#the things i dont appreciate

[naes-dairy]

I'm literally giving up what do I do what the hell am I just supposed to cry myself to death??? Why do I even

#i dont know what to say anymore #if you wanna see a mental breakdown go visit my account <333 #or something like that no wth #im wrong in so many ways #im wrong for even breathing #why am i even allowed to do such a thing #why am i allowed these privileges #why am I even allowed to have my own room #my own private space #my own things #the things i dont appreciate #why do i live like this #what do i even do #i cant tell anyone #i wont tell anyone #my deepest darkest secrets are literally in the tags #ugh #kill me now #while im starving #i cant afford ti waste food for mom #ughh #why cant i hust starve to death #the pain must be excruciating #it must take forever #but its fine i deserve it #i deserve to rot along with my corpse with nothing left #im so disgusting and pathetic #i dont understand why peoole like being with me #im not cool. im not nice. im not a good friend. im not anything. just leave already and let me die alone like i deserve. #expresso the depresso

[taohs]

(some) Balalaika moments that lives in my head rent free

#blacklagoonedit #black lagoon #balalaika #mine #e:gifs #usersenka #userroh #usermoh #userkyaa #userinahochi #tusersin #oldanimeedit #ive fallen in love with giffing old anime #look at her...! 😭 #she’s war crazy and does criminal things but she’s still not like... inherently evil or malicious #considering her backstory i don’t blame her for being ruthless!!! #also she's so Hot and seductive but i find her so endearing especially when she’s just being casual #balalaika: *threatens people at gunpoint* me: no listen to me guys she can be cute- #me writing a paragraph on just me being in love with her ksjshd #notes dont matter to me i just want some people to appreciate this beauty *_*

[crunchycrystals]

credit to u/ioncelostashoe on reddit for this comment i need to post it on here to share

(also would explain why they knew it should stop at 5 rounds)

#crunchyposts #im frantically going through the reddit post rn trying to talk to people lol #game changer #game changer spoilers #tell me if the image id is wrong btw im not great at writing descriptions for things #100 #150 #200 #300 #400 #500 #edit if any of yall were curious i checked the comment again a day later and this post has more notes than that has upvotes #so if you feel like it maybe like share your thoughts w them on reddit???? i feel like they might appreciate it but idk do whatever you wan #i dont have an account im a stalker lol

[charmac]

He faked cancer, he's been shot robbing his own bar, he's been arrested for arson, he bit open the jugular of a mall Santa in an attempt to kill, he kidnapped a bar critic with a hammer in a fit of rage, he gifted a woman a box of spiders and a man a box of hornets, he tried to chuck a woman out a window, he beat up a group of children for stealing his friend's bike (and might have killed a kid). He lives in a filthy one-room apartment with a rich old man and they keep cans of piss stored in every corner, because he boarded up the bathroom (toilet is noisy) and the bedroom (rooms behind other rooms are creepy). He can't read or write, but he's insistent on writing speeches and signing contracts. He makes up songs in fits of anger and to release his trauma when he's high, he created a play about his CSA, but it was actually just a cover for a marriage proposal to a woman he's stalked for a decade, and he continues to stalk her for another decade. He's an alcoholic janitor who huffs chemicals daily, and he'd happily skin someone alive while hallucinating, just as easily as he cut open his own arm in an attempt to win a made-up game.

He is a terrible man

#iasip #charlie kelly #this is a love appreciation post #for the real charlie kelly #dont get it twisted #there are so many more things i could add #but i didnt wanna make it too long lmfao

[sweetbugs]

#bugblr #bug #bugs #invertebrates #insect #insects #coquette #stinkbug #universe #dont know what this one means but ive been having some sort of crisis for like 2 hours #and i cannot stop thinking about the things i cannot understand #and i need to comprehend that maybe right now i just dont need to #and it is enough to appreciate the universe as it is #when i was a kid i used to cry because numbers were infinite

[haunted-xander]

I think Ryne would have a kinda skewed sense of what's normal. Like, she may technically know what's "normal" for most people, but what's normal for her is way different. She's raised by two men who are both Weird, only one of which can even pretend to be normal (and like hell Thancred bothered with that while on the run with Ryne lol)

Ryne thinks that talking circles round pixies is common knowledge from her many stays in Il Mheg. It is not. She also thinks knowing how to and being able to stomach skinning and gutting animals for food is normal. It's certainly more common, but unless you're a hunter it absolutely does not come as easily. Being able to walk and run around quietly is something she technically knows is unusual, but since her company has mainly consisted of a professional spy and a man who barely leaves home she tends to forget that most people can't do that.

I can't come up with anymore atm but. Ryne should get to be just a little weird(er) I think

#i also think this would make interactions with gaia funnier #bc for all of gaias Baggage she is more or less a normal teenager #who has normal reactions to things (mostly) #ryne & gaia go camping a bit and ryne finds and hunts down like a boar #and gaia watches in horror as ryne just guts it right there bc ryne forgot most ppl dont like to see that process #(and then she repeatedly apologizes for her oversight and promises not to do it in front of her again) #(gaia didnt care THAT much but appreciates the thought anyway) #anyway. my little baby girl i love her and want her the best always #ryne waters #thancred waters #urianger augurelt #< just mentioned (sorta) #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #xander rambles #xander being insane about ryne #not the typical deep ranting BUT IT COUNTS

[blackkatdraws2]

I was majorly bored so I drew some TSP artists characters

@xansheu @marionette-j2x @thechaotichorselord

#tsp artists appreciation #hey guys dont mind the ping i was just kinda bored #i literally have so many things to do but i dont feel like doing anything right now ahh #tsp #tspud #the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tsp narrator #narrator tsp #stanley tsp #tsp stanley #my drawing museum

[hushberry]

i'm glad quackity is becoming more involved in running the actual server, and i think he's handling the situation as well as he can. but it sucks a lot that he wasn't ALREADY highly involved in how his passion project was run and how his money was spent. he is very young, he is a busy law student and content creator, he is intensely private. this was a tough lesson for him on responsibility.

i think those of us who've been watching since the beginning aren't super surprised by how little he knew about things behind the scenes. his character wasn't even allowed to /op because he wanted to be on equal footing with the other players. he constantly mentioned how he "doesn't know what's going to happen today" during events when other members would ask questions. he doesn't seem to know shit about the mods they've chosen or how the custom game mechanics work. he's doesn't play on the server much at all!

so seeing dream stans and other mcyt fans huff and puff about how quackity is lying and obviously knew about everything bad going on is odd. like this man really doesn't know shit about how his server is run or what happens on it. THAT'S a fair thing to criticize and something i agree is irresponsible. it's not fair to claim he's lying about not knowing things when every indication for the last year has pointed viewers in that direction. he's really been super hands off about everything except adding new languages, which is kind of his whole focus.

anyway kudos to the french admins and aypierre for speaking up and sparking workplace change. very on brand for the french LOL

also reminder to any younger viewers who are like REAAAALLY invested in qsmp to stop catastrophizing. it'll be alright. it's literally just minecraft, no one is in any danger.

#qsmp #quackity #i say this as someone who doesn't like quackity as a streamer much #his brand of humor isnt for me and i dont watch his videos #i admire his drive and ambition and i love cross-culture projects #but ive had issues with his silence and lack of action on certain things in the past that caused harm to smaller creators #so i appreciate that it's not happening this time around

[aroaceleovaldez]

Today on doodles i forgot i drew: Bryce Lawrence scene my beloved. Nico's dumb little dog harness in BoO my beloved.

#pjo #riordanverse #nico di angelo #reyna ramírez-arellano #bryce lawrence #my art #i feel like we dont appreciate how stupid Nico looked in BoO #i love that for him so much #bright red tropical shirt. dogsled rope harness thing. covered in bandages and a general bloody dirty mess #wandering around half-dead turning into shadows and nearly passing out. what a guy. #i never know how to draw Bryce Lawrence

[ratatoast]

if someone says they watch dead apple for the plot, they're lying, because I've never met anyone ever who understood the plot of that movie

#bsd #dead apple #like what the hell is going on in that movie #dead apple my beloved i dont understand shit abt u #my bbgirls are very gorgeous tho #i can appreciate the small things in life #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd dead apple

[woosansang]

a collection of incredible, life changing, discord dm spam worthy seonghwas ♡ happy birthday to one of my favourite people, fio @hwanswerland ♡

#ateez #ateezedit #seonghwa #park seonghwa #~ #fio 👑 #heyfio #only for u would i colour ten gifs from scratch <3 #i dont wanna get sappy here bc god fucking knows ive done it enough times and u know what i'd say anyway #so to keep it short and sweet: i am incredibly grateful to know you and i appreciate your friendship so much #have as good of a day as u possibly can in between all the stressful things happening rn <3 #message me when u can bc i miss talking to u every day and i want to celebrate ur bday with u as best i can <3 #tagging some hwatuals for funsies #cheytermelon #forbelleseyes #lucieblr #jennahui #yunhwalovebot #meganbyte

[stealingpotatoes]

Playing the Jedi games and getting back into Star Wars as one does when I came across your art, and it’s what has finally convinced me to actually commit to watching Clone Wars and Rebels instead of vaguely knowing the plot through fandom osmosis. So thank ya kindly!

woah!! i think this is a first for me, usually it's the opposite (ie i get someone who's into all the other stuff into the Jedi games loll)

#im simultaneously jealous and the complete opposite of jealous of ppl who first consumed tcw and rebels as an adult #bc on one hand i dont think child me could fully appreciate it #on the other hand theres literally no way i wouldve got so into either thing without childhood nostalgia LOL #thanks for the ask!

[candyskiez]

Thinking about ???%/Shigeo as a character today and losing my mind. Like he's so funny to joke about but also he's SUCH an interesting character (especially from a plural angle, ESPECIALLY when you're a system yourself) and he makes me want to explode. Imagine forming to protect a little kid and deciding you love him so so much and you'll always be there for him, and you love his little brother, and you love his best friend, even though the world doesn't love you very much. But you take it anyway because you have those three and your little family so you're happy. And you have powers and they're a part of you and the other kid and it's fine until it very suddenly Isn't, and nobody's explaining why, just that you need to Stop Having Them. And the kid just decides, okay, I'm sorry, I'll be normal. And you get no explanation. You just have to be suppressed that little bit more. You form because he can't handle being suppressed yet he suppresses you. And then one day it all blows up and you make a mistake trying to protect your little brother and suddenly everyone hates you. Everyone thinks every little thing you've ever done is proof you're a monster and you always would've turned out like this, and you have no idea what they're talking about. You made a mistake trying to save your brother. But because you look scary and act different, even though you've always been there suddenly you existing is dangerous. Because you made a mistake, you are now Irredeemable.

That would fuck ANY kid up. But like, think about it. Shigeo had no one except Tsumobi and Mob and Mob's family. And suddenly he has no one. Mob represses him so deeply. He makes one mistake and suddenly he's not allowed to talk to anyone, suddenly he's completely alone and isolated. He has to share a brain with someone who despises him. He has the trauma of the accident AND the trauma of suddenly losing everyone he loves on top of it. He literally had no one for years. No wonder he's so fucking cynical. All of the shit about "I don't trust anyone" in the manga? Yeah, of course he doesn't. The rug was pulled out from under him so fast. In his eyes everyone just hated him for no reason, because he existed, and everyone would hurt him for existing, so he could only trust himself. Yeah, no wonder he's so selfish, he has no one else there at ALL. It's just...holyyyy hell.

And the thing is if you actually look the little things point to him yearning for connection so desperately. He's still so aggressively protective of his family (even though he lost them a long time ago, they're Mob's now, they don't even know he's there. Don't get me started on that from a plural view. I won't shut up and will probably pour my heart out.), and just ...world domination arc. When he's so upset about losing his family. We know he doesn't trust Reigen. Yet he's running to Reigen for some sort of comfort because he's scared and doesn't want his family to die and wants someone to tell him everything's fine. And Reigen DOES and he believes him. He believes him and immediately passes out. The guy who doesn't trust anyone wants to be loved so so bad and wants to believe Reigen more than anything. He really clearly WANTS to be able to trust Reigen. But he can't. More on this later.

And also thinking about why the build up in confession arc broke him like that is just fucking sad, man. Everyone was telling them to change. Shigeo's been told to change and it meant "be normal". Mob isn't even the one who actually likes Tsumobi like that. Shigeo's being completely repressed and Mob wants to live without him completely. Everyone wants to live without him now that they've used his powers to get this nice perfect life (in his eyes, at least.) Everyone's just trying to forget he ever existed so they can be happy without him, when Shigeo never GOT to heal. He never got to move on. He never got to process any of the god awful shit that happened to him. Everyone's telling him, change. Be normal. Be normal so Tsumobi will like you. And Shigeo's so fucking stressed out of his mind because lying about who he is didn't even help Mob make friends, it didn't make him popular, it didn't make anyone like him, it just made them both miserable. He doesn't want to be stuck like this. Of course he's freaking out. We see in his encounter with the body improvement club that being told to go back to normal sets him off HARD. It's clearly a sensitive subject. "Normal" means "Don't exist" to Shigeo. Do you see why this fucked me up as a system yet. Oh my god.

And his breakdown is just...painfully understandable. Like, actually think about it for a second. Shigeo has never been shown forgiveness or compassion or any amount of understanding for his mistakes. He never was taught to mature or see any nuance. He fucked up, so he doesn't deserve any second chance. Nobody ever taught him compassion. He has such a completely black and white view of the world. If someone did something bad once, they are forever The Bad Thing. If someone was kind to him once, they are forever Good and Perfect. Teru was a threat once, so he is now Always A Threat. Reigen was a liar before so he is Always A Liar. Ritsu was sweet and kind as a kid so he is always His Innocent Little Brother. And Tsumobi accepted him as a kid, so now she's the only person who could ever possibly accept him. Teru sees Shigeo at his most terrifying, when he's actively hunting him down, and in the manga looks at him with fucking hearts in his eyes. Ritsu might not be all perfect, but he's trying so hard and understanding no, Shigeo isn't just a scary part of Mob. Shigeo isn't Evil. But because neither of their acceptance is perfect, and because they aren't from Tsumobi, he can't see it's even there. And also, another thing, his response to people acting outside of his perception of him is to get them away. It scares him. Teru isn't acting how he expected? Attack maim. Ritsu isn't afraid of him anymore? Teleport him away so he doesn't have to confront the change. Reigen acts different? Throw shit at him until he hates him.

It's just so...fuck man. Of course he's like that. He's immature and selfish because nobody taught him not to be. Nobody helped this kid when he needed it and this is the result. He thinks he's an irredeemable monster so he acts like one when he's told to just be himself. He doesn't see change as being realistic. He's been treated the same no matter what he does so he assumes this is how the world naturally is. He's just a bitter mentally ill kid who nobody gave any reason to believe that maybe the world is nice sometimes.

Another thing: I think he really really wants Reigen to care about him. Him going "I can't listen to him" is so intense with the context of the fact he immediately passes out to rest and let Mob take care of it once Reigen says his parents are safe. Reigen can convince him like nobody else can. He cares about him and wants to believe him and that's terrifying! He hates him and resents him and wants him to be proud of him and wants nothing to do with him and it's confusing and he just wants something that is (supposedly) guaranteed. He wants Reigen to care so badly and it feels impossible. Why would he ever care? He just wants to use him. The only way to bring Shigeo back from his breakdown was to show him that people can be kind without wanting something back in return. Reigen saying "you don't need me anymore" was the only real way to help him, to show him that he's not doing this for himself, but because he cares about his student(s). Because he cares about BOTH of them. He cares about every version he's seen and interacted with, not because of his powers but because they were them. He had to let go of them to truly help them here, so Shigeo wouldn't have any lingering fear. What helps Shigeo is the display of kindness with nothing to be gained and Mob finally realizing that Shigeo's just...flawed. They both realize that sometimes people are just flawed and fucked up and make bad decisions and just straight up hurt people. And they'll still love you. They'll still be worth saving. But you can't deny their flaws, for Mob, and you don't need to seek the perfect relationship to have someone there, for Shigeo. It just. Agh! God! I am always losing my mind over this story. Fuck. This SHOW .

#mp100 spoilers #mp100 #unknown percentage mp100 #shigeo kageyama #kageyama shigeo #also like. the thing of “hey man you dont need a romantic relationship to be happy” is everything to me“ too #“its fine to not have a romantic relationship. its not the end all be all” is gery appreciated #the whole system loves shigeo. this show genuinely helped us so mucj and.helped me understand myself #and thinking about the finale makes me cry #like i was tearing up so many times writing this post. help. #plural mob

[michaun]

Lily Gladstone as Cam Bentland in Under the Bridge ↳ Blood Oath

#under the bridge #lily gladstone #tvedit #tvgif #televisionedit #televisongifs #i dont really like this show tbh #but im hanging on for her and bc i do appreciate what the show is attempting #thing i made

[fixing-bad-comic-art]

you know, it's at times like this where roughly 5billiion people, almost 63% of all humans on earth, are in my inbox explaining the origin of a comic book ass meme to me, that i feel like i need to remind folk that im not really in the comic book fandom. But then, today, i had a realization. One that genuinely made me have to get up and go stare at my fishtank for few minutes.

I can't say that I'm not in the comic book fandom because it is By Far the fandom I produce the most content for. I am ostensibly inside this clown car. but unlike the rest of you bozos I'm locked in the trunk and am unaware of what's going on in the larger vehicle.

#not a fix #housekeeping #anyways thank you to everyone for explaining tge butts match thing #theres a lot of you and i dont want to make that the rest of everyone's dash tonight #but i do appreciate it

[dizzybizz]

h,,,amsdpspdpetrrr 👍👍👍👍

#him. #pls appreciate him ok thats all #these r so cursed <333 #svsss #shang qinghua #sqh #mbj is there too but im not tagging him lol #svsss fanart #mxtx #my art #idk how many of my current followers are into svsss #but its one of those things u cant recommend to ppl lmao #i kept zooming out while working on this and cackling #hes just a silly little hamster #i dont have a solid design for any of them 😭😭😭😭😭