#sighs. every year.

[jenovacomplete]

daylight savings is actually truly one of the most evil things in the world. just casually forcing us to confront the fact that time is fake while torturing insomniacs, autistics and schoolchildren across the globe. when will the agony end

#speaking! #please my sense of time is fucked already #that part of my brain doesn't work #please stop fucking with what little i have #sighs. every year. #hall of fame

[malinaa]

if i think about the hunger games in peeta's perspective i WILL start sobbing

#imagine you're a boy who's going to die. you're in love with the girl you've been watching from afar. you know your fate. #you just want to help her‚ but then there's the announcement and she's here in front of you‚ kissing you‚ risking her life for you and you #think‚ i could live and i could love. you think she loves you when she hands you the berries‚ when she puts them in her mouth. #then you both survive and you go back home and nothing is real anymore. you have nothing. no family. no friends. no love. just an empty #house. a drunk for a neighbor. the love of your life walking into somebody else's arms. you think‚ i survived the games. i could survive #this. and you also think‚ i should've bit down on those berries‚ should've felt the juice burst before i died. #and then the third quarter quell announcement rings in your ears and you think‚ she will live and i will die as i should have in the first #place. the girl you love kisses you on the beach and somewhere you heart stirs and your mind revolts and you savor every touch she has ever #given to you‚ in front of the cameras and off. because you are a tribute and you are always being watched and snow's presence looms and #you think‚ i know she cares. but you get taken. you get drugged. you get tortured‚ your mind altered. the girl is a mutt‚ a murderer. she's #everything you despise‚ your mind stirs. your heart revolts. you gain more awareness but cannot distinguish reality from fiction and you #have never known katniss' love. the war ends. you heal. you come home. you plant primrose for her. years down the line‚ you grow in love #more than you thought possible. but some days‚ you cannot tell fiction from reality so you ask the love of your life‚ you love me. #real or not real? and she says‚ real‚ and kisses you. #and you sigh and kiss her back and revel in this. a home. a life. a love. #lit #the hunger games #everlark #otp: real or not real? #katniss everdeen #peeta mellark #text #tais toi lys #thgpost

[rox-of-iu]

my old blorbos are back in my brain

heart pirates my absolute beloved. shame theyre chillin somewhere in the ocean lol (do not mention the pre-time skip hats of penguin and shachi I'm still attached even tho its already been a million years since then)

anyway every time i remember that Law and Kid are assigned german and Scottish by Oda i gain one hundred years

#one piece #trafalgar law #heart pirates #penguin #shachi #kidlaw #weary sigh- i am never getting out of this place #OP has been in my brain since -checks watch- like 2016 I think? and there is no escape #like every few months this stupidass anime/manga just grabs my brain again for a month or so hdjkhkd #its terminal #anyway as a long time enjoyer of heart pirates-crys-hjdsfhkdhfk #i come back after a long time and this is the status update i get??? anyway fly high polar tang o7 #btw if theres any mistakes in the german bits I'm sorry i did study german for a few years as my third language of choice but #im not super confident in it so hdsjfhk sorry #but the first bit with vergo is partly a reference to a meme that i saw some time ago and that completely took me out #and should translate i think into 'yea yea whatever. you wanker' and 'sorry. you(formal) wanker' #hajsdhkd #and the one with kid hopefully says 'oh yeah mirrors can be scary' #oh well and thats about it cheers #id say read one piece but actually dont its at 1088 chapters now #and just the catching up that i did in the past few days absolutely took me out lmao #but hey this is prolly my oldest going-on fandom that i still feel the need to come back from time to time lol o7

[bougiebutchbinch]

This is your daily reminder that anyone can criticise your favourite show. And disabled people, queer people, mentally ill people, and people from any other minority group are always allowed to criticise representation within your favourite show.

Obviously, a few people from the same minority group will disagree with this criticism. Everyone's gonna have a different opinion - that's great.

But that does not in any way invalidate the original criticism, especially when it's coming from so many people with visible mobility disabilities, survivors of suicide and abuse, and queer people.

That doesn't mean critics think the show is evil and should be destroyed forever. It doesn't mean they think that the show isn't good representation for you, with your specific intersection of representation needs, or that you can't enjoy it - or that you are a bad person for enjoying it.

Critics are allowed to stop supporting the show for future seasons because they dislike the representation, or the writing, or for any other reason. If you are sending anons over something so minimal as someone no longer wanting another season of your favourite show, then, frankly, I suspect you are a literal child. But also, you have a weird cultish relationship with this fandom and should probably step back.

Hell, I'm gonna try and step back, for the sake of my own mental health. I always wind up getting at least one weird anon per fandom, as I am Loud And AnnoyingTM - to the point where I see it as a bit of a badge of pride. Means I'm part of the fandom now, if I'm in deep enough - and noisy enough - to get nonsense. That doesn't particularly bother me.

But I cannot deal with the constant frustration of seeing fellow fans not understanding the very basic concept of 'a stranger on the internet can love this show, but still be disappointed in it and criticise it, and that is not an attack on me, personally'.

I encourage you to love the show! I love that you love it! I still somewhat love it, and I certainly love to criticise it! Criticism is just another form of interaction with a piece of media, and one that is integral to any fandom! It's not a threat to you or your appreciation of the show!

What becomes problematic is when you mock criticism, especially when it's coming from a whole bunch of marginalised voices.

Why are you being so aggressive about decrying everyone who complains as 'overemotional' and 'hysterical'? Why are you trying so hard to minimise and misinterpret the opinions of visibly physically disabled people who have struggled a lot with their disability, when invisible disability rep and casual positive disability rep are no less important but entirely different sorts of representation?

If you disagree, maybe just have some empathy and let marginalised people speak? Why are you so determined to die on the hill of defending a TV show from any and all criticism?

Which is all to say:

Your fandom is not exempt from criticism. Yes, you are still allowed to love your blorbos and your show. This is pretty fucking basic Fandom 101.

#ofmd #our flag means death #izzy hands #ed teach #stede bonnet #ofmd meta #blackbeard #the edcourse #the izcourse #sigh. me every day: I'm gonna step away from this nonsense for real now #but now I feel the anger has moved into just... frustration #gentlebeard #blackbonnet #steddyhands #do people really not understand this in the year 2023??

[autisticshizuo]

20 years ago, on this day the first volume of Durarara!! (デュラララ!!) was released in Japan. This volume contains the Dollars/Mika Harima arc, which is the start and readers' first meeting with such a well written plot, complex characters and artsy language.

Happy 20th anniversary to Durarara!! It will be forever my favorite media; no book, anime or manga can come close to the place that Durarara!! has in my heart. It will remain as a unique and one of a kind work, not only to me but to many other readers as well.

#happy 20th anniversary durarara i am so glad that i was able to be meet such an amazing media like you <33 #you will be always be special to me you'll always be my favorite. you mean sooo much to me :)) #i met you in my teenager years and now as i am growing old #in every other universe you would be my special interest i just know it #sigh i am feeling so emotional sorry for being sappy but this series means everything to me my special interest my biggest joy #durarara #drrr #drrr!! #durarara!! #light novel #durarara volume 1 #narita ryohgo #suzuhito yasuda #welp there goes nothing i am tagging the characters #shinra kishitani #shizuo heiwajima #izaya orihara #kyouhei kadota #walker yumasaki #erika karisawa #celty sturluson #mikado ryuugamine #masashi kishimoto #anri sonohara #mika harima #simon brezhnev #seiji yagiri #namie yagiri #and last but not least #hlaith loves shizuo

[aether-weather]

have a beepo doodle as a token of gratitude for over 300 notes on my last post!! :DD

and in one day too!! ive never had a post blow up that fast!! thank you so much!!

#this guy has a curse behind him #every time i try to draw him i end up never actually finishing him #rip #anyways i went insane with the rosette brush can you tell #that is literally my art process #sketch > color > ROSETTE BRUSH EVERYTHING #it gives the illusion of decent art #please dont look at all the mistakes this has #i am slowly but surely crawling out of my art block #soon i will be back to full health! #just in time for the school year to start... #sighs #sonic the hedgehog #sonic prime #prime metal sonic #chaos sonic #sonic prime season 2

[madootles]

#vash #wolfwood #trigun #would you believe I drew the hand bc I couldn;t figure out how to draw ww's mouth.... incompetence leads to more gayness I suppose #pls note #I do not know japanese but I think it would be fun to learn so I have been working on it #I have really wanted to learn a character language for a long time so it is v fun for me #sorry if I got something wrong tho asfkadgb #vashwood #I am normal about it!!!! #normal!!!! #trigun maximum #reading it now #trigun stampede #eriks #I did not reference scars for this I am sorry #fan art #i didn't like this at first but looking back a couple hours later I like it LOL #every year I get gayer and gayer on tumblr...... sigh

[molsno]

applying for software developer jobs is so hellish because all the listings online are either defense contractors who offer high salaries with lots of benefits, on the job training, and flexible hours with remote work opportunities or some startup that pays way under market rate and demands you commute for an hour to their shitty office 5 days a week at 8 am sharp. and then every job that actually sounds tolerable wants you to have 5+ years experience in some technology you've never heard of. truly the stuff of nightmares

#I'm so sick of seeing job listings for northrop grumman 😭 #I will not fucking compromise my morals for a paycheck I would rather be homeless #sigh....... my dreams of being a game dev seem further and further away every year #kvetching

[dailydikke]

This is kinda stupid, but may I suggest Dikke as the “No maidens?” meme. I can hear it in her voice, and I can’t unhear it now.

Okay thanks, have a great day/night:)

day 41

#NO MAIDENS? #hey guys im taking these as the chance to experiment with my style #agaib. #i always go through a art crisis every year #sighs #dikke #dikke reverse 1999 #reverse 1999 #reverse 1999 dikke #reverse 1999 fanart #hiii its sam #DID NOT MEAN TO REBLOG RESIDENT EVIL HERE OOPS???

[iraprince]

experimenting today with layer borders/stroke effects to quickly portray high-detail/texture stuff, like this wip still life of a knitting project...! doing better than past times i've tried this tip, i think

it's not very fast, bc i find i have to rly slow down + be intentional abt my lines or it starts looking pretty artificial (u know all those awful "comic book lines" filters in selfie editing apps + stuff? yeah.) but it's still certainly faster than outlining individual stitches

there's already an INCREDIBLE wealth of very nicely crafted shortcut brushes for this kind of thing in the csp assets store, including specifically for knitting stitches etc! but in my experience a lot of those have a pretty clean/crisp art style, and when ur married to very textured/grungy brushes like me, they end up looking very pasted-in or clip-art-y. :') it's such a shame bc i wish i could use all the great stuff that already exists but usually it just doesn't gel w my stuff. (<-guy who needs to learn how to make my OWN brushes)

#wip #sketchbook #process #my art #every day i press my face to the screen and sigh wistfully and wish just a little tiny bit that i had a very clean crisp digital style #JUST bc so many super talented brush makers have created stuff that is like. extremely cool and convenient #but alas. i am in grungy jail #actually now that i think of it i HAVE managed to make some of those outside knitting brushes work before!! in a comic from a year or 2 ago

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the high prices of fucking Everything is so exhausting i stg

#i need to take an uber to the vet TEN MINUTES AWAY #i repeat IT IS A TEN MINUTE DRIVE #and its gonna cost me nearly 60 bucks. the FUCK #and who knows how much the checkup for my cats is gonna cost #let alone whatever prescription they need for the long drive #im so tired. im so so tired #its moments like these where i can see my future #ah yes. working 9-5 for a company that sees me as nothing more than a tool to be replaced when broken #just barely scraping by on minimum wage in a world where that isnt enough to pay for essentials #left with no time or energy to actually enjoy being alive or do the things i love #years and years of the same exact shit over and over and over again hating every second #and KNOWING it could be so much better but also knowing that it fucking Cant. sigh #sorry sorry im just. angry again at the absolute state of things #i would love to love life but my fucking god the world at large makes it tough #white-knuckling the little things once again #man its just. its so STUPID lmao #like why are we torturing ourselves like this? why are we just Accepting this #life could be so great but stupid shit like taxes and inflation and utilities exist #most of the shit we have to pay for should be free. it should be free. #it shouldnt be difficult to Live just because the majority of us don't have the fake fucking paper to buy things #its pointless its ridiculous and it makes me furious #why should i kill myself just to survive huh. why should i. why should any of us. #we all deserve to fuckin. idk enjoy sunsets and good food and art and each others' company. #instead everyone's stressing themselves to death over making rent and getting groceries and paying bills. fuck. #id love to be able to create art that Sells and open a shop or something #but also the thought of creating purposefully marketable art purely to make money fucking kills me inside #comms are one thing but... just... sighing sighing sighing. man idk #i just dont know. ill deal but everytime i manage to think positively reality comes in with a sledgehammer and now i want to go back to bed #the point is to live BUT YA CANT FUCKIN LIVE BC POINTLESS STUFF REIGNS SUPREME. WHO'S GONNA COMMIT ARSON W ME CMON LETS GO #this stupid fucking country and this stupid fucking government. i hate it here

[quecksilvereyes]

my coworkers are all entering Diet Time again which means i get to listen to them agonise about calories and got to listen to a coworker i really like point to all the parts of her she thinks are "too fat" because she wants to have her skinny hot girl summer.

one of them recently had a gastric band put in.

i wish i could take all of them by the hands and tell them they're lovely no matter how much weight is on them. that starving yourself doesn't help with self image or the kind of mental spiralling that leads you to tell your fat coworker that because you have a double chin when you tuck your chin into your neck you deserve to not eat for months on end.

i wish i could tell them that their bellies have pouches for their organs and even if it was just fat. it's okay. it's okay to have that second coffee. you can put milk in it i pinky promise.

you'll be fine. you'll be alright. you can't hate yourself into a shape you will be satisfied with.

i wish that when i tell them that, they could hear me.

#fatphobia #its so sad i get so sad for them every year #when they start agonising about the low fat milk in their coffees #and the milk foam #when they won't eat toast bc it has bacon in it and bacon is too fat #when my coworker gives me the pepsi she bought because she realised she cant have it bc of her gastric band #when i see them pick toppings i know they like off their pizzas because theyre too fatty #when they police each other about what they can and cannot eat #its just. sigh.

[toxooz]

been binging tf outa Avatar the last airbender bc ive been puking my EVERLOVIN guts out since yesterday and hear me out

#remy would probably get cool weapons or somethin but honey im so sorry it would be the reality #sk8 squad #ollie #ponti #oscar #abio #kari #vinny #remy #im Just Now feeling like the worst is over but holy fuck talk about misery #and i Have to go to work tomorrow anyway since i had to call bc today was supposed to be the recovery day but nOOO body said fuck u #cause this is like the 3rd time this has happened this year alone like i refuse to believe its just a bunch of food poisoning instances??? #i been eating the same for years and i know my immune systems been shot ever since covid but that was 4 years ago now somethin aint right #pray for my downstairs neighbors they had to hear me fighting for my life every 30 minutes PFFFT EEUUUAAGHGG HUFF HUFF HUFF yeah #although i will say all this shit has really toned down my emetophobia now everytime i gotta puke i just let out a long disappointed sigh #but goddamn still brutal tho

[mediumtires]

okay so here is a quick little something inspired by this video.

Max calls late at night, Christian is a Good Surrogate Dad, and Toto just really likes his husband.

((this is a lil sad maybe be prepared))

--- 

“Toto.”

“Hm?”

“I’m going to get the guestroom ready.”

“Okay?” Toto furrows his brows and lifts his gaze from the illuminating blue of his laptop screen. “Are we getting visitors?”

“Visitor. Just one,” Christian says, and there is something solemn to his expression. “Max just called.”

“Max?” Toto’s eyebrows lift. Christian nods and holds his gaze and the seriousness with which he does it makes Toto close his laptop without saving the files he’d been working on. “Is everything okay? Is he not in Holland?”

“Yeah, he was. Is. He’s on his way to the UK right now.”

He says it like it isn’t twelve past nine on a Wednesday night. Everything about this is catching Toto’s attention. “On his way… from Holland? And he’s sleeping here?”

Christian nods. Toto gets up from behind his desk. He knows the look on Christian’s face. “What happened?”

Christian falters. He allows Toto’s hand to curl around his hip. “He wouldn’t say on the phone. Something to do with Jos. He really just…” Christian clears his throat and says, “He really just asked if he could come.”

Toto studies Christian for another quiet moment, lets the words hang in the space between them, reads them for what they are, for what Christian read them as well. And more than anything, he trusts Christian’s instincts. “Do we need to go and pick him up?” he asks. “From the airport?”

Christian’s expression softens. “I told him I’d pick him up from Milton Keynes. He can use the airfield there.”

“I’m happy to go get him,” Toto says gently, “if you want to get the house ready. Or if you think he will be more comfortable with you, I will get things ready here.” He presses a kiss to the corner of Christian’s mouth, right where it wants to curl up into a soft smile.

Christian leans in for another kiss, a brush of lips and a quiet “I love you” all in one.

“I’ll get him. Pick nice sheets.”

---

Toto chooses the nicest ones he can find, based on softness, thread count, and thickness. He makes up the bed to the best of his abilities, goes downstairs and gets two more pillows from the living room, the soft, fluffy ones Christian likes to run his hands through when he’s tense. He also gets a bottle of water, a glass, and a few protein bars on the way, then changes his mind, drops the protein bars and grabs some chocolate instead.

He remembers the times oh too well, whenever he would have to crash on a friend’s couch for a night or two because money was tight and his options were limited. He knows none of these things really apply to Max, but still, he remembers the embarrassment, the feeling of not quite belonging, of being out of place and feeling like a burden, and from what little information Christian has provided him, Toto wants to make sure Max doesn’t have to concern himself with those feelings, too, once he arrives.

He tries not to overthink it too much. Max won’t care about candles or anything like that, Toto doesn’t think, so he just leaves the room tinted in the soft orange light from the bedside lamp and with the heating on so Max won’t freeze.

---

It takes about an hour until he hears gravel crunch beneath the tyres of Christian’s Range Rover, and Toto calls the dogs, eager and excited, to his side and leaves the volume of the TV exactly as it is, so Max doesn’t feel uncomfortably exposed when he comes in.

It’s Christian’s voice first as the front door opens and Bernie and Flav are ready to zoom out into the hallway, eager to greet him, but Toto holds them back with a gentle click of his tongue.

“Just leave your things by the door for now, we can take them up later. Don’t worry about it,” Christian says. “Let’s get you warmed up first. Do you want a cup of tea?”

There’s a low murmur in reply as the door to the kitchen is pushed open and Toto turns his head. Max is trailing behind Christian, pale, and where he normally stands tall with his shoulders pulled back, tonight he looks small, hunched in on himself, hollow, wide eyes and weariness written in every line of his face.

“There you go, that’s Toto, my husband.” Christian’s face morphs into a soft grin, wrinkles deep around his eyes. “You might’ve seen him around once or twice.”

“Hello Max.”

Max’s eyes flicker to where Toto is lounging on the sofa and for a moment, he meets a gaze completely unguarded. A young boy, tired and scared and sad. Toto’s heart shatters.

He gets up, slowly, so as not to startle either Max or the dogs, and shuffles over into the kitchen. Flav and Bernie trail behind him, first curious, then excited when they recognise the new visitor as someone familiar.

In passing, Toto places a hand on Max’s shoulder, a light touch, there, then gone, and hopes it is understood as reassuring. “Are you okay with the dogs? Or I can take them upstairs.”

“Uh… No,” Max’s voice cracks. “No, I mean, yeah, no, it’s fine. Thanks.”

Toto smiles at him, then steps up next to Christian, wraps an arm around his middle and drops a kiss to the top of his head. “There is some dinner left in the fridge,” he says, presses another soft kiss to the side of his husband’s face and adds, “I will leave you guys to it.”

Christian breathes around a smile, squeezes his hand in a quick gesture of appreciation. When Toto rounds Max once more, he smiles at him and says, “It’s good to have you here.”

---

Before Toto turns in for the night, he goes back downstairs. Technically he doesn’t need to check on things, Christian will come and join him in bed when he’s ready, but it’s been almost two hours and Toto wants to make sure things are okay.

The ground floor lies in darkness, only a sliver of light is coming from the kitchen and with it the hiccupping sounds of heaving sobs and choked up breaths. For a moment, Toto freezes right where he stands, an arm’s length away from the door.

He chances a glance through the crack where the door has been left ajar and his heart smarts at what he finds. Christian and Max at the kitchen table, Max with his head bowed and his arms wrapped around himself, trembling minutely under the weight of his own sobs, and Christian’s hand curled around his forearm, trying to console him.

Toto doesn’t stay to watch. He understands this is a private moment, Max sought Christian out because he trusts him, and Toto doesn’t want to break that trust by barging in on a moment as honest as this. But before he turns his back on the scene he chances a last look, not at Max, but at his husband, with an unusual softness to him, a tender gentleness in the way he holds Max in the only way he can, with a hand wrapped around the boy’s arm and his thumb stroking the exposed skin. Toto can’t help but think he chose well.

I will send out an army to find you In the middle of the darkest night It's true, I will rescue you.

#christian being a good dad #max is a lil sad #toto is a great husband #my need for making max verstappen cry is pathological apologies #max verstappen #christian horner #toto wolff #shorts #I apologise for the lack of talent I use the same twenty words every time I know #this is giving wattpad isn't it #sigh #seven years #seven years next may

[dailydccomics]

a sexy assortment of heroes Titans: Beast World - Waller Rising #1 art by Keron Grant

#mari mccabe #david zavimbe #david hyde #dc comics #batwing #black manta #nubia of themyscira #tuesday spoilers #queen nubia #val zod #superman #dc #beast world #waller rising #comics #freedom beast #gallous the goat #jo mullein #john stewart #this would be dope if they didn't always tease a new team with mari attached every 2-6 years sigh

[doodleodds]

royalty & fairy tale au’s are meant to be mixed and u can’t change my mind

Late shuake week 2022 day 3 - Royalty AU

#shuakeweek2022 #akechi goro #kurusu akira #I JUST REALLY LOVE SLEEPING BEAUTY OK #or well. i love the idea of 'sleeping curses.' idk why! they've always fascinated me #i used to be obsessed with aurora and snow white for that reason #and so here i am! as always! projecting this interest of mine onto my favorite characters :) #also for reference because i just realized how weird it reads: goro's gonna be in the tallest tower when he's cursed #that's why akira's got a reason to climb it. so. yeah #also in case you were wondering why i said 'see you tomorrow with more art' and then proceeded not to post for.....four days: #1) work decided that i'm going to be doing more hours so i now have very little free time; #2) i decided to actually try my hand at coloring again like an IDIOT and now here we are. sigh. coloring is hard #i was trying to hard not to just overdose on comic dots again lol & it resulted in this nonsense. me and my one very textured stone wall #ANYWAY lmao even though i missed like. every single day of akeshu week so far i'm still gonna be doing the prompts #just at my own pace! so. hopefully expect more art. soon. ish. hopefully not with another uhhh 2 month gap like last year lol #also quick fun fact since you made it this far in my tags! that second page originally wasn't supposed to be there! #i drew sleeping goro just cause i could and i was just gonna stick him under a read more but then i got attached lmao #and now he's in the main post! :D yayyyyyy goro #ANYWAY that was super long. thanks for reading & i hope u have a lovely day!!!!