#the store opens @ 6 and its like a 5 minute drive so.

[kittycowboy]

Do I wake up @ 6am 2 buy conditioner so ky hair doesnt reek tmrw....

#Realized b4 showering I didnt have any #but like I needed to shower so I used this old 2 in 1 #and it SUCKS it didnt condition my hair at all and on top of that it stinks #the store opens @ 6 and its like a 5 minute drive so. #I wld go layer but I keave for school @ 9:50 #there and bavk + being in the store will be abt 15 minutes #My showers take abt 20 minutes #and I enjoy having an hour or two to do whatever b4 school starts so

[panelshowsource]

masterpost update... 🥹

hi guys it's been a minute 🥹 as i mentioned, i was working on updating the masterpost this past week, moving a large bulk of content onto my panelshowsource googledrive account, because i think everything stored there will be easily accessible and safe long term :)

the masterpost is the same original link it's been since it was established over 5 years ago! always bookmark the original post, not a reblog and not this post, so you have access to the most updated version & its links!

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i had to do some reorganising of the post because of tumblr's latest round of post restrictions:

i'm not able to provide many alternative links because i'm nearly at the link limit as it is, but i think what's provided is reliable and you can always send an ask if a link needs updating!

since i can no longer give every series its own photo header, everything is organised by bolded text and bullet points, which will look and read best on desktop opposed to mobile (mobile seems to despise indentation)

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a few notes regarding specific titles:

i did add all of taskmaster to my drive due to overwhelming requests, but only s1–4+15 are in 1080p, so i will begin updating the 720p files to 1080p over the next couple of weeks. thanks for your patience! in the meantime, you can watch them in hd on youtube ofc! i'll also update hypothetical as i get those locked down

i...i wanna say something so honest... i really don't care about a league of their own and most of you don't seem to either. it's a huge hassle organising the episodes because — not to say this for the third time in two sentences — but most people don't care much about it and haven't made the effort to keep it archived. we haven't seen a source for a complete series 6 in, like, 8 years. i'm not going to be making an effort to log that title for the time being. sorry if that's an inconvenience, but feel free to use the resources linked in my faq for your own research!

i added all of travel man (720p) and bridget christie's the change (1080p) to the misc watch links post (link below). i'll work on finishing upstart crow and then adding the rest of as yet untitled, game face, man down, and the cleaner!

i will continue uploading as-hd-as-possible versions of cats does countdown to my youtube channel and will eventually get them all on drive, but that's a slow process; i don't spend much time on youtube because half the commenters are tossers and deleting their negativity to keep it a fun space doesn't always leave me in a good mood 😡😡😡

i know a ton of celeb juice is on youtube but i haven't gotten around to organising it into a playlist (at least), but it's on my to-do list!

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ask rhod gilbert

breaking the news (mostly looking for the tv version)

the news quiz (s97–current...i might have a source but it's a slow wip...)

there's something about movies

mel giedroyc unforgivable s03

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[aitavoting]

AITA for asking for a potential ride to my potential job?

So I (23f) and my mother (63f) have been butting heads about this for the last month. I have been looking for jobs since my seasonal position at a certain red and white craft store ended in december with no luck whatsoever. Since I don't have a car or license yet I've been having to limit my search to within 15 minutes of my house at the maximum so that my mother doesn't flip her lid about having to take me to work (which she does anyways but thats mostly because I can't get a job where she wants me to since they have a thing about family members working in the same building). But a couple weeks ago a certain interactive art exhibit company decided to put one of their exhibits at a mall i liked to go on dates, and since they aren't open yet i decided to apply as they were paying a pretty good wage, offered benefits and i would fit right in.

The only problem is that it's a half hour away without traffic. When i told my mother, she in semi-different words which still got the point across said that i was being an abusive, entitled asshole for applying and wanting to ask her and my sister (33f) to drive me to work on their days off and even said that if i want to work there i had better find my own place close enough to it. Except she drives that long to got to work herself and my sister drives almost that long every other day to take my niece to her extra curricular activities.

I tried to explain that she and my sister would only be driving me until i can drive myself but she never lets me get that far before exploding on me (as she does with any argument we have ever) and making baseless accusations about how the only place that has responded to my application out of the almost 100 I've put in, is the one I'm actually interested in and how suspicious it is, as well as implying that im just not trying hard enough to get a job or just don't want to get a job (instead of being screwed over by companies that only say they're hiring to keep up appearances while functioning on a skeleton crew) while i try not to lose my own head (I'll admit we are both a bit hotheaded) and explain to her that while shes been working in the exact same company in the exact same field and almost the exact same job for the last 25 years, the job market everywhere else has changed a lot especially during the recent pandemic and that it would be smarter for me to try to get this job at a place that pays well (almost as good as my sisters job pays), has benefits and is hiring an entire staff as its not open yet, and where i will get to work with a lot of like-minded people despite the half hour commute and the fact that she doesn't think it's "practical" or a "grown-up job" than it would be to not and continue applying to places with a more convenient commute but pay crap in comparison, offer very few to no benefits, has very few like-minded people to myself, are (i guess in her mind) "practical" and "grown up" and haven't even bothered to acknowledge that i have sent in multiple applications.

It got to the point that while she tried to use the multiple jobs she had in the past that she hated to invalidate my feelings about wanting to work somewhere different to my last three jobs because i hated them and got treated like crap by coworkers and customers alike, that i said that i was sorry but I didn't give a single solitary shit about the fact that she made herself miserable working in places she hated because they were convenient and they were paying money but since I haven't gotten a single response from anywhere else that is convenient that it would be a dumbass decision to not try to get this job.

[this story was submitted by @wildfire317]

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[darlenealive]

Back from my Scandi vacation!

Felt like I took it for granted leaving my brain back in SG and letting Ax do the planning and the navigating. I brought my spirits though! Spending my day off today looking back at the trip which was such a great use of my time. Really appreciating this extra day off after my vacation.

Some tips for Norway and Denmark travels first

1. It's cashless even in the small towns. Cash was more of a liability as it forced us to spend it all

2. Hotels cost as much as Airbnb for 2 pax so opt for hotels as there's guaranteed shampoo, soap, hair dryer, heating and laundry. Most of our airbnbs were missing soap or shampoo which we didn't bring any of, in order to travel lighter. The bnbs we stayed in were also commercialised houses so there's absolutely no feelings attached. Checking in and out would also be more convenient with hotels. We had to return one of our keys from a convenience store which wasn't open in the early morning, in time for our flight.

3. Groceries are marked down on Friday if they expire Monday. If you're in Norway, go to Kiwi or Coop for basic groceries as it seemed to be the cheapest. However, each shop will hv their own discounts (not standardised across the same chain). Eg. We went to a place with 40% discounts on Freia choc which was only available at a particular store.

4. Northern lights chase was the coldest we experienced. Basically, the guide said that if its frost on the floor, it's worse than snow as there's no insulation for your feet. Not the coldest real temperature but coldest we felt. Bring extra clothes and heatpack just in case. The bonfire didn't do anything for me because it's too cold. We went with GuideGunnar which updates its aurora sightings on a daily basis. These guys are crazy and would bring you as far as Sweden just to chase the lights so bring your passports along! They also offer a 50% off the next trip if you don't see it on the day.

5. There's no heat packs there so bring them from home.

6. In Copenhagen, we recommend the Copenhagen card. It's only 65USD for 24hrs and you get free transport, museum pass and boat rides. We only decided to get the card after our boat ride which cost about SGD25-30, which was already a quarter the cost of the card. In Copenhagen, checking of bus tickets was a regular thing.

7. Useful apps for riding public transport: Oslo uses Ruter, Tromsø uses Troms billet, Copenhagen uses Dot tickets. Ticket checking was not very often in Norway. We did not cycle as it felt too cold for more wind to hit our faces.

8. Skip Oslo if you dw to visit a city. We spent 3 nights there and it felt too long. We wanted to do our last minute shopping at Oslo but everything was expensive throughout the whole trip that we started to buy souvenirs earlier when we saw marked down prices. With one more day in Tromsø, we could've gone whale watching.

9. Take into account daylight savings from 29/10. You have 1 more extra hour to sleep but your days are much shorter. We slept a lot because of the cold, about 10hrs of sleep each day and it felt just right.

10. Personally I would have brought instant noodles as the food there isn't flavoured with the same umami as I'm used to. I would also bring a thermal flask there to enjoy my hikes even more, taking a comfortable and warm rest at the peak.

11. If driving, please remember to pay for parking. There's usually a machine to start your parking. Otherwise, the fine is 660NOK. Don't let the rental company settle it as it'll still be billed to you with an extra fee. We would also recommend full insurance since we aren't used to left hand driving and Norway is famous for its narrow roads (at least from Stavanger to Odda where we drove).

12. We used waze for driving and it seemed that speed cameras are only in tunnels but nobody was following the speed limit anyway.

That's about all of the suggestions Ax and I thought of!

Hope these suggestions come in useful for someone.

[emmlovesmarvel]

Chapter 13 - Adoption Day

Lennox POV

I feel a warm hand caressing my face softly, coaxing me awake. Mom's hand to be exact. I flutter my eyes open and look into her blue eyes that look like mine. I smile as she kisses my forehead.

"Watching you wake up might be my favorite thing ever." Mom says to me making me giggle.

"I don't know what it is about your bed, but I fall asleep in 5 minutes every time I lay down. It's so comfy!" I say to her.

I feel mama's arm snake around my torso to pull me towards her. She has her eyes closed and kisses my forehead. She hums contently.

"That's because this bed is the best of the best." She mumbles. "Why are we awake so early?"

"Because....WE HAVE TO GO ADOPT A DOG!" Mom replies loudly making mama and I groan. I look at the clock and mama is right, it's 6:30am.

"Kara, love, the shelter doesn't open until 8." Mama says making me laugh and mom pout.

"Well then that gives us some time to get ready and have breakfast!" She replies getting out of bed.

"Glad you have your priorities, babe." Mama says chuckling.

Mama continues to hold me and rub my back making me sleepy again. I shut my eyes and smile contently.

"Hey hey, mom will get mad if we fall asleep again. Let's get up." She whispers.

"I can't if you continue to rub my back, mama." I mumble hoping she won't stop. Next thing I know I'm being pulled by my ankles off the bed.

Mom scoops me up and flies me to my bedroom.

"No more sleeping! You have to get ready!" She says.

"Okay, okay! I'm getting ready. Geez." Mom is smiling and walks out the door leaving me to change.

Don't get me wrong, I'm so excited to go to the shelter today. I'm just finally on a regular sleeping schedule and I've discovered how amazing sleeping in is.

After I finish showering and getting dressed, I meet moms in the kitchen. Mom is having about 20 pancakes and mama is having oatmeal. I decide to have an Asiago bagel with cream cheese and some juice. I still can't eat as much as I'm supposed to be eating which is so annoying. I've just been eating small amounts at different times in the day which is nice but I wish I could eat more at meal times.

"Alright, are we all ready to go? We should go to the pet store first so we can have everything we need." Mama says and I nod in agreement.

We drive to the pet store and I immediately see the cutest corgi in the toy aisle. I kneel down to pet her and she starts licking my face making me laugh. Mom joins in on the cuteness while mama just laughs and smiles.

We pick out a couple of toys, 2 different collars, some dog food and treats, bowls, a bed and kennel, doggie shampoo, and a cute leash.

"When we have a dog, we can come back and pick out a dog tag with its name on it." Mom tells me as we check out.

We head back into the car and my heart is pounding out of excitement or anxiety. I can't tell yet. One thing I've been better at is identifying what exactly is triggering me. Sometimes my brain and body associate excitement as anxiety but I think this time I'm just excited.

We walk into the shelter and I grab mama's hand tightly.

"Are you okay, love?" She asks.

"Yes! Just excited!" I smile as we wait for the worker to take us back to where the dogs are.

We walk through the door and I'm overwhelmed by the cuteness. Mom and mama hang back and let me go to each kennel and look at all of them. If I could, I would adopt them all.

I pass by this cute pitbull mix and see that she is female but doesn't have a name. I frown a bit as she cowers in the corner when I kneel in front of her kennel. I stick my hand up to the fence and slowly she walks over to sniff me. Her tail wags and she licks my hand. I pretty much die on the spot and look at mom and mama who seem to know that she is the one I want.

The worker lets her out of the kennel and she immediately tackles me with licks. Mama comes over to help me up while mom pets her.

"Good choice. She is so cute. She doesn't have a name that we know of, so you'll get to choose one for her! We think she is around 3 years old. She's all up to date on her vaccinations." The worker tells us and I nod.

Mom gets all the paperwork signed as mama and I pet our new dog.

"What do you want to name her?" Mama asks when mom comes back over to us.

"I get to choose a name?" I ask and they both nod and smile.

"Of course!" They say at the same time.

"I think I want to name her Elfie. Short for Elphaba from Wizard of Oz. Just like Elphaba, pitbulls are misunderstood. They are the sweetest things." I say and see mom smile widely.

"It's perfect!" She says hugging me and petting Elfie.

"Elfie? Do you like that name?" I ask her and she wags her tail and tilts her head, seemingly understanding me.

"Let's go show you your new home, Elfie!" Mama says and we put the collar and leash on her.

Elfie gets in the back seat with me and licks my cheeks as I pet her.

"She's so cute, Lennox. She fits right in with our family!" Mama says looking back at us.

"Oh, 100%! She's so perfect and precious just like you, baby." Mom adds making me smile.

We get back home and mom unloads all the stuff while I walk Elfie on the leash through the door. I let her off the leash so she can smell where her new home is.

"Go on, Elfie. You can sniff around!" I say as she looks back at me, waiting for the okay. 

She runs around sniffing every inch of the place making me laugh. I help mom and mama unload the stuff into the living room.

I set up the kennel in the living room and put her bed in it. I fill her bowl up with water and put all her toys in a bucket. Elfie comes up to the bucket and picks out a bone and starts chewing it.

"Well, seems like she's already adjusted!" Mama says walking over to me, watching Elfie.

"Yeah! It seems that way." Mom says.

I stand up and get Elfie's attention and lead her to her kennel.

"Okay Elfie. This is where you can sleep or just hang out in." I say as she walks in to the kennel and lays on the bed. Everything she does, I just melt on the spot and die of cuteness.

For the next couple of hours, we are all just playing with Elfie and letting her get acclimated to her new surroundings and owners. I'm surprised at how much mama falls in love with her. I figured mom was a dog person because she is pretty much a golden retriever herself. I didn't think mama would be much of a dog person but Elfie is bringing it out of her.

Mom and I are just laughing and smiling at mama and Elfie as they play tug of war.

"What? Why are you guys staring at me funny?" Mama asks with an eyebrow raised.

"I didn't know you liked dogs this much, Lena." Mom says.

"Well, Elfie is just too cute not to be obsessed with." She replies as she kisses Elfie's head and continues to play with her.

"I'm pretty exhausted from being excited and all this playing. I'm gonna go nap. Elfie, do you wanna come take a nap with me?" I ask her and she wags her tail and follows me to my room.

We walk into my room and she immediately jumps on my bed and lays down on my pillow.

"Hey! That's my spot." I say laughing and moving her so I can climb in. I lay down under the covers and Elfie moves so her back is against my belly and I'm essentially spooning her. It's like she's been my dog for years with how comfortable she is with me.

It doesn't take long for me to fall asleep to Elfie's light snores. I guess she was tired too.

Lena POV

"They are so cute, Kar. It's truly a match made in heaven." I say to Kara as we watch Lennox and Elfie sleep peacefully.

I look at Kara who is taking pictures of them and she is dying of cuteness.

"I know right?! They are so cute together! She deserves this. I'm so glad we did this." She says coming over and wrapping her arm around me.

"Me too, love. Me too." I reply leaning my head on her shoulder.

About an hour and a half later, we hear her door open and cute little claws against the wooden floor signaling Elfie is walking.

Elfie walks to me and Kara on the couch and sits in front of us, waiting patiently to be pet.

"You certainly know when you want pets, dontcha?" Kara says giggling.

I look up and see Lennox pad out of her room, rubbing her eyes. She puts on her shoes and calls Elfie.

"Elfie! Let's go potty!" She says and Elfie obediently trots over and they walk out the door.

"I'm amazed at how fast she's taken on this role. It's a big responsibility to take care of a dog. Most kids just care about petting them and playing with them, not the harder stuff." Kara says to me.

"Yeah I was thinking the same thing. But she's our Lennox. She had to grow up too fast. I'm grateful she's responsible but it just reminds me of all the awful things that happened to her that conditioned her that way. I'm glad she has a little buddy to help her and protect her." I reply back smiling as Kara nods in agreement.

Lennox and Elfie walk back in and sit down on the couch. Elfie jumps up and lays across Lennox's lap while she receives pets.

"She kind of pulls a bit on the leash so she's basically walking me. She's really strong." Lennox says laughing a bit.

"Are you okay? Did she pull you down?" Kara asks.

"I'm okay, she just made me trip a little." Lennox replies smiling down at Elfie.

"Well, it's 5 so we should probably feed her. We need to feed her a cup of food, twice a day, so she has a regular potty schedule." I say and Lennox nods.

She gets up and pours some food into the bowl.

"Elfie, do you know how to sit? Sit." Lennox says to Elfie who sits down sweetly, wagging her tail. This dog. Will kill me with cuteness.

"Good girl! Do you know how to shake?" She says and Elfie lifts her paw into Lennox's hand. Lennox looks over at us with a big smile.

"Good girl! Okay you can eat!" She finished and Elfie sniffs her food and starts eating it.

"Did you see that?! She's so cute!" Lennox says cuddling into Kara.

"She's amazing Len!" Kara places a kiss on her head.

"What should we have for dinner?" I ask the both of them.

They look at each other before saying, "Potstickers!"

I roll my eyes and chuckle while Kara tickles Lennox.

I place an order of potstickers and our usual Chinese food assortment.

While we wait for the food, Lennox, Kara and I all play with Elfie. Kara and Elfie start playing tug of war.

"Wow! She really is strong!" Kara says even though she is much stronger than Elfie.

"I know! I think pitbulls are naturally muscular and strong dogs. She's only 50 pounds, but she's so toned!" Lennox says.

"Lennox, have you been around dogs a lot?" I ask.

"Um, not really. Joe said they were a waste of space, money, and time. But anytime I would see one on the street, I would always ask to pet them." She says a bit sad.

Joe is a piece of shit.

"Well, Joe is absolutely wrong. You are doing so well with Elfie, my love. Really. We are so proud of you. Thank you for being so responsible with her." I say kissing her temple as she smiles.

The food arrives and we sit down to eat. I see Kara trying to sneak Elfie a piece of her potsticker under the table.

"Kara! Don't give her that! It could make her sick." I say catching her red handed making her look up with wide eyes.

"Okay, okay. But everyone should at least try a potsticker at least once in their life!" She replies making Lennox chuckle. I give them both a look, which wipes the smiles off their faces and they go back to eating.

We finish dinner and clean up and Kara takes Elfie potty.

"Your first day as a dog owner. How does it feel?" I ask Lennox as we sit on the couch.

"Amazing! I can't thank you and mom enough for letting me choose her and letting me have her. She makes me so happy!" Lennox replies.

"That's all that matters then. You deserve as much happiness as you can get. And Elfie loves you. Just not as much as I do." I say tickling her side.

"I love you too, mama." She replies laughing.

Kara and Elfie walk back through the door and Elfie is panting a bit.

"Okay, yeah you were right! She is a strong one and likes to pull! I decided to run with her a bit to see if she likes it and she does!" Kara says making us laugh.

"Good to know! I'll have to walk her everyday so she can get her energy out." Lennox says.

"Good idea! We'll come with." I reply.

An hour later, we are all seated on the couch watching The Sound of Music. I am cuddling with Kara and Lennox is asleep cuddling Elfie. Kara takes out her phone and takes more pictures of them.

The movie ends and I wake up Lennox so we can get ready for bed.

Lennox comes into our room in her PJs.

"I'm going to sleep in my room tonight, with Elfie. Thanks for today. It was the best day of my life!" She says hugging Kara and then me.

"We're glad, honey. Get some good sleep, okay?" I say and she nods walking out of the room.

"Goodnight, Elfie!" Kara says making me laugh.

"You love that dog, don't you?" I ask.

"Um yeah, of course! Not as much as I love you, though." She says kissing me sweetly.

"Goodnight, my love." I say.

"Goodnight, Lena. I love you." She replies.

We both fall into a peaceful sleep after such a rewarding and happy day. I love my family.

#lena #luthor #supercorp #supergirl #karadanvers #lena luthor

[benjaminsblog]

You can take the boy out of Pompey…

I made a long overdue return to Portsmouth this weekend with Sam after almost 6 years away, and I am happy to report that it’s almost exactly as I left it! I fostered a strong affection for the place during my 5-year stay, and as soon as the Spinnaker came into view on my drive in, a stupid grin spread across my face and I immediately felt like I was back home.

I got there rather early as I had dropped Mum off at the airport en-route for a trip of her own (Mallorca v Portsmouth? I think there’s only one winner), but even that worked out, because I found myself on a virtually deserted seafront at about 8am* in beautiful early-morning sunshine. Sam wasn’t due for a good while, so I ended up going on a very long wander along part of the coast, before heading inland past some old familiar spots.

When my Samigo arrived, we located our Air BnB (a stone’s throw from the seafront), and after the old man had a nap, we walked the short distance to Canoe Lake for a game of tennis. Tennis is the reason Sam and I met in the first place, after both narrowly failing to make the University team back in the day. We played at a few clubs during our time in Pompey, but Canoe Lake was the last – and best – of the lot, so we resolved to play both days we were there. As luck would have it, it was ‘Day 1’ of the grass season, so the pristine grass courts were open for play!

We paid another return visit to Sakura, a small Japanese restaurant which Sam had taken me to as my introduction to Japanese cuisine; I have since developed a taste for much of their food – particularly katsu curry – and it all started here. The next morning, we wandered the other (more interesting) half of the coast, stopping for a seafood-themed lunch before ending up in Gunwharf Keys. Another thing we’ve bonded over is our love of films, so we perused the listings for something that took our fancy. The choices weren’t great, but we opted for Kung Fu Panda 4, hoping for a few laughs if nothing else. I have only seen K.F.P. #1, and if I’m honest, I’ve still only seen #1! After about twenty minutes, the warm weather walk + fine food took its toll on me, and I became rather drowsy. I tried my best to resist, but once I realised I’d lost track of the film’s plot, I succumbed and had a bit of a snooze! Sam told me I didn’t miss much.

We took the bus back and had a bit of a rest before our second bout of tennis, and then had a pizza apiece in front of a few episodes of Clarkson’s Farm to wrap up an enjoyable evening and wonderful weekend. My only complaint about the trip was that it wasn’t long enough, but that is easily rectifiable – I don’t plan on waiting another 6 years either.

*Truth be told, my very first stop was the Asda store where I used to work! I was curious to see how the ol’ gal was doing, and if any familiar faces were around. They weren’t, though perhaps partly because it was the dawn shift; I did observe some ‘Click-&-Collectors’ for a bit, and reckon I could still run rings around ‘em – you never lose the magic!

#play up Pompey #Sam + amigo = Samigo #grassy ass #K.F.P. #Kaleb For PM

[axesilly]

i cant afford therapy so im going to talk about my troubles on here because i dont know what else to do 👍 i dont know if this will reach anyone but it might make me feel better. sorry if its a bit lengthy, ive had these feelings for a while

for the sake of anonymity and my own safety i will not be mentioning any names of people, towns, or schools :]

so im in college, im an art major. im from a small town with nothing to do except go to a mall the next town over and im going to college in another small town 5 hours away from home. this small town also has jack shit to do unless you drive 45 minute to an hour away. im currently in my spring semester of my freshman year and i have gotten so absolutely mentally and physically drained since i got a fast food job. i got a job making pizzas at yknow one of those big chain corporations pizza places, and the store i work at has only been open a few months. its absolutely chaotic and no one knows how to do anything except a few select people. my boss, the general manager, also doesnt know how to do anything because its his first time doing something like this. one of the other managers also only works there because hes friends with the general manager and he is not the greatest person, as he tends to sexually harrass the staff including a friend i made there. now ive already put in my two weeks last saturday, but that doesnt take away from how drained this job has made me.

Since the spring semester started ive been constantly piled with work (one week i was scheduled 6 days in a row when i had a big project to work on, i had a breakdown at work to my general manager), writing assignments, and project after project. (not even kidding my drawing professor gives us a new project the same day we turn one in) in my senior year of high school i loved fine arts and i believed that i wanted to follow in my art teachers footsteps and pursue my love of art and make art for my career. and while i do still love fine arts and making art, i just cannot do this constantly. since just before my spring break i started not going to my classes as consistently and i swore to myself i would start going again after the break. well that break just made it worse it seems because everything has just gone more and more downhill. i have still been missing classes because some days its difficult to get out of bed and i do not have the motivation to go to class just to sit there and not be able to pay attention for an hour/hour and a half. im behind on a project for one of my classes because i havent gone since ive been back from spring break (two weeks). i have an exam for one of my classes soon and im not even close to prepared. i had a 3 page essay due last night i started but havent finished (luckily i can turn it in a little late). it may sound lazy but these are my real struggles with my mental health. i feel trapped here. i do have a license and a car, i do have transportation so i can go places, but its such an old car it has so many problems (one which has arisen recently being if i stop somewhere and turn my car off, it wont crank back up immediately and i have to wait 10-15 minutes, and once it is on i have to revv it to make sure it stays on). so because of car problems and currently living in a small town im frustrated because it feels like i cant go anywhere to do anything fun. i feel trapped in my dorm and in my mind.

now comes the college problem. the college i go to currently is a nice school, i get 8 meals a week on my meal plan included in my tuition. theres several places to choose from the eat at, theres a gym, free health exams i think. but its driving me insane seeing the same old brick buildings every damn day. i currently dont have a roommate so im in a dorm by myself which probably contributes to this feeling of lonliness. i dont really have many friends, i had more last semester but they did not keep in touch. i do have one friend that i appreciate very much and she always worries and wants to help when she sees im upset. shes a real one. but seeing the same things, learning about the same repetitive lessons every single day, has driven me insane. my art history class has been the same topics since the start of the semester, its all been about works of art pertaining to jesus, and mary, and god and the angel telling mary shes pregnant and marys purity and this symbolizing that and i understand why its important to learn about these works of art and how they have shaped art today, but i cannot stand hearing the same things over and over. im not a christian, and i dont believe theres anything wrong with christianity as long as youre not hurting anyone with your beliefs, but these topics are so repetitive ever class i have. the semesters almost over and we havent even gotten to modern art yet, and in my opinion thats what truly matters to learn about because thats what we as artists would need to look at to have a reference for how we should make our art right? art is about expressing yourself and we need to see how others making art in the modern era are expressing themselves as well. and on the topic of expressing ourselves, my drawing class, every single project, my professor has us stick to such strict criteria. one of my projects my professor actually really liked, i liked, but she took points off because i had my girlfriends name written very small where you could barely even see, because we were not supposed to have any text. i feel like i cannot even be creative and truly express myself with these projects. i dont feel like i have any real freedom with them. i love fine arts and i love making art, but not when its like this. i want to be able to make my own art that actually expresses my feelings, not someone elses criteria. because of all of this my grades have been rapidly dropping.

now i have already made the decision weeks ago that i will not be returning to this school in the next fall semester. i discussed this with my mom already as she does the majority of my paperwork and things for this stuff. she wants me to transfer to a college closer to home so i can atleast get a general studies degree. but thats not what i want to do either. she told me not to flunk my classes this semester because that will make it difficult to transfer me to another school, but how do you expect me to get good grades when i constantly feel like im in hell in my mind. i mentioned wanting to maybe take a gap year, she doesnt want me to do that. school is horrible for my mental health like this, i dont understand why society thinks we should just have everything we want to do with the rest of our life figured out immediately out of high school. well i dont. and i dont want to stay in college immediately out of high school. i want to go live my life! me and my girlfriend are long distance (we have met in person several times and shes actually coming to visit me this month, but just seeing each other for a week at a time is not enough) and i really want to go live with her! i want to enjoy living and living with the person i love more than life itself! i currently dont feel like i can do that here or back home. i want to move somewhere else with my girlfriend so we can both be happy and love life. i want to move out of state to a slightly bigger city, nothing crazy like new york or atlanta, but just somewhere bigger than a small town with nothing to do whatsoever. i do have a place in mind but im not going to say where. and when i move, after a year i can qualify for in state tuition and pursue something that makes me happier. ive always loved animals and marine animals so i was thinking i could major in zoology and marine biology and work at an aquarium or something while im working on my degree. and i dont fully know how the paperwork and things work for transferring and such, especially after a break, so i could be in the wrong, but is it really wrong for wanting the best for myself?

and to be honest with myself i know exactly why im in college and its not to get a degree. i was raised constantly being compared to my siblings. my brother is trans (which my parents are very obviously not too fond of) dropped out of college and joined the military. my sister dropped out of college after a semester, got married to a horrible man who she just recently divorced after having two children with him. and being compared to them all my life, especially to my brother, made me want to be better than them. i wanted to be the one, as the youngest, to be the first one to get through college immediately, all four years, no problem. but its just too much for me. and dropping out, moving away, im terrified. im terrified that my parents will be disappointed in me. im terrified of that face my mother makes, that tone of voice, when shes disappointed in me for something. im terrified of getting lectured and told why everything i want is wrong. its irrational. and im terified if i move away i wont have her support anymore. i wont have her to lean on when i need help with something. i was never taught where to go or how to do stuff for applying to colleges and transferring. i barely know how to do my taxes.

now i really dont know what this article-like rant of a tumblr post is gonna do. i know i dont really have a following and i dont really post on here. but i just thought itd make me feel better to collect my thoughts and put them all together like this. so far the only people concerned about me have been my girlfriend and a couple of my friends ive told about these problems. not even my professors are concerned about me, i havent even gotten a single email or question about how im doing. they say theyre all for mental health but when a student stops coming to class as often suddenly and starts failing or not turning in assignments its none of their business and i must just be getting lazy and im a horrible student yknow? anyways i think thats about it for this. again i dont really know what this will do but i hope someone has advice or support or something. im going insane here.

love to anyone else suffering similar struggles <3

#college #mental health

[thedianadiary]

0003.

1. Have you ever had a pillow explode feathers everywhere? nope. not the pillow itself. i have had benny rip open my down comforter and literally FLOOD my room with feathers everywhere and the fans just swirled them around incessantly. 

2. Have you seen the new Seeing Red movie on Disney+? nope, can’t say that I have 3. Are you able to taste the difference between Pepsi & Coke? heck’n yea 4. What was your last reason for projectile vomiting? ~gluten~ 5. What are some of your hobbies that you enjoy? reading, quilting, surveys, drives, hanging out, working out, sewing

6. Where do you buy the majority of your clothing? online shopping or thrift stores i would guess. 7. Where was your best hide & go seek spot as a child? i fraaaakin’ hated that game so much it would always make me a wreck lol.  8. Do you have a favorite Disney princess? belle 9. When’s the last time you had to attend a staff meeting? oof. ummm probably a couple years. there were “staff” meetings id have at college when i was on various boards but for work its been a hot minute. 10. Are you still required to wear a mask where you live? nope. some people still do, which is kinda bizarre but to each their own. doesn’t matter to me. 11. What’s your favorite type of sandwich? hmmm. probably a panini. 12. What’s the last piece of furniture you purchased? me personally? probably a cart 13. What are the colors of the walls you are currently in? i am currently outside on the porch. the nearest walls would be the brick exterior of the home so i would say orange. 14. What is your phone’s battery percentage at right now? i just charged it cus kile yelled at me to do so. it was at 100 legit just took it off the charger about 4 minutes ago..but now its 98%. apparently my phone no longer holds charge.

15. In your opinion, what is one of the most unpleasant smells? bad breath / BO. like bad breath is probably my most unpleasant.  16. Is there a popular food out there that you do not enjoy at all? sushi 17. How do you like your steak? medium rare

18. How many pages was the last book you read? 416. my current book is 353. 19. Are you easily distracted? not usually. 20. Do you have any desire to travel to Guam? i could honestly say i dont think it has ever crossed my mind.

made by: @swanky-surveys

[landmarkmotorsinc]

BMW is Struggling to Start? Here is What to Do and What not to Do?

Problems in starting are increasing in modern cars. It becomes very hard to start the engine sometimes especially in colder weather. The situation becomes very unsatisfying when you have to reach your destination in time but your engine is refusing to start. So in this article, you will know what to do and what not to do when your car has a starting problem.

What causes engine to not start?

Faulty battery

Faulty batteries are the most common reason behind this problem. Batteries may get exhausted or damaged due to acid leakage or by corrosion of its terminals. So a faulty battery cannot supply enough power to the engine and the starter to make the car start.

Damaged Battery cables

Battery stores energy and supplies it to the electrical devices in the car, but the supply of energy is done through the cables. The cables connected to the battery direct the electricity to the accessories. If the cables contact be come loose or the cables are torn or damaged, then the circuit becomes open and electricity cannot flow through it.

Alternator is bad

Alternator produces electricity and charges the battery. If alternator is broken internally, then it cannot charge the battery and run the engine while you drive the car. If your alternator is faulty then the battery will not be charged and it will get drained out of energy very soon, and after that, you cannot even start your car. So your engine is not getting started, then the alternator can be the culprit.

Ignition switch is faulty

Ignition switch turns on and off the engine. It is made on by turning the key. It allows the electricity to pass to the engine and make it on. Any damage like worn contacts inside it can stop the engine to turn on.

Starter motor malfunctioning

Starter motor makes the engine start when ignition switch is turned on. The stator motor may have some faults in the connections internally which creates problems while starting the engine.

Dos and don’ts when the car is not starting

Dos

1.         Check the battery

2.         You can tap on the battery terminals

3.         Turn the key to start position repeatedly for 10 times to warm up a dead battery. Then start the car after waiting for five minutes.

4.         Clean the battery terminals with a dry cloth

5.         Shift the shifter lever to neutral while pressing the brake and try to start the car.

6.         Hit the starter with a stick while starting the car.

7.         Hit the bottom of the fuel tank by your shoe heel, then try to start the car

8.         If there is a gas smell, then you have to press and hold the accelerator while you are cranking the engine.

Don’t s

1.         Don’t give up if the car is not starting.

2.         Don’t jump starts your car more times, better jump start your car when you have urgency and you cannot start your car?

3.         Do not leave your car lights on overnight, this can drain the battery.

4.         Do not drive your car without changing your fuel pump regularly.

5.         Do not touch the battery terminals with bare hands.

6.         Do not leave your oil drain plug loose without fixing it tightly

7.         Do not drive with bad engine oil for more time.

Conclusion

Starting problems can make you tensed. It wastes time and relying on temporary fixes like jump starts, hitting the starter to start can created damage to the car components. So better you have to take your car for inspection of starter and ignition system in your car soon.

#bmw #car starting problem #car service center #car mechanic

[viewslong]

Mazda toolbox will not reading sd card

#MAZDA TOOLBOX WILL NOT READING SD CARD INSTALL#

#MAZDA TOOLBOX WILL NOT READING SD CARD DRIVERS#

#MAZDA TOOLBOX WILL NOT READING SD CARD INSTALL#

*Please note, card is sent in standard memory card case, without retail packaging. more than likely your card was either damaged on installation or just died for no good reason, if you can get a new one, just download and install the info from the tom tom website to a new card, if its one of those. Install it in the computer and restart the computer.

#MAZDA TOOLBOX WILL NOT READING SD CARD DRIVERS#

Go to the support website and download the CARD READER driver under the DRIVERs section. Navigation system SD cards cannot be used/switched from one vehicle to another. Try a different SD card to see if it works. Note: the SD card can be used only in one car, once it is installed to the navigation system for the first time, it will be locked with cars VIN. To install - Please ensure you insert the card before switching on the engine. Part Number: BHP1-66-EZ1P / BHP166EZ1PĬountries Included: USA / Canada / Mexico Compatibility: » mazda update toolbox mazda toolbox » mazda toolbox carte sd » update mazda navigation sd card » mazda 5 anv2 sd-card tool installieren » mazda toolbox pour ma» jmb38x ms sd sd mmc xd card reader » sd memory card formatter 5.0.1 for sd » contacts from sim card to sd card » unitronics card sd card suite » mazda-epc2. Driver Alerts, Active Speed, Current Speed & Estimated Arrival Time. Supports Postcodes, Address, Coordinates. Bringing you maps, directions and more - all displayed on your car's touch screen. If there is no folder named loopdir on the SD card, repeat steps 4 to 9. If the SD card still is not recognised in HOME, open the removable disk drive on your computer. Remove the card from your Mazda NB1 and insert it into the card reader connected to your computer. Mazda's fully integrated Navigation SD card works seamlessly with your Mazda Connect system. Wait for a few seconds so that the card can be initialised by your Mazda NB1. exe file in your PC folder and run it from there. Start Mazda Toolbox Software & search for the recover option (there should be one, as you stored your backup of your license at the Mazda/NaviExtra-Servers - like described here: Mazda ). That one worked but there was no wizard so you have to find the. Insert the blank SD-card to your computer. The toolbox downloaded from the website wasn't compatible with my SD card and a dialogue box offered a different one. Wait a couple minutes then turn on the car and youre good to go. Mazda SD Card GPS Navigation 2022 BHP166EZ1P Mazda 3 Mazda 6 CX-3 CX-5 CX-9 MX-5 Miata Yay I updated my SD card, with a little help. Like some reviewers have said, just insert the card with the car off.

#Mazda toolbox will not reading sd card

[as-enterprises]

All You Want to Know about Batch Foaming Machines

Batch foam machines are used to manufacture flexible PU foam blocks one at a time. The batch foaming machine prices are relatively low and are designed for low-volume production. Capacity of up to 30 to 40 blocks per 8-hour cycle Density 10 to 32. There are also fully automatic batch foaming machines like the SA-1BM. A Batch Foaming Machine is used to allow a reaction to occur so that high-strength, highly flexible blocks of foam can be formed with a single block at a time. Fortunately, despite their low quantity, these machines are quite affordable.

 What are the general specifications of the machine?

 MODEL BFM B foaming machinery has a mixer motor of 10 HP with AC drive for speed control, a mixing tank of 210 litres, and a mixing capacity of 125 KG. It requires 10 HP and is powered by a 415V AC 50Hz power supply. It requires a space of 4m x 8m. Its control panel is a single 6 ft. x 6 ft. mould with aluminium sheets on the sides and a wooden board on the bottom. Material is discharged from the bottom via a manually operated lifting mechanism.

Special Features

 • Mixing SS tank • 10 horsepower AC drive for variable mixing speed • After mixing, the release of chemicals in the mould is done automatically. • Integrated digital timing for both the preliminary and final mixing processes. • Simple in its operation. • A layer of aluminium on the side walls of the mould to provide a smooth finish

 What are the specifications of a Batch Foaming Machine?

 Firstly, you will need capital, which comprises of an area, even if it's a small one, in which you can install the machine and the raw material so that you can manufacture foam that is in accordance with the specifications of the market. Additionally, you will need any other instruments that are required for the manufacture of polyurethane foam.

 What is the best batch foaming machine?

 Invest in a batch foam machine that has received positive feedback, as this will help you determine whether or not purchasing the machine will be worthwhile. You could also search for particular features, such as foam mould stabilisation and how quickly the chemical components are mixed together. If you find foaming machines that are designed to produce a higher yield, you should investigate whether or not the quality meets your requirements.

 The Advantages of Purchasing a Batch Foam Machine

 Do you still have questions about the advantages of a batch foam machine? You will benefit in the following ways as a result of it: Even though it's only for a small quantity, it has the capacity to deliver foam density of up to 50 kg/m3 . It comes with a motor that allows for regulated mixing, which results in a composition that is consistent throughout. Handles chemical processes using an innovative technique that is efficient and effective. Superior quality made possible by additions such as the T.D.I feeding system and the automated polyol.

 Process

 Step 1 : First, all chemicals are weighed and stored in preparation for the process.

Step 2 : The polyol and catalysts are poured into the mixing vessel, and the first mixing begins by pressing the speed 1 push button.

Step 3: Now, TDI and water are poured in rapid succession, and Speed 2 is activated.

Step 4: The machine stirs the chemicals before releasing them into the mould.

Step 5: The open door in the mould is manually closed.

Step 6: After 5 to 10 minutes, the block can be demolished.

Sorce URL: https://www.as-enterprises.com/blog/all-you-want-to-know-about-batch-foaming-machines/

#Vertical Cutting Machine #Batch Foaming Machines #Foam Cutting Machine #Horizontal Foam Cutting Machine India #Best foam cutting machines in India

[relient-kayy]

The worst part...

Having epilepsy is a weird thing. 

I went two years without any seizures. No medication side effects. No migraines. No waking up in an ambulance. No public embarrassment. No waking up with strangers standing over me. 

Then it broke. 

There was miscommunication between the doctor & the pharmacy and I was given the wrong medication.  That is what started it: two stupid fucking pills. And they were the right medication, they just weren’t “time released”. So instead of 12 hours of getting a little medicine at a time, my medication all hit at once, and in a 2 hour period, in the middle of the night, I had 3 seizures. Back-to-back-to-back. 

We figured out it was a medication error, got it fixed, and went 4 months with no problems. 

Then I woke up, in the middle of the road, in the rain, surrounded by men who were trying to get me to open my eyes, to speak to them, to hold on because the ambulance was on its way. I apparently got out of my car crying, fell to the ground, and was struggling to breathe. 

Another visit to the hospital that ended with no answers. 

Then 6 days later it happened again.

Except this time I woke up on a cement floor, with my head in my mom’s lap. My mom was crying, shaking, and was...losing it. I was diagnosed about 7 years ago (maybe?) and this is the first time she has actually seen an episode. We were in a different town so we went to a different hospital, and they ran every test under the sun. The conclusion? Nobody knows. 

We can change medications which means 6 months of no driving or working. 

We can increase the medication that I am on which means 3 months of no driving or working. 

We can do nothing which means 3 months of no driving or working. 

Or we can have brain surgery. 

They can go in and cut out a part of the brain where the seizures are happening, and we can hope for the best. Chance losing my ability to remember things, and probably lower my speech & language skills. 

Brain. Surgery. 

One thing epilepsy has taught me is that it is easy for everybody else to make decisions, and to see the bright side of shit when it isn’t their life. 

“We will figure it out, and you will be fine” is easy to say when it isn’t your body that has to sort through 8 different medications. 

“The doctor will figure out the best option for you” is easy when you aren’t the one who can’t work or drive for 6 months. 

“We just have to wait” is easy for you when you aren’t the one ACTUALLY having to wait. 

No, I don’t want to go to the store with you, I want to drive myself to the store. 

No, I don’t want you to go to my doctor’s appointment with me, I want to go by myself. 

No, I don’t want to sit outside with you, I want 5 minutes by my God damn self. 

They tell you they don’t know what’s wrong with you. They tell you you have to wait 6 months before you can drive.  They tell you you have to wait 6 months before you can work.  They tell you you can’t be in the shower or in the pool without someone near by.  They tell you to avoid things like stairs, high chairs, etc.  They tell you being alone can be dangerous. 

And then they wonder why you’re sad. 

#seizure disorder #seizures #epilepsy

[pixiedoodlein]

10 days until school and I’m no more decided than I was a week ago. I flip flop ten times day about what might be best. A is sick of hearing me talk about it. He doesn’t disagree with my risk assessment but he is sick of talking about it.

It caused an issue with his friend, a friend who is his best friend and is unvaccinated and works in a jail. Months ago we told friend he could only visit (this place is their boyhood dream) once he’s vaccinated. Friend typically believes in science and is very health conscious but his gf is a moron Trump lover and her family the same and that’s who he’s been spending all his time with since this all started. When I asked friend why he’s not vaccinated he said he’s young & healthy, didn’t trust the vaccines, would do it when they got full fda approval. Plenty of young healthy people are dead of this. Anyway then I asked ok so what if you give it to someone who isn’t and dies, people incarcerated in the jail he works in and don’t have the luxury of social distancing, and he was like eh whatever. So yes friend is an asshole, but his best friend for decades, friend has always been kind of an asshole but has many redeeming qualities too. So we said no visit. But then in July when there was no covid here and no covid where he lives and we were blissfully living our covid free lives we loosened up and said he could visit with two negative tests. But then covid got bad again and when asshole friend contacted A the other day to say he took time off in late Sept to visit, A said sorry, it’s fully fda approved now you have no excuses not to vaccinate, we’re worried about our unvaccinated kids, and as of now you can’t visit but hey maybe if you get vaccinated and the numbers look better we can reassess in a month and you can come. Friend was a total dick about it, didn’t understand our point of view at all, stressed A about it, who was in a bad mood about it for days afterward.

Then there’s the neighbors. I had a chat with the kids and a chat with the mom. I framed it as we love them so much and I know they’re careful but I think we should all be more careful while the numbers are so rising (aka only outdoor hangouts) and we are careful but I’ve heard terrifying stories from doctor friends about kids and babies getting very sick, and they have a baby who I don’t want us to make sick, and she said she agreed. The kids have been pretty good about making the adjustment from constant sleepovers to playing outside but M keeps asking me “the kids need to pee are they allowed to use the bathroom, the kids are hungry are they allowed to come inside even for one minute for a snack,” and I feel like the villain (I’ve been saying yes to pee, snacks I’ll bring out). Everyone’s been understanding but nobody is getting what I mean when I say only outdoor socializing. All the kids keep asking me when I’ll take them to town again for ice cream, “but it’s outside” (um yeah but the car’s not), asking their mom to ask me for sleepovers even though they know what the answer will be. The other day they were playing in our yard then it started raining and they were like “we can’t walk home in the rain”- I don’t want them to walk home in the rain, but again the car is indoors!- so I drove them home (but made M stay at our house). They’re not my kids so I can’t make them wear masks and it feels like now I am in the position of being the mean parent who’s psycho about covid, which in a way I am, but it would help me to stick to my guns and feel okay about sticking to them if the government policies matched the severity of the situation, ie mask mandates in public places (instead of stores posting polite recommendations), vaccine mandates, virtual learning options, etc.

Which brings me to school. After selling M hard on real school, then I sold her hard on home school. She already “did” 3rd grade last year (as much as me teaching her in my pajamas counts as doing), but this district has an earlier cut off than the city, so she’s in 3rd grade again here. Which is fine by me- her birthday is the same day as the very late nyc cut off (12/31) and I hated that she was the absolute youngest. I used to beg the school to hold her back and they’d say “but why she’s doing so well!” not understanding that I was thinking ahead to the teen years. But anyway, despite her haphazard pj’d professor, she seemed to learn a lot last year so homeschool this year could basically be unschool. She’d traipse around the forest identifying birds and trees with A and her brother, reading for pleasure, and I’d spend an hour here and there reviewing some worksheets with her so she’d be on track when she starts real school after she gets vaccinated. She was into the idea, until she found out she and one of the neighbor kids are in the same class. Now she absolutely wants to go to real school, AND ride the school bus. The school bus part makes me very nervous. While there is now a school mask mandate (but will it be enforced? what are their lunch procedures, what % of teachers are vaccinated, what % of the older kids in the same building as the little kids are vaccinated, did they actually really update their ventilation system?) and a bus mask rule, it’s a long rural route (15 min drive or 45 min bus) and I have no faith that bus windows will be open and all riders will be masked the whole time.

So just tell her she can go to school but has to be driven by a parent, right? Not so simple. I was offered a job at a (somewhat, commuting distance) nearby nonprofit- an easy low stress job in a bastion of liberalism with very very nice smart coworkers, excellent work life balance, a writing job that sounds made for me, like the job description is exactly what I would put together if I were putting together my dream job (except the pay, which is half what I was making at a fancy DC nonprofit, but high for this area, and our housing cost is half so it should be fine if A can get away from little guy long enough to bring in some money too). It’s mostly remote but approx one day a week in the office and some days there will be things I need to attend out in the community (not necessarily our community, they serve the whole region). It won’t always be the same day in the office and the office is an hour away- so on those days A would have no car to get her to and from school, since I’d need to leave before school starts and get home after it’s done. So I guess we need to buy a new car? Aside from this issue we really don’t need a second car now, were planning to get one eventually, but not until A’s business has enough projects to justify the cost.

Despite its many demands/challenges/ stressors, home school is sounding easier to me at this point (especially because she already did this grade), except she WANTS to go to school. Someone talk me out of putting some lipstick and a pantsuit on her and taking her to get vaccinated. I know, I know: the 5-11 dosage is 1/3 of the 12-adult dosage. The doctors I’ve spoken to are split on this hypothetical kamikaze mission. The doctors I’ve spoken to are also split on me and A going to a pharmacy now for booster. It’s been almost 6 months since our 2nd dose. We do not have compromised immune systems. This county has way more doses than demand and I would feel better sending M to school (bus or not) if we had our boosters and she had a first dose- moral and scientific quandaries aside- because there is A LOT of covid here now, a lot of covid everywhere now, and I feel like we are returning to regular life at the time when we should be most hunkered down.

Which brings me to the data. Per capita there are as many known cases here as in nyc, except nyc has a 50% higher vax rate, much more mask usage, better medical system. People are not getting enough tests here, there is a higher positivity rate, and so I think the actual number of cases is much higher than the reported number of cases. It seems like, friends here and in the city and in the suburbs (I just broke up with a friend in the suburbs because she professes to be a good democrat but is hosting a bonafide super spreader event and vacationing in a place with 39% positivity and a collapsed health care system), are thinking of covid as something you catch from strangers- they wear masks in stores- but aren’t careful at all around close friends and family (so many extended family gatherings, so many, cousins and grandparents and half-siblings and aunts and uncles and whoever), when this is a disease that kills via the people you love most, the ones who’d never intentionally hurt you.

[dirtyoatmeall]

Bokuto’s Cool Sister (Tsukishima Kei x Reader)

A/N: Here is an actual fic! I have a list of shit to write I’m slowly working through, next will either be more head canons or a one shot. I’m re-watching AOT rn to get caught up with the new season so sorry about being absent! Luv u guys a lot

Pairing: Tsukishima x Bokuto sibling reader (No pronouns or gendered language used toward reader, not referred to as sister just used for title purposes), Bokuto x Akaashi, Kenma x Kuroo

Word Count: 2k! (longest ever!)

Warnings: Mentions of underage drinking (everyone at least 20), mentions of secs

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You groaned as you neared the door to your apartment, seeing that the door was not cracked open a little for you to nudge open like you had asked your brother to do as you pulled into the complex. You remember him vaguely mentioning friends coming over, and you can hear music faintly coming from the apartment, but he always checks his phone, especially when you're coming from the store. 

You try to balance the milk on your knee to open the door, and just as you think you have it, the door doesn’t budge. You close your eyes and take a deep breath. Your brother never locks the doors, why would he now? His car is in the parking lot and you can hear noise inside, so he’s home. Instead of putting groceries on the ground and fishing your keys out of your purse like a normal person, you make the decision to kick the door, not very hard, but hard enough to be heard in the apartment. 

“Kou! Why is the door locked? Will you come open it for me, I have groceries!” You can hear your brother tumbling towards the door, apologies flying out of his mouth a mile a minute. The door swings open, revealing your brother, grimace on his face. “Sorry! I totally forgot you were at the store, I think ‘Kaashi might’ve locked it.” You sighed, not being able to stay mad at your brother’s friend. 

You walk in, jerking your head in the general direction of the parking lot, “I have some more in my car, can you go grab it?” He nods, grabbing his key ring and jogging out. Both of you had the spare key to each other’s cars, which turned out to be more convenient then you originally thought. 

You move toward the kitchen, yelling out a greeting to your brother’s boyfriend. “Akaashi! Next time you come over to fuck my brother let me know before so I can have my keys out, or just leave the door unlocked and go in his room!” You had a joking, yet scolding tone of voice, imagining his flustered state at your words. What you did not expect, was a hyena-like laugh to come from the direction of the living room. You were almost positive your brother said Akaashi was here. 

You place the groceries on the counter and make your way to the living room, freezing in the doorway. Akaashi was there, but so were 3 other people. Akaashi was red, shaking his head that was resting in his palms. There was someone playing on a gaming console on the couch who had their legs thrown over the lap of the laughing one, and one on the other couch, tall and blonde, who looked weirdly familiar, who had a faint smirk on their face. You grimace, you didn’t realize your brother had actual friends over, he usually just meant Akaashi or the occasionally Hinata. “Oops sorry ‘Kaashi, didn't know Kou was having other people over.”

He lifted his head, face still slightly flushed and smiled. “It’s fine (Y/N)-san, do you need help with the groceries?” You shook your head, pointing behind you in the direction of the kitchen, where you could hear your brother rummaging around. “Nah, I made Koutaro get the rest. If you guys are staying for dinner let me know and I’ll make something instead of making him go to the food truck for me. By the way, who are the rest of you? I literally thought Kou was lying about having friends.” 

The blonde one snorted, you narrowed your eyes slightly, he looked so familiar, you just couldn’t quite place it. The one playing the console seemed familiar too, you think you might’ve seen him on Twitter. The only one you didn’t recognize was the first to speak. “I’m Kuroo Tetsuro, we all played volleyball together in high school, I’m surprised he hasn’t talked about us before.” 

You nod in understanding, “Oh so that’s where. I’m sure he has, I just probably wasn’t paying attention to what he was saying. I mean you guys seem kinda familiar, more the other two than you, were you like benched a lot?” The quiet one next to him looks up to see his reaction and snorts at the disbelief on Kuroo’s face. “Yeah, Kuro wasn’t very good.” The half blonde says, giggling softly as Kuroo gasps and yells at him. “Kenma!” He turns to you, “I was the captain and a very good player actually.” You laugh as Kenma behind him makes a face that says ‘That’s what you think.’ Before Kuroo could whine some more, Akaashi speaks.

“Kenma-san is a YouTuber, which is probably where you’ve seen him. He and Kuroo-san played for Nekoma, I’m surprised you didn’t remember them from that, you remembered Lev-san.” Kenma actually laughs at that, and Kuroo is pouting as Akaashi continues, a cheeky smile on his face that told you he purposefully sprinkled that last little tidbit in. 

“Tsukishima-san, aren’t you a museum-studies major?” The blonde on the loveseat across from the other three nods, and you snap your fingers, finally realizing where you know him from. “Oh, that makes sense! I think we’ve had a class or two together. I’m an archaeology major.” Tsukishima’s eyebrows raise in surprise, but before he could speak, your brother finally comes in from the kitchen.

“(Y/NNNNN), I put everything away, we were going to go to Onigiri Miya tonight, wanna come?” You nod and swat at his had when he ruffles your hair before plopping down to his boyfriend. You go to leave your brother and his friends, taking one last glance at Tsukishima, who seemed to have the same idea, he averted his eyes the moment yours met, and you smirked to yourself on the way to the kitchen to re-put away the groceries. You loved your brother, but he definitely did not know where to put things, your thought validified as you pull the eggs from the pantry, switching it with the instant ramen packets in the fridge. Good thing he was a great volleyball player. ` Later that night, you join the boys for dinner at Onigiri Miya. You take two separate cars, you driving your brother and Akaashi and Kuroo driving Kenma and Tsukishima. Kuroo made a joke about racing there, which you took as a personal challenge, much to the dismay of Akaashi. You would’ve won too, but you had to pull over to kick Koutaro in the backseat for playing Nickelback. He buys your food as an apology, and Kuroo’s food because he won (you venomed him later for your share of food, which he promptly venomed back to you with angry faces in the description.). The 6 of you sat in a corner booth, you were sandwiched between Akaashi and Tsukkishima with Kuroo between your brother and Kenma on the other side.

The table was loud with jokes, laughing, and yelling as everyone ate their meals. You snuck drinks of ‘Akaashi’s’ margarita when the waitress wasn’t looking (You were 20 and Akaashi submits to peer pressure from you easily). “(Y/N), are you not 21 yet?” Kuroo asked as he watched you nudge the drink toward Akaashi as the waitress talked to the other table. You turned to Kuroo, cheeks just barely flushed. “Hm? Oh no I’m not, I’m two years younger than you guys, I turn 21 in a few months.” 

Kuroo hummed in understanding and got a suspiciously mischievous look on his face. “Oh, you’re the same age as Tsukkishima, and you guys have similar majors, how interesting” Your eyebrows furrow and you snort. “So do over a thousand other people Kuroo, its not a super niche subject.” You turn to Tsukkishima and continue, “Hm I didn’t realize we were in the same year, I thought you were older, must be your grumpy grandpa like disposition.” Akaashi explained what disposition meant to your brother and Kuroo snickered before he was shut down by Kenma, who has been doing an excellent job of roasting Kuroo at every chance he gets. “You laugh like everyone doesn’t call you old man behind your back.” 

You laughed for the umpth time that night, Tsukishima watching you, he could really see the sibling resemblance when you laughed. You throw your head back and laugh loudly, from your gut much like your brother. Tsukishima looks away from you, catching Kuroos eye in the process, the blonde rolls his eyes at the smirk on Kuroos face. Out of the 5 of them, he was the only one not in a relationship and Kuroo has been trying to set him up since Bokuto and Akaashi finally got together at Akaashi’s graduation. 

Tsukishima looks at you again, watching you take a sip of the margarita, and subsequently watches it almost come out of your nose as you laugh at something Akaashi said to Bokuto, clutching the former's shoulder, hand over your nose. There was no doubt that you were pretty, and you did have similar interests. His thoughts were interrupted by you turning to him, knee-knocking against his thigh. “Have you taken Anth 267?” He nods “I took it last quarter.” He replies and watches you sigh in relief. “Oh thank god, I’m having trouble meeting her insane essay expectations. I usually have ‘Kaashi read through mine but would it be ok if I sent them to you? Or at least bounced topics off you?” When he agrees you smile, unlocking your phone and sliding it towards him, a new contact open. “Oh great, here, why don’t you put your number in?” As he fills it out, his eyes involuntarily flit to the text message appearing at the top of your screen. From: That Sunny Bitch

Ew you think Tsukki’s hot? He’s a good volleyball player but he was a meanie in high school 😝

He held back the urge to smirk. That must be Hinata based on the name. He quickly finished the contact and gave your phone back before giving his to you, and you quickly typed in your contact info, as well as snapping a quick contact photo. It was super close to your face with your tongue out, a good tell of your personality. You give his phone back and the two of you talk more about school and classes before everyone gets ready to leave. 

Your brother stands up first, and you take advantage of his large frame and chug the rest of the margarita down, smiling big at Akaashi who chastises you about drinking it so fast. You all wave to Osamu as you leave, and before Tsukishima can get to Kuroo’s car, he turns to the group, smirking. “I've got to run Kenma by our apartment to grab his charger, we’ll meet you guys.” You nod, handing your keys to Akaashi and turn to Tsukishima. “You can sit in the back with me Tsukishima!” Though you might be promoted to passenger if Bokuto makes bad music choices again.” You glare at your brother as you finish the sentence, and he whines about how his taste ‘isn’t that bad!’ 

The car ride back to your apartment is short, and you spend it chatting with Tsukki, as you’re now allowed to call him, and you spend the rest of the night with the boys, playing games and watching movies until early morning. Kuroo and Kenma leave first, and Kenma made your night when he looked you in the eye and said goodbye. Tsukki left about an hour later, his roommate picked him up. Akaashi ended up staying over, and you were glad your bedroom was on the other side of the apartment from your brother’s. You fell into bed content with the day, happy you were able to meet your brother’s friends.

You awoke mid-day, and you browsed your notifications before dropping your phone on your bed when you read one text message, heat spreading over your cheeks. You definitely do not remember changing his contact name.

From: Hot classmate Tsukki

Hey, how about we go over your essay over some coffee tonight?

#my writing #haikyuu!! #haikyuu #haikyu #haikyuu x you #haikyuu tsukishima #tsukishima kei #tsukishima x y/n #tsukishima x reader #tsukishima kei x reader #haikyuu x y/n #haikyuu x reader #tsukishima x you #tsukishima kei x you

[mimisempai]

Wait for me on the other side 8/8

Summary:

The long awaited end! Will they finally overcome all the obstacles?

Here we go! Enjoy the journey!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/32948254/chapters/82452802

Chapter 1 - Chapter 2 - Chapter 3 - Chapter 4 - Chapter 5 - Chapter 6 - Chapter 7 - Chapter 8 (End)

The months and seasons have passed for Mobius and Loki.

Mobius moved out of the house on the cliff and into an apartment above the store. After Ravonna's death, Casey saw no reason to stay in TK and joined Mobius at Miss Minutes.

With his client base expanding, Mobius needed someone to help him and thought of Casey, who had been more than enthusiastic at the idea.

They had formed a curious friendship with Sylvie and life was flowing smoothly.

Casey could see that at times Mobius' eyes seemed lost. His face wore a melancholic expression. But Mobius said nothing, smiled and Casey pretended he hadn't seen anything.

On New Year's Eve 2022, Mobius, Casey and Sylvie were celebrating together and as the fireworks started, Mobius couldn't help but think of other fireworks with nostalgia and wondered what Loki was doing, where and with whom.

January 2021 - Miss Minutes

It was already late and Mobius was hunched over his drawing table, looking focused as Casey poked his head through the door.

"Mobius, I'm going in. I've got it all locked up, you'll just have to close the main door and the blind."

Mobius focused, simply replied, "Hm..."

Casey, seeing that he hadn't been listening, approached and looked over Mobius' shoulder at what he was working on.

"A new project?"

Mobius looked up, a little embarrassed, "Oh. No. It's just... a personal thing."

Casey shifted to get a better look at Mobius' work.

Mobius tried to hide it.

"Mobius, let me see."

"No, it's nothing."

"Come on."

Mobius gave in and Casey's eyes widened at the drawing.

It was the house on the cliff but re-imagined. There was a terrace that ran along the back, and stairs that went down to the water - the stairs that Mobius had described to Loki. There were trees planted along the way, and lights shining in the trees. The house was just as extraordinary as before, but much less austere, much warmer, almost romantic.

Casey said softly, "I like it."

Mobius asked casually, "Do you like it?"

Casey nodded enthusiastically, "Before, it looked like a place you would go to be alone. In this one, I can imagine taking someone there."

Mobius nodded. Casey looked at him with his piercing eyes, and asked softly, "Who is he?"

Mobius answered without hesitation, "Loki. His name was Loki."

"When you lived there?"

Mobius nodded and Casey continued, "I knew it, that there was something or rather someone. What happened?"

Mobius replied simply, "I lost him."

"How?"

Mobius replied with a hesitant voice, "It's hard to explain. It's mostly... it was... bad timing."

"You miss him?"

Mobius couldn't deny it and Casey insisted, "Make him come back."

Mobius ran a hand over his face, "It's too late. Or too soon..."

"What?"

Mobius shook his head, "Nothing. I don't even know where he is. And even if I did, I couldn't walk up to him and say, ``Hey, I'm here, let's pick up where we left off."

Casey defiantly asked him, "What would you have to lose?"

Mobius didn't answer.

**********

Loki was still living in the same place and the tree had continued to grow in front of the building.

He spent a lot of time with Thor, who had apparently decided to take him under his wing.

He was alone, but he had a friend, friends even, that he could count on, and if sometimes one or the other tried to encourage him to date someone, they never insisted.

He devoted his life to his classes, the students liked him a lot, and Kamala who kept coming to see him after class had brought other members of the gang with her, and the discussions around Norse mythology had turned into a reading club.

Early February 2023 - Loki's apartment

Loki had decided to clean up, because in two years, he was starting to pile up things, and it was time to sort out.

He was organizing his clothes when he came across the outfit he had never put back on since the missed date. His throat tightened as he was about to put it in the pile of clothes to be thrown away, but he couldn't bring himself to do it and put it in the back of the closet.

Later, as he was vacuuming, he noticed a creaky floorboard. He bent down to examine it and found that it could be lifted quite easily.

Loki pulled the floorboard and to his surprise, there was an empty space underneath. He bent further to examine it. He saw that there was something there, put his hand to grab it and pulled out a package wrapped in dusty plastic. He opened it. His heart leapt out of his chest, it was his copy of PERSUASION.

One page was marked with a rose, now dried and withered by time. He opened it to the marked page and saw that a sentence had been underlined.

There could have been no two hearts so open,

no tastes so similar, no feelings so in unison.

He stared at the words, breathless.

February 14, 2023 - September Academy

Thor and Loki, along with the other teachers, were sitting in the school's conference room waiting for the presentation to begin.

Thor leaned over to Loki, "Hey, since Jane won't be able to spend this Valentine's Day with me, how about a hallmark movie night with some popcorn and good beer?"

Loki smiled softly, "Sounds good to me, but in the meantime we've gotta get through this presentation."

Just after his words, a short dark-haired man entered the room and took his place on the stage, greeted by Natasha who spoke up, "Hello everyone, thank you for coming. We are pleased to welcome Casey Fish, from Miss Minutes."

Loki startled slightly, the name ringing a bell.

"Casey is here today to introduce us to a new line of electronic organizers for students and teachers, allowing for better communication between the various parties. Thank you for giving him your attention."

Casey cleared his throat and began to speak, "Hello everyone! Thank you for your welcome Ms. Romanov, Miss Minutes is basically a small watch store, but over the years we wanted to expand its business to include time management in all its forms, and its founder had the idea a little over two years ago to create this."

He pointed to the screen that just displayed a small rectangular device, much like a flip phone.

"Let me introduce you to The Tempad. The Tempad, thanks to its small holographic avatar, allows you to be connected at any time with your colleagues, with your students."

He clicked on the remote control to bring up the next image.

"This is Miss Minutes for you."

Loki gasped, of course he knew Miss Minutes, it was exactly like the little picture Mobius had drawn when he had written to him about his store.

Thor, sensing his friend's confusion, leaned toward him and whispered, "Loki? Are you okay?"

Loki nodded.

He listened to the rest of the presentation in a daze, and as Casey was packing up his things on the stage, Loki rushed in without further ado, almost shoving some of his colleagues in his way.

February 14, 2021 - In front of Miss Minutes

Casey and Mobius came out in their winter coats, but they realized it was surprisingly warm.

Mobius growled, "Honestly, what the hell?"

Casey shrugged as he replied, "Global warming."

Mobius asked Casey, "Do you want to come to my house for dinner tonight?"

Casey replied with a small air of pride, "I can't. I have a date tonight, it's Valentine's Day."

Mobius continued forward for a few steps, then stopped.

"What?"

"What, is it so weird that I have a date on Valentine's Day night?"

Mobius looked around. The day was really hot. People everywhere were enjoying the sun. He turned to Casey, a strange look on his face.

"What's the date?"

"Valentine's Day I told you, so it's February 14."

Mobius repeated, "February 14, 2021."

Casey looked at him, curious, "Yeah. What's up with you?"

Mobius with pensive eyes replied, "He told me about today."

"Who? You mean the guy?"

"Yes!" replied Mobius excitedly, "There's a letter that says where he's going to be!"

Casey understood less and less, "He wrote you?"

Mobius nodded quickly, "Yes. I could see him today. You said it the other day...what have I got to lose?"

Casey replied matter-of-factly, "What are you waiting for?"

"I just need to find the letter!"

Mobius ran to his apartment above the store, rummaged through his old boxes, until he remembered that Loki's letters were still in the house on the cliff, in the attic. He looked for the spare keys to the housel, ran to his old pickup and drove off at full speed.

February 14, 2023 - September High-school

" Mister, uh... Casey, can I ask you something. Miss Minutes' founder, who is it?"

Casey, with a surprised look, answered him, clearing his throat, "He's a friend, Mo... Mobius M. Mobius."

Loki repeated, his heart pounding, "Mobius..."

Casey replied, "Yes. Do you... do you know him?"

Loki nodded, "Yes. He... where is he? Could you tell me how I could contact him?"

Casey suddenly looked very sad, "I'm sorry. You don't know?"

"What?"

Casey replied with a tight throat, "He died. Two years ago." He swallowed before resuming, "Two years ago today, in fact, there was an accident..."

Loki, shocked, gasped, then whispered, "Where?"

A few seconds later, Loki ran out of the school and headed for his car under the rain that had started to fall. Thor was behind him, bewildered, and called him, "Loki! Wait! What's going on?"

As he continued to run, Loki told him, 'It's an emergency! I don't have time!"

Thor asked, "Is that him?"

Loki, while running, replied, "Yes!" and heard Thor shout back at him as he climbed into his car, "Go Loki! Get him!"

Loki drove out of the city toward the house, rain pouring down on his windshield. He weaved between lanes, passing cars, driving recklessly, as fast as he could.

House on the cliff - February 14, 2021

Mobius stopped in front of the lake house. It was closed, empty. He ran across the path and unlocked the front door.

House on the cliff - February 14, 2023

Loki arrived at the house and stopped skidding in the rain in front of the mailbox. He pulled out a notepad and began to write, desperately.

House on the cliff - February 14, 2021

Mobius ran to the attic. Inside was the only box he had stored there when he moved out. He opened the box and searched frantically. He found the bundle of letters from Loki. After a few moments, he found the one he was looking for and read it.

Last February, I remember it was Valentine's Day, but it was really hot for a day in February.

I was at the fountain in Valhalheim Square.

He said aloud, "The Valhalheim Square Fountain."

House on the cliff - February 14, 2023

Loki finished writing the note and jumped out of the car. He put it in the mailbox and raised the flag.

He stayed there, and fell to his knees in front of the box, soaked by the rain.

House on the cliff - February 14, 2021

Mobius jumped into his pick-up , and quickly drove away from the house. He passed the mailbox.

Valhalheim Square - February 14, 2021

Loki closed his eyes for a moment, letting the sunlight warm him. Just aware of the surrounding sounds, the water in the fountain, the splashing and laughter of children playing in it, an old man grumbling about global warming, pigeons landing nearby.

Mobius could see the fountain from inside his pickup. He looked for a parking spot, finally found one and jumped out. He started running towards the square.

In his hand he clutched a piece of paper, the words of which echoed in his head.

Dear Mobius.

I know it now... it was you at the fountain that day.

It was you on the square. Please, don't go there.

Something terrible will happen if you go there.

Mobius continued to run toward the fountain.

He stopped at the curb, separated from the fountain by a dense road full of traffic. He looked away, searching for Loki beyond the noisy traffic, among the crowd in the park.

Please don't look for me.

He finally saw him, a distant figure, eyes closed, enjoying the warmth of the sun. He smiled.

Don't try to find me.

They are now only separated by distance.

Don't run to me.

The traffic became less dense and Mobius had a clear view of Loki, straight ahead.

Do you understand? Please. You must wait.

Mobius stepped off the curb, wanting to get closer to Loki.

Forget everything I said before.

We both have to wait.

If you love me and if I love you.

I love you, it's taken me this long to say it but I really love you, so wait for me.

Mobius saw Loki open his eyes, as if drawn in his direction. He looks alarmed.

Wait with me. Wait until time catches up with both of us and we can be together. Please. Just... wait.

House on the cliff - February 14, 2023

Loki soaked, was in tears at the foot of the mailbox and only whispered, "Wait, wait..." and continued to cry.

The rain continues to fall.

Loki, finally, having lost all hope, tried to pull himself together and began, very slowly, to get to his feet.

He looked at the box and gasped, the flag was down.

With trembling hands, he did not dare to open the door and when he did, he saw that his letter was gone.

Valhalheim Square - February 14, 2021

Mobius was standing on the road, straining to see Loki and at the last second, he backed up to the sidewalk, safe. He continued to watch Loki, he desperately wanted to run to him, but he didn't, he folded the letter, put it in his pocket and reluctantly turned and walked away.

House on the cliff - February 14, 2023

Loki looked at the empty mailbox, his face soaked with tears and rain.

A hand came up from behind him and gently closed the box. He slowly turned around.

Mobius stood silently and looked at him, holding the worn letter Loki had just posted. Loki stared at him for a moment, trying to convince himself that this was real.Then Mobius took a step toward Loki and smiled, shyly.

"Have we waited long enough?"

Loki, still shocked, his eyes filled with tears, whispered, "Yes."

Mobius approached again, and smiling more openly this time, brought his hand to Loki's face and wiped a tear with his thumb.Loki rested his head in his palm and then finally they fell into each other's arms, squeezing each other, inhaling each other's scent, prolonging the embrace again and again, making sure it was real. Making sure that each of them was real.

Then Mobius finally pulled back and captured Loki's lips in an endless kiss. For long minutes they separated only to catch their breath before kissing again, over and over again, indifferent to the rain that fell around them.

Much later, they separated to catch their breath and Mobius took Loki's hand to lead him home.

Loki gasped. The house on the cliff had changed.

In the two years of Mobius' life, the life Loki had saved, Mobius had transformed it.

He had brought to life the design he had shown Casey two years ago, with the deck, and the stairway to the water they had talked about, and the trees planted along the path, lit and glowing in the rain.

Loki laughed, astonished, and turning to Mobius he took his face in his hands and kissed him again.

Then they walked together along the path, stopping often to touch and kiss.

As they passed the door, Loki held Mobius by the sleeve, "Wait."

Mobius turned around and couldn't help but touch Loki's face with his fingertips once more.

Loki grabbed his hand and interlaced his fingers with Mobius' as he said softly, "I don't want to wait to tell you for real this time." He paused and with a trembling smile and bright eyes, he told him, "I love you."

Mobius didn't want to wait to tell him in turn either, "I love you."

They hugged each other tightly again, tasting the happiness of hearing those words spoken by the beloved voice.

Then much later, they entered their home, ready to start a new life where everything was still to be discovered. Together.

**********

The house on the cliff - Summer 2024

"Cwoki! Cwoki!"

"Lila! Go slowly honey and wait for your little brother!"

"Wait my love, I'll help you." Clint came to support Laura who was struggling up on the small path leading to the house on the hill. She huffed a little, laying her hand on her belly rounded by her 6 months of pregnancy.

They watched, fondly, as their two children gave gentle pats to a Croki who seemed to enjoy it.

"Lila, Cooper, stop spoiling Croki, he'll keep coming to us for petting afterwards."

Both children stood up and grabbed onto the legs of the man who had just spoken.

"Uncle Mobius!"

He picked them both up, carrying them each in one arm.

"What about me, don't I get a hello kiss?"

Each of the two children placed a sounding kiss on Mobius' cheeks at the same time.

"Should I be jealous?" a voice behind Mobius spoke up.

"Uncle Loki!"

Cooper was already reaching out to Loki, who didn't hesitate. The little boy gave him a big kiss on the cheek and wiggled to be put back on the ground.

Loki and Mobius, side by side, welcomed Laura and Clint.

"Clint, Laura, Welcome!"

They all embraced and then headed to the terrace.

Loki guided Laura to a comfortable chair, stuffed with cushions for her. She sat down with a sigh, "Thank you." then looking around, she continued, "I may have been here many times before, but I'll never tire of this view."

Mobius motioned for Clint to sit next to Laura, before taking a seat as well.

Loki was about to sit down when he heard the unmistakable sound of a car pulling up in front of the house, Mobius started to get up, but Loki motioned for him to stay seated. "Stay seated, love, I'll welcome them."

He walked down the path toward the cars that had just arrived.

Thor was the first to walk over to him, "Loki! My friend!" before hugging him. Loki was now used to Thor's overflowing affection and allowed himself to be patted on the back.

Soon Heimdall, Bruce, Carol and Natasha joined them and followed his lead into the house. When they arrived on the terrace, everyone greeted each other, and sat around the table chatting happily. Lila was in awe of Natasha's red curls, and Cooper laughed out loud as Thor spun him around at arm's length.

"Is this the direction for the little party?"

Heads turned to the source of the voice as Mobius exclaimed, "Casey, we weren't expecting you anymore!"

Casey laughed lightly and added, "Where do I put this?" he pointed to the cake in his hands.

"I'll take it." replied Loki. He took the cake into the kitchen and there he felt suddenly overwhelmed by emotion. He waited for a while before returning to the terrace.

"Hey handsome, what are you doing here alone?"

Loki looked up and smiled, "Mobius."

Mobius, who after more than a year had learned to decipher Loki's expressions, noticed that something was wrong.

"Loki, sweetheart, what's going on with you."

Loki wanted to start talking, but the emotion was too strong,

"Hey, come here." Mobius took him in his arms and gently stroked his back, waiting for the worst of the crisis to pass.

After a few moments, Loki straightened up, a trembling smile beneath the tears, "I'm sorry, I don't know, I'm not sad, not at all, on the contrary, but I suddenly had this irrepressible urge to cry."

Mobius nodded, pushed a strand of Loki's hair back behind his ear.

"Just too much emotion maybe? What were you thinking?"

"I... I was putting the cake on the table and I thought, if you hadn't read my letter, none of this would be real. I wouldn't be here. There wouldn't be all these people on our deck. And it freaked me out for just a short moment, to realize that I almost lost everything."

Mobius, also visibly moved, pressed a tender kiss on Loki's mouth and said softly, "But on the contrary, you have, we have gained everything. You saved me, gave me a new life, and in doing so you gave us all a different and more beautiful life."

Loki nodded his head, then shook it as if to collect himself.

He kissed Mobius tenderly in turn, then stepped aside and grabbed Mobius' hand and pulled him toward the terrace, a confident smile on his lips.

"Come on, let's go celebrate!"

As Mobius let himself be pulled along and they walked through the living room, his gaze fell on Ravonna's book. His first family. His sister. Then his gaze slid to Loki in front of him and by extension everyone else on the terrace. Their new family. Not by blood, but by heart. All because one day, Loki had posted a little letter.

Dear new tenant.

Hello and welcome to your new home and congratulations, blah blah blah. You have made an excellent choice, New Asgard is a wonderful place and this house is a gem, as you may have already noticed.

I'm sure you'll love living here as much as I do.

Loki had not known that these words would be so prescient, even though they came from the future and were addressed to someone from the past.

Oh yes, Mobius loved living here, but not because of the house, because of the love that filled it. Because of Loki.

Together. For All time. Always.

_________

That's it, everyone is happy, including me. I hope you enjoyed it to the end. 1000 thanks to all the comments left, it's the fuel for each chapter. I love you all!

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Limitless - 2021 Pacific Crest Trail Ride Through

3 days ago, on April 7th, Jess Goodlett started the ride of her dreams - a 2,650 mile ride of the entirety of the Pacific Crest Trail, border to border. She is attempting this ride alone, with two BLM mustangs she has trained herself. Jess is part of the Limitless team, a group of women going on various adventures to prove that the things women can accomplish in pursuit of their dreams are Limitless. This ride is fantastic, and Jess is still sourcing financial support. She has venmo, PayPal, and merch set up if you are interested in helping out!

This is similar in spirit to the idea of Unbranded, and Jess has been in contact with some of that team for advice.

Below I've shared a blog post she wrote discussing the trip and her plans! Under a readmore because it's LONG.

Time to Make this Official.

Yes, the ride is on.

I am planning a thru-ride on the Pacific Crest Trail for 2021.

My name is Jess Goodlett. I am 25 years old, and I have been a part of Limitless since the beginning.

📷Photo of the Limitless group from 2017

People seem to say that I am pretty outgoing and adventurous. When I set my mind on a goal, I definitely become very determined to make it happen. Most of my family and friends were not too surprised when I dropped the news that I was going to continue the plan to attempt a thru-ride on the Pacific Crest Trail. This trail has been on my mind for years, and it was actually how Limitless got its start.

My trail name is Raindance (this is how I got my trail name), and these are my BLM Mustangs, Makani (10-year-old bay roan mare) and Malana (7-year-old chestnut mare).

Also, here is little Zendaya. She is too young to join in on the fun next year, but maybe she will get the chance to tag along in the near future.

📷Zendaya (Daya for short) is my youngest mustang. I hope that she will be able to join in our an adventure in a few years. She is only 3 right now, so she still has some growing to do.

Here [is a photo] of me from a few years back, when I was able to set foot on a small section of the Pacific Crest Trail. This is the moment that sparked up the passion for the trail again after dealing with nostalgia from the group’s ride on the Colorado Trail in 2017.

I had convinced my dad and uncle to drive a rental car up some narrow mountain roads just to be able to set foot on part of the Pacific Crest Trail near Big Bear Lake. It felt magical getting the chance to hike a very small section of the trail. It was like getting a small taste of a big dream. My time on the trail may have only lasted 30 minutes, but it made me realize that I was still very passionate about this trail even after my experience on the Colorado Trail.

📷Repping Limitless while dreaming of a thru-ride on the Pacific Crest Trail.

Making Plans

The plans have gone back and forth a few times, but the goal is to set out on trail in the Spring of 2021. For me, there are a lot of emotions tied in with this thu-ride. I am sure there will be a lot of time for reflection on the days leading up to the trail, including each and every day spent out there with my horses.

This is a big trek. Every time I look at the maps, I feel excited. Maybe a little nervous. But I am focused on what is ahead. The days are flying by fast, and I know the day that I head out to California will be here sooner than I can even imagine. A lot of my time right now is being spent with the horses, and any additional free time goes toward researching the trail.

Let’s talk about the trail.

📷Hike at Kendall Katwalk (part of the PCT) near Seattle, Washington near Snowqualmie Pass

What is the Pacific Crest Trail?

📷Map of the Pacific Crest Trail

The Pacific Crest Trail is a border to border trail that starts at the Mexican border and travels through California, Oregon, and Washington to the Canadian border. The trail is 2,650 miles long, and it is open to both hikers and equestrians.

There are only a handful of completed equestrian thru-rides that are documented. I am sure there are a few more that have gone unmentioned online, but to be honest, it is much more likely for people to plan a thru-hike along the Pacific Crest Trail. Us thru-riders are very few.

For those who may not know, a thru-hike or thru-ride is a long distance trail that is completed in one go (typically one season) – from one end of the trail to other end. This differs from section hiking where one may just complete small sections of the trail instead of the entire length. Though, what a thru-hike or thru-ride is for one person may differ slightly for another. Sometimes trail conditions during a certain year results in hikers or riders having to alter the original path on the trail to detour things like a fire or trail closure. But this does not take away from the fact that the trail was completed if they reach the end. As they say, hike your own hike, or in this situation – ride your own ride.

On the note of section hiking and riding, the Pacific Crest Trail is also a very popular option for those looking to just complete certain sections. According to the Pacific Crest Trail Association (PCTA), there are a total of 29 sections: 18 sections in California, 6 sections in Oregon, and 5 in Washington.

Elevation ranges greatly throughout the entire trail, along with a vast variety of terrain. The Pacific Crest Trail travels over many mountain passes and through many wilderness areas, national forests and parks.

More information can be found on the PCTA official website.

The Difficulties of Planning a Thru-Ride

Taking on a thru ride comes with a lot of its own types of challenges that hikers will not have to face. Adding in one or two horses on trail adds its own difficulty especially when it comes to the logistics.

As I am researching the trail, I am trying to answer questions such as: How are the water sources in this section? Where can I camp? Are there any grazing restrictions? Any trail concerns?

How will I resupply? Where are some places I may be able to pull the horses off trail to rest them? Who will be my emergency contacts? And the list goes on.

I cannot really plan too far ahead with any set plans, but one of my biggest obstacles will be the snow. Trail conditions can change daily, and I have no idea how the winter is going to look at this moment. Because of the length of the trail, some decisions will not be made until I am on trail. I expect many unplanned things to happen. That is just the way it is, and that is why the focus right now is to study and learn the trail as much as I can.

📷Photo of Makani from our 2017 ride on the Colorado Trail.

Why the Pacific Crest Trail?

It was 2013 when I first heard about the Pacific Crest Trail. I was actually scrolling through Facebook when I came across a post in an equestrian Facebook group where a few people were talking about long distance trails. The main topic was riding horses from coast to coast ,but then the Pacific Crest Trail was brought up in the discussion. It was the first time I had heard of an established border to border trail. I was very interested and after a few quick searches online, I quickly became obsessed with this trail and the idea of completing a border to border trail horseback.

Though, I knew I was not ready at that time to take on such a big adventure. I kept the idea stored away in my mind. It would sneak back into my thoughts every so often. When it did, I would spend hours researching this trail and looking for any information I could find for equestrians. I told myself that one day… one day, I would ride the Pacific Crest Trail.

It wasn’t until 2015, when I decided to reach out to some people about the trail. I talked with Gillian Larson, who had completed the trail horseback in 2014. She has been a big inspiration to me and to many others. Over the years, she has now completed the Pacific Crest Trail two times horseback. She has also completed the 800 mile Arizona Trail, the 500 mile Colorado Trail, and the 3,100 mile Continental Divide Trail, which is another border to border trail. (Seriously, check out her Instagram. Her photos and videos of the trails are absolutely breathtaking!)

I also spoke with Ben Masters of Unbranded who encouraged me to get out and “just do it.”

This is when I started to think about friends who may be interested in riding with me. Initially, I reached out to Devan Horn about riding a border to border trail. Devan was the first person I ever thought of to even contact about a thru-ride. She is adventurous and possibly the only person I knew at the time who would have been up for such a challenge. I mentioned to her that I was interested specifically in riding the Pacific Crest Trail. We talked briefly about a long distance trek, and we told each other that we would keep in touch.

A few months passed, when Ragan Kelly reached out to me about a long distance trail. She had spoken with Devan who had mentioned my name to her. Ragan knew a few more people interested in a thru-ride, and that is how Limitless began.

Now, the Pacific Crest Trail is a much longer trail than what my friends and I rode in 2017 with the Colorado Trail. But as I mentioned, the Limitless team originally started with the goal of riding a border to border trail together.

Our exact plans were to ride a shorter trail, the Colorado Trail, in 2017. Then, we wanted to ride a border to border trail, the Pacific Crest Trail, in 2020. But since the start of Limitless in 2015, a lot of things have changed.

When we completed the Colorado Trail, we could all agree it was a once in a lifetime opportunity. Out of the group, I was honestly one who did not see myself fully committing to another thru-ride anytime soon. My end of the ride on the Colorado Trail was not what I wanted. Also, what they do not warn you much about long distance trails is that life continues on in the “real world.”

Life. Work. School. Other hobbies and interests. New goals and new opportunities.

There was nothing negative that happened within the team. We are all really good friends and forever will be. I love each and every one of them wholeheartedly. Though, we do not get the chance to see each other often, we will forever hold onto the memories that we created together on the Colorado Trail.

So wait… you are doing this trek solo?

Yes, that is correct. Solo. I am riding the trail alone with my two horses.

I will be honest. This was never my plan. Originally, I was unsure of a solo trek. I did not want to ride this trail alone.

When plans for a 2021 trek started, this thru-ride was going to be made for two riders. But plans changed yet again, and I had to make a decision to either hold off riding the trail or to just go after my dreams.

I know the pros and cons of going by myself, and I know the pros and cons with riding with others. I have heard the recommendations. I have heard the concerns. And with that said, I will continue on with planning this trek solo. This will allow me to put all of my focus on my horses’ needs to get them safely through the trail.

Though, I do hope to have a few friends join in here and there for sections.

How long will this trail take?

This trail will approximately take five to six months to complete. The horses and I will average 20-25 miles per day. I am also factoring in plenty of rest days for the horses. We are starting early enough to get through the hotter, dryer Southern California sections, but we will very likely have to skip around and circle back to some parts of the trail because of snow. In order to complete the full trail in one season, we need to be done sometime in September before the snow starts back up in Washington.

So What is Next?

I have a little over half a year left to get ready for this trek. I am looking forward to sharing our progress leading up to the trail and sharing the adventures that are to come.

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