#sometimes the Doctor really is just trying to go to a concert and ends up having to protect Queen Victoria from werewolves though. poor man

[sailforvalinor]

OC Mundane Tag Game

Tagged again by @accidental-spice--thanks for the tag!

Rules: Pick an OC you'd like to talk about and answer the questions for them! Then tag ten people, or as many as you can. 'Underdeveloped character I adopted' is fine, too! Absolutely no pressure to play, though

Also, if some of it can't apply to your OCs, just answer what would be the answer-- like if they're in a historical setting, they likely can't watch movies, but what is a movie they'd like?

(Also, most people have many ocs, so feel free to retag people and answer as many times as you get tagged! Or get really wild and just answer for as many ocs as you'd like! :D)

Since I talked about Ace last time, it's only fair that I talk about Joker :D

1. What is their favorite movie?

I feel like Joker's taste in movies is pretty eclectic (especially as she has all of time and space to draw on!), but the first thing that came to mind was White Christmas (the dance numbers!) and Hitchcock's To Catch a Thief (she idolizes Grace Kelly). I do associate her quite a bit with that classic Hollywood era, but I find I haven't actually watched a ton of them? If anyone has suggestions, I will gladly take them.

2. What is their favorite season?

Most definitely spring--beauty, rebirth, gorgeous flowers, etc etc. Actually, Ace's favorite being winter and hers being spring is pretty fitting, now that I think about it.

3. What do they find annoying?

People with a lack of imagination, when people don't appreciate things she's enthusiastic about, when she can't find the perfect outfit, bad hair days.

4. How would they like to spend their Christmas or equivalent holiday?

She really would love anything as long as she's not celebrating alone--she has done some pretty spectacular things on her hundreds of Christmases past (sneaking into one of Queen Victoria's Christmas parties, going ice skating on a planet of ice palaces, visiting the Christmas Theme Park that Australia built on the moon in 3489 that only lasted a year (turns out it was because of her, actually), but she mostly does these sorts of things to distract herself from how lonely she is, as Christmas is a pretty family-oriented holiday and that's when she feels it most acutely. Needless to say, her Christmases become much lovelier with Ace around.

5. Do they play an instrument? If so, what? How good are they at it?

I imagine she's probably collected almost every instrument imaginable, and can at least make most of them make sound, but she only really plays acoustic guitar (specifically really finger-plucky stuff) and probably a bit of piano. She also sings, and unlike Ace, has no qualms about doing so whenever the mood strikes. And sometimes it strikes at odd times.

6. What's their favorite meal to eat?

Ooh, this one is hard. I feel like she would be one to be constantly excited about trying different kinds of food--but as for a favorite of hers, the first thing that comes to mind is tiramisu for some reason. There is also always a hot pot of tea in her TARDIS without exception.

7. Do they have a favorite video game or board game?

Joker does strike me as a video game girl--I can see her being a Final Fantasy/Kingdom Hearts fan (and unlike all of us, she actually has the time on her hands to play every Final Fantasy game, lol). As for board games, I think she would probably like Life, as well as some of those newer fantasy games with a ton of worldbuilding like Scythe. Of course, she probably never played them much up until she met Ace, as playing board games against an AI avatar gets boring very fast. She's also so bad at chess that the first time she played with Ace, he was dead convinced that she had let him win.

8. Do they celebrate their birthday?

Poor Joker is an amnesiac--she has no memory of who she is or where she came from, and only knows the simple fact that she is a Time Lord, and her first memory was floating in the vacuum of space-time as a child in her TARDIS. (I'm not even sure that she knows about the Time War. It's difficult to believe that she wouldn't have heard about it after so much time, so she probably knows...?) Thus she has no idea when her birthday is, so she just picked a random day and celebrated it in much the same fashion as she does Christmas. After she meets Ace, she usually convinces him to take her out dancing (which, to his credit, doesn't usually take too much persuading).

9. What's their bedtime routine?

Do Time Lords sleep? I've been getting conflicting answers about this. I'm gonna go with "sometimes," and in those cases, pretty nightdress, cup of tea, usually plays music.

10. What's an OC (or canon character) they like to spend time around? What do they tend to do together?

Ace is the first person she has ever truly connected with beyond the surface-level, despite their very disparate personalities. I don't want to give too much away too early, but what I will say is that initially, Joker views Ace a little bit like a project, and he views her as a character stepped straight out of a fairy story who is too otherworldly to be real and must have some secret agenda for bringing him with her, and thus distrusts her, but they slowly but surely overcome this rockiness. She sees something in Ace that he refuses to see in himself—but I really can’t say more without spoiling things. Joker is very verbally affectionate, often referring to Ace as “my Ace” or “darling.” He makes a very noble effort to hide how flustered he is by this.

As for what they do together, they of course have their time-traveling adventures (and sometimes run into the Doctor and his companions). I'd say they're a bit more like tourists than the Doctor and Rose are, they tend to go to different times and places with the intent of exploring and sightseeing and their adventures are rarely, if ever, premeditated. Also, as I mentioned earlier, they love to go out dancing--the Doctor and Rose are half-convinced that they're just on a dance tour of the universe, as 50% of the time they run into them, they're checking out the local social dancing scene.

Also, I mentioned this in my post about Ace, but Joker loves introducing him to movies, tv shows, music, and other kinds of media that he missed out on in his time. In return, Ace reads aloud to her a lot--it sort of began out of his frustration that she constantly leaves half-read books around and forgets to finish them, but then it just kind of became a habit.

Tagging @o-lei-o-lai-o-lord @rainintheevening @novelmonger @mythicalartisttm and anyone else who has oc's they'd like to talk about!

#but exactly how and in what way does joker care about ace? that's for her to know and him to be too nervous to find out #also i know most of the time the doctor doesn't go LOOKING for trouble it's just his idea of tourism is 'lets go watch the world explode du #to heat death' sometimes and joker's is 'lets go try the first tiramisu in Treviso' you know? #sometimes the Doctor really is just trying to go to a concert and ends up having to protect Queen Victoria from werewolves though. poor man #don't worry they still get into plenty of Situations #joker and ace

[griffonsgrove]

Haiii!! These headcanons have been amazing!!! Could I perhaps ask for a Dr.Flug X Reader where they're a famous popstar, please?? tysm!! <3

Dr. Flug X Popstar!Reader

a/n: eeee of course I can write this!! This is a really cute idea, I hope you enjoy!! Im working my way through a few of your guy's requests so bare with me! I plan on maybe doing a few drabbles or headcanons for some other fandoms within the following days so keep a look out for that!

fandom: Villainous/Villainos words: 1026 cw: none! just super cute fluff!

(PLATONIC):

Now that you were starting to gain more and more popularity amongst people, you had been wanting to expand your musical talent to all reaches of life, whether it be good or bad.

Being a famous popstar made it easy to get connections, thankfully, and a little birdie had told you about the infamous ‘Hat Island” that was rumored to be crawling with villains, owned by none other ‘Lord Black Hat’ himself.

You were by no means a saint, let alone a hero, and thought that everyone deserved to have the joy of music, even those of lower status. So what do you do? Schedule a meeting with the most feared villain known to man!

Imagine Flug's surprise when he opens the door to see you standing there.

The man about damn near faints on the spot. A famous super-star, standing right in front of him? AND they're cute?? Oh boy.

He had heard of you when Demencia would loudly blast her music from her boombox, Obnoxious yes, but he would absentmindedly find himself humming your tunes or tapping his foot to the beat while he worked in the lab, much to his dismay.

Eventually that led to him listening to you in his (very little) free time, and he, actually?? Enjoyed?? It??

Now, the tricky part was going to be trying to convince Black Hat to let you hold a concert on his island, This old man  intimidated tf out of you, if looks could kill you’d be dead before you even stepped into his office. But, you tried to remain confident.

You offer to pay him for compensation, and give him a small percentage of the profits from your show. How can he refuse that offer? It’s money! He reluctantly agrees to your proposition, and you sign a temporary contract.

For extra gratitude you offer him and his henchman VIP tickets for your show, Black Hat scowls, saying something along the lines of “that frivolous techno music gives me a headache..” But! He doesn't deny his henchmen going!

Of course you don't leave without the eldritch putting the fear of god into you.

Demencia vigorously shakes Flug in excitement, when she finds out they have VIP tickets to your performance, for once the doctor’s eyes light up.

The night of your performance happened to be one of his best memories, he was absolutely enthralled by your singing, and he got to witness all up close!

When he comes backstage to meet you after the show he nearly faints again. You thought he was kind of cute for that really.

You excitedly greet him and his group and chat for a while. Answering questions and sharing stories, you actually find out the two of you have a lot in common! As the evening wraps up you pull him aside privately to give him your number, if he ever wanted to chat. HE NEARLY FAINTS AGAIN.

(ROMANTIC):

That’s how you two began talking. You texted frequently, excitedly sharing each other's interests. Sometimes you’d snap a photo before or after a performance, and he’d send you pictures of his latest invention, or his model airplane collection.

It’s actually you, that ends up asking him out on a date. Through a video call, his reaction was adorable, he looked almost in disbelief but dumbly nodded his head to your confession.

The both of you lead busy lives, so you carefully plan out when you can visit and when he can get the time off. (He sucks up to Black Hat for an entire week).

You settle on something quiet and not far away, you didn’t want to be bombarded by fans or paparazzi during your small visit. It’s at a small cafe, Flug claimed it made the best coffee he’s ever had.

He watches all of your shows btw. Man’s is committed. Whether that be streaming the concert on his phone while he works or going to your shows/events in person whenever you visit the island again. It’s also a plus that he enjoys your music!

You singing to him, ouGHHHH. He’s starstruck every time, entranced by your voice. He really thinks of you as an angel, maybe a siren.

Love songs!! You write several dedicated to him while your dating, he nearly cries when you reveal this to him. Who am I kidding? He totally cried.

He makes you cute little gadgets to make your life a little easier. Like a custom-made microphone for your shows, you use it every time <3.

You SPOIL him. You get that bag (pun intended) and you think he deserves to be treated with everything he could possibly want.

If you ever meet 5.0.5 you best believe you’re treating that bear like your own son. He’s such a sweetie, how could you not? And if you sing him little lullabies to help him fall asleep?? Flug’s heart almost bursts out of his chest. How did he get so lucky??

He often wonders how he bagged you (pun intended). He's pretty insecure of himself already, it really is a mystery to him. He almost feels like he doesn't deserve any of it at all. But of course, you see right through his act, and reassure him endlessly.

You both keep the relationship on the downlow, mainly for your sake. He didn't want your reputation to be ruined if the press found out you were dating a notorious supervillain. You had told him you didn't care what the public thought, but he insisted.

There are numerous photos of you on his phone, not in a creepy way though. Most of them are selfies of two of you, or from photoshoots/concerts. He def has you as his screensaver.

You loooove peppering his bagged face with kisses. He gets so flustered it's adorable!! He secretly loves them. If you wear lipstick, you love seeing the aftermath of your kiss attack, his face painted in a lovely shade of red.

Overall, being in a long-distance relationship definitely has its ups and downs, but Flug thinks it’s all worth it, especially for you, he’s willing to give it a try. How romantic.

#black hat organization #villainous #dr flug #x reader #dr flug x reader #headcanons #villainos #dating headcanons #black hat villainous #blackhat #drflug #drflugxreader #plsprotecthimatallcostoHMYGOD #gender neutral reader #popstar!reader

[vivaladicamillo]

asking very politely for how steve-o or bam would be dating a fem jackass member whos also just as crazy as the crew idk just silly activities

pls add whatever u like im good with everything IM JUST IN NEED OF CONTENT🙏🙏

BAM AND STEVEO DATING A FEM! JACKASS MEMBER !

ok so i have no clue if u were asking for them separately or together so ima just wing it and do SOMETHING

WARNINGS: talks of drinking and drugs

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BAM:

well being in a relationship with this guy would be crazy

would constantly brag abt ur looks to the guys

“my girlfriend is so hot bro”

shit like that

would probably tease u abt and just poke fun of u in a playing type way

expect to be pranked at any moment

his pranks on u arent too crazy tho he doesnt want u breaking up with him now

LOTS of partying

bam is wild and carefree so probably when u guys are younger, lots of house parties that slowly turned into clubs/famous peoples parties as he got more and more popular

NEEDY 24/7

just wants u by his side just to show u off and have u near him

would write u crazy ass stunts to do

he doesnt want u getting too hurt tho

PROTECTIVE AS FUCK

will fist fight if someone ever tries to disrespect u (man or women)

everyone KNOWS u are with him, he makes that clear

behind the scenes though, meaning when no friends or cameras are around and its just u too

hes the most mushy guy ever

just wanting to attach to u and never let go

probably would lick the side of ur face just to piss u off

expect to be at lots of skating venues and events

hey maybe he would even try to teach u how to skate

until u wipe out for the first time and hes laughing his ass off

he makes sure ur fine but he just found it funny

WILL MAKE U LISTEN, GO TO, AND TALK TO VILLE VALO

him is love him is life

also going to cky concerts with him

or really any concert that has a band he knows playing

he can be so mean sometimes

but he loves u

literally such a dick

but hes YOUR dick (literally)

just smack him around a bit and u will be fine 🙏

STEVE-O

ok so he actually might be a little bit more crazy then bam

but hes more affectionate then crazy

with steve-o its a constant adventure theres infinite opportunities on what to do

he could take u out on a nice dinner date or do something extremely illegal with u and now yall are running from the cops

partying is also a constant affair with him (u have a type anon🤨)

he will bring u around show u off and brag abt how much of a amazing girl u are

always has one hand on u at all times

i feel like secretly he just loves to cuddle with u

hes just constantly put doing things so having a moment of peace with someone he loves the most makes him feel more normal

when they are filming for wild boyz i feel like he would make jeff include u in a lot of scenes

he loves giving u bear hugs just all the time

BIG BIG ON PDA

he doesnt care who is watching he loves u and he wants to show that

steve-o is a huge partier too like bam as i have said

but unlike bam with steveo it gets more intense

probably would have to clean up his messes after long nights

that means cleaning up whatever vomit, shit, piss, or drug related things left behind

i feel like living in his apartment would be an experience

just being with him in that era would be crazy

him making u a custom shirt that says to listen to his new rap album 😭

doctor steveos nurse?? yes please

in the end its always an adventure with steveo, at least u know he loves u

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I HOPE U ENJOYEDDD!! :))

#jackass #steve o x reader #steve o #bam margera x reader #bam margera #cky x reader #cky crew #cky4 #cky2k #cky3 #cky clip #jackass x reader #jackass crew #jackass 2

[thetenamongstthesethrees]

TW: REFERENCE TO SH AND RELAPSE OF SH AND SUICIDE ATTEMPT

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Ok so ik ive been inactive for a *WHILE* and im srry for that but like i have a buncha things that happened these past 3 months that I NEED To share SOOOO....

First things first, the one im most excited abt: I DID MY FIRST PERFORMANCE!!! My school was doing little mermaid jr and I got Scuttle! I was really happy to get my first role and getting at least one solo, and Im just happy overall on how it went! I think I did really good on my first try! Only bad thing was that now im kinda going through my lil mermaid hyperfixation and have been looking up fics where Sebastian and Ariel kinda have a Father/Parental Figure-Daughter or Older Brother-Younger (stupid but ultimately well meaning) Sister dynamic and have started to write a fic on that bc no ones done it before apparently😒(im going cray cray, bonkers mayhaps)

Might've gotten my eye infected(I live in the east of the us, new york to be more specific and woke up the day after the "live vintage (BLAME CANADA/j) filter" with my right eyes nerves slightly more irritated and haven't gotten that checked out so thats fun)

FINALLY finished that one drawing ive been making for 3 MONTHS.(well, technically....)

Almost done writing my passion project, AKA the one I originally wanted to make into an animated series but have settled for a book just in case that can't happen! I still need to work out some kinks, design more outfits, get all their personalities in check, make sure the world and magic is fully fleshed out, ect.

I also do band, and while I originally thought that I would have a problem bc of both band and theatres close scheduling(i originally had dress rehearsal on june 2nd, AND my band concert on June 2nd) but it all worked out in the end! My band concert went great, and while the dress rehearsal was a mess, we at least got through it! :)

Unintentionally quit SH! I was originally only meant to stop until AFTER performances, but ive been bettering myself and learned that if I ever want to forgive myself or at least move on I gotta stop feeling sorry for myself and not forget nor forgive, but remember, i just can't let it haunt me. I know I'll relapse, I always do eventually, but I want to enjoy these few moments of mental "clarity" while I can. I've also learned that for some reason i tend to become a more terrible person and despicable person the more time I spend at home with my mother, so that's fun. God, I hate America's education system, its messed me up BAD. AND the foster care system. I just tried to kms 2 times today, and she didn't even notice, or care. How sad is that?

On a lighter note, yes, as the rest of yt and TikTok, I got a minor lil hyperfixation on the Lorax and really think ppl should make more [PLATONIC] Lorax and Onceler dynamics, mainly the type where they're like some really annoying pair of bickering siblings or a father whos sick of his adopted child's shit, like there is so much on the table for platonic fluff and angst and most of what I've seen is romantic smut and fluff like CHANGE IT UP A LIL

Also, Ive been going to karaoke centers on Tuesdays and have become a lot more confident to performing in front of ppl! So far, I've performed "All You Wanna Do", "The Ballad of Jane Doe", "Heart of Stone", and am gonna do "What the World Needs" the next upcoming Tuesday, where I'm gonna try interacting with the audience while singing!!

(Also, before I end this....I may have ADHD??? my teacher who has ADHD says some of my behavior is "similar to hers"(i feel like thats just her way of saying i reek of neurodivergency) and I also did some research and I display similar/exact behaviors listed, have taken online tests from doctorate confirmed sites and basically all of them said to go get a diagnosis. I also found I do a few behaviors similar to stimming! Also also, I kinda suspect a lil more bc my mom has Autism and apparently sometimes neurodivergency is biological (i forgor the word) but my mom is kinda in denial abt my Depression diagnosis and thinks I got anxiety "biologically", so if I tell her I wanna get tested for ADHD shes just kinda gonna gaslight me into not believing that and i already told the school therapist and basically she just told me that I'm probably just imagining things or copying behaviors from my mother and that "kids like to give themselves all these titles nowadays" so I just did what I always do which is to keep it shut and act until they think you fell in line)

So yeah, thats all! Thanks for reading, now that my schedule is clear again ima start posting more frequently again, so be aware :) <3333

#musical theater #musical theatre #theater kid #theatre #band kids #band practice #band vs theatre #clarinet #electric guitar #piano #lorax 2012 #the little mermaid #self care #self improvement #self mutalition #self h@rm #note to self #recovering #inevitable relapse #book series #what being a writer is like sometimes #possible adhd #i feel sick #sewer slide #sewerslide attempt #angst writing #i need a nap #i need therapy #i need to be put down #i need to start writing again

[wolfybonnie759]

⭐ 4 Town Tae Young x Pregnant reader

Its few week and you Have not feeling well You felt sick You don't understand why you feel sick you have an ate nothing spoil or You just thought it was a Stomach bug In the next day you It felt OK into a quick second you felt noisy like you're about to puke you went to the bathroom and threw up You're confused that why are you throwing up So you look it up On the internet About why you suddenly throwing up. And you sound really looked at the internet saying The pregnancy symptoms And you are shocked there is no way you can be pregnant Of course you just think that it might be lying So you call your friend that you suddenly threw up for no reason nauseated And you told them It might be a stomach bug But then your friend told you .you could be Pregnant You didn't want to believe it But if the internet and your friend say that you might be pregnant But you are insured so you went to the store by your pregnancy test You went to the bathroom It took the test 5 minutes later It was time to see the results When you saw the results You were shocked it said

Positive

You wonder how can you be pregnant. But then you realize A week ago you and tae did it and You started crying But you don't want to believe the test You had those thought about Tae Young . What if he leaves you Or not accept it yes Tae Young Was your boyfriend Tae Young was the youngest member Are the most popular boy band 4 town You and him have been dating for 3 years . Before you didn't wanna set the test on the believe it So you went to the doctor To make sure if you're Are pregnant or not. You asked the doctor the problem and In the doctor A test on you So finding out the results A couple of minutes later The doctor walk towards you and told you you were 1 week pregnant and you were so shocked You're actually pregnant You thank the doctor and walked out at hospital and you started crying again You couldn't believe it that you're pregnant you was scared to tell your boyfriend You are pregnant and the father of your baby was Tae Young You are too young to have a kid You was 17 year and Tae Young was 18 You wanted to keep it secret but you can't keep this secret from him Cause he has the right to know and plus he will be questioning so You tell him later cause he had Tour with the boys. Course 4 town tour Will end For a month. So you tell him when he gets back Cause you don't want to stress him out Tae Young It was busy Doing concerts with the boys Practice the dance to make sure it's right and try not to mess up Singing all the time writing lyrics And barley being chased by a group of friends of there You don't want to Stress him out by telling him You and him have a baby And then again you are scared to tell him what he's going to say if he finds out That you're pregnant No you don't wanna stress him out but you still have to tell him sooner or later Because he was start questioning it and you probably think that you're cheating on him Because he trust you he Sometimes he judging Inclusions You're not like a gold digger Sometimes he would call you or video chat you Want to see your face But he do check on you make sure you're OK since he's not home You Always be bored without him of course you sometimes hung out with your friends But most of them have work some go to college. You're still scared of his reaction If you're tell him you're pregnant He be upset or happy?. You don't know You just have to find out Ben you had good thoughts of your future baby Might probably be the cutest baby ever since They might take after Tae Young My cuz looks He was good looking he was hot/cute It's a baby would be a girl She will be beautiful when she get older Or If the baby will be boy He's gonna be handsome he's older or just look like there father but you will tell him when he get back

A month later

It been a month and Tae Young will be home by tomorrow And that will be the day you have to tell him Cause you already grew a little bump You are scared tomorrow of this reaction Of course you try not to Stress yourself a month ago cause you know It's not good for the baby if him don't want it then You can't be with him And then you have to raise the baby on your own Sometimes you read stories about Their boyfriends or husband will leave them And date someone else behind our back all because they are pregnant and And do you want their partner back When They realize how stupid they were back then mostly College or high school but Tae Young is idol not College or a high school student You also read some stories about idol Boyfriends chose their career over there Partner Some will be the same The college 1 or high school but You are glad that Tae Young don't like that He lied He chooses career over you Which that was a lie He kept you a secret so no 1 would find out about you Cause he don't want you to get hurt. Anyway you really love Tae Young You didn't you don't want to be Separated for him You don't want Your relationship to be broken All because you're pregnant You're not sure if You are good at being a Single parent. You know that Jesse is a good Father Cause he's also a single parent but he do a good job Wait enough talk about Jesse. You're worried about your boyfriend reaction I know you keep saying it oh I don't know you just couldn't help You just hope for the best

Day later

It was the next day and you were nervous it kind of frightened to tell your boyfriend That you are pregnant Tae Young text you that will be home for 30 minutes than you also text him You have something important to tell him and he said ok. You are nervous frightening Just a little Well kind of but you need to calm down Cause it wasn't good for the baby 30minutes later You are sitting on a couch door until you hear the door unlocking Someone open the door and You saw Your boyfriend Tae Young You looked away yeah you were happy to see but you're so scared were you gonna tell him So he sit next to you He was happy to see you he ask do what did you want to do want to him. Can you took a deep breathing And you And then you Tell him Something before you tell the important thing you have to .that You ask him Do he promised won't leave you Then he said

Tae Young: what? Dove Why would I leave you I love you way too much to do that You mean the whole world to me You know I love you why would I leave you I'm always by yourself no matter Something happened?

good thing He's loyal to you but he still had to know but you're sure What were his reaction would be when you go into You took a deep breath and Oh and then you told him you were pregnant ...... And His smile dropped and His eyes were wide and he was shocked Like very shocked Out of all the important questions it was that but Deep down please he knows that you and him were too young to have a kid But it doesn't mean he's gonna leave you after he did it Then again he should have used protection but He was sort of happy He's gonna have a baby with you he was happy it just shocked By surprise Other than that he's happy On the other hand you were sad You heard nothing from Tae Young You just thought he was upset You are about to cry and leave until you felt too strong arms wrapped around you and hug you And then you looked at your boyfriend who had the biggest smile you ever seen Then he kissed you it was full of love he broke the kiss and look at you

Tae Young: dove you how happy I am. I know we are too young but I so happy I going to be a dad and you going to be mom dove I love you so much and our baby I promise to you both

You was happy that Tae Young was happy with a baby with you . you hug him back you already know he going be a good father. For the past months he been protected since your pregnant he never let anyone to hurt you or the child

#4 town tae young #tae young x reader #4 town

[polurbehr]

thank you for tagging me @ghost-bc-gf-enjoyer I hope I’m doing this right gjdkfkd

Are you named after anyone? Uh, kind of? It’s sort of weird. Before he met my grandma, my grandpa had a daughter named Genevieve, but she sadly passed when she was really little. My mom originally picked out my name without intending to name me after anyone, but then she realized how similar our names were and she got worried my grandpa would be upset. She asked him for his approval and luckily he was on board, and my name also somewhat honors Genevieve’s memory- I think it’s nice.

When was the last time you cried? I came close today listening to Ghost’s cover of Stay, but I didn’t surprisingly. However, I did cry yesterday at the Tori Amos concert my mom and I went to. It was because she played Hey Jupiter and Gold Dust, if anyone listens to her music.

Do you have kids? None that I know of, thank god. I’d be a little concerned if I had any I wasn’t aware of.

Do you use sarcasm a lot? Just a wee smidge on occasion. I usually try to exaggerate my tone and words when I am being sarcastic, but it still goes over some people’s heads. Then again, I also have trouble picking up on other people’s sarcasm sometimes. I’m autistic, if you couldn’t tell.

What’s the first thing you notice about people? Usually the first thing I notice is a person’s hair, since I tend to avoid eye-contact but I don’t want to seem unengaged in conversation. People’s noses are also another thing I pay attention to I think.

What’s your eye color? My eyes are grayish-blue, but they’re definitely on the grayer side if I had to say.

Do you prefer scary movies or happy endings? It depends on my mood really, though I don’t usually watch a lot of movies- I can’t sit still for too long. But if I had to say, I’d say I prefer happy endings. I love horror movies and darker concepts, but it’s just easier to rewatch comfort media.

Do you have any pets? There’s never been a moment in my life where the answer to this question would be no. I currently have a chinchilla, a husky, a turtle, a ferret, and three cats. They’re split between two houses, but regardless, seven pets is probably too many- though I’ve had way more in just one house before.

What sports do you play/have played? I’ve never really been interested in sports, but I did play on a little league t-ball team for a year when I was 5. I only quit the team so I could take ballet and tap lessons, which I took for a few years before deciding it wasn’t for me anymore.

How tall are you? I think this question is incredibly insensitive and disrespectful. Why does a person’s height matter? Sincerely, a 5 foot tall person whose doctor says she is done growing.

What’s your favorite subject in school? This is definitely going to be controversial amongst a lot of people, but math. I love math and I’m really good at it, I always have been. I like solving puzzles, and it’s one of the only subjects that engages me whilst also not stressing me out too much. I do really enjoy most science courses too, though.

What’s your dream job? I want to be a psychologist, most likely one who specializes in autism and neurodiversity in general. I especially want to help teens and young people learn how to slowly unmask and develop healthy coping strategies. But as long as I’m doing something that helps people, I don’t really care what it is I end up doing overall.

no pressure tags: @historian-crown @terzoswh0re @moonlitpaladin @in-cardi-c-we-thrust

[starlight-vixen-emiko]

WIP Wednesday 9/14/2022

When Marin and Luci were small children, being a kid was certainly not all fun and games. Marin would look back on grade school days and think about playground games and snacks but he also remembered all the times he was bullied and teased, and nothing much was done about it. But Marin was a boy, even at a young age. 

Although behind every strong man is an equally strong woman, and Marin was never alone. There was a young girl with beautiful blue hair and a warm heart that would always take a stand for him. His best friend.

Even if Luci would get in trouble with the teachers she couldn’t take it anymore. But Luci was always know for righteous anger with all the injustice in the world. Sometimes she wished the heroes in the cartoons existed but right now she couldn’t wait around as she spotted two boys trying to beat Marin up.

Luci grit her teeth and ran head first before those boys could touch Marin again. Both her fists flew into their faces and landed direct hits that knocked both boys on the ground. The two rowdy boys didn’t look so tough now they were sitting on the ground rubbing their faces. Luci turned to Marin who sat on the ground looking stunned. 

But when he saw Luci smiling confidently against the bright sunlight he smiled back. And then Luci turned to the two bullies and glared at them.

"I am Marin's knight in shining armor! Don't you jerks ever forget that!" Luci cried.

With that the two boys ran away in fear and Luci paid no mind for them and gave Marin her hand.

She always was his knight in shining armor. Even years later.

~~~~~

Luci was never going to hear the end of it from her brother now. Julien had been ranting and raving ever since Luci protected Marin from a criminal and ended up breaking her hand. Her guitar playing hand was now in a giant cast that looked like a baseball glove, but much less practical.

"You're out of control Luci! Thanks to you we have to cancel the concert! What you did was really brave and really stupid!" Julien cried.

Even though Luci was relaxing in her bed Julien was still pissed at her. At this point she just relaxed and took comfort that her guitar playing hand will heal with time. She did not regret what she did for a moment, because Marin was her one and only muse. 

She already told Julien that she would play for the next concert but that did not ease Julien's anger.

Marin learned to just let Julien have his moment as well. Even though this moment has lasted almost the entire day. At first Julien kept on praying the injury wasn't serious in the hospital. And then denial turned to anger. Still it was a somewhat relaxing afternoon for Marin as he baked cookies and made blueberry lavender milk.

When everything was perfect Marin placed cookies and milk on a tray and walked over to the sleeping area.

"Well I hope our fans won't be heartbroken!" 

That was Julien's final say before he headed out of the sleeping area. He thought he was being effective at wracking Luci and Marin with guilt as he marched away but Marin smiled as he set the tray beside Luci. He made sure her glass of blueberry lavender milk was extra large with a long straw for her to drink out of. And Luci was super eager to eat Marin's cookies again as she took two and shoved them in her mouth. She knew she would be fine with her muse around giving her cuddles. With his cookies and blueberry milk she would heal quicker than when the doctor suggested. After she gulped down some milk Marin took her non-injured hand and stroked it softly as if he was using his non-resistant healing skills.  He gave her such a warm look with his bluebell eyes and Luci couldn't help but take her hand and stroke his round cheek. Then Marin remembered Julien.

"Julien, there are plenty of cookies and milk for you to eat as well," Marin called.

3 minutes, no answer. So Luci took a moment to give Marin a sweet kiss on the cheek. Then the sound of familiar groaning.

"Fine!" Julien cried.

Marin and Luci giggled and the two of them knew they would finally have some peace. Which was good because Marin would do anything to make his shining star feel better, but Luci's love for her muse was unwavering even though she was injured. She laid Marin down on the bed with her uninjured hand and Marin obeyed. Luci then gave him a sweet kiss on the lips before nuzzling her face on his shoulder and placing her bandaged her on his beating heart.

"I love you Luci," Marin whispered dreamily.

"I love you too, my muse," Luci whispered back.

They continued with the cuddling and sweet kisses for awhile. When the sun started to set and Luci let out a yawn Marin got off the bed and was eager to make dinner for her and and her family. But both of them heard familiar footprints from an enigmatic captain who peaked through the door and smiled.

"Captain Anarky!" Marin cried as nearly dropped the apron.

"Daddy!" Luci cried.

Captain Anarky let out a soft chuckle and Luci pouted.

"Daddy, Marin didn’t do anything wrong!” Luci cried.

Captain Anarky chuckled again. “I know Luci, but I would still like to speak with Marin alone for a moment.”

Marin gulped, Captain Anarky always approved of his daughter finding her true love in a goofball like him. But he still felt incredibly guilty that Luci got injured on his behalf.

“Yes sir!” Marin placed the apron down and followed the captain. Luci’s beautiful aquamarine eyes were full of concern but Marin gave her a half-hearted reassuring look and Luci lied back down to rest her injured hand.

#wip wednesday #lukanette #pro lukamari #genderbent lukanette #rule 63 #oh look they're back!

[polyamorouspunk]

Hows life

Objectively life is looking up for me right now. Tomorrow is my last day working with my boss that has it out for all of us, I’m out of my toxic FP relationship, summer is rolling in which means more things like concerts and conventions are rolling around, it’s a good time to be outside doing things because it’s not too hot yet (although it has been, it’s been like 90s this weekend and then raining up until about a few hours ago since the weekend), pride is coming up, I’m going to Florida tomorrow so that’ll be good, going to the doctors again a lot to try and manage all my shitty symptoms… these are all good things, but you know, mental health is a fickle thing, and you know the other night I dreamt of someone I’ve been in love with for over a decade who I haven’t seen in years, this morning I woke up to a dream of my ex-FP asking me to come back and saying he wanted to be mine and I said of course I wanted nothing more, and you know sometimes I just get a punch to the gut realizing that I’m not going to marry my soul-mate and they don’t love me anymore, and I don’t think they would even want to be roommates with me but I’m too afraid to ask, I mean we finally just ended Unorthodox Hero Shop for good I think because he refuses to touch it even though it’s for HIS top surgery and I mean he’s transitioning and I hope living his best life and that doesn’t include me being the love of his life anymore and that shit hurts. I get to see my grandparents tomorrow and by god as shitty as they can be sometimes overall they’re good and I love them and I miss them. I have my mom and my cousins here I get to see and when I go home to CT I do get to see my ex and my best friends but you know when I’m here, day to day, I just feel alone. I have my coworkers and my mom’s coworkers but I just crave to have people that want to come over my house and spend time with me and I threw that away because it was bad (and it really was!). Last night I had trouble sleeping because I just felt ugly like a girl who could never be pretty enough so she pretends to be a boy and like just feeling even at androgyny I’m not as attractive as other people and like really I just need to take a fucking shower and I’ll feel better about my self image but like I really just haven’t made any friends since moving here that are my friends. The “friends” I have are my coworkers and my mom’s coworkers kids. I don’t have anyone I can really be openly queer with and things like that. I had a really, really hot guy of my dreams who was really into me and like told me he wanted to have sex with me which no one has ever said to me and I feel like I threw that away and another guy like that isn’t ever going to look at me ever again etc. and all that stupid vain bullshit. Like yeah things are good I just wish I could catch up to the reality of things being good without having to force myself to be like “Things Are Good And We Are Happy™️”. I wish I didn’t have to keep reordering my thinking away from violent thoughts and wish instead that inner peace just came naturally to me.

TL;DR life is good but I’m tired of having to force myself to see it that way instead of just feeling it.

#punk gets mail #personal #long post

[sarah-dipitous]

Hellsite Nostalgia Tour 2023 Day 263

Rock Never Dies/Hell Bent

“Rock Never Dies”

Plot Description: Castiel and Crowley close in on Lucifer as the fallen angel realizes his new rock-star vessel allows him to get fans to do whatever he wants

This is such a huge “ask and you shall receive,” but as I thought harder on it last night, didn’t Rowena banish Lucifer to the bottom of the ocean after decaying his body a whole bunch?? How is he back already??

Would I Survive the First Five Minutes??: I would not try to summon Lucifer, I’m good

I was promised Castiel, why are we getting Dean playing Words With Friends??

The boys really do stick to small towns and whatnot. It’s gonna be weird seeing them in LA

It’s bad that you have to lie to Dean saying you’re listening to a podcast on the Protestant reformation just so you can MAYBE listen to your hair metal band (that Dean hates) in peace

You leave Castiel and his one outfit alone, Dean. You have, like, 10 and they ALL make you look like a lumberjack. Hashtag team cas

Poor Castiellllll, he’s so over working with Crowley

Oh, Cas…can’t tell the difference between the aftermath of a fight and the aftermath of a rockstar ~spending time~ with a groupie

Apparently, sometimes it does pay to have Crowley on your team. You get perspectives you never thought you would that way

How did Castiel get in with Vince/Lucifer’s band mates? The Winchesters are posing as a band themselves to Vince’s PR person, Crowley has a deal with a guy in the music industry….but Cas??

(There was a lot of just trying to get to the concert that happened that wasn’t too interesting)

I don’t wanna watch Lucifer beat the shit out of Cas and Crowley…

Ok but Sam being the one thing standing between the crowd getting out and Lucifer locking them in the venue with him??? And then Lucifer locking Sam in the venue with him???????

I AM here for Castiel beating the shit out of Lucifer and getting to repeat his “Hey, assbutt!” line

Sometimes you pause at the exact right time

Well, that didn’t last long

Ok but like…………sympathy for the devil has gone way up again “he finally apologizes for abandoning me, and what’s the very next thing he dies? Ditches me” luciiiiiiii, babyyyyyyyy. He’s really having an existential crisis and spiraling into a very “nothing fucking matters” mindset

Did Horikoshi watch supernatural when coming up with Dabi? Lucifer is really breaking down all while saying that his whole plan is to just keep breaking everything his dad created

Jesus, Crowley, you look terrible

“Hell Bent”

Plot Description: the Doctor faces the Time Lords in a struggle that will take him to the end of time

I don’t know why we’re starting in this sort of random and almost certainly fake scene between the Doctor and Clara in a 50s style diner (or not really Clara)

I know he’s on Gallifrey now but I truly do t know what’s going on

This poor Gallifrean woman who keeps getting hassled by the military and high council all while the Doctor refuses to see them…til the high council’s leader comes calling

Oooooo!!!! The Doctor telling the Gallifrean president “get off my planet.”

Ok, so not Clara and the Doctor is happening in some sort of real time and everything on Gallifrey is in the recent-ish past

Ok…I’m probably gonna Gonzo and Rizzo when the ghost of Christmas yet to come showed up, but more out of confusion than fear

Well cuz now I’m wondering if the Hybrid IS the Doctor. I know he said he was, but what about Clara? Clara who we met as Oswin in the Dalek asylum, who kept so much of her humanity while being a Dalek…whose very continued existence as the Doctor tries to save her even know could fracture all of time

We already knew I love the Daleks but hearing this one yelling out “exterminate me” is heartbreaking

Did Clara ever come up against the angels? Why would she know what to do in their presence??

I’m not ready to hear the Doctor’s answer to how long it’s been since he last saw Clara.

I’m shattered at the Doctor not telling her, Clara had to ask someone else…and it was 4.5 billion years. 4.5 BILLION. YEARS. of running and solving the puzzle and dying and reincarnating, trying to claw his way out of the confessional dial just for the chance to maybe save his best friend’s life. I am a wreck

Ohhhhhh, Doctor, you really shouldn’t have been alone so long. This is just like at the end of Ten’s time. He really believes he is the end all be all of time and existence, that he answers to no one because we’re at the last dying embers of the universe.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME WITH FOUR KNOCKS????

Not Arya is also here at the end of time.

What?? I’m ngl I’m getting a little lost in all the “who/what is the Hybrid?” theories they’re tossing around

I hate watching them say goodbye AGAIN.

Why does the Doctor and a companion who was his BEST FRIEND always have to end in a memory wipe for one of them???? There’s an emptiness and yet i can’t stop crying

Wait… is this the diner from the impossible astronaut? Is he remembering incorrectly? I knew it looked familiar

Oh, she returned his TARDIS to himmmm

I’d love to have a mini series of Clara and Not Arya’s adventures on their way to Gallifrey…

Oh thank god he has a sonic screwdriver again

#hellsite nostalgia tour 2023

[musewritingsforyou]

Headcannons/Timeline

This is just a little bit to explain the world that these fics will take place in as well as when in my timeline everything fits. Don’t worry, this isn’t everything you're going to get! I promise more is on its way, I just wanted to make sure you understand the world before you meet its people

Posting first story soon!

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- When y/n joins tour Harry and they are already dating but very new in the relationship

- they are on tour for the third album (the tour where Harry is starting to grow out his hair so he always has it tied with a bit of fabric I think this will be like 2012-2016)

- Y/N’s job on tour is as a medic/doctor/nurse to the boys and everyone else on tour

- Y/N also has the unofficial title of “boy wrangler” because it seems like they are the only one that the boys will listen to

- Y/N splits their time in between being backstage and on the floor in front of the barricade where the security is

-  Y/N  has an earpiece that feeds them the same thing the boys hear so they know what they are dealing with, and then in the other ear is an open line of communication to the sound booth and the boys if needed. Y/N also has a walkie talkie for contacting security if needed

- the way of talking with the boys while they are on stage is with sign language, ASL or BSL, or just signs that we have made up over time working together, y/n can also talk to them over the open line but in the middle of songs that line is only open to sound booth so if you are trying to talk to them like that you have to wait until in between songs

- y/n is friends with all of the boys and they have a wonderful relationship, Niall and y/n are especially close (probably because he is always coming to see me with some sort of issue)

- management/Simon/the studio is not at all problematic in this reality they are very flexible and not at all controlling and have a good line of communication with the boys and the crew

- y/n is a very good traveler and does not get carsick, bus sick, plane sick, seasick, anything like that

- y/n can sleep anywhere and everywhere, It doesn’t matter what noise is in the background or what position they are in or the time zone or whatever

- y/n is a very calm and steady person, large crowds do not give them any anxiety and when something is wrong with the boys they very calm under pressure

- The times y/n get anxious are afterward if something very scary has happened once everything calms down sometimes I break a little because it was terrifying, but at the moment no one would be able

- y/n technically has their own bus on tour because it is the “med bay bus” but most of the time they let other people use that as the “quiet bus” and y/n will sleep with Harry on the boy’s bus, or in the hotel room with him, but sometimes when both of them are tired or just need a break from each other y/n sleeps on that bus (Paul stays there most nights too because it is quiet)

- y/n doesn’t get tired of other people very easily so they don’t have a lot of issues spending so much time with the boys and Harry and y/n rarely get sick of each other, they love being able to spend most of their day together

- y/n have an amazing singing voice, it is not their job or even really a hobby, just something that they like to do

- at least once a concert Harry will come over to y/n’s side of the stage and hold the mic in front of their face for them to sing a verse because the crowd loves it

- During girl almighty Harry always comes over to wherever y/n is on the floor and he kneels right in front of them, blowing them a kiss at the end of the verse

- He is always prancing around on stage and the boys and y/n have a lot of fun together while they are on stage, Harry splashing y/n, y/n giving them all snacks, and making signs at each other. For each show, the boys and y/n have an unofficial competition to see who can make the other laugh the most

- Whenever any of the boys are sick they have to stay with y/n on the “quiet” bus, which sometimes leads to Harry being a little jealous and pretending to be sick too so he doesn’t get lonely

- y/n is almost always busy with some medical emergency while on tour, Niall is probably the worst because he is always falling off of his Segway and breaking something, Harry is also a bit of a problem child because he has asthma which is a tough spot to be in on stage, Liam doesn’t have too many issues (but for that time he breaks his arm), Louis never had any major issues but he is always coming to y/n with little scrapes and bruises (they have had to give him stitches a few times), Zayn is an angel he is never sick or injured and is just a sweetheart

- y/n’s biggest concern is always Harry, not just because he is their boyfriend but also from a medical standpoint his asthma can be very hard to control when he is on stage because of all of the different factors like the jumping around, long sustained notes, belting, smoke machines, inhaling water, dust, just general sickness so y/n always has like five different inhalers on them at all times and Harry usually needs one once a show.

- The boys always make fun of y/n for carrying a crap ton of stuff around with them during the concerts because they are always carrying snacks for the boys, waters for them and the other staff, extra medical supplies, pens, markers, snacks for themself, a coffee, and just a ton of other random stuff

- y/n is definitely the “mom” the boys and all the other staff. They all come to y/n when they are sick so she just kind of naturally assumes that role of the mom for everyone, plus she always has the most random things in her overall pockets that happen to be just the thing they need.

- Those bandana things that Harry wears are usually bits of y/n’s old shirts

- On the later tours when his hair is long enough he comes to y/n’s side of the stage and leans his head down for them to put his hair up

- Harry is almost always half-naked. Like no joke this boy never wears a shirt and if you see him wearing pants it’s practically a miracle. He pretty much refuses to wear a shirt until seconds before he has to go on stage, and the second he is off stage the shirt is on the floor of the room.

- y/n is the queen of catching things that people are trying to throw on stage. Paul swears she has a supernatural sense for it, doesn’t matter where they are coming from or what it is, she can catch it without a second thought. Harry thinks it’s hilarious because y/n horrible at all other sports.

- That clinking sound that Harry’s rings make when he puts his hands together actually happens all the time. Like he is always messing with his hands or with mine (y/n always has a couple of rings on as well) and that sound is so oddly comforting now.

- At the beginning of every new tour that we do, y/n cuts her hair very short and then just lets it grow out for the length of the tour (besides a few trims from Lou here and there)

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A general timeline of events: first I show up when  Lux is born and meet Harry because I am the godmother, next year I go on tour with them by then we are dating, move in together, one more full tour, another tour in which Zayn leaves Louis mom is sick and Briana has Freddie, Hiatus begins, filming of Dunkirk, he proposes, Louis mom dies, I tell him I’m pregnant, Robin dies, all the boys solo albums come out, they announce they will continue as 1D and take occasional breaks to do solo music, I have the baby, we tour Made in the AM (I still work the tour with the baby, Maya and Briana come along for most of it as well with their kids), we get married when we arrive back from Made in the AM when bean is one year old.

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welp, there’s that, lmk if you have any recommendations or would like to make a request!

#harry styles #harry styles comfort #harry styles imagines #headcanon #timeline #onedirectiontour #one direction #niall horan #louis tomilson #liam payne

[alettertomymommy]

January 29, 2023

Whoa...it’s been over 6 years since I wrote to you last. So much has changed: I’ve moved twice; now it’s just me and the cats in Carol Stream. I got promoted, several times; I’m a “manager” now, with my own team of direct reports. Don’t ask about why I put manager in quotes; it’s a long, bitter story that I’d rather just gloss right on over. 

A lot feels like it’s still the same: I haven’t spoken to Dad since August of 2016. Sometimes I think I miss him, but then I remember the pain/toxicness of that relationship and I realize that I really am better off not having a relationship with him right now. I’m not saying this is forever, but for now this is the way it needs to be.

Johnny is still my person; he took over once you were no longer able to be here for me. I don’t see him as much as I’d like to, but I’m working on that. He and Rodger moved from Sun Lake to DeFuniak Springs, FL. You’d love it there! The downtown area has a bunch of cute shops and restaurants. I can’t wait to go back. I am seriously considering moving to FL; possibly even to the same area as them. It would definitely be an adjustment and I’d possibly need to find a new job, but he and Rodger are what’s left of my family. 

Work is work. I’ve been struggling a lot over the past year with feeling overwhelmed and burnt out. I finally admitted it to my boss during our last 1:1 and told her that I need support/something has to change. She was receptive and didn’t make me feel like I’m not good enough or that I can’t do my job. I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders after the conversation and hopefully we can work together to make the changes that need to be made to ensure I no longer feel this way. And my team! They need support too, and I feel like I’m not doing very well at being their boss. Lots of changes to be made and work to be done, but I’m feeling better about it. Hopefully things will fall into place.

I just got back from Vegas...Alanna and I saw ADELE in concert. It was amazing, Mom. I didn’t cry as much as I thought I would, but I cried. She can sing and the show was awesome. On vacation I realized how much I was dreading coming back home to work and my ‘reality’, so I decided to make some changes. I decided to utilize the EAP from Claire’s to get some counseling. I had my first session on Friday and I’m really hoping that during the 8 free sessions I can get some good tools to work through what I’ve got going on personally and professionally. 

I need to take better care of myself. I remember I used to get so mad at you for not taking care of yourself, and here I am doing the same thing you did. I just keep trying to keep up the routines and habits that I know I should, but I always lose focus/interest after a few weeks and then revert to all the unhealthy (mentally, physically, emotionally, etc.) habits that are comfortable. I also think I might have ADHD. I think I’ve had it for a really long time, but never knew was it was. Don’t laugh, but after watching a whole bunch of videos on TikTok, I’ve realized that a lot of my habits/ways of doing things are clear signs of undiagnosed/untreated ADHD. I just need to find a doctor to actually go to and get diagnosed. That’s a whole step unto itself that I’ll struggle with.

I’m trying not to whine or complain. I need to stop letting the negative things take over my emotions and thoughts. That’s part of what has been affecting me a lot personally and professionally. It feels like everything that happens has negative connotations and I seem to spiral into dark thoughts and feel terrible. I’m trying to start being more positive, so hopefully that helps. I’m really trying very hard right now to stay busy and not turn on my work laptop. I feel super behind, but that’s to be expected after being on vacation right? YES! I have to remember that I cannot be everything for everyone everywhere at once. That’s how I ended up feeling like this to begin with. I made a to-do list for tomorrow and it feels like a lot, but I’ve got to go to the office and hopefully being there will help me focus and plow through my list.

I’ve been watching James Bond films all weekend, so I’m going to go back to Casino Royale now. I’ve only been watching the Pierce Brosnan & Daniel Craig films because both of them are super attractive...and I do what I want. That and some of the older ones are just way too rapey for my taste. I’m going to have a little more pizza (homemade with Chef Boyardee sauce) and an apple and then it’s off to bed. Got to take my vitamins before bed though; that’s part of my new routine and I need all the Vitamin C I can get right now since I’m sick for the second time in a month.

I love you, Mom. And I miss you every day, still. It’s been 7 years since you left this earth and every once in a while it feels like it was just yesterday. I still wish I could call you whenever I need to, or even just hear your voice. I’m doing okay though. Yes, I’m struggling right now, but I’m trying to find my way out of the dark and scary place. I asked for help this time and I’m not going to just bottle it all up inside. I’ll write to you more frequently, I promise! I need to keep a journal, so maybe I’ll just write to you everyday as a way of chronicling my thoughts and feelings; like I’m having a conversation with you. Maybe that’ll make it a bit easier. 

Love, Your Girlie Girl

[surveysandthings]

5.

Does your hair have natural highlights in it? It’s blonde so I have highlights and lowlights in it but they’re certainly not natural.

What was the last decision you had trouble making? I’m currently debating over whether or not I want to go to the Taylor Swift concert. I got tickets but I don’t really want to go with the people I said I’d go with, y’know?

When was the last time you wore a dress? It’s winter so its been a while.

Do you have a water bottle sitting next to you? Yup!

When was the last time you walked outside barefoot? When I was a kid?

What is one type of fruit that you'd like to try that you've never tried before? I’m good.

Do you have a balcony? Nope, but that would be nice!

Have you ever lived alone? If not, would you ever want to live alone? If yes, do/did you like it? I haven’t and I wouldn’t ever want to. That sounds so sad and lonely.

When was the last time you saw your mom? In person? I believe November 1st.

Did you read a really good book today? I haven't read a book in over a year, it’s not something I do often.

Do you wish you had a swimming pool? It would be nice but it would go unused for a lot of the time.

Do you ever have so much energy that it annoys you? Sometimes I get a random energy burst right before bed and it annoys my husband more than it annoys me, haha!

What are three things you like that rhyme with June? Baboon, cartoon, and the moon.

Do you use an inhaler every day? Nope.

What was the last thing you drank? Aquaaaa.

What color shirt are you wearing? Baby blue!

Are you wearing anything tie-dye right now? Newp.

Are you severely allergic to anything, and if so, what? Not severely but bananas and artichokes give me incredibly bad stomach pain and nausea.

Have you been told by a doctor that you are a rare medical case? No, thank god.

What is one thing you hate about Prednisone (if applicable)? ......what a weird question. I have no feelings about prednisone.

Do you have to wear a mask whenever you clean? Nope.

Does your phone annoy you? Sometimes.

Who was the last person who came to visit you? My mom and dad came to visit at the end of October. 

Are you listening to a good song right now? I’m not listening to anything!

When was the last time you wore headphones? Yesterday while I did my hair!

Have you encountered anything supernatural yet today? No. Ever? Also no.

Have you ever seen a UFO? Nope.

Are you an alien? 👽

What was the last flavor of ice cream you ate? I had one of those double caramel magnum ice cream bars. They’re delightful.

What grocery store do you shop at the most? Walmart!

What is your most severe allergy (at least to your knowledge)? I already told you, bud.

At what age did you start to feel mature (if applicable)? I started to feel mature after I started driving at 16 but I didn’t start feeling like an adult until I was 25/26. Still have a ways to go.

What's the largest library fine you've had? One time I returned some library books and they called me a few days later, saying it came back all chewed up, like a dog had gotten ahold of it and so I had to pay like $30 to replace it. I didn’t have a dog at the time and it genuinely was not damaged when I dropped it off so I just only used my mom’s library card until I moved away. As if I was gonna pay that.

Have you ever had your hair highlighted at a salon? If yes, what color highlights did you get? I’ve had it lightened many times, it’s blonde.

Have you ever had your hair permed? No, my hair is already curly.

Do you think your hair looks better straight or curly? Curly. Pin straight hair is just nooooot it on me.

...and what is it naturally? Curly!

Have you ever had dreadlocks? No, I'm white.

Have you ever considered getting dreadlocks? No, I'm white.

What is your favorite version of the Bible to read (if applicable)? Ew.

Are you wearing socks right now? Socks are of the devil.

Do you have a hair tie around your wrist right now? Nope.

Do you have family that you wish you could see more? I have family I wish were worth seeing more.

What was your first job? A paper route or babysitting I guess?

Are you happy with your life right now? Ugh. I dunno. Not really? But I'm trying.

Have you ever had to use an epi pen? Newp.

Have you ever gone to the emergency room having a severe allergic reaction? Why are you so obsessed with allergies???

What was the last emoji you used? Probably the laughing one.

Are you having a good day today? I’m having a pretty okay day today. My husband is either sick or having really bad allergies, we can't tell which and I'm worried he is sick and I’m gonna catch it. He’s also lost his voice so its been a pretty quiet day.

What song are you listening to right now? Still no music.

#surveys

[wota-tenebrarum]

I’m like, 100% sure he won’t see it here (and also doesn’t speak English) so I’m just gonna go off on one of the other regular fans of my main idol group. I don’t really know him that well, but he’s always given me a weird fuckin’ vibe. He’s friendly enough, just quiet, and the one time we spoke it was him approaching me about trading senkou tokuten since he got one of my favourite member. Like, he sought me out because he knows I like her. So that was cool. But the way he interacted with/talks about his own favourite has always weirded me the hell out, man. It reads as 1000% gachikoi (real romantic feelings), which are inadvisable at best when it comes to idols. I’m immune to catching feelings thanks to being an alloaro, but when you can actually meet these people regularly sometimes fans end up falling for them. And this dude was seeing this girl REGULARLY. He’d get like, 10 chekis every concert so he’d have a ton of talk time with her, and he even at one point bought ONE THOUSAND DOLLARS worth of CDs to get the “private concert” (an actual, genuine concert, nothing dirty) bonus that they were offering. Like, yeah, it’s his money, but bruh, she’s not gonna date you. She may think you’re a nice person, even, but this is IDOL, not visual kei (lol), you’re not gonna be the guy to slip through the social barriers and marry your oshi. And honestly, you only have one outfit. I have seen you dozens of times and you’ve been wearing the same outfit literally every time. Not attractive, even if it’s a decent outfit! And this agency is confirmed by former talent to not be involved in any shady shit, so like, there is literally no path to what you want here, my guy. Anyway, when this member left the group back in March, this dude was crushed. Obviously. He even stopped using Twitter altogether.  But now he’s back! He’s been going to lives again. I saw him at the tour final and he apparently went to the thing in Shimokitazawa today (that I missed ;A;). And I checked his Twitter, and he’s posting again, but it’s WEIRD SHIT, MAN. He said he’s still attached to the remaining members a bit (valid) and has wanted to enjoy the songs again (also valid), but he’s also off on some shit about how he hates the agency, and I’m fairly certain it’s because he feels they didn’t push his favourite hard enough or something and that’s why she left. And honestly? If she left because of lack of exposure, that was her doing. She was quite shy and didn’t have much force of personality. And that’s fine and okay and even a selling point for a lot of idols, but if she wasn’t happy with where she was because of it, leaving was probably best for her anyway. I adored her. She was great. I’m not mad at this very small indie talent agency for not making her blow up. And then like, yeah, he’s saying stuff like “I’ll never have another oshi again, and I’ll just think back on my memories with her, happy that she was my last”. Buddy, she left in March. Like bruuuuuuuuuuuuh your behavior is so WEIRD Has she contacted you? No, because you’re talking about her like she’s dead or something. She knows your Twitter. These are indie idols, man, and she had the fewest regular fans. She knows how to contact you. She hasn’t done it. Maybe you’re too invested. Maybe this is terribly unhealthy and you need help. This shit’s fuckin bonkers, my guy. Go see a doctor. If you’re still this rabid like, half a year after she left, something’s up. This was an idol you saw for a few hours and spoke with for a few minutes a few times a month, not your wife of 23 years who fell ill with the consumption. Cut this shit out. Jesus. I don’t want someone like this around women, and if I’m gonna be seeing him at lives anyway I would love it if he, you know, wasn’t so fucking weird. The other core fans who are totally normal hang out with him and stuff, so like, is he just being dramatic or something? Is this a bit? Maybe they’re trying to help him. That’d be cool. Though one seems a bit too eager to back him up on this shit, too. Idk man, this guy’s giving me bad vibes. I hope he knocks it off soon.

#I adore my oshi and would commit low-level crimes for her #But I also know where I stand #what to expect #and what is and is not appropriate #And this shit is not appropriate

[crimefightingspiderguy]

holding out for a hero

Summary: Shaun (Shang-Chi) offers you go out for drinks and who are you to refuse?

Warnings: Drinking. Talk of sex (none actually happens). No spoilers for Shang-Chi and the Legend of the the Ten Rings (but I do give away what his job is in the movie if you didn't know that pre-movie).

Pairings: Shang-Chi x reader

Word count: 2,492

A/N: I did make the female reader bisexual in this piece, but if that's not how you identify, it's only briefly mentioned in a sentence or two and you can just swap out the pronouns, or skip over it really quick, without affecting the plot :) Also, please do not think I'm using the name Shaun because I didn't want to use Shang-Chi or am being disrespectful to his true name. I'm basing this timeline wise, before he reveals his past to anyone close to him.

“Hey guys!” You waved to Shaun and Katy as you walked into the hotel to clock in. You were taking over Katy’s shift. She needed to go home early to go to the doctors, but Shaun was still there for another 3 hours with you. You were very willing to take over her shift when she asked. You loved working with both of them and any chance you got to, you gladly took it. I mean, who wouldn’t want to get paid to hang out with your best friends?

“You’re welcome.” You heard Katy say to Shaun as she was walking inside to clock out, passing you by with a cheeky wink, as you took your spot next to him.

“Well, she’s in an awful good mood for having to go to the doctors. I thought she had a fear of the doctors.” You gasped, “Is she drunk?”

He chuckled, “No. She’s not actually going to the doctors. She just wanted an excuse to leave work early to go to some concert in LA.”

“Oh, that wench! I gave up going on a date to come in for her. I thought she was dying or something.” You pouted, not actually mad at her, but you were still sad you told your date no.

“You had a date? Who’s the lucky one.” Shaun asked.

“Well, she is a lucky gal who I paid to go to dinner without me.” You huffed.

“You paid her to go out to dinner? By herself?”

“Well, we already had reservations, but I told her something came up with work and I had to go in. But she could take the reservation if she wanted, my treat. I’m sure she probably took someone else since it was a reservation for two.”

“So let me get this straight.” Shaun started to laugh, “You paid some random girl to go on your date with someone else?” He was doubled over in laughter by the end of his sentence.

You kicked his shin, “Hey, I was trying to do something nice for someone I stood up… but yeah it does seem like I probably just sent her on a date with someone else.” You started to laugh with him.

“You’re too nice for your own good sometimes.” He patted you on the shoulder. “How about this, after our shift, I’ll take you out for drinks and karaoke, my treat.”

“Well, that would make me feel better.” You grinned at him, leaving his side to help the new guest pulling up.

After the shift, the two of you took a bus to his apartment so he could change out of his uniform. You were going to stop at your house, which was between his apartment and the bar but when you got into his room, a deep blue sweater hanging in his closet pulled your attention to it. You walked into his closet and shut the mirror door over it. Pulling the sweater off the hanger, it was softer than you could ever imagine. You stripped of your uniform top and threw on the sweater. It was so comfortable and after a deep inhale, smelt exactly like Shaun. It was heavenly.

“(Y/N)?” Shaun called out to you, coming out of the bathroom after getting dressed himself. You stepped out of the closet, “Why are you wearing my sweater?” He laughed at your guilty expression as you slowly walked up to him.

“Well, it was just sitting there looking so comfy, I just wanted to try it on, but now that it’s on I’m afraid I’m never going to take it off. It’s too comfy.” You wrapped your arms around yourself, snuggling into the sweater even more.

“It looks good on you.” He smiled.

“It can be our sweater, how’s that sound?” You batted your eyelashes up at him as he threw his head back in laughter.

“Let’s go short stuff before I end up staying here and cuddling. Our sweater isvery cozy, so it’s very tempting.” Him saying he would rather stay home and cuddle with you, and him holding your hand as he pulled you out of his apartment caused you to blush. He let go of your hand to lock his door, turning to you, “Are you blushing?” He chuckled, grazing his fingers over your burning cheeks.

“No, it’s just getting a little warm in this sweater.” You rolled the sleeves up, letting your arms breathe, “There, that’s better.” You lied and turned away to the exit with determination. He just shook his head and chuckled.

You were a few shots deep into your bar night when you couldn’t help but stare at Shaun. ‘Has he always been this pretty?’ you thought to yourself.

“What are you staring at?” He laughed as he set your next drink down. You said nothing but answered him by putting your hand in his hair, “Your hair is so soft. Oh my gosh it’s softer than this sweater.”

“How many drinks have you had?” He burst out laughing, pulling your hand out of his hair and holding it on the table in his own.

“I haven’t had anything to drink.” You slurred as you take a sip of the fruity drink, he put in front of you.

“Mhmmm, and how many fingers am I holding up?” He held up 3 fingers on the hand not holding yours.

“3, now how many am I holding up.” You stuck up your middle finger and stuck your tongue out as he pretended to be hurt and gasped. “I have to pee.” You got up and stumbled your way to the bathroom. It was a pretty simple trip there and back, but when you got out you couldn’t remember where your table with Shaun was. So instead of going to the table you headed up to the stage and picked the first song that stood out to you, “Holding out for a Hero” by Bonnie Tyler. As the intro music was building up you spoke into the microphone, “This one goes out to that beautiful boy right there.” You pointed vaguely in Shaun’s direction and then burst out into song.

He laughed as he made his way up to the edge of the stage. He was mostly concerned that you’d fall off the stage and land right on your face, but he was really enjoying the performance that you’d likely forget tomorrow. When you finished your song, you held your hand out to meet Shaun’s stretched out one to help you off the stage.

“Oh my gosh, thanks for helping me down. That was like a 20-foot drop. You’re the hero I was holding out for!” You exclaimed as you threw your arms around his neck.

“It’s a stage maybe 3 inches off the ground, but I’ll take the credit I guess.” He pulled back from the hug and grabbed your hand, pulling you back to your seats.

“Oh no, I’m empty.” You pouted when you found nothing in your cup at the table.

“I’ll get us refills. Stay here.” He made his way up to the bar.

You pulled out your phone and opened your texts with Katy,

“OMG KATY THIS REALLY HOT GUY IS GETTING ME A DRINK AT THE BAR. I THINK I MIGHT GET LAID 2NIGHT! 🤪”

“I thought you were at the bar with Shaun?”

“Who’s Shaun?”

Shaun came back to your table and set down your glass.

“Well, hello handsome.” You wiggled your eyebrows at him, “Do you come here often?” You leaned your head on your hand, elbow on the table. You were as Katy would describe it to you, “heart-eyeing” him.

“Okay, I’m glad I grabbed you a water.” Shaun chuckled as he took his seat across from you.

His phone lit up with Katy’s contact picture. He answered it, plugging the opposite ear.

“Hello?”

“Hey, are you still with (Y/N)?”

“Yeah, why?”

“Who else are you guys with?”

“No one, why?” his question was met with silence, then a loud laugh from Katy.

“HA! No way, she totally texted me that a hot guy was getting her a drink and she was definitely getting laid tonight. When I asked her if she was still with you she said ‘Who’s Shaun’ and proceeded to stop texting me. She thinks your hot and that you guys are hooking up, this is going better than I thought it would when I called in.”

“Shut up, you’re messing with me.”

“Well, what is she doing right now?”

“She’s staring at me and sighing contently… OH MY GOD SHE DOESN’T KNOW WHO I AM!?” Shaun whisper-yelled into the phone.

“Well of course I know who you are silly! You’re the handsome man who’s sitting across from me and I’m the lucky gal who gets to look at you.” You giggled as you continued to stare at him with a sweet, but glazed over, look.

“Oh my god she’s so far gone.” Katy laughed on the other end.

“What do I do? Have you ever seen her this drunk?” Shaun was beginning to worry that you’d had way past your limit and you were about to get really sick.

“Oh yeah, definitely. All you have to do is bring her home and put her to bed. She’ll be fine, I’ve seen her drunker than this and not get sick.”

“Okay, should I make her coffee or something?”

“She’s allergic to coffee genius.” Katy rolled her eyes.

“Right, right. I knew that. Thanks Katy.” He hung up the phone and got up to grab your stuff.

“Hey where are you going?” You pouted as he walked up to the bar to pay the bill

“I’ll be right back, just wait here for me.” You nodded your head and waited patiently for him to come back.

“We’re going to go home now, alright?” Shaun pulled you out of your seat carefully helping you land on your feet. You nodded your head and yawned, stretching your arms over your head.

“Shaun, I’m too tired to walk.”

“Oh, now you remember who I am?” He chuckled, and you gave him a questioning look,

“Of course, I remember you, why wouldn’t I?”

“Well about 5 minutes ago you didn’t, I brought you a water and I guess it cleared your head enough. Come here.” He bent over enough for you to hop onto his back so he could give you a piggyback ride.

“My hero.” You mumbled into his back, closing your eyes as he started walking out of the building.

“Hey, (Y/N).” Shaun shook his shoulders to wake you up.

“Mhmm?” You moaned.

“Where are your keys?”

You sighed and climbed off his back, reaching into your purse, you handed the keys to him. He grabbed your hand and led you up to your porch, unlocking the front door and bringing you inside. He locked the door behind him and picked you up bridal style. Your head lolled into his chest as he carried you to your bedroom. He put you down on the bed, pulling the covers up and over you.

“Shaun…” You let your hand reach up to pull his arm back to you.

“What’s up?” He looked at you with concern.

“Can you help me take my pants off?” You laughed, and he blushed.

“Uh… yeah, sure.” Once he pulled back the covers, he realized why you asked. He hadn’t realized you were still in your dress pants from work. He went to unhook the buttons and slowly pulled them down your legs, tossing them into your hamper across the room. He pulled the covers back up to your chin and laughed as you happily took them and snuggled farther into the bed. He went to leave again but you stopped him yet again, “Shaun…”

“Yes?”

“Will you stay with me?”

“I was going to crash on the couch. I’ll be right outside, holler if you need something okay?”

“No… will you stay in here with me?” You opened your eyes for the first time since you got into your house. You gave him a puppy dog pout that made him melt.

“I can set up some couch cushions on the floor I guess…” he began looking around the floor to find a big enough space for him.

“No… Shaun… just come here.” You pulled him onto the bed and scooted over, pulling the covers over him. He hesitated for a second, body freezing, but when you snuggled your body into his side, he quickly melted under your touch. Not strong enough to fight off sleep any longer.

Shaun sighed as he woke up, he forgot to set his alarm last night. He probably was going to be late for work. He opened his eyes to see an unfamiliar bedding surrounding him. It then hit him that he was not alone. He was holding onto someone. Looking down, he saw your peaceful face resting into his chest. Your breath fanning over him, tickling him. ‘When did I take my shirt off?’ He thought as he quickly realized why it tickled. He looked under the covers slowly, trying not to wake you, ‘When did I take my pants off?!’ He questioned himself in alarm as he realized he was snuggled up to you in just underwear. He slowly leaned up on his elbow to look around them. Your pants and bra were thrown haphazardly towards your hamper and his shirt, pants, and socks laid at the end of the bed. He laid back on his side and looked down at his current position with you. He had his hand resting on your back underneath his sweater. Your legs tangled with his, and your hands cupping under your face that was cuddled up into his chest still. He couldn’t help the giant grin that plastered his face. He’s wanted to be with you like this for years. He’s wanted to be able to hold you close when he wakes up, to be able to kiss your forehead as you wake up, smiling up at him. He’s wanted to feel how soft your skin is, how gentle your lips rest against his skin. He’s got goose bumps all over his body as he realizes just how warm you are. He started rubbing circles on your back, trying to wake you up.

“Mhmm. That feels nice.” You smiled into his skin. You slowly opened your eyes and looked up at him, “See, isn’t this so much better than sleeping on the couch?”

“This is way better.” He kissed your hairline.

“I hope you know when I said this is our sweater, I meant I’m never giving it back.”

“You look better in it anyway.” He shrugged, tucking a strand of your hair behind your ear, getting a good look at you, ‘Oh yeah, way better in it.’ He thought to himself as he blushed thinking about beautiful you were and how lucky he is right now in this moment.

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[haechanniesunflowers]

Ateez reaction to you being hurt

notes: I'm feeling angsty today

Seonghwa

He had a hard day, practicing for hours on end for Ateez's 10th year anniversary concert. He wanted to get home and pour his heart out in front of you and just spend time with you. But he came home and you weren't there much to his dismay, but he waited for you. It was raining heavily. He called you again and again but you weren't answering making him anxious and adding to his frustration. Three hours later, the rain still hadn't stopped and he was scared and furious. The bell rang and Seonghwa opened the door. You stood there, completely drenched in the rain. He stepped aside to let you in. You walked inside and got to the living room when he pulled you by your arm to make you face him.

"where the hell were you? And why weren't you answering your damn phone?" he tone was harsh.

"Seonghwa please, not now I-"

"no we need to talk about this now! answer me! Do you know how worried I was? And I was already frustrated to begin with!"

You lowered your head and let the tears spill but it seemed like the rain water was dripping down your face.

He shook you arm to pull you, making you lift your face and roughly pull out of his grasp. That's when he saw the tears.

"I had a bad day too! Okay? My awful coworkers took credit for my project that I worked so hard on! And on top of that I locked the car with the keys, my wallet and phone inside! And I had to walk home because I didn't have any money for a bus or a cab! There! Got your answer!"

Seonghwa's eyes softened at your words and he tried hugging you but you pulled back.

"no I'm not in the mood and I'm drenched"

You went to your room and locked yourself in the bathroom to cry in the shower.

Hongjoong

The track he was working on was almost ready and he wanted you to be the first person to hear it so he called you to invite you over to his studio.

"hey babe what are you doing?"

"nothing much Joong. What's up"

"can you come over in the evening? I want you to listen to my song"

There was a pause from your end.

"hello? Baby can you hear me?"

"ye-ah Joongie. I'm busy these days, I'm so sorry. I'll try to come after the next week."

"no that's okay, you don't need to put your work aside. I'm free today since I finished the song, I'll come over. How does that sound?"

"I'll tell you in a few hours, okay?"

Hongjoong felt something was off so he quickly got done with his files and saved the track and packed up. He drove straight to your apartment and knocked on the door. You didn't expect to see Hongjoong at the door so you hid behind the door after opening it. He eyed you suspiciously.

"are you okay?" he asked, pushing the door slightly to get inside.

"yeah why do you ask?" you spoke nonchalantly, standing in the akimbo pose.

"you're acting... unusual"

"nonsense"

He slid it aside and took you towards your bedroom. He found it unusual how you were walking slowly and stopped.

"you're hurt." he stated and his suspicion was confirmed when you didn't answer.

"I slipped and sprained my ankle. I didn't want you to worry so I didn't tell you and I didn't agree to meet you"

He picked you up and laid you on the couch, snuggling next to you.

"I'm here to take care of you" he whispered and turned the TV on.

Yunho

Yunho is always in a good mood when he gets to see you. He wants to make the best use of the time he gets to spend with you. So during his break, you guys went to his home town to meet his parents but you stayed in a hotel even though he insisted that you stayed at his house. But you were a woman of principles and didn't think it was appropriate to stay at your boyfriend's house before marriage. He came to pick you up in his car and took you to an amusement park. You guys took roller-coaster rides and other scary looking rides too. He asked if you wanted to eat something and proposed the idea of going to a restaurant but you you told him that hotdogs from the vendors in the park would be nice and that you wanted to stay there longer and get on more rides. After eating you two took that discovery ride. While getting off you felt a little dizzy and tripped on something and fell. Yunho quickly helped you up and asked if you were okay and you told him yes, even though your ankle hurt a lot. After the fun time, he drove you back to your hotel. As you got off, you winced in pain and knelt to the ground, clutching your ankle. He worriedly got out the car and came to your side.

"your ankle is swollen" he spoke, concerned.

"it's fine, I can manage"

"are you kidding me? Why didn't you tell me you're hurt?"

"because I didn't want to ruin tee date"

"you can't stay here y/n, you're coming out with me"

"I said it's okay Yunho, I'll take painkillers and an ice pack, I'll be fine"

"I'm sorry you got hurt"

"you don't need to be sorry babe" you said and kissed him.

Yeosang

Yeosang wanted to go skateboarding with you but you didn't know how to ride a skate so he took it upon himself to teach you even though you gave the idea of him skating and you cycling next to him but he said no. He took you to a nearby park and helped you learn for over a month. When he deemed you ready, he encouraged you to ride it on your own with him holding your hands or your waist. You took a deep breath.

"you can do this" he smiled.

"I hope so" you replied and steadied yourself.

"I can already see us skateboarding down the road. I can't wait"

"okay here goes nothing"

You gained momentum with your foot pushing the board forward and continued with a steady pace.

"I'm doing it! Yeosang I'm doing it!" you cheered but made the mistake of looking back towards him which made you lose your balance since you were relatively new to this. You fell on your back but broke your fall with your arm.

Yeosang rushed towards you and helped you up. You yelped in paid when he grabbed your arm.

"it hurts so much" you shook.

He took you to a hospital where the doctor told you your wrist was dislocated.

He felt awful and blamed it on himself. He stayed by your side before and after your surgery and even helped you with your daily life stuff until you got better. You were happy to spend a lot of time with him and told him it wasn't his fault.

"you are never riding a skateboard again. Like ever."

San

You were visiting Namhae to meet San's family. He always talked about them and told you how important they were to him so you paid them a visit, knowing it would make San the happiest.

You were sat on the couch, chatting with his sister while the TV was on. It was a random drama which none of you were interested in, rather wanting to talk about girl stuff.

"Sannie is a sensitive one, though he doesn't show it" his sister let you know.

"I know, I have never seen him cry. I used to think he doesn't care but then I found out that he's just very good at controlling his emotions."

You two were indulged in the conversation and didn't see San entering the room with Byeol in his arms.

"Y/N I want you to meet our family's master"

You and his sister giggled.

"Byeol, this is Y/N. I hope you come to terms with the fact that your position as the girl I'd die for has been taken by her."

You were a blushing mess and had butterflies in your stomach. San was always kind and loving towards you. And as if Byeol had understood what San had said, she started acting up.

"can I pet her?" you asked, earning encouraging nods from the Choi siblings. You stretched your hand you gently pet her head but Byeol acted first and violently scratched your hand, drawing blood.

"Byeol no!" San whined as the cat hissed at you and ran to the other room.

You clutched your hand tightly, trying to soothe the pain but it came in waves and burned. San worriedly came closer to you and him and his sister examined your hand. There was definitely blood coming out of the claw marks. They had to take you to the hospital to get you tetanus shots.

"I'm so sorry Y/N, your hand is ruined and you're in pain because of me"

"not because of you Sannie, it was Byeol but you can't really blame her, she an animal after all"

Mingi

Mingi took you to the dance studio to show you the new dance he choreographed. He was happy with it and spent a lot of time perfecting it and wanted you to see it. You were supportive of his ambitions as a rapper and a dancer, aside from Ateez. He was grateful for you for being by his side and understanding the time and effort it required. You never complained when he was unable to make time for you sometimes, knowing that he was working hard. The bond you shared was strong and you two were inseparable.

"okay I'm gonna start, queue the music"

And with that he started dancing. You were in awe of the way his body moved and how effortlessly he executed the difficult moves. You clapped when he finished.

"wow Mingi... this is... wow... I'm so proud" you were at a loss of words.

"come on I'll teach you the floor move, it's the easiest"

It was the easiest, for a trained dancer that is. You both didn't realize how difficult it actually was. You, because you weren't a dancer and Mingi made it look like a piece of cake. Mingi, because it came naturally to him and he had insane body control so he thought it was actually easy.

He taught you how to slide using your core strength. You didn't have a strong core to begin with, so you landed on your knee and pain shot up in your leg. You clutched it and let out a whine. Mingi took a look at it saw it reddening.

"I'm sorry for making you do this" he shook his head.

"nah I shouldn't have said yes" you smiled, not wanting him to be upset.

"let's get you home"

Wooyoung

He kept his artist of the month news a secret from you. He wanted to surprise you with it. So when you saw it on twitter you called him and congratulated him.

"this is huge Woo, I'm so proud of you!"

"I know you're rooting for me. I want you to come at the practice session we're having, just so we can perform on stage too"

You agreed to come and dressed up for him. When he saw you enter the studio in your black jeans that hugged your curves and the loose green cardigan which you styled and tucked in from the front. You had your hair down and mere sight of you took Wooyoung's breath away. His dancer friend from bb trippin' knew about your relationship but some of the staff was different that day and didn't know who you were.

Your eyes gleaned, watching Wooyoung dance. He was in his element and looked ethereal. The practice session ended and before you could run to him and hug him, you saw another woman, a staff member get close to him, handing him a water bottle and wiping his sweat off with a cloth. You were stunned but didn't think muhh about it, since his job required him to be around other women too. You watched from a distance how she talked to him for some time and subtly placed a hand on his thigh, giggling and telling him he did well. You were hurt to say the least. He didn't spare you a glance and then talked to her as if you weren't in the room. You didn't ruin the mood for him at the moment but were screaming internally watching her flirt with your man in broad daylight and him going along with him.

After the session ended, his choreographer called him to discuss important matters with him and the staff started leaving. You noticed how the same woman was hanging around, until another senior staff member told her to pack up and leave. After the discussion, Wooyoung came running to you.

"did you like it?" he asked excitedly.

"the performance? yes. The little show with that staff woman? absolutely not"

His face fell at your words.

"baby listen, I had to let it slide. It's not like I could've swat her hands away and tell her to go away. Having good chemistry with the staff results in good performances. Please try to understand"

"I don't know Wooyoung. And this is just what I saw. I can't stop imagining what else goes on since I'm not around all the time"

"I want you to trust me. I'm all yours. No one can take me away from you. No one. You don't know the hold you have around my heart. You don't know what you do to me. It's you and only you. Never forget that."

Jongho

If there's one thing in this world that Jongho liked doing the most, it was comparing how strong he was compared to you. No, you didn't even compare. You didn't even come close. He loved lifting you like it was nothing, tightening jars on purpose so you would ask him to open them for you and lifting the furniture with one hand while you both cleaned. He also loved arm wrestling with you with just two of his fingers of his non dominant hand, while you struggled to win with your dominant hand.

You both sat in the middle of the living room. Jongho challenged you to arm wrestling and the loser would have to clean the dishes. He wasn't even trying while you were shaking by using the entire strength in your arm. He got a little cocky when his hand got tired and decided to end it with a bang. He used intense force and your hand landed on the table with a thud. You pulled it back and rubbed it. He didn't fully realize how hard he hurt you until he saw just how red the back of your hand was. He immediately apologized but you got up to give yourself first aid, not responding to him. He followed you to the kitchen and tried helping but you shoved him aside.

"leave me alone"

"I'm sorry I hurt you. Let me help"

"Jongho please just leave me alone right now"

He felt awful to have hurt you and after you went to your bedroom, he did the dishes. You had invited him to stay the night at your apartment so he was glad he could be around to make it up to you.

He came to you some time later and apologized again and took responsibility of his actions.

"you scared me Jongho"

"I'm so sorry, I'll be more careful I promise"

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I’m On Fire [Chapter 1]

Summary: With her sister’s wedding fast approaching and her Mom hounding her about finding a date, Y/N makes a terrible decision that lands her and her least favorite genius in a confusing situation.

A/N:  This is the first part in a series, I’ve written the first few chapters already so I’m hoping to update pretty regularly! I hope you guys enjoy, and any feedback is always appreciated! ❤️

Pairing: Spencer Reid x Fem Reader

Category: Fake Dating, Enemies to Lovers, (Eventual) Smut, Fluff, Angst, it’s a Slow Burn Baby

Warnings: None really for this chapter, cursing? Mean-ish Spencer

Word Count: 6.5k

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I wasn’t at the BAU long before it started to feel like home. The team became my family, pure and simple.

Having been recruited by Hotch at only 22 I'd sort of fallen into the roll of the little sister to the team without really meaning to. It's not that I was naive, or particularly sheltered even. I know I'm good at my job, and I'd want to be, given how my life's revolved around it almost entirely. But the team seemed to adopt a protective mindset over me right off the bat.

When I first joined the FBI everything was terrifying. I worked so hard for my PhD, trying to get into the unit, but there's almost nothing that can actually prepare you for the real thing. Being out in action in the field, working the cases out in real time. Sometimes they had a smooth, easy conclusion followed by loud obnoxious drinks together. Then there were the others, the ones that kept me up for days after and felt as though they owned little pieces of my heart still.

It was JJ that helped the most on those horrible flights back on the jet. Noticing my anxious ticks and uneasy disposition after that first case that had ended badly. JJ had been through it all before, taking too many cases home with her. Seeing her son's little faces in the kids that we couldn't help. If I was the baby of the team JJ was the big sister, looking out for everyone.

Morgan on the other hand was the outrageously cool older brother, the one you just wanted to be. Early on he'd helped my weak self with the ruthless fitness regimen the FBI required, he offered to pull some strings and get the test written off. But I couldn't accept that, there was something in me that just wanted to impress Morgan, and honestly still does. Like somehow if he thought you were cool, then it became true. So I passed the exam, but getting up a flight of stairs was near impossible for a week after.

Emily was probably the fun aunt. The one that would sneak you booze at the family gathering, or take you to your first concert. Emily was actually the one who'd found me, digging around colleges for potential recruits she'd had me picked out for a while I later found out. Insisting that Hotch give me a shot. It was reassuring to know I had someone who would stick up for me from day one.

I was an tech analyst, among other things, sort of a counterpart for Garcia in the field. So it was no surprise to anyone when the two of us hit it off as though we'd known each other forever. We weren't the same by any means though. Penelope was bold, and bright, and confident beyond measure, where I've typically felt like more of a blend into the background type. I've always thought of myself that way, despite my achievements. I'd also always believed I was fairly inoffensive, no one I'd met had ever had a huge problem with me, 'till I got to the BAU that is.

Every rose has its thorn I suppose.

That thorn in my side was Dr. Spencer Reid.

It wasn't that Dr. Reid was a bad agent, or even a bad person. I hadn't actually met him before that first day in the conference room, but I'd known who he was for a long time. Before I came along he'd held the mantle of 'youngest ever recruit' in the unit, while I was studying I'd read any of his work I could get my hands on because of that fact.

I figured it must've been some sort of hazing when he looked me up and down that first day I was introduced, and then proceeded to blank me entirely for a full week. Up until I'd wrapped my first case.

The whole team went straight from the jet to the bar. Proceeding to get far too drunk. Spencer joined, which the rest of the team found unusual, and I probably should've taken as a sign of things to come.

That case went well, and everyone was in high spirits but Reid had a sour disposition, at least it seemed that way every time he looked at me. After a few too many drinks I went outside in an attempt to sober up in the cold air, unfortunately Reid must've snuck outside not long before.

"Ugh" was all he said when he first caught my silhouette approaching him. The night was unusually cold so it had been deserted outside the bar that evening. I wasn't really sure why it made me nervous to be alone with him like this, the two of us leaning back against the same small area of brick wall, looking out at the cold night.

"Nice to see you too doctor" was all I could muster, I was drunk enough that I let my sarcastic tone leap out, "you can relax, I'm just trying to get some fresh air, it's too stuffy in there, and loud. I'm not here to talk to you or anything."

"Well aren't you a sensitive thing" he responds in kind, at that point I wasn't really sure if it was a coincidence or if he'd been genuinely avoiding me, but things were starting to clear up.

"I'm sensitive, that's a fun take on things" I joke, taking a long sip of cold water from my glass.

"And what's that supposed to mean, newbie?" his emphasis on the last word all but confirms my suspicions.

"Fuck man, what's your problem with me? Is it because I'm new, or because I beat your stupid record?" I quip. hoping that at the very least it might coax him out of his shell. Dr. Spencer Reid getting angry at me could honestly be better than the nothing I'd been experiencing from him until now.

"What stupid record?" he sounds genuinely confused

"I'm the youngest BAU recruit now?" I didn't know why else he could be so sour. He'd never met me before last week, and since he'd ignored me that first day I'd done all I could not to step on his toes. So if he had a reason to hate me this much, it wasn't something I'd done on purpose.

He takes a few moments to respond, raising his eyebrows and considering the information. He chuckles. He fucking chuckles.

"That's funny." he says, his voice leveling out, "I didn't peg you as funny newbie" that word sets something off in me again. Something about it is dismissive, or belittling. Before I could fight back he starts to move, maneuvering around me and heading back inside. A little too tipsy to think of anything constructive to say, I just mutter "Fuck you Spencer."

He swings open the door, as he walks inside he just says "See you Monday, Newbie" without even looking at me.

And that was only the beginning.

----

"You know I'm just trying to make sure you get enough rest sweetheart. There's no need to get so defensive!" it was far too early in the morning to be dealing with this call. Since joining the BAU a few years ago this was a standard call from my Mom. Equal parts well meaning and over-bearing, and generally asking far too many questions.

"I'm not getting defensive Mom, I get plenty of rest, my job is just very important to me and you know that." I knew she was right to be at least a little worried, this job was consuming, and in all honesty I wasn't sure how people like JJ were married and still here. It seemed like an impossible feat.

"Fine sweetie, how are your co-workers doing then? How's Penelope? Give her my love" she loved Penelope, I think she thought that Penelope tethered me to the normal world, and in a way she was right. She kept me sane, and fun, and made me eat pizza and do face masks once a week at least. Even when I didn't think I wanted to.

"Pen's great Mom, everyone's good. Well, the usual ones get on my nerves, but I'm fine." As I say it I glance across at Dr. Reid, the only person who's also in as early as I am most days. I'm not sure if he can hear me but he's tapping his pen so loud on his desk that it takes all of my energy not to walk across the bullpen and stab him with it.

"Y'know what Mom, I'm actually just after getting to work and it's a busy day so can I call you back later?" I chance, getting her off the phone is always an ordeal.

"Fine, fine, I'll let you go. But wait one last thing!"

I knew what was coming. It was always coming.

"Are you seeing anyone, Margot's been wondering too, just thought I'd check in?"

Pinching the bridge of my nose and trying not to scream down the line, I just sigh out the frustration instead.

"No Mom, believe it or not, I've made no progress on that front since you asked me all of 3 days ago."

"See you are being defensive!" she snaps

"I gotta go, bye Mom. Love you!" I say, hanging up quickly before dropping my head down into my arms on my desk, resting like that for a few moments in silence.

Hearing Garica chuckle behind my ear I perk up and spin around. She's holding a small paper cup of coffee and hands it to me. I look at it confused, "Sorry about the paper, I couldn't find your mug in the cabinet" she apologizes, looking over at Dr. Reid and rolling her eyes. Now I know he can hear me from his seat, he takes that moment to sip from my mug and place it gently back on his desk.

It hadn't taken long for him to start toying with me. It was always stupid childish things. Things I couldn't get genuinely annoyed at, that would give him far too much satisfaction, knowing he was getting to me in any real way. This was one trick he liked to play if he got into the office before me, he'd take my mug and make his coffee in it, just to spite me I guess.

"Why does he even do that, it's so stale" she said, just a little louder than normal to make sure he could hear. Garcia and Reid were still good friends and team-mates but she liked to stand up for me when she could. He liked to avoid me as much as possible so he'd usually go to Garcia before me if he needed help with something. Even when the two of us were out in the field together. Which was obnoxious but it was just another thing I'd gotten used to over time. And as long as it didn’t interfere with the case I just forced myself to let it go.

"I know it's such low grade bullying isn't it?" I shot back with a chuckle.

"So I'll take it that was Mommy dearest" Penelope gestures to my phone. She knew my Mom, and she knew about her general overbearing energy. I let out a groan thinking about the call again, and the calls that were to come.

"Isn't it always Mommy dearest?" I joke

"So she's still on your ass about the wedding then?" I'm sure Penelope was almost as sick of hearing about it as I was,

"Margot's getting married in like 4 months now, and every time Mom calls there’s just some new hometown loser she wants to set me up with Pen. It's fucking exhausting" I take a sip of the coffee she made me, savoring the bitter taste. She sits down on my desk for a moment, leaning in.

"Honey, did you ever think that if you got out there and found someone, she wouldn't be on your ass at all?" I don't want to think about that, about how she's completely right. All I can do is let out another small groan and lean back down onto my desk.

"Too early Pen" I say, it's muffled by the desk but she gets the message. Hopping up and heading to her own office as some more people start to arrive for the morning.

Leaving me alone to make a start on my paperwork that had built up throughout the week. Fridays were usually slow like this, giving me a little too much time to think. I couldn't shake the thought that my Mom and Penelope were actually right. Maybe I was a bit too invested in the job, and maybe that was a pretty big factor in why my last relationship imploded but I wasn't about to admit that to anyone.

----

After that the day crawls by, thankfully no cases pop up so the weekend might actually be free. Trying to make sure I clear up all of my paperwork takes a little longer than I'd hoped and leaves me alone in the bullpen. It seems like everyone's gone home by the time I've packed up and I'm ready to leave. Which wasn't as out of the ordinary as I'd like it to be really. Everyone else seemed to have somewhere to be on a Friday night.

Waiting for the elevator to arrive my phone started to ring, I could see my Mom's caller ID on the screen. If I just let it go I know she'll call back later, may as well get it out of the way. I take a deep breath in anticipation before I answer.

"Hey what's up?" I answer, stepping inside the elevator as the doors ping open.

"Hi sweetie, I've got good news! Do you remember David? That lovely boy, he helped out your Father that summer in high school?" I know what's coming and rub my temple, trying to stifle the headache I know is coming. As I answer a hand slides between the elevator doors, popping them open again.

Dr. Fucking Reid walks in, and he looks about as happy to see me as I am to see him. I make eye contact and look away just as fast, willing him away with my mind. "Yes Mom, I remember him, why are you telling me this?" I already know the answer but I'm fed up, she still sounds excited when she responds.

"Well you won't believe it! I ran into him at the market this morning and I thought you'd like it if I passed on your phone number to him, maybe for the weddi-" it took all I had not to shout into the receiver, and maybe I would've had the elevator been empty.

"Mom! Jesus!" I have to reign myself in, but I have a bad idea, "You know what, I'm actually sorted. I've got a date lined up now" I'm not sure why I said it with no real plan in place. She sounds even more excited than I've ever heard her.

"Oh my, that's amazing sweetie! That was fast, I can't believe you found one since this morning, it's someone from work so?" she assumes, and I'm just not thinking fast enough to correct her.

"Mmhmm, yeah" I'll figure out the logistics later I rationalize.

"Oh! Is it that boy you're always on about, the one who teases you?" she asks, and her voice is full of joy, and it makes me feel horrible that I'm lying already, and that I'm going to let her down.

"Yup, that's the one, look Mom I gotta go, I'll talk to you later! Night" I blurt out so fast it has to be obvious I'm nervous.

I can hear a stifled chuckle behind me. Fuck. How loud is my phone speaker. Could he hear that. Surely not. But this elevator was completely silent. The doors open and I have to stop myself from running to my car at top speed. Instead I walk out just a little faster than normal, turning around to shoot him a small wave goodbye. And he's got this devious smirk on his face that makes my stomach turn.

Sitting into my car I pull out my phone to text Garcia immediately.

I'm on my way to yours right now. It's urgent.

——

Traffic's light so it takes maybe 10 minutes before I arrive at Garcia's place. My mind's racing and my body takes me there on autopilot. Why did I say any of that, why did I even answer the damn phone. Why did I wave goodbye to Spencer, I never usually did that. Maybe that's why he had that look on his face. Maybe he was just thinking of something funny that happened earlier and it had nothing to do with me at all. That was something he'd do to mess with me for sure.

How was I going to walk this back with my Mom, she was just gonna have more questions that I couldn't answer. Fuck.

Garcia buzzed me up and her door was open for me by the time I got up the stairs. This little purple apartment had become my second home. It was where I spent most of my evenings off, laughing on the same sofa I was collapsing face first into right now. Garcia nestles in beside me and runs her hand over my hair, "Hey sweet pea, what's happening? I don't want to sound too concerned but you're not giving me much to go off? Are you dying, is there drama? You're going to have to tell me what's so urgent before I burst a blood vessel?"

I let out a muffled, "is drahmuh" into the pillow, Garcia shakes my shoulders.

"Sit up babe, damn!" I have to heave myself out of the pillows, sitting upright on the sofa beside her, clutching one of the pillows in my arms.

"It's drama" I repeat,

"Well, out with it then, you know I'll take all the drama I can get! Spill, spill" she rushes me along. I'm already apprehensive, Reid's her coworker too, but if anyone would understand why this was such an issue it was gonna be her.

"Okay, I'm after doing something stupid and I think I really need your advice" I cringe already, thinking back to the elevator, throwing out my words faster, I continue the story, mostly trying to get it over with, "my Mom called again when I was on the way out tonight and she was trying to set me up with this guy, and Reid was there, and I got all flustered, and I told her I had a date already" I throw my head down into the pillow again.

"Wait why was Reid there?" she looks like she's trying to fit puzzle pieces together and she's getting nowhere, "And what's the drama?"

"Shit Garcia, it was in the elevator and it was all quiet, and maybe he heard the call, maybe he didn't but he had this fuckin' look on his stupid face" I can't shake the smug little smirk, it's burned inside my eyelids. Garcia's face falls in what looks like disappointment.

"Ugh Y/N! That's nothing chill out, why does it matter if he heard your call? I know you guys are all weird but none of that is any of his business anyway!" she shoo's her hand in the air, dismissing the whole situation.

"No Garcia, it is his business now" I have to close my eyes when I say it, I can't look at her "I told my Mom that he was my date, well, I didn't say his name or anything, she assumed it was someone from work and so I just agreed, and then she suggested that it was him and then I fucking panicked Pen, I fucked up so bad. What do I do?"

I finally opened my eyes to look up at Garcia. She was sitting in pure silence, pursing her lips in what seemed like contemplation. The puzzle pieces finally slotting together. It's as though a light bulb goes off behind her eyes and she bursts out in fits of laughter. Doubling over on herself before finally taking a few breaths to calm herself down. I'm honestly not sure why she finds the whole thing so funny, she know's how needlessly annoying he's made my life, she's seen it first hand and heard me talk about it over and over again in this very apartment over pizza.

"Garcia, this is not fucking funny! This is serious!" I try to calm her down, I need advice not whatever this is.

"I'm so sorry Y/N, I love you dearly. But this isn't funny, this is hilarious. It's like you're Sandra Bullock in some mid-90's rom com. I love it" I don't love it, in fact I hate it. I nearly snap at her but pull myself back.

"Pen, come on, help me out. What do I do with this, how do I fix it?" I plead.

She stops laughing and pulls out her phone, "Okay, I'm sorry. I'm going to order us a pizza, and we're gonna sort this thing out together, sound good?" I just nod and collapse back into the sofa. I think I feel better now that I've gotten it out in the open.

----

Penelope makes us tea while we wait for the pizza, she keeps lemon & ginger in her cabinet for me, just like I keep mint for her. The warm mug and the steam calm me down. After a few minutes alone to think about it I start to figure it out a little better. I figure I can just lie to my Mom for a while, it might suck but I can pretend for a bit and then make up some excuse as to why he can't come closer to the time. Then I can just bring Garcia instead and everyone's happy. I'm about to float my plan to her there's a knock on her door. I was so caught up that I hadn't really noticed quite how starving I'd gotten. Leaping up of the sofa to grab the door.

I swing it open but it's not the pizza guy. Somehow it's the opposite of the pizza guy, my worst nightmare is on the other side of the door. He must notice my eyes blow completely wide. "Y/N!" he says, more of a statement than a question really, like he's telling himself that he's actually seeing me in the doorway. I'm not as gentle.

"What the fuck are you doing here Reid?!" I can't even disguise my anger. He seems a little flustered, like he's got absolutely no idea how to proceed.

"Um, uh, is Garcia here? I can, um, I can just come back later?" he swallows hard and shakes his head, before I can agree and tell him to get lost Penelope races to the door, pulling it wide open.

"Nope, that won't be necessary Doctor! Come on in, you're right on time sweetheart" she waves him in and he walks past me, his demeanor changing almost instantly. He's smug, like he's won whatever battle this was. And I hate it. Though he's still as confused as me despite the newfound attitude. Reid sits down on the sofa, right where I had been sitting. I bite my tongue and sit on the opposite end.

"Are you okay Garcia?" he asks with a genuine concern, "What's going on, what was the emergency?". He's not stupid, he knows she's not in danger now that he's here. But he wants answers. I don't know that I've ever seen him this confrontational with anyone, well anyone but me. The entire time I’m staring her down as she sits in the armchair opposite the two of us. My keys are in my pocket and my car's right outside. I could just jump up and make a break for it. Escape.

"You know what Doc, you won't believe it but I'm not actually the one with the emergency" she takes a beat, and I'm starting to think that I might understand why people murder other people after all these years, "Y/N has something urgent she needs to talk to you about" she's silent for another moment, and she almost looks giddy, "Actually Spencer, you might already know a little something about the matter already, now that I think about it" she smirks, and it's pure joy.

My keys are in my hand ready to bolt when the doorbell chimes again. "Oh, that'll actually be the pizza this time, if you two will excuse me" she hops up out of the armchair and races to the door, leaving the two of us alone in a horrible silence. The tension is almost too much, I want to speak but I really have no idea what to say, or how to even start saying it. But he starts.

"Y/N what's going on, I feel like I'm out of the loop here? What am I missing?" he asks, and there's something uncharacteristically genuine about the way he says it, but he can't turn to look at me as he speaks. I almost want to let my guard down and just have a conversation but I can’t force myself to do it. "Shut up Reid." is all I mutter, folding my arms across my chest.

He turns sharply on the sofa to face me. "Hey Y/N. Believe it or not I'm about as happy as you with whatever kind of Parent Trap situation Garcia's got going on here. But from what I'm picking up on you've got a problem and I'm supposed to be able to help with it. So do you want to tell me what's going on or not? I can just go?" I can see that there's an anger bubbling right below the surface, threatening to burst. I know I shouldn't but I let him stew in silence for a little too long and he jumps up off the sofa.

"Y'know what, typical" he mutters, rolling his eyes as he says it, "this is all about you." he throws his bag over his shoulders and begins to walk towards the door. Something in me just snaps.

"All about me?! Are you fucking kidding? I've been tip-toeing around you for years, ever since I joined this damn unit!" I shout as Garcia comes back into the room, pizza box and plates in her hands.

"So, who's hungry?" Garcia asks, trying to break the tension, or pretending there's no tension at all. Reid shakes his head in disbelief and rubs his temple before he speaks again, "Actually I was just gonna head out" he gestures to the door, "I'm clearly not wanted here so I'm gonna leave you guys to it." Spencer makes a move to leave but Garcia grabs the strap of his shoulder bag, yanking him back ever so slightly before he really has the chance to escape.

"You are going absolutely nowhere kid" She points back to the sofa, "get back there" she glances to me, staring with far too much intensity. "You too, sit." Her voice is more stern than I've ever heard it, even while we were on a case. I can't help but obey her command and I sit back down on the sofa in silence. Followed by Reid, clearly processing the same uneasy feeling of a serious Penelope.

She sits opposite the two of us again. "Y/N, Spencer, I love the two of you with all of my heart, albeit separately, and I would die for either one of you. But you've got to chill the hell out!" she says it like she's had it bottled up forever. The tension that releases from her as she says it looks euphoric.

She opens up the pizza box and lays it on the coffee table and takes out a slice for herself. Taking a bite she leaves the two of us in stunned silence. Once she finishes the mouthful she turns to me specifically, "Y/N you tell him, or I will." dead serious. And the feeling in my belly is like I've just fallen down an elevator shaft.

My stomach is in knots as I turn to Spencer on the sofa next to me. His face is puzzled and I think I might be able to make out pure terror in his expression. I don't know that I've ever been looked at like this before and my stomach screws up tighter. I have to take a deep breath and I can't believe I'm about to say it. "Fuck it" I have to take another breath almost immediately so I just have to force the rest out, "I don't know if you heard the call I was on while we were in the elevator earlier?" I look up to gauge his reaction and I can see his face relax, and worse than that, one corner of his mouth lifts into a sort of smile. It's a look of pure smug satisfaction and I think I might scream. I have to close my eyes because I really don't think I can look at that face as I say the next part.

"My sister is getting married in a few months and my Mom's been on my ass to find a date for the wedding and she keeps trying to set me up with these losers, so I fucking panicked, and I told her you were my date." by the time the sentence is out my eyes have screwed up so tight it feels like I have to pry them open.

He sits in silence for too long. Thinking, maybe?

"So I'm the boy who teases you then?" he grins. So he did hear. And he did laugh. He looks far too self satisfied. Now he knows he's right. He knows I've talked to my Mom about him, that he's gotten in my head. I can tell from his smile that he's savoring the moment. Mostly because I can't slap the smug smile off his face I drop my head into my hands. In an effort to disappear I guess.

"So," he says, taking a moment, "is that all you wanted to say then?" he asks, lighthearted and obnoxious, back to his usual self. I snap back to reality, shooting my head back up.

"What do you mean is that all?" I throw back genuinely shocked,

"Is that all you had to say Y/N? Can I go now? It's a long bus ride home y'know" he smirks but makes no effort to move. He can't possibly be making me do this.

"Well no, obviously!" I stutter, "I mean, are you, will you, uh?" I can't bring myself to say it out loud. He leans in on the sofa looking directly at me, refusing to break eye contact.

"Did you have something you wanted to ask me Y/N?" I just want to smack that fucking look off his face,

"Fuck you Spencer Reid" I almost whisper under my breath, but Garcia snaps me back to reality.

"Hey!" she looks at me, stern again, "Ask him." it's not a question, or a suggestion, it's a command.

"Fine okay" I scrunch my eyes up again, "Will you come to my sisters wedding with me as my fake boyfriend?" I curl up into myself as I say it, I can almost feel the bile rising up from my stomach. Like I'm having a biological reaction to the whole thing.

Reid crosses his arms and sinks back on the sofa, like he's performing the act of thinking. He's considering my offer to make me squirm.

When he finally speaks he says "Well I would Y/N, but I really fail to see what's in it for me" he's after getting cocky now.

Garcia pipes up, excited, "Oh, Oh! I know! I have an idea!" she interjects, "Spencer remember how a while ago, back after your apartment flooded you were all all worried about your antique books and prints and stuff?" he nods, "Well Y/N could digitize the collection for you as a back up? I know you're a technophobe? C'mon Y/N, you know you could do that no sweat, and it would take you a lifetime alone Spencer?" I really don't want to admit it but she's right. Even I knew Reid was adverse to any technology that wasn't vital, but it was your specialty. And maybe that was a good trade off, a job like that would be near impossible for him to pull off without help. I take a glance over at Reid and he seems to have had the same train of thought as me. He lets out an exaggerated sigh and relaxes his posture.

"Fine, I guess that's a fair trade. I'm in." he resigns and I almost can't believe it. I'm barely processing the whole conversation as he sticks his hand out to me, I'm confused for a second before I grab it and shake it firmly. Condemning myself to whatever's about to happen. And it's not the time to be thinking about it but maybe this is the first time Spencer and I have ever touched? But I shove that thought away.

Garcia's positively beaming and she's not even trying to hide it. "Now it's like you're both in a Sandra Bullock movie, oh, but you're Hugh Grant maybe?" she points to Reid.

"Don't push it" I shoot in her direction, taking a slice of pizza, now that my anxiety stomach has sort of passed.

Once the pizza's been eaten in near completely awkward silence Spencer stands up off the sofa. His unsure demeanor has returned and he looks nervous. "I actually should get going this time" he says but Garcia pipes up to protest,

"No, it's not even late!"

"It takes me a while to get back home, thank you though Pen. For... this?" he gestures to the whole living room, "Night" he waves. He's almost made it to the door before I stand up out of my seat. I'm not really sure what comes over me, maybe it's gratitude, maybe it's guilt, or maybe I'm just exhausted.

"Wait Spencer. Let me give you a ride home?" I ask and it's like it's not even me saying it .

"Thanks, but I think I can make it home just fine" he dismisses, and there’s an antagonizing tone in his voice that snaps me right back to our usual rapport.

"I'm trying to do a nice thing here, fuck! Just let me do something nice!" I snap, and he throws his arms up in surrender.

"Fine alright, if it'll make you feel better"

"Fuck you Reid" I mutter under my breath and I sort of hope that he does hear me really. If he's gonna be hostile about this I can be too. I give Garcia a hug goodbye but I'm going to scold her for this whole thing later.

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I lead the way outside and climb into my car, Spencer hops into the passenger seat and it feels as strange as always to be alone with him. Especially because it's not an accident, and it's not in work. Maybe this was a horrible idea. He seems like he's unwilling to break the silence, so I just get it over with.

"Where the hell do you live man? I'm gonna need directions." I say, as deadpan as I can muster, which probably isn't all that intimidating.

"Sorry, yeah, so you're gonna want to turn on the ignition" he teases. I definitely wasn't intimidating enough.

"Don't push it" I say, turning to give him a cruel stare, he just reacts with a smirk, that same one from the elevator earlier.

"Oh, I'm pushing it?" he asks, feigning disbelief

"I'll kick you out of this damn car" is all I can think to say. He barely responds, he just lets out a soft chuckle. I want to ask 'what's so funny' but he speaks before I can get the words out.

"I can't believe you talk to your Mom about me" he continues to laugh. That's enough.

"You know what Reid, of course I have! I work with actual murderers on a daily basis and somehow you've been the only real source of friction in my life since I joined the BAU!" He stops giggling a little, but not entirely, he looks like he's making an effort to contain himself.

"I'm sorry. I guess I just never knew I got to you like that" he still finds the whole thing amusing, but I sure as hell don't.

"Directions, now" I demand, looking straight out the front windshield.

"Fine, keep going straight on this road for a while and I'll tell you when to turn" he says, finally playing nice.

The two of us drive silently for most of the journey, the radio playing softly in the background. Eventually we arrive outside his building, and it's nicer than I thought it would be. But I have no idea what I was really basing that on. For some reason it hadn't occurred to me that Dr. Reid lived in an actual home, I had pictured him sleeping upside down in a cave maybe, or in a cryogenic chamber with all the other life-like genius robots.

"So," he says, breaking the silence, "When is this wedding?"

"4 months from now, in and around" I respond, matter of factly. Spencer nods, taking it in.

"Alright, so I've got 4 months, in and around, to learn enough to convincingly pass as your loving boyfriend. Doesn't sound so difficult." he jokes, his tone harsh and sarcastic.

"Look Spencer, I know this is insane and honestly kind of stupid. But in all seriousness, you can back out right now if you're not on board with whatever this is. I'm telling you this is the last exit ramp." I try to say it with sincerity, giving him a genuine out if he's not comfortable with the weird set-up that Penelope pulled on us both. He thinks on it for a moment and shakes his head.

"So how are we gonna do this?" he asks, and I really thought he was going to back out. So I don't have an actual answer.

"Well, I uh, I haven't really given a plan much thought. How about I come over and start working on some of the stuff you want digitized like Garcia mentioned and I can use the time to give you the footnotes on my life?" I suggest, at least that would make it easier to knock things out all at once. Rather than having to spend even more of my free time with Reid than necessary. He looks content with the improvised plan.

"Alright, sounds good." he undoes his seatbelt and opens the door to hop out of the car before turning back to me, "Are you coming inside or what?"

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