#to my own satisfaction.............lol..........

[blazefirefox]

The Bellflower Witch

"If you see a shadow slip by you and the sounds of a feline, beware, for Eastridge's resident witch is on the hunt. She'll show no mercy and will leave nothing behind."

Here's my Veldigun OC, Jinx, or The Bellflower Witch!

She goes by she/they pronouns. Her former partner was Barbara, with her current one being Mortimer. They aren't very fond of Clyde, indifferent to Winfrey (at least at first...), is friends with Simon and The Flock, wants to put Klaus in a meat grinder, and wants to get closer to Jack. Hates Lankmann (The Doctor)

History

When they were still in their ooze form, they pretty much exclusively consumed stray cats, mice, and deer if they were lucky enough. This resulted in her primarily feline form. She was quite timid during this period, mostly because she was alone, and her small stature didn't exactly help things for her fighting-wise. That is until they met a young girl by the name of Jennifer Perkins in the county of Eastridge, who, despite their odd appearance, grew fond of the Veldigun. Jinx also valued her companionship, and would monitor Jen's entire life. Unfortunately, Jennifer would be found by Jinx bleeding out in the middle of the forest after a mugging gone wrong. In a last ditch attempt to save her, Jinx consumed Jen, so that she would "live forever" in them. Jennifer Perkins, at 17 years-old, would be the first victim of The Bellflower Witch.

After consuming Jen, Jinx's form would become slightly bigger, and more alike to a "true" Veldigun, although she was still very lonely. Until she met Barbara, another Veldigun finding refuge in the woods. She would immediately become Jinx's mother figure, and would remain partners and best friends. Since she now had the stability to form her own personality, some of her snark comes through, and she starts to act more like an angsty teen lol. Things were relatively well now. Both Jinx and Barbara were hesitant to feed on humans, with Barbara only consuming those that think they don't have anything else to live for and Jinx only feeding on them when desperate. Both of their worlds would turn upside down when the Lankmann Foundation reared its ugly head. The foundation's best hunter, Clarisse von Arnham, was tasked to capture Veldigun, in which she was happy to oblige. The forest around Eastridge was becoming more and more dangerous for the Veldigun pair to reside in, as Clarisse had made it her mission to purge the species through traps and frequent hunting expeditions. Barbara and Jinx would be able to evade her, but their luck ran out when Clarisse caught them off guard and managed to subdue Barbara. In a moment of pure adrenaline, Jinx consumed Clarisse, along with eating and brutalizing her remains. This would lead up to Jinx's current form.

For a few years after, Barbara and Jinx managed to stay low, with the traps Lankmann setting up becoming more dangerous to make up for the loss of the foundation's most prestigious hunter. In one of these traps, Jinx's right (her right) horn would be broken off, but it would regrow. Eventually, the Lankmann Foundation was able to capture the pair by cutting off their food source until they were on the brink of starvation and taking them in then. Lankmann himself made the executive decision of sending in Barbara to communicate with a captured Winfrey. When things were going nowhere, some of the Caretakers went into the cell to retrieve Barbara, which prompted Winfrey to freak out and become uncontrollable. Unfortunately, Barbara would be caught in the crossfire. Although technically she was consumed by Winfrey, to the physical world, Barbara was dead, and Jinx had to witness it all. For months afterward, Jinx would be kept in that infernal asylum, feeling the loneliness of their early days, and the same mourning of Barbara as they had for Jennifer. Caretakers would sometimes come into their cell and take notes on their behavior, but they'd never give them the satisfaction of doing anything interesting for them. Even rarer still, regular employees of the asylum would come to take a look at the creature, none of them staying for long. Except for one...

why did the artist keep bothering her? it doesn't matter, she missed the company

The Doctor himself even paid her a visit once, but he didn't stay for long, and thank god he left so soon. Jinx lived in this cycle until hell came crashing down. Clyde infiltrated the asylum.

Trivia

Her voice claims for her felidae form was just a cat ig, her juvenile form was Veronica Sawyer (Winona Ryder) from Heathers (1989), and her current voice is Ramona Flowers (Mary Elizabeth Winstead) from Scott Pilgrim vs. The World/Takes Off

she is very mitski-penelope scott-jack stauber coded

they hate Clyde so much because they encountered it when they were still just a cat and it literally threw her 💀

she also kinda blames it for her capture because it "should've just left the stupid county alone"

when they're in the area, Jinx just sometimes... chills at Simon's barn; they both relate to not feeding on humans (ofc Jinx still does, but only when desperate)

Jinx's biggest fear is becoming like Clarisse, as some of her """"""interesting""""""" personality traits slipped into Jinx's demeanors, and she's worried that she'll just become a danger that will be abandoned

yeah she has issues save her please

im hinging a lot of her backstory on the headcannon that veldigun can control if their touch is dangerous (y'know, the melding bone and skin stuff)

urghhhh its 1 am what am I doing with my life

after consuming Clarisse, Jinx would start physically eating their victims after claiming their minds, just so they wouldn't leave anything behind

sometimes she purposefully goes into the town to freak out some humans for gits and shiggles

her arms can stretch longer than their normal length

Jinx is cunning, but not as smart as Clyde, but what she can beat him out with is actually just brute strength (she never skips arm day)

teeeechnically her name is Jennifer since that was her first human consumption, but, no offense to Jen, Jinx thinks the name is kinda lame and kept Jinx

illl add more later ig idk

MORE INFO IN REBLOG

ANOTHER THING, I'd like to thank @havoc-bloom for being so kind and letting me info dump to them about her around a year ago, you've helped me so much by talking to me, even if we haven't done it in a while :)

here she is ive been working on this ref ever since volume 1 came out im so glad its finished! ofc now I have to do all my other ocs and my other thing for jinx but eh. im going to go sleep

ill try to edit this in the morning, but I hope you like her!

but more references as a treat

#dreams of an insomniac #pastraspec #veldigun oc #veldigun #OC: Jinx ~ The Bellflower Witch #you did not see me accidentally post this before it was finished #more info in reblog

[oooocleo]

hmm hmmmmm hmmm

#my art #bug fae fate game #my take on my friends dragonfly fae design! #i was gonna offer these as a quick comm option but actually im incapable of drawing anything Quickly #to my own satisfaction.............lol.......... #esp when ppl r paying me #i might go ahead and open new YCH standee comms for september though!

[kash-phia]

In the process of trying to achieve your dreams you lose your best friend

#i just wanted to doodle something angsty lol #rival blue #rival green #trainer leaf #pokemon #pokemon hgss #pokemon frlg #conflictingshipping #kashart #hmmm this happens after their big fight tm #so during or before hgss #ah theyre both 17ish here i suppose #i wanna eventually make a comic abt that purely for my own satisfaction hahahaha

[psymachine]

some Lost Boys inspired 80's vampire macdennis

one of my pieces for the @sunnyhalloweenzine!

#iasip art #iasip fanart #sunnyween zine #macdennis fanart #macdennis #iasip #i just stuck their current adult selves in the 80s because it's what i wanted ok #this was fully for my own satisfaction but hopefully others can enjoy lol #happy halloween!! #machinegoods #blood #suggestive

[captain-hen]

#the holy trinity

[Image Description: 6 small gifs from 9-1-1. Gif 1: A scene from season 2, episode 6. Through the lens of a camera, the footage being grainy and unsaturated; a shot of Eddie, wearing sunglasses, moves into focus as he says, “Cap needs room to work,” in response to Bobby, in the background, asking Taylor and her cameraman to back off. Gif 2: In the same scene, now in proper color, Taylor tells Eddie, “I’m working too,” Eddie smiles sarcastically as he ushers her back and says, “You can work further back.” Gif 3: A scene from season 5, episode 7. In the police station, Athena looks amused as she asks Lou, “Taylor Kelly. I heard you two really got into it. You posted a uni to keep her out?” Gif 4: From the same scene, Lou shrugs and says emphatically, looking exasperated, “I couldn’t help myself. The woman is a menace.” Gif 5: A scene from season 5, episode 17. In Buck’s apartment, he looks confused and concerned as he asks Chim and Hen, “Okay, guys, what’s going on?” Gif 6: From the same scene, a shot of Chim meaningfully nodding at Taylor who’s beside him as he says, “Buck, I don’t know...” /End ID]

#911edit #911 fox #* #usersharky #tuserksn #userisha #tuserzee #userkourt #usermissjessie #userceecee #userpaolo #usermaripal #this is purely spite induced for my own satisfaction lol #which is why i'm not waiting for peak hour to post it #anti taylor kelly

[garnetblackwater]

The Rustle of Leaves

Human female x forest guardian

Chapter 4-What is there to say

The drive was quiet, Vanessa lost in her thoughts. No music playing, not even the radio buzzing away. She could only push herself to get home. Simple questions mumbled to herself. 

But why?

What does he want?

What even is he?

What did he mean by it is up to me?

Have I made a drastic mistake?

Why me?

What have I done? 

Just circular thoughts. Before she realized it, her keys were in hand standing before her door. Deep breaths. Deep breaths. The moment she reached for the door it swung open. Sandra Baker stood at 5 foot 6 inches, Light brown skin, a purple bob with a side part, several piercings on her ears and tattoo on her forearm holding the door, matching the one on Vanessa.

Sandy goes to yell, but once she sees the state of Vanessa she can only cry again. “Come on Cheeks, please don’t say I look that bad?” Vanessa walks into her apartment, moving Sandy out the way to look in the mirror. Blood had dried across her forehead and eyebrow, with small trails down her chin and neck. “Oh fuck me that looks bad,” vanessa turned back to sandy, the girls desperately trying to wipe tears away. “I am sorry, Sandy,” Vanessa swept the girl into a hug, “I promise to be more careful. I never meant to worry you.” Vanessa also began to cry, the stress of her encounter, the unknown consequences, and seeing her best friend worried to tears. It was all too much to hold in. 

“What happened Van? Do we need to take you to the hospital?”

“No, apparently I’m fine. Mostly scrapes, and everything looks worse than it actually is.” Vanessa sighed, “At least that's what the rangers said.” The rangers being Ten. Fuck what can I even tell her? Can I tell her anything at all?

Sandy could see the cogs spinning away in Vanessa’s head, a deep sense of worry filling her chest. “Vanessa what happened?” Sandy asked sternly.

The hair on the back of Vanessa’s neck stood on end. “How dare you use my government name? Who am I to you?” Sandy crossed her arms, Vanessa’s jest utterly disregarded.

”Ugh I don’t know what to say.”

“Say anything at this point, Vanessa?”

“Stop saying my name like that! Gosh its just,” Vanessa looked for any excuse she could use. She wasn’t sure she could say anything, let alone if she should. She doubted Sandy would believe her. Probably think she definitely had a concussion and rush her to the hospital. “It's just that I feel bad for rushing out of there so soon. I didn't properly thank them for saving my life. I feel like I should go back.” Not a lie exactly, Vanessa did feel bad for rushing away, but also she needed to go back. She had so many questions to ask, particularly in relation to this stupid deal she made.

“Well you are not going back alone.”

“Sandy, it's fine.”

“Nope. Not a negotiation. I will go with you. I’m not working next weekend, we can go together. We can even bring a thank you gift. Baked goods or some shit.” Sandy pushed behind her, “No go get cleaned up while I order food. You look like shit and I’m hungry.” Vanessa hugged Sandy and gave her a peck on the cheek before heading to the bathroom. Now that she could finally see herself in full, she really did look awful. Covered in muck and mud, scratched all over her legs, face and arms.The wound on her head had soaked her jacket,and blood had also dripped down the arm of her jacket, a bit splashed on her shorts. Well the magic tree man said I should be fine, if that fucking mens anything. Vanessa picked up her phone and snapped a picture. A day to remember I guess. Oh I should warn the others. Showing up to school tomorrow will be easier if some people know. 

She went to the “x-men” group chat skimming past all the new messages. Storm- Just a warning for tomorrow, I look like hell. I’ve been through hell. So don't freak out tomorrow.

Cyclops- Yeah yeah. Dramatic as always. Your bad day is still a good day compared to others.

Wolverine- Drink more water. Your hangover shouldnt be that bad.

Permafrost- I hate to agree but they are right.

More messages came through giving the same sentiment. Levels of disbelief and down play. “Well if they don't want to believe me.”

Storm- picture sent

Vanessa set her phone down as her notifications went wild. “Time for a shower.” She was indeed dramatic. Her body stung and ached all over. The heat of the shower acting as both a blessing and a curse. She hoped that she could wash away the grime on her body and the memories from her mind, even if just for a moment.

Ten left the rangers office and went back into the forest, his mind abuzz. The day had been significant for him. He hadn’t planned for that deal to be made, truly. He really only intended to lead her to safety. But he couldn’t help but admire her bravery, not just another lamb led by fear. She was definitely afraid he could smell it on her at the time, but she used her head. He enjoyed the look on her face in those moments. The defiance in her stance, the anger on her face, she was ready to fight for her life. Ten admired her in that moment, he couldn’t help but talk to her and see how far it would go.

It was worth it in the end. 

Ten angled himself in the branches and looked to the stars before he closed his eyes. “Vanessa Mae Carthwright,” her name like a prayer on his lips. He imagined her face again. Back to the moment she was in his arms, the softness of it when she finally let her guard down, brow no longer furrowed. Even as she wagged her feet to be set free, it brought a smile to his face. His heart raced as he remembered the feel of her skin, her hands gripping his arms, the closeness of her. She was so soft and plush against him, but she was also warm. Warmth was not something he often got alone in the forest. He would see her again, whether she came back to him or he had to hunt her down, he would see her again. He would experience the magic that was her again.

#A shorter in between chapter #I'm writing so many things at once lol #Honestly I should just post the other stuff too get it out of my head #feel free to ask questions #I half ass edit things so may need to clarify #writing #monster boyfriend #monster lover #monster fucker #forest monster #monster #monster romance #monster x human #writing for my own satisfaction #writers of tumblr #writers and poets #writeblr #writers on tumblr

[thebirdandhersong]

at this rate, the first long-form work of fiction I'll have finished since 2018 will be a Lockwood and Co fanfic. I'm actually quite tempted to print myself a copy to celebrate this feat after I'm done writing this fic (and done editing, and all that).......

#(i'm not counting the short story collection i did last year) #anyway it is CRAZY that i've written at least 30k words in a week and a few days. at least i know now that i CAN do it lol #REALLY tempted to print a copy for myself when it's done actually!!! i'm quite proud of things i figured out #like the original characters i've added the character arcs and the themes i'm trying to weave into the story #also i do really really want the satisfaction of holding my own writing in bound form #writing adventures #songbird's year of feeling 22 #i'll have to figure out logistics like cover design fonts etc etc later but the idea of it is very attractive indeed

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

looking at the goodreads reviews for five's legacy while trying to decide whether to try the audiobooks was a Mistake, because i forgot that 99% of them were from 2014 fandom and therefore unbridled rabid hatred lmfao

reviews: i don't care if they try to make him sympathetic, he's an unlikable spoiled brat!!

me, staring at the kid who literally thought homelessness was a luxury because he could steal food, clothes, and pocket change to watch movies without having all of it systematically taken away from him by someone who controls his entire life; destroyed every one of his drawings for years so he could have them at all for a minute before he did, because if he kept them they'd be Belongings; was eventually found out anyway, and monitored constantly afterward to keep him from doing even that; and still destroys them out of habit years after escaping: ah yes. much brat. very spoil

#lorien legacies #LL number five #LL tag #the salt files #abuse cw #homelessness cw #when i say have zero patience for five hate; including love-to-hate; this is why lmfao #the entire fandom was a wall-to-wall tidal wave of mindless; horrific cruelty for years #with at best the occasional 'well i mean he is kind of sympathetic and i feel a little bad for him BUT HE'S STILL AN EVIL BITCH I HATE HIM' #it was really truly fcking awful; especially as someone he resonated with in some raw; painful; and deeply personal ways #and except for unpacking the text itself i just have no interest in seeing or having it anywhere near me ever again #don't even get me started on the constant graphic gory public fantasies about maiming; torturing; and killing him #often explicitly naming him being fat as a factor #that would get like tons of notes lmao #It Was Very Bad Squirtle #and why i take spiteful satisfaction in being able to loudly and unabashedly hate canon!nine in my own space now lol #It is My Turn to Go Ape Shitt #anyway. i have a lot of thoughts about how even the most paranoid and uncharitable of five's assumptions about the other garde #stem from him desperately wishing they would come and rescue him from his abusive home; and after years of isolation #and dashed hopes he ended up coming to the conclusion that they don't care because they think he is worthless #in exactly the ways that rey has tried to make him so #i hurt squirtle #fatphobia cw

[littlespoonevan]

buck's old friend asks for a threesome with his wife > bi buck canon > eddie crush > trapped in an elevator together and confess feelings this is how we can still win

askdjfh i see the vision!!!!!

lmao but honestly, i know logically it's probably not a threesome request but mY GOD they really did word it like it is y'know?????

#i would HOWL if it actually was though going by the things oliver has said it doesn't really add up #but who knows we've been right before lol #also it would just be so Great to actually have canon bi buck confirmed for my own satisfaction #911 related #season 6 speculation #anon #asks

[brewgiesart]

#artists on tumblr #traditional art #pencil sketch #study #brewgie’s art #sketchbook📒 #this was half ref half imagination so not really a study but it looks like one so.. #this page is slightly creamy/grey page next to a white one so it looks a bit off as photo but hey #I’ve been doing traditional a lot more this month n it’s been very healing n soothing definitely I think this year I’ll do way more #need to finish this sketchbook anyways lol I made it a year and a half ago n it’s still not done usually I do it in a year so for my own #personal satisfaction I want to chug at it

[jaegerbroshoe]

So I’m considering doing a reread of snk to close that chapter of my life once and for all but if I do, I don’t know if I should document my thoughts or not.

Like I’m considering doing a video analysis of each volume or something but then I’m like…why put so much effort into it, you know? Especially if it will just be met with ending worshipers attacking me for my opinion.

#I guess it’s a matter of whether it will help me move on or not #rather than people’s reaction to it #I don’t know honestly #part of me really wants to prove the worshipers wrong too #for my own sense of satisfaction lol #me stuff #snk thoughts

[midnitedraws]

i made it 😭😭 draft 1 is done 😭😭😭

#midnite talks #wish it were 300 pages for my own satisfaction LOL #it's only like. 25k longer than i wanted it to be. haha

[unproduciblesmackdown]

speaking of “what else is new” the eternal genre of Takes available online or off through any platform that go like “this hangup / issue people can have can impede the success of like, connection & relationships & other aspects of someone’s life” like oh groundbreaking insight, go on. & then the conclusion is just “And That’s Bad” generally through like, criticizing any hypothetical individuals in a “have you considered that that’s bad? have you considered stopping? why haven’t you? sounds like a lack of Individual Responsibility...and maybe...You Suck??” vein like oh, again, groundbreaking. and it’s fast easy & free [sense of righteousness] i guess b/c it’s like oh i’m just helping, are you saying it’s Good / Better to have to struggle with / be impeded by xyz issues hmm? and like “here i am up on the cross >:)” satisfaction if anyone’s disagreeing lol like not only am i correct but ppl Hate it so it’s gotta be cutting edge, rather than it’s like, this is the most basic, well-trodden ground possible here. people hear about the notion of Ableism, resent the idea this might be a complicated thing to engage with requiring effort (but will also complain that idk it’s not serious b/c oh alllll people want to do is unreasonably issue a list of frowned upon language. like yes that’s all that exists and it must be frivolous vs being if nothing else an exercise in asking someone to shift their perspective / framework around taken for granted ideas) and then be like “well enough is enough (hasn’t done anything) i think this has gone too far & have we considered that it sucks to be depressed?? what about the people Dealing with other people dealing with issues who are doing everything right by being Not Mentally Ill but burdened or punished by the mental illness of others. not Their responsibility” like yes if we keep this in the realm of Individual Responsibility Apolitical Vibing then we can just call it a day. what does anyone expect the “absolutely demolishing these hypothetical Complacent mentally ill people, one issue at a time until everyone learns they should strive to be normal” to accomplish here. like oh enough, nay, Too Much consideration of Supporting anyone out here. i think it’s time we turned to voicing Disapproval & even moral judgment condemnation of these hypothetical individuals. can’t argue with that unless, what, you Want people to have problems? you think it’s good and right to potentially harm other people / make interpersonal relationships more difficult??? sounds like someone has some growing up to do 9_9 lmfao like again. just visionary & groundbreaking insights which is why this approach has kept being continuously reinvented here & everywhere else this whole time. like how would this relevantly / helpfully apply to the Reality of anyone’s situation on any side of anything. vs like well at least some people will be mad about This one, good posting

#ppl going ''hmm what a hugely complex topic tied to all other aspects of our lives...which'd be Resolved if everyone had My Common Sense'' #take it back on this site by a decade like ppl going ''trans people on tumblr are so unreasonable'' & ''tumblr's so Anti Recovery'' #the catchphrase of like. idfk ''recovering'' to a state of being nt i guess. b/c that's The Way & how it works for absolutely everyone #like of course there's gonna be idk Takes abt how to hypothetically Support ppl's struggles that'd be deemed Mental Health Issues which are #in turn at least Potentially counterproductive / unfounded/misguided but like. well throw the whole matter out then right #forget everyone in turn having to struggle through ongoing efforts to support Other People in this realm & plenty of others; theoretically #just say it Sucks of people to make other people deal with / be negatively affected by their Issues & who could disagree? toxicity gang?? #or even just the vague implication that if it's Extra Effort put on Normal People who are acting correctly then that's bad too #cue any ideas that like. if friends are too much effort in [pick any way you could interpret that] it's Bad #or really if they're Any effort it can be seen as bad. you Are a romcom protagonist & friends Are unconditional nonstop backup #i think if going ''have you considered that you suck'' at people hard enough would bestow w/e concept of perf Mental Health uponst them #then we'd've been all set by now...and does everyone really think that the like. call it mainstream ideas abt Good Relationships and/or #Good Communication are universal & objective & immutable & everyone agrees on those standards already right now #and like. A Post doesn't have to be something someone thinks applies to everyone / isn't abt their personal experiences but #the way plenty of shit is phrased in posts Pwning the concept of someone being Too Anxious or sm shit you Know it's meant to be general lol #and even then of course it doesn't have to be like ''any random post must be dedicated to real; specific support or it's worthless'' #but people clearly also like. are like yep this is on principle; ideally this will Affect people & they'll Get Right #(i mean probably it's more just about their own satisfaction in feeling totally justified while Also getting inevitable negative reaction) #but also like you know what. someone's Issues may not be contained within the realm of what either You *or* They can control #that like all issues of what provides ppl material support / meets their material needs are matters of Mental Health Support or what have u #like pointing out that shit like healthcare & housing & accessibility are matters of suicide prevention... #like yeah of course individual responsibility is relevant in everything but there's broader concepts of Responsibility beyond that #only addressing the individual responsibility in any matter is the flattest easiest shit you can do. why else is it so popular lol #and going ''but have we tried ascribing personal failures / inferiority into ppl struggling w/issues????'' yes. we have & continue to do so #like 95% of my life including now i am beset every day w/someone who absolute Won't take personal responsibility ever & yea it sucks #but i'm not like. making that ''wow this sucks a ton'' experience my like Worldview lmfao this isn't now my Personal Policy abt shit #going ''have we considered that anything but deliberately punishing Mental Illness just Enables/Encourages their destructive vibes??'' yes. #''well if everyone just accepted their Personal Responsibility in all ways this & any other matter would be completely resolved forever??'' #then by that framework if anyone goes ''well that's not quite it'' you can go ''sounds like someone isn't accepting their Responsibility'' #checkmate Individuals...

[clit-a-cola]

My ideal Christmas/Yule set up is like.

Do not start decorating any earlier than the day after Thanksgiving but no later than December 1st.

Try to get Christmas/Yule/Holiday cards out in like the first week.

No tress til December 1st.

I would love to have both a real tree and an aluminum tree.

I'd like to decorate the real one with personal and modern stuff. The aluminum with retro/space age/mid century stuff.

My mom always had this Victorian style tree when I was growing up and honestly I'd love to do. I get a lot of my uhhh ADD from her so some years we'd have like 5 different fake tress each with a different theme n stuff. Ice tree, red tree, goth tree etc. Honestly in an ideal life I'd be able to do a few more theme trees like that if I had the time/energy/money.

Winter bonfire and feast on the 21st :)

And a get together with friends and family sometime before the 25th to exchange cookies and presents.

And a big New Years Eve get together at the end of the year. Perhaps with fireworks.

#blogging #And that's like before even putting in like #a spouses/partners/living friend's holiday stuff. #I'm ready to go all in on Channuka Qwanza or Boxing day or whatever #if they want me to lol. #Daydreaming about having my own place to do this sort of stuff in some. #Everyone who hates the holidays is so valid I can't stress this enough. #But I'm glad that for some reason I really do enjoy Doing Stuff For The Holidays. #It gives me something to look forward to. #I love decorating and writing cards and baking and the satisfaction of making a great god damn meal. #I'm grateful I'm able to enjoy these things AND be able to do them for the most part. #Don't even get me started on hosting parties and wrapping presents #it's like a competetive sport t me.

[still-with-koo]

https://twitter.com/jeonjkloops/status/1640413907368964096?s=20

He always looks so cozy.... i wanna hang out with him so bad plss 😭😭😭🩷

Oh and the audacity to bring up ck 🥲 he thinks he's funny ..

- ☺️

OH HE LOOKS SO COZY 🥺

If there is one word to describe his lives it’s cozy 🥺 Someone on here said that his aesthetic seems to be all edgy and tough with the piercings and tattoos and black outfits but really he’s just an adorably sweet ‘let me sit in my room under twinkling lights in cute lil beanie sipping from a lil drink with a straw’ cozy kinda guy and they are so right 😭 his stomper boots aren’t fooling us we know he’s a sweetie pie :((( and me too i want to hang out with him so bad 💔

PLEASE the audacity of this man knows no bounds, casually bringing up ck like he didn’t just slap us all in the face with his smexy self. he really does think he’s funny 🙄

Oh no, I’m not cool at all I swear 😭 it was just the strangest coincidence bc I haven’t listened to my cover in forever and just happened to have it playing when I realized Jungkook was live and turned it on to see he was listening to heizes cover. completely blew my mind 🤯 OMG YES, let’s collab 🤩

#I dream of actually posting my music one day but it’s just not possible (or ready) yet 😔 #Im not sure if I’ll ever be able to share my music but I still work on it for my own satisfaction lol #oh to have jungkook hear one of my covers or my songs i think my life would be complete at that point 😂 #but I’ll settle for a jungkook x heize collab 😂 #if he collabs with heize or leehi i will evaporate #although i thought i would evaporate if jungkook works with ck and here we are #idk how i survived that teaser tbh #how did you fare? you ready for the drop tomorrow? #i’m scared 😭😭 #the teaser is already super overwhelming i might need someone to hold my hand when the whole spread drops 🤚 #praying for us both 🙏 🫠 #☺️ anon #letters to lilo

[oflgtfol]

its such a shame because i actually genuinely enjoy my job at michaels so long as im not main cashier like i genuinely enjoy being out on the floor and packing out truck or doing inventory or sales signs or price changes etc and even when customers ask me questions, i dont even mind then, and i actually enjoy helping customers out with different projects they work on. if i could make a living by working at michaels i think i’d even maybe just do that. but well i cant do that so whatever

but even as just a part time thing right now its driving me insane that im only working 10 hours a week. like its beyond frustrating in words i cant describe. its so insulting to be one of the longest working employees at this location, to be one of the few people who even enjoy working here, and then get fucking pocket change in exchange for all that

like i enjoy the work but i hate rhe company yknow. its driving me up a wall how extreme the hour cuts are this year compared to last year, the credit card and the rewards drive me up a wall, the stupid extend warranty thing that they rolled out with no warning that we had no formal training on and interrupts the flow of the register because it asks if you want a warranty on thee stupidest things, the lack of ability to get raises, the callous price increases, etc its just an endless list. the company as a whole is fucked and i hate it

but in terms of my individual store, and the “dirty work” of being a floor employee, i genuinely enjoy it and it sucks so fucking much to be pushed out of my job because of the shit pay and the shit hours. i know the philisophy of working minimum wage is that the company doesnt deserve for you to push yourself hard for minimum wage but like — i enjoy the work, i like being able to do these things, its actually fun for me to do these things, it takes my enjoyment out to half ass it. im not doing it for the company im doing it because for whatever reason, i actually have fun doing it. but yes it is driving me up a fucking wall that i get rewarded for that with these shit fucking hours. in fact it makes it harder for me to do my job when i actually do get hours - if im not in the store for a whole week then i miss a whole week of things being moved around the store as seasonal is shuffled, how the fuck am i supposed to accurately help customers locate things if i have such long gaps between shifts that my own knowledge becomes outdated? and when i cant accurately do my job then i dont have fun doing it - because then i feel like an idiot for being wrong or being uncertain, at best, or i feel like shit because then the customer is rude af when they find it instead and then single you out for not knowing

sorry i dont know what my point is here i just checked my schedule for tr next few weeks and im seriously at 10 hours a week and i have never had hours this short before im just so fucking mad about it. i am seriously bringing home larger paychecks from my damn food pantry job thats hard limited at 8 hours a week because that income is at least nontaxable

#brot posts #its just. its insulting i guess is what im saying #i know nobody else enjoys the job as much as i do #i always volunteer to stay late to get my work done if i didnt get to finish during my scheduled shift #i try to cover other shifts as much as i can #and granted those 2 are mostly bc im so eager for more hours that i’ll take hours where i can #but i also like staying late bc i like being able to finish the work i started !! #i like doing a good job lol!!!!! #thats part of my own personal ethos and satisfaction rather than any loyalty to the company #i just. i dont want to quit bc i love my coworkers i love this environment #and i dont want to quit and go elsewhere and then find myself in a worse environment. yknow? #what if my coworkers suck what if management sucks #and in terms of the actual store environment i think its entirely bc its a craft store #i dont think i’d enjoy the work itself as much if it was some other type of retail #like its specifically bc i enjoy art even if i dont do much of it myself compared to actual professionals #i like giving advice to people who come in with grand project ideas #i like seeing people who actualy come in with their projects and show it off #i like being able to occasionally do art On the clock!! #its fun! its so fun and i dont think any other type of min wage job has this #so i dont WANT to leave !! not until im ready to move onto another job thats more along the actusl career i want #but holy fuck THE HOURS !! ARE SO BAD !!!! #i cant help but feel so insulted like is the store manager punishing me specificslly for some reason!! #but no its just the company . literally everyone has been cut down to about 10 hours #it sucks so fucking bad and im so sick of it #im begging my managers for hours and thry just literally cannot give me any #i offer to stay late bc i didnt get to finish the work i was assigned and they have to tell me no leave and clock out you cannot stay #late because we do not have the hours