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#the difference between 'i feel like i'm gonna die' and 'i am going to die' is so vast. and difficult to explain 2 ppl who havent been there
crimeronan · 3 months
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most irritating part of recovery so far is that i keep having existential panic attacks about death + the future every couple days. it's pretty clearly because i am not currently ready to be done here & it freaks me the Fuck Out that last year i could feel the end coming to the point of making total peace with it & i am terrified that the 50-odd years i've wrested back could be torn away from me at any moment. which is like, yeah, this is a completely reasonable post-traumatic response. could you cut it out tho.
usually telling myself "i'll be ready for this when it happens" comforts me. but occasionally i'll just lay here staring at the ceiling like. I Could Get Shot Tomorrow,
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pasdetrois · 1 year
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Rebecca (1940, dir Alfred Hitchcock) // Vievee Francis, "Apologia" (Excerpt) // Daphne du Maurier, Rebecca
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ivysangel · 4 months
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Okay but a threesome with Dick and Jason. what would that be like? Are they competing to see who makes you come harder? Does each try to out do the other because he’s secretly jealous? Are they gonna Eiffel Tower? Is one really sweet while the other is being aggressive and rough? I need opinions.
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honey i am so so so so so sorry. this has been sitting in my drafts for so long and i hope you're still around to see it! i already wrote a lil smth smth about this a while ago here but allow me to elaborate.
i think the dynamic can get pretty crazy because dick can get wayyy nasty; not to say jason doesn't either, but i don't think jason would get crazy nasty in front of dick. dick's there to overstimulate you, tease you, play around with you, and bring you to the edge and back and then over, and jason's there to comfort you through it. i think they both could be "he talks you through it," guys, but in this specific scenario, i think it would be jason who sweet talks you, whispers in your ear, tells you you're doing so good for them, and quiets you down when you get too loud. i don't really know how to explain it, but he'd be the comforting presence out of the two of them, not even taking a submissive role or anything, just not as actively winding you up as much as dick.
dick, a menace as always, treats it like a game. how many times can he make you cum before you're begging for a break, and how many different ways can he make it happen. i think he'd be like that on a normal day, too, but i feel like it's very amplified in this situation because however this threesome happens, it's a very tense and intimate affair, out of character for both of them and, therefore everything about it is just different (?) i can't even think of a good way to explain it other than the next morning you're all kinda like woah. lost all inhibition the night before and don't really know how to go back to the way things were. he's quick to get nasty; he's the one eating you out while jason is kissing your neck and lightly grazing your skin, touching and squeezing, etc. the combination of both of them is really just insane, and both of their actions, in tandem, are what makes it so much more intense.
i do think they could be eiffel tower guys, but idk, i think (and walk with me here)…double penetration might be the way they go. like, you can't say, "dick grayson is an ass man," without admitting that he'd probably be into anal, so boom. and if your pussy is open, then yeah, ofc jasons taking it; it just makes sense TO ME. it's definitely a lot and not for the faint of heart, and you have to hold onto one (or both) of them while you get used to the sensation and while they find a nice rhythm, so it feels good for all three of you. during this part, the talking might die down just because you're all so in the moment; it's definitely out of character for dick because he's a D1 yapper, but it's cool cuz he was dirty talking so much during the foreplay, like lifting his head from between your legs just to look you in the eye and say something nasty.
i'm also ngl i could see the roles reversed where jason is eating you out or fingering you, and dick is the one whispering crazy shit in your ear. i could see it working both ways, but the first more so.
when i tell you this would be probably the best orgasm you've ever had, i mean that. there's just so much that went into it that there's really no way you aren't gasping for air and clutching your chest when it's over. damn near passing out, and they gotta shake you a little to make sure you're still kicking. and it's not even really over because if you show any semblance of energy after, they might try to go another round i fear.
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disruptivevoib · 2 months
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Long Ramble about CCCC and my overall feelings on what the album means and such
Something I find important about CCCC is like.
The fact that all three of them are, in some way, trying.
Heart is emotion, he is prone to himself and being reactionary, in the moment. Prone to the past of learned behavior and trauma. Reactive and rapidly changing. He isn't going to make pure sense because he isn't based in logic or in societal ideals or views. He is an instinctual response to the environment and circumstances. His manipulation is not intentional. He has very little control of himself in the end. Its why Mind talks about claiming to relish entropy yet clearly needing help. But, Heart in earnest wants them to be okay and safe. He believes that Mind's control will drain the life from them. It will make things monotonous and the same. Too much order.
Mind in turn, believes Heart is manipulative with intention. He wants to control Soul or wants to just drag them all down with him into this depressive state. Mind is logic, he is the reasoning out of your emotional instinct. Your inner critique, and when unchecked, that inner critique goes from a guiding hand for your emotion to one that debates and bullies it. Invalidating its responses. Ultimately, though. Mind just believes he is helping. He is doing what must be done and telling the "hard truths" to Heart. And that Heart is being the petty child. Which- I mean. Sort of sure. But Mind is definitely fucking petty and childish. He's stubborn! Prideful! So ofc he is. Admitting you're wrong? No.. why would he EVER do that.. nuh uh.
Which is what makes Light so crucial. Mind asking Heart for help- but also. There is Soul.
Who while ambiguous in purpose, is mostly that background voice. Your inner narration. If Mind is Logic and Reason then Heart is Emotion and Instinct,, Soul is all that lives between it. And he is constantly silenced or spoken over or around. He does not get a word in edgewise until TSE. He may show up in the background occasionally but as much as Heart and Mind claim to want to keep him alive and help him, they also fail to actually acknowledge what he says.
Which is that they both are right and wrong. That this fighting is doing directly what they both feared it would. Soul is desperate by the end. He is angry and resentful because.. well. Self hatred due to intense self awareness and reflection is rather ig. Common. Im not a professional here but from personal experience, you get so tired of rehashing the same shit with yourself over and over. It all feels pointless.
The only out, by the end of it all to Soul is that if they cannot be Whole, whats the point? He is desperate. He does not want to die but he feels theres no other solution.
And. About Whole, Soul throughout the album seems to want that. At the beginning, to be Whole or Harmonious is to be mentally healthy, maybe even "normal" by society's standards. To be able to put a mask over your problems and be, again, "normal". It takes the entire album for Soul to realize that this:
1. isnt possible
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2. There isn't anything evil or wrong with him for that.
Mental health is a struggle. But you are not evil and should not be othered because you struggle. You also do not need to be fixed for being a little different and people's opinion of you is not what matters most so long as you are happy (and not hurting others. Lol).
Thats what Two Wuv is entirely about as a song. Its a "fuck you. Fuck this! I thought I needed to be this! But I DON'T. Stop telling me who I am! How to be! I'm gonna be me!"
His entire arc is parallel to Heart and Mind's and is crucial in the culmination of becoming yourself again and accepting yourself.
But, as mental health will always be, this period of respite and self acceptance is not always forever. And as life continues or as you lapse back into a depressive episode.. you cannot help but forget what it is like when you're not this way- and hell! Vice versa too! Some people have this disconnect between the periods. Where the things from the depressive state seem dramatic or obtuse to you while you are doing better. And from the other end, you just want to be happy again.. but you get so lost in it all you can struggle to feel like you've ever been happy.
The album is about the human experience. It is about self-sabotage, mental illness, self-hatred and reflection and it is, maybe more importantly about self-acceptance and healing. Having a bit of mercy on yourself. Accepting that you are imperfect and that this is okay. And whatever flaws you may have that need to be mended or worked on, can be. And that who you are, for example, if you are queer, is okay. And no one has the right to take that identity from you! That the internalized ideas of how someone should be are not always correct or right. Not for you, at least. Stuff like that.
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luveline · 2 years
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baby blurb of spending the night at eddie’s house 🤍
this request was lovely! this was more like the run up but yes it was so fun thank you for your request ♡ fem!reader | 1k words
The first time you stay the night at Eddie's house you almost die. You stand at the bottom of the porch with your backpack on one shoulder and you're so nervous you can feel your heart in your mouth. 
"Don't be a loser," you mutter to yourself. You throw your hands out and make fists that don't make you feel any better. "Don't be a loser."
You're almost pleading with yourself. You'd gotten here at least five minutes ago. Every minute longer spent waiting was another minute of loserdom. 
The door opens and you flinch back, and there your boyfriend stands in his pajamas and converse, car keys swinging in his fingers. 
He smiles as soon as he realises it's you. "Hey! Hey, babe, I was coming to look for you. Thought you'd been murdered."
"Jesus, Eddie," you say, ascending the steps. You stop on the last, looking up as he looks down. There's a secret smile shared between you then. A smile he only gives to you and you only give to him. 
"Was the walk particularly arduous?" he asks lightly. 
"Particularly," you say agreeably. 
He kisses your cheek and catches your hand with little care, tugging you back into his house quickly. 
"It's too cold for you to keep walking over," he says as he closes the door. He tosses his keys in the general direction of a keepsakes bowl and drags you past the living room. 
You giggle as you go. "It wasn't that bad." 
"Whatever, I'll come and get you anyways. I think I actually had, like, a conniption. Kept thinking you'd been Freddy Kreuger'd." 
"That guy with the knife hands?" 
"Yeah." 
"He was a total perv." 
"He was also a murderer," Eddie says, pushing you gently towards his unmade bed, the space he'd left behind still warm. "I'd say that was the worse part of his character." 
"That's 'cos you're a guy." 
Eddie sits right at the end of the bed and rubs his hand over his cheek like he's thinking before he collapses into the sheets, his arm thrown towards you. You reach over and take his hand, to his evident delight. His eyes close. 
"What are we gonna do all night?" he asks. 
You laugh, startled, because you've been sort of worried he might want to have sex and you're not sure you're ready, but his words are far from salacious. He sounds genuinely puzzled. 
"Well, what do you want to do?" you ask. 
"I don't know. I've never had a girl stay the night before." 
"Really?" 
"Nope. You're my first," he says, grinning, and there's a put on lightness to it that lets you know he's aware of the double entendre. 
You smile and hide your nerves well. Just because he made a sex joke doesn't mean he wants to actually mess around. You've hardly gone very far. You're only here because he'd called you and said he missed you, which was… an entire other thing. Fondness for him so fierce that you'd barely thought twice when you said, "Well, I could come over."
He's so pretty, you think, looking over the white valley of sheets to his pale face. He's pretty, and he misses me when I'm not around, treats me like dynamite when I am. Maybe I shouldn't be so worried about everything.
You've been in his room before. Now, in the dark, it's different. It feels smaller. 
"I really did miss you," he says, like he can read your mind. You fail to suppress a grin as he pulls your hand to his mouth and leaves it there. His kiss is almost absent-minded, a soft press of his lips and then more silence. 
"I missed you too," you say, because you do, all the time.
You don't know if it's what you're supposed to do but you curl up into a ball next to him. Your smile feels almost sticky with fondness, like you have to peel your lips apart to talk. "I really missed you. I'm glad you missed me enough to call me."
"I'm glad you missed me enough to come. I really am gonna come and get you, next time." 
You sniff. "Sure, s'long as you don't smoke first." 
He grins. "Deal. No high driving." 
"Thank you."
He kisses your knuckles again though with more purpose this time and then drops your hand to his chest, face to the ceiling. 
You look up too. 
"I'm trying to think of what we're gonna eat." 
"What do you have?" 
He chuckles and it's a burst of sound. "Who knows. Fucking… condiments?" 
"Condiments," you repeat, throwing your free hand to your forehead with a dramatic, dreamy sigh. You drop the act quickly, which only furthers his smile. 
"Fuck it. We'll get pizza or something." 
"We could watch A Special from the Spectrum," you suggest. 
Eddie sits up and let's go of your hand, but only so he can lean over you, hands braced either side of your waist. "Now why would you wanna watch that? You don't like Dio." 
"I don't not like Dio. Just don't see why you'd leave Sabbath to-" 
Eddie slaps his hand over your mouth. "Sacrilege." 
"I didn't even say anything," you protest, muffled by his fingers. 
"I could feel it coming." 
You kiss his palm and he gets a warm look about him, his eyelashes pinched in the corners as he squints with a smile. He moves his hand to your cheek, the damp stripe of your kiss sliding over hot skin. 
You're expecting a messy, slow kiss. It's a surprise when he starts, tiny short kisses like seeds over your features, your cheeks and your chin and your bottom lip. They flower, tingling warmth under your skin as he pulls back. 
"You're seriously something. You look…" he dots another kiss close to the corner of your eye. "Really pretty." 
"Eddie," you murmur. 
He pulls back and you grin at each other. 
"Wait until you see me in my pajamas," you joke. 
He gets impossibly brighter. "I can't wait. Seriously." 
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i-cant-sing · 11 months
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Whispers in your ear like a devil on your shoulder: you should make the Miguel O'Hara scenarios. Think of the hot dad energy he would emanate :))))))
Jokes aside, it is truly up to you what to write and I would always read it, but I am begging on my hands and knees for you to tell us the platonic yandere Miguel O'Hara scenarios you have thought of.
Nooo stooopppp girll- *puts on Miguel's theme music in the background* ahh shit here we go.
Platonic Yandere Miguel O'Hara as a dad:
Okay, so im just gonna word vomit here and yall make sense of it, but like the first thing that comes to mind when I think about yandere dad Miguel is that him kidnapping daughter reader from a universe where he doesn't exist, so he's technically not breaking canon or whatever and really, it doesnt even matter if you're his bio kid or not, like u could be a literal random civilian but if he is drawn to u, then he is. And while some of yall say "oh come on, Miguel cant be like that. He doesn't make careless/thoughtless decisions like that" I'm sorry, but is this not the same person who had the nerve to step in as his dead self from an AU and sleep with his parallel universe's wife and father someone else's kid??? Granted, they did end up dying but really, the only difference between that decision and this decision to kidnap u is to make sure that u don't end up dyingggg.
Moving on, he kidnaps u, makes up some bs about your life being in danger and blah blah blah, you HAVE to stay by his side, okay??? And at first, reader is like "umm okay?" because who tf wouldnt agree with SPIDERMAN??? (especially one who looks like Miguel? he is already giving dad vibes)
And the thing with Miguel is that he super protective (because PTSD) and he's possessive too, so the only person you're allowed to hang out with is Mayday (she is the cutest, i would die to have a kid like her ngl) because he doesnt see her as a threat (someone who could take u away from him). ABSOLUTELY NO CONTACT with Miles (because he hates that kid, pain in his ass/bane of his existence) and pretty much all other spiderpersons as well because all of them are sarcastic and he does not need them rubbing off on u. The only other person he would trust u with is Peter B, probably when Miguel needs a babysitter (because u learned to mess with his tech-typy-locks and traps, so u need an actual person to keep eyes on u. curse the universe for u being smart like ur papa), and the biggest reason he does trust peter with u is because since peter is a father himself, he would definitely know that while miguel's methods are wrong, in his own way, he is protecting u, and peter b knows that he would do absolutely anything to keep his daughter safe too. Also- since peter has mayday, if he were to actually take u away from Miguel, then Miguel would 10000% kidnap mayday and use her against peter too until he inevitably has to return u to him.
Now Miguel is emotionally crippled due to his trauma, so he's not great at expressing his feelings, at least not when you're awake. When you're asleep, maybe his eyes turn a little softer, maybe he cups your cheek, some guilt and sadness swirling in his eyes when he sees your tear stained cheek (because u missed ur family. or maybe u got told off by Miguel in front of everyone), presses a soft kiss to your forehead and mumbles something in spanish ("you will understand in due time, mi hija.") Definitely has cameras in your room, so he looks at you through the screen and sighs when u flop on the bed and stuff your head in the pillow and start crying, heart slightly heavy with guilt.
Except from interacting with others and leaving the spider society/his apartment (idk where he lives), every need of yours is pretty much taken care of IF you follow his rules. If you behave, u get everything. If u yell at him, try to break out of his place etc, privileges are revoked and BAM, you are now confined to your room with no access to entertainment or any of your hobbies he allowed u to have. Those novels u liked to read? Too bad, they get thrown in the fireplace. Gaming console? Broken in his hands. Liked to cook/bake? No access to kitchen because u are now locked in your room.
Miguel has one important rule- you MUST obey him, under all circumstances, no questions asked. If he tells you to go to your room, honey go before his eyes turn sharp and he has to manhandle you. If he tells you to eat dinner with him, you need to eat food even if you are full. And if he's forbidden you from going to the locked room in his place that's full of info on you and your old fam, then its best for everyone for u to obey.
Now, while Miguel does have trouble expressing emotions (i mean, the most affection he's shown is head pats and if u are really really sad, then yes, smooches on the forehead.) but he has no trouble expressing anger and rage. If u mess up real bad, in the sense where u disobey him and end up hurting yourself (no matter to what degree), GIRL HE IS SCREAMING HIS HEAD OFF AT YOU (like the scene from the movie where he's yelling at miles). I mean, he's so mad, he legit picks you up and hauls you to your room, where he's yelling at u even more, using the terms "child" "kid" and patronising tone because you may think you're a grown up (u might even be) but he will ALWAYS view u as a kid- THE KID he lost, the child he promised to protect and somehow get redemption, or at the very least, fill the empty hole in his heart.
And since nobody thought to inform me that my man Miguel is a literal VAMPIRE and that his fangs are not just for show to attract all kinds of viewrs, we gonna talk about that as well. Does he use them on reader when she finds out that Miguel actually fucking murdered her real fam (maybe not directly kill them, because he is a hero after all. Maybe in the sense that he knew they were gonna die, you would too unless he took u away, he just didnt bother calculating the repercussions if he did indeed save your family.) and reader is now hyperventilating and trying to claw her way out of his arms but muscled arms only pull u tighter against his chest and he just bites ur neck to let the venom paralyse you long enough for him to not only offer an explanation for his actions, but also put a tracker in you and chain u to your bed.
Does Miguel's heart absolutely shatter at your body wracking sobs and distressed state as you realise you have lost your family? Yes. Does he apologise? Never. Does he like seeing you in pain? NO. Will he cause you even more pain? ...yes, if circumstances change.
Hurting you is the last the thing he's do, but its still something he would do. He wont enjoy it, but if u messed up real bad (escaped and endangered yourself) then Miguel, with a very heavy heart will snap your ankles and limit your ability to walk for months (if not for life). This is one of his harshest punishments, and punishments are immeadiately followed with comfort, so Miguel does put your fractured bones in a cast and wipes the tears from his eyes, shushing you gently as he softly explains why he did what he did, how you dont need to worry about anything because since you took your punishment so well, Miguel will help you (he will carry you around everywhere), and maybe if you're in too much pain, he may give you some drugs(or even his venom) to put you to sleep right away.
He has lost too much, too many times. His wounds are deep and still fresh, he is not taking any chances... especially not with you.
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okay thats all i have for now(its a lie, i just need to pee) but feel free to send in ur asks/thoughts/scenarios.
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fxrmuladaydreams · 7 months
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hellloo! I'm new to your blog and am in love with your work!! Could I request a smutty Lando x reader with prompts 86 and 144? Like it sounds so Lando coded to me, something cute but hot? Or if you only take 1 prompt per request, I'm happy with just 86. Thanks so much for doing this <3
send me thoughts/blurb requests (sfw & nsfw) for lando weekend
warnings: !!CONTAINS SMUT, MINORS DNI!!, oral (f receiving), face sitting
Lando had been in his gaming chair for a good portion of the day. After being away for a race weekend you thought he’d be eager to spend some time with you. You thought he’d throw his suitcase to the side and he’d have his hands all over you as soon as he walked through the door.
He actually fell asleep almost immediately after coming home, his exhaustion from the weekend catching up to him. It was completely understandable for him to need rest. What was annoying was him waking up the next day and practically ignoring you.
He was testing out a new game, trying to see if it was something they could use for a new Quadrant video.
You’ve tried to pull him away multiple times now. At first it was “C’mon baby, you should rest.” Then it turned into “Let me help you relax.” Nothing seemed to be working.
It didn’t seem your tactic went unnoticed though, as you settled yourself into his lap, trailing kisses up and down his throat.
“Just let me finish this level and I swear I’ll go down on you until you cum at least three times.” He says, his eyes still locked on the screen in front of him. He smirks when he feels you freeze. “That’s what you wanted, isn’t it? Needy girl.”
You feel your face flush as you bury your nose in Lando’s neck, softly biting at his skin.
It takes him a few minutes to finish his game before the tosses his controller to the side and scoops you up, carrying you to his bed. He takes off you clothes, kissing your skin as it’s revealed.
Once he’s rid you of your clothing, he lays with you still fully clothed. He lets you rock your hips against his, the denim of his jeans brushing against you deliciously.
“I want you to sit on my face.” He says as he kisses down your neck.
You make a face, shaking your head. “What? No Lando, I’ll suffocate you or something.”
“That’d be a perfect way to go out, suffocating between your legs.” He smirks.
“Lando…”
“Think of how fun it’ll be. I give you a couple of mind-blowing orgasms, and you let me have my favorite treat.” He gives you a small pout, attempting to break your resolve. “I haven’t gotten to have you for a week, I think I might die if I don’t get to taste you right this minute.”
He senses your hesitation but doesn’t fail to notice the way you grind yourself against him as he talks.
He lays further back so that he’s laying down flat. He softly pushes you up until you’re straddling his chest. “Don’t be shy now, sit on my face.”
You slowly move so that you’re hovering over him, a leg on either side of his head.
“What if I hurt you?” You look down at him between your legs.
“You won’t, I promise.” You don’t look convinced. “If you get uncomfortable at all, just say the word and we’ll stop.”
You nod, and take a deep breath before slowly lowering yourself down onto his face. It feels different, a little odd at first, but as soon as his tongue gets to work all your worries slip from your mind.
Lando wraps his arms around your thighs, keeping you locked against him as you feel yourself ride his face. A hand drops down to tangle itself in his curls, while the other rests against the wall in front of you, keeping you from falling forward.
Lando has gone down on you a lot over the course of your relationship, once even claiming “you were his favorite meal of the day”. But nothing could’ve prepared you for this.
He’s devouring you like a man starved. This new angle causes his nose to bump against your clit repeatedly as his tongue moves in and out of you.
“Lando, I’m gonna cum.” You whine, rocking yourself against him at a steady pace.
His grip on your thighs becomes tighter, as if you’d be sadistic enough to pull off of him.
When you do cum, he takes everything you give him, slurping and licking away all of you that he can. He only lets you lift yourself off of him slightly, just enough to get a good look at him.
His hair is a mess, sticking out in all different directions. The bottom half of his face is slick with remnants of your release. He’s got a proud, lopsided grin on his face.
“Wasn’t that fun?”
“Yeah, yeah it was.” You smile down at him.
He pulls you back down just as you try to get up. “I promised three, didn’t I?” He asks, his voice slightly muffled.
His tongue is back to work before you can even process his question, ready to pull at least two more orgasms out of you.
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mementoboni · 5 months
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The bond of DIR EN GREY - WOWOW Interview Special (2023)
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"There are many things that only the five of us have been through together, and that is the connection between us." — Die
Notes before reading:
This is the last five minutes of the interview. ★BGM:カムイ
The five members were interviewed separately.
Repost and share are welcome.🙌 I translated it all by my ears, so please feel free to correct me if you spot any mistake or any confusing parts.☺️
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►The bond of DIR EN GREY (DIR EN GREYの絆)
【Kaoru】 Of course sometimes we talk about stupid things, that's nothing special. We must always maintain equal relationships so that all can communicate with each other. But everyone has that personality, so it'll be a little bit… it's gonna be hard (laugh). Well, we all had different periods. Even so, we're still five people, spending time together in each other's lives. I still think we have to be aware of each other and move forward. Well, all I can say is that it's a pleasure to be in a band with them. *(一緒にやってくれてよかったなと思って)
【Shinya】 A balance of not being too deep and not being too shallow relationships with the members would be great, wouldn't it? Maybe during the periods when we were together for a long time, it was a little bit awkward, like a decade or so ago. Now it's just right.
【Toshiya】 I think it is necessary to consciously maintain a certain distance.  Considering this, it should be the most natural feeling now. Although we have been together all along, we have not had unnecessary conversations.  Of course, human beings communicate with each other through conversations, but at the same time, they get unnecessary information. Personally, if my work and private life are mixed together, I gradually feel like I'm misunderstanding something, and I don't like that. As for the connection between us, when (everyone said)  "Okay, let's go!"  (before the live show), there’s a very strong cohesion.  I feel that way.
【Die】 I am often asked, "Do the members have a good relationship?" "After all this time, you've become like family members, right?" It’s *troublesome to answer. *(めんどくさい / mendokusai) The time we spend together may be longer than that of family members, so do we have a good relationship? Or a bad relationship? It has nothing to do with that. We're beyond that. There are many things that only the five of us have been through together, and that is the connection between us. We've been through all kinds of things in the band, happy things, going overseas for the first time, getting frustrated.  We've been through a lot together. We all hit the wall together, rushed forward together, and then hit the wall again. Precisely because the five of us have experienced many things together, this kind of relationship can only be understood by the five of us.  It has nothing to do with whether we have a good relationship with each other, nor are we family or friends. In DIR EN GREY, there are some things about our relationship that only the five of us can understand.
【Kyo】 I guess I like these guys. *(人間が好きなんじゃないですかね) There's something to honor in everyone, and I often think that they're amazing. Maybe even if we didn't form a band, but just meeting and getting to know each other on ordinary occasions, we'd still be friends.  At least I'd do that. It's just that we're connected through music now, even though we don't talk a lot... Yeah. I guess it's because they all deserve respect.
【Narration】 (cv: Morikawa Toshiyuki) Although always a *solitary existence, DIR EN GREY has been going on for a quarter of a century.  The trajectory of the past 25 years has never stopped and continues to move on to a new path. The five people connected by the bond of music will bring us deeper pain and hope of being alive. *(孤高 / ここう / kokō)
(END)
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in the past week or so ive seen a lot of people posting about how there's this oversexualization of trans girls on the site, and I gotta agree, there are way too many people (including other trans women!) who act like we're all dtf 24/7 or always super kinky and horny. I've been tired of that stereotype for ages and i am saying this as a rather sexual trans girl myself...
...but I think people are overcorrecting a bit now, and are starting to veer into "trans women shouldnt be talked about sexually / need to be shielded from it" territory. and, to me, that's really dangerous, because outside of some queer spaces - and even within them- the sexuality of trans girls is heavily scrutinized, as is attraction to us. as much as I dislike certain aspects of the memes and jokes that kickstarted the stereotypes, I'm kinda grateful for them as well. girldick jokes helped with my bottom dysphoria, voice kink shit helped me like my voice, and the whole "tgirl tummy tuesday" thing gave me a lot of confidence in my body where I hated it before. I think this open appreciation of trans sexiness has done a lot for both me and others on tumblr.
again, obviously its got its problems - people end up assuming every trans girl is horny, or only spread positivity if its related to sex with us, and of course the people who do have dysphoria from the things that are being sexualized are left out (like those the "girls without dicks are like angels without wings" memes, ugh, feels icky every time). and on the note of comparing tgirls to angels, we also started getting treated like we're ethereal fertility goddesses and that t4t sex was some inherently sacred ritual. spoiler alert, trans girls are normal-ass people and t4t sex can be holy for the participants but its generally a pretty normal thing to do as well
coming back to the "don't sexualize trans girls" posts now, I think they were initially going in the right direction, but at this point I'm starting to raise an eyebrow at more than a few of them. I'm not gonna whip out the "youre a sex hating puritan if you post about it" accusation because that is obviously wrong but again, I think people are definitely overcorrecting and starting to turn this into a (false) dichotomy when it's not. its a complex topic and each individual trans woman will feel differently about it.
(I feel like the internet just erases any nuance in favor of a two-sided, highly polarized flamewar with unrealistic views on both sides. actually i wouldn't even say this is a super-nuanced discussion because its really not that hard to say "fetishization is bad, but so is suppression of sexuality". will this post just end up being a void scream and people will continue drawing lines between one side and the other? probably. but I am a stubborn bitch and I have hope that we can be reasonable.)
anyways I'll close this off by saying that I wrote this between around 1:30 and 2 AM on terrible sleep the night before, that I hope what I said is coherent enough, and that I will keep being a trans girl who is openly sexual, gets horny over other trans women, and is proud to be transsexy as fuck. I will keep being critical of jokes and trends and memes that stereotype us, even from our own community. I will keep being angry at how poorly us trans folks are treated with regards to our sex lives, bodies, and relationships between the two. I will keep loving and lusting over trans women without fetishizing them. And I will keep doing all of these til the day I die.
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zuko-always-lies · 17 days
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Every Single Time Azula Insults or Criticizes Zuko
"The Avatar State":
Zuko:[Angrily.] What are you doing here?
Azula: [Holds up a shell in her hand.] In my country, we exchange a pleasant hello before asking questions. [Rises and walks toward Zuko and Iroh.] Have you become uncivilized so soon, Zuzu?
2.
Azula: You know, Father blames Uncle for the loss of the North Pole. And he considers you a miserable failure for not finding the Avatar! [Cuts to Zuko, who is panting heavily.] Why would he want you back home, except to lock you up [Cuts back to Azula.] where you can no longer embarrass him?
"Zuko Alone":
1.
Young Azula: You waste all your time playing with knives. You're not even good!
2.
Young Azula: [Sits back down, and looks at Zuko out of the corner of her eye and whispers.] You'll never catch up …
"The Chase":
Azula: [Coolly.] You mean you haven't guessed? You don't see the family resemblance? Here's a hint. [Covers her eye and deepens her voice, imitating Zuko.] I must find the Avatar to restore my honor! [Aang remains silent; back in her normal voice.] It's okay, you can laugh. It's funny.
"The Crossroads of Destiny":
Azula: You're so dramatic. What? Are you going to challenge me to an Agni Kai?
"The Beach"
Zuko:[Cut to closer view of Zuko and Mai. Angrily.] Doing nothing is a waste of time. [Rises from his seat next to Mai.] We're being sent away on a forced vacation. [Walks over and grips the railing of the boat.] I feel like a child. Azula:[Frontal view.] Lighten up. So Dad wants to meet with his advisors alone, without anyone else around. Don't take it personally.
2.
Zuko:[Frontal view from behind the girls. Losing it now; furiously.] I'm angry at myself!Slamming down with his clenched fists he causes the camp fire to turn into a pillar of fire, the girls recoil from the flames. Cut to close-up view from above of Zuko. Cut to a wide-view of the entire campsite as the flame dies down. Zuko turns away. Azula: Why? Zuko[Close-up.] Because I'm confused. Because I'm not sure I know the difference between right and wrong anymore. Azula: You're pathetic.
"The Avatar and the Firelord"
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Azula: It's never too early for a sitting with the court painter, Zuko. Make sure he gets your good side.
2.
Zuko: But how did he die? Azula: [Turning toward Zuko.] Didn't you pay any attention in school, Zuko? He died peacefully, in his sleep. [Cut to a shot of the full room, as Azula walks away.] He was ancient.
"Nightmares and Daydreams"
Azula: Hello, Zuzu. If you've come for a royal hair-combing, I'm afraid you'll have to wait. Zuko: So I guess there's a big war meeting coming up, huh? And apparently I'm not welcome there. Azula: What do you mean? Of course you're welcome there! Zuko: Oh, yeah?! I guess that's why no one bothered to tell me about it! Azula: Oh, Zuko. Don't be so dramatic. I'm certain Dad wants you there. You probably just weren't invited because it's so obvious you're supposed to be there. Zuko: Well, were you invited? Azula: Of course! I'm the princess. Zuko: And I'm the prince! Azula: Exactly, so stop acting like a paranoid child! Just go to the meeting.
"Sozin's Comet Part III":
Zuko: Sorry, but you're not gonna become Fire Lord today. [Jumps off Appa.] I am. Azula: [Laughs.] You're hilarious.
The most consistent things she criticizes him for are being too "dramatic" and immature.
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taggedmemes · 4 months
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SENTENCE MEME BALDUR'S GATE 3 / PART TWO
we were running for our lives.
you led them straight to us.
ah, backstabbing. feels just like home.
this woman saved your pathetic life.
anything to save yourself, you coward.
arrogant prick had it out for me from day one.
coming back to this hellhole was a mistake.
i'd rather face another round of goblins than stay in this pit.
whatever your business, i'd see to it quickly.
you're brave to walk around without hiding your heritage.
we've known enough grief this tenday.
saw you fighting those slimy bastards.
it ain't much, but it might make a difference.
you'll need every bit of strength, trust me.
there isn't a bit of color in those cheeks.
even on a good day, half the camp acts like a bunch of screaming brats.
i'm tempted to smack them all on the backside.
you aren't gonna shoot me — your hands are shaking.
you're better than this.
those words could be your last.
i can't do it, i'm not like you.
i don't need you to be like me.
could just be good luck, but sooner or later it's bound to run out.
lives are at stake and the cowards only care about their bloody rituals.
those dirt-kissers would let us die.
i'll go where i please.
rare and intriguing on a day already packed with intrigue.
there's no overstating my disinterest.
i was concentrating on not dying.
you've proven your authority, now prove your mercy.
let's just clear the air about that now.
it's just an old wound that hurts me from time to time.
it's just something i have to live with.
what is youth if not a time to be forgiven for one's transgressions.
putting a child on display like that was monstrous.
she wasn't innocent, but that doesn't mean she was guilty.
our hospitality have its limits and they were crossed long ago.
you seem like a good soul.
you deserve a chance to save yourself.
you can't cure what you don't understand.
doubt we'll be safe here for long.
he's back with his tail between his legs.
you're the first bit of good faith we've had.
his confidence is an asset.
i thought we had something special.
i'll spend my evenings lounging here while you do all the hard work.
be wary of false promises.
more riddles from my resident jester.
i speak only what requires telling.
finally, some good fortune.
this could be our last night together.
we could find somewhere discreet right now.
brambles on bare skin aren't as fun in practice.
i can't afford to tire you out.
will this little adventure of ours be over?
will you miss me?
you've been to hells and back.
i'm not easily impressed by people, but you're stronger than i gave you credit for.
i am pretty impressive.
i was leagues away.
i just need to get some air, clear my head.
the moonlight shines warmly on us.
do you think me so sheltered?
something's special about us.
i'll not gamble our lives on people who are as good as dead.
if something happens to these people, it's on us.
i suggest you do as she says.
the last time a subordinate questioned my judgement, i ate tongue stew that very night.
you ought to reconsider keeping her around, before she causes real trouble.
if you've finished scowling at me, what comes next?
you ever scare me like that again, and i'll feed you to a gnoll.
i don't make a habit of threatening children.
i'd thought one like you might understand.
when a threat makes itself known, you remove it.
you showed great mettle.
you will do more than speak.
this tale ends but one way.
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gliyerabaa · 1 month
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Could you do number 3 of the angry prompt?
Prompt 3: “Well, I’m sorry I fell in love with you, okay? But it happened and I can’t do shit about it.” “You… What?” 
gonna really lean into the unrequited gelphie on this one. also i KNOW i already answered a prompt and set it during for good, but i'm gonna do it again because its such a juicy juicy concept....
also im zooted rn so like. sorry if it sucks?
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"You said it yourself, I'm wicked!" Elphaba snaps, and Glinda feels her heartbeat quicken at the sharpness in her voice. She doesn't have a response yet, she's too busy trying to figure out how she can save this.
Elphaba continues on, undeterred by the glint of anxiety behind Glinda's eyes. "Why would you even want to clear my name? You hate me!"
Glinda's blood boils at Elphaba's notion, which couldn't be more untrue.
"Imagine the scandal!" Elphaba cackles, "Glinda the Good trying to clear the name of her sworn--"
"I love you!" Glinda blurts, wanting to get the rejection over with, like ripping of the adhesive of a bandage,
"--enemy..." Elphaba trails off, and her expression morphs through a series of different phases of murky unreadability.
Oh stars... She'd really stepped in it now.... Glinda goes on, hoping to try and fix this, "I love you, and I'm sorry, and I..."
Elphaba's hand against her heart stops her. "No. I'm sorry." She exhales and turns her head, her eyes obscured in the shadow of her hat. "If I'd only known, I'd..."
"I don't think I could have made it any more obvious." Glinda blinks, fighting off tears that cloud her vision, "I should have gone with you when I had the chance, then maybe you would finally have realized..."
"Easy now, my sweet," Elphaba gently wipes away her tears, "Now is not the time for regrets. For either of us."
Outside, the distant roar of the rioters grows louder.
"Am I ever going to see you again?"
"I doubt it." Elphaba frowns, "They're here to kill me."
Glinda's eyes wander to the floor, eyes darting from one cobblestone to the next. She doesn't know what to do, or what to say until Elphaba takes her hand.
"May I kiss you?" Elphaba asks, and Glinda looks up, taken aback. Elphaba's eyes are full of a wonder so magnificent, "I wasted my whole life, oblivious, and if I die now... I want our kiss to be my final memory, my parting gift from this Earth."
"Don't say that." Glinda takes a half-step back, "Elphie, please don't tell me you're accepting defeat that easily!"
"It's my only option." Elphaba says, and Glinda knows it's a bold-faced lie. Elphaba closes the gap between them, takes Glinda's soft hand in hers again, running her thumb over the back of it, "Please, Glinda. I love you."
Glinda's heart skips a beat. "We can't make up for ten years worth of pining in a matter of seconds, you know."
"But we can try..." Elphaba says, and whisks Glinda into her embrace, kissing her soundly.
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anime-addict-362 · 1 year
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Tied Up
CW: NSFW, Top Female Reader x Bottom Hanta Sero, Sero is tied up with his own tape, unrealistic but who cares, he comes really fast
× × × × × ×
Sero sat on his knees, in front of Y/N. He couldn't tell if he wanted to die then snd there or die after Y/N stopped looking at him.
"Stop staring at me," He glared at her and she laughed, just sitting on her bed in her pajamas all comfortable like.
"You wanted me to tie you up with your tape but you don't want me looking at you," Y/N asked.
He looked very pretty from where she sat. She would have to get some ropes to tie him up next time. Maybe red. Sero looked good in red.
"Exactly," Sero nodded. But he just gave a huff with a smile when Y/N moved close to kiss his neck.
"You look so good," Y/N grinned, mumbling against his neck. "C'mon, lets get you on the bed. Get you more comfortable."
Sero very awkwardly stood up, glaring at Y/N when she laughed. But eventually, he was laid back on the bed, legs spread so Y/N could sit in between them.
Okay, now it was setting in. He took a deep breath as Y/N kissed down his stomach, then snapped the strap of his briefs.
"Ow," He chuckled, then yelped when Y/N bit his hip. "BITCH!?"
Y/N cackled, moving up to kiss him. "Whoops."
"So rude," Sero smiled, kissing her back.
Y/N hummed, moving to kiss his jaw. "How far you wanna take this?"
Sero lifted his head to give Y/N more room. "I don't know... Just start slow? I don't want to have a panic attack all tied up."
She nodded. "Okay baby. Want me to take these off," She once again, snapped the band of the briefs.
"If it'll get you to stop hurting me," Sero chuckled, kissing her one last time before she moved down to take of the last piece of clothing.
He hated how quick he was getting to coming. The feeling of his tape pulling his arms tight across his back, Y/N's hands and lips exploring him.
Then he burst out in giggles when Y/N's cold hands tickled his hips.
"Y- Y/N- STAHP IT," He cackled, trying to resist kicking her.
Y/N laughed, pulling her hands away. "I couldn't help it!"
He rolled his eyes but then he watched Y/N reach to his side to get the lube. Okay. Y/N has given him many hand jobs over the time they were together. This was no different.
Except he was tied up and already on the brink of coming because of it.
"Gently," He whispered out.
Y/N nodded. "Gently."
He watched Y/N adjust between his legs, then pour some lube on her hand. Don't come, please don't come.
Like he asked, she grabbed him gently. He winced at the cold then glared at Y/N. "Was that on purpose?"
"Gotta keep you on your toes somehow babe," Y/N winked at him. "Even if it means making your dick cold."
"Asshole," He chuckled but then huffed at Y/N moved her hand up his length, slowly.
"Shit," He whispered, eyes closing.
"Good," Y/N asked and Sero nodded quickly.
"Yeah," He gulped, breathing. "Kiss me? Please?"
She leaned forward, kissing him. She was gentle again, kissing him slowly, letting him choose the pace.
"I love you," He breathed out, brain foggy.
"I love you too, Hanta," Y/N kissed his neck, thumb swiping over the head of his cock.
"Oh," Sero moaned, feeling his stomach tighten. "I'm- I'm gonna- I'm sorry-"
"Come for me baby," Y/N mumbled, hand keeping the same pace.
Sero moaned out, breathing speeding up. He knew his come was probably all over Y/N's shirt. He would have to clean that for her later.
He let his head fall back, hands gripping the tape that held his arms together. "Thank- thank you," He whimpered out, hips twitching away from her hand.
She let go, kissing him. "Your welcome, my love. Such a good boy, yeah? You did so good."
Sero felt tears prick his eyes. "I am?"
"Hell yeah," Y/N nodded, kissing him. "My good boy."
"Thank you," He repeated, gulping.
Y/N smiled softly. "Let's go clean you up."
"But," Sero took a deep breath. "You didn't- Lemme make you come."
Y/N shook her head, brushing hair out of Sero's face. "You already did so good. And I don't want you getting overwhelmed. Trust me, okay? It's okay."
He nodded. He trusted her. She knows what she's talking about.
"Lay on your stomach baby," She moved off of him so he could move.
She untied him carefully but swiftly. Thank god she managed not to tape any of his hair. That was be a free waxing that he didn't ask for.
"Take a shower with me," She spoke after she was done, kissing his neck.
"Yeah," He nodded, standibg up anf following her.
They'll have to do this again.
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punsmaster69 · 4 months
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5/FEB/20XX
"HERE YOU ARE, FLOWERY."
chocolate chips were mixed into the batter per his request, and it's decorated neatly with whipped cream and some fruit.
papyrus delicately set the plate of pancakes in front of flowey with a flourish of his hand and a bow.
"BEAUTIFULLY ARRANGED, PREPARED, AND PRESENTED BY YOURS TRULY!"
my brother never expects a thank you from him, but i notice flowey open his mouth for a second before changing his mind.
apparently motivated by "the prospect of an extra-sugary breakfast" according to toriel, flowey decided to stay the night rather than going home yesterday.
he's surprisingly quiet.
was complaining about a neck pain from sleeping funny and the only comment flowey had was
"You're just old."
"yeah."
after eating, he's gonna go hang out with papyrus. they're already discussing puzzles.
..well. 𝘱𝘢𝘱𝘺𝘳𝘶𝘴 is discussing, flowey is listening. (probably.)
i think frisk's coming over to bug me, judging by the poorly typed texts about some difficult level in a game.
——
they flopped over defeatedly.
"Saansss hellppp meee."
"you're giving up, huh?"
"Wh-"
that snapped something in them. fire returned to their eyes, bolting upright and re-grabbing the controller.
"No way!"
"that's the spirit. get back in there and die a hundred more times."
shushing motion.
"hey, i'll have hope. i believe in you."
putting my hand on their shoulder.
"you'll probably only die around eighty times."
sticking their tongue out at me and shrugging my hand off their shoulder, frisk focused once again.
——
so.
the hard part? they got past it, but...
are now immediately stuck on a different part.
papyrus came clamoring back into the house with flowey in his arms, grabbed something from his room, and was gone in a flash.
giving frisk a quick pat on the head, i rose from the couch and stepped into the backyard to see what the other two were doing.
"YOU COULDN'T JUST WALK?"
"uses magic."
"....FAIR POINT."
"what're you up to?"
"Updating this board game to have more traps and puzzles."
"and you're outside because...?"
"FLOWERY WANTED TO BE IN THE SUN!"
"gotta photosynthesize? i get it."
"I am NOT photosynthesizing!"
"hey, i'm not judging."
"I'm not!"
"like i said, no judgement."
"Ironically."
a gentle breeze blew through. i stopped to take in the nice weather.
"it 𝗱𝗼𝗲𝘀 feel pretty good."
"i'm bringing frisk out."
stepping back into the doorway of the house. i watched the tv screen and waited until they died again to speak.
"y'know."
a shout of surprise from frisk before they whipped around to face me.
"on days like these..."
"kids like you should definitely be outside enjoying the sun."
"c'mon."
frisk looked between the tv screen, me, and the window. they resigned with a sigh and turned the game off.
"I'll beat it some other time."
one last time, i stepped into the backyard. running, frisk appeared from around the side of the house a moment later.
——
wanting to do something more physically intensive than sit around and make puzzles for a board game, frisk invited undyne and monster kid over to play kickball.
they've only popped one ball thus far, so they're doing well.
i think papyrus'll join them before long.
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a stray kick sent a ball flying at my skull, so papyrus now has me in a
"BOX OF BROTHERLY PROTECTION!"
of bones under the shade of a tree.
flowey would be in the box too, it's just his pot and their altered board game with me. the flower himself is roaming around the yard doing who-knows-what. stretching his roots, i suppose.
——
"You gotta go home at SOME point, punks. Can't stay here forever."
monster kid and frisk both pouted.
"Papyrus wouldn't mind!!"
"Yeah! Plus the sun's not even fully set yet."
"she's right, kiddos. you really should be getting home."
flowey grumbled impatiently from papyrus' arm. i picked up his pot and offered it towards him.
"you wanna hop in there instead of coiling my brother's arm like a snake?"
"Whenever Frisk quits whining and we can go home I will."
"I'm not whining!"
"That's a hundred percent whining!"
"It's reasoning."
"It's whining."
"Shut up."
flowey used his vines to raise papyrus' arm and make him lift the middle finger.
"!?"
papyrus covered his hand and shoved his arm back down immediately.
"FLOWEY!"
"DO NOT FORCE SUCH RUDE GESTURES FROM ME!!!"
flowey's expression flickered with a look of shock for a second. he let out something like a scoff.
"FRISK, I'M SO SORRY!!"
"It's okay. I know it was that meanie head's doing."
"ok. definitely time for you to go home."
i offered my hand to frisk, and paps put flowey back in the pot.
"i know a shortcut."
undyne pat monster kid on the head.
"Come on, I'll walk you."
——
"Oh! You are home. I do not remember hearing the door-"
i waved.
"I see."
"Greetings, Sans."
with a soft smile.
" 'sup."
"Thank you for bringing them back. I hope they were not much trouble."
i glanced at flowey, who seemed to be thinking about something.
"they're good kids. shouldn't worry about 'em so much."
"I know... still, I am glad to hear that they have been behaving."
"Ah!"
"Do not let me hold you from getting home yourself."
i glanced again to where flowey was, but he and frisk went into their room.
gently, i lifted her hand to my face to replicate kissing the top of it. (with my lack of lips and all.)
" 'night, tori."
before disappearing, and flopping onto my bed.
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enhashoutout · 3 months
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Plot Holes in High and Low We Need to Discuss
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@tiredlittlewriter always gassing me up 🤭🫶🏼 @cheshirecatuniverse @mrskenpachizaraki @books-n-guns
Thank you so much everyone tagged for staying up and talking about the movies with me last night😂❤
Trigger warnings before you start reading, this ramble posts contains spoilers for the movies, cuss words, mentions of character d3aths, mention of SA that happens to a character, and other violence and cr!me associated with the H&L franchise. Please don't read if you do not want to see any of these.
Anywaysssas as you can tell by the title of this post and this screenshot, we are talking about plot holes in the High and Low franchise that we need to talk about because they BUG THE SHIT OUT OF ME.
I would like to start by saying that I do love this franchise, it is my everything. It's not like I have anything bad to say about it, I love it as it is, but some of the stuff within the franchise definitely could've been more thought out. It could've been worse! So I am thankful it wasn't bad but there are some things I wish the writing team did a little differently.
Also, I do attribute a lot of the plot holes to 1) the creators not being entirely sure whether or not they would get a green light on more movies, 2) trying to make sure the movies made money (it's a business unfortunately and not just art), and 3) High and Low is a multi-media franchise so some stuff is probably explained in the mangas, TV shows, games, etc. I will contradict myself and discuss this more in detail as we keep going.
These are in no particular order, just what comes to mind first
S.W.O.R.D Era
1)Noboru and Miho's story
I have beef with whoever on the H&L writing team thought that condensing the 2 seasons of Story of S.W.O.R.D into Road to High & Low was a good idea. "It's both seasons condensed into one movie" THAT'S A FUCKIN LIE. So much of what is in the shows is cut out from the movie.
Tell me why I learned here on Tumblr that Noboru actually spent a while in a coma in the hospital after getting body slammed by a Kuryu car? And then Cobra and Yamato had to do the "IF YOU DIE I'M GONNA BE SO MAD AT YOU" speech you always see in Asian dramas to get Noboru to wake up?!
And tell me why I learned from a fanfic on Wattpad that Miho isn't dead?! She literally comes to visit Noboru while he's in the hospital. Road to High & Low frames the situation to make it look like Noboru goes to beat up Miho's SA perpetrators after he finds he d3ad in her apartment. Then when I brought this up a couple weeks ago the Discord besties told me she broke up with him through a letter😭 A LETTER GIRL?! HE WENT THROUGH ALL THAT FOR YOU! IF I WAS YOU I WOULD'VE KEPT HIM. NOBORU. GIVE ME YOUR HAND IN MARRIAGE PLEASE GOOD SIR💍 (I'm completely joking I don't think anyone is entitled to another person's feelings, love, affection, etc. I'm just delusional because I love Noboru and Keita Machida)
Then I learned last night from Discord that Miho needs serious therapy because she was working for Doubt and it was addressed in season 2 of the show. Like HUUUH?! WHAT DO YOU MEAN?!
I do think the storyline between them as a couple and their stories individually definitely could've been explored and explained more. It was probably explained better in the show than RTH&L but I don't have access to the show so idk... which brings me to my first contradiction!
LDH AND EXILE TRIBE PLEASE MAKE YOUR MEDIA MORE ACCESIBLE GOSH. IF YOU DON'T WANT TO SUB IT THAT'S FINE AT LEAST MAKE IT EASIER TO FIND SO THAT WE CAN GET FAN SUBS OR I CAN JUST WATCH THE RAW FOOTAGE AND PRETEND I KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING. There's so many films like the 2 DTC films, the Mighty Warriors film, the shows, even the manga that a lot of us don't have access to😭 Yes this franchise is multi-media but at least make the media accessible😭
2) Mighty Warriors working with Doubt
In the first and second High & Low movie MW and Doubt work together... AND THAT LITERALLY DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE. Last I checked Mighty Warriors don't fuck with tr@ffickers in general so I don't even know why this happened.
And last I checked, MW rescued Sarah from Doubt so why would they work with Doubt when one of their members was literally a Doubt victim? That just doesn't make sense to me. Like yes the MW tend to just take up whatever whack-ass jobs for money they can get considering they fought with literal children (Oya and Rude Boys. I'm like 99.9% sure the Rude Boys members were all 16-19 and that is the age of children. Smoky might've been 20-22 which is not exactly a child but he's still young compared to the MW who were all mercenaries and in the military before they were musical bandits alluding to the fact they are older) but you would think that people who claim to have a club that is a utopia with music that is supposed to impact people positively and save their lives just like music saved the MW members' lives, they would have more moral and standards than to work with Doubt.... but I digress.
3) The alliance with a foreign mafia
This one I can kind of understand but also can't.
I understand that MW take up whatever job they can to make money. It's said directly multiple times in the movies by a MW member that there is no use doing a job for someone without getting paid so they do a lot of stuff just for the money. I also understand Doubt take whatever job pays them but also benefits their tr@fficking business. Hence why they took this job because not only were they getting paid by Lee who runs the Korean mafia but they could kidnap women in the S.W.O.R.D district which worked in their favor.
What I can't understand though is how this alliance even came to be. Hear me out. MW and Doubt will probably do whatever to get money, but where did the trust come from? Like how did they trust that a foreign mafia of all people would uphold their deal and pay them? Was it because Kohaku was made the front-man/face of the plan? Like did they believe that it would be fine because Kohaku was the one "leading" even though it seemed like Lee was pulling a lot of the strings? DOES KOHAKU EVEN HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO BE PAYING EVERYONE?! I SWEAR EVERY TIME WE SEE HIM THAT MAN IS JUST LAYING ON A SOFA IN A JUNKYARD! WDYM DOUBT AND MIGHTY WARRIORS BELIEVED THIS MAN WAS THE ONE WHO WAS GONNA GIVE THEM MONEY?!
4) Who the fuck are Bulge? And what happened to Kuryu?
In End of Sky, we learn that Bulge are interested in the fight between Doubt, Prison Gang, and White Rascals and would sponsor Prison Gang. That's why the scene where we see Jesse fighting with another prisoner, after he kicks him down the guards tell Jesse that Bulge wants to see him to. This is why Jesse and Prison Gang are released early. When Jesse goes back to Funk Jungle he's asking if Mighty want to join but Ice says that they are gonna focus on promoting Funk Jungle, but like he's a liar they show up at the fight anyways lol.
A the end of Final Mission, the movie closes off with a dramatic shot of Mighty Warriors and a typed out message stating "Hello, everyone. This is Bulge. The takeover plan has begun." We never get an explanation of who they are, what they do, etc. I did learn from Ryu's Wiki Fandom page however that "It is presumed that he and Bulge orchestrated the fall of Kuryu Group. In the music video of the MIghty Warriors' new song "Warriors Anthem", it is revealed that he took over Kuryu as the leader after the events of Final Mission, and having Mighty Warriors occupy the remaining 8 heads of Kuryu."
So who exactly are Bulge? How are they powerful enough to be able to take down all of the original Kuryu members who have been seen as indestructible the whole franchise? Why did they allow Ryu to be the new leader?
After Final Mission, the next media pieces that were released were the DTC show and DTC movie, and then we moved into The Worst era with High&Low: The Worst Episode 0 along with the two Worst movies that followed.
I had made the assumption that around the start of the Worst era the creators probably wanted to integrate more of Jr.Exile into the franchise because of their 1) popularity and 2) new stories. The popularity of Exile members like Hokuto and Kazuma would probably bring in more viewership which does good on the numbers and money side because as I said above, unfortunately this is also a business not just art. The H&L creators probably also needed new stories to follow because they can't keep adding to S.W.O.R.D
Vis said that they think the Mighty Warriors were probably dropped because we haven't seen anything from them since the third movie, but Taiga also brought up how the new Mighty Warriors music video was also dropped right around the time the most recent movie Worst X was released. This probably means they are trying to figure out the story within S.W.O.R.D behind the scenes and it's just taking a while to do the world building. Tired also brought up a good point that considering most of the actors in H&L are also Exile members, they have to also continue their jobs as artists so tours, making music, schedules, etc. are probably also clashing with filming and working on High and Low.
Hopefully that is the case and we see more because I have too many questions and no answers.
5) Wtf happened to Rude Boys, Nameless City, and Nikaido?
If you read my fics, you know that when I write about Nameless City after Smoky's passing, I write about how the Rude Boys, Lala, and Eri go and visit Smoky's grave all the time. About a month ago the besties in the Discord made it known to me that Smoky's gravesite and like 3/4 of Nameless City was completely blown up. I was like 😧when I read those messages because it wasn't even like a head-canon thing I genuinely thought that only a small section of Nameless City was blown up so we were fine BUT APPARENTLY WE AREN'T FINE. So what does this mean for the Nameless City residents?
Did they get government housing to stay in while they got tested for the disease from the pollution? Did the residents get released back into Nameless City after the whole casino project exposure? If they were released back into Nameless City, are they all just cramming into that little 1/4 of Nameless City that wasn't blown up?
What happened to Rude Boys afterwards? Are they all back in Nameless City? Or did they move to a different area? Where would they go though? Little Asia? Did Eri get adopted afterwards? Are they finding ways to make money like how they mined the crystal to get money to rebuild Nameless City? Do they even want to return to Nameless City considering the pollution from the toxic waste was causing the disease that killed their leader?
Wtf happened to Nikaido/Cain? Is he finally happy now that he purged his past? Was purging his past and killing his brother worth it? If Kuryu was overthrown and taken over by Mighty Warriors, what does that mean for Nikaido? Is he working for them? Was purging his past worth anything if he didn't even gain anything from it because MW took over Kuryu? Again, so many questions and no answers😭
6) Give us a more clear timeline
This isn't a plot hole, just something I wish the creators would do is give us a clearer timeline. We're never given any clear timeline of how much time has past between each movie or even how much time is between the S.W.O.R.D and Worst era. I'm always trying to calculate the timeline or everyone's ages based off of the only two characters we get ages for and Noboru's school timeline.
The only two characters in the whole franchise that we get ages for are Chiharu and Seki. At the start of the series we know that Chiharu is 20 because when he joins Sannoh, in the scene at the bar Cobra offers him a drink but takes it back and says "wait but aren't you underaged?" to which Chiharu replies that he is 20 (which is the legal adult age in Japan) and Tettsu makes fun of him for still being in high school as an adult (in good fun of course not in a mean way).
When we first are introduced to Oya, the narrator tells us that Seki is the oldest part-timer student there at age 25.
Noboru, Yamato, and Cobra were high schoolers while Mugen was still active. This is deduced by the scene where Yamato drops Noboru off in front of the school for the day he takes his exam, then when he opens up his college acceptance letter with them. I'm assuming Yamato and Cobra dropped out to be apart of Mugen and take care of their parents' shops. Then, we see when Noboru starts college but doesn't make it super far into his bachelors degree after getting sent to jail. We don't get to see how long he was in jail for, just that he was released early because Kuryu paid to get him out early.
I always use these ages and Noboru's vague school timeline to try and figure out the character's ages and shit but they are just estimates because we never get clear timelines from the creators. Like why couldn't they at least tell us how much time passed between the end of Final Mission and the start of The Worst?!😭anyways.... onto the next thing
The Worst Era (mainly X)
Like I said in the screenshot, The Worst isn't my favorite movie out of the franchise but I think it was the best executed in terms of plot out of all the movies. The plot was clear, very concise, and relatively had no plot holes. (I haven't seen The Worst Episode 0 so if there is something that is missing plot wise please let me know)
It was fun to see the cross with Housen and the themes and messages we got from not only the plot but also from each character were all really good too. It was a solid movie, no complaints.
The Worst X however... I have questions. It's not to say it wasn't good, I still liked it and obviously it was good considering I watched it with no context and it got me into the whole H&L universe, but I feel like it fell a bit short. There was more the writers could've done for not only plot development but character development.
1)How did that 3 school alliance actually even start?
From the movies, it seems like Kohei Amagai is well known as "the annoying son of the Amagai group". Like EVERYONE knows him and knows he throws around money to get people to work for him. And like yeah, we see when he is able to take control of the school with the beige uniforms because Senomon, Kamasaka, and Ebara are quite literally beating the shit out of them, but how did Senomon get Kamasaka and Ebara to cooperate?
I refuse to believe that Amagai was able to get Kamasaka who fight with weapons like brass knuckles and metal rods and Ebara who are all literal gym bros to join his stupid ass plan with just money. As dumb as I think boys are I don't think Reiji, Ghandi, Shoji, Raijin, or Fujin are actually dumb enough to join an alliance for money. Even if this alliance did win and take over Oya, what would they have done with each other afterwards? Those dudes have so much pride we all know that there is NO WAY they would all continue working under Amagai. Amagai is also stupid as hell if he thought he could be at the top without someone from Kamasaka or Ebara trying to overthrow him if he had taken down Oya like Kohei.... be fuckin for real bitch.
I need more of an explanation to this like someone from the H&L writing room please sit down with me and answer my questions so I can publish it in an interview for all of us we need answers.
2) What the fuck is the story behind Todoroki and the dudes from Ebara?
The whole time Fujin and Raijin are running around screaming about how they're gonna crush Todoroki and I literally sit there like
👁️👄👁️Why? No matter how many times I watch the movies because we never get an explanation! Idk was this in the show? Someone please tell me.
And like the scene after Todoroki beats up Fujin and Raijin, Shoji goes "you're different now" and I'm always like "Different? DIFFERENT HOW?! DON'T BE SHY SHARE WITH THE CLASS PLEASE"
Todoroki responds with something along the lines of "now I have friends to protect" which is so wholesome I love that, but what is the detailed history of him and the guys from Ebara? We never get that explained to us. I remember reading somewhere that Todoroki trained hard to beat his bullies and because he got so strong that's why he always tried to fight for the leader position because he believed he could beat Murayama. I also saw a clip on Youtube where when Murayama is fighting with Todoroki, he sees his old self in Todoroki who is being reckless which probably adds to Todoroki's character development.
Did the guys from Ebara bully Todoroki? Were they old friends who fell apart? Did they just have a bad run in when Todoroki was being a little shit and fought but now hold a grudge because they are teenagers with a lot of pride and anger issues and it's not that deep? Idk🤷‍♀️The thing that bugs me is the fact that their feud was added a solid amount to the plot and why Ebara joined then dropped the alliance so I don't know why we didn't get at least a vague explanation of who these characters are to each other.
3) Questions and what I want to see next movie
This obviously isn't plot holes but just some questions I have and what I want to see in the next installments of the franchise.
Why were these high schoolers doing THE FUCKIN MOST to see who was stronger?! The first time I watched I was so confused because why was this movie serious but also so unserious?! They did not need to be doing all that.
Why didn't Amagai get in any trouble for anything?! Is it because he has money?! Like how did this man commit literal crime and everyone was like okei. He literally kidnapped Tsukasa and tortured him for like half a day and 1 night...
How did Tsukasa not die?! The was literally beat over the head with a metal pipe, kidnapped, tied up, tortured, and then dropped from a balcony. I digress, he probably has plot armor as Sun calls it because how did he not die or at least end up in the hospital for a long time.
I want to see the movies circle back to the S.W.O.R.D plotline so it would be really cool if Amagai's little plan was part of a larger plan to break down the peace in S.W.O.R.D. It wouldn't be the first time the adults used kids to push their agenda. Kuryu originally wanted to use Murayama to tear down the peace in S.W.O.R.D because he used to look up to the man who was the head of Iemura but because he chose not to do it, they went after Noboru.
Maybe MW are thriving as the new heads of Kuryu so someone on the outside is trying to take over and Amagai's family is apart of that. Or maybe his family is trying to gain favor from Mighty and are working for them. Idk but it would be cool if we circle back to S.W.O.R.D and see the new Oya characters have to integrate into the S.W.O.R.D world also.
I also want to see a segment of how Rude Boys and Oya adjust to their new leaders.
I want to see what happened to the rest of S.W.O.R.D after the third movie. We saw Oya in The Worst era but what happened to everyone else? Which I also know these are probably kind of far fetched considering the Exile Tribe member who played Rocky is retired from the entertainment industry now... but a girl can dream I guess.
You made it to the end! Thank you so much for taking time out of your day to read this big rant. This wasn't proof read and is kind of everywhere but thank you for reading it anyways! ❤️
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Ep 17: Rem Saverem
Day 17 of @trigun98watchparty : Vash and Knives get their origin story.
The viewer has learned over the last sixteen episodes that Vash is not an ordinary human being, or a human being at all. He's prone to weeping at moments of crisis with the name "Rem" on his lips. Now we get some answers.
Rem isn't particularly well characterized in the anime, for obvious reasons; she hadn't been fully written yet. Apparently she was inspired by Ellen Ripley, which is pretty badass.
There's a lot to unpack in this ep and it's not particularly silly, except for Knives' very relatable "I am so done with my mother and brother's shit" face. So, musings.
--The theme of going to the mats to save a child runs through all of Trigun and TriMax. Both Rem and WW will selflessly put themselves in harm's way to protect the young and innocent. Their methods are different.
...their outcomes are the same.
--Rem sees the two Independents as babies in need of care instead of aberrant monsters. To her, they are angels from God, and imo at least part of that is because she likely envisioned building a home and maybe having children with her (lover? husband?) Alex in their new world before he died. Vash and Knives are gifts to her to fill that void of emptiness.
--Brought this up last post, but it's worth remembering that for all their hyperintelligence and accelerated growth, Vash and Knives don't have the human experience of a toddler in their terrible twos/threes. Kids take things as black or white. They do not do nuance; they don't have any length of experience. Everything that's happening right now is the first and only time it's ever happened. How can you consider situations or instances relative to one another, if you have no experience? Or if your experience comes from what you saw on the computer?
--Knives is very aware of his own intelligence and his non-human superiority, but his emotional quotient is zero, and even as he gains experience, he sees no reason to bother with it. Either all humans are good, or all humans are bad. They take and don't give. Even if they do give, they don't fit with the paradigm and are disregarded. He's a child, with no nuance at all.
--Rem's philosophy is that no one has the intrinsic right to deprive another being of its life. The fallacy Knives can't resolve is that everyone has to eat (except him, in Tristamp... hmmm.) He's not wrong; the spider has to eat something. But I think there's a distinction between killing something because you feel like it or think they deserve it, and killing something because you're hungry.
--Back to the black and white - Knives can't resolve that either, because it's nuance, and when it comes to people... he's perfectly fine with messing with the crew's heads to show Vash and Rem that they're wrong. Steve is a dick and an abuser and possibly a rapist (it's unclear whether he actually did rape Mary or whether Knives made her think that he did) but does he deserve to die for it?
--When it comes down to it... I don't think anyone has a black and white answer. That's as far as I'm going with that.
--Vash clearly struggles with this same question but falls on the side of not killing anyone, no matter how threatened he or his loved ones are. Does he have the right to kill anyone? Probably not. Is he justified if there's no other way out? Guess we'll find out.
On a personal note... I appreciate Rem a lot more now than I did 20 years ago, before kids. It ain't easy. She had two of them at once and she did her damn best. Give the woman her mom jeans and a lifetime of appreciation for getting in there and putting her money where her mouth was. That corn ain't gonna shuck itself.
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