe dropping by Ayato’s place after this will be a good idea after all.

A/N: I really wanted to proofread, but I feel like if I do, I might stop myself from posting. I was supposed to post this last night but I fell asleep while typing lol. I hope you guys like this fic. I also knew I promised the sub Ayato smut scene in Chapter 4 and it’s still happening soon, but the word count got too long so it got pushed into Chapter 5. :’) I hope everyone looks forward to that because it really was fun writing it!

Also, word of advice, I won’t trust Kaneki’s narrations about Ayato if I were you. They’re about as biased as Hinami’s narrations about Kaneki. In this story, I’d say the Kirishimas are probably the most reliable of narrators. :D 

Once again, please please do reblog if you like this! It’ll really help me out. Feel free to leave comments in the tags/ reblogs/ replies or through asks!

#tg #tokyo ghoul #ayahina #touken #fueguchi hinami #kirishima ayato #kirishima touka #kaneki ken #far writes stuff #my fic: shattered

[lichamonae]

Touken AU: Touka saw Kaneki  before he went to :re

I always had the feeling that Touka saw him or that she had the feeling he was alive before he showed up in :re.

Sometimes I imagine she saw him doing the groceries for his baby Q’s while she was shopping for her coffee shop, but she only saw a part of his face and his hair, and she went so nervous that she run away.

Then, she regretted that so much that she returned to the shop to see that person again, just to confirm her most longed dream, but she never found him again.

The days passed and went to that same grocery shop at that same hour, again  and again.... nothing.

Later, she hoped that someday he will come to her coffee shop, because it was really close to that grocery shop. Maybe the smell of the coffee will find a way to bring him back, the smell of Anteiku.

The months passed by, the hope she claimed for two years ago was slowly fading away, even she had the strong believe that if he was alive, trying to live a normal life just like her, doing groceries, maybe taking classes or working on a library.

One day she was daydreaming behind the counter of the shop, so she didn´t notice when people came in until she started hearing voices. She walked towards the new clients, but a familiar voice made her stop suddenly.

She was really trying to pay attention to that voice, but at the same time her head started playing games with her. Maybe it was her imagination, from this past months trying to see something that really wasn´t there, and in that same moment, the idea of him been really gone crossed her mind for the first time…

What was with Yomo anyways, not saying a word to the costumers. She shook her fears, her hope and her lost out of her mind, just to perform the human barista like she has been doing this two past years.

She walks as she complains to Yomo, but Yomo don´t say a word, he doesn´t even blink. Then the next thing she sees is a ridiculous fluffy black and white hair, like the one in the shop, and she looks at his face.

Those eyes, so big and grey that were looking at Yomo suddenly immerse in hers. The time Touka and that guy spend looking at each other were no more than 4 seconds before she offered a table, but for her, was an eternity, hours and hours looking all her hopes coming back. Her hearth was racing wildly as her cheeks tried to hide the big revolution in her head, but failed. Hours thinking that thanks to that shop she built with so much effort, even when Yomo told her it was too dangerous keeping the shop so close of their past life, she kept the idea of one day having this place for him to return.

Those two years were worth it, every second of it, and still…she had to let him go.

#touken AU #more like a theorie where touka knew he was alive #or somebody told her abput him #I dunno #I got creative and I did a mini fic #I would like to do more but is really difficult to me to express in english #also srry for the mistakes #I don't speak english the good #that last one was me been sarastic #but it's true

[vesperlionheart]

Creator 2017 Tag Game

Rules: It’s time to love yourselves! Choose your 5 favorite works you’ve created this year (fics, art, edits, etc!) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you’ve brought into the world in 2017. Tag as many writers/artists/etc as you want (fan or original!) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works. <3 Tagged by: @fineillsignup​ Thank you!!! 

1: Obelisk Kingdom of Gods

I finished this baby and by far it has been the most emotional and meaningful of all my writing projects. Spanning three years and nearly half a million words between Kingdom of Man to Kingdom of Gods and all the little one shots in between, it’s my pride and joy. It is what I am most proud of having gotten done this year in terms of writing. 

2 Tam Lin (The sequel to Lindworm)

I just really liked this sequel because I’ve been dreading writing anything in the Lindworm AU for forever and Tam Lin was the first draft that didn’t suck, so I’m proud of it. I love this AU and I need to do a meet up fic between her ‘husbands’ :D

3: Under the Rabbit’s Moon

Okay, so I started writing this Jan. 21st 2017 and not even a year later it has 29 chapters, 149,291 words, and the most reviews of anything I’ve ever written on ff.net. I’ll say it’s my most ‘commercially successive’ piece, even though I always prefer to write AUs and I thought I was such an idiot for saturating the market with another time travel founders fic, but I’ve had a lot of fun with this piece.  

4: Touken Revolution

I just love this stupid little story that turned into something larger than it was supposed to be. My brain can’t do tiny things very well, and with what started as a ‘thank you’ fic for a friend evolved into something more. I have a bad habit of ingesting media and thinking, ‘I like it but I could do it better’ when I mean ‘I could do it in a way I prefer.’ I liked the idea from the Touken games, but wanted it with my own twist. 

5 Inheritance prompts (But only part 7 and part 10 ) 

The title says it better than I can here, I liked my inheritance prompts, maybe even more than The Barn, (maybe) but only the one about the Uzamaki and the one about the Kiri nin. (Maybe I do have a type, that’s fine. I can live with that.) 

Have fun! 

#2017 #creator tag #game #my writing #me #what I'm proud of #mostly Obelisk #I'm so proud of being able to finish it #I'm still emotional about it #like I've cried too much for these stupid stories #I cry when I type #I cry when I reread #I'm a mess #I can't help it

[wishes-upon-dreams]

A few headcanons featuring the touken child:

Imagine...

- Kaneki buying his child a bunny hairclip similar to the one Touka had as a kid. When he spots Touka staring at it often, he decides to buy another two - one for himself and one for his wife - so that, as a family, they could all match.

- Hide having insecurities about his voice, his tone coming out raspy and his words garbled, but Touka and Kaneki treating him no differently and reassuring him that they would always think he’s fine just the way he is. Slowly but surely, Hide starts humming along to some of the songs he’d enjoyed listening to with Kaneki as a teenager more often. The feat is aided by touken baby sitting in his lap, gleefully patting his cheeks, and clapping along with him bringing a smile to his face.

- Hide stealthily warning his best friend’s child not to touch their chin when they're hiding something because their mother will be able to figure it out. Kaneki is puzzled, still not realizing his own telltale movement, but touken child heeds the tip. Sometimes they forget though, and are in awe when, just as uncle Hide mentioned, Touka is able to tell right away

- Kaneki brewing Hide a cup of coffee and teaching his child how to draw the same cat latte art he had once made for his friend

- Shuu telling Yomo about the method he used to explain how babies are made to Naki, which the older male files away for a later date. When touken child asks him the question many years in the future he tries using said method but finds he's terrible with molding clay. Touken child nods as if they understand but also walks away in confusion and decides not to bring it up again. (They eventually find out at the appropriate time through some of their father's books)

- Hinami convincing touken child to show their mother the birds in the nest outside their house. When Touka runs away, touken child is left confused but Hinami brightens at the memory, and even Uncle Ayato slips up and grins a little.

Some headcanons that fall into the AU/ canon-divergent category:

Imagine...

- Arata being in an incoherent state yet, when his grandchild is born and cries out, he smiles and thinks about how they sound just like Touka. The first time touken baby grips Arata's finger he falls silent, stares, then sheds tears and when the baby follows suit, Touka clings to them both. Kaneki is left awkwardly trying to give hugs to all of them for comfort and even approaches Ayato in an attempt to get him to help out

-Touka bringing the baby around and Arata struggling to get better bit by bit for his grandchild.

-:Naki surviving and having a soft spot for the touken baby, so much so that he asks Tsukiyama to make a tiny white suit outfit for them, dubbing them an honorary member of the White Suits. Not to be left out, Shousei, the tallest of the bunch, finds he enjoys lifting the small child up onto his shoulders which has the baby squealing in excitement  since, just like their mother and her side of the family, they like places that are high up

#tokyo ghoul #kanetou #touken #kirishima touka #kaneki ken #kirishima family #kirishima arata #hideyoshi nagachika #tsukiyama shuu #yomo renji #kirishima ayato #fueguchi hinami #naki #shousei #kirishima family headcanons #my headcanons #posted these awhile ago elsewhere #almost forgot to share here too

[pseudocitrus]

Hello! Now that it’s December, I remember your Christmas/birthday/New Years fic with Haise as a TA and Touka as a college student ☺️ If it’s not too much to ask, I was wondering if you have any Xmas hcs based on the current touken but in a peaceful au? Maybe Kaneki buys a ton of gifts for his baby that isn’t even born yet, and even though Touka thinks he’s going a little overboard, he convinces her to be ok with it cuz he gets toys related to rabbits 🐰 Also, he gets them rings w/ their initials

i don’t have any HCs for this scenario right now, but i love your ideas!!! 😍 like the first time kaneki comes home with wrapped objects, toukacchan thinks it’s cute…then, the next day, she’s surprised, but still thinks it’s sweet…then, the third and fourth day, she is a little like, ;;;;;;???

but she can’t quite stop him because by that point she’s probably so pregnant that she doesn’t have the energy to put up a struggle and also maybe she’s generally glowing and happy with the prospect of having a really pleasant christmas, haha. maybe kaneki carefully wraps up all the presents and for christmas the “date” they do together is touka unwrapping all of them and kaneki explaining everything he’s excited about: here’s my favorite picture book i had when i was a kid, here’s a rabbit toy, here’s a rabbit onesie, oh here’s my other favorite picture book, here’s another book i just thought looked good and there’s a rabbit in it, here’s another rabbit toy, here’s a rabbit cap that’s very fuzzy…our baby will look really cute in this, right??? and touka is trying very hard not to burst into hormonal tears and can’t stop herself and gets mad about it, hahaha.

AND I LOVE….at the end the final gift is a matching set of golden rings for the two of them……..KEN & TOUKA -SOB-

if it’s the current touken, it would be really sweet if there was also a rehash of the chateau christmas party — and maybe it would be like — the first time everyone gets together “casually” after all the wild events of recent chapters. kaneki is really nervous that the Qs won’t get along with anteikrew but everything turns out fine and everyone ends up getting permission to carefully touch touka’s belly to try and feel the kicking. maybe urie is the first one to successfully feel anything and unexpectedly he tears up a bit. ; w ;

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I know erased is a nishitou fic but is there a possibility that touka ends the up with Kaneki instead of nishiki? I am asking because writing a fic about a ship doesn't necesarily means that the ships is gonna end up toghether

Well, Erased was never meant to be a Nishitou fic in the first place. It was supposed to be about Touken. But halfway through writing it, seeing how close Nishiki and Touka had gotten and seeing how the situation was playing out, it had pushed Nishiki and Touka closer together and Kaneki and Touka further apart. Erased has always been about the “what if…” possibility between these characters. What if Kaneki had let himself be ruled by his selfishness and hunger for power that had left his sense of “protecting” those he loved so warped it became toxic? What if Nishiki and Touka had turned to each other to ease the pain they were both in, but their feelings for one another bubbled up into something more? No one wanted or expected what happened to happen - it just ended up being that way as much as it hurt everyone involved.

But listen, Kaneki and Touka are forever linked in this au because of the child they have. The epilogue of Erased has already hinted to Nishiki and Touka taking their relationship to next level, Nishiki is raising Kaneki’s son, Touka is expecting another baby, and Kaneki is still behind the scenes pulling strings.

I will say this, in the Erased sequel, Kaneki is not done with Touka and as much as Touka has chosen to move on and start a new life, she will always have a place in her heart for the Kaneki she once knew. They will cross paths again - but will there be a chance for them to get back together? Maybe. 

Sorry for the long reply, but I really wanted to get across what Erased was all about. But I also have a question for those who have read the series and have seen what Kaneki has done - do you really feel Touka should go back to him?

I remember a lot of people really rooting for Touken, but ended up really liking how Nishitou happened…it left them torn. So, I’m curious.

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