#taylor can you help

[bluecardigan-13]

I’m probably writing to no one. But I’d like to pretend I’m writing to you.

Life is really hard right now. I’m super homesick after only 4 months of living in Oklahoma after moving here from HI. You’d think I would be alright since I moved here with my kids and husband by choice.

Mainly to first get my life back in order due to a chaotic life and living with 2 narcissistic parents. And the sudden loss of my dad in 2021. But I’m not ok. And I don’t know what to do with all that.

We also moved cause the cost of living in Hawaii is crazy expensive compared to OK. And so living on permanent disability makes things difficult especially after having a successful career in insurance for over 15 yrs. And also being a successful business woman with zero college degrees, brings my self esteem to nothing.

My anxiety and self confidence has always been all over the place. I have always been this control freak over everything in my life. Like I should be this or that, and have these things accomplished by a certain age etc.

But that all got taken away from me when I got sick in 2017. I got fired from my job that while it was stressful, I was good at it. I was an insurance underwriter for Lloyds of London insuring all kinds of “weird” things. But again - I was good at it!

I brought in $50M in revenue alone. And helped that department meet their gross premium goal for the first time since they started the department.

And before that I worked for Fireman’s Fund as a senior business analyst. And knew everything about everything for every single state of the union where insurance came! I worked in a call center where people would call in (who worked for the company) and would ask for me specifically cause they knew I knew what I was talking about.

Heck my boss would even turn to me to ask about business processes! I trained in our new hires. But the company wasn’t doing well and the parent company decided that it couldn’t take anymore losses due to bad decisions made by underwriting.

And so the parent company based out of Germany absorbed it. And even though I was the best they had, I got fired. Which sucked! I was angry. But I sucked it up and made sure the people who were going to be left behind would be well trained. The sad part is I was up for a management job. Well that job went to the most incompetent person on the team. LOL

Isn’t that life? But now I’m here sick with several mental illnesses and incurable medical illnesses. And making the best of it.

I make YouTube videos and hope I can help people like me. Hoping that when they see me they will see themselves and say hey there’s someone like me, and she’s doing ok. And maybe I can too.

Mental health and chronic illness/pain aren’t talked about enough. It needs to be don’t you think? It needs more of a platform, and that we need to also show people it’s ok to say I’m not ok.

Also I use art therapy to cope. I crochet and I also pour epoxy resin on my channel. I know it’s not that big of a deal but hey you have to start somewhere right?

I’m just wondering who’s listening tho? Really listening.

#mental health #taylor swift helps my mental health #taylor can you help #chronic illness #chronic pain #mental illness advocate #who notices me #who reads this #cats #chronic fatigue #bipolar #rheumatoid arthritis #psoriatic arthritis #art therapy #epoxy resin #yarn crafts #self care is listening to taylor swift #taylorlurking #taylornoticeme #dear diary #its ok to not be ok #i don’t know what i’m doing #im so tired

[queenofinys]

cause it was never mine AUGUST The Eras Tour — Los Angeles, California

#taylor swift #tswiftedit #tswiftgif #candy swift #folklore #august #eras tour #the eras tour #tscreators #networkthirteen #taylorswiftedit #taswiftnet #maya edits #taylor #okay ACTUAL last edit i promise i'm done now #i just cannot help myself okay? #i'm bored can you tell #1k

[caroldanversenthusiast]

if i speak….

#OH MY GOD #IM SO GAY #i’m lgbt please help me #taylors version #taylor swift #speak now taylor’s version #speak now #taylor nation #gaylor #lol #lgbt #wlw #sapphic #women #lgbtq #i can see you #queer #the eras tour #taylor swift the eras tour

[blueskittlesart]

deeply refreshing to see someone critical of Swift who also like, genuinely likes her. Like i'm neutral to positive on her, but the online discourse has been absolutely rancid. flipping between "Taylor Swift has never done anything wrong ever and she's a fucking genius" and "Taylor Swift is the worst lyricist of all time and also a bad person" is exhausting, so thank you for like. nuance or something lmao

not to make it serious for a sec but i genuinely think that being able to like things that are bad is really important. like I think that it's an important skill to be able to look at something and see what you personally enjoy about it and then take a step back and acknowledge that objectively it's flawed. and to also be able to acknowledge that liking something isn't necessarily an identity or a moral stance. and i think that fandom space in general could really benefit from more people taking the time to learn how to do that. it's okay to like things that are bad

#people ask me sometimes why ill occasionally talk about something i like and then go 'but it's bad' and the answer is usually because it is #i love teen wolf. i love genshin impact. i love detective conan. and i fucking LOVE taylor swift. that doesnt mean theyre good #it just means i like them. and recognizing their flaws actually helps me better identify what i like about them! #it's like. in my mind bad > good is the x axis and i like it > i dont like it is the y axis yk. they're not mutually exclusive #tldr it's not that serious. we can all relax a little #irt taylor swift i do also think she has done some real harm to her fans in enabling them to deflect all criticism of her as misogyny #and i don't think it's fully the fault of these people who are parroting that response bc so much of her marketing has deliberately #reinforced this idea that to be a swiftie is to be a part of a sisterhood and that any attack on taylor is an attack on all of those women #who are in that in-group. when that's obviously not the case. but she's marketed herself as. for lack of a better term. 'girl music' #to the point where it makes her fans feel as though any criticism of the music or the woman responsible for it is an attack on their #personal experience of womanhood/girlhood/sisterhood/etc. and that's how you get all of thess bad-faith accusations of misogyny #i don't necessarily think this was her deliberate goal with her marketing tho because like. on first glance such a strong sense of communit #among fans sounds like a great thing. the friendship bracelets i got at the eras tour movie are really genuinely special to me. #but it does present a problem when your fans are unable to separate how they feel about the community and experience your music has fostere #from how they feel about you as a person. especially when you are a billionaire who absolutely CANNOT be above criticism in this economy #anyway. tldr i love taylor's music and i don't think swiftie hivemind is as deliberately malicious as it may seem #but it's obviously necessary to be able to take a step back and look objectively at what you're participating in. #anyway stream ttpd or don't idc <3 #taylor swift

[lottieshauna]

how many nights do you dance with tears in your eyes? (happy birthday @jackietaylorsversion!)

#yellowjackets #yellowjacketsedit #yjedit #jackie taylor #shauna shipman #jackieshauna #shaunajackie #jackietayloredit #shaunashipmanedit #ella purnell #sophie nelisse #melanie lynskey #yellowjacketssource #yellowjacketscentral #yellowjacketsnetwork #96yellowjackets #tusermiles #tusercj #antlerqueer #usercleo #tvgifs #tvedit #**gifs #i love you virginia but also suffer virginia <3 #you can also thank alexis for helping me (chose the lyrics and said 'this looks good!' a lot) #do i like it? no! but when do i ever!

[avadaniels]

RED, WHITE & ROYAL BLUE (2023)〡SUCCESSION S03E04

#red white and royal blue #rwrb #succession #rwrbedit #successionedit #sarah shahi #taylor zakhar perez #nicholas galitzine #moviegifs #cinematv #userstream #usermandie #userlauren #* #A JOKE FOR ME AND ONLY ME!!! #i will admit. i screamed #ken also calls himself this in s1 but this one fits better i think #you know zahra and shaan watched the whole show together and he pointed out every britishism #i love how henry looks at alex like um. can you help me. #and alex is like nah bro you gotta listen to her fdsjsfhjdsfs

[dipplinduo]

Brain Chemistry = INFLUENCED Your Feelings = IN DANGER

When @kyokokusakabe is whispering ideas in your ear ft. @snobithesnorunt screaming "I LIKED THE WAR BETTER" in the background

#I AM CACKLING LIKE A MADMAN #SWORE UP AND DOWN I'D NEVER PULL THIS TRIGGER BUT I HAD A MOTIVATION BLOCK AND KYOKO JUST #PUT A GUN IN MY HAND #WAR IS OVER WE TEAMING UP NOW #ALSO #MY N KEY IS BROKEN AGAIN HELP LOOOOL IM FURIOUSLY TYPING #WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PITCHFORKS #I CAN SM ELL EM #AHAHAHHAHA #my fics #dipplinshipping #kieran pokemon #kieran x juliana pokemon #juliana x kieran pokemon #kieran x juliana #juliana x kieran #juliana pokemon #the friend group #we joined forces wHAT A TIMELINE #taylor swift didnt even release ttpd yet I am not even at my full power but #GOD THE FUN WTH THIS SUBPLOT IS SO BEYOND INCREDIBLE #you coulda had something sweet #YOU COULDA #BUT YOU VOTED DIFFERENTLY ON THE POLL #ITS ALL YOUR FAULTS

[ageofstarkey]

sebastian chacon (+friends) x selfies 📸

#can you believe he’s even real #i need him help #i’m down horrendous #i will do anything #ageofstarkey djats <3 #sebastian chacon #warren rojas #warren rhodes #warren rojas x reader #daisy jones and the 6 #daisy jones #taylor jenkins reid

[stinkypeanutbutter]

Have some Taylor !! I love her aoosois much she’s such a cutie patootie :33

#Yes she has a gap tooth #I thought it was cute :33 or wait is that a bad thing should I remove it is thst like offensive or #It’s probably not and I just have the urge to always make sure I never do anything remotely upwssting for people #Anyway #put your hand in mine you know that I want to be with you all the time you know that I won’t stop until I make you mine #Take me to your best friends house goin round this roundabout ooooohhh yeahhh take me to your best friends house I loved you then I loved #You now ohhhh yeaaa #I’m just vibing out still this sound slaps AF #maybe I should draw Jeff the killer #Why ? Idk he’s just silly #I lvooviodeee Taylor so much actually she’s so silly and sweet and amaze balls #I want to see her make a robot or like a drone that can potentially help them out #Working on more aiden in dresses things :33 #Tyden art coming soon I just really hate drawing Tyler’s hair I keep giving him a mullet kns #Can you tell I have a theme in my drawings ? #school bus graveyard #sbg #sbg (webtoon) #school bus graveyard webtoon #taylor hernandez #art

[bluecardigan-13]

50 likes!

#50 likes #tumblr milestone #taylor swift helps my mental health #taylor can you help #mental illness advocate #cats #who notices me #mental health #chronic illness #chronic pain #who reads this #chronic fatigue

[ink-wells-and-feathers]

gothcleats this swiftli that but you're missing the bigger picture. *pulls out my Riz Gukgak conspiracy board with all the red string from my crochet ben and hits it with my yard stick* they're a POLYCULE! ALL THREE OF THEM ARE IN LOVE!

#im unhinged tonight #don't send help i love it here #ink.says #ink says something stupid again #polycule rights guys #gothcleats #swiftli #taylor swift dndads #scary marlowe #lincoln li wilson #and they are happy #anyway ill be thinking about this for a while so if you wanna join me come message mw theyre always open #you can stay anonymous in my ask box too

[macksartblock]

Could you explain the Homestuck chart please?

Yes I can but it will be a long one so buckle in lol

So explaining the makeup of this chart for those who have never learned about the quadrants or maybe need a refresher.

First it’s important to note that A) the quadrants are from a violent alien society and are meant to reflect/balance that out B) the line between quadrants can often blur.

So if some things seem weird that’s probably why.

Red rom focus on positive emotions while black rom focuses on the negative. Along with that, concupiscent quadrants prioritize passion/attraction while conciliatory quadrants prioritize soothing/comforting.

Matespritship (♥️) is the closest to a typical human romantic relationship. This is the lovey dovey corner. The one that’s all about passion and dates and affection yada yada. It’s also the one I am least interested in bc it’s the most familiar.

Kismesitude (♠️) is the opposing romance to Matespritship. It focuses on feelings of hatred and attraction, but for it to be a true pitch relationship, there must also be respect. Think of it as an intense rivalry. A kismesis is someone who pushes your buttons. Someone who constantly challenges you forward. They are the person you trust to vent your aggression out towards.

It is incredibly important to know that neither member will ever want their partner to be grievously hurt or killed. They genuinely care for one another.

Moirailigance (♦️) is a frequently misinterpreted relationship. Many people see it as the BFF corner, but it is much deeper than that. Think more similar to a queer platonic relationship. Moirails are each others safeguard. They care deeply for each others physical, mental, and emotional well-being.

This is the person you go to when you’re having a horrible day. This is the person who will drop everything to take care of you when sick. This is the person who’d lay their life down for you if someone threatened you.

It’s also often moirails will show affection through physical means (ex: hugging, holding hands, cuddling, chaste kisses in some dynamics).

Auspisticism (♣️) is often the most neglected romance. Despite this it is incredibly important. This quadrant involves three members. Typically a feuding pair and a mediator - known as the auspistice. This third party is the person who provides advice when the couple are struggling in their dynamic.

They will deescalate feuds that may be going to far. They will step in to prevent serious injury. They will calm the pair down, provide them with new perspectives on whatever’s troubling them.

TLDR: hearts are for lovers — spades are for rivals that kiss — diamonds are for soulmates who aren’t quite lovers and they prefer it that way — clubs are mediators.

#I think the teens all being <> is just a fun way to look at their dumb marriage #but I personally enjoy Link & Taylor and Norm & Scary being primary duos #I hope this helps I’m notoriously known for going off about the quadrant system in my friend group so I tried to be fairly straightforward #can you tell who my favourite troll is (blaringly obvious edition) #all the lines are the chart are how I interpret the dynamics or previous ones (looking at Taylor’s brief one sided hatred for Scary) #but anyways 👍 #if I were ever to make another chart for a different Gen it would probably be the kiddads but just how I interpret the ships between them #also yeah it’s 12 am but yknow I’m already here

[nighttime-tummyache]

i have never cared about taylor swift, not her music, her life, or anything. but her fans defending her and the fact that her private jet emissions are the highest of any other celebrity is fucking disgusting. she's not on tour. she's not doing anything but wasting resources and polluting the planet. but you go in the notes of that post about her private jet emissions and all you see are her disillusioned fans making excuse after excuse defending her actions. go find another mediocre white woman to defend, preferably one thats not killing the planet.

#anti taylor swift #private jet #i am sick of stan culture #go outside #touch grass #jesus fucking christ #like i can understand liking her music but defending her private jet use is honestly incredibly fucked up and you should seek help

[taylors13midnights]

AND YOU SAW MY BONES OUT WITH SOMEBODY NEW WHO SEEMED LIKE HE WOULD‘VE BULLIED YOU IN SCHOOL

#HELP #the way I immediately thought it‘s about Joe and then Travis #but then she goes but you needed drugs more #which #like has to be mattie right #and I can imagine Travis bullying either of them in school #ttpd #taylor swift #Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus #also is this bi Joe/Mattie confirmation

[rootsinmydreamlandx]

does anyone else immediately think of violet x xaden when they hear I can see you?? ever since that song came out I can’t help but think of them when I hear it like passing each other in the halls of basgiath and having their little thoughts and now that I’ve read xaden’s bonus pov chapters I see it even more

#fourth wing #iron flame #violet x xaden #violet and xaden #speak now taylor’s version #I can see you #I can’t stop thinking about them help #I’m only 150 pages into iron flame lol

[dipplinduo]

If there's anything you could change about your writing setup what would it be?

Probably not at ALL what you're expecting me to answer with but I'd want better air circulation and more humidity in my current room LOL. I have dry eye syndrome and it gets bad sometimes. Literally my biggest obstacle to writing if not my regular life schedule, which is often obstacle #2.

I already do a bunch of things to protect my eyes and I'd honestly advise anyone to do the same if they notice any issues with their own/these are just good things to do for your eyes in general, as needed:

- Sleep enough. No like really, try to get 8 - 8 1/2 hours as often as you can. Sleep is no joke.

- Adjust the night light on your screen so it filters out a good chunk of the blue light.

- Lower the brightness and use dark modes on literally everything. Get extensions for things that don't have them, especially if you're using them a lot (e.g. I use google docs for fic writing)

- Use a humidifier (in drier environments; this literally ensures that I don't wake up with reddened eyes)

- Use a warm compress on your eyes for 5 mins or so (emphasis on warm, not hot. Be verryyyyy careful not to burn yourself, the skin around your eyes is sensitive).

- Eye gellllllll & eyedrops omg. I'd be dead without them.

- Oh and since I decided to unsolicitedly run in this direction with the ask pls wear sunglasses and sunscreen!!! Even in the winter!!

All of the above is legit a godsent for me and it's been my default for everything since before fic writing because yes I do need all that maintenance for my sensitive lil blue orbs. And they still give me problems anyways. 🙄

The orb part was a joke btw

#i am particularly shot down today from dry eye syndrome so excuse the health lecture LMAO #it just SUCKS and I want y'all to protect your eyes!! #especially important to think about if youre in front of a screen a lot #i was fine until like a few years ago #but it may also be the climate of where i am atm influencing stuff too #I will move soon back near AGUA and HUMIDITY so hopefully that fixes things~ LMFAO #asks #fun questions #oh i should say otherwise #my “writing setup” is my tiny lil laptop on a laptop stand and a dream #WHICH BTW USE LAPTOP STANDS TO HELP W UR POSTURE & NECK PAIN TRUST ME BRO #laptop stands are elite and i use mine everywhere #but yeah #my n key broke again and i think thats funny #this 👌 close to typing up fics on my phone while lying down #i can do it (no really i can) #that was a taylor pun btw #okay im done with the rambling now #can you tell im procrastinating?