#three fucking adhd

[i-luvsang]

FUCKING HELL GUYS I FEEL SO FUCKING BAD OMG I FUCKING FORGOT THAT I TOOK SOMEONES SHIFT AT WORK TONIGHT I FULL ON JUST DIDNT SHOW LMAO HELP ILL DIE OMG I FEEL SO BAD I NEED TO BINGE SUPERNATURAL UNTIL I FORGET ABOUT IT HELP

#basically i forgot bc one its not my usual shift #two i signed up to take it like several weeks ago and it totally slipped my mind #three fucking adhd #four i was working on a final essay so i put my phone in another room to focus for literal hours #and so i never got the notifications asking where i was or the shift reminder from the app #so it's not necessarily my fault just a mistake that could totally happen to anyone #but also this will keep me up tonight hahahahhahahahahhahakdhfjakshdfjs

[ithinkimauggie]

Mm, yes... The one you call Benrey...

I've been advised by my employers that, his true nature is on something of a "need-to-know" basis...

And you, Doctor Freeman, do not need to know...

ayo fuck this painting lol have another cropped vers

#augsartt #hlvrai fanart #hl2vrai #hlvrai2 #hlvrai benrey #hlvrai benry #hlvrai #digital painting #art #digital art #my art #ugghhh this one was such a pain #i kept pushing myself and it turned out good but it took THREE DAYS #EWW MY ADHD BRAIN HATED THAT SHIT #and i defo over rendered but its fine fuck it lol #thank you to all the people who were so kind in the tags of my Gordon painting!!! #you guys gave me the motivation to get this one done so alsd;jf thanks <3 #ily all 😭😭 #pose is inspired by that one scene from Chicago lol #they both reached for the gun is the number you should watch it #okey goobie

[little-pondhead]

“Hey, Danny.” Sam twisted her upper body as much as she could from the trio’s puppy pile on the floor. It was mid-afternoon on a Saturday, and the trio had nothing to do except comb through old occult books and internet records for more information on the supernatural. Danny was on the bottom of the pile, laying on his stomach with both a laptop and a old red journal splayed out in front of him. Sam and Tucker were piled on top of him with their own reading materials.

Sam couldn’t see his face, but she wasn’t all surprised when Danny solved this issue by simply turning his head around all the way like an owl to look back at her. Perks of being dead. He blinked. “Yeah?”

“You know how your parents have that working theory on ghosts and obsessions?” Sam asked. Tucker peeked over the edge of the laptop, interested.

Danny nodded slowly, which was odd to see when his head was backwards.

She continued, “Well we already know that some of that is true-ghosts do have obsessions but it’s not the sole reason of their existence. Right?”

“Right.”

“So would it make sense for halfas to have an obsession?”

Danny opened his mouth, then closed it as a thought occurred to him. They all thought on it for a moment.

Tucker clicked his laptop a few times. Probably pulling up their old ‘case’ files and notes for reference. “I don’t see why they wouldn’t, but maybe it’s more subdued than a full ghost’s due to their half human nature?”

“That’s a good theory.” Sam agreed. “But what if halfas are the only one with a true obsession-something that would cause them to come back to life because of it?”

“But that defeats the purpose of the ectoplasm research.” Tucker argued. “Danny was exposed to two different elements during the accident. The thing that killed him and the thing that brought him back to life. That’s what caused the halfa evolution. Besides, if a true obsession alone managed to bring someone back to life, there’s be a lot more halfas in the world.”

Sam set down her heavy occult book, dog-earring the page. (Ghost Writer won’t like that.) “Well what about Vlad?” She countered. “That fruit loop obviously has some sort of obsession going on-maybe even more that one!”

“Guys.” Danny interrupted. “I think you’re both right and wrong.” His face was still thoughtful, staring up at the ceiling that held little paper bats on string. Which, again, was a bit unsettling since his head was still turned around. “I think I do have an obsession, maybe even more than one. But it’s not because I’m part ghost.”

“Then what’s if from?” Tucker exclaimed. “What did we miss??”

Danny gave them a tiny, fanged smirk. “You forget, I have ADHD.”

#danny phantom #danny fenton #tucker foley #sam manson #everlasting trio #adhd #hyperfixation anyone?? #my eyes are blurry #but this concept is really funny to me #Danny and co try to figure out both his and Vlad’s ghost obsessions #but they’re both so mentally ill they will obsess over how Toast is made #so they can’t separate the ghost obsession from the rest #not knowing how to feed their obsession could lead to an angst route #or just turn it into a trivia game night where the two race against each other to find out what the fuck is wrong with them #before their opponent figured it out and used it against them #the trivia night turns into a therapy session by week three

[y-rhywbeth2]

[Bhaalists take] care to let economically and socially important individuals live unharmed. High Primates spent much of their time planning the proper strategies of manipulating nearby rulers, inhabitants, and organizations into the deeds and behaviour that the Bhaalyn desired. - Faiths and Avatars

I have read this book literally hundreds of times, why is this the first time I've ever actually physically read that line with my eyes.

Anyway the job description was always implied, but there's the flat out statement of your job as head of the Bhaalists of Baldur's Gate: herding the Patriars, dukes, merchants and etc into your strings.

I wonder if Durge and Gortash were ever manipulating the same people before actually meeting face to face. Like some kind of game of complex online chess against a mysterious rival that's kind of fun and kind of annoying (but it's politics and people and crime instead of chess).

#ADHD just autoskips entire sections of books for you I fucking asdfgghjjkl #I was doing something else and I don't remember what it was #Also I live for pre-amnesia temple politics. I LIVE for it. #Which considering the gods in question is ironic. #/durge #/gortash #the idiot three

[bread-tab]

"stop making [media] your whole personality"

ah... okay. yes. so.

first off:

there's this neurodivergent thing, where you use an interest as a filter for processing the world.

for some people that is called a "special interest," for others with different needs it is more of a "hyperfixation;" there are far more variations than i (or the field of psychology) know how to describe now. if you want to understand the difference there are people who can explain those variations better than me. but i can tell you what it feels like.

you discover something.

it doesn't matter what it is; you find something that speaks to you, something you can connect to, and it becomes a bubble of safe habitat from which you can rest from and explore and connect to all the other parts of this strange chaotic world.

a source of joy. a source of illumination.

it's like you're a person who has lived all their life in dark caves and you find something that glows.

these interests can be anything.

(literally anything; i personally derive meanings that you could never imagine from ✨ drainage ditches. ✨)

but very often, they are stories. tv shows, books, movies, comics, songs, podcasts, minecraft improv streams, cartoons, web serials, whatever

these things are:

tangible. you can hold them in your hands, replay them, turn on the subtitles, take screenshots, read the sheet music

and yet

real. they form a genuine connection from your (isolated, untranslatable) internal world to other (formerly unknowable) people and the rest of the universe

they create meaningfulness

and they exist because humans find these incredibly effective soul-deep ways of communicating to one another.

now, appreciating stories, that's not a neurodivergent thing. that's a human thing.

the point of relevance here is that experiencing an extreme love for stories is a neurodivergent thing.

it's a very common neurodivergent trait which often gets mocked, portrayed as childish, and used as a pretext for infantilization and bullying.

(and it is also a trait of young people in general, to take stories very seriously in a way that looks silly to adults, and that is something that many people (regardless of age) try to bully out of each other.

what good is that doing anyone?)

"stop making [x] your whole personality"

listen, you. get down off that goddamn embankment and climb down into this ditch with me. dip your toes in this oily water. watch the stars and city lights ripple into constellations you've never seen

now look me in the eye

you need to understand that no matter what lowbrow, cringey, problematic or otherwise not-to-your-tastes drivel you might be complaining about today,

you are talking about the phenomenon of creativity

you are talking about a transcendent catalyst of human emotion

and yes that includes the overmilked disney franchises, it includes the formulaic shippy fanfictions, it includes whatever brightly-colored cartoon this website is obsessed with this year (and will be having incredibly dramatic meltdowns over next year), it includes the cheesy action movies and the fanservicey anime and the badly-designed video games and the milquetoast tiktok "literature", it includes the indistinguishable scribbles of some random five-year-old and/or famous fine artist and/or precocious elephant

i get it. you care about real life and touching grass and shit. you have taste. just take the stilts off your horse for a second, okay?

i know you're probably sick of "let people like things" discourse

i would just like for you to stop for a second and take a deep breath, and let the stench of whatever is in this mud puddle wash over you (yeah i know, ew, but you'll be fine) and consider

what is so bad about having a cringey personality, anyway?

and maybe you will think better of making "stop making [some silly moment in the universe] your personality" into your personality and maybe you will come off as a little bit less of a snob/ableist/ass and maybe you will have a slightly better outlook on life among humans.

that's all. yeah you can get out of the gutter now. thank you for coming to my ted talk—

ooh wait, look, a bottle cap

#''let people like things'' is not enough #let people find joy in the mundane stupid shit of life goddamn you #rant #*waves hands inarticulately* your sprouts! #protect your sprouts #idk if i'm making sense #i failed literature 101 three times for this #fuck it #maybe this is the semester i go back and pass that goddamn class #long post #actuallyautistic #adhd feels #neurodivergent breadtab #ableism #and that thing i don't know what to call it #where the intellectuals and the anti-intellectuals are fighting and it makes my head hurt because they're both missing part of the picture #and for me that part whatever it is it's foundational #sleep deprived #i have more to say about drainage btw #unfortunately it's more of a ''rotating in my mind'' kind of interest so it might not #make sense #per se #however i could probably get more poetic about this considering the thing I'm rotating in my mind is the sum and substance of how #humanity intersects with the water cycle of the entire earth #in summary: woder

[mightymizora]

I always love ships for Gale that are clearly autism4autism.

#it’s why my fave origin ships for him are Lae’zel and Shadowheart honestly #three very fun flavours of the tism #I respect those who like the autism and adhd flavour of him with Karlach #but there’s something about how well read Lae’zel is in Tir’su that particularly sells me on them #plus I think they’re both sensory seeking autists and would have the most fucked up sex life #it’s what they deserve

[b4kuch1n]

more sk8. I think the cindereki stuff is extremely stupid but I am not immune to trying to conceptualize a princess gown in any setting

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #if ur wondering yes the first gown I uh. pulled? from the brothers grimm version's idea #which I do prefer to the perrault/disney version. specifically bc there's no fairy #there are three balls happening on three consecutive nights and each night cinderella gets a gown and accessories from a tree #growing on her mom's grave #(the version I grew up with (translated to vietnamese) actually wrote it to be her dad's grave instead I literally dont know why) #and the wording is like. ''rain gold and silver on me'' or something like that? which is why all of the dangly bits in that design #(dont worry about the rest of the brothers grimms version. thats not important. dont think about it its not in the room with us) #also in this post: future!renga bc of fucking course. who do you think I am. who do you think I am #I see a character I love I immediately try to imagine a good future for them it is Simply my ways #ft. the lethal combo of being three kinds of queer + adhd + a teen #may just be bc I myself don't go to college lol. but I can't really imagine reki going to college. he'd get apprenticeship somewhere #like immediately. on sight. some uncle in nago would snatch him up a sentence in #I waffle on langa but him just getting out of the biggest shock of his life + severe depression would Not let go of his loved ones #so tbh I can't imagine him leaving okinawa either. at least right after high school #langa has the advantage of not giving a single shit about ''his potentials'' so he'll be chasing life's pleasures for a hot second thank you #also I believe in reki speaking at least passable conversational english thank you. he's trans and gay in asia #he's just also the kind of guy who has to think for a hot second to remember which way the written number 3 faces #''nailed the logic just plugged the wrong number in several times'' kind of guy #while langa's the ''doesn't understand the fundamental concept of puzzles'' kind of guy #man. this is like having two homunculi implanted in my brain. welcome boys come join leon pokemon #talk to each others while I do my job ok? thank you #that said. the comm queue should be finished up soon #(funny thing to say about three comms I know. but I will say it anyway) #and I'll take a few days break to unclench my brain and then get back into it #every day I learn new things about the dip pen. its great #okay. nap now tho. anything else can wait

[incorrectskyrimquotes]

we're coming up on a full ass year since i published a fic and then didnt work on it and i just wanna say, from the bottom of my heart, MY BAD

#MY BAAADDDD im trying to get back into writing practice #adhd meds *thumbs up* #im just hoping the shortage doesnt fuck me THREE TIMES like at that point just ask me out

[spooky-something]

I'm going to smash my head into a wall

The fixation (spin) is slowly starting to absorb my soul again....

Frankenstein, for the love of God... Give me like a week to process POTO instead of directly eating my brain away a day after finishing it....

#frankenstein #victor frankenstein #gothic literature #classic literature #gothic lit #classic lit #mary shelley #the modern prometheus #POTO #phantom of the opera #Spin #special interest #hyperfixation #audhd #autism #adhd #The voices... #the fucking voices... #I'm starting to tweak again I can't #I'm starting to reread Frankenstein again... #I WAS SUPPOSED TO START PICTURE OF DORIAN GRAY #NOT FRANKENSTEIN (AGAIN) #LEAVE MY SOUL #PLEASE #GET OUT #THREE MORE DAYS PLEASE

[dysfunctionaldogdude]

I feel like actually shit like the entirety of last week getting to me. I wish I could have a moment of actual relaxation and not just me forgetting I have shit to do.

(Tag warning-> depressing talk, dark topics)

Might delete this idk..

#vent post #tag rambles #I have over 60 different things to fill out that I need to do by tomorrow and I forgot to do them. I feel so stupid #I actually hate having adhd #people try to make it out to be just a quirky thing that its not that big of a deal or anything #but it's not #it impairs on relationships #I struggle to remember important things that I need to do and even WANT to do. I struggle so bad #I even have fights with people about me being a “liar” even though I'm not #I just have a shit ass memory I feel useless 90% of the time and shit #gods and I doubt it's just me having adhd. Im pretty sure its my possibility of having bpd and autism #i show all symptoms of bpd and I relate far too much with autism videos #like this is stuff active in my daily life #people don't see it often due to have carefully Ive crafted.. this is going to sound a bit fannibal of me but literally a person suit #i swear a person suit #it's not even funny #gods i just wish I could function without getting all up and arms about how much of a pos I feel #if I don't get attention from.. basically.. my fp I get all sad and melancholy. i spiral #I'm pretty sure I have at least three fps #if I even have bpd #but gods #just so stupid how I can barely fucking function without all of these crutches #I'm not in a certian program anymore for a thing and now I can't fuction and work how I use to since it was a slower environment #I'm failing #like I won't be able to make it I feel like #not suicide or anything #just in things I wanted to do #feels like my future is doomed cause life keeps throwing curve balls at me #someone with at least two mental disabilities #i definitely have more

[dootznbootz]

I'm technically most likely demiromantic (definitely demisexual) which is technically on the aro spectrum but I'm sooooo romance favorable that it almost doesn't feel like it counts????

I'm a huge romantic sap but I'm kind of funky with crushes. I have them and I get them but I'm very particular and I almost have... control over them???

Like when I start to feel the feelings™, I then start looking at a possible relationship through "logic lens".

"Compatible here, there, there too. Okay, we're not with that though, and I will not move on that so therefore it will not work. Alright, cool! Best friend! Best friend! Best friend!"

I can just shut off the feelings™ once I get the feeling it's not gonna work, especially if it's on something I will not change. If I have a feeling there's potential, I let feelings "grow".

#it's not like I'm not “flexible” but there's certain things I just know I can't do that with. #this might not make sense but it felt nice to type out :'D #Mad rambles #I've literally only had three crushes in my life :P #I've never had a “type”. and I don't understand that. Every single one of my crushes looked SOOO different from one another #even behaved differently too. #one of my crushes mentioned someone HE had a crush on and I had the sad. cried in the bathroom then immediately got going on a #“You're fucking fantastic! Go for it!” pep talk only for next monday he mentions it's probably not gonna happen 😅 #one probably had a crush on me back and I kick myself often for not realizing it. (read my favorite book when I mentioned it #to him. snuck out of class to see my performance for the “sneak peak” for the school musical. got into trouble on my behalf. etc.) but I wa #DUMB. I once had an ADHD blurt out where I was super embarrassed so then he started doing more stupid shit than I did #to get the attention off me and got into trouble for it and then checked in on me later :'D And I didn't realize ANYTHIGN. #Oh well :P #...realize this is kind of how I plan to write my blorbos but they're shittier about it :P

[youngpettyqueen]

I love every episode where 11 has to blend in with people and do average people things because he is soooooooo completely incapable of behaving normally

#doctor who #eleventh doctor #my dad put The Lodger on #one of my favourite episodes its just so fucking funny #I know James Corden is deeply annoying these days but I love him in his Doctor Who episodes #the chemistry he has with Matt Smith is DELIGHTFUL #Closing Time is also very good for both them and Doctor having to act like a human man and failing miserably #and then Power of Three #ADHD king Eleventh Doctor my beloved

[cerealmonster15]

so obvi while one of my fave types of Character™ is like adhd coded himbo etc etc. another fave i find myself trapped in is like

[very loud] hall monitor klfdsjfkldsjfkljds

#ok to be fair i havent seen my hero in years but i remember iida as That Type #like the stickler for rules im pretty sure ksldjfdsjk #plus look how hes standing. he has to be #anyway adhd loud characters 🤝 hall monitor rules lawyers -> characters i. relate to a lot LOL #i was a bit like these characters more when i was younger jfkdjklfsjd #i mean not to the full extent [well obvi theyre cartoons and exaggerated LOL but like] yknow i was that kid #to be like ummmm u cant do that or u will get in trouble 🤨 #that is against the RULES #tbh i still have a bit of it in me but i def chilled out as i got older lol #but a lot of it then and any that remains now #is more of like. the fear of consequences rather than Respect The Rules #tho as a kid it was both probably LOL #anyway. these characters r always so fucking funny #when theyre like SOOOO straight laced to the point where it's absurd and leaning into comedic #there r probably other characters i like that fit this trope just these r the three that ALWAYS come to mind #like when i started enjoying riddle #i was like aw fuck not again LOL

[avephelis]

beating the floor. i need to finish my stupid pile of gayass riptide art.

#my three billion kajillion wips. #like the fnc body horror is one thing i have a POTENTLY yuri page of birdbolt scribbles i just abandoned for no reason #yknow what the time for change iis now. adhd square up you fucking pussy

[ozlices]

doctor apt was shit but the ladies at the desk were cool and set us up for a better, nicer doctor next month so. we'll see how that goes but i can say i've never been so fucking flabbergasted in my life at the bullshit coming from a doctor's mouth and with the amount of medical trauma we have that is seriously saying something.

#mine #medical trauma// #not a soul in the medical field is ever fucking learning we're a system when we get the amount of bs we do #for having one of the most common mental disorders & taking the most common prescription for it. #the amount of misinformation MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS spew abt adhd is genuinely horrifying beyond our comprehension #i do not even wanna think abt the amount of bullshit we'd have to deal with for pursuing a professional dissociation disorder my fucking go #she rly said u dont need ur adhd meds every day #i have patients i give 30 day prescriptions to that last them 3-6 months! #& we were just. sitting there. utterly horrified. #how are u even a practicing doctor at that point u cannot be serious #she also said she has a policy where she refuses to prescribe controlled substances w/out diagnosis paperwork #which like. whatever thats fine #but we were not told that ahead of time & she proceeded to give us an appointment THREE MONTHS LATER #like.................... literally basically just trying to sign us up as another sacked experiment bitch i do not fucking think so #what the fuck

[ploncc]

finally watching House MD and yes i am catching up on my shows a decade late, but that DOES mean that now i can make the hypothesis that chase is another bubblegum bitch character and frankly that's worth the ten years

#house md #im on season three #by which i mean i am four episodes away from finishing season 3 #i picked up knitting you see and i was like “hey i need a show i don't care about that's still engaging while knitting” because adhd yknow #except now im fucking hooked #my emotions have been toyed with #i have called 40 year old men baby girls #i have broken down laughing #i have cried full ass adult tears #i have binged more episodes than i could ever advise in single evenings #i have had to excitedly break down arcs to my mother who keeps walking by while the show is on/sitting in for an episode n then sleeping #ive also finished a cool pattern swatch and am almost done with another stuffed bunny (this one is for an old roomie) so it is working #like on the knitting-with-adhd front #i have another five seasons to go so who knows! #maybe i'll make a sweater :)