#this has been bothering me recently!

[the-habitat-sysblog]

it's quite frustrating when you work up the courage to tell someone you have DID, but they hit you with "well, *i've* never noticed you switch" or "to me you're always the same person".

i think those statements are so misinformed to how DID (most often) presents. there are some things to note when observing DID from the outside:

not all cases of DID are overt. overt refers to your symptoms, switches & differences between alters being obvious to people from the outside. overt DID is less common than its counterpart *covert* (more secretive) DID. in covert DID, symptoms may be less noticeable from the outside, & that may lead to difficulty being diagnosed.

masking. masking is the ability some people possess to pretend to be someone/something that they are not. in DID, alters who are not the host part may mask as the host part to feel safe, undetectable, or simply out of instinct. before discovery of the system, this may be a subconscious effort; after discovery of the system, this may be purposeful in order to hide alter differences from others, for any reason.

complexity of identity. let us imagine that the host in a system is an ambivert - not quite introverted, & not quite extroverted. this host switches out, in front of their friend group, & a social part or other extroverted & friendly alter takes their place. their friends assume that they are just in a "friendlier mood", while in reality this person has switched. meanwhile this alter has a completely different set of interests, identity, & such, but since it is not brought up in conversation, the friend group does not suspect their friend has switched between separated self-states. identity is complex, & alters are (often, not always) able to feel & express a large range of emotions, depending in their mood. this can make it harder to tell the difference between an alter being in a strange mood, & a whole new part fronting!

so, next time you meet someone with DID, believe them. not all of our experiences are visible! edit: "DID" here can also be replaced with OSDD1, P-DID or UDD, but i just used DID because that's my specific experience.

#i also have a fourth point about high fragment counts + multiple people fronting but i'm out of energy #this has been bothering me recently! #i'll be making more posts about DID etiquette in the future #much love to those with overt DID as well! #it has its own challenges & stigmas #but i can't speak on that experience myself #blurry❔.txt #; #💬 #[ #did #polyfrag did #did system #traumagenic system #actually traumagenic #cdd #sysblr #system #cdd community #system stuff #endos dni #did etiquette #]

[karamell-sweetz]

this is suuuch a stretch but now that the wonderland sekai has a confirmed ocean and islands i ALMOST want them to accidentally sail into the empty sekai’s body of water and freak out.

if that’s even possible in the lore. idk i haven’t read a good portion of the vsinger events where they talk about the lore soooo

but like… think about it. after they finish the first round of world link events for all the units i have NO idea what they’re going to do with that event type. coincidentally the vsinger wl (estimated for august) is in line with the 4th anni, and it sort of makes sense that the sekais could potentially connect and lots of stuff happens before 5th anni (usually a good milestone if i’m going off bandori). the only good scenario i have in mind is yk… GROUP SHUFFLES! SEKAI COLLISIONS OR SOME SHIT!! MULTI GROUP COVERS which i know they said they weren’t going to do unless for special occasions but like??

and also im aware that pjsk as it is is actually doing pretty well without doing group shuffle covers and stuff like bandori (by this i mean like the general election special songs like catastrophe banquet) and each of the groups don’t actually NEED that connection with the other groups… but come on. it’d be neat.

*noclips through the floor*

#project sekai #karamell yells #very big yell but like. mainly focus on my first sentence okay its been bothering me #GHGGG sorry i’ve been in a huge bandori re-phase recently #and i freaking LOVE the concept of the girls band party and d4fes and love live and enstars’ ss contest #so its. weird? that sekai doesn’t have a huge group event to look forward to yet?? #like even starira has the arcana arcadia thing? #don’t you find it?? so strange?? #likee the only thing that could potentially suffice is if vivid bad squad manages to do their huge event with ALL OF THE GROUPS #AND WITHIN THE GAME TIMELINE preferably before 6th anni if we judge by bandori’s timing #and that’s not even considering how they’d incorporate/explain the multiple sekai thing??? #and!! niigo doesn’t perform live anyway… YET 👀👀👀👀 #but i think it’d start with the sekai connecting first since that’s the whole game’s gimmick #WHATEVER #wxs sails into the empty sekai by accident. that was my point.

[ourstarscollided]

You’re welcome to explain your answer in the tags!

#julie and the phantoms #jatp #jatppolls #dont ask me why the number categories are like this!!! there is no rhyme or reason to them!!! #been thinking bout this for awhile now. cause it didnt occur to me that I havent watched it since i netflix party’d it with Rosie in Sept #2021… which has been… a very long time. considering in 2020 after it came out i probably watched it over 100 times in full. #there’s just something that stops me from clicking play on the show and i cant put it into words. its just this feeling i get every time my #mouse or finger hovers over the show. i also got rid of netflix this past year too but that was quite recent and i do have a copy of it on #my ipad sksjsj idk #guess im just curious if anyon else is in this weird limbo. dont get me wrong. i am still enamoured by this show but rewatching it is just #smthg i havent done in a hot minute. maybe i should make Rosie do another netflix party with me 👀 #i feel like if i was more active in a discord or on tumblr i wouldve tried to watch it with mutuals but alas i am incapable of having free #time outside of work and life. #once again i am shocked that the answers are centred in the bubbles before u click on them and it bothers me?!? #alt option: i have rewatched the show aolely through gifsets 😌 #sunset queue #<- queuing this for some reason. idk what the reason is.

[tteokdoroki]

what's ur skincare routine <3

ah !! funny you say that but i just started incorporating new products into mine and have some new stuff coming in to use !! but rn its this:

purito from seoul green cleansing oil (mostly night time, recently mornings as well)

cosrx good morning ph cleanser (day and night)

cosrx aha/bha clarifying treatment toner (day and night)

cosrx bha blackhead power liquid (day and night)

Paula’s choice 2% bha gel exfoliant (night times 3 times a week)

numbuz:in number 3 serum (day and night)

beauty of joseon glow deep serum (day and night)

the ordinary niacinamide 10% (day and night)

axis y dark spot correcting glow serum (day and night)

beauty of joseon red bean water gel moisturiser (day and night)

beauty of joseon relief sun: rice + probiotics spf50 sunscreen (day time only)

some extras that im using right now are:

- the ordinary aha/bha peeling solution mask but only 2-3 times a week (but this depends bc i have another face mask i like to use)

- axis-y mugwort pore clarifying wash off clay mask again only 2-3 times a week but i alternate with the ordinary mask !! so i do face masks at least 3 times a week and switch between the two !!!

also i have combination skin with texture/hyperpigmentation so !! i try to tailor my routine to that and dont mix the products im not supposed to !!

#✧ ₊˚✉️੭ — new notification #✧ ₊˚💬੭ — unknown messenger #MY SKIN IS NOT THE BEST #but this has been working for me recently #and i switch things up every night depending on my mood and how long i can be bothered to do skincare for #i almost always double cleanse these days tho

[nicky-jr]

shoutout gothcleats shippers o7

#rambling #idk i feel like as a dndads blog im legally obligated to make A post abt it #but idk! it was fun #sad about normal but glad everyone else got a happy ending #(warning i get like. pointlessly negative/personal beyond this point) #but idk. ive been so checked out of s2 that i feel like. detached? #like makes me feel shitty to admit this but i just dont really care #idk if that has to do with my disinterest with the season. or just not being fixated anymore #or just my own mental state as of recent #it just makes me really sad that i feel this way about a series i adore #i dunno. i'd like to do a relisten of s2 so i can really pinpoint what about it frustrates/bores me #but rn i just cant be bothered #dont get me wrong i love this season!!! i feel the need to clarify any time i get negative about it #i love the characters and most of the plot and there were things i found really really compelling #and god its SOOO FUCKING FUNNY #my venting comes from a place of love yknow #but yeah tldr i have like literally no strong thoughts on the finale atm. it was fine #but im excited for the future #dndads s2 spoilers

[hardly-an-escape]

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#trying not to read too much into the fact that my CHBB fic was one of the last to be claimed by an artist #comforting myself with the fact that at least it wasn't THE last #usually this wouldn't bother me too much but my brain has not been braining very well recently #so things are getting to me a little more than they might otherwise #also I'm super behind on writing and kind of freaking out about it #thought I was going to get a lot done over the holidays and then instead I had a big depressive episode 👍 #so that was. you know. great 👍👍👍

[myriad--starlings]

there's something about the rhetoric around AI art that loudly declares it "obviously soulless" "heartless" "lacking life" "mocking life" and other such phrases that deeply rubs me the wrong way. especially when people say "I can just tell". no, you can't. I'm sorry, but you can't. human beings do not have some sort of 'spiritsense' that lets you know when something has been crafted by another human; if you thought the art was made by a human, you would not perceive it as "soulless" etc, because you don't have a sense for that. there is no human sense that gives you that data. I understand what people are trying to say but it twigs far too close to that sensitive spot of people saying they can "just tell" someone's a sociopath or otherwise 'less than' to them, because they're perceived as missing some essential 'human' quality.

what you are perceiving is not "soullessness" it is simply machine-generated art. calling it "heartless" etc is making a value judgement which you are technically allowed to do but it's not some innate property of the art in front of you; it's a value projected onto it because you know it wasn't made by a human. okay? okay.

#local birb opens beak #this has really been bothering me recently #ugh #disc horse

[s-c-l-n]

WHAT FUCKING PART OF HIS HAIR IS NATURAL

this is a serious point of contention in my life right now cause its never stated that yuuji has two different natural hair colors, yet most people go for the pink as being his natural color. is he dying his undercut brown ? are we forgetting he has an undercut ? how is he maintaining whichever roots he must maintain during these times or is his hair just looking like really fucked up neapolitan ice cream

#odd and silly rant #idk why its been bothering me sm recently #it just has #anyways #sclnposting #more like sclnranting #jjk #itadori yuuji #free my boy and his fucked up hair

[sailermoon]

I just feel like if I ever had a kid I would speak to them in Spanish first and have them become fluent in it first because they would always get an opportunity to learn/speak English 🤒

#my sisters kids don’t know any Spanish and it kinda bums me out like don’t u want them to know it?? #also hoping a marry a fellow latine or atleast someone who bothers to learn Spanish #my brother in law has been married to my sister for 2 decades and is just now recently learning Spanish 😭

[skunkes]

If you were truly an abandoned project like you say. You wouldn't care so much. Even in your comic you mention you being worse for "the next person" you already are thinking of another person. That's not a bad thing. You're young. And by God you have some fire in you. I hope you become happier with yourself. I hope good things happen to you and the people around you will cheer for it. -💛🦭

thank u... im actually flopping between it rn... though i know i dont have the actual power to decide to be done with it, bc life is full of unexpected events, and i am young, but my line of thinking was, well because it would be so much more of a hassle for a next person, its best to just remove that hassle from the "market" completely lol...

but its out of my hands in either direction. i already wasnt expecting much as just the one time was such a rarity. now its just made the whole ordeal much much more difficult for all parties...aroo...anyway thanks again

#skunk mail #Anonymous #ykwim...i keep wanting to make ''good luck getting in now !'' jokes but they dont work #because well who's even going to bother. took long enough the first time #and also because what a gross thing to say and assume. that anybody would deal with me. ykwim... #and FINALLY because even despite being so sucks ive come out of this even more unrealistically picky despite already #having severely limited options. like ok man have fun with that. #best to just continue to isolate until i can fix myself which has been set back a LOT after recent events #this isnt fantasy romance nobody is going to be patient with me. i have to do it alone and the work will never be done. so...why bother #hope tht makes sense...! #i keep climbing out of the pit and convincing myself i do deserve it! i am kind i am loving im so good at loving #but i fall back into it bc the issues outweigh all of it. all of it. too much bad in me

[girlwithfish]

the only way id get jealous of his exes is if they had better music taste than me

#kidding but also no #LOLLL #omg he asked me this a while back he asked what qualities in other ppl the person im dating have been with wld i get jealous of #its hard cuz my ex didnt have any exes i had no one to b jealous of lol first gf vibes #but yeah i told guy im with that idk nd he joked abt the music taste thing lmfao so true tbh #i have wayyy better taste than his recent ex is the only comparison ill make #i dont rly feel jealous atm w guy im seeing idk were too new or im just not as bothered anymore #like i get nosy n curious so its why i was curious abt what his ex is like nd found her insta but yeah other than that #Idk #but he has been in five relationships i think or somethin idk if im 5th or am i 6th? lol

[atsu-i]

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#this past few days....my thoughts are getting to me lol #and it's not fun #it gets me worried and scared #i try to brush it off really but at some point #in a day #i just feel like breaking down from whatever it is #i tend to become teary eyed but i dont cry #i just...have that feeling that i wanted to cry lol #and rn am at a salon and i just got this shitty feeling and i cant and wont cry lol #idk man....i cant even say what's bothering me just...will keep it as much as i can #coz i dont want to make anyone worry or anything lol #also...death has been getting on my mind a lot more recently #all this :/ #its shitty ik #personal #trigger warning?

[rvyalfamily]

kinda give up running around for people who don’t want me. roleplay has been stressing me recently because i care too much about what people think of me. from this point on i’m gonna try stop that, i’m not here to be anyone’s dog, if you want to write with me you got me but if you don’t then you don’t. no need to pretend & act otherwise.

#╰► ooc #rant #every platform i rp on has been putting me through it recently #but yeah lol i’m done with it #trying my best not to let it bother me any longer and stay around

[zemnarihah]

my best friend has been very distant w me lately and i asked today if she wanted to hang out and she said she probably couldn't bc it's her brothers birthday but she would let me know if she could and i have her location and i just looked and she's at her boyfriends house rn....

#we have it bc we're roomates so we started sharing locations when we first moved in like in case someone doesn't come home at night or smth #she recently told me that she wants to move out bc she has always wanted to live alone and she can finally afford it. and i asked her #directly like is there an issue because she is so non confrontational so she has never ever mentioned me doing anything that bothers her #and i said please tell me if there's something wrong because it would really suck if there was and i never got a chance to fix it because #you never told me. and she said no it has nothing to do with that i really just feel like it's time for me to live on my own. and a couple #days ago she was like okay i'm next in line for my apartment i'll probably move out in april. and i try to get her to hang out still and #she always has something else going on and i swear every night this week she's been at her boyfriends. #and if i see her around our apartment and try to make conversation at all she's so like short about it and barely responds like will only #give one word answers. i feel like it kind of started when i started dating e but i realized that i was spending less time with her and i #didn't want to be the girl that loses all my friends bc of a boyfriend so i started specifically reaching out to hang out with her and she #says no most of the time and never asks me. like i don't know what else i can do. #i'm like maybe it's bc of her boyfriend? bc they've been on again off again for a long time and previously when they were together it was #really distant with her like i barely saw her EVER. and they were mostly broken up for the past couple years and have been together i think #for a while again... but she knows i don't approve of that relationship and so she would like not say when they were talking again. so maybe #since lately they've been hanging out or dating or WHATEVER she doesn't fucking tell me what's going on with him. maybe that's why. #i literally like try to think of ways it could be my fault and maybe i'm being crazy but i cannot even think to blame myself for more than a #fleeting second bc i'm like. i have ASKED HER directly if there is an issue or something i do that bothers her and she says no. so even if #i'm somehow pissing her off would i ever know to change anything?? i just feel so frustrated bc it's like she's an entirely different person #to me. like this is not the person i know. and i don't know what else i could possibly do like i feel like we need to sit down and have a #conversation about it but what good does that do if she just acts like nothing is wrong. but i don't want to lose my friend i have such a #hard time making friends. i've known her since i was 14 like i can't imagine my life without her. we were the only two in our whole friend #group in high school to get out of the church i still love those other girls but we have so little in common now.

[alongtidesoflight]

i haven't talked trans stuff with irl people in a while so when i tell you today was exhausting

#sat in my class minding my own business when the entire class started shitting on trans women #how to argue with these ppl without breaching stealth #i don't pass well as a woman anymore so i'm assuming these people think i'm a very butch lesbian or whatever #no one's uncomfortable with me being in the women's toilets but as soon as a trans woman steps in there all hell breaks loose #hypothetical trans woman in this case btw because there aren't any trans girls in my class but my language recently started using a #more gender-neutral approach to speaking and added an nb gender marker to job descriptions and passports #so of course every language teacher under the sun has to complain about it #and that turned into an unhinged 30 minutes of my teacher pretending to be a trans woman but actually acting like a very flamboyant #drag queen getting ready to bother some ladies in the women's bathroom #and i have never been more uncomfortable in my life #lucky for ME i don't have to attend that class often so i think i'll only head in there for any exams that might come up #transphobia tw #adding this one for the girlies following me #rant time sorry #this is the second time a teacher tried to get some kinda anti-trans approval out of me and i don't know what they're trying to achieve #here but they're barking up the wrong tree here #the m/f/nb gender marker does exactly what it says btw whatever marker's in your passport dictates where you can go and nb bathrooms are #kinda welcoming to anyone men and women included #and all of this is a discussion on its own #but the starting point of this argument for these people was that trans women and trans men can only use nb bathrooms because #they're not 'real' men or women and where to even start here you know #in the end while i was arguing my teacher told me that i don't know what i'm talking about but 'every other man' in this class #knows exactly what he means #cut me off and that was that #it's not about winning or losing here but i think he realised that i was using arguments that he just didn't feel like talking about rn #so i just ended getting cut off and talked over and i wasn't feeling like #raising my voice but it's just uncomfortable to know what this class would have been thinking of me if i hadn't #decided to go by my agab in this evening course #by the way the very first day i attended this course i showed another guy to the women's bathroom because the men's bathroom was closed for #repairs

[scattered-winter]

ok maybe this is controversial but it's always rubbed me the wrong way whenever an actor/celebrity dies and everyone is mourning them but only in relation to the character they played??? like idk if my mom died tomorrow and everyone was mourning her because she couldn't do her job anymore I would probably commit a hatecrime

#this is unrelated to anything i'm just thinking #but like. when chadwick boseman passed away and everyone was like ''rest in peace king t'challa'' and ''long live the black panther'' #like......y'all do realize he ISN'T t'challa right. you understand that he was doing his job playing a role. a real human person. #or when they relate the actor directly to the character?? #like when they quote t'challa saying ''in my culture death is not the end'' and use that to ''mourn'' boseman. #and obviously he isn't the only celebrity who this has happened to but he's on the mind rn so that's what im going to #but like. idk to me it feels very....surface level?? #we didn't KNOW chadwick boseman personally. and to everyone who DID i imagine it must be hard to mourn the man #when literally the entire world only wants to mourn the black panther. if that makes sense. #idk if i'm making sense here but it's something that's always kinda bothered me #not that expressing condolences for someone who has passed away is a bad thing!!! not at all!!!!! #but when people turn it into mourning What The Person Did instead of the person himself....idk. it bugs me. #celebrity culture at its finest i think. #winter speaks #tw death #this wasn't brought on by kevin conroy's death it's something i've been thinking about a lot recently. #and specifically in regards to chadwick boseman because i watched wakanda forever yesterday. #but idk if this is A Thing or if i'm just reading too much into it. idk.