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Autism Culture

Neurodivergent_lou

#autism #actually autistic #autism culture #stim toys #collectibles #special interest #autism and noise #autism and clothing #autism and food #struggling to talk on the phone #feel free to share/reblog #Neurodivergent_lou (Facebook)

[moeblob]

I'm literally both at the exact same time and I don't know how I've survived this long.

#fe three houses #bernadetta von varley #felix hugo fraldarius #bro i havent drawn student felix in so long i had to use a flippin reference im gonna scream #also teehee my phone adjusted to the time zone change and my laptop didnt #so im like pretty rad its only 3am i can go to bed soon #and then realized oh its 5am ................ oops #anyway the 5am is probably a very good reason as to why this was an immense struggle to draw lmao i should sleep #but im gonna go talk to my mom instead bc i can sleep later its ok probably

[pettyprocrastination]

idk what it is about horror movies that take place in the 70′s and 80′s but i love it. Let me see a bitch with a mullet running for his life. ominous revving of a chainsaw in the background as oingo boingo plays. this is where i thrive. 

#tj talks #idk why i just enjoy things set in that time period for some reason #as i struggle to find a working link so i can watch the black phone #also if i wrote a random splurge drabble about a victim having a weird codependent sorta romantic relationship with a slasher would you read #i also have some frankie fluff on the stove atm so like. whatever works

[strawberrybound]

hanging out with my girlfriend in secret and having our first makeout session and her mom finding out abt us the next day and cutting our communication will forever be my roman empire

#struggling so bad rn #we only talk when she can borrow her friends phone #lesbian #sapphic #wlw #sapphic yearning #wlw yearning #lesbianism #lgbtq

[hollowsart]

@heartofhubris ✨🐙✨

Otto shows Octavius something and they both have a fun happy chat

just a little something for ya on the house as a treat! :D

[reference]

#my art #doc ock #doctor octopus #otto octavius #phone art #feel free to make up whatever you want about what they're looking at and talking about! #I saw your tag on my post and wanted to make something for ya for working hard on that wip fsdkjsf take it easy take your time!! #I hope he looks right!!! I struggled and redrew and adjusted his face so much sdkjsddsf #movie!Otto looks different every time I draw him sdskjhkjdsfk and I don't draw him much if at all sdkjhfsdk but I do weirdly enjoy-- #--drawing/coloring his actuator? does that make me weird? idk something about the way I've simplified it makes it kinda enjoyable

[redrobin-detective]

#I was suffering #i want a glass of wine #ive never like USED a corkscrew before #i was talking to my bf on the phone as he did not help and instead laughed at me #there was lots of cursing and screaming and struggling on my end #lots of laughing on his #20 minutes this went on #i had a new nurse tell me they looked up to me as a role model today #and i come home to this

[miilkybnn]

I know these have been requested already but I adore your 09 and cowboy Ghost/Roach/Soap art and would love to see more!! Also, do you have any cowboy/gunslinger headcanons for the three??

I, too, adore ’09 GhostRoachSoap AND cowboy/ranch life GhostRoachSoap so you absolutely WILL see more of them, I promise!!

As for ideas/hc for the cowboy au, it’s a lot more “ranch life” based than gunslingers so if you are into that, keep reading below the line!

If not, then you are more than welcome to skip over this :}

Disclaimer: Most of my ideas are a bit scattered so I apologize for the messy layout, I’ll try my best to keep it coherent. Also, this is not all of them I don’t want this to be overly long

Background:

The AU takes place in Roach’s family ranch where all three members have been discharged from duty.

In this AU, because I like happiness, there is no war over the horizon and is simply a group of people living their lives out on the rolling plains of either Texas or Tennessee— I’m leaning more towards Texas just because I know more about the agriculture of the Texas plains.

In this AU, the 141 & Co simply live their lives from either being retired/discharged/etc. While everyone is involved (except for Shepherd, eat shit and die Shepherd), they all do their own thing but primary attention is mainly on GhostRoachSoap

Roach (+ extended background):

Roach and his other 5 siblings have the ranch under their and their parent’s name. He and two of his siblings, the youngest and the second oldest, are more active in taking care of the ranch's needs now that their parents are well into their ages. The other three help ever so often with more minor things but they have their own families to tend to and his parents don't actually live in the ranch anymore (again, due to age) and live closer to the city.

Roach, however, is the main caretaker for the ranch. He spends the most time on the land and is often alone, that was until Ghost and Soap came

Headcanons;

His accent left when he joined the army. Came back tenfold after a week on the ranch.

Has a collection of cowboy hats and each one serves a purpose (although his favorite is his very worn-out Cattleman that he leaves by the front door to take on his way out)

Expert horse rider. I'm not saying you would see this man at the Rodeo, but he’s had his fair share of bucking broncos, and not ONCE has he been bucked off.

Though there are horses on the ranch, his horse is Estella— a Chestnut American Quarter Horse with three white socks (forelegs + right hind leg) and a star + stripe. She loves to chew on people’s clothes if they turn their backs on her.

Has slept in the barn before (multiple times) and regrets it every time (wouldn’t recommend it, very lumpy and you WILL wake up with straw in places you don’t want it to be)

LOVES cattle work, and hates paperwork 💀 (he lets Ghost, and his two other siblings take care of it) due to this, he is good at reading the animals and knowing when something is wrong!

Are good friends with the vet! (It’s his ex 💀) (They broke amicably though so it’s okay!!) (“So, like, when I kiss you??…. it’s gross” “OH thank God, I thought it was only me")

Gets SOOO distracted when Soap is picking the hay bales. Bff short circuits for a good minute before Ella gets miffed at him and throws her head back

Cows > sheep (will make an exception for baby lambs tho)

Soap:

Along with Ghost, realistically both would not actually retire in some rural Texas town but because I can, let's say they decided to retire to some rural Texas town.

Soap is the most recent member to the farm and took to it like a duck to water. (We'll ignore the times he forgot to lock the chicken coop). He was on active duty but after a close call that was too close to comfort, he decided that maybe it was time to retire. Price is the one that mentioned the ranch to him, although at the time he did not know it was a ranch.

All Price told him was “if you are looking for something a little different, take a look here" and looking he went.

Headcanons:

Not on the friendliest terms with the cattle dogs but boy do they LOVE him (they’ve tried to herd him multiple times and have succeeded) (he cusses both Ghost and Roach out for watching and letting it happen)

Loves the nitty gritty work. Hay bales? Check. Cleaning the stables? On it. Shearing the sheep? The Clippers are all warmed up already. If there’s a job that involves getting his hands dirty, he is the first in line

Sheep > cows

His horse is a Buckskin American Quarter Horse that he very proudly named Buck. This name came after Roach told him the color of his coat but was reinforced when Soap tried riding him and was almost bucked off. They became the best of pals after that, and Buck occasionally tries to nibble Soap’s mohawk for fun.

His favorite chore is feeding the animals! He loves watching them all flock to their food and munch away. He doesn't find it much of a chore as it fills him with such joy to see all the creatures he cares for flourish.

Gagged the first, second, and third time he saw a sheep give birth. Man has seen a soldier’s leg come clean off from a bomb and recovered in less than 5 minutes but BIRTH? Get the bucket ready.

Ghost:

Discharged after a mission had gone wrong, Ghost had no idea where to go. With no family to go back to and no friends to crash with, civilian life was looking very bleak until Price came to him with a plane ticket and an address to some rural town in Texas.

Ranch life was… different for Ghost. It wasn’t bad per say, and he can’t really find much to complain about, but it was just different. It is... steadier? softer? he's not too sure but at least it lets him sleep easier at night.

It took him and Roach a while to find a rhythm. It wasn’t easy and it was very awkward at first but eventually they were able to settle on something unique for them that worked out.

Headcanons:

Sheep > cows

He likes to roam around with the LGDs. He greatly respects their jobs and has grown a soft spot for them. He knows he’s not supposed to distract them, but he just can’t help himself and always gives them a good belly rub.

Became good friends with the farrier. Farrier does most of the talking but Ghost will join in here and there. He really likes learning about the Farrier's different methods and likes to watch him work on the horses. (Lowkey thinking about making Jackson the farrier bc why not)

One of my favorite personal hc's about Ghost is that he is shit at naming things so yeah, he named his horse, Horse. Roach almost took his horse privileges away because of it but anyway, his horse is not an AQH like Roach/Soap but is instead one of the two draft horses the ranch has! His horse is Blue Roan Clydesdale with a very splotchy coat that loves peppermints and loves napping her days away (she’s had three kids alright she deserves it)

Genuinely enjoys doing the ranch paperwork. Sure, he has to ask Roach here and there where some of the stuff is at but honestly? Could spend hours reading and organizing the books and such. He's very interested in the topics discussed.

Earliest riser. His favorite time of the day is just before the sun peaks over the horizon where everything is blue and foggy, where condensation sits on his skin, when the crickets are still chirping, and when the mourning doves are softly cooing. Roach wakes up soon after him.

#I HOPE YALL ENJOY MY HCs #theres more to the background and stuff but i had to cut sm </3 #gary roach sanderson #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #cod roach #cod ghost #cod soap #ghostroachsoap #cod #ranch au #bug boo and bubbles #ask me stuff #milky talks #apologies for the wall of texts but not really #you wanted my hc so now get ready to sit and listen to me talk for multiple hours #ghostroach #soapghost #ghostsoap #anon i actually finished this at 3 in the morning but was struggling with the layout on my phone #anon ask #thank u anon <3

[supernova-star]

so . object head personas am i right

#we talked about this in the tmi discord server and i could not get the idea out of my head #also drawing a sona with my actual irl body type and a cane was incredibly refreshing tbh #i struggle with body image stuff so being able to look at a character that’s me with my own body type and go ‘wow they look cool’ sparks joy #anyways tag ramble over time for actual tags #nebs.txt #neb’s art #persona #object head #flip phone #okay tag ramble not over i lied #i went for like a . 2000’s pastel mall goth vibe. bc that’s the kind of vibe i want to give off #did i hit it? idk lol but i had fun and that’s what matters :jermapose:

[perenlop]

okay but are you normal about people who “talk funny”. do you act respectful when an adult carries an elmo plush around and talks to him? do you insult people who need help going to the bathroom? do you laugh at people with crossed eyes? mock people who speak exclusively in echolalia? do you cringe at people who walk with a limp? do you antagonize people having panic attacks or episodes?

#some of you cant even resist making fun of people who struggle talking on the phone #echoed voice

[yourlocalseanameduser]

Seeing helluva boss/hazbin hotel and mitski together makes me want to rip someone's throat

#i hate it #i hate helluva boss #i hate most of vivziepop's creation in general #one artist makes great art about the way woc/pocs struggle throughout their lives trying to fit in a white society #the other is vivziepop #and the fact mitski is already bombarded people misinterpreting her music and erasing most of her songs that talks about race #especially your best american girl #if i ever see an edit with stolitz and your best american girl together i will destroy this phone #mitski desevres better #the only character i can stand in helluva boss is Octavia #i hope they don't ruin her #i also hope they don't include the seven archangels #i'd rather they show a walrus dog hybrid demon than the seven archangels because i know the writers will ruin them #anyways i love slandering helluva boss #idk if i should tag this #meh i will #helluva boss critical

[votaeto]

hey hey vota :D I’m just gonna toss this…

“Ace?!”

Ace lay on the bed, his legs spread and head tilted back as he moaned your name. You watched, suprised at the sight of your boyfriend. Your panties were wet with his arousal as he used them to his pleasure, fisting his cock with the small item.

A layer of thin sweat coated his face as he contorted and writhed at the feeling. He didn’t hear you the first time, resorting to pumping himself faster.

“F-fuck….! V-vot—!”

Ace groaned, his eyes screwing shut tightly to his bucking hips. By then you were already sitting on the bed, smirking as you carefully approached him closer.

Your smooth touch over his chest sent electric sparks through him, making him spring back awake. You quickly topped him; your legs pinned his arms to his sides and your hand grabbed his hair.

You leaned your small face to his freckled one, his eyes widening as you grinded yourself on his abs.

“There’s no need to be a panty stealer when you have me….” you whispered, ghosting your lips over his, “Do I need to show you how to be a good boy again?”

“Y-yes ma’am…” he grinned, knowing well what you’d ‘punish’ him to. Ace relaxed, letting you take control, temporarily. Of course unaware, you pecked his nose.

“Good boy, now should I help you with your cock first?”

HOLY FUCKKKKKKKCWHAT WHAT WHAT I JUST WAKE UP???!!!! I-

YOU ALREADY KNOW WHAT UR WRITINGS DOES TO ME STEPHIS!!! AND PUTTING ME IN THERE ?!!!?!?!!

#hello my whole week feels so good #my phone being broken suddenly doesn’t affect me anymore #can yall tell I love stephis #stephis you will have my revenge on this <3 #say anything to vota #vota struggles #ace talks

[desolatehands]

i need to share the commission i got of my inkling, i love my little guy. my little man

#i love my ocs #i need to talk about splatoon w more folk #bc im at that point i might cave and start writing fanfiction #just to make a completely fictional region that doesnt exist in canon #i need to create #i NEED to play around with the fact #that the technological advancements heavily rely on region #i want to fuck around with the concept of a very old fashioned group of inklings #sequestered away in rolling hills with rice paddies #them having rotary phones and wearing #traditional clothing from the 1800s and earlier #some feudal shit right there #and i need to talk about my own ocs separation from that life into a life full of #wonders and new technology #i need to write about his struggle to learn how to use a flip phone #and that people have cards for purchases instead of straight up currency he carries around in a fat coin purse #i also need to talk about the concept of noble families having their own like #techniques with weapons passed down through the generations #like something people from that area would only recognize #and people who are the history buffs of varying regions

[ark1os]

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#i felt so good after talking to my therapist about the issue w my dad #and i didnt even come to any new conclusions or anything i just told her whats been on my mind what im struggling with and why im so afraid #to confront him and she validated me #which honestly was so new to me? like everytime italked about it it felt like people didnt see the seriousness and why im struggling so muc #with it #like Why are you so afraid of your dad. Why do you have such a hard time. Just do it . Just deal with it. girl i would if it was so easy #but she didnt react like this at all & she didnt ask anything that implied she might be thinking this way too. im v blessed alhamdulillah #she suggested to tell him that i want to wear the hijab through the phone for my own safety (which isnt an option personally but i #really appreciated the thought behind it) #and she also told me that i shouldnt do it if i dont feel ready yet to face him and its like. the first time ever someone told me this lol #she said i shouldnt put more weight on my shoulders because the situation will be a lot worse if i m not prepared #i do feel ready now though ive been dealing with this for months im just so so so scared. im so scared iwant to cry all the time #anyway. ive been sleeping much worse than usually and im waking up completely covered in sweat which is #so disgusting. i was worried that im sick or smth (cancer lol) but realised it started w ramadan!!! which is when i made up my mind when #i will talk to him #may Allah help me may Allah protect me #im about to cry again aaa

[cowboyshit]

in case you guys don’t see me around much these next few weeks, I am most likely going to be putting myself on a sort of hiatus. I’m struggling to enjoy my time in the online wrestling community lately, and I think a large part of it just has to do with some general irritability I’m dealing with that’s making it harder to brush off things that I’m normally good at ignoring. well, that and my computer going so downhill that even making the smallest of gifsets is taking way too much time these days, which always bums me out a bit. I may only be away for a week or two, but I’m actually hoping to step away for a solid month. we’ll see. 💗

#ashleys talking again #not wrestling related #ideally I want to delete both tumblr and twitter from my phone completely #so that I’m not even tempted to look at things #but I don’t know if I need to go THAT drastic. #even posting this feels silly because I feel like I’m just going to take a few days away and then be good #but I don’t know. I’ve been struggling with this irritation for the last month/month and a half #and it’s getting worse and worse #particularly targeted toward the online wrestling community #which is then seriously taking away any enjoyment I might get out of this stuff #I don’t know #it’s all up in the air but! I wanted to give a heads up in case I do go through with it #and I am suddenly gone for a few weeks #didn’t want anyone to worry!

[chrisbangs]

hello... (and bye ig 👋)

#👋😭 hi... #i haven't come on in about a month and i didn't realize a month passed by like that... i've kinda stopped using any apps on my phone #i barely even talk to my friends anymore lol 😭 #i just saw my follower count this morning and realized i hit 13k and i was like 🥸 huh... #uhhhhhhh 😭 idk i wanted to say thank you i guess 🫂 #i'm done with stayblr and tumblr in general 😭 this much has been obvious for a while now... i tried to fit myself back in during 5star but #i think i realized i've outgrown the vibes here and in online spaces in general... i don't really enjoy it anymore 😭 which is weird cause #i've used tumblr since i was in middle school so 🫡 end of an era some would say... #i think it sucks because i don't have the same feelings about this place or skz or anything in my life right now... i tried to ignore it bu #it's so obvious now that the entirety of december passed without me really talking to a single person / without me using social media / #without me really doing much except for like homework and assignments lmao #i think genuinely i've stopped enjoying everything i used to like and i don't know why 😭 it hit me the other day bc i don't even enjoy #pc collecting anymore which is CRAZY considering how much time and money i've put into that hobby so 👋🥸 who knows what goes on #i haven't consumed any skz content since rockstar dropped 😭 and that also feels weird to me... idk... i would say maybe i'm going through a #depressive episode but i don't really feel how i do then... i think i'm just tired like i always am and that's just how i am now .. i think #i'm just not really interested in things anymore? weird but .. yeah idk😭 if i knew what was wrong i would Fix It sndjdndkd mostly i'm just #sad because i haven't been talking to friends... i keep ignoring everyone and not replying to any texts from anyone because ???? #i tell myself i will do it later but i know i won't ... idk i genuinely don't know why i'm struggling to talk to ppl anymore 😭 i've become #even more of a reclusive hermit than i already was 💀 and the worst part is i feel normal abt it #i don't feel /bad/ i just feel guilty that i'm not replying to ppl bc i don't want to hurt ppls feelings... on my end i feel Normal abt it #like i ??? is it weird that i'm so detached from everything that not even a month ago made me so happy..? that's weird right 😭 like idgi #i don't feel (as) depressed (as i usually do) but clearly ?? smth is wrong ?? like ik i'm not a clingy sentimental person but ? it kinda #makes me sad wondering if i really don't care abt ppl anymore ... but i think 😭 it's also the object permanence issues that come with adhd #not seeing or talking to the ppl i love . not doing my hobbies or seeing the groups i care abt . makes it easy to not care or forget what #they make me feel etc etc ... i get it... but idk 😭 if that's what this is . well wow it sucks ASS.. cause i feel guilty for not feeling #anything at all ... 😭 idk how to explain that HENSKDNISJS anywayyyy 💀 #i came on cause i wanted to say thank you for 13k followers 😭‼️ and that i probably will not be online anymore unless i really want to say #this was a really long winded way to say i feel bad but i'm done with stayblr fr 👋🥸 i tried so hard for the last 2 years to make it feel #like home again but it stopped ages ago so 🥹 that's ok.. i still cherish my memories here 🫂 anyway thanku and sjsjsksksks bye i guess 😭 #who knows maybe i'll enjoy it one day again and come back :') never know what the future holds 🫡

[caffeinatedopossum]

That sad realization that not only did the undiagnosed autism lead to me not realizing my "friends" were actually bullying me the whole time I knew them but I was also unintentionally doing something similar to neurotypical friends because I didn't understand how we thought differently

#i just want yall to know that when i first wrote undiagnosed my phone autocortected that to undigested so. yeah #you heard it hear folks. autism is undigestable. thats why we all got tummy problems #anyway this is why is struggling with communication and maintaining relationships is a symptom #although my relationships always seem fine to *me* because im oblivious as fuck #and this is why autism questionnaires need to be phrased differently #alsp yeah. thinking about that one time i went to a summer camp and i joked about a girl in mine and my friends dorm #who was sleep talking that night. and one of the counselors immediately shamed me for bullying #like we were all there and awake. everyone already knew and laughed so i assumrd it was funny #but then suddenly *I* was being mean...? i understand more now but i wish someone explained it to me more gently #why did everyone laugh it was mean? i thought they laughed because it was funny #still dont understand why people laugh if something is hurtful. i didnt want to insult the girl either #i considered us friends and i was just trying to include her in the conversation #it was still not ok though... #theres another time that comes to mind when i said matter of factly that my sister was a liar #in front of her boyfriend who then very aggressively silenced me #i didnt understand why you would lie if you cant accept being a liar #it wasnt meant as an insult it was meant as the truth #but maybe if it was insulting she should stop lying #idk it was really weird #maybe this is why i didnt realize people where insulting me #because to them they were picking on me #but to me they were either stating a fact or falsely accusing me #i get embarrassed too of course but only because its whats expected of me #that makes me feel scared and inferior and alone. and thats what embarrassment feels like for me #it feels like everyone is unforgivingly looking at me with a magnifying glass