#the words just came out of me today

[baronessblixen]

« What happened to you ? What’s this bruise on your face ? »

If you feel like writing again can you please do this prompt for me ? 🙏

Thank you for your patience! I've been thinking about this prompt for ages. Today I wrote it.

Set in season 6, hurt/comfort, some angst: Kersh puts Scully on another case without Mulder and once again she gets hurt. (wc: 1,347)

Tagging @today-in-fic @xffictober2023

Fictober Day 11: Always Partners

She doesn't know if she's happy or sad that Mulder is here at the crime scene too. They weren't working together - again. And he shouldn't be here. She doubts that anyone called him. Even Skinner wouldn't dare. But now he's here. Much to her chagrin, he's not alone. She catches the exact second when Mulder spots her. One moment he's walking and smiling with Diana, the next he’s sprinting toward her, his face a mixture of terror and anger.

“What happened here?” he asks, his voice close to a bark. The paramedic working on Scully jumps back in surprise. But Mulder pays him zero mind.

“What happened to you?” His voice and his expression soften. He only has eyes for her. So far, Scully hasn’t found her voice. Too surprised is she by seeing him here. “What’s this bruise on your face?” He touches it gently and she winces. Mulder withdraws his hand as if burned and mumbles an apology.

“Who did this to you?” They’re surrounded by FBI, by paramedics and somewhere among these people lurks Diana, surely watching this exchange with a dagger between her teeth, waiting for the right moment to ram it into Scully’s back.

“Hey, give the lady some space, all right?” The paramedic elbows Mulder not so gently and he huffs in surprise.

“This lady is my partner.” The two enter a staring contest and Scully knows that neither of them can win it. The paramedic just wants to do his job and Mulder is all guard dog, refusing to move a single inch. She knows that his bark is worse than his bite, but if she doesn’t stop this, she will never be able to go home.

“Mulder, he’s just doing his job,” she says. Every word makes her jaw hurt. She barely registered the blow to her head. The attacker came out of nowhere, hit her good, and was gone before she even knew what was going on. Her memories as to what happened next are foggy. She remembers too many people, some of them asking her if she was okay. Skinner was there, and other faceless agents, one of whom called an ambulance. She remembers asking if they got the guy and passing out before she got an answer.

“Are you sure you don’t want to go to the hospital?” The paramedic asks.

“Yes,” she says at the same time as Mulder says “no.” They look at each other. A battle of wills. Scully hears the paramedic sigh and tears her eyes away from Mulder’s.

“I’m sure,” she repeats. “I’m fine.” Her words make Mulder groan.

“Scully, your face is black and blue. Did you pass out? Did she pass out?” The paramedic nods and Scully fears Mulder might snap.

“What the fuck happened here?” he asks, his eyes wild. Scully reaches out to grasp his hand. He calms as soon as he feels her touch. His eyes find hers again as he slips to the ground, kneeling in front of her so that they’re more eye level. He’s in the way of the paramedic but of course, he doesn’t care. His hands on her knees, his eyes plead with her.

“I was doing my job, Mulder,” Scully explains. “You know our job can be dangerous. We were tailing the head of a mob. One of his cronies got spooked and ran. He took everyone down who tried to stop him and one of these people was me.”

“Why are you even on this case?”

“Because Kersh assigned me to it, as you very well know.” Even after what happened with Peyton Ritter, Kersh is determined to separate them as often as he can. She didn’t want this case. She asked Kersh why they needed her and all he did was tell her to do what she was told before he dismissed her.

“Every time he puts you a case, you get hurt,” Mulder says.

“That’s the job.” And she’ll have to repeat the same thing at dinner with her mother Friday night. She’ll fuss, too.

“This isn’t your job,” he says through clenched teeth.

“Fox? Are you ready to go?” For a moment, Scully had forgotten about Diana Fowley. Now she’s standing there, glaring at Scully’s face, at the bruises there and if she’s not mistaken, the other woman is smirking with glee. As if sensing Scully’s rising anger, Mulder’s hold on her tightens.

“You have to go on your own, Diana,” he says matter-of-factly. “Someone has to stay with Scully.”

“She’s not alone,” Diana says, pointing at the paramedic.

“She needs someone to take her home.” Scully just watches this exchange, trying not to gloat. She can’t put it into words, doesn’t want to think too hard about it, but for once, she’s not going to decline Mulder’s help. As much as she hates to admit it, she needs it. She knows she has a concussion. Her body is still full of adrenaline and the pain will only become worse over time.

“There are plenty of other agents here. You’re working with me.” Diana looks directly at her when she says it. “Right now, you and Agent Scully aren’t partners.”

“That’s where you’re wrong, Diana,” Mulder says, getting up. He stands behind Scully, a hand on her shoulder. “Scully and I are always partners.”

“Your loss,” Diana says, flipping her hair. “Remember this when you want my help next time.” With that, she walks off. Scully, Mulder, and even the paramedic visibly relax as soon as she’s out of sight.

“That was… something,” Scully says. “Thank you, Mulder.”

“For what?” he asks.

“For showing up here, for standing up for me.”

“Hey, did they give you the good painkillers this time?” He grins at her and what else can she do but smile back even if it puts her in pain?

“So you’ll be taking her home?” The paramedic snaps off his gloves, finally done with treating her wounds. “She most likely has a concussion and needs to be monitored closely. I advise you to consider going to the hospital after all, Agent Scully.”

“Thank you,” she says. “I’m a medical doctor myself and I know the risks. I’d rather go home.” The paramedic shrugs and hands her a blister of painkillers. He throws Mulder a look that seems to say ‘good luck’.

“Now that he’s gone,” Mulder says, helping her up from her chair. He doesn’t let go of her hand and she’s thankful because her knees feel wobbly. “Are you sure you don’t want to get checked out?”

“Maybe tomorrow,” she says as they start walking. “Right now I just want to go home. Why is everyone looking at me?” she asks Mulder as they pass other agents. “Does my face look that bad?”

“How honest do you want me to be?” His smile is as shaky as she feels.

“Mulder?”

“You have a very nice shiner, Scully. It’s- well, you look like you lost a boxing match.”

“Great,” she mumbles.

“Hey,” he says, his voice more serious. “It could have been worse. He could have had- it could have been so much worse. And once again I wasn’t there.”

“None of this is your fault, Mulder.”

“I know,” he says quietly. “But it feels like it. I should have been here. I should have-”

“You’re here now.”

“And I’m going to take care of you, Scully. Call me Dr. Mulder.”

“Well, then. Take me home, Dr. Mulder.”

He helps her into the car and kisses the cheek that’s not bruised.

“Couldn’t help myself,” he whispers before he’s gone again. She leans back, closing her eyes. She trusts Mulder to get her home and to take care of her. The last few hours are a distant memory. Here in the car with him, surrounded by his scent, by his mere presence, she can relax. The pain is getting stronger and she knows Mulder will suffer with her through the next few days. Just like partners do. And that’s what they are, no matter how hard Diana Fowley and Kersh may try to separate them.

#fictober23 #the words just came out of me today #whenever i'm fairly happy with a fic it doesn't do well #so excited to see what you guys think! #msr #xf fanfic #my writing #my fic

[yikes-ajax]

So it's fine when I walk around with a cane, but when I run on all fours it's "unacceptable" and "terrifying"

#this was definitely not inspired by me having to crawl to the bathroom this morning #while i was doing it i was like “huh this is surprisingly efficient compared to limping” #and a whole vision came to me #i wish i could figure out how to word the post to fit what i was thinking but my brain is being funky today #im really frustrated because it sounds a lot funnier in my head than on paper andi just cant figure it out and aaaaa #shitpost #shitposting #dumbassery #disabled people #actually disabled #disabled problems #disability #disabled #disabled tumblr #mobility aid #mobility issues #cane user #leg pain #idk what to tag ughhhh #disabled memes #do i tag whats wrong with me? i dont even know if theres a “community” on here for it its not very talked about #functional neurological disorder #oo theres a tag at least #fnd

[alsojnpie]

today's mood

#horrortale papyrus #i wrote a long post but you know. maybe i should try that thing #where you don't vomit words and feelings all over the place #that's what everybody else does #but i love being me and i like throwing tantrums in the open. why hide it #look at me I'm sad. except i always feel better after writing it out #hi. sorry i said I'd be gone and then i came back. it will happen again. #still haven't decided about August though. i an getting conflicting advice about internet situation. #this wasn't today's mood but actually a different day's mood. just clarifying

[thebirdandhersong]

I think the problem. the problem is that I have always been afraid of not being invited into the inner circle. and am always wanting to be part of the inner circle. inner circle being the circle of love and companionship and communion. of course being a TCK and a bit of a sheltered homeschooled oddball child has nudged this further along over the years. but I didn't realise how STRONG that desire still burned. to actually be wanted.

#in other words today has been an oddly sad day! discovering that the friends you've made have their own group chats #that are separate from the general group chat (that no one ever talks on) that you aren't a part of is......... i don't know #i KNOW i'm liked by them and i KNOW they love me but do they WANT me around? #like. i know i'm not UNpleasant to have around. i am a good listener and a good conversationalist. #i work very hard at it because it doesn't come naturally to me. #but clearly that's not enough to be added to exclusive group chats! clearly that's not enough to be part of inner core circles #i don't know this just came out of nowhere and i feel as if i've been slapped in the face #sitting at a table where people are talking about the thing someone sent to the group chat #or the photo or quote or reel someone sent to someone else is....... bizarre. #i am trying not to be so hurt by it! i am trying not to take it so personally #it happens. i know it happens. i know it will keep happening. it is just that i thought this was a place where i wouldn't be lonely #and this is the dorm community i've invested so much of my time and energy and love into since last year. #so i think i'm justified in being a little upset! #i'm not crying about it but that's because i'm not about to cry with other people sitting here in the study lounge! #the math is probably really wrong here but i thought that if i poured love in for the sake of pouring love in #somehow somewhere along the line i would also receive love. that i would actually be a part of this community. #anyway that's not going to change how i live here! i committed myself to doing my best this last year #because i don't want anyone to feel left out or unwanted or lonely. i already made the decision #to do everything i can to love the people here. #i'm not trying to toot my horn this is just what i actually want to and have decided to do! #i have birthday cards planned! i have midterm snacks planned! #i've just worked out how i can print christmas and easter cards and stickers! #i'm GOING to love darn it all i'm GOING to pour love in #i think it hurts especially because there's the boy problem going on too #of not being wanted in an area that i DIDN'T expect to be wanted in #and then learning that there is a collective not being wanted in this whole community #it is a Lot and it is very hard and i don't know what to do with it! #i have had this lie (that i'm inherently unloveable and undesirable) in my head since childhood #and i've worked SO HARD to shut that voice up. and it is so so hard to not believe it right now

[fakeoutbf]

five stages of grief but it’s five stages of social anxiety

#walk with me #this morning i got a bouquet delivered to me at work randomly out of nowhere #the note basically said that i could count of the person even if for just some words of advice or a gesture that could make me laugh or mad #count on the person** #i immediately knew it’s from one of my coworkers and ngl i have a very charged?? relationship with them #in the sense that it’s very intense and we can be laughing joking and teasing or we can be really angry and pissed with each other #it can have very extreme emotions even if we just chill most of the time #idk why i think this whole year i’ve been leaning on them more?? and we started texting more often too #so we’ve been more properly friends lately #and for one i was SO EMBARRASSED for getting flowers bc my coworkers tease the shit out of everyone myself included and i’m not used to #gestures like that so obviously they were on my ass all day about it #and everyone asked about them and it’s EMBARRASSING to get that much attention #(me: i wanna be a singer / also me: can’t stand to be the center of attention) #anyway the person that sent them avoided me yesterday out of nowhere??? idk if they thought i was mad bc i didn’t reply to their texts all #weekend but i literally never reply to anyone and pms was a bitch and i just wanted to be alone #so they didn’t talk to me on monday i was mostly just working listening to music bc i was still emotional whatever #and today i did talk to my other coworkers bc it’s the day when my favorite coworker comes in and i talk to them a lot so i engaged more #and they were still ignoring me and then the flowers came in and we didn’t say a single word to each other today we just texted #they told me they sent them and that ‘they forgot’ what they sent and that it was just meant to be a nice gesture #and that bc they wanted to ‘surprise’ me and make me feel better bc i said i was sad at one point?? idek #i literally just want to tell them I HAD PMS ITS FINE I FEEL SUICIDAL ALL THE TIME and move on #bc now i’m second guessing everything they’re saying bc i thought we were friends and there’s no reason why friends can’t send each other #flowers or whatever but they’ve been avoiding me and then they keep answering my texts really weirdly and i always misinterpret flirting bc #i’m never outright romantic with anyone?? plus we’re FRIENDS i should have no reason to think that’s changed #but they’re being so weird and why get me FLOWERS??? idk get me a chocolate or a coffee i don’t NEED flowers #and then i said it was random to give me flowers out of nowhere and they’re like no it’s serious bro what’s serious?????? #your feelings towards me?? or just your will to cheer me up??? #if they don’t reply straight up in their next texts i’m gonna flat out say but it was a platonic gesture right??? #so yeah i’m overthink getting flowers bc what’s the social code for that and what is one supposed to do when they get flowers from a friend #delivered to their joint workplace where everyone can see them and think they’re from a partner or something

[charlie-artlie]

So I've got a new phone and finally have to deal with the reality of not having an audio jack to play music in my car (the car is also old, so no Bluetooth or anything). I've been working through a dusty old cd collection, at least 5-6 years old, which has been fun because along with all the Florence and the machine say anything cds I've got a bunch of cds I burned at the time, at least half of them have absolutely no indication of what's on them (one is marked wtn, so weather songs I liked, another has homestuck fanart so hs songs, and one just says "ay lmao" which I believe was some kind "meme" of that time period).

Anyway all of this was just to explain the full body shock I just experienced when I heard "you're walking in the woods, there's no one around, and your phone is dead..."

#sleeper agent trigger word activated #i think we all collectively decided to forget this song when it came out that shia was an abuser #which. yeah #it just really shocked me to hear it again. theres a lot if music i havent thought abt in years on here #including a blank cd if just random songs and im just listening to it like #hey college charlie. ya doing okay buddy? #anyway i think this cd in particular is my halloween mix #theres songs on here that are STILL on my halloween mix today. crazy #charlie chatterbox

[happi-tree]

Hi, everyone, happy wipweds!!! So, in honor of yesterday's episode being absolutely phenomenal with no heartbreaking bits whatsoever, I've decided to share a snippet from a few months back that is surely one of the most self-indulgent, hyper-specific things I've ever written. You know. To go with the fluff fest that was episode 46! BEcause everything is okay forever 🥰 The teens are just having a fun mall boba shop hangout dw about it!!!

#in other words. it's a kpop day for me and I NEED the teens being silly rn or else. i will combust #they're talking kpop. well at least taylor and scary are. link (and also dood) are. eggman what the fuck are you guys talking about meme #anyway. taylor is a dami bias just like meeee <333 #stream her group's song ootd (by dreamcatcher) it just came out today :Dc it's very fun #dndads #fic #happi scribbles #swiftli #normscary #(implied normscary. at least) #happi rambles

[kris-mage-fics]

The Secret of the Greenhouse

A little non canon compliant Tabitha fic for Scarlet Hollow.

Tabitha loathes taking care of the…thing in the greenhouse. But with Pearlanne gone she's the only one left to do it.

(Please note: I wrote this before Episode 4 came out and based it on my thoughts on the Goop Teddy fan theory at the time. Now we know what's actually in the greenhouse, so this very much doesn't follow canon. But after @georgiedoesntfloat asked me about my SH fic ideas I couldn't get this one out of my head because I liked the vibes. So here it is, and it's all thanks to Georgie!)

Tabitha wasn’t one to believe something unless she saw it herself. She lived in a world of what was concrete and right in front of her. Yet what was in front of her tested her mightily. It shouldn’t exist, but somehow it did. Now that Pearlanne was gone, it was up to her to deal with this…thing.

Pearlanne told Tabitha about it less than a year ago. Apparently it used to be Teddy Scarlet, who was said to have died in the mine collapse in 1918. For all she knew that was a lie. But she learned long ago to keep such thoughts to herself. Pearlanne had been insistent that she learn how to ‘care’ for it. As if it were some kind of horrible pet.

Ever the dutiful daughter, she listened to what her mother had to say. Though Tabitha was sure Pearlanne left out quite a bit. There were too many missing pieces to the story she was given. Now she would never know the rest. Her mother was dead, and she knew not to trust what it had to say.

You can find the rest here on Ao3!

#poor Tabitha and her Eldest Daughter Syndrome despite being an only child #not canon compliant #Goop Teddy fan theory #angst #but like is it possible to write anything Tabitha-centric and it not be angsty? #omg I noticed just as I added the link that both this and “Fog” are 411 words! what are the chances of that?! #editing this today showed me I'm a better writer and editor than I was in November when I first wrote it #shocking that I posted two fics in less than a month! #scarlet hollow #tabitha scarlet #fanfic #excerpt from my writing #ao3 #of course my brain decided that I hated a tiny part of this hours after I posting so I came back to edit it so my brain will stfu about it #literally taking out three words and adding in three different words was all it took - brains are fucking weird man

[whoviandoodler]

[Image description: a digital drawing of Thomas and Varian from Transatlantic in sepia tones. Thomas is sitting on a sofa smoking, one leg bent and resting on the couch. In his right hand he has an open book and in his left he's holding Varian's glasses. He seems to have just looked up from his book at a new arrival. Varian is lying on the couch, his head on Thomas's thigh, and sleeping while covered by a cardigan. End description.]

that awkward moment when you boyfriend said he'd just lie down for a second and totally wouldn't fall asleep (he has so much work to do, he can't take naps), but now he's been sleeping for an hour and your leg is cramping so badly but you don't have the heart to wake him because he's been exhausted for weeks

#transatlantic #lovefry #thomas lovegrove #varian fry #transatlantic varian fry #transatlantic 2023 #varian took his outer clothes off bcs he didnt want to wrinkle them bcs theres no time to get them ironed #but he forgot to take off his glasses and now thomas has just been holding them bcs the nightstand is on varian's side #as always hello to the rest of the family of 5 (our fandom) #i always get extra excited to share stuff bcs ik yall will see it and be excited too #anywayy i felt kinda bad today so i went onto the balcony and just sketched a bunch of ideas #that have been on my mind for ages #this wasnt one of them but as i did my warmup i just ended up drawing them fully in my style no refs #and it came out kinda cute so i did it digital to fix it bcs digital canvases can rly easily be adjusted unlike sketchbooks lol #the ideas that have been haunting me since i watched ta is something to do w how they met (lovefry i mean) #and just a couple varian pieces bcs all the chars are great but i love him especially so so much #i watched julia drawfee's class on poster design and now i also write down words that come to my mind lol #its v fun #i considered shading this piece but it started getting muddy immediately so i just left it as is #dan draws

[bugsbenefit]

ngl seeing everyone clutch onto one(1) photo and then "speculate" on it is hilarious because everyone is coming to "conclusions" and they're all contradicting each other asdfajas. just with the Finn pic today alone, i've seen people say he looks "older"? (not shit they didn't film for a year) so it has to be a time skip past 1987? (no idea what the reasoning for that is supposed to be other than that the actors look different than 1 year ago), i've seen people explain it could be a flashback to pre s4, i've seen people say it's a "byler win" for some reason?? and so on and on

not shaming at all but also holy shit i need everyone who's feeling "we lost" about something to shut up right now, no one can even agree on what they're seeing in a photo, i Assure you whatever you're upset about happening has a less than 5% chance of actually happening, it's a still image my man

#not shaming theorizing at all there's some cool ideas going around #i'm just laughing at how many people are treating whatever conclusions they're drawing from one behind the scenes pic like a fact #''ooooh so this means xyz. great!'' and then you see the image and it has nothing to do with that akdfjal #and then there's no elaborating either. brother you are unintelligible to me #maybe it's just worse for me than usual bc i've been out all day #so whenever i check tumblr for a minute or so my dash is full of reaches and people going through the highs and lows #meanwhile we got one picture #words of someone who was touching too much grass today and then went to therapy #feeling too normal to understand why people are upset over a hc they just came up with themselves #but the next year is going to be Rough if i've seen 3+ we lost takes come from one grainy paparazzi shot #the first 'mike and el get married will gets sacrificed and there's no monster/dragon' fake leak that we'll eventually get will be Rough

[transxfiles]

someone tell theatre majors to stop being such massive flirts, i get feelings too easily

#Y'ALL. #in the cafeteria today a friend from the theatre design/tech program came up to me while i was sitting with other friends #and they started flirting with me and they genuinely want to hook up probably (but i'm not sure i want to go for it with them #unless they actually want to like date and all that bc i really just can't do FWB rn i don't think) but regardless i got VERY flustered #and had no idea what to say and needless to say i've been thinking about it nonstop #and while i was still processing all of that i was on my way to class and i started talking to some acting majors i'm friends with #and they asked me if i was trying out for our production of romeo and juliet and i said i couldn't bc i'm ASMing another show #and they said “aw but you'd be such a cute romeo” GIRL. Y'ALL GOTTA STOP SAYING WORDS. #cricket.chatterbox #bruh #the dyke drama tag

[seventh-district]

it’s finally getting cold enough that i can bring my cardigan collection back into rotation without feeling like i’m gonna melt into a puddle the second i step outside!!!

#Seven.txt #my face #i have rematerialized back out of the void to once again make my once-in-a-blue-moon selfie & life update post #i’m running on 4 hours of restless sleep and the single banana i ate for lunch earlier today. let’s do this #hrrrrg i hate the lighting in my bathroom but i refuse to take pictures in the absolute Mental Illness Disaster Zone™️ that is my bedroom #anyways. got diagnosed with Mystery Pain Syndrome at the dentist today. so now i take ✨steroids✨ #the less funny explanation is that my tooth still hurts with pressure nearly a month post-root canal and That’s Not Good #so we’re trying some new medications to see if that fixes it. and if not then who knows. root canal pt.2 the sequel. or extraction. sigh #and so the Dental Saga continues. todays visit went quite well in spite of the unforeseen mystery pain delaying the tooth-shaving plans #we had some time to kill so he managed to fill some of my other tiny cavities while i was there today so that’s good #okay moving on. what else. uhh. OH they finally came out and ran the fiber to the house last week!!! now i’m just waiting on one more- #-guy to come and finish the interior install and the long awaited fast internet will finally be mine eheheheheeeee #now i can feel my hours upon hours of unedited gameplay footage breathing down my neck :) #man i’ve got so much stuff piled up right now. i’m drowning in Tasks and it’s a lil overwhelming but i’ll handle it all! eventually #uhhhhm my current writing project is coming along well! i’ve never put so much time and effort into a oneshot before in my life #its a labor of love though and i think i’m gonna be really proud of myself (and the fic) once it’s complete #even if no one reads it bc it’s so goddamn self indulgent and kinda lowkey throws canon out the window but like. fuck it! #if i want Astarion to write a song on piano and perform it for me while mentally taking me on a trip down memory lane. then so be it #fr though i’ve never written anything quite like this and i rlly want to do it justice. even if its unrealistic i still want it to be Good #in other news i received word that one of the chickens i sponsor at my local Gentle Barn has passed away so i had a lil cry abt that #i feel so bad for his little tiny chicken wife. they obviously loved each other and it’s like. so sad when one half of an old couple dies #like. she pulled him out of his depression after his 1st wife died. now who’s gonna be there to pull Her out… #anyways let’s not get all sad about that again. in happier news my cat who i presumed died/got killed has returned home uninjured!!! #after that huge stray dog chased her into the woods i thought we’d never find or see her again #but then the morning after i started grieving her she showed back up hungry as hell yet completely unharmed like the enigma that she is #so that’s one definite highlight from earlier this month. uhh what else. rapid fire summary of the past few weeks let’s go- #Jersey turned 10! Bullet turned 10! my 6 year Veganniversary happened! i’m approaching 700 days on DuoLingo! #i’ve written more than 20 thousand words! i’ve been facing some fears! fighting my OCD! taking care of myself! (kinda!) #anyways things are far from being all sunshine and roses around here but i’m trying to focus on the good stuff for the most part #for now tho i have a headache and have reached 30 tags so it’s time to go shovel some mashed potatoes into my mouth :)

[hella1975]

just full force threw a shoe at my sister's face and when my mum got me alone after she was like 'you shouldn't clobber her. but i get it' 😭

#it kicked off today but in my defence she's actually proper in the wrong this time even my DAD called her a bitch and my mum is FUMING #baso my sister came into my work with her mate when i was closing the other day and all the staff GLARED at them bc of aforementioned #close so i was being v chill so everyone 1) knew it was my sister and not some customer coming in late and 2) her friend wouldnt be uncomfy #like that's the real kicker her i was being extra laid back FOR her friend so he'd feel more at ease. and one thing about me is yes ive #said countless times i have a rural accent but my mum also raised me to know when and how to speak nice if need be bc people are cunts here #so when im waitressing i speak nicely bc it's a stuck up restaurant w stuck up customers but when im with my sister? making a point of #being laid back? my normal accent came through. and her mate when i was gone said i sounded 'really [from the county we live in]' #which WOULD NOT BE A COMPLIMENT. it's baso saying 'your sister sounds local and chavy' without using such explosive words #and my sister LET HIM SAY IT. SHE DIDNT DEFEND ME. and she told my mum about it later bc SHE THOUGHT SHE'D TELL ME OFF #LIKE SHE DID IT TO SNITCH. THERE WAS NO SCENARIO WHERE MY SISTER WASNT BEING A CUNT. and my mum hit the ROOF #one thing she's rlly been big on is loyalty bc it's always been the 3 of us so when she found out my sister let him say that she FLIPPED #and this all happened last night and i only found out this morning bc i overheard them screaming at each other and turns out my mum #tried to keep it from me bc she didnt want my feelings hurt and IM pissed bc it actually did hurt more than i thought it would #like i KNOW what people say about my accent but it's a guy i know? my sister's been friends w him for years? i was being nice? #it's EMBARRASSING like i was clueless & friendly and turned around for him to be like 'look at this stupid local girl' like?? #and my sister did NOTHING? it just sucks so i STORMED upstairs when i found out and had it out with my sister #and she knew she was fucked so she did all 'im not talking to you i have nothing to say' AND PUT HER EARPHONES IN? #the way i RIPPED them out. got in her face like okay girl u think i sound like a chav ill act like a chav lets GO #and it just got really aggressive and i wound up grabbing HER OWN SANDAL and full force hurling it at her face 😭 oops #from close range too like i was already in her face so i basically just smacked her with a sandal DSHGJKSH #now we're sat in silence bc alas we still share a room. WHAT the fuck. insane tbh but it's a bit funny. im so angry rn i could KILL #hella goes home

[chirpsythismorning]

Will: Mike! Don’t stop, okay? You’re the heart! Okay? Remember that! You’re the heart!

Birthdaygate doomsdayer:

#stranger things #byler #mike wheeler #will byers #birthdaygate #mike’s monologue #and if he forgets will and doesn’t remember then what? #like… #it’s the emphasis on the word remember that’s making me emotional here #the fact that the reasoning behind Mike holding back here might not have just been his love for will… #but the literal repressed memory that he has already done this before #with will #which is also why he needed that constant support from him!! #LIKE there’s just so many layers to it I’m sick #also someone else pointed out today that jonathon came up with a memory to share with will when they talked in surfer boy pizza 😩 #I love them all I just hope they’re gonna be okay and it’s all explained

[afniel]

Okay, I sat at my desk thinking I'd write, but instead I'm so tired (distinct from being sleepy. I'm usually tired. I'm almost never sleepy) that sitting at my desk hurts and I can't focus worth shit.

I'm beginning to understand how I can write doorstop-size novel(s?) from my phone actually...horizontal is a great position in general.

#I went out and Socialized today #and then came home and made dinner AND chogled chib coogies (nobody can stop me from saying it like that) #(but it's chocolate chip cookies. just for the record) #and this was starting from about 4/10 fatigue and 6/10 pain #so I fully knew what I was getting into. like. I'm not surprised in the least here. #the thing about having autonomy is that you're allowed to make decisions that are bad because the tradeoff is acceptable anyway #sometimes you do in fact decide to push yourself bc what are you gonna do? nothing? #I've been trying to hang out with a friend for like 3+ weeks and I'm not going to get less tired for at least a month so. #that's just how it works! #anyway I want a coogie and to go lie down now and perhaps write a few (thousand?) words #and THEN what I want. is for Magpie to not YELL ME THE FUCK AWAKE through the bedroom door at like 8am #I am 30 or 40 years old and I do not need this

[rohirric-hunter]

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#also okay #this coworker i was complaining about earlier #mr women music #so theres this other coworker #who is. a tad odd #mostly in that he uses weird sort of archaic words a lot #but anyway mr women music has this habit of every time this other coworker does something a little weird #as soon as he thinks hes out of hearing hell turn to me or whoevers closest and make Some Comment about how weird he is #which is not very nice okay. but today he was like 'wow i feel like everything he says is sarcastic' #and im like man #it is so easy to tell when this guy is being sarcastic #because literally every time he does it he then proceeds to say 'that wasnt sarcastic AT ALL' #like every time he uses sarcasm he then proceeds to loudly announce that he is being sarcastic #you just think hes being sarcastic because youve never heard someone say 'warms the cockles of my heart' in real life before #and because its so foreign to you your brain refuses to process it as genuine #anyway then someone else came and jumped all over me for assuming he didnt know what 'warms the cockles of my heart' meant #no i think he knows what it means #hes just never heard someone say it out loud before #which is a personal issue that he needs to get over tbh