#stop being intrusive

[inkskinned]

they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?

they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.

you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.

you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.

mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.

you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.

#writeblr #warm up #to be clear let me state again: i think you should id however you fucking want if it helps you seek peace #but there is a HUGE difference between being like '.... im undiagnosed but i think i might be X' #and a person who is like ''omg my intrusive thoughts made me buy a birkin!!!'' #babe mine made me throw up bc they disgusted me so much <3 #mine made me hurt myself evenly. even when i wanted to stop. i have had to put my hand on the stove MULTIPLE TIMES #and again i'd rather have 10000 people get help for something they don't need help for #than have 1 kid NOT get help #but there has GOTTTTT to be a middle ground here #bc at this point it isn't ''raising awareness'' #it's . fucking misinformation. and ''what this picture says about you!!!!!'' #& yes! im mostly talkin about ppl who are actually disgusted and offended by signs of mental illness #but use it to defend THEIR actions #like babe you hate when kids start yelling in the walmart? but you YOuRSELF can yell? #you are depressed so it's fine you were cruel to your spouse? #but if your spouse spends too much time in bed she's a lazy fuck? #your partner needs to do everything for you bc of your history in trauma? but when SHE has needs she's being clingy and gross? #HUGE difference here between whom i think most of my followers are btw. like #all it takes is fucking anyyyy empathy or kindness . like. #anyway it's hard to explain im hoping we all know the person im talking about lol

[suchawrathfullamb]

my toxic trait is that I get personally offended when I see Hannibal and Will wearing their wedding rings (hannibal's fake but whatever) like how dare you cheat on each other like this and flaunt it? shame on you waving your little ringed finger around.

#i may or may not also get offended whenever hugh dancy is looking like will in older interviews and has his wedding ring cause im like no #no you are not married in my head so stop being married in real life please sir thanks joking OBVIOUSLY BUT LIKE intrusive thoughts #hannigram #nbc hannibal #hannibal #will graham #murder husbands #hannibal lecter #hugh dancy #mads mikkelsen

[starrynightarchive]

you know what's so disappointing? the way people keep saying 'don't be afraid to portray mental illness and disability in media!! in your art and writing!!! normalise it and don't shun it!!!' and then the MOMENT you bring up a symptom that's too messy and uncomfortable to handle, they take a fuckin u-turn and go "UM no that's bad. like. you're a bad person if you do that. that's weird and it makes me uncomfortable so it's wrong."

here's the thing!!!!!!! it's not convenient!!!!! it's not simple!!!! i can't be honest and keep writing about how depression paints your whole world blue and all that shit!!!!!! because guess what!!!! depression and disabilities and borderline personality disorder and SO many other things are just. not neat and clean or easily consumable. they WILL make you uncomfortable and sad. they WILL make you feel bad. honesty is not easy. it's not meant to be.

and dehumanisation of sociopaths and psychopaths is genuinely distressing. not all of them!!! are!!!! bad people!!! it's a medical condition!!!! a mental illness!!! a person's illness doesn't make them bad. their actions and the decisions they take decide that and I am SO sick and tired of people watering down every complex human trait and toxic behaviour as good and bad and right and wrong. don't you see!!! some things are simply just. human. that's all. people fuck up. badly, sometimes. but that doesn't mean they are not people. I'm not saying you should forgive everyone and become a full time saint. you are entitled to your anger. i'm just asking you: don't take away a person's right to err and still be considered human. not all actions fall in the neat divisions of right and wrong. some things just are. grow some balls if you want to see true suffering in media. because it is Not easy or pretty. not even close. you will be conflicted and uncomfortable and troubled. make peace with that fact.

#PLEASE do not come at me with arguments regarding UHHHH BUT MURDERERS ABUSERS AND MOLESTERS ARE BAD PEOPLE #yes. yes they are. #i never said they weren't. read the post #i said actions define a person's morality #but they are not ALWAYS simply right and wrong #meaning right and wrong does exist but it doesn't have to be a thing all the time #grey area exists too #and so does good and bad #it's a complex thing #i've been thinking about my own intrusive thoughts and how i can maybe incorporate that in my writing #but i found myself backtracking and being like wait. what if people think i'm a bad person for this #then i got SO angry #I'M ALWAYS WALKING AROUND IN EGGSHELLS #like. how much is too much #how much violence can be romanticized and sexualized and not seen as it is???? #when will my work stop being poetic and raw and vulnerable and turn into something you consider wrong? #it's a ticking time bomb #and i hate that #vi talks #and in this case. talks a Lot

[dd-writes]

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#I'm tired #I'm tired of thinking #I'm tired from all the thoughts I have #my mind won't stop racing #and i fucking hate it #too many intrusive thoughts #and so fucked up #i can't even sleep #or cope #i hate being so fucking hypersexual and feral #ALL THE DAMN TIME #i need a rest #i need a break #i need some calm and peace #fuck you traums #fuck you life #fuck everything

[wizardnuke]

"are you a top or bottom" well first im gonna ask what definition that you're using for that cause there's the actual meaning of positioning and then there's the really intrusive implication that there's an inherent power dynamic in all gay sex related to who is giving and who is receiving. and then i'm not gonna answer either way cause thats not anyones business. what the fuck man

#this is apropos of literally nothing. sometimes i think about that whole thing and get so mad. #we both wear pants also . also skirts. what are you fucking talking about #AND yeah he's femme and i lean towards butch but if you make a comment about that im gonna rip your face off like an ape. #stop putting power dynamics in queer relationships its so weird i hate it so much oh my god. #this is not just pointed towards cishets. queer people are also so so so so so fucking strange . about queer dynamics. and lesbians if im #being so for real. people are so intrusive

[piqued-curiosity]

I had a feeling I couldn’t trust this “based on your likes” post as soon as I saw “butch bulges” because I’ve learned to not trust the internet to be normal about lesbians.

I’ve seen this so many times in lesbian tags… people adding in “cock/strap” as if they’re so similar that they’re interchangeable. As if thinking about cock isn’t something that’s going to turn a lesbian off right away.

It’s disgusting, really. To think it’s even close to acceptable to make “lesbian” posts that mention males in any capacity, but especially male genitalia. It’s so invasive and disrespectful. Lesbians can’t even engage with lesbian content online without having this stuff shoved in our faces constantly (all I did was like/reblog a post about studs and got a bunch of butch/femme stuff on my dash, including this).

(These posts also tend to use gender neutral pronouns, because heaven forbid a lesbian specifically think about women)

I just want to be left alone. Please keep your mentions of cock away from me and my homosexuality. Stop trying to shove it in my face and act like there’s anything remotely ~sapphic~ about male genitalia. Leave lesbians alone.

#I put the white border because I don’t want anyone scrolling and thinking I wrote that shit lmao #also these posts are super fun for me as someone who has intrusive thoughts #(as in actual ones… not lol leaf crunchy) #because I stop and think ‘aw this is cute’ #then as soon as they mention men my mind just can’t remove men from the scenarios being described and it feels violating #anyone with intrusive thoughts would get what I’m saying I think #I just don’t even seek out lesbian blogs anymore because of this sort of thing #my post

[aeb-art]

so as you can see, this started off silly (and suggestive but shhh) and then…

y'know that hopelessness when all you can do to help is just… be there? yea

geo belongs to @8um8le

#2024 #do i need to tag that it's suggestive like it's just the word wireplay idk #suggestive #stellar city #sc geo #sc ash #self insert #self ship #i really can't be stopped #he is so fun to draw i can't help it #also… i have intrusive thoughts i feel i should say that in the event anyone thinks i'm being like… insensitive somehow about it #they can be really scary and gross and the topic should be taken seriously #which is why the silliness ends the moment he has one #okay cool just so we're on the same page #i wanna hold him and tell him they aren't real and that he's safe… he deserves that much

[worfsbarmitzvah]

its crazy bc like. i Know that even the worst of my intrusive thoughts doesnt represent me. even when they occur in the most uncomfortable, offputting of situations. i KNOW it’s just my brain calling up whatever thing would be most horrifying to me at that moment. and yet i still feel like i cant talk about it bc of how other people who have never dealt with ocd would perceive it

#txt #ocd #this is your sign to be neutral and unjudgemental about intrusive thoughts #< im also trying to stop saying ‘be normal abt [x]’ bc thats ultimately a vague and unhelpful framing #like. to be ‘normal’ abt intrusive thoughts #if we’re basing our definition of ‘normal’ on how the majority of ppl would react #then being ‘normal’ abt it would probably equate to assuming an intrusive thought is in line w someones genuine beliefs and desires #that is how most ppl react to hearing abt intrusive thoughts #but its certainly not the way ppl SHOULD react! #so. dont be normal abt intrusive thoughts. be respectful about them

[nightwardenminthara]

confession compulsions are the worst ones actually

#ocd tag #do you know how many times i stop myself from messaging someone or posting something on here #in a way this post itself is just scratching that itch djfsakl #but i HATE THEM I HATE THEM #edit: every pop science article on confessions and ocd in general is sooo #sometimes confessing doesnt look like point blank 'these are my intrusive thoughts im so sad reassure me' #when u are selfaware it can become much subtler #anyway these articles about how to stop reassurance seeking arent being very good at reassuring me LMAOOO

[makeela]

yall gotta stop blaming tiktok for things that started on tumblr 10 years ago. the cringe is coming from inside the house

#“people on tiktok wont stop diagnosing themselves using criteria that everyone experiences” 2014 bpd tumblr. #[any intense fandom thing like kinning being weird at the actors etc] tumblr. still tumblr. did we forget voltron #“any iteration of kinning/shifting/whatever” tumblr 2013-today #“people on tiktok are so PURITANICAL” anti/proship discourse. once again did we forget voltron #any discourse that exists on tiktok that we are acting better than now existed on tumblr when we were the same age as these people #we are now just old #even shit like intrusive thought discourse wrt “omg guys the intrusive thoughts won!” like... we all remember that “intrusive thought to #pick up a crunchy leaf and eat it" post. it was contentious even then #the young gen z/older gen alpha on tiktok are not our enemies. they are us #we were worse even. #at least the people on tiktok don't call the guy who made it daddy

[fellforstudentloans]

nothing fills the void

nothing makes the nothing go away

nothing makes it better

the is only more nothing underneath

#tw self loathing #tw #block don’t report #vent #tw depressing thoughts #cw #intrusive thoughts #i hate it here #sorry for being depressing #nothing is real #make it stop

[snarlingteeth]

Forgot how addictive it is

To be told I am small

Wrap your hand around my wrist

Your arms around my waist

“You’re tiny”

I know

Keep saying it

#ed #tw #tw ed #body image #NOT pro ana I am very much fighting these thoughts please do not encourage this and if you know me irl please stop commenting on my weight #vent #snarl whines #trigger warning #ed trigger warning #tw weight #the past month SEVERAL people have been commenting on my weight and size and I know they’re compliments and I love the attention #but it’s very bad for me to be fed these thoughts that it’s good that I’m small #I WANT to be bigger but the comments on being small is addictive #anyways don’t worry I haven’t relapsed just been having intrusive thoughts #poetry #snarlwhines

[sysig]

So full of love to give (Patreon)

Bonus:

Sauna-ley, he’s gotta plastic-wrap his arm

#Doodles #The Stanley Parable #TSP #Employee 416 #Thinking about v2 more! I'm not even going to pretend I'm not biased towards him lol #I really like v1 I think she's very fun ♪ She suits how I'd most like an Employee to be but v2 is just so interesting to my brain gosh darn! #So more of him for the moment! Haha #I was already thinking about Love Languages recently so why not bring it in with me lol - he's the type to express with gift-giving #Stanley doesn't really get it lol #Like he's not unappreciative he's just confused! Partially because of how Narra treats him lol the bucket was the first Object in how long? #Not counting the Demo with the mug haha #He's just trying to tell you he likes you Sinister! He wants to give you nice sensory experiences without being too intrusive! #That said he does want to hold hands so maybe not Just solo-play sensory experiences lol - keep dreaming 416! #Specifically wants to hold his free hand so he doesn't hurt him ♪ He probably hasn't seen Sinister's gimmick but he can see the ouchies #He turned out so cute in that intro panel ah <3 #Has everyone seen the original love triangle comic? I don't know the original artist unfortunately but ahh it's so good haha #Narra must've stuck Sin's hand into something again and he's telling him off haha #Poor lads hehe ♪ #Bonus of a post-bath Stanley! Been thinking about body hair headcanons again because who can stop me at this point lol #Have I ever mentioned I HC Stanley as having some Grecian heritage? Fuzzy lad <3 #Making sure to cover up his arm so as to not irritate it :) Would probably feel really nice in cool water ahh

[villainsidestep]

got sad abt fawn’s little motel room again 😞

#gideon shut the hell up challenge #we were thinking abt it in canon but then thought abt it in v3/v3au so. now we have to talk abt those #themmy who gets to be the first to get invited over. it takes a bit to build up to it and then even after they all think they’re ready #it takes another few days to actually Work Up To It. themmy gets first pick bc they’re the least intrusive of the group #the ortegas are close to the group ofc but they are nosy and pushy but this is The Becker’s space. so they get told no when they ask #if they can tag along. (they ofc get approval later after a few times of themmy getting to visit #bc 1. they won’t stop asking but 2. they’re more comfortable w the permitted intrusion that they get a test run) #honestly I feel like one of the ortegas would offhandedly ask Whose room it is (bc they expect them each to have their own) #and the siblings are like no it’s Ours. plural. and then the topic gets dropped bc they’re skittish enough already they won’t push more rn #ohhh the besties giving them little house warming gifts to help spruce the place up but next time they go over it still looks just as plain #except u ask ‘hey what happened to [xyz]?’ and they retrieve it from wherever it’s squirreled away #solo!survivor au…. imagine having to go back to the motel room alone for the first time #you know where the traces of your siblings are hidden. but they aren’t in immediate sight so it feels so Empty. #digging out all of their belongings just to have them closer to you even if it goes against everything you’ve all done this whole time #maybe you don’t stay alone. maybe you invite an ortega over. maybe you invite both. #maybe they show up with a bottle of wine each and none of you say anything bc you don’t know what you even would #maybe they help you pack up everything to move apartments. maybe you don’t let them touch anything. maybe them just being there is enough

[dramatic-dolphin]

hey if there's any telepaths nearby i'm sorry about the mental load, i haven't been able to shut my internal monologue up for several days now. yes it's annoying to me too <3

#this is a cry for help #fucking dorothy is awake and that means my brain is loud as hell and i can't rest #<- dorothy is a specific pattern of mostly-intrusive thoughts that i named back in high school #because it amused me to think of it as a loud little girl stomping her feet and wailing at not being listened to #and it was the first loud little girl name i could think of #i totally recommend thinking of your intrusive thoughts as an annoying 12yr old edgelord talking in your brain btw it works wonders #now it's almost funny when she starts making them pop up in my head #like yea dorothy i get it you're cranky and understimulated go get a lollipop or something stop making it my problem #see i can't stop talking in the tags my internal monologue is a mess. help. it's 2am.

[qumiiiquinnquin]

why do I have really detrimental thoughts

#vent #telling myself to take antidepressants so i can stop being like this but oh wait! i dont HAVE ANY!!!! #im so frustrated #i need to call his office but does he even remember me? i havent had an appointment since last april #i hate these intrusive thoughts #i know thats not how any of it works #why cant i be #im so frustrated to the point of wanting to cry what is wrong with me #why am i even frustrated t all