#therapy is gonna be fun

[rosesvioletshardy]

yeah so i don’t think i’m going to be able to take my meds for a while because i went to my pharmacy and they said it won’t be refilled for a while

#i’m actually going to kill my self #i need them to stay sane #idk how im gonna survive #therapy is gonna be fun

[cinewhore]

can’t stop thinking about graduation now teehee will this be the thing that causes me to spiral?

#i just feel like i know absolutely nothing #my mom called me today and was like…so do you have connections or? #legit cried on the phone lol #because i don’t know!!!! #i do know for sure I’m not doing grad school #that’ll take some time and if/when i go - it’ll be international #thought about getting a job as a flight attendant but i keep hearing horror stories #i also feel like because i am older than most of the people graduating with me - I’m supposed to have this stuff sorted out #looking at all my peers now it’s like they’re settled into careers and whatnot #meanwhile I’m doing whatever the fuck it is and much older #i love anthropology but idk what to do with that degree #therapy is gonna be fun

[ciearcab]

saw the bookclub’s reached vol 10 so i’m joining in on the sorrows :,)

#trigun #trigun maximum #trigun maximum spoilers #trigun spoilers #freaked myself out again over posting art so. exposure therapy time. gonna make an effort to share more stuff #trigunbookclub #(tag fixed for the club! ty!!) #? technically?? i haven’t been properly participating but it’s fun to read everyone’s thoughts!

[littledemo0n]

No are we gonna ignore that episode or..??

#sketch #ilustracion #digital ilustration #shitpost #transformers #transformers earthspark #shockwave #twitch malto #thrash malto #jawbreaker malto #nightshade malto #hashtag malto #nah but seriously #i didnt understand the sudden change of heart #anyways #what would season 2 be about? #the therapy ark? #that's gonna be a nasty bill for the maltos that's for sure #i want a fun innocent vacation epsiode where everyone goes to the beach or its a silly little cabin covered in snow #let the children be children pleaaaaaasssree #pleaseee #no more death #just let them be their age for more than 5 SECONDS!!! #i gagged at the tentacle episode that shit was disgusting #so happy mandroid and the other lady are dead though :) #i hope it hurted #i also hope they stay dead #they better not pull a transformers on my little transformers show #maccadam

[thunderc1an]

a left-handed hollyleaf

#warrior cats #warriors #thunderclan #hollyleaf #guys I beat the system #any black cat is the easiest to draw #this was actually really fun #and a challenge to draw with only my left hand #sure i found a loophole #but it's my loophole!! #anyways how are u guys? #physical therapy for my hand is kinda interesting #i basically have to stick my right hand into this machine #with a million glass beads and water #its pretty fun #if this doesn't work then I'm gonna get a steroid shot in my hand #icky!

[writer-room]

Love that the team continued to uphold Lloyd being extremely mentally unwell at all times. Barely functioning but insisting its fine. Plagued by the visions™. Legitimately had a panic attack when everything started to go wrong. Completely willing to fuck over his entire physiology with weird dragon magic because "yeah that'll probably be helpful later". Waking up screaming and shrugging because its totally normal to have nightmares that horrifying on the regular. A+ on this assignment lads, you've broken Lloyd down to his bare essentials.

#ninjago #ninjago dragons rising #lego ninjago #lego ninjago dragons rising #dragons rising #lloyd garmadon #text post #talk #ninjago team #it was WILD to hear lloyd say 'my panic attack' like OH #YEAH THAT IS WHAT THAT WAS. COOL SO WE'RE ACKNOWLEGING IT #lloyd has zero understanding of basic mental health #and the parts he DOES understand he just chooses to ignore bc 'im built different' #my sweet summer child you sure were built different. you were built so different that you need like #triple therapy #lloyd is hanging on by a thread #that thread has snapped multiple times #somehow there is always another thread underneath for him to catch #usually this thread was thrown down by the others to make sure he doesnt fully plunge off the deep end #because frankly if he does it will go one of two ways #hes going to kill everyone in this realm OR himself #the fun part is figuring out if hes gonna do either of those things on purpose or total accident

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Tumblr is way chiller than Twitter for sure but sometimes I see a post and I'm like. Y'all DO remember this is a block game, right? You're not gonna get legitimately pissy and passive-aggressive over characters doing things in a block game, RIGHT???

#i talk #qsmp talk #Chatter: Jaiden don't do this— twitter will cancel you! #The rest of us in chat: Why should she care about anything Twitter says #People on frickin twitter AND tumblr: *whining about Jaiden* #LIKE BRO YOU CANNOT BE SERIOUS LMFAOOOOOO #fandom wank #I'm gonna start unfollowing people #not even just for bad opinions I'm just tired of seeing people being mean and bitter #I'm just here to have fun I don't want to constantly see whining #Critique characters and stuff all you want that's part of the fandom experience but some of y'all are so damn mean for no reason lmao #Touch grass and seek therapy #I know me posting this is part of the ''too many people complaining'' problem but Jaiden's my gal I am a little bit annoyed by that #Again: character critique is fine #but sometimes it's just so passive-aggressive and like. written like the character did a personal attack on YOU #<- the last tag is the most important point here I think

[pandoratheprocrasticreator]

yakou furio's character is so tragic to me. i wanna meme about how they used the fridged wife trope but other than that it's like. he lost his family and later all of his coworkers and just. existed alone for years.

looking at the state the submarine and especially his bedroom was in, with everything being a mess and all the cigarette butts in his bed, yakou was clearly depressed. he wouldn't even take on any interesting cases to fulfill his passion as a detective because he was so afraid of the peacekeepers. instead he just kept his head down. surviving but not actually living.

and then he finally gets some new detectives to work at his agency and the first thing he can do is fail to save most of them from dying horribly. but the five that yakou did manage to save latch onto him and he starts getting into a leader role! even if his new coworkers are all rowdy and get into trouble they still respect him as a leader and look up to him.

the detectives keep picking fights with the peacekeepers that yakou has been trying so hard to dodge. and usually the resolution is kind of messed up because the victims die but the detectives prove themselves capable of handling the peacekeepers! they're helping people! for the first time in a while, yakou comes toe to toe with peacekeepers willingly, to help his new friends. he realizes that he is able to stand up against amaterasu corp, with the help of the others.

but by the time he realizes this, the stage has already been set. the letter from yomi turned his grief into anger and a thirst for vengeance. although yomi gave him the information and opportunity, yakou was ultimately the one who chose to murder the man who murdered his wife.

yakou has already rebuilt his life after his wife's death. the detectives at his agency look up to him and he would do anything for them. it would never be the same as the life he had with his wife but yakou had the chance to turn over a new leaf with a new found family who cares about him.

but instead, yakou plans a murder. he needs to die, over and over, in order to access the man he wants to kill and he accepts it. he needs to trick two kids, who look up to him and who he cares for, into becoming his accomplices to the murder and he accepts it. in the wake of forcing his detectives to witness his murder, he needs leave them in a lab filled with peacekeepers who want to kill them and he accepts it.

and it's not that he doesn't care about his detectives. yuma and halara disobeyed his orders and assaulted several peacekeepers, and he was willing to be arrested himself before throwing his employees under the bus. yuma and fubuki were implicated in terrorism and yakou and the others solve the case for them, then prepare to fight an army of peacekeepers to protect yuma.

for his murder plan, yakou only needs desuhiko and fubuki's powers. but he brings halara and vivia along as well because they would be able to protect the two younger detectives and fight their way out of the lab after yakou dies. he enacts his plan on a day that yuma wasn't around because he won't be able to help fight peacekeepers, so it's better to just keep him out of this mess. he covers up his murder-suicide to protect his detective's feelings, but also because they would be implicated as his accomplices if his plan was revealed.

and yakou probably expected that the other detectives would be fine. if they'd left him behind to die, the other detectives probably would have been able to either fight their way out or hide out in the lab a bit longer and figured out a good plan to escape. if yakou had his way, he would have gotten his revenge and his detectives would have gone home grief-stricken, but unharmed and forever unaware of their roles in his death.

but yakou doesn't account for the fact that the other detectives would try to save his life. yuma doesn't run after the hitman and escape the peacekeepers, he stays behind to beg yomi to help yakou. fubuki uses up all her energy to rewind time to try to prevent yakou's death instead of helping the others escape the lab. halara, vivia, and desuhiko not only have to fight off peacekeepers, but they also have to carry yakou to a hiding spot to give first aid. and instead of calmly planning their next move, everyone is desperate to solve the case so there would be any chance of getting yakou to a hospital as quickly as possible.

one major theme of rain code is that despite tragedies that may have happened in the past, people can work together with those they care about to live a better life in the future. and yakou could have had that. his wife's death should have stayed in the past, and he should have continued to mentor the other detectives, solving mysteries together and enjoying each other's companies.

but yakou couldn't let the past stay in the past. he had every chance to not go through with his murder. he has new people he loves, but he manipulates them and puts them in danger in order to get back at the person who killed the last person he loved. his victory was a pyrrhic one. he got his revenge but in return, he destroyed himself and his detectives' trust in him. he enjoyed his revenge momentarily before dying and leaving his new family, who he used their love and trust for him to his advantage, to pick up the pieces.

yakou furio had lost everything in the past. but in trying to pursue it he destroyed everything he had in the present. that's the tragedy of his character to me.

#shut up pandora #rain code #master detective archives: rain code #yakou furio #character analysis #yakou is one of my favorite characters btw #hes a good person at his core though he fucked up #but also you dont have to be a good person to be a really good character which i think he is #this is @ ppl in youtube comments slamming on yakou for being stupid in chapter 4 btw #like thats the point #thats whats good about his character #would you have preferred if he were JUST a fun dad who gets fridged #thats fucking boring #we do nuance in this household and by household i mean my personal blog #but also what he did was pretty fucked up especially for the kids that he actually got involved #vivia was screaming crying throwing up bc it was a vivia chapter but i wanna see what fubuki's reaction was to the whole thing #bc man is she never gonna want to use her forte again #tragic anime dilfs will scar their kids for life in an elaborate and painful murder suicide instead of going to therapy #i like to acknowledge both sides of characters in general #but yeah while yakou was a really good mentor for the others at the agency and definitely loved them all very much #he put his want for revenge over his love for his found family #and died before he could reconcile to said found family about it

[blood-teeth]

on the real, im trying to throw myself back into the IF/writing space because it really was the singular thing that had helped me heal the first time around.

im playing with the idea of another IF, and really just taking my time with it and letting myself not be so pressured by forcing myself to update or churn out chapter a ton - that’s where a lot of my angst came from with FTMB and when TMITAWH was an IF

also! I’ve been absent from the space long enough that im not sure im reading everything from my friends or if there’s been some really good stuff coming out lately.

If you have any recs, I’d love to read them!

#idk idk just thoughts #I get a lot of anxiety about traditionally publishing TMITAWH because it’s such a #it’s such a book #publishing is hell and that’s even if I get an agent and even then the book still may not EVER be published #so like what do I do with the story then #do I come back to IF with it and just make it literally you click through the story because it’s not gonna change #or do I self pub #OR do I just throw it up somewhere online #I care about this story SO much it’s like a piece of me #so idk #but also coming back to creating IF is different too because I’m scared about immediate feedback like that and what if people don’t like it #yada yada yada #but it may be like a fun thing for me to get my mind off things #momma (me) (derogatory) cannot go back to therapy #anyway #let me know some recs please love you bunches ♥️♥️♥️ #twine #IF #interactive fiction

[snappy-nametag]

Apparently I’ve decided I like drawing Michael in bad situations. He’s just… having the worst time in my art lmao. Here for example, he’s realized that he really goofed it. He, in fact, should not have made his brother give Fredbear a kiss.

#fnaf #michael afton #five nights at freddy's #fnaf fanart #tw blood #I tried out a new brush to try and break the art block and it helped but it still took a lot longer than usual #but now I’ve got a traumatized little Mike with some fun lighting which is fun #look at him #he’s gonna remember this for the rest of his life #what a little pathetic guy #get him some therapy lol

[ye-olde-trojan-horse]

me: awwww I love this character.

also me: how else can I traumatise them?

#this is me with borrowed time #literally just an exercise of how much can I traumatise regulus #it’s kinda cathartic ngl #my thoughts are constantly #how can I make your life worse? #what else can I throw at you? #will you survive this? #yes #but you are gonna need SO much therapy #SO MUCH THERAPY #it’s so fun #nathara is active? what. #regulus black #borrowed time #jegulus

[moregraceful]

i made what was a huge medical decision today that has been received very badly by my family and i feel absolutely nothing but pure freedom and joy about it. the thing i'm really fixated on rn is when should i post this fic i just finished

#i think october 1. for halloween #it was for skelly season but it took such a weird turn in the end that i feel weird about gifting it to someone lol #very short list of people i would subject this particular rarepair agenda to on purpose. maybe just beryl #the medical decision is legitimately life-altering and i should be stressed but i'm just like it's my body. my body horror. and i'm free :) #i'm stressin way more about the fic bro #and like if i don't gift the fic do i then go back and commit to making it even weirder and rarepaired.... #stars future leadership polycule (two guys who are dating and their captain who holds their hand in high stress situations) #what am i even talking about..................... #today my boss was like thank you for your (insane 11 paragraph long) email! i used it as a meeting agenda with my boss :) #i was like oh no now my grandboss knows i use my boss's inbox as my work livejournal #i got to remake my schedule tho now that i'm almost done with my training!! i gave myself a three day weekend... #...so i can go to the therapy i need to deal with this job. was anyone gonna tell me abt secondary trauma or was i #just supposed to find that out on my literal first day of work lol #my therapist was THRILLED she was like oh i have SO many books to recommend we're gonna have SO much fun!! i was like oh no #fridays off and life is good tbh!! except for the fic. i don't know what to do abt the fic #fresno oilers.txt

[cry-ptidd]

Is Babycard human or just a vampire with no idea how to use any of his abilities?

Vlad is a human! He doesn’t have access to his powers, but the tie he has with Integra and Seras is still very much there. So they’re kinda just buried until he regains his normal form. Maybe the spell he got hit with tried to bury/block his powers, and this was the only proper outcome it could find? Hm, lore.

He’s also like… 9? 10? No older than 12 though. It’s basically just age-regression to Alucard’s earlier life.

#babycard au #it might be fun to make him a little vamp guy but i wanna explore that human aspect of Alucard #try to suppress it peepaw it’s still there!!! #also on GOD we’re gonna get you therapy

[slaviclore]

#i just wanted to make a poll like everyone else :( #that sweet aroma of slav trauma sprinkled with americana like cigarettes and chlorine #polls #also the history diorama and falling down the well are funny to me but my dad didn't think so #hyperspecific poll #mom is this free therapy #oh i guess the snake was venomous not poisonous sorry english is my second language #I'm gonna try again when i feel better and make one that's more fun

[gently-decaying-flowers]

i am going to deeply regret not eating much tomorrow

but for some reason the thought of packing my lunch makes me want to rip my skin off so i’d rather not

#tw eating issues #tw body horror #kinda #tw sh related #tomorrows gonna be fun #is it bad that i can tell? #at least i have therapy so that’s nice #:)

[dannyric333]

Literally how my whole week's gonna be

#it's gonna be such an emotional week #i already start crying at all danke seb posts #gonna be a crying mess when the race is done #someone need to pay for my therapy because i started this f1 for fun to relieve my stress not adding it #daniel ricciardo #dr3 #sebastian vettel #sv5 #mick schumacher #nicholas latifi #f1 #formula 1