#so. I guess maybe that’s something

[seilon]

in the past I’ve always been more or less eager to talk to a therapist after just getting one but this time for whatever reason I just feel a weird sense of dread

#idk why exactly #like I’m really trying to pinpoint what’s bothering me but I can’t at all #I guess part of it is historically I’ve gotten my hopes Too high before and got sorta psychologically torn down when they arent receptive #or just. don’t feel that way for one reason or another #I haven’t had good luck with mental health professionals other than psychiatrists tbh I didn’t really think about it before but I’ve never #had a therapist that’s been affective in any way. one time I had one who made me feel actively worse and one time #had me crying after closing the session. not in a good way #so. I guess maybe that’s something #hard to have faith in anyone at this point #also living with a psychologist who’s verbally/emotionally abused you on and off for years does not help #anyway. I should stop talking #I really don’t know who I’m talking to or why #kibumblabs #edit: maybe part of it is also the lingering thought that no matter what happens a therapist can not help me with my number one issue #which is that I need to get the fuck out of this house #it feels like a waste of time to be trying to fix my mood and behavior and etc when I know the number one way to benefit myself #would be to have my own money and my own apartment #a therapist really can’t do anything about that. no one can except the businesses that keep not hiring me

[otaku553]

Thoughts on being aroace

#I like doing these little introspective thought comics they’re pretty fun #I didn’t get to include this in the comic but I do feel like loneliness is maybe not quite the right word #it’s not quite jealousy or envy either #more like #the sad knowledge that you are lower on someone else’s list of priorities than they are on your priorities #something like that I guess #if this seems like a sad comic don’t worry! I am ok :) I have my best friend and we’re both very clear on how much we care for each other #so I’m never really left needing or wanting more love or anything #love is so weirdly defined anyways

[uncanny-tranny]

I think it would really benefit people to internalize that mental illnesses are often chronic and not acute. Some of us will never be able to jump the hurdle of managing illness, much less sustaining a sense of normalcy. Many of us will never "recover," will never manage symptoms, will never even come close to appearing normal - and this is for any condition, even the ones labeled as "simple" disorders or "easy-to-manage" disorders.

It isn't a failure if you cannot manage your symptoms. It isn't a moral failure, and you aren't an awful person. You are human. There's only so much you can do before recognizing that you cannot lift the world. Give yourself the space to be ill because, functionally, you are.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #like... anxiety and depression are often concieved of as simple and easy to manage... #...but that isn't the case for so many of us. anxiety and depression just have a lot more research invested into them... #...and while i wish this were the case for literally every other condition it does alter people's perception of you to some extent... #...so while this is NOT solely about anxiety or depression it includes us... #...my anxiety and depression and PTSD have *destroyed* my life. this is chronic and will probably be life-long... #...and that isn't my fault. i've done the fucking work but guess what? that doesn't account for the fact that I Am Just ILL #the least we can do for each other is to be compassionate #be compassionate to those who cannot heal. be compassionate to the people who can't manage their lives. this world is scary enough #recognize that management of symptoms is something not all of us can do - even IF their condition is labeled as 'easy to manage' #i allowed myself to feel angry that i can't heal 'normally' and that was unfair as fuck toward myself #and i NEED people to internalize this so that MAYBE this could help somebody else who is where i was #i NEED them to understand that it's okay that they are where they are - sometimes shit just doesn't turn out how you expect or want #don't beat yourself over you being a person. you are struggling enough. you deserve to rest. just rest please #and just... give yourself space

[blended-ice]

“He’s the only one I knew that could pound whiskey like a sailor then keep up with me on the dance floor.”

aka my take on Alastor and Mimzy back when they were still alive!

#I want them to be the comedic dynamic duo of all time #both have bizzare questionable morals both kill people but both care about each other #Alastor: sweetheart you can’t keep hitting people with cars #Mimzy: but listen dollface the bitch deserved it this time I swear! #A: *sigh* guess we’ll have to move again #or #M: Al the fuck are ya doin? there’s blood all over my brand new WHITE CARPET #A: well maybe next time you should buy something patterned! hides stains better! #they would be so annoying #hazbin hotel #alastor #mimzy #id in alt text #fanart #peas n guac

[piosplayhouse]

"Oh dear," the unicorn thought. "I must've really mucked up the story beyond compare! The Red Bull Luo Binghe is protecting the last unicorn scum?! Unconscionable! He should have driven me off the cliff by now!!"

#dont ask why binghe gets to be a human but sqq has to be a unicorn #maybe hes prince lir in this au actually wait omg that would be good #half human half red bull sxy was freakay #the unicorn turning human to disguise herself is obviously sqqs plant body allegory #binghe sniffing around the castle: where is shizun i can still smell him? suspiciously sqq shaped human: gulp #binghe's tragic backstory in this au i guess is that he meets shen qingqiunicorn as a kid and sqq can sense that hes half fae and so #takes him semi under his wing but is like a prick about it until binghes seal breaks and they find out that hes a red bull fae #and shen jiu stabs him into the ocean something something abyss he comes back gets adopted by haggard kills every unicorn by throwing them #into the ocean as well before picking off shen jiunicorn last. and then sy fucks it all up #it's been like a decade since i read the book sorry #svsss #scumbag self saving system #scum villain's self saving system #bingqiu #shen qingqiu #sqq #lbh #luo binghe #my art #svsss last unicorn au

[ruporas]

getting the attention of the humanoid typhoon

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #wolfwood menace arc #he also wouldnt know HOW obvious to make it so he's just ramping it up throughout the day #but vash is sooooo used to repressing but also experiencing this kind of want so strongly for the first time #makes him wear the most obvious expressions.... while wolfwood is ALSO not used to being wanted in this way so he would be none the wiser #to vash's obvious expressions -- does that make sense. theyre silly. theyre so silly its like an endless loop #and then wolfwood is like ok i guess im doing something wrong or maybe he just doesnt want me like that. whatever! we move on #vash: dying crumbling - wondering if ww is doing it on purpose but also too nervous to ask until he starts literally taking off layers #ruporas art

[hotpotghosts]

#chilaios #succubus!chilchuck #dungeon meshi spoilers #only bc I’m about to yell in my own tags about the succubus chapter #idk something about laios’ choking succubus marcille and immediately panicking and without hesitation thinking that he has to kill her #before anyone sees is just yeah I can blend that up into chilaios yeah #like yeah what if the succubus’ choice of person was dead on #they DO say they read the minds of the person to create their max desire and marcilles elf prince one talking + laios’ having monster #knowledge means that i can make succubus!chil a lil mean as a treat bc he knows laios is into chil #also i think it’s unclear here but I think it’d be neat if the succubus have insect eye reflection givin them that lil non human touch #maybe I’ll draw something making that more clear later #ALSO idk what to tag this yall do people use tumblr tags to filter content or would putting warning tags on this just make it breach #containment? if anyone wants anything tagged specifically in the future just drop me an ask i guess #also I’m going to write this as fic I swear but drawing is so much faster #ghostmakestuff

[anna-scribbles]

they should've been at the club(infertility treatment centers)

#like guys. be real with me. how many options did you even try before turning to dark magic #nothing about the situation called for all that😭 #in my mind they're like 22 and 25 here which makes it all even funnier #guys please just adopt a dog or something😭 #nothing about either of you screams ready for parenthood #im so happy adrien agreste exists but the circumstances of his birth are so ridiculous #there is so much gabe and emilie couldve done besides this. they could have done anything #honestly knowing them(<-girl who believes she knows them) im not even convinced the infertility treatment wasnt working #I think they just both were so allured by the concept of a magic baby #they were like six months in and hadn't gotten pregnant yet and were like. well. I guess we're out of options! dark magic it is! #and made it everyone else's problem forever #these two wanted to be doomed by the narrative SO bad #honestly though being a 22 year old girl I kind of yet it. sometimes I see a cute baby and want one so bad maybe I too would use dark magic #maybe emilie agreste was just a girl. #anyway. sorry adrien that your parents were Like This but it is so so funny #anna rambles #ml #gabriel agreste #emilie agreste

[theravenlyn-art]

she was like an angel to me

#artlyn #mcu #the marvels #monica rambeau #photon #// #sorry for posting about mcu lol #and i guess for vague spoilers #but like genuinely seeing monica glow filled me with so much awe i was close to weeping and like damn maybe thats what people talk about #when they tell stories about crying because they saw an angel #not to overhype the scene lmao #but also theres a bit as an aside to kamala where she's like ''dont worry about it baby'' and i was like :') #also khan family appreciation i love them #anyway whipped this up in an hour or something because couldnt get it out of my head

[tubbytarchia]

Read this incorrect quote and was struck by a vision

#idk what went through my head I guess they're roomies and normal. people. or something. modern?? #shiny duo #shinyduo #pearlescentmoon #geminitay #I thought itd be funnier if I made it look like a proper scene instead of a normal comic but idk you be the judge of that haha #this isnt supposed to be shippy but Im self conscious so just in case #trafficshipping #hermitshipping #because they do just kinda look like domestic yuri here dont they #oops #the tags arent working rip. maybe tomorrow #tubby art

[willyhoos]

the mikes.. the michaels, even...

#fnaf #fnaf movie #mike schmidt #michael afton #michael schmidt #does any1 call him that.. besides william lol #i like the hc that game!mike is freaky tall like his dear old dad #so movie mike being a certified shorty is soooo <3 appreciated. #i really appreciate that movie mike is #like. sane. #hes disturbed definitely but he is still Trying to live functionally hes just. struggling to succeed in that regard #game mike? not a chance. hes an identity-hopping arsonist #i guess thats the difference elizabeth (abby) makes. #if game mike had somehow managed to save elizabeth #maybe he would have turned out ok #movie mike shows us what would have happened if michael DID actually have something to live for #game mike has nothing at all no one . no desires no family no friends nothing. just a death wish and a lot of regret. #btw movie mike is michael afton .. in the sense that he is the movie-adapted versoin of michael afton. #they have different stories obviously but they are INTENDED to be the same person #gnerally that is #i mean. lil sis. responsible for lil bros death. the weird offputting rude pushy personality. #so ill take it as proof that in the games mike=michael #OK I GOT OFF TRACK UM SORRY #now ill never get over how game mike and vanessa never met. #i mean theres the glammike theory but. that is an extremely altered version of mike who arguably isnt awake hes possessing a robot. hes Dea #but according to the movie... they woulda gotten along. #brings a tear to me old eye #my nyart #i miss queue #ah yes.. 4:34 am again garfie baby

[nebuladreamz]

#nebula art and doodles #fnaf #fnaf william afton #fnaf cassidy #in honor of the movie coming out soon #and also something i've been thinking of #tw scopophobia #cw scopophobia #tw blood #cw blood #im not. sure what else i should trigger warn tag this as probably gore but maybe not #anyways i bullshitted this in. like an hour or so i decided halfway through i'd animate a little bit to get used to shit again #BUT YEAH THUMBS UP I LOVE FNAF AND SOME PEOPLE FORGET THAT IT'S GENUINELY FUCKED UP WHEN THINKING OF THE IMPLICATIONS #also was gonna animate the second to last frame of the various springtrap personas afton has but #i wasn't in the mood sorry springtrap lovers #five nights at freddy's #fnaf fandom #?? i guess

[non-un-topo]

Thinking about Yusuf and Nicolò as young men again

#the old guard #kaysanova #yusuf al kaysani #nicolo di genova #siggy draws #it ain't much but it's more than i've drawn in months. i miss this sort of cartoony style. like a dreamworks movie almost lol #my brain conjured an anime ending apparently and i can't explain why #maybe they're too girly looking but i didn't feel like using reference pictures so i guess they're bishounen sdfghfds #ahh i usually have director's commentary in the tags #yusuf is probably around 23-25 and nico is 19-22? though i can't say confidently that yusuf would be able to grow a full beard at 23 #but maybe he can maybe he's just that powerful #they're either very sad and lonely or very pensive. or both. maybe they're longing for something more... maybe a true love #i also dk what these clothes are. yusuf has some good clothes on. is probably flourishing as a merchant but still longs for More #nicolo is wearing... a tunic? but it could be a thin gambeson instead. maybe he's learning how to use a sword #i try to capture their best assets in this doodly style: yusuf's eyelashes and cute ears and weirdly shaped eyebrows #and nicolo's nose and heavy brow and the fact that he has almost no lips from the side lol

[puppyeared]

doodles of my fav sillies

anton belongs to @poicyss

#my brain is a barbie dreamhouse and theyre all just living in it #im especially fond of the second one because my mom used to hold me like that all the time <3 #im drawing them a lot lately because im being crushed by the horrors and have to compensate for it somehow #homemade comfort blorbos...... #watch me draw anton inconsistently bc i can never decide if i wanna draw him close to how he actually looks #or yassify him and give him soft fluffy hair and kind eyes and defined features. head in my hands #i dont really have a lot of drawing ideas for them bc they dont have like. a canon storyline or anything methinks #its just stuff me and bow toss around and giggle abt thru messages lol. maybe ill draw infant vincent one of these days #i just come up with stuff and draw them doing it. it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside #cuz like anton works for lobocorp as an abnormality BUT hes super duper chill and cute and does his funny little tasks so its fine #AND hes unkillable. auggie is an oc ive had since like 6th grade and i smushed them together. and vincent was for fun but i got attached #i dont have much of a read on anton either bc i think hes meant to be more of an insert character??? if im using that right #on one hand i dont think too hard abt anything being ooc since im not taking it seriously. on the other hand i just hold them in my hands #and stare into space until i can come up with something to draw since i dont have much to go off of. but its fun to build on small tidbits! #i think bow called it an au so i guess??? its an au????? im not really sure. bow if youre reading this im just willy nilly #the only thing i know for sure is that they boink like rabbits. im talking gomez and morticia levels of boinking #maybe ill go back and look at my old doodles for them and redraw em lol #myart #my art #my oc #oc #friend oc #augusta #anton #vincent #sillies family #doodles

[seagreenstardust]

It’s become so apparent to me that whenever Katsuki yells at Izuku in seasons 4 or 5 it’s usually a direct result of him getting flustered. If Izuku shows any ounce of caring about Katsuki, of being happy because of or for him there’s is almost always an explosion of shouting in result.

Katsuki Bakugo doesn’t blush when he’s flustered, he yells and blows things up and it’s astounding to me how clear that is in canon. He’s emotionally regulating the only way he knows how. We know his internal landscape is rapidly changing at this point so it makes total sense for him to end up in these situations where he doesn’t know what to do or how to handle or even identify his feelings so he falls back into what’s comfortable just to maintain a little equilibrium

#bkdk #bakudeku #mha #mha rewatch #bakugou katsuki #lol i say emotionally regulating when he’s shouting like there’s no tomorrow #but it feels like that’s what it is #maybe not in a healthy way lol #like he’s regulating so he can feel like something is familiar when everything else is changing #it’s easier to yell at izuku than to try to figure out why he feels guilty that Izuku’s happy to see him #or HAPPY that Izuku’s happy to see him #so I guess that’s more of a coping mechanism

[kaiserouo]

if timeline reflections are simulations how fast would cayde notice that

#actually cayde might think the guardian's using some kind of vex time / simulation tech #he's the vex expert (maybe) so he might know something i guess #idk i never actually met him #(sigh) #anyway #faces are hard to draw as always #also screw d1 ace of spades that thing does not exist otherwise i have to make other excuses for cayde to talk about #i don't wanna do anymore archeology to know if there's only one ace of spades in d2 lore #also screw hard luck mk52 #destiny 2 #cayde 6 #destiny hunter #destiny 2 art #my art