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rose-riot-johnson · 8 months

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My Tumblr Peeps... Today, I have a treat for you, fanfic wise... Since I'm using an image of Toshiro Hitsugaya (from Bleach) for the header image (newest header image so far), I decided to write about him for the first time ever🧊🥶❄️🌨️😁👍

*This fanfic contains 1 or more long paragraphs😅

🧊❄️Spending Time In The Cabin With Toshiro❄️🧊 (Toshiro Hitsugaya x Any Gender Reader)

Genres: Angst and Comfort (Warning⚠️: Some Language, Mentions of being bullied, and Possible Trigger Warning(s))

The day you met Toshiro Hitsugaya, for the first time ever, was also the day you were assigned to squad 10 of the Gotei 13, which you found out he's the captain of squad 10. You were surprised he looked a little different (and actually different), than you expected... You were trying your hardest to not upset your captain in anyway, especially with thinking on how to word things the right way, since you liked him, already. Toshiro wasn't thrilled with you taking long on figuring out on how to introduce yourself, however he decided to gladly introduce himself first, because he feels that it might help you with your self confidence, especially when it comes to conversations, as he said, "I will start, since I noticed you're a little nervous. By the way, my name is Toshiro Hitsugaya... Since I'm your squad 10 captain, I rather you call me Captain Hitsugaya or Captain! What's your name?".

You have noticed how Toshiro was approaching you on how long you were trying to introduce yourself "properly" without upsetting him, the fact he seems easier on things than his other subordinates (including his squad 10 lieutenant, Rangiku Matsumoto), and he seemed more pleasant, than most people (if not everyone), you had ever known. You then shook hands with him, as you replied, "Nice to meet you... Captain Hitsugaya... My name is, (Any Gender Reader Name)... You seem nicer, than I expected... I know you didn't have to be nice, considering you're the captain of the same squad I'm in, however I'm thankful that you seem, like your more pleasant than most people I knew... If not every person I knew, anyways...". Toshiro was a little confused about you calling him pleasant, as if he thought you were joking or something, however he let that slide, as he lightly, smiled, then replied back, "Well (Any Gender Reader Name), it's nice meeting you, too. And if there's anything you need to talk about and/or someone to talk to, I will do my best to be there for you.". You then agreed, sheepishly, "Okay, Captain...".

As time went by, you somehow grew comfortable with Toshiro, as the both of you were starting to know eachother, little by little. You basically told him more about yourself, however you just haven't told him about the very personal stuff that happened in your life before you went in the academy to become a soul reaper of the Gotei 13. Despite of everything, Toshiro told you about talking to him about stuff you need to talk to, you still are afraid of telling him very personal stuff and being yourself, because of everything that happened with you, before you became a soul reaper.

For your entire life, everytime you tried opening up about your personal problems, being yourself, and opening up about your likes (and hobbies), you were either judged, or pushed away, or bullied, or other horrible things get done, regardless if it was by family, or friends, or people you used to try dating (or had a crush on), or etc... You just felt like all you could think of doing is holding everything inside, ignoring your baggage, invalidating your feelings, pretending that you're constantly okay, and pretending that you're never stressed once in your life. Your life revolved around being used to having to keep everything inside to the point where you never had sight of your true self to begin with, no matter how much it hurts.

One day, Toshiro and Rangiku both noticed that you have been bothered by the things that are on your mind (and heart), that you're keeping to yourself. He suggested to Rangiku to let him handle talking to you, while coming up with plans to get you out of your shell, even if he has to makesure you don't know about the plan of having you open up to him. So, he went up to you and asked you to go on a camping trip with him, as he told you that he knows an empty cabin both you and him can spend, atleast a couple nights in, which you accepted his invite, pertaining the camping trip.

Once both you and Toshiro are set to go on a camping trip, you followed him on a hiking trail (in the woods) that leads to the very cabin he mentioned to you about. You noticed that since you started your walk on that hiking trail with him, you began to feel peace and calmness for the first time ever. It's like, as if you never wanted this moment to end.

"We're here now, (Any Gender Reader Name).", Toshiro happily shouted, as the both you finally made it to the cabin, he mentioned to you about. Toshiro then continued, "And since we will be spending atleast couple nights there, we might as well get ourselves set up for supper and maybe later wear something comfortable for tonight...". You were surprised that he said this to you, considering that everyone else you knew would complain about anything you wear, before you became a soul reaper. Even your supposed to be friends in your past had bullied you about bundling up during the winter months calling you an "Eskimo", a "Sasquatch" and "Big Foot", however when you wear cooler clothing for hot weather, they had went, "Eeeewww! Put some clothes on!", even though you weren't wearing any revealing clothing. It was just how your life was and you can never win, even with your clothing choices. "I think I will cook supper tonight, (Any Gender Reader Name). My treat!", he whispered in your ear. The both of you then went inside the cabin.

Once Toshiro finished cooking supper, he notices that you dressed up in pajama short and a t-shirt, which he enjoyed the sight of and since it's a warm summer night, he was fine with what you're wearing. He pretty much secretly has a crush on you, after he met you. Considering your low self-esteem, you on the other hand thought he was thinking about poking fun at you as you sadly asked, "Do you think I need to cover myself more, captain? Please, tell me? Am I exposing, too much of myself?", as a tear rolled down your face. With a low frown on your face, you then continued, "I just would like to know. I feel like I should cover up...".

As Toshiro notices tears rolling down your face, he replied, "No, (Any Gender Reader Name). If you feel comfortable, then don't cover or uncover more than you feel you need to. I've seen much worse. I assure you, that what you're wearing is fine... I promise you're not exposing anything.", as he then touches your left hand with his right hand. "You really mean it, Captain Hitsugaya?", you asked. He then looked into your eyes, as he answered, "Ofcourse. I meant every word that I said. I would never poke fun at you. I promise what you're wearing is fine...".

Toshiro then continued, "Anyways, (Any Gender Reader Name)... Since we're in the cabin, I figured we can get to know eachother better and in private, as well... So, you're allowed to be yourself and if you in anyway need to talk to me about anything, I may get upset, however I will try to be there for you... And there's something I would like to con...". Before he can even make his confession to you, you basically cut him off, as you sobbed, "I never knew how to be myself properly to begin with nor have I ever had sight of my true self... Everyone I tried being myself with, open up about how I feel about certain things to, get comfortable with clothing I feel fit wearing around, open up about my likes and hobbies to, and my damn opinions to, I either get judged, mocked, bullied, pushed away, and everything else bad that happened to me! It doesn't matter, if it's family, those who were supposed to be my friends, those who were my crushes, those who I used to date, even my neighbors or anyone else... All these horrible things always happen to me... As my life has been going like it was, my whole life and the older I get, I had to learn to do what everyone else wanted me to, even if it's always something I'm uncomfortable doing... I had to learn to pretend to be okay and never stressed... I needed to learn to not to have negative emotions, no matter how painful it is... You name it, Captain Hitsugaya! My baggage doesn't matter! I was once told that the less I tell, the better off I am! As long as I'm not getting shunned nor bullied nor anything else bad happens to me and as long as everyone else is happy, then everything will be fine. So, why should I bother opening up to anyone, if I'm going to feel weak from it! Everyone else is always right over me, while no matter what I do, if someone says their opinion that's not mine or gives me a dirty look, or even laugh at my expense, then I'm always in the wrong. I have to hold everything in, so I don't keep being a burden for anyone else!". Toshiro was shocked about what you just said being the reason why you hold everything deep inside of yourself and is wondering, if this has been on your mind (and heart) prior to him inviting you for your camping trip with him.

Toshiro then calmly replied, "So, if I'm right, everything you just said is why you've been timid about talking about anything pertaining yourself. And anything negative you said about yourself due to the pressure others had put on you before you became a soul reaper, that's not true... You're better than what others say, think, or even feel about you, your opinions, your feelings, and other things... You're never a burden and you're never weak for opening up and talking about what's bothering you. Those who open up about how they feel are strong for it, not weak...". You then shouted, "How would you know, Captain Hitsugaya?! It's not like you went through any of it! Not even keeping things to yourself!". Toshiro then was starting to get annoyed, as he shouted back, "Ofcourse I know what it's like holding my problems and keeping them to myself! You actually think you're the only one who is or ever has been in any part of your situation, you certainly are incorrect!", then he realized that this was his first he had ever yelled at you, while he felt he needed to calm himself down, as he continued in a calmer tone, "Look... With keeping things to yourself... It doesn't make you strong... Not like you believe you had to learn... Keeping everything to yourself and fighting things alone will only make things worse... There's always someone who cares about you atleast somewhere... They will worry about you... Talking about less as you possibly can doesn't mean you're better off... It's good to keep your guard up, however holding everything in will hurt others who care about you, too... I care about you..."

You looked at him, as if you thought he was only saying this to make you feel better, then you asked, "You... Really... Care... About... Me?". Toshiro then replied, "Ofcourse, I truly care about you. If I didn't I wouldn't have invited you to come with me nor have a talk with you nor encourage to talk about how you feel and being yourself... You obviously can't hide everything and fight everything all alone... Not only you hurt yourself, however you also hurt others, such as myself... I'm not sure, if you met the substitute soul reaper, Ichigo Kurosaki... He is someone who taught me that it's important to open up about your problems, instead of fighting everything alone... So, what I'm telling you now is, we're in this together and I don't usually say anything romantic nor lovey dovey stuff, however my confession for you is... I... Love... You..., (Any Gender Reader Name)...". You then walked up to hug him, as you continued to sobbed, as he then hugged with you, while petting your head.

Toshiro then calmly whispered, "It's okay now, (Any Gender Reader Name)... Let it out as much as you need to... Anyways would you like to... You know... Have these kind of hugs of when you lay down...". You stopped sobbing, as you replied, "You mean cuddles, Captain Hitsugaya? Ofcourse, I'm up to cuddling tonight... We both need it.". Toshiro was surprised that you knew what the word "cuddles" is. He was actually actually happy about it and your answer with cuddling. After that night your relationship with Toshiro has become official.

After these couple of nights you spent in the cabin with Toshiro, all of the other soul reapers, even Rangiku noticed a big difference in you. You became more open about your hobbies, how you feel, etc... You're even able to be your true self and finally have sight of your true self. And it's all thanks to Toshiro Hitsugaya. And he's so proud of you, that he even introduced you to Ichigo Kurosaki.

❄️🧊The End🧊❄️

I did write a somewhat unusual ending... Anyways I was recently rewatching the Bleach movies and there's a particular Bleach movie that is part of why I felt inspired to write this fanfic the way I did, which was "The DiamondDust Rebellion". It did took me a while to write this fanfic down, however for possibly a week or so, I did have alot going on where I couldn't mentally focus on completing any fanfics until hours earlier with the previous fanfic I have posted😅 Anyways my Tumblr Peeps, I did have fun writing this fanfic and I hope this fanfic helps make your day and/or night❄️🧊🥶🌨️☀️🌕

#bleach #toshiro hitsugaya #toshiro #tōshirō hitsugaya #captain hitsugaya #bleach hitsugaya #comfort #angst #rose riot writings #fanfic written by rose riot johnson #rose riot johnson #hitsugaya toshiro #toshiro x reader

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best-overplayed-song · 11 months

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Cannot Believe don’t fear the reaper is losing to eurythmics… that song caused an entire generation of satanic panic and weird girl moments and it resonated with so many people that dftr is a relatively common tombstone header. How metal is that. Also it was referenced in a very nice book series called discworld by the late and great terry pratchett (who also wrote good omens!! Good omens fans are legally required to vote for dftr). Also boc wrote an entire song about Godzilla how cool is that . a vote for boc is a vote for Godzilla and feminism worldwide !!

#song propaganda #asks

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simonstamenovic · 9 months

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SIMON/REAPER | IT/HE | 25

the "kin" carrd is not up to date; we have no clear lines on anything but many of us feel like more fully formed people. please take this seriously.

the only thing we are sure of is that anything listed has memories and is considered a past life*

related to the above, do not follow us if you care about "endogenic systems" as we are not sure of anything; we simply know we are different

*this could also be other universes. i do not claim to know at all how anything works.

header picture taken by @settingorange icon commissioned by @e-seer and @chiaoxu

#color text #pinned #bloodletting

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moomanmilken · 8 months

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the header pic deluding yourself into thinking soldier has an ass when its so incredibly flat. reaper has the gyatt let give him the respect he deserves

no because you're so right. i just have a lot of soldier ass images (that all but show he has no ass)

#overwatch #soldier 76 #jack morrison #yeah jack has 0 ass idk

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otemporanerys · 7 months

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Life Behind Enemy Lines - Ch 25

(header by @dulcidyne)

The Reaper IFF was installed. It was only a matter of time before they’d be able to home in on the Collector base: so there was nothing to occupy Shepherd’s time, apart from a few loose ends.

Legion had a lead on some heretic geth (Shepherd wasn’t entirely sure what that meant, but it seemed important), and unlike when she went to collect her own personal geth unit, the decision about who to take was much more fraught.

Tali, no: just… no. Massani overstayed his shore leave on Omega by three days: they had to invoice bail and a shuttle so they could rendezvous in Illium, and Miranda was still mad about it. Shepherd wasn’t the type to hold grudges, but she’d taken marines out while they were on a comedown before, and that’s not a mistake you make twice. Then Gareth… She was avoiding him.

Thane would do.

#species swap #my fic

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tea-of-destiny · 4 months

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hi friend I meant to send you this ask a couple days ago I think but. I know it isn't really (twewy) canon, but I'd like to hear about the TWEWY characters in KH3D, if you'd tell me about it? I don't have any intention of playing KH myself, I don't think it's my kind of video game in general, but I'm still fairly curious 👀

ajlksjdfhalsjkd I think this is normally a question where I'd go back to the source material to confirm what I'm saying, but this has been sitting in my inbox too long so I'm just going to write off the cuff and pray something worthwhile comes out

Um, as a whole they're pretty fun! Maybe not totally accurate to the canon of their own game, but they're presented in a way that makes you (or at least me) want to check out TWEWY to find out what their story is. I am so determined to play TWEWY for real eventually, but I don't know how soon that will happen since there's... so much else I want to do aha.

Neku's personality is more that of his first week in the Reaper's Game--he's still kind of standoffish and self-centered, which makes him a stark contrast to a protagonist like Sora, but Neku is already in the process of learning how to trust and befriend other people. He evidently cares about Shiki a lot. I don't remember if he's shown to have much attachment to Joshua or Beat yet in KH canon.

Shiki is a part of one of my favorite interactions in the series; it's actually where the quote in my header image comes from! Riku defends Shiki from a swarm of Dream Eaters, and then he's ready to just run off again to finish his mission, but Shiki says something to the effect of "Hey, you can't chat a girl up and then just ditch her! Aren't you supposed to be my knight in shining armor?" To which Riku kind of panics and says, "Knight? You've got the wrong idea!" aro king So they make for an entertaining pair of companions.

I love Beat. He and Rhyme have a great sibling dynamic. Beat makes some rash decisions that put people in harm's way, but he really means well and has a big heart. There's another scene where Beat's acting tough to Riku like, "We don't need your help!" But Rhyme pipes up like, "Really? 'Cause not five minutes ago, you were whining, 'Where's Riku? We gotta find Riku!'" And Beat gets really flustered like, "Gwaah! Don't say that in front of him!"

All I can really say about Joshua is that he's not enough of a bastard in KH canon lmaooo I need him to shoot the ancient embodiment of Darkness or something

One other thing I'll mention is that as of the Kingdom Hearts 4 trailer, Sora has gone to an alternate reality, and he wakes up in a city resembling Tokyo. There's been speculation that he's specifically in the TWEWY version of Shibuya and we'll see Sora reunite with the cast. Some fans are really excited by the possibility of extended TWEWY lore; others don't want it to be the case because they worry that TWEWY will get subsumed into KH instead of standing as its own thing. I'm not sure how I personally feel, except that I really hope whichever path the developers take, they spend the necessary time to make the game compelling and enjoyable.

I hope this kind of answers your question, even if it's been a while? And thanks for asking!

#teaposts #answered #kingdom hearts #twewy #(n)twewy #sure this can go in the main tags #as a side note kh3d isn't really my favorite installment of the series so imo it's just as well you don't plan to play it #at the very least i'd be the wrong person to try and persuade you lol #but if you still wanted to see/hear more for yourself there's always let's plays and cutscene comps on youtube

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iheartgarrus · 1 year

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N7 Month Day 5: Interview

(AO3 Link - Double header! Longest one yet, so the cut is because of that, not any steaminess [sorry 😉]. I've had this idea in my head for months, so the prompt was a happy coincidence. Enjoy some Shakarian family content!)

"Lighting looks good," Allers said as she adjusted the settings on her camera drone. "You ready, Shepard?"

"I did ask for this," Shepard replied with a quirk to her mouth. She tucked her hair back - it was at her shoulders nowadays, its natural jet black, save for a few silver strands one had to look closely to find. Her face was made up for the occasion, similar to the way she had worn it during the war with her eyes framed by sleek black liner and her lips stained a deep shade of berry. While her body may have been through some changes over the past three years, she was no less recognizable as The Commander Shepard. Which was the point.

"And I still can't wait to find out why," Allers mused, taking a seat in the chair next to Shepard. "Alright, we're rolling in 5... 4..."

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"Welcome to The Battlespace. I'm Diana Allers, here with a rare, exclusive interview with none other than Commander Viola Shepard." The camera cuts from a close-up to a view of the reporter and her subject seated at an angle next to one another. They are in the living area of Commander Shepard's apartment on the Citadel, and a well-appointed kitchen is visible in the background. "Commander, thank you for joining me today."

Shepard smiles, all teeth. "Happy to be here, Diana. I wouldn't talk to anyone else."

"It's true," Allers says with a nod, "You haven't been keen on interviews or public appearances since the end of the Reaper War over three years ago. I have to admit, I was a bit surprised when you actually called me back this time."

"I know people have a lot of questions," Shepard replies cryptically.

"Yes! You've been in the news again lately. You and your partner, Advisor Garrus Vakarian, recently began fostering a child. Can you talk about how that came about?"

"Sure, Diana." She folds her hands in her lap. "Your turian viewers are probably familiar with the Family Reunification Service, but for everyone else, it's a Hierarchy initiative to connect children who were orphaned in the war with their relatives. Without getting too bogged down in the details, they make an effort to place children with their closest living relatives. It's a great program and tens of thousands of turian children have found caring homes because of it. Garrus's family was contacted by the FRS a few months ago about a little girl on Invictus, a distant cousin of his, and he and I made the decision to welcome her into our family."

"That's incredible, Commander! What an amazing program. Do you two plan to adopt?" Allers leans a touch closer, seeming eager.

"Nothing is set in stone yet. The FRS doesn't consider adoptions until 6 months after the initial placement in order to make sure everyone in the home is happy. But we're getting to know her, and she's getting to know us. We're making every effort to make her feel welcome."

"Of course you are," Allers says sincerely. "Now, I know you've always valued your privacy, but can you tell us any more about her? What's her name?"

Behind the pair, in the apartment's kitchen, Advisor Vakarian enters and sets a long case on the counter. He doesn't acknowledge the camera, and neither Allers nor Shepard seem to notice him.

The Commander's expression hardens almost imperceptibly. "We aren't disclosing that at this time, nor are we releasing any photos."

Vakarian opens the case and takes out a sniper rifle scope along with a rag. He begins cleaning the scope.

Allers nods, not seeming surprised by this answer. "And I respect that. I appreciate you sharing what you have with us, and I hope that this will inspire more people all across the galaxy to consider welcoming one of these children into their homes."

"I hope so, too."

"Well, Shepard, I've learned not to press my luck when it comes to getting you to spill the beans," she says with a smile. "But is there anything else you'd like to share with our viewers?"

"There is," Shepard replies. Behind her, Vakarian has lifted a rifle out of the case and begun cleaning that as well. "I want to make one thing clear about this... new development. Our foster child will be starting school here on the Citadel soon." She turns to face the camera directly. "It's important that every reporter, photographer, blogger, whatever, understands that if anyone shows up at her school or approaches her or follows her trying to get a photo or a scoop..." She leans slightly to the side, allowing the camera a clearer view of Vakarian, still cleaning the rifle. "We will find you."

Allers's eyes are wide with mild panic - she does not seem to have been expecting this. "Shepard," she says with a cough. "Is that a threat?"

The Commander looks back at Allers, smiling that toothy smile again. "Of course not, Diana. Just a little joke."

Vakarian pauses and looks at the camera for the first time - he may have just barely shaken his head, but it's unclear.

"Well," Allers says with a nervous laugh. "Thank you so much, Commander Shepard. It was great to chat with you again, and best of luck with this new adventure!"

"Pleasure was all mine, Diana."

Allers looks into the camera once more. "Thanks for watching, everyone. We'll see you next time on The Battlespace."

~~~

As soon as the drone stopped recording, Allers spun on her. "Shepard!"

Shepard bit her lip. "What? You knew I wasn't going to give you personal details."

"That's not what I mean, and you know it!"

She chuckled. "Yeah, I know. But if I'd told you beforehand, you would've stopped me."

The reporter sighed. "Normally I'd say I'll have to edit this, but that's not going to fly, is it?"

"Nope." Shepard shook her head. "You know you'll never get another interview out of me if you do."

"My producer is going to kill me. Well, I just hope your little stunt is effective." She softened a little. "You know I really do respect your privacy, right?"

She patted Allers's shoulder. "I know, and that's why I picked you. Now run my little PSA, would you? Exactly as it is."

Resigned, Allers gave a sloppy salute. "Aye-aye, Commander."

#mass effect #n7month #n7 month 2022 #shakarian #diana allers #family fic #fanfic #my work

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akithespacecorgi · 10 months

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Thème #5 (header + avatars) pour Backbone.

Blottis sous l’aile des Reaper’s Crows, San Diego s’anime, s’agite, théâtre de millions de vies qui s’élancent dans toutes les directions. Celle du Ring où se déroulent des combats illégaux résultant en gloire comme en argent. Celle des locaux de The Asso où on panse ses blessures, milite et se soutient mutuellement pour une San Diego meilleure, une San Diego moins criminalisée. Celle des petits malfrats, des gangs, qui labourent de leurs griffes l’Underground, à la recherche de richesses. Celle des motards, celle des corbeaux et du cuir, gardant autant captive que protégée cette ville qui les abrite tous. Celle des gens qui n’ont rien demandé, qui mènent leur vie en louvoyant, s’ils le peuvent, loin de tout ce bordel, dans l’espoir que la phrase “ça n’arrive qu’aux autres” continue de s’appliquer à leur cas.

City basé à San Diego, USA — Contexte entourant un club de motards criminalisés, des combats illégaux et des luttes sociales — forum privé (inscription sur invitations seulement) — 18 ans et + — Forum à avatars réels — aucune contrainte de mots — aucune exigence d'activité — système de TW obligatoire.

#backbonerpg #forum rp #avatar rpg #header #rpg francophone #design forum rpg

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onceuponastory · 1 year

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monster - the winter soldier

“Should I feel kindness towards my enemies? No: from that moment I declared everlasting war against the species, and, more than all, against him who had formed me, and sent me forth to this insupportable misery.”

- Frankenstein by Mary Shelley

Plot: Alexander Pierce finds an unexpected guest in his kitchen. One who wants revenge. Warnings: 18+ Please! This is a soft(ish) dark Bucky Barnes/Winter Soldier fic. Graphic mentions of death, abuse, shooting, guns/weapons, blood and gore, torture and mind wiping. Everything The Winter Soldier did and had done to him is a trigger. You have been warned. Notes: This is essentially my own retelling of the CA:TWS ending. Bucky deserved better, and especially revenge against all who hurt him. Thanks for coming to my TED Talk.

Not beta’d, so all mistakes are my own. Thanks to @maysdigitalarts for the headers!

With a sigh, Alexander Pierce steps into his kitchen. He’s finally ready to unwind after another long day at work. After all, the work of an undercover HYDRA operative is never done. He reaches for the light switch. Yet, before he can turn the light on:

“Hello Pierce.” A disembodied voice speaks, causing him to jump. Alexander turns just in time to see his unexpected house guest leaning forward into the solitary beam of moonlight streaming through the window. The silvery metal of his arm shines in the light, and the red star emblazoned on it is in full view. As is the blood still staining it. Of course, Pierce knows who it is. After all, he’s the one who used the Winter Soldier as his personal assassin for months. He oversaw constant wiping and reshaping to mould the soldier into the perfect weapon, keeping him just docile enough so he wouldn’t ask questions or remember too much. The constant violence they inflicted on him helped too, though. However, a few weeks ago, he escaped, and despite how hard they tried, they couldn’t track him down.

And now he’s here, sitting in his kitchen and holding a gun.

Alexander knew this day was coming. He has for a while now. After all, soon enough, the reaper comes for us all. And because the soldier has torn through almost all of HYDRA’s ranks by this point, slaughtering anyone and everything standing in his way. It’s only natural he’d work his way up to the top, to his god. Now, Alexander just has to survive.

“I was wondering when you’d show up.” He takes a seat, studying the man across from him. Although perhaps after everything they’ve done to him, all the torture and brainwashing…man is a loose word choice. If you tell someone he’s a monster for long enough, he’ll believe it. “I see you found your voice.” He smirks, knowing his word choice will sting. He can still see the soldier’s face staring back at him from the chair before another wipe. Frightened, alone, and cold as he mumbled to himself, trying desperately to cling to the shell of the Sergeant he used to be. He always had a heart to him, despite how much they tried to stomp it out. Such a weakness. “You shouldn’t be here. They’re trying to pin everything on you, and they’ll find you. If you run now, I won’t tell anyone. But what happens to you after that is out of my hands.” Alexander gets up to leave, but soon finds himself staring down the barrel of a gun.

“No. You sit.”

“Really, I don’t see-” The side of the gun hits against his head, causing him to yell out in pain.

“I said, sit.” This time, Pierce does as he is told. Silence falls as both men keep a steady gaze on each other, each unsure of who’s going to make the first move.

“You’ve done a lot of bad things, you know. Lashing out against us when we only tried to help you.” He sighs, hoping that the techniques he used during the decades he and the others spent manipulating and brainwashing the soldier to do their bidding still work.

“Help?” the man scoffs. “You don’t know the meaning of the word help. Were you helping me when you stuck a metal arm on me? When you removed all the memories of my friends, the people who loved me? Or was it when you sent me out to kill innocent people?” His bitter accusations stun Alexander into silence for a moment. In all honesty, after everything they’ve done, and the amount of brainwashing they exposed him to, Alexander didn’t expect him to remember anything.

“What? That had nothing to do with me. I didn’t make you.” He snaps.

“You’re right. You didn’t. You and your friends just used me for your own ends, for the dirty work you didn’t want to do. And when people started to notice, you distanced yourself from the responsibility, taking no blame.”

“Don’t be so stupid.” Alexander hisses, ignoring the soldier’s warning to stop calling him that. “What did you expect me to do? As the head of S.H.I.E.L.D., I couldn’t have you connected to me. I would have lost everything.” The soldier scoffs.

“Of course. We couldn’t have the King losing his kingdom, could we? Unfortunately for you, Pierce…you already have.” He smirks, leaning in closer. “You took everything from me…so it’s only fair I take what is yours. Bit by bit. If it’s any consolation, at first I didn’t want to. A part of the old me was still inside, despite how much you tried to stomp it out. But as I spent more and more time away from you, I realised how unfair everything is. You’re just as complicit in my actions as I am, perhaps even more so. And yet, I’m the one being punished for them. Everyone sees me as the monster. Not you.”

“What, and you think killing us is going to help stop that? Stop the nightmares, and the guilt?” Alexander scoffs. “You’re even more stupid than I thought you were.” Angrily, the soldier slams his metal hand on the table, the force of his blow denting the wood. Despite his resolve, Alexander can’t help but jump at the noise.

“Stop it.” He hisses. “Or the next blow will be through your head.” For once, Alexander Pierce chooses to shut up. “And no. I know it won’t stop them. This…this is retribution. And I’ve been waiting for this.” Before Alexander can say anything else, the soldier lifts his gun once more, pointing it directly at his head. Pierce’s eyes go wide. For a moment, it sounds as if he murmurs an apology. With a quick pull of the trigger and a splatter of blood, Alexander Pierce’s life is over. “He died the same way he lived.” The soldier scoffs. “As a coward.”

For a while, he stands there, watching as Pierce, the man who abused and tortured him for decades, bleeds out on top of his dining room table. Despite the blood and brain matter running down the wall, he still keeps a wary eye on Pierce’s hands, looking for any sign of twitch. After so long under HYDRA’s control and being hunted down each time he tried to escape, he’s expecting them to burst in at any moment and take him back in. Especially after this. He waits for hours, wondering if his execution will come. When nobody comes, he takes a deep, freeing breath. As relieved tears run down his cheeks, he lets out a happy, yet shaky laugh. It’s finally over. The nightmare is over.

Bucky Barnes finally has a chance for peace.

I won't let you control my feelings anymore And I will no longer do as I am told And I am no longer afraid to walk alone Let me go Let me be I am escaping From your grip You will never own me again - The Handler by Muse

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