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noxtivagus · 1 year
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i made a new friend who likes ff today hehe
#🌙.rambles#YEAH I DMED THAT GUY#i'm so relievedddd i got so anxious but it seems they're rlly happy abt yk#they like sm final fantasies 🥺#IM IN SUCH A GOOD MOOD RN ! I LOVE MY FRIENDS#OLD FRIENDS N NEW GODDAMN I LOVE THEM ALL SO MUCH#guys i'm like in a sappy mood rn i'm tired but i wna show all my affection#i wna do more for my online friends tho >:c ily guys so so much#ANOTHER TIME BCS I STILL HAVE OTHER STUFF TO DO BUT#i'm like rlly in a good mood rn.#SORRY DUDE I SEND LONG MESSAGES THO BUT YEAH#so happy to have made a new friend today. IM LIKE SO HAPPY#I TELL YOU WNVR I MAKE NEW FRIENDS I SRS GET SO GIDDY AAAAA 😭😭#it warms my heart n life is great n my life is changed n i'll rmb you forever yk?#okay i'm still anxious but#FUCK ANXIETY 💀 yolo ig#n if you can't handle me n if i'm too much then maybe we're just not meant to be yk?#.. sorry that sounds inherently romantic bcs of the phrasing but i mean everything like everything platonically#i think at least. i wldn't admit if it's otherwise but yk when i phrase things like that it's srs just platonic#i want to regrets so recently i've been stepping out of my comfort zone a bit. not too much but yeah yk c:#n i'm proud of it honestly. still a long ways to go but life's a journey after all n i'll enjoy myself#one step one scenery one trudge at a time 🤍#laughed sm today bcs of my friends n then w the cats hehe THEY WERE PLAYING W THE BIRD 😭😭#n i love spending time w my family too n IDK IM JUST RLLY IN A GOOD MOOD RN#school asap so i can resub n. i finally played gbf again today yk? n ak too n yhhhh c:#i'll be productive rn but this rlly feels so lovely yk. n then i have motivation n inspo too n#it doesn't usually last very long but it always returns n i think it's lovely.
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arminsumi · 11 months
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I love your blog sm<3
convincing armin to stay in bed by teasing him with kisses and risky touches before he finally flips you over
And i love u! 💕🥺ty darlin hope u enjoy
"Don't tease me."
Oneshot | MDNI | Armin | ♪
⚠️Cws; fluffy but mostly spicy SMUT, not proofread yet bc proofreading my own smut is embarrassing lmao
Notes; AFAB!gn!reader, college au
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⚠️💦Smut cws; pn 'baby', teasing, lowkey thigh riding, lowkey daddy kink, 🐶position, unprotected sex, cumshot, multiple orgasms, a singular and very gentle spank your honor
"Just a little nap, c'mon!" You plead with him. He gives in really quickly when he sees you sitting pretty on his bed like that. "Okay, okay, but only for thirty minutes. Then I've got to study." Armin said firmly.
His self-restraint is insane. He really does mean 'only thirty minutes'; after the time's up, he sits up and is just about to get off the bed when you grab his arm and whine to him. "That was so short! C'mon, just a little longer?"
"Mm-mm." he hums negatively. You give him those pleading eyes, and then he gives in again. "Okay, okay. Five more minutes. Ah, don't you give me those eyes, baby." he sighs with his whole chest.
You look too sweet for him to refuse. He agrees to thirty more minutes.
He indulges in your needy kisses, keeping his eyes closed serenely. His lips are unbelievably soft, and they always get hot and wet when you kiss him so needily, he loves it.
Armin can tell how frustrated you are by how tightly you press your body against his. You draw patterns on his shirt, feeling over the dips and curves of his abdomen.
Armin doesn't tolerate teasing, so the second he feels your fingertips sneak underneath the hem of his shirt, he calls you out immediately.
"Hey, don't tease." He warns playfully.
You stop your movements, pouting into his neck. He hears you mutter a small 'sorry, daddy' against his skin. It drives him wild but he doesn't show it.
After a few minutes of innocent snuggling, you wrap your leg over his leg, and press tight against him. You think you can get away with rocking your hips against his thigh by playing it off as readjusting your position.
Nothing slips past Armin, though. He catches onto your plans immediately.
"Nuh-uh, what did I just tell you? Behave, baby." He furrows his brows at you. Damn, boy is hot even when he's serious.
"I'm not doing anything..." You murmur, fiddling with the hem of his shirt, lifting it up slightly to expose his hips, and that subtle happy trail that lead past the waistband of his sweatpants.
The light touches are giving him wild fantasies, but he resists them. He's got to study, he keeps telling himself that. And 'quickie' doesn't exist in his vocabulary.
"You keep teasing me like that and let's see where it gets you." He warns.
All his other warnings have a playful tone, but this one doesn't; it's like the final warning, telling you that he's gonna reach breaking point. His cock is already straining against his sweatpants, but he positions his legs to try and hide it from you.
Of course, you don't stop teasing him, and let your hands glide under his waistband. You can hear his breath hitch, and a sharp swallow.
He calls your name as a final final warning.
When you feel over his stiff cock, he lets out a sigh and gives in. There's no way he can restrain himself when you do that.
"You're so fucking needy, baby. If you wanna touch it so badly, go ahead; make me feel good and I'll make you feel good." He says in a low voice to you.
He frees his cock and guides your hand, letting you wrap your fist around it. He's dripping so much precum that you giggle about it.
You tease him even worse and give him agonizingly slow strokes.
"Faster." He demands. He even pleads at some point. But you're playing stubborn, so he decides to take matters into his own hands.
He pulls your hand off and in a moment flips you over onto your tummy as if you weigh nothing. You forget how strong he is until times like these.
"You know I hate teasing." He growls into your ear, pressing his hips flush against your ass. You can feel him throb. "I'm sorry." You respond cheekily. He rolls his eyes and plants a gentle smack to your ass, then wrings your pants and panties off.
It doesn't take long before he's pressing deep inside you. He has to smile to himself when he hears you moan. "You're real sensitive today, huh? Lemme help you out." he says, and his hand dips between your thighs so he can play with your clit.
Armin doesn't hold back or let up; he gives you those mind-bouncing deep strokes and makes you gush like a damn fountain. He'd never embarrass you and tell you that you're creaming all over him, but the sight makes him groan.
If only you could see how his chest heaves while he takes you from behind. His bangs stick to his sweaty forehead. His eyes are darkened with lust. He almost looks feral, and it feels like it to with the tempo of his animalistic thrusts.
"So pretty like this, baby, 'wish you could see the view." He smirks. You're barely able to form a sentence, hell you can barely hold tight on the bedframe with how he's fucking you.
Pretty soon that bedframe is knocking hard against the wall with each harsh thrust. Armin doesn't let you get off the hook easy, he makes you finish on him over and over until you're a total mess. But he thinks you're pretty even when you're babbling obscenities and moaning daddy.
He always pulls out and announces in your ear that he's gonna cum for you. It smells like sex. You feel him making a creamy mess with his cum all over your pussy. It spills on the bed, drips down your thighs, like, sex is really really messy with Armin.
Maybe two hours later, that's when his stamina runs out, and he collapses. He's made an absolute sweaty panting mess out of the both of you.
"Such a damn tease. I love you."
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pupcuck · 4 months
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bombarding you with asks, cherry but i just love you and your writing sm 🥺
I feel like re2 leon would so have rape fantasies both ways. poor baby is so socially awkward that he can’t get anyone to fuck so he starts hoping that someone just rapes him so he can finally lose his virginity :( gets blackout drunk at all those academy parties and wakes up disappointed that his ass isn’t sore and his dick is still dry. tries to goes on on sketchy dates but everyone he meets with thinks he’s weird cause he’s saying awkward things and staring at them for too long.
also, I’m such a big fan of the headcanon that he’s autistic (totally not self-indulgent or anything). baby doesn’t understand social cues and he uses alcohol to numb it all out :(
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omg i love… see im always stuck when it comes to remake leon cuz he’s objectively a cutie and I’m sure he would get a lot of attention from literally everyone. but on the other hand he’s the weird kid who got bounced from foster home to foster home and he’s a little awkward and he misses social cues and it can be annoying or off putting sometimes. i love… him wanting to be raped so bad omg he pretends he doesn’t bc it’s awful but he wants it so bad, wants his roommates in academy to just push him down n take him against his will, wants to be hazed and taken advantage of
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sebastiansluts · 2 years
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ur always makin my deepest darkest fantasies come tru with ur smut its soooo good!!! i wan seb to be my dad bf so bad 😞 can u pls write smth like this with him too? with a huge huge age gap n breeding kink n dad kink n slapping kink n size kink just big dark daddy mean seb corrupting his little girl n using n hurting her and spitting on her thank u 🥰💓 my fav writer u deserve sm more love i wish more people could see ur smut 🥺
You have no idea how much I needed to hear this right now. I've been struggling to find the motivation to write, and this right here reminded me of why I do, thank you ❤️
Sebastian Stan x Reader; age gap NOT underage (reader 20, seb is 40s), mean!seb, breeding kink, dad kink, face slapping, size kink, spit kink, orgasm delay/denial, oral sex, aftercare
ANY HATE WILL BE DELETED THIS IS A JUDGEMENT FREE ZONE DON’T LIKE, DON’T INTERACT; MINORS DO NOT INTERACT 18+
"Hey Seb look at this," you said, running into his study seeing him sitting behind his desk, deep look of concentration on his face.
"Would you shut up for five seconds?" he asked, holding up a hand as you came to stand in front of his desk.
"But Dad-" you said playfully, trying to get him to look at your outfit.
"I fucking said, 'shut up'!" Sebastian roared standing up as his hand whipped out and smacked your cheek, turning your head to the side. Tears filled your eyes as you whimpered, heart and cunt clenching painfully tight.
"I'm sorry!" you cried, holding your hand to your cheek as Sebastian grabbed your arm, yanking you around his desk until you were standing in front of him.
"If I hear anything out of you other than 'yes', 'dad', or 'more', you're gonna get spanked til you bruise," Sebastian threatened, one of his large hands cupping your entire ass cheek under your skirt, spreading you apart while sliding your panties down with his other.
"Yes Dad," you whispered, hands light on his broad chest. You grabbed onto his biceps, not even coming close to wrapping your fingers around them, as he lifted you up and onto the desk.
Sebastian's long fingers curled around your thighs as he spread them apart,, rubbing his clothed erection against your bare pussy. You groaned at the rough treatment, jeans scraping your inner thighs. He pulled back, saying, "Take me out sweetheart," in a dark tone.
You shuddered, hands floating down from his arms to his waist, his hands still on your thighs keeping them apart. Your arms were tangled together but you managed to get his jeans undone, sliding them down his hips until they finally fell and pooled at his ankles.
You guided his thick cock to your cunt, letting him press against you, then shove in when you released him, burying himself in one quick thrust. Your hands flew to his arms, squeezing as you were rapidly filled again and again, Sebastian having started a rapid pace immediately.
"Dad, slow down!" you cried, pussy already aching. Sebastian slapped you again, tutting.
"That's not one of the things you can say right now little girl," he tsked, hand returning to your hip as he held you tighter, pulling your pelvis to his then pushing you down on your back, a hand pressing just below your throat. "Say what I want to hear, or you won't be able to talk at all."
"More!" you gasped, fear racing through you even as Sebastian continued to slide through your wet cunt.
"There we go, apparently you aren't entirely stupid," Sebastian taunted, laughing when you moaned as he sped up his thrusts. "Maybe I spoke too soon."
He grabbed your chin, pulling you up a bit and forcing your mouth open before spitting in it. He closed your mouth making you swallow as you shuddered.
"Fucking pathetic little girl, you'll take anything I give you, won't you?" Sebastian asked tauntingly.
"Yes Dad," you whimpered as you fell back to the desk, Sebastian releasing your chin. He grabbed your hips tightly, fucking you deeper, gliding past your spot on every thrust.
"Dad I- I'm gonna come," you stuttered, too overwhelmed with sensations to think. He glared at you, then slapped your face again.
"What did I tell you? The only words are?" he asked, punctuating each word with a slap until your cheek was on fire.
"Yes Dad! More!" you sobbed and Sebastian chuckled.
"Oh you want more? Well of course sweetheart," he replied, smacking your cheek one more time. "Alright, now you can come. But you have to right now or not at all."
You wailed, wriggling underneath him as you tried to push yourself over the edge but couldn't. "Aww, that's too bad, you don't get to come," Sebastian simpered mockingly, laugh turning into a groan as you clenched on him, still desperate.
He grabbed your hips harder, brutally slamming into your hips, your ass getting bruised on the edge of the desk. "Gonna wreck you sweetheart, make you my little toy, fuck this cunt until it's swollen."
"Yes Dad," You moaned, trying desperately not to come now, as Sebastian brushed past your spot on every other thrust.
"Fuck, that's it, tight sweetheart, just like that, shit," he groaned as he came, hips stuttering and banging into your swollen pussy a few more times.
Sebastian pulled out slowly, shushing you when you hissed. He fixed his pants, then sat down in his chair, rolling closer to you. He gently took your thighs in his hands, holding them open as he bent his head to your throbbing cunt.
"Come whenever you want now baby, say whatever you want, do whatever you want, this is all you now, my good girl," Sebastian murmured, just loudly enough for you to hear him before he was gently pressing his lips to your pussy.
Your breath hitched immediately, pulses following the trail of his lips to your center, licking in deeply. Your hands went to his hair, holding on as you whined. His cheeks pressed against your pussy, scruff rasping against your tender skin. You twitched, humping his face as his nose rubbed your clit.
"Seb, oh my god, I'm- holy shit!" you shouted as he pressed two fingers into you and sucked your clit into his mouth. He caught it between his teeth and flicked it with his tongue, making you shriek as you came, squirting past his fingers onto his lap. He moaned into you, sucking at you until you were limp on the desk.
He pulled away and lifted you into his arms, cuddling you to his broad chest. You came back to yourself slowly, breathing in his fresh scent, always so comforting to you. You stayed there for a while, just breathing him in while he stroked your hair and rubbed your back, pressing random kisses to your head.
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you-are-my-joy · 2 years
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ahhhh authornimmm TROAE never failed to make me sob, the gut-wrenching sob i let out when oc saw jimin at the club– i was in painnn. but im so so happy with the storyline, the way oc met the grandma (is she... somewhat associated with the grandma who read stories for the kids in the end?? 🧐) and when they met– i just couldnt. i had to lock my phone and stare into space for abt 10 mins before i continued, and it was so so worth it! im so happy the prankster Kiara is alive and finally got to live a happy life with Seulgi, Mika finally being treated and raised into a kind warlock, and the boys finally having their empress back 🥺🥺🥺 im just so so content! and i loveeee the ending so much, the fact that they are reunited again in another lifetime 🥺 thank you sm for sharing this masterpiece with us authornim! I couldnt imagine reading a fantasy story that gives so much emotions like this one 🤍
if you want to learn more about that grandma, I'd suggest reading the side story that I have posted ;)
Im so so so happy that you enjoyed reading my story <3333 thank you so much
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what's up bitches, 9-1-1 6.08 watch analysis time
strong female heroes are great but so are pretty princesses
i always feel jealous whenever i see a renfaire. i've never been to one
the metaphor for a queen bee is kind of funny compared to the strong female hero v. damsel in distress debate
NOT BUCK WITH THE BOOSTER SEAT 🥺🥺
oooo Madney house hunting?? im very excited this could be awesome
Uncle Buck is the loml
Jee is leveling up Buck's parenting skills :)))
MAYYYYYYY
coming home for diner
with a guy? whosee Darius? did i miss something?
"tOo MaNY dIStrAcTioNs"
i'm so caught up in fanon that i honestly did not expect May to bring a guy home. was 100% ready for her "friend" to come over and she comes out as a lesbian
Buck's parenting arc is great but i feel like if it has nothing to do with Christopher than it's kind of pointless? Buck already is a dad, he has a son, and I *need* Buck to remember that, and for the show to remember their relationship.
Athena is waaaay too suspicious of this guy. he's clearly freaking the fuck out. I hope he gets a better job though
Christopher Diaz what are you hiding huh?
Jee is the best little girl. Love her sm.
Hen and Athena hanging out are always my favorite scenes. They're great together and always low-drama
NOT THE ELON TWITTER SHADE
what the heck is a kickback?
so there's a major focus on all the kids huh? makes me sad that we probably won't see harry this episode. and denny hasn't been mentioned yet so he might not be but i kind of want him to be
this guy is creepy as fuck. and misogynistic??
Buck is sooo concerned about Chris dating *Mrs. Garcia RIP*
fuck not these idiots
how is having sex on top of a moving firetruck your fantasy??????
the crew talking about Chris with Eddie is great. "Carla. From now on I'm only talking to Carla." suuuure
they're stupid af they deserved that
"Yeah and unless that song was based in truth, I don't think it was ever actually raining men" BUCK WTF. Eddie's look said it all fr
Bobby looks so disappointed "You don't know, what do you mean you don't know??" "And it's not a truck it's an eNGinE" Bobby-
May, do not go in there. That place ain't worth shit.
This guy is fucking s t r a n g e /neg I like strange but that's just fucking stupid
Misogynistic. Knew it.
Did she lock her doors? Are her windows down??? Was she not raised by a police sergeant??????
the ONE white guy in that house was evil. art imitates life fr
is Erik Peter Pan from OUAT???
May is the one true boss of this show I'm sorry Athena but I'm still ACAB
Oh the Rn faire is back
axes <3
DENNY!!!!
Buck is legit everywhere. He has to have a scene with Christopher now right???
The sisters have my whole ass heart
This couple is crazy
Jee Yun is so fucking adorable oh my god I can't stand it
NO BUCK AND CHRIS SCENE?? NONE???? THEY'RE DRIVING ME TO HOMICIDE
2 weeks? i need to update my calender
final thoughts: Buck is somehow going to become The Dad. Idk how but he's parented every kid of this group at this point. I kind of want to see him babysitting everyone at once ngl.
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nulltune · 1 year
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ARE WE LOVING LYNN ON MAIN TODAY?? IM JOINING THE TRAIN BC I LOVE U i love ur hakuno sm she is the peak moon girl and like a little mashmallow owl i hold in my hands and give a little kiss to because i care her sm. ik this isnt the right blog but her and my archimedes interacting is so good and fuels me. buffoonery. seeing ur excitement and love for hakuno makes me 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺. i wuv u
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HWJDBKFHS DEZZZ THAT IS SO SO CUTEEE IM GASPING CRYING HOLDING MY FACE LIKE THIS????? I HAND HER TO UUU I TRUST HER IN UR HANDS.....!!!!!! i still have an ask from ur lancelot calling her lil owlet in the depths of my drafts btw....... Da Cutest nickname 4 her ever i sob,,,,, and i also sob bc PLS UR SO SWEET SJDHWJD 🥺🥺😭😭❤️❤️💖💖 AND GAWD YESS I LOVE HER AND MEDECCHAN SM LMAO but between u and me dez... it's bc i love ur archimedes ❤️ gsjfhsjx this is not a secret actually bc my extella memories are Decaying + was not very fond of it in the first place BUT I LUV UR ARCHIIII and i love da dynamic they have 💖 not a single brain cell between them (hakuno drains his) 💖 IM CRYING THOO TYSM DEZ 😭😭😭❤️💖💖 ILY2!!!!!! and can i just say that the desire to throw hakuno at all ur muses is . So Strong ubububu i know nothing (NOTHING!!) abt final fantasy but gahdamn do i love urianger sm already (like hi sir do u wanna read this weird moon girl's fortune- even tho she's hecka weird and doesn't have a past or a future or anything sgfjsb) AND HONESTLY ANYTHING U WRITE? I LOVE, I ADORE, I GRABBY HANDS AT!!!!!
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textsacc · 2 years
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mm 🥺 nvm bestie i cant sleeb i have a lot to say n think abt
like how when i put my head down on a pillow n close my eyes i can rly see mc and its bad idw to 🥺 n also now im feeling regret for playing mc im so upset bc i cant seem to feel good abt being able to play games
mmm n also i felt bad trying to sleeb bc i missed u n miss sleebbing w u but was playing mc and i prefer u to minecraft and its just !!!! bad that i had to focus on minecrafr
like i didnt even get to ask u abt ur day or anth i ddint get to tell u that u did a great job w the party i didnr get to ask how u celebrated. u know what i also realize while laying down. i didnt even get to ask u out this summer n im so frustrated bc sch is starting for u n idw interrupt your schedule but i wanna do stuff now that im finally not busy and its just!!! its just a whole mess!!! i dont like it,,, i just wanna spend time tgt n cuddle,,,
i was only reading some manga today, regular fantasy isekai, called reincarnation of a sword, but i hated how the story progressed so i just. got rly mad at the state of my life rn idk???? tired n upset abt it n also i miss u n like cant believe i want to prioritize u above all else no joke its kind of }:v mood??? idk
n also i wanted to ask for clash but like thats secondary
jn me in mc i was playing w kon n sab n we were killing the ender dragon n also raiding some cities aft that. which is rly high pressure bc theres a lot of enemies after me n its rly easy to die AND i was the only one raiding it bc kon n sab cldnt help as much so they took forever while trying to get to a place i alr cleared out. i was trynna go fast n get the impt stuff for them n get out bc we all hated the place. n they yelled at me for stealing the show n flexing ig
tmr ill b going to sabs house bc they wanna hang out b4 going to nex to eat dinner w yee. and that sounds rly nice but at the same time i feel rly burnt out for sm reason. yes its 4am ig thats probably why i feel awful but. idk i also want cuddles n kisses ig. i wan cute girl (you) n im sorry i didnt get to see u off to sleeb 🥺 i rly wanted to n i was trynna raid asap so i cld but ik ur good girl n sleeb early bc school n i respect that so its nbd but i also rly like u n i wanna tuck u into bed n its like so routine that i miss u dearly at night n also it feels wrong when i cant. like if every day was a chapter you wld b my ending paragraph and if u werent there it wld feel like the chapter ended with tension. idk does that make any sense
also i wanted to lyk that like. im still talking to katelyn right bc of the site n we're friends but like. bestie. i need u to know i forgot to spell her name when we were talking. the aftnoon like 3 to 4 days ago when u were like gonna go ask katelyn or smth. she was going to sleeb bc our aftnoon is usa sleeby time i think and she said goodnight to me with my name but i cldnt mirror it back. i dont know why i thought it was kaitlyn (league of legends???) but ik i dont rmb how to spell it and the fact that u did makes me rly upset platonically and impressed every other manner. because i fucking didnt. 😭 just ic u wanna know how much shes on my mind (shes not. i miss u a whole lot. i want to sleeb w u agn)
bestie i hope ur day at sch goes okay 🥺🥺 n ill sleeb early w u i promise im not even gonna touch mc past 11 any more idk why it makes me feel sick but ik it does n im just. i want to stop feeling awful n up at 3 to 6 am during the hols. i miss you a lot n if i cld i wld like to follow u everywhere n help u out 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 pls keep me close like ur pet or ur little meow meow,,,
ilysm cutie 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 i wish i was cuddling u instead of blahaj atm even if he is comfy. i wan giv u so many kiss n brush ur hair n tell u ur cute n go head empty i always go head empty when ur arnd and i like that... ure an angel 🥺🥺🥺🙏❤️
thank u bestie gnight 🥺🥺🙏
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bubbletaeeee · 2 years
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Fatally Reunited - Karina x GN!Reader
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Requested: Yes! 🥰
Content: Angst, Fluff, Quite Light Smut
Warnings: I don’t think so, Just mentions of light sexual activity
A/N: before you read, I apologise for my absence, I chose to take a break for my mental health, it’s been a little difficult to write recently or find the motivation but I finally got this done for you guys, I hope you enjoy 🥺❤️
Word Count: 4.1K
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As a child, you were pretty happy and loved. Although it’s not as easy to say that you were a super good kid, because let’s be honest, you could be naughty.
It was all pranks and dares, all with your best friend. That one girl who spent every second with you.
Gosh you were practically like siblings. You got into trouble together, you cried together, you laughed together, you were just together.
Life seemed fun… until it stabbed you in the back!
At the age of 12, you watched your best friend drive away with tears streaming down her face.
Her mum found a new job out in Seoul and it was a huge deal, they’d always struggled a little with money and basic living needs but this offer would change their life. It was a trade between a better standard of living and stability and friendships.
But at the end of the day, it wasn’t jimin’s choice. She simply HAD to go.
Everyday after that didn’t seem so enjoyable anymore, the days were a bore and if we’re being honest, you didn’t want to make many new friends, in fact you had a dream, a goal that kept you going. The loneliness all seemed a blur when your mind was focused on this dream. Your parents both believed it was just a fantasy, being an idol is definitely not an easy thing to be, and it was not easy to even get a chance to become one.
You trained yourself for months, years, literally forever, and you auditioned for all the companies possible, the more you tried, the more chance you would get to be accepted.
It came as a shock to you when SM accepted you, of course you began as a trainee. Starting at 15. And before you knew it, you were 17 and ready to debut with your own group. You and your 6 other members became close friends.
Your music, your songs, your choreography, your performances were all outstanding. Millions looked up to each and every one of you.
The years seemed to go by so fast, and before you knew it, the sad day came when you all had to be disbanded, after 6 years your contract ended, but you weren’t going to let it bring you down.
To think positively you had 6 still close friends and your songs are still loved and listened to and to make things even better, the CEOs at SM recognised your leadership and talents and decided to keep you on a successful journey.
You and 2 of the other former members became soloists, it wasn’t hard to catch the popularity again, because you were so well known after the 6 grateful years you spent with the group. You wrote your own songs and sung them independently, but of course you can’t take all the credit, a few producers helped create the music, design and edit music videos and help out with dance routines.
Right now life felt like a dream come true, and to think it couldn’t get any better, not only did SM keep you for solo music purposes but for much more, you were given a huge responsibility in managing a new group, to act as an older leader to guide them through their musical journey.
You were told that there were 4 girls in need of a manager, Karina, Giselle, Winter and Ningning, each of them being supposedly very talented and unique, their concept is said to be a whole different scene: futuristic, an alternate universe in a virtual reality attempting to connect with the real modern world.
You couldn’t be more excited, they sounded so cool and fun.
So far the girls have determined their roles. You were to visit and introduce yourself to each member but first it was principle to have a first meeting with the group leader, Karina.
Karina… a strong, beautiful name you thought.
It’s around 9:00am and you were waiting in a small meeting room, it was quiet and secluded. A young, pretty woman knocked and entered on command. You both exchanged a friendly smile and sat down opposite one another. The air felt a little tense and awkward, neither of you knew what to say so you attempted to cut the silence with a simple question.
“So, I’d like to assume you’re Karina”
She giggled nervously, looking down at her lap, “uh, yeah that’s me, it’s nice to finally meet you… manager”
Your eyes studied her face for a moment, squinting in order to concentrate.
Isn’t she familiar?
It took a few seconds for the younger girl to avert her eyes to yours when you didn’t reply.
“Uh- is somethi-”
“You look so familiar to me”, you interrupted her, your confusion puzzled her just as much, causing her to tilt her head to the side.
“Is Karina your birth name?”
You thought maybe the two of you had met before but ‘Karina’ didn’t ring any bells in your mind.
“Oh- no, no my real name is Yoo Ji-Min”, she waved her hands in dismissal. Your eyes widened at the name that hit so close to home as your hands slapped against your mouth in disbelief.
“Jimin? Oh my goodness! Don’t you remember me?”, your hands redirecting over your chest as if to specify who you meant.
Jimin’s eyebrows furrowed together like she was searching for recognition in her brain, “umm- I-”
“We were best friends when we were kids, remember? Then you had to move away”, you hung your head in sadness when reminding her and yourself of the last part.
This time she clocked the memory and sprung up in her seat, “y/n?”
You mirrored her actions and laughed in unison.
“You remember now?”, you searched for reassurance, smiling brightly.
“Yes! Yes i remember, oh my god, you look so so different now, really grown up I see”, she smirked jokingly, causing you to roll your eyes and cross your arms.
“It’s nice to see some things didn’t change, your humour is still the same”
The awkwardness left the room, just the two of you left with so much to catch each other up on.
After an hour of frantically talking about everything that had happened within the prolonged period apart from each other, you both left the room laughing and glowing.
Shortly afterwards, you were taken to meet the other three members, although it felt more like Jimin introducing you to them as a friend rather than a manager.
The girls were so kind and respectable, you had a feeling being their manager would be a great experience. Although right now, it’d only just come to your realisation that it’s around 12:00 and even though it still may seem early in the day, you had a lot of work to be getting done. Even though you were now a manager, You still had a solo career to deal with too, I mean, you knew juggling two very important jobs together would be extremely difficult and busy but you’re willing to give it a try.
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It’s been half an hour since your introduction with the girls and now you would be found in an empty dance studio practicing away at your soon-to-be solo comeback.
It got extremely tiring after a couple of hours but you had to work through it and keep going.
After the next hour, you took a break and turned to grab your drink, well until you got interrupted by a pair of hands on your shoulders and a voice screaming “boo!” In your ear.
You pretty much jumped out of your skin and spun around abruptly to see a goofy looking Yoo Jimin.
Your shock quickly turned into a warm smile, “heyy, what are you doing here?”
“Can I stay and watch?”, she pouted like a toddler which made you giggle
“You wanna watch me dance?”
She nodded, smiling happily.
You rolled your eyes playfully and let her do so.
After watching you practice just once through the routine, the younger girl got up and mocked your moves along with you, next to you.
You couldn’t help but smile at the scene of your two through the mirror. Her moves were a little off but you took the time to show her properly how to dance each move smoothly, the room was filled with music and laughter.
Somehow the ‘lesson’ ended up with you two tackling eachother to the floor, tickling eachother in competition. It got to a point where she switched your positions and ended up on top of you, pinning your wrists down, “ha! Now I got you!”, she called out childishly.
But for a moment, time felt slow, you forgot everything you were thinking and feeling and just stared at the beautiful girl hovering above you.
Your heart beat felt a little harder, a little faster.
Was she always this adorable?
Soon enough the laughter died down and you were stuck staring eachother in the eyes and becoming… closer?
Her face leant in closer and closer to yours, by now you could feel her breath on your skin.
Before anything could happen you cut the moment in panic, “so! I think we should take a quick break and get back to it!”
She laughed in embarrassment and got off you as fast as she could.
Gosh! You felt so bad about interrupting the moment.
You just panicked, stumbling over to the back of the room where you left your water bottle to take another sip, but with your back turnt, you felt a weight and warmth behind you.
Jimin wrapped her arms around your torso and rested against you, of course you couldn’t help but smile at her affection.
“I’m sorry if I made you feel awkward”, you heard her mumble against you.
The sound of her voice melted your heart and cooed at her adorable apology.
“You didn’t make me feel awkward at all, don’t worry about it jiminie”, you spoke in a low, warm tone and turned in her arms to give her a proper hug.
“You know, it feels like we’d never been apart, I’m still so comfortable with you”, you admitted, still holding onto her.
Even though you couldn’t see, her cheeks were as red as a rose at your remark.
“Me too”, the shy girl whispered.
Instead of practicing some more, you decided to call it a day and walked eachother out.
She hugged you goodbye and left to have lunch with her members.
You watched as she walked away, replaying the moment over and over again in your head. Thinking about what would have happened if you didn’t prevent it.
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Skipping ahead to tomorrow, you woke up to get ready for the day and check your schedule.
Today you were planned to take up some studio time and spend some time training with aespa, figuring out debut plans and assessments.
First things first: Studio Time
9:00am
You’d turned up at an empty studio that you reserved for yourself for the morning.
You took these next couple of hours to put in some hard work on your new album.
These new songs, in your opinion, were something to be proud of. You’ve never been super confident about all of your songs but at the end of the day you were proud of the effort and time you put into it and seeing your fans complimenting you so much boosted your self esteem.
At around 11:30, you showed up in the dance studio you knew the four girls would be in.
As soon as your presence entered the room, all four of the members rushed in front of you for a hug each to greet you.
Every one of the Aespa members are just so cute and sweet that the stress of all the business felt worth it when you get to see them succeed in the end knowing that it was you that guided them. Although, up until now you’d never exactly heard any of them sing or seen any of them dance so today you planned an introductory assessment to get an idea of what you would be working with.
You found a chair and sat at the back of the room, leaving them space to show off their talents in front of you.
The music began playing and every one of them sang and danced neatly. There were a couple of minor faults in the dance routine where a couple of moves were slightly off beat but that could easily be worked on.
A slower part came up and Karina was favoured to take up the verse. She sang softly but passionately, staring you directly in the eyes as she did so.
Your heart pounded a little harder against your chest and a small grin naturally plastered on your lips, she took the chance to wink at you before turning back to join the other girls in the sequence and sing along to the chorus.
You were in shock once they’d finished.
Their vocals were beautiful and perfect and the way their voices synced together in a perfect tone, and their dance moves were pretty much perfect, smooth and correctly paced.
It was adorable how proud of themselves they looked and rightly so. They’re brilliant.
You clapped supportively and sat in shock, the only words formed were, “wow…”
Giselle, Ningning and Winter all giggled nervously and hid their faces whilst their leader approached you slowly, now standing directly in front of you.
“What did you think?”, she smirked.
You sent her a proud smile and complimented, “it was perfect, you’re all beautifully talented and… I can’t wait to work with you girls”
They all squealed in return, including Karina who turned back to the others. Your time was well spent discussing ideas for a debut song and their weaknesses and strengths up until 13:00, everyone complained about feeling hungry so you allowed them to dismiss themself to get lunch.
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Over the next couple of weeks you helped the four girls through choreography and creating a killer debut
So far the music was only a rough draft but you had an idea of what to do with it. The lyrics were written out by the production team with large contribution from Aespa
Today, you’re practicing the new choreography with them. All this busy work had tired the girls pretty fast because they weren’t used to it yet but you’re trying your best to encourage and build up their confidence and strength.
Right now it was late and you were finishing up the last round of practice, going over the choreography once more. Giselle, Winter and Ningning bid you goodbye and thanked you before leaving to go to their dorms. You turned to find Karina staring sharply at herself in the mirror while she continued to practice. There was just one part of the choreography she couldn’t get just right yet, and that was okay because she could surely work on it with a little bit of time but the girl was too stubborn to wait and let herself rest. A tired smile formed on your lips watching her pushing herself further, her persistence was admirable but you didn’t want her to get overtired and stressed.
Her moves froze when she felt your hands massage lightly into her shoulders and her head hung low, almost shameful.
“Don’t push yourself too much, you’ll make yourself tired and upset, don’t worry about this right now. Just go and rest” but Karina wasn’t going to go that easily, she was stubborn, and always wanted things to be perfect.
“Just a few more minutes”, she pouted.
You stared at her in the mirror and rolled your eyes, “fine JUST a few more minutes and that’s it, I’ll teach you”
Her pout quickly turned into a smile as you walked over to your phone connected to the speakers and pressed play before rushing back to her side and showing her the moves slowly whilst instructing clearly.
“Okay, got it? Let’s try together”
She nodded and stood to your right, slightly in front of you.
“Okay, 1, 2, 3, 4 Go”
You went over the same routine at a normal pace with her copying you through the mirror.
She was almost there, it was just the one move she couldn’t perfect.
“Right, I see the issue, you just need to loosen your hips a little more and sway with the beat”
And that’s when you came up directly behind her and cautiously placed your hands on her waist, worried that she may feel uncomfortable.
“Uh. Is this okay?”
She nodded and sent you a soft smile.
“Okay, sway for me”
She did as she was told and rolled her hips side to side whilst you guided her with your hands to make her moves smoother. You got caught up staring down at your hands on her waist that you forgot you were trying to teach her, hoping that she didn’t realise anything you cleared your throat and praised her, “that’s really good, keep doing that when I let go”
You slowly slid your hands away from her waist and observed her up and down, when she noticed the movement of your eyes through the mirror, a smirk wandered to her lips.
Unexpectedly, the younger girl pushed herself back a little more, closer to you whilst still rocking her hips side to side.
You froze and your eyes widened as she became increasingly closer, her pace slowed when your bodies were almost pressed together.
You were close enough to whisper, “what are you doing?”
Karina turned around to face you and wrapped her arms around your neck to pull you in for a soft hug.
You let your arms fall to her waist and hid your face into her shoulder. Her right hand rested on the back of your head, massaging you lovingly.
Eventually the girl pulled back slowly with her hand still at the back of your head and the other leant onto your left shoulder.
Your eyes made contact and once you saw the sparkling, hypnotising look in her dark eyes you panicked a little and looked down as fast as possible, your heart fluttered and stomach was filled with butterflies.
What is even happening right now?
She could sense your nerves and bought her left hand away to lift your chin up, once again being met with her gorgeous brown eyes. She sent you a comforting smile and leaned in slowly. Once her lips were hovering just over yours, your foreheads leant against eachother, your breaths fanning against your lips.
Her eyes closed and your lips brushed against eachother. You froze for a moment until you came to your senses and let yourself kiss her back, she took that as confirmation to be able to kiss you more.
Your lips parted from eachother to breathe, giving the smaller girl a chance to take a step closer so that her entire body was lightly pressed against yours.
And with that, your lips made contact again for a slow, passionate kiss.
It felt so right and so wrong at the same time, your thoughts began to overtake everything else, causing you to pull away and jump backwards leaving Karina flustered and confused.
“I-I’m sorry, I can’t do this, it’s not right”
You knew you wanted it. It felt like fate that brought the two of you back together again. There was no lie in saying that you had a connection, you were always comfortable with eachother and there was never a secret hidden, you would be blind not to see the spark between you both but being her manager you were worried about it being a problem or when fans might notice and start to go crazy about it, it could cause some problems, usually idols are banned from dating for a while. So all these issues felt like a barrier between the two of you.
The theories and thoughts filled your mind and a tear slipped from your eye as you let out quiet sobs.
The sight broke her heart and she immediately rushed over to you and pulled you in for a hug, hushing you gently,
“Hey, don’t worry, everything will be okay. Talk to me, what’s going on? Hmm?”
You pulled back and let her brush your tears away from your cheeks.
“I’m just- I’m worried, if something happens with us-“, you gestured between you both to emphasise your idea, “- then we could lose all of this success and opportunity and what if- t-there are fans that can’t accept us and cause trouble, I don’t want to risk anything”
Her hands cupped both of your cheeks and she sternly looked you in the eyes.
“Listen to me my love, everything will be okay, I like you, and I know that you can’t lie to me, you feel the same, so don’t let it go… no one else needs to know, at least for now. Follow your heart”, and with that she kissed both of your cheeks.
Her words calmed you down, at least enough to stop you crying.
She whispered to you, “I care about you so much, let me give you my heart”
You stared into her eyes, letting yourself fall into her arms.
You buried your face into her neck and wrapped your arms around her to hold her as tight as possible.
“I do like you… you’re right”
She put on a hopeful smile and kissed the side of your head.
You found yourself gaining some confidence.
Enough to press your lips against her neck to leave a sweet kiss, and another one… one more.
She giggled at your affection, “look at me, let me see that smile”, she demanded kindly.
You pulled your head away to look her in the eyes with a small grin.
You held her hands and spoke up, “I guess we could try, as long as we’re careful, I don’t want anyone to get hurt or in trouble, okay?”
The bright smile on her face was hard to miss and her excitement got the best of her as she leapt up to kiss your lips again.
“I understand y/n-ssi”, she agreed with a lower tone, dipping her head to the crook of your neck to leave a light trail of kisses from your jaw to your collarbone.
Her lips found their way to your ear to leave you with words that made you quietly moan, “I’m crazy about you, so let me prove it to you… darling”
You held on tight to her hips and pulled her into you as hard as possible, bringing your lips to meet with hers once more, the kiss led to a long makeout session, all that could be heard were innocent whimpers and quiet moans.
You pulled apart to breathe finally.
“Come to my dorm, let us finish this there”, she suggested between breaths.
You nodded willingly and followed her to her dorm.
The rest of the evening was blissful and euphoric.
Her touches were so gentle, her kisses so delicate you wish you could stay in her embrace forever.
By the time the evening was over you’d both ended up fast asleep in each others arms until you were awoken hours later at 7:00am by Karina’s alarm.
You groaned and stirred away from your slumber.
She stopped the blaring noise as fast as possible and sat up to rub her eyes only for you to wrap an arm around her to pull her back down to the mattress with you.
Your head purposely laying on her chest to prevent her from going anywhere.
“Sweetie, we need to move at some point you know, we got work to do”, she laughed whilst playing with your hair.
“Nooo”, you whined tiredly and drifted back to sleep.
“You know, even when we were just kids I knew I liked you, I would sometimes get a little nervous around you and I always wanted to impress you, I couldn’t understand the way I felt until now, we’ve both grown up but I didn’t expect my feelings to grow back after so many years apart, i'm just so happy you’re back in my life now, I need you, and I want us stay with eachother, there’s no way i'm letting us split apart again”, she confessed sleepily.
You opened your eyes slowly and hovered above her, “you always liked me?”
She nodded shyly and blushed a little, but of course you noticed and kissed her cheeks along with her forehead.
“It’s okay, I think I always knew I needed you, and yes we spent time apart but I’ve got you now. I'm not planning on letting you go anytime soon”
Your reassurance warmed her heart and gave her a sense of relief she didn’t know she needed.
Your head laid back onto her chest whilst a love struck smile plastered onto her face.
“Thank you”
Her voice was just a small whisper but you could hear perfectly, along with the constant rhythm of her heartbeat.
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hi!! not a request but i love your writing sm aaa n i just checked your carrd, you like final fantasy??? :O which ones, if i may ask? >.< i’m just curious on which ones you like, final fantasy’s one of my most favorite things in the world n ur like one of my top writers on this site 🥺 (and AGJKSJFJS i’m tryna get some friends into the series hehe so i’m curious as to how you got into it 👉🏻👈🏻) hope you’re doing well, angel <3
I SAW THIS ASK AGES AGO AND THEN FORGOT TO ANSWER IT BUT I HOPE UR STILL AROUND AND SEE THIS ANON I LOVE U 🥺 ive been meaning to get into more of the final fantasy games actually! the only one ive rlly got a lot of knowledge about is ff7 (+ff7r and the related games / lore) because my friend recommended it to me in the most painful way possible
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the same friend has tried 2 get me into ff15 by saying ignis is my type (malewife, british) as well as ravus and noctis and idk enough about the game or the characters to know if its an insult or a compliment but one of these days i will sit down and watch an entire no commentary play thru!! 13 hrs is a LOT less daunting than the 27 hours ff7r took to watch (not to mention watching all the movies and other ff7 related games directly afterward too orz) and looking it up real quick effectively put it in my watch history and will get it put on my youtube homepage so u can take the credit if i start watching it soon anon....
also i tried the ff14 like free trial once and got rlly surprised bc it was my first mmo kinda thing and i got really overwhelmed by the amount of people online @ once but ive gotten a lot more used to it thanks to playing lost ark so i might have 2 give it another shot actually ;;; i want to buy the full thing tho i have a visceral need 2 b a viera boy so bad
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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i love love music so much oh man
#🌙.rambles#my tumblr is rlly a mess 😭😭 BUT#return to oblivion 🥺 so goddamn good. one of my favs fr. N IT RESONATES W ME SM TOO#the story's so good. sobs. the lyrics. n then IT JUST SOUNDS SO HEAVENLY TO ME#it's so good. one of my most favorite songs#n then arknights !!!! the ost !!!! still not over ständchen. n awaken's one of my favs too. n like. other osts too#like from lingering echoes n i'm so sorry i forgot the title but one of the ones w quite a lot of purple on the cover#i find this so funny. i'll be listening to metal or punk rock or just wtvr rock one second n in the next it'll be. hmmm#hang on i'll just mention artists i forget the specific genres n i don't want to get it wrong T_T#from mcr to milli to architects to inabakumori to florence + the machine to milgram to txt to ado to le sserafim to the 1975#tho the. kpop ones r just like. i used to listen to them very often like exactly a year ago or esp 2019 but not quite so much now#just every now n then#^^ there's like. a bunch of game osts i just listen to throughout my days#any final fantasy to kh to drakenier to arknights to gbf to chrono to code vein to octopath to soulsborne to persona to. yeah. you get it#my top 10 for the month is so funny#there's quite a lot of the 1975 bcs wnvr i get into smth whether it be a video game or artist or book or wtvr i rlly. yk 🫣#n then there's dearly beloved in 2nd n woah night in the brume in 8th bcs i fell asleep to it one night#then there's heaven help us from mcr n then love from the other side from fob n then down the list there's a lot of ffxiv#last december or november it was full of a lot like. milgram. n there was more milli around then iirc#i like my music taste v much c: i just love music so much#i rlly. want to play the piano again. n i will definitely finally learn how to play the guitar one day but#i really really really really want to learn the violin 🥹🫶🏼 or. actually. bcs of ebenholz i also realized how much i love the flute HDLKF#i just love music so much :C grew up w it fr w like playing the piano n then my dad really really loves music#he's more on like. rock stuff. n like from his time ofc but man. that 1k+ following on spotify n then his playlists#i wld say my music taste is more wide than my dad's? bcs i like the kind of music he likes but i also like yk. some examples of genres#he doesn't rlly listen to wld be kpop n vocaloid n hmm he loves video games too but i'd say i listen to them more#i rlly want to go to an orchestra irl. or even an opera or. idk just wtvr concert too the only concert i've been to was skz back in 2019#that was fun but 🥺 i'm so excited for the 1975 this may aaaa n then just. music. i love music.
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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"words, deeds, beliefs" ALPHINAUD 😭🫶🏼
#🌙.rambles#[ ffxiv. ]#I SCROLLED DOWN TO THE BOTTOM N OH MY GOD I IMMEDIATELY ALREADY#LILIES. LILIES. FUCKING LILIES#NOOOOOOOOOOOOO I'M GNA CRY ALREADY JUST FROM THAT#quickly mili's bulbel has become one of my top fav songs n it means so much to me#along w that i used lily as an online alias before when i really young.... yeah. YEAH.#i have such a soft spot for alphinaud he's my first fav chara n. we're close in age n all n he's just#his character development means so much to me#i'm so proud of him !?! baby baby boy :<#NEVER GET YOUR ELEZEN GROWTH SPURT PLEASE 🥹#fuck wait. 'each from different walks from life who took the road on an impossible journey'#'whatever else we may have been in the beginning─in the end we were friends'#'and we will meet again.'#that sentiment always gets me wait fuck i'm listening to melodies of life right now NO I'M TOO EMOTIONAL FOR THIS#ffix being one of the games i finished in 2020 (along with ffxv & kh3) are all. so important to me w my youth n all#ZIDANE AND GARNET.... 😭 i love the themes of melodies of life sm n ffix in general it's just so special to me#one day my love life better be as goddamn bittersweet like final fantasy (but still with a happy ending please please)#wait back to alphi; writing in his journal 🥺 herbal tea & 'turning his drowsy eyes heavensward'#god i love him#'before sleep claimed him a thought came unbidden'#'a bouquet of lilies for those we have lost. and for the living... / he knew' N HE SMILED#'And so it was that Alphinaud Leveilleur once more failed to say what was in his heart─' dude i'm gna cry he's my fav he's just like me fr#wait remind me why i added the vocal ffxiv distant world songs to my queue n why are they all about love. no. fuck no#I CAN'T DO THIS WAIT I'LL READ THIS STORY FROM THE START#oh dear. oh no. 'another sleepless night' ; i love these stories sm bcs they add sm more to the characters#like outside of msq n all wtf are they doing? yeah. ALPHINAUD'S JUST LIKE ME FRFR I LOVE HIM#oh. NO FUCK WE'RE JUST THE SAME ; 'when I saw my arrogance and vanity for what it was─then in the very depths of my despair─he spoke to me'#Are you content to remain a broken blade? Is there no flame hot enough to reforge you?#that. haurchefant's words :<
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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remembering how. zack fair's still rlly one of my favs hehe
#🌙.rambles#[ ffvii. ]#random but first yk that friend i made on instagram like. around 2 weeks ago i think >.>#we haven't rlly talked since but when me n apollo put smth ffxiv related like yk rambling a bit bcs of death unto dawn !!!! he messaged heh#haven't replied yet but i saw in my notifs like. yk they love seeing me n apollo ramble. 🥹 nerds fr#anyways thinking of that rlly. stuck with me bcs they rlly do seem happy to have met fellow nerds hehe#OKAY anyways other than just. loving final fantasy which ofc includes 7 n then i remember like dec/jan rmb me rambling abt ffvii bcs of ccr#^^ bro's fav chara is zack too so i just randomly rmbered that HDLKAFJSDF#🥺 thinking abt zack rn n he rlly means a lot to me#like back in 2020 i liked rufus shinra a lot as well. help. but zack has always been my fav in ffvii n one of my favs in the whole series#i rmb quoting him a lot too hdfkasjdfl 'embrace your dreams & whatever happens protect your honor as soldier'#'those wings.. i want them too' & 'boy oh boy.. the price of freedom is steep'#ccr's my fav oh my god the angel stuff n wings i always loved that. n yk eyes the color of the sky. i really love the sky#^^ started esp w noctis oh dear. bro. caelum. 😭😭 THE MEMORIES#not to mention like. help i just have to put this out again but i don't super ship any of the yks in ffvii. i like quite a lot of them.#but like. zack n aerith rn okay. those wishes hfdlajsdfks i love them sm they're adorable :^)#i want to play crisis core so badly. been nearly 2 months since buying ccr but it's still in its plastic 💀#recently has sucked a lot i think bcs. pms rlly amplified it lmfao n then today w those cramps n all#tmrrw hopefully i can do the interview n them my other assignments! n then we're going out to get our measurements for. prom. dress. yes#i love designing i want to alrdy imagine my dress HDLKAFJLSKD 🫣🫣 normally yk my fav colors r black n white but#i want blue. dark blue. maybe some other accent tho like idk what wld be nice w silver or black n white#hmm. yk wearing a suit wld be so cool i love suits or wtvr but i wna take this chance to wear a dress.#the way i express myself in ffxiv is actually pretty different from irl? HMMM. idk how to describe it uwahh#i mean there's quite a lot of levels to it but one example is how you'd find my wol probably wearing like. stuff w frills or skirts n stuff#irl i don't think i've ever rlly worn anything. like my wol wld typically wear lmfao 😭 but that's just one lvl bcs#both my wol n i have different styles yk.#random too i love zero so much :c confirmed her design's meant to be genderless n. she/they real imho she's just like me fr <3#i personally don't think too much on labels but. if i were to yk for my gender. recently i've been leaning more to unlabeled or#smth on the enby spectrum idk still 🥺 uwahh thinking abt zero though.. androgyny's rlly attractive to me. i love zero#help i just rmbered 6.2 n w zero i was so. HFDLAKFJS I'M GNA LOOK BACK ON MY NOTES THEN. I WAS SO SILLY. STILL AM. I LOVE HER
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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if that rumored ffix remake will eventually be true i'm gna go insane
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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promises to keep.... i love & miss e12s 🥹🤍
#🌙.rambles#there's always this special feeling that's like. that i always feel wnvr i lsiten to the song#SOBBING I USED TO ALWAYS GET SO EMOTIONAL#I LOVE ORCHESTRA SO FUCKING MUCH I WLD#😭😭 i'm going a bit. insane rn#THE WAY IT STARTS OUT W THE PIANO. THE DROPS N THE INSTRUMENTS N#i love the melody so much! the harmonies!#the orchestra vocals!!!!!!!!!#& goddamn don't get me started on the fight#it's my fav honestly sob it's just Special to me#IT'S SO MAGICAL N PRETTY N#i remember all the mechs. it's just intertwined w my fucking soul n engraved in my mind#part 2 too.... THE EXTREME! FINAL FANTASY EIGHT#SOB I LOVE THE BOSS DESIGN SM TOO#i rmb talking a bit to one of my friends abt raiding bcs he was progging ucob by then n asked how was e12s prog for me#bro said i might have difficulties at first w double apoc sorry nah i grasped it rlly quickly 🥺#i rmb i had some friends that were surprised when finding out how young i was esp back then but#tbf perhaps this may come w some underestimation of my own self but it's generally easier to learn when you're young iirc#apollo n i were the youngest in the static & fc. we know the age of one of our friends then n he's 3 years older#everyone else in the static were adults by then n most were in uni or. yk working n all#i'd be willing to bet that at least one person was twice our age sooo#i was MT (main tank) >< goddamn ego boost oh no#ffxiv raiding makes me rlly happy. i hope one day i'll have a grp of close friends my age w similar interests that#i can raid w together yk? vc. play ffxiv together. i never really had a grp of friends that i cld play games together with#oh my god i miss raiding in ffxiv so much it's been months 😭#awwwie hehe i rmb our static calling shiva phase pvp bcs we'd always wipe out each other 🥹#i love the clutches we had oh my god those were so fun.#SOB WAIT I RMB IN THE TRANSITION CUTSCENE 💀 we're all kinda knocked down yeah n my wol wld#during prog one of the glams i'd use wld be. she'd wear a skirt n.... BRO MY STATIC WLD LAUGH SOBBBB MY POOR WOL#i miss those days hehe i wld be drained at times but! happy memories c: i miss raiding 🤍 ><
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noxtivagus · 2 years
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WOAH
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