#sometimes you forget it even happened

[aroacesafeplaceforall]

Some days I don’t remember I have a tumblr account other days I plague everyone’s dash

#I’m like a particularly annoying strain of covid #sometimes you forget it even happened #other times everyone in town has it #there is no inbetween

[mars-ipan]

they're so GROSSSSSS (<- desperately wants what they have)

alt color under the cut:

#martzipan #komahina #hajime hinata #nagito komaeda #2 final colors bc my brain is allergic to desaturation. i needed to have One Bright One for my sanity #anyways i think they have this thing when they finally get together #where komaeda will just say. Anything basically. in an attempt to fluster hinata #and it does fluster him! but also sometimes he decides to do something about it #which flusters KOMAEDA even harder bc the dumbass forgets that like. affection can happen to him #which makes HINATA flustered again because 'you can say all that but one kiss is overwhelming?!?' #and they do this. all the time. especially early on before they're really used to each other #and they're gross about it. they do this in public. everyone else has to watch them do this like. thrice daily #they're awful. and also i envy them #tried some new things this time. more character interaction practice which is fun #i think this is likee... the third???? kiss i've ever drawn??? good for them #but i care more about the lineart. i tried to think about line weight at least a little bit :] it is Difficult lmao #this one made me realize i need to do a hips study lmao. also a neck study #in other words a girl needs to practice her joints more #there's still smth bugging me abt hinata's face in the 3rd one. but. i don't care it's done i'm not touching it

[sluttylittlewaste]

Does anyone else remember how during ACoC people kept trying to prove that Caramelinda was somehow in on [redacted's] betrayal and was actually evil? And do we all remember how many times Brennan had to say "No, she's not evil or Bad or anything, she's just a woman who is trying really hard to make the best decisions she can with the information she has in the heinous circumstances she's in"??? Do we remember Brennan having to tell the Bad Kids that Zayne Darkshadow isn't just some cringefail fucking edgelord but a child who suffered greatly in his life and then DIED?

Does anyone else remember Kalina literally having to snap her own neck to get the Bad Kids to realize that she might not be just *blanket evil*?

I feel like I'm seeing something very similar happening with Porter and Kipperlily and I really hope Brennan once again subverts the idea that just because a character is antagonistic they are inherently Bad or Evil.

Also, just a reminder Protagonist = main character Antagonist = person opposing/challenging the main character

These terms do not possess a moral assignation.

#To be clear this is not about the Intrepid Heroes and how they play the game #This is fully about how easy it is while playing DnD to forget being the main character makes it really easy to assume opposition = malice #and to make character judgments based on whether or not NPCs or nice/helpful/frienldly/agreeable #even though time and time again it has been proven that the nicest people in the world can be the most nefarious #also in the specific case of Fantasy High #they are all so good at playing teens and really leaning into the defensive/reactive/emotional aspect of that #a lot like Ruby in ACoC #there's also something very high school about responding to a person disliking you with extreme defensiveness #rather than simply understanding that sometimes that just...happens #and that people can come to and act based on conclusions about you without all of the information #in the exact same way that you can #but it feels more personal and offensive because you are living in your own head and know your reasons for doing things #so it becomes a flat dichotomy of nice person = good #rude person = bad #and it takes a lot of growth and perspective to know things aren't that flat in most situations #Aabria is actually really good at subverting that manner of thinking #both as a DM and a PC #d20 fhjy #dimension 20 #fhjy #if i die #let me die #thoughts #a crown of candy #acoc spoilers #fhjy spoilers

[jinxquickfoot]

I'm rewatching Infinity War and I want to address one of the key criticisms I hear of it which is: Steve: We don't trade lives, Vision. Also Steve: *takes the fight to Wakanda where a lot of Wakandans die* First point - even if they had destroyed the Stone when Vision first suggests it, the army would have no way of knowing that. They would have come for it anyway. Or even if they did know it was gone, Thanos surely would have sent them to Earth anyway for vengeance. Point is - Earth is getting attacked either way. Wakanda has the best defenses and weaponry in the world. Not to mention that Steve didn't just rock up and start fighting and force everyone else to get on board - T'Challa agreed to make the stand against Thanos there, even knowing the risks to his people.

Second - it's a thematically sound choice. Throughout the entire movie, we see that the good guys aren't willing to sacrifice love for the big picture. Loki won't let Thor die, Wanda and Team Cap won't let Vision sacrifice himself, Gamora can't bear to see Nebula tortured. The only person who is willing to make that personal sacrifice for 'the greater good' is Thanos. He thinks big picture only. The ends totally justify the means. What does one small life matter if he's saving the universe, even if that person is someone he 'loves'? And then we get Stephen and Tony. Even after declaring that he will let Tony or Peter die before handing over the Time Stone, Stephen realizes the value of one life - Tony's life - because it's the one life that will make all the difference in the end. Yes, it's important to keep the end goals and the greater good in mind, but we can't do that by bringing untold harm and suffering to individuals. The Avengers win because they're not Thanos.

#did that even make sense or am I just rambling #I think sometimes a movie criticism becomes so popular we just accept it as fact and forget the actual context it was made in #also you know #so the movie can happen is sometimes a valid reason #avengers infinity war #mcu #marvel

[brotherofbagels]

There needs to be more nuance in how people view the situation but the internet doesn't allow for that.

#georgenotfound #the thing is though is that the internet as it is rn is completely black and white so that's not gonna happen #'non-verbal consent is not consent' it absolutely can be in certain situations #if you cuddle for hours and seem comfortable doing it and reciprocate by coming back and showing positive body language l #then yes putting a hand on the waist of the person you're cuddling with isn't a heinous crime #social context is very important here #context in general is very important here #i just feel like people forget how the real world operates sometimes because the internet's view on stuff like this can be so polarizing #especially in a community as young as the mcyt fandom #that being said #caiti's feelings are completely valid #george can be innocent at the same time #i just wish people could look at this logically instead of being so chronically online all the time #instead of throwing around the assault word and hoping that gets them internet brownie points #idk this is so stupid catie's friends made the situation 1000x worse by publicizing it the way they did before catie could even try and #resolve it privately

[duckapus]

Headcanon that contrary to what you'd expect, Wario actually does pay the crew properly most of the time. The only times he actually did try to stiff them are the three we're explicitly shown or told about.

First off, the end of the original Mega Microgame$. The reason this happened is mostly because it was only a few months after his "Villain Living in a Castle" era and he'd forgotten what it was like to have actual employees who expect proper compensation for their work. He did end up properly paying them and apologizing(well, at least an apology by his standards) after they fished him and Crygor out of the ocean.

Then the incident that happened that caused about half the team to leave WarioWare in favor of Diamond Software before the events of DIY. That was a massive wake-up call for him that prompted quite a few changes in his management style and the company structure as a whole. He doesn't want to lose the few people who actually like him ever again, and everybody involved knows it.

And then the Wario Bowl incident. To his credit, he was only trying to stiff them for their work on the tournament. He'd already factored the earnings from the actual game into their paychecks. Plus, it was partly because he didn't want them to know he'd fucked up and spent most of the tournament earnings on enough balloons to hold up Wario Deluxe, and considering the full extent of his abilities he could've easily got out of Cricket's grasp (and without hurting him even) so clearly he wasn't trying that hard to make off with the loot.

#warioware #headcanon #wario #dr crygor #young cricket #you ever noticed how 3 of the 5 diamond software hosts in diy were the crew members who like him most (mona jimmy and 9-volt)? #yeah that would ABSOLUTELY have an affect on him #and the fact it happened at all heavily implies a massive fuck-up on his part #wario does care about his friends at least slightly more than money (even if he forgets that sometimes) and i will die on that hill

[furiousgoldfish]

Hi, just a little reminder to everyone who has attempted to message me or talk to me, and didn't get a reply or didn't get a reply they wanted.

I often have people messaging me expecting instant friendship and emotional support and talking to me as if we already knew each other. I don't think this is done with ill intent, but I do want to gently remind everyone that we are complete strangers when interacting online, and that I cannot grant anyone instant friendship; to me you are a person I don't know. I will talk to you as a stranger would. Even if you've been reading my words and taking solace and imagining a friend telling them to you, to me you are someone I've never met or known, and I cannot function as an emotional support on a personal level to strangers. It ultimately is not helpful for you to convince yourself that a stranger on the internet is your personal friend, or to push that stranger into trying to act the part; I am unable to fulfill this role. I am not emotionally well myself, and I do not have a support system, so being put in a situation where I'm expected to be one for a stranger feels unhealthy.

Another thing I'd love for everyone to remember is, that I don't have all of the answers. I love to help where I can, but ultimately I am a person in a lot of distress, trying to deal with multiple disorders without any access to therapy or even friends who understand what I'm going thru. I am isolated and posting on this blog is often all I have. If I knew how to get rid of trauma, how to deal with disorders, how to not be sick or in pain, how to evade abuse or how to feel okay, I would use this advice to fix my own life. But I am sadly, lost like the rest of us.

There are times where I am in too much distress to talk to anyone, if you sent me a message and it went unanswered, it is very likely that I was in a state so bad I could not communicate. I will usually recover from it within several weeks, but by that time I feel bad even reminding someone they've sent me a message, it feels asinine to try and reply so late. And it reminds me of the period where I felt bad looking at the message, unable to respond. I'm not ignoring messages on purpose. If you try again some time later, you're likely to get a reply, if I'm in a good state of mind.

However, if you send me a big number of messages at once, start talking about your issues without asking if it's okay first, send several messages without a reply and then keep sending them and demanding a reply, put pressure on me to communicate with you, try to guilt me into giving you an answer you want, or assuming I'm maliciously ignoring you, you've made me uncomfortable and I have to listen to my instincts and stop talking to you.

I am sensitive to anger, aggression, ranting, swearing, slur-use, and doing that in a conversation with me it will make me feel threatened. Because we're strangers, and any stranger acting like I'm an acceptable target to take their anger at is dangerous. We are not friends, and dealing with angry strangers is terrifying. In that situation I have to do what I would advise anyone else to do - leave the conversation.

The last issue is with people attempting to trigger me on purpose, pretending they need help then defending abusers, trying to convince me that all of my resources are harmful and doing nothing but damage, or trying to get me to delete my content, change my posts, advocating for abusers, siding with my abusers, telling me I'm a monster, insisting they're victimized by me unless I personally disprove my smear campaign to them, and generally trying to get me to lash out in order to post it online to claim I should be cancelled. That is the worst thing you could be doing to a traumatized abuse victim. I am a person, of course I sometimes say something wrong and not well thought and put out. That doesn't mean anything I ever do to help others is worthless and should be erased. And you will not convince me that my blog is useless or harmful. It helps me. And I am someone too.

#furiousgoldfish #why messaging me will sometimes have bad results #parasocial relationships #communicating with strangers forgetting they're strangers #i am scared of strangers online it is scary to be interacting with others #especially when trying to help you end up getting hurt and you just don't understand why it got so bad #that happens so often #and i have to be wary and have boundaries #and escape whenever i feel uncomfortable #even if it means someone will feel slightly bad #i don't have to bend my life so nobody ever feels slightly bad because of me #i need to feel safe #and i generally feel bad because of people who don't care how they're making me feel #because i only exist to get their needs met in their head #but i exist for me

[kidfur]

ok yea i need to put pro kink back in my pinned.. its a pain i even need to but anti kink people following me is annoying LOL

#wishy speaks #its like #u would Hate me if i was more open abt certain things #and i know i cant expect all my followers to be people id get along with but itd be nice to not suddenly get a dm saying like #hey i cant trust you to not be a complete fucking freak anymore. bye #actually happened when i changed my url btw #like cool man. i do not care #just unfollow and block quietly go away!! #sheesh #ok rant ova #actually adding more tags #i kinda forget sometimes that not everyone is based #far from it actually. on this hellsite #like i step outside of my mutual circle and WOW i cannot stand literally any of you people! #and i Hate saying discourse words i hate shipping discourse especially #but i am ok with saying pro kink. bc kink comes with the whole risk aware consenting adults assumption #and anyone trying to imply kink is anything But risk aware consenting adults is in bad faith #still..annoying that i even have to #tumblr users have a little faith in other people's autonomy challenge? #and yes i Am hoping the person i just blocked sees this. i can be a petty little bitch as a treat. i have a headache i am allowed a treat

[robotsafari]

i had a dream where something was off with riku’s shadow…

#beep boop you want fries with that #kingdom hearts #riku #(and ansem. in shadow form) #IGNORE THE MISTAKE OF RIKUS HAND AUUGHH I HATE DRAWING HANDS #riku wasnt wearing his dream drop distance outfit but i drew him with it because. well. dream LOL #its so weird like it wasnt even clear what world he was in #he was in some sort of tavern?? so maybe you’d think it was the kingdom of corona #liek the snuggly duckling but it definitely wasnt #i couldnt tell you why but trust me #it was kinda surreal that i actually had a dream about kingdom hearts. go figure #its like the hardest thing in the world to have a dream about a fixation im having #usually my dreams are trauma. and me dying. sometimes both. #and if it is about my fixation it’s usually me getting a bunch of merch of it and then i wake up and whoops i dont have it #or i just forget all of my dreams and wake up with nothing to think about. #so i like it when i have some cool bizarre shit related to my fixation happen #its funny because this sounds like something that would happen in either kh itself or someones fanfiction #i wouldnt be surprised if someone has already drawn or written about this #anyway gn i hope i have another weird dream about kh

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

You knew my mother was here | Moth Work

Lonan has stopped paddling. The canoe sits in the middle of the lake, lifeless like a bone in the water. He’s turned so Harrison sees him in profile and can’t tell if it’s relieving or worrying to see his face. Lonan’s jaw is taut, like there are words he wants to say but can’t. Filling up the hollow bone. He blinks slowly, like he’s trying to re-centre himself, his chest quivering with breaths meant to steady him. The water laps at the base of the canoe, whirling like his head. Dark hair tangles down his cheeks like the fingers of a poltergeist.

“You knew my mother was here,” Lonan says.

“Yes.”

“How?”

“Research.”

LONAN PORTRAIT TO GRACE (HAUNT?) YOUR DASH!! <3

Excerpt circa 2019.

#this was sooo fun hehee #I meant to draw HB Lonan but it looked more like MW Lonan which is dumb because they are literally the Same Guy only a month apart but #BUT I HAD MY LOGICCCC #anyway <3 #he’s wearing Harrison’s jacket <333 like he does for most of the book lol #lonan ‘I’m not gay’ clark #there are probably things abt this I’ll change but I didn’t want to spend too long making it perfect !!! #but I mean he’s pretty perfect in himself hehe <3 #THIS scene is why moth work was called boys on a boat for a long time #THE OGs KNOW LOL #personally if I saw this man the only words coming out of my mouth would be okay babygirl but maybe that’s just me looool #like sometimes I’m like harrison WHY this man WHY #and then I draw him and I’m like yeah yeah okay #the sketch at one point looked so much like REEVE!!!! so I’m gonna draw over it and make it her lol #anyway did you know that the whole reason moth work even happens is because #Harrison’s worried about Lonan’s add*ction & as a last resort is like #okkkk I can’t help you but maybe your bio mom can???? and Izzy is at the cabin lol #sometimes I forget that was the reason!!!! #anyway kissing him on the cheek #I hope he finds happiness and love!!!!! #art

[abstractlesbian]

Find someone slightly annoying but in really small harmless ways so I decide none of the behaviours are worth bringing up with them → realizing: hey, Im also annoying! solidarity! → realizing we have a lot in common and starting to bond → finding out other people find this person annoying and are vocal about it behind their back → finding out this person has ADHD like me that's (at least one reason) why we have all these traits in common → fear.

#trying to be as vague as possible even tho this is someone I know offline and no one involved follows me online #on one level I get it that relying someone who is forgetful and does things slower/differently than you can be frustrating #but like its a medical condition. and u dont need to know someones medical info to have some empathy instead of assuming malice/incompetence #i just found out they have adhd today but day one i was able to go 'wow i did not like the way they handled that but i dont think they were #being hurtful/careless we just handle this task differently. rhey didnt do anything wrong and i can let this go and adjust my expectations' #not to say im perfect and never ableist towards others. my first reaction to seeing traits i dislike in myself (from my disabilities) #in others is often to get annoyed and needing to adjust my thinking #i get annoyed with myself when I cant focus / cant be coherent or concise / cant finish tasks quickly etc #→ get annoyed sometimes when I see others doing that → realize thats not fair to them → realize thats not fair to myself #→ assume good intentions and find ways to communicate/collaborate better with them → get along better and maybe make a new friend! #sorry i am rambling #idk its scary seeing someone being disliked for adhd symptoms/traits that im mostly doing a good job of managing/hiding in this #social environment so far and knowing that could happen to me in the future #but im also like ready to have this persons back #me 🤝 them: prioritizing the wrong tasks and overexplaining things and struglging to get our points across #and not noticing when we talk too loud and forgetting tasks halfway thru etc #not to be that guy but : without love it canmot be seen!!!! #lifes so much better if u just assume ppl arent doing things a certain way to be annoying + let go of / adapt to the thing that are annoying #but not harmful #thats not exactly what without love it cant be seen means but thats one of the ways i apply it in life #just like dont assume malice. assume u dont have all the info. approach ppl/situations with empathy. #or youll make yourself more miserable needlessly #again like only for shit that's not harmful obv #i need to shut up and go to bed

[that-dreaming-dragon]

Q: Pick any animal that's not your kintype

Me: Bird, or maybe fox. What about just bird fox griffin or some sort of hybrid to that nature--*does a quick image search and saw* wait a minute--

That's basically my linktype lmao!

#alterhuman #honestly I don't even know how to tag this head thumping desk moment #linktype #kintype #otherlinking #otherlink #maybe? #it's kind of like #what if this happened? #and then you realize oh shit it has already happened how did I forget that? #can't answer question about self when you already know yourself enough that you have all the answers #or maybe it's a case of sometimes you just forget yourself and things about yourself

[harlequinpants]

its been a year daddy

#listen #sometimes you forget to post art for a year #it happens #unless this message isn't even about that???? #also daddy??????? omfg #maybe in honor of fontaine's release i'll post my sumeru art lmao #you lift up the rock i live under to reveal hundreds of trigun drawings and you slowly lower the rock and back away #text text text #an update: i was gonna post art and then i immediately got covid and almost died #and then i got really disappointed that i didn't die #and it's been all downhill from there

[quietwingsinthesky]

can’t stop thinking about Marie reviving Kevin. does anyone ever manage to open the gates of Heaven again. does anyone even bother to tell Linda if they do. does Kevin lose more and more of himself as the years go on, and she’s forced to lose her son a second time. Linda carrying around a warded box with Kevin’s final tether in it so that he can’t accidentally hurt anyone, never knowing if it’s safe to release him from this world, if he won’t be worse trapped in the veil with no one to hold on to at all. one way or another, to love your child is to cage them.

(which is not to say that it’s her fault or even that she could have done anything differently. this is an impossible situation. this is something neither of them ever should have been forced to go through. her son is dead, and nothing can ever change that, and the best she can hope for is to hope that she can send him to heaven before she gets killed, too. because once an acquaintance of the winchesters, always a target for people who have a grudge against them. linda goes through. a lot. in the next few years. family is hell and all.)

the way this shakes out in my head is as a hunt. someone is using a ghost to kill people, and it becomes clear, very quickly, that this ghost is kevin. that someone stole him from linda. and the worst part is that kevin has been a spirit for years now and the magic keeping him under control is strong enough that he can barely tell what’s happening. to him, he’s lashing out to protect his mom, even though she’s not there and he’s just being used. it’s a horrifying fate. and “the only way to save him is to put him down, it’s mercy,” except they still don’t know if that’ll send him to Heaven or Hell or further into the Veil or worse.

and I am thinking about marie finding this little box, open because Kevin is being forced to attack the Winchesters, maybe even his mom, as they try to save him, and marie pulling out the ring his ghost is tied to, and marie, who listened so closely to Linda talking about her son, so proud of him and so torn apart by grief. I’m imagining this takes place early on, before Lucifer has had a chance to get to the twins, so all the family Marie has is the Winchesters, and Castiel, and Jack, and none of them are really her parents. Dean is hot-and-cold unable to connect, and Sam tries so hard to take care of the twins but can barely look them in the eyes most days, and Castiel prepared for a baby and got something else entirely, and Jack is. Well. Jack is someone she cannot imagine outliving, cannot conceive of a world without.

And so what I’m saying is that she’s holding that ring, and she’s supposed to destroy it, and she can’t. She can’t. Kevin’s spirit is here, and if she can fix it- if she can fix it. Jack elsewhere suddenly gulping down breaths because his heart is racing too fast and his power is being dragged from him into his sister’s hands, and realizing that this is how Marie felt when he brought back Castiel. She didn’t complain, so he grins and bears it. It is an awful, exhausting thing.

But Kevin lives. With all his memories of being a ghost, of losing himself, of being used as a weapon. He’s alive. He shouldn’t be, but he shouldn’t have died either. There’s a girl looking at him, who is his height and younger than him by more than a decade and needs this to have been a Good Thing she did.

at least he gets to hug his mom again.

#so you know. a few thoughts. Kevin should get to live damnit #LET! HIM! COME! BACK! WRONG! #(I’m aware this ignores the whole ‘Chuck sending him to hell secretly and then other shit happening’ plotline but uh. #If The Show Did Not Care To Resolve That. Fuck Em. #they were literally happy to let Kevin wander the earth as a ghost and lose his mind. and fuck em!!! no he the fuck will not!!! #he will only lose his mind a little bit and then be alive again and have to live with it. I mean how old even if he right? #looking at himself in the mirror and Marie did her best but the picture of Kevin Linda had on her was a year or two old by the time he died #and that’s all Marie had of him to go off of. that and memories. and she did her best. #but kevin looks at himself. he’s too old he’s too young he doesn’t fit his own skin. #he expects his hand to go through objects. he dissociates for hours. forgets to eat or sleep or drink. #he’s not a prophet anymore. there are no prophets. and yet sometimes his ears still ring around angels and his vision is scarred over with #writing from tablets long since destroyed and his head is too full. he refuses any offer of the Winchesters to live in the bunker. #he’s a ghost and he’s a teenager and he’s an ex-prophet and he’s kevin freaking tran #marieposting #spn #kevin tran #linda tran

[pinkmirth]

he’s so ugly i fucking love him

#sometimes i forget this scene even happened . . . #then im terribly reminded (saw this nonsense on pinterest and it all came back to me) #they had my man looking like his middle aged father 😭 what rubbish #i’d keep lovin reiner even if he was bald! don’t worry papa you still fine!!! #୨୧ — rambles! #❥ — reiner! #reiner braun #reiner brainrot #❥ — rambles!

[pearlcaddy]

My kingdom for people to stop trash talking/generally being rude about fics in public fandom spaces. If you're analyzing a general trend, fine. But if you don't like a specific fic, find a friend's DMs to vent in. Stop putting this stuff on tumblr, Twitter, Discord servers, etc. where 1) many people in the fandom, and 2) the GODDAMN AUTHOR can see it.

#really wish more people--especially fellow fic writers--would spend five seconds filtering the way they talk about fics #through 'how would i feel if someone said this to me about my work?' #mad on my own behalf at the moment but i'll never forget that one jatp fic that some people on tumblr named the cursed fic #even though the author was on tumblr #I’ve seen it happen so many times—both directed at my fic and other people’s and it never fails to infuriate me #fic writing is thankless enough—why would you make it harder on other people? #sometimes kindness is difficult and it's an effort we put in because it's worth it #and other times people just choose to be assholes when being kind wouldn't cost them anything #this isn’t high school—being mean doesn’t trick people into thinking you’re cool; it just shows your true colors #pearlcaddy.txt #fandom #fanfiction