#shit is gonna be soooo good

[soldier-poet-king]

If no one's got me at least I know getting more tattoos that everyone around me hates has got me

#booked double session first weekend of november #shit is gonna be soooo good #i really just want to make it into a full sleeve #but noooo im being responsible with a half sleeve for employment #which means i had to cut some elements i wanted #maybe one day. i can add the other things i want #im already working on a sun design for my back between the shoulders. close to the chest yknow #im not doing it out of spite im doing it for me #but also i am so tired of being merely tolerated. i want to be loved and liked for me #smthn smth amy spent gladiator ppl will laugh....when they do get new ones in completely garish hues #do it alone do it scared do it weird

[coffeecatcraze]

I can't belive they passed up the golden opportunity to have that one fucking wall stay standing perfectly intact with the rest of the hotel destroyed

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel spoilers #soooo many thoughts #soooo many feelings #holy shit #but like okay how could they miss out on such incredible comedic value #i'm going insane #that finale was just. fuck. #so good #gonna just go scream into my pillow until i pass out thanks #then check if ao3 has an influx of chaggie fics after all that #<3

[transsextual]

had a really incredible moment this evening. went to my campus art market where one of my friends was selling the tank top i'm wearing - another friend bought it for me and i'm so overjoyed to have it. usually a fit that leans more Traditionally Masculine feels like a costume but tonight it just felt deeply correct and honest and warm. took the opportunity to take some indulgent little pictures because i do not think i have Ever looked more like myself. so happy.

#im like. slowly gently exploring butchness & ... what it means to me & ... trying to release the idea that it requires Masculinity.... #ive always felt pretty disconnected from masculinity as a whole but i'm starting to find points of entry that resonate really deeply #& along with that is like... esp when it comes 2 kink & leather & butchness - which r not intrinsically related but to me they r connected #theres this idea that like. i'm taking myself too seriously. and that nobody's gonna take me seriously. and that i'm too little too young #that im like #obviously inexperienced and a joke and failing and looking stupid . #but ... realized recently that . that's really just the trauma talking #and that i can just like. try shit out. and notice how it feels + what comes up #and then try it again if i so wish #and nothing i try has to be permanent or defining ... and that like . my desires and comforts and joys and needs Should Be Taken Seriously #soooo much of my like. impostor syndrome . has to do with worrying that im not doing it right when compared to other men #but like.... most of the kinky men / leathermen i see are 35+ and cis . #of course im not doing it like them . #so . looking to the queers i know. especially my fellow transmascs as well as lesbians . for like. reassurance and inspiration #has been very healing . & good for my heart & my soul. #:) #yeah . #i think i gotta go read butch is a noun. ... yeah #goodnight :) #speak #materialization #ok2rb

[bylersrise]

mike and will both putting syrup on their eggs is my favourite parallel. it's such a small but cute detail.

at their first sleepover mike made will try it when they were having breakfast and will loved it so now they both do it and i think that's adorable (it's canon because i said so)

#im not gonna lie syrup and scrambled eggs together is soooo good #you should try it if you haven't cuz it's so delicious #anyways #byler endgame #byler #mike wheeler #will byers #rose says shit

[paleode-ology]

so this IS how steddyhands can still win

#steddyhands #Izzy hands #Stede bonnet #Ed teach #ofmd spoilers #like fine okay it’s not gonna happen but the way that they’ve set it up perfectly????? #just fucking insane #happy Izzy is my everything tbh he was soooo good in these eps #if steddyhands isn’t endgame then why does DJenks do this shit

[milimeters-morales]

so should i just kill myself

#*walks away in a direction you cannot see or imagine* #like. oh my god. he's EXACTLY like me. #also this whole future vision shit. im gonna be ill this is so good #im soooo sorry i didn't read ur comics seriously before miles. you deserved better from me #miles morales #spider man #spiderman #m&m posts

[sunnibits]

finally started to take some interest in lae’zel after going through the act 2 creche storyline and so she was anointed in the sacred dye as a reward <33

#yes I dye all of our armor to coordinate with each other it brings me joy <3 #(it’s just red lmao) #originally I chose it bc it was a matching color between all my companions (astarion karlach and wyll) #but now I’m just gonna put it on anyone I take with me lmao #hmmm… wonder how I’m gonna make that work when I finally get halsin to join #I guess I can go for like an autumn vibe??? #anyways I just played like soooo many hours of baldur’s Gate today good lord #probably annoying the shit out of my poor family members but idc I’m having sm fun I love this game #bg3

[arts-i-enjoy]

AHHHHHH

#this post brought to you by: me #i. applied for a preapproval letter for a mortgage yesterday. and spoke to a realtor to start finding me houses #i want to move several states away which further complicated things. but the houses there are CHEAP #like under 100k for a 2 bedroom move in ready #anyways i got approved for 80k with a 20k down payment. and im FREAKING THE FUCK OUT #and because i got that pre app letter i have a loan officer calling me today to talk #and we literally work at the same bank so i can SEE that hes active and hasnt read my message #even though its been 45 minutes. KEVIN MESSAGE ME BACK. IM NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO FOCUS UNTIL I DO THIS CALL #AHHHHHHH S C R E A M. it might happening!!!! i might be finally.mov8ng out in a few months!!! #i mgiht be a HOMEOWNER by the end of the year #i have been saving money for this since i was. 16? 17? #ive had a good well paying job since i was 18. #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #once i have a house then i start job searching in that area. and start getting really serious about LEAVING my very good job #which is soooo scary. this job was supposed to be my lifelong career. but then everyone fucking moved to other states and left me behind #so theres no point staying here. #i might never have this kind of job security again. #but also my realtor said that theres a lot of bank jobs in that area so maybe itll be easy to find something #on the fence on if i tell my parents that im Making Moves right now #on one hand its hard to not talk about it becuae im STRESSED TF OUT #but on the other hand when i tentatively mentioned the state i want to move to #richard started yelling and swearing el oh el #might be better to wait and avoid the tension as long as possible? #but also i dont know how they can stay angry when its literally my best option #the other places where my friends live either have 0 opportunity and high housing prices. or are even moe liberal than where im going #idk. why do half of my problems come down to “my parents will be mad” like im a 12 year old or something. shit fucking sucks #this is why i want to get out of here #also it feels weird and bad to talk to my friends about how stressed i am about buying a house when all of them are stressed about #not being able to make rent or something. my problems feel like a brag in a really odd and shitty way. but hey! #if this works out maybe ill start being stressed about how im going to make my mortgage payments! :') yay!

[hella1975]

so it turns out it was actually never that serious

#the exam literally went fine what the fuck just happened i feel like i just hallucinated that #like im not one of those people that go 'omg i did soooo badly :(' just to come out with top grades if i say it's going to shit #then it's becuase i genuinely wholeheartedly believe it #and my headspace before this exam was the worst it's been in MONTHS like i havent felt that bad for an exam since first year #and i sat down opened the paper and. remembered everything. like i literally just Knew the answers #im not saying ive passed bc am i fuck about to jinx it and i was still riding mainly blind bc i have NO idea where that knowledge came from #but at the very least there was a 35 marker that i KNOW i aced like i could picture the exact lecture slides it wanted me to discuss #and i had all of them memorised so at the very least ive got like. 30 marks. which is enough for me to pass the module #bc this exam is only weighted 75% and with my marks from the other 25% i only needed like 20 marks to pass this exam #which... makes it even more embarrassing that i failed it the first time but whatever!!!! #oh my god im so glad that's done im so happy IM FREE #just been in the kitchen dancing around to my little tunes and texting my friends <3 #im meeting up with one of them when she gets off work at 5 and we're going for drinks #so ive got until then to nap and chill and then ill go to the shop and get us some food and wine #and she's gonna come here for a bit & then we'll go. like actually look at me. im having people over at MY HOUSE im going out to buy us WIN #im literally a functioning adult living independently who IS she a misty memory #alas i do only have £23 in my account so this is gonna be such a slay seeing how i make that stretch for a night out #i acc could budget for england when it comes to alcohol i think like the way i manage to have a good funky time with MINIMAL funds #is downright impressive. it's a skill idc what you say #hella goes to uni

[brookheimer]

I think that drunk anon had the most justified and cohesive takes of the night lmao.

I really dislike how so often fandom spaces fall into this trap of "if you post about liking this character without a thousand disclaimers about how you don't actually agree with their views/actions then you're a bad person and all of your opinions are invalid". Like I just wanna call Shiv babygirl and silly rabbit, it's not that serious (not to say that there shouldn't be critical discussions about this show! idk what I'm even trying to say anymore, sorry, I'm very sleepy and have lost the plot.)

Anyway can't wait for the funeral :) I hope Logan falls out of his coffin and it gets filmed and airs on CornCob TV's hit show Coffin Flop

LMAOOOO drunk anon supremacy literally

but yeah like it’s very frustrating sometimes that we can’t work from just like a baseline level of They Are All Bad People We Know This. but then there are people who are literally out here saying shiv is the last pillar of democracy and leftist beliefs in waystar…like….if she really was that, she wouldn’t be spending her life trying to run fox news LOL. there’s just so much to be said ab this show but we get mired in the same mind numbing discourse 24/7 like aren’t we past this? can’t we talk about the actually interesting parts of the show?

like idk for instance roman’s relationship w femininity and misogyny is absolutely FASCINATING and there’s soooo much to unpack there but the second you try to talk about it you get hate anons saying like Um Roman’s A Fascist Why Are You Calling Him A Girl . Also Shiv Is The Only One Who Is Affected By Misogyny like okay i get it you’ve never read a single piece of feminist critical theory but a) roman’s attraction to fascism is heavily rooted in his relationship to gender and specifically masculinity and it’s ridiculous to talk ab roman + fascism without mentioning it b) you can’t understand logan’s disgust of roman without understanding that roman demonstrates classically “feminine” characteristics (ie emotionality empathy neediness etc) c) literally everyone is affected by misogyny it’s the ground we walk on and the air we breathe it’s in our fucking DNA lolol she’s just the only one to experience sexism etc etc etc.

ANYWAYS sorry for the sidebar but i’m just using that as an example of how, like, surface level people’s understandings of succession often tend to be, and it’s so bizarre bc it ends up criticizing posts clearly made in jest (“give shiv a gun” does not mean the poster thinks she’s a good person LOL just fuck that guy for calling her hysterical) as well as posts attempting to do deeper analysis and actually say things about the show that aren’t, like, immediately obvious from succession’s very premise. like no shit these rich people are bad people yet they are still people. it’s season four. we have two episodes left. we’re still on this???

also if logan roy does not tumble out of his coffin down a large hill ending up covered in leaves like a cartoon character then what’s even the fucking point.

#<3<3<3 #funeral ep gonna be soooo good. the preview is terrifying. i cannot wait #succession #succession spoilers #sorry for the rambling i am HIGHLY caffeinated and running on fumes #used up all my coherence for today on the papers i’m writing so congrats you get incomprehensible ramblings of a madwoman #not even gonna read over any of this shit. brain not functioning. post #asks #anon #long post #casey shut the fuck up about roman roy

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

IM NOT GONNA SURVIVE LONG ENOUGH FOR THE FULL VERSION TO COME OUT HOLY SHIT

#caps cw #hypmic #hypnosis mic #I KNEW I WAS RIGHT TO BE SO EXCITED OVER THEM HOLY SHIT #THEYRE SOOOO GOOD TOGETHER IM GONNA CRY #Youtube

[luxraydyne]

ngl kinda super fixating on the idea of tokiko actually meeting pewter if she hasn’t already, and absolutely set on the idea of bringing him into her fold. this guy conceived of psyncing, not only conceived, but built a *machine*. he’s tapping into some unforseen crevices of the sim here with this shit. how damn valuable would he be? oh, and how easily manipulated. he learns of the sim. he’s crushed. he’s wrecked. he’s angry. and tokiko’s like, this is a slam dunk, so where do we start on breaking out of this thing? and pewter just looks at her like, nah. this isn’t going where you think it’s going. you’re telling me this is all a program. you’re telling me all i’ve been through, all the pain and loneliness was a construct. and this is your reaction? this is what y’all are doing with that information? and you think that’s gonna convince me to *help* you? he’s pissed. if this is all a program, if me being locked in a cell with my grief after losing the love of my life is a simulation, hell if i’m helping you to chase some illusion of escape. i’m not gonna break the simulation just to let you out. i ain’t running away. i’m not letting that happen. i’m staying here. if i’ve been messing with the code already, then dammit i’m rummaging around in there some more and i’m changing it, i’m fixing it. if it was a “simulation” that took renju away, then i’m gonna bring him back. cause i can. watch me. idgaf if you say nothing in this place matters. he mattered, to me. i won’t let them take him. and i won’t let you take this chance from me either. you’re stuck in here with *me*.

what does tokiko even do? this wasn’t the plan. this is bonkers. what, does she keep trying to bring him under her control somehow? does she just let him go on his vengeful faustian quest and hope his meddling somehow tips the scales in her favour? risky, but might work ig. does she just do damage control, try to kill him off? probably. if she can. he’s good but he’s not *that* good. tf is she even up against at this point? and to be fuckin honest, she probably resents him, somewhere, in a brutal place she refuses to actually acknowledge. boy she done goofed.

bosh, and there’s your conflict. gentlemen, i solved ai3 lmao

#ah shit she thinks. this is worse than uru. i can't control this guy. he belongs to someone else. a *dead man*. #i still think the sim theory direction is soooo so bad i dislike it so much but it is what it is #if it's gonna be bad i'm gonna make a pretend version in my head that's at least *my* kind of bad lmao #and the way i'm gonna do it is by ditching the Good Guys for some tasty antag on antag conflict #aitsf #aini #aitsf spoilers #aini spoilers #ai the somnium files #nirvana initiative #pewter (aitsf) #jupewter #tokiko shigure #this maybe potentially hinges on tokiko at least being somewhat not dead. but theres workarounds for that lol

[rouge-the-bat]

having adhd will make you not have the energy to do shit like cooking and cleaning and general Things You Need To Do To Live but WILL make you have extreme motivation to make a transcript of all dialogue of a 100+ episode 90s anime, take a million screenshots, rip models from a ps2 game of the anime when you have no experience with doing that, so not only you can use them but also all of this can be available online for peoples easy access. just because the anime is your fucking hyperfixation

#yes this is about yyh no i havent actually gone through all this yet #ive made. PROGRESS on the model thing but since my old tablet died i havent gotten back on it #id need to reinstall the emulator and figure out what all i was doing again n shit #and all the screenshots i took of the anime before arent of the best quality bc they were done on my phone from funimations site #BUT NOW I HAVE THE BOX SET and so its soooo fucking crisp and clean and beautiful i wanna screenshot it all soooo bad #but to rip the frames (instead of taking screenshots thatd be resizing the pics based on the screen being used) #id need a blu ray disc reader thatd let me rip data. and idk what to look for for a good one that allows that and isnt super expensive... #and i cant find a transcript online of the dialogue but i think itd be really useful for being able to quickly check back on what was said #like for fic writing n stuff #and can do word searches n stuff through the whole thing #u hyperfixate on a 90s anime and see theres things missing about it online and go ''is anybody gonna fix that'' and not wait for an answer

[smute]

virginity is a construct but that means sexhavership is also a construct. i used to be such a slut but when that phase ended in my late twenties i swung round to the other extreme and became so perfectly celibate im not even sure i could find the hole anymore gromit. i am not a virgin yet i have never felt more virginal in my life so what does that make me?

#rhetorical question #btw. if you even care #i should also say that it wasn't really a conscious decision #more like. i had explored everything i wanted to explore #and my priorities just happened to shift a little #i was also very much in that comphet mind prison of like #if i cant be straight at least i can be a palatable monogamist #for a very long time #so i was soooo focused on dating and shit #it took a long time to get to a point where i felt like i was comfortable being alone #of course then there was also the pandemmy #and now i kinda feel like #its been so long #its gonna be a whole thing to get back in the game #which is bs ofc #it doesnt have to be #but in my mind it's like #i was this whole different person back then #its not just that i haven't hooked up with anyone in years #its that this current version of myself feels so different from who i was back then #it's difficult to even imagine #going on dates again and #all that good stuff #am i making sense idk #this started out as a joke poast #and now look at me #gromit i said look at me #&

[trashbaget]

tell me your failed/embarrassing flirting stories to make me feel better, i’ll go first: today i said “get out of my way” forgot to say “i’m kidding” then immediately said “bye”

#it is awful having feelings for someone you know and have an established friendship with #but crushing on someone i barely know is knew to me and i legit feel like an idiot every time i do something stupid like this #i can’t just. talk to the guy #if i say hey and he says sup i say ‘sup indeed’ like what the fuck is that #i can barely even say hello to him #don’t get me wrong i’ve DONE it but most days i’m like #ah fuck there he is #okay you can do it just say hi #just say what’s up #and then he’s already gone #also. like. the setting we’re in is soooo not good for talking or flirting realt because um. it’s work he’s my coworker.. so um. do i fuckin #ask him for his number?? or to hang out??? but like. he’s kind of a stranger to me what do i want to hang out for 🧍 #but like. ​i dont want to do that until i have at least one successful interaction #or like. an actual conversation. #which is gonna be really hard to manage because he doesn’t talk much at all to anyone and i really only talk if someone talks to me first or #i’ll say something absolutely idiotic and ridiculous (and honestly i do that no matter what) #anyway so um. i guess i’m just gonna keep making a fool of myself until i get it right and hopefully i don’t screw it up 🥴 #i lost all my confidence in the last year and i cant do anything chill or smooth anymore (i was never that good in the first place but at #least i could PRETEND i knew what i was doing. like i could sell it. the whole weird and lost bit.) #anyway. i felt better for like 5 minutes when some guy at the gas station flirt failed with me on the way home. but that’s partly my fault #too oops. in his defense he probably could not see that i had headphones on bc upon mirror inspection they were well blended with my hair #but i was waiting to cross the street and this guy tried to like nod and smile and i did not know it was to me until i got to the other side #where the gas station was and and like. tried again and i awkward half smiled and saw his face get all mushy and confused like mine FELT 20 #mins before when i’d flopped so hard trying to flirt and by the time i’d processed WAIT i think he was FLIRTING WITH ME i was already gone 🤡 #but at least it ended better than the poor 14yo who very confidently asked for my number #who. i shit you not. SCREECHED for a solid 44.5 seconds and bolted the other direction when i said sorry im 21 #his friends were standing there like wtf too and one was like i am so sorry about him 🤦 #cheers to being fools universe

[6-2-aestheticsofhate]

man i just realized how much people going "(insert company) or (insert game) is so gay and progressive!!!" pisses me off

#because half the time its like. not as good as people make it out to be #and people will chalk up every criticism of the game as people being homophobic because its such a gay series #hey guys i dont think gearbox is actually all that progressive. #i think the company that openly misgenders their nonbinary character in multiple official materials (on twitter. the lore book. the comic #on the b/l3 website) and claimed a character was nonbinary only to backtrack and say theyre cis despite the literal ceo saying they were nb #and them saying a character was a lesbian only to backtrack and for their best trans rep be a recolored lilith model they made an angry #brown trans man and the fact they keep ignoring their wlw and focus almost solely on mlm couples in these games is not great #im so tired of seeing everyone in a 6 mile radius in that fandom suck gearbox's dick and act like b/lands is the epitome of gay rep #and that if you dont like the series youre homophobic #seeing people claim that gearbox is the only company that deserves its gay pride icon during pride month makes my blood boil #especially when a lot of the lgbt rep is..... bad or it got retconned #i promise you people who dont like b/orderlands arent moustache twirling evil homophobes the series just kind of sucks sometimes #theres genuine shit thats bad and stuff thats badly written and theres bad gameplay mechanics #if i ever have to see people claim that people only dislike b/orderlands because of how queer it is again i think i'll blow up #im not even gonna complain abt ANOTHER video game series that a lot of people say is soooo queer because like. i also have a lot of #opinions on that and i dont wanna get launched into orbit by someone