#okay moving on. what else. uhh. OH they finally came out and ran the fiber to the house last week!!! now i’m just waiting on one more-

[seventh-district]

it’s finally getting cold enough that i can bring my cardigan collection back into rotation without feeling like i’m gonna melt into a puddle the second i step outside!!!

#Seven.txt #my face #i have rematerialized back out of the void to once again make my once-in-a-blue-moon selfie & life update post #i’m running on 4 hours of restless sleep and the single banana i ate for lunch earlier today. let’s do this #hrrrrg i hate the lighting in my bathroom but i refuse to take pictures in the absolute Mental Illness Disaster Zone™️ that is my bedroom #anyways. got diagnosed with Mystery Pain Syndrome at the dentist today. so now i take ✨steroids✨ #the less funny explanation is that my tooth still hurts with pressure nearly a month post-root canal and That’s Not Good #so we’re trying some new medications to see if that fixes it. and if not then who knows. root canal pt.2 the sequel. or extraction. sigh #and so the Dental Saga continues. todays visit went quite well in spite of the unforeseen mystery pain delaying the tooth-shaving plans #we had some time to kill so he managed to fill some of my other tiny cavities while i was there today so that’s good #okay moving on. what else. uhh. OH they finally came out and ran the fiber to the house last week!!! now i’m just waiting on one more- #-guy to come and finish the interior install and the long awaited fast internet will finally be mine eheheheheeeee #now i can feel my hours upon hours of unedited gameplay footage breathing down my neck :) #man i’ve got so much stuff piled up right now. i’m drowning in Tasks and it’s a lil overwhelming but i’ll handle it all! eventually #uhhhhm my current writing project is coming along well! i’ve never put so much time and effort into a oneshot before in my life #its a labor of love though and i think i’m gonna be really proud of myself (and the fic) once it’s complete #even if no one reads it bc it’s so goddamn self indulgent and kinda lowkey throws canon out the window but like. fuck it! #if i want Astarion to write a song on piano and perform it for me while mentally taking me on a trip down memory lane. then so be it #fr though i’ve never written anything quite like this and i rlly want to do it justice. even if its unrealistic i still want it to be Good #in other news i received word that one of the chickens i sponsor at my local Gentle Barn has passed away so i had a lil cry abt that #i feel so bad for his little tiny chicken wife. they obviously loved each other and it’s like. so sad when one half of an old couple dies #like. she pulled him out of his depression after his 1st wife died. now who’s gonna be there to pull Her out… #anyways let’s not get all sad about that again. in happier news my cat who i presumed died/got killed has returned home uninjured!!! #after that huge stray dog chased her into the woods i thought we’d never find or see her again #but then the morning after i started grieving her she showed back up hungry as hell yet completely unharmed like the enigma that she is #so that’s one definite highlight from earlier this month. uhh what else. rapid fire summary of the past few weeks let’s go- #Jersey turned 10! Bullet turned 10! my 6 year Veganniversary happened! i’m approaching 700 days on DuoLingo! #i’ve written more than 20 thousand words! i’ve been facing some fears! fighting my OCD! taking care of myself! (kinda!) #anyways things are far from being all sunshine and roses around here but i’m trying to focus on the good stuff for the most part #for now tho i have a headache and have reached 30 tags so it’s time to go shovel some mashed potatoes into my mouth :)

[dolanswhore]

Ethan being scared to ask you out and when he finally does he's a mess?

Got a little carried away 😬

"E?" It was a soft knock against his door which woke him up from his deep slumber. His eyes shift from the light shinning through the window to flip to his his side, avoiding the sun at all costs.

"Hmmm?"

"It's Y/N gray told me you wanted to see me." Ethan shot up in seconds, hand raising in the air in anger. He knew he should've never told gray. Last night he finally declared he was going to ask Y/N out, but gray was hoping for sooner than later and did this on purpose.

Ethan stood in seconds, slipping on a pair of shorts, not bothering with a t-shirt. "Uhh.. yeah. Goodmorning by the way."

Ethan was speechless when he looked up to see her face. Today was a charity lunch and they were all asked to attend, which was accepted gladly. Y/N was Grayson's date, Ethan didn't want to bring anyone else, so he didnt. Grayson and Y/N have a strong friendship, that has been going on for years now, so close they could be siblings but with one obstacle in the way: Ethan.

Y/N left his mind scrambling as he looks for words to say - but only managed to soak in every inch of her face. It was a small amount of make up, she didn't need it anyways, but he noticed the matte pink lipstick against her lips and suddenly wanted to color all over his lips, neck and chest.

Hair was neatly thrown into a half up-do, still leaving a small amount of ringlets to frame her face. Her dress is what made his mouth dry, a light pink spaghetti strap dress, that hugged her in all the right places, showing her amazing figure. Legs ran for miles, looking so soft all he wanted to do was kiss them, that was all thanks to the nude heels that showed her perfectly manicured toe nails. "Oh.. wow."

The corners of her lips twitch up into smile as she leans against his door frame. "You look gorgeous.."

His eyes roam her once again before realizing just how long he was staring. "Did you call me here because you need help with your outfit?"

"Yes of course, why do you think gray needed you here." It was true, gray made her come over warly and get ready in his room because of the reason he did need help, and purposely made her get ready before helping Ethan.

Her arm extends towards his skin, making him almost shake with nerves, and he feels his throat clog.

"E, you're hair is crazy." Her fingers try to suppress the strand of hair sticking in the opposite direction, but Ethan steps back as he does taking her hand into his. "I'm going to shower real quick."

His thumb rubs soothingly for a quick second before gently dropping it and giving her a small smile. "I'll be here snooping."

He chuckles softly, "you do that sweetheart."

To say the shower was the longest one of his life was an understatement, he wanted to get out and talk to her, but that was also the problem, talking to her made words fumble, stomach squeeze and mouth dry. When he finally did, he wasn't prepared for what was on the other side of his bedroom door. There she was, shoes thrown at the bottom of his bed, she laid on her stomach flipping through the small book of photos he kept in an album, she was facing him, but due to his towering height he saw right over her head, dress rising right underneath her ass.

"Took you long enough E." She rolls her eyes, acting if she was annoyed but in reality was so happy to be in his room, every fiber was filled with his scent.

"I, um, sorry." Now his chest and face was hot, but from what he wasn't sure. His fumbling words or that if she moved another inch she would practically be naked in front of him.

"E?"

"Hmmm?"

"I need to ask you something." His whole body was definitely red by now, easily shown from the pair of black boxers being his only clothing.

"What is it?"

She sighs, sitting up to sit at the edge of the bed. "Promise it won't change our friendship or you won't be mad at gray?"

Gray. Of course gray would tell her and give up the one chance he asked to do it by himself, but Ethan decided to play dumb and sit down next to her, his knee touching hers. "Yeah... okay sweetheart."

He could have swore he saw her blush? He decides not to push it anymore and listens. "Gray told me you wanted to be my date today."

"I-I do." He decides that hiding it wouldn't be in the best interests to himself. He fittles his thumbs in front of him, ethan wasn't nervous a lot, but Y/N always some how does it.

Currently he was freaking out inside, chest beating irregularly against his rib cage, he felt like it might break them, a small bead of sweat gathering along his forehead, his throat was so so dry. He couldn't form English, he always made a fool of himself around her.

"Why didn't you ask me then?" The question he didn't know how to answer, if the truth then she would know he's head over heals for her, but lying might diminish any source of a chance he has here.

"I was scared." He decided to go with truth. For the first time today her eyes meet his with a frown. He continued though, even though it sounded like blabbering he didn't want her getting the wrong idea, "i was scared that you would say no. You are so beautiful... i am so, so far out of your league. We are such good friends, i don't wsnt to ruin what me and you have. What you and gray have because of my feelings for you."

"You have feelings for me?" His eyes widden as he mentally curses himself out for his mindless blabbering.

"I -uh, well." The redness against his face clearly gave him away as he tried to deny it but only made Y/N smile.

"I like you too."

"Wait, what?" Ethan stands quickly, "you don't have to say this because you're standing in front of me and dont want to hurt my feelings."

"No, you asshole." She stands in front of him, despite his towering figure. "I like, like you. I have always."

Ethan didn't know what to say. The beautiful woman in front of him just admitted to having the same feelings in return and all he could do is stand so dumbfounded. Her hand against his chest broke him from any inner thoughts as his eyes met hers.

Slowly he leaned in, eyes watching hers the whole time, just in case she didn't want to or decided she didnt want him anymore. Her consent was her eyes closing, lips puckering to meet Ethan's.

"Aw, guys c'mon no one wants to see this shit!" Grayson catches what could've been the best moment of Ethan's life short and he shot daggers at him for it as he walked past the hall.

"I'll leave you to get dressed." She walks past him seeing it was almost time to go, ethans hand reaches out for her wrist, holding her still.

"Wait. I, uh." His arm extends over his head, nervously scratching the back on his neck. "Will you go out with me tonight after the lunch?"

She smiles sweetly from ear to ear. "I would love to go anywhere with you Ethan."

Before another words could be said, ethan managed to smoosh their lips together. Lips molding together in a passionate kiss, tongues finding each other in a dance of dominance, tasting rolling against each other. He steps back painfully, "im sorry -."

She conceals his insecurities with another soft, chaste kiss. "I'll see you out there."

"Ill see you, sweetheart."

Ethan was left was nothing but his thoughts now. Quickly dressing in the clothes laid out on his bed for him, his hands try to supress his hair, but fail per usual. The mirror shows his messy mop, he couldn't help but notice the pink lip stick smears across his lips and chin, all he knew is he needed to feel it one more time today before it came to an end.

#ethan dolan imagine #ethan dolan #blurbs