#she helps them heal

[keeperthemultiversemom]

Hi Ms Keeper! Got a question for you, what happens to the ones you rescue? Is it a safe place for them

(ALSO HIII THIS IS JIN’S CREATOR FROM DISCORDDDD)

Autor note :

Hi ! Good to see you here :3

For this specific question, I illustrated how Keeper's space looks from the inside. Note that this may change in the future, but for now imagine this : it is like a room inside of a cloud. The lights comes from the "sky clouds", there are plenty different objects and furnitures around, such as crayons, paper, sofas and pillows and blankets, food, such things. There are also those sphere, they are like a ball of flexible wood like willow, of various sizes, and are held up by giant ribbons. They hang from the ceiling ! More on them later :3

#ask peacekeeper poppy #multiverse mom #poppy partridge #poppy welcome home #welcome home #welcomehome #whmultiverse #keeper poppy au #ask blog #answered asks #she takes very good care of others #she helps them heal #she is also an excellent mediator during arguments #that's how she keeps the peace in her space

[malinaa]

if i think about the hunger games in peeta's perspective i WILL start sobbing

#imagine you're a boy who's going to die. you're in love with the girl you've been watching from afar. you know your fate. #you just want to help her‚ but then there's the announcement and she's here in front of you‚ kissing you‚ risking her life for you and you #think‚ i could live and i could love. you think she loves you when she hands you the berries‚ when she puts them in her mouth. #then you both survive and you go back home and nothing is real anymore. you have nothing. no family. no friends. no love. just an empty #house. a drunk for a neighbor. the love of your life walking into somebody else's arms. you think‚ i survived the games. i could survive #this. and you also think‚ i should've bit down on those berries‚ should've felt the juice burst before i died. #and then the third quarter quell announcement rings in your ears and you think‚ she will live and i will die as i should have in the first #place. the girl you love kisses you on the beach and somewhere you heart stirs and your mind revolts and you savor every touch she has ever #given to you‚ in front of the cameras and off. because you are a tribute and you are always being watched and snow's presence looms and #you think‚ i know she cares. but you get taken. you get drugged. you get tortured‚ your mind altered. the girl is a mutt‚ a murderer. she's #everything you despise‚ your mind stirs. your heart revolts. you gain more awareness but cannot distinguish reality from fiction and you #have never known katniss' love. the war ends. you heal. you come home. you plant primrose for her. years down the line‚ you grow in love #more than you thought possible. but some days‚ you cannot tell fiction from reality so you ask the love of your life‚ you love me. #real or not real? and she says‚ real‚ and kisses you. #and you sigh and kiss her back and revel in this. a home. a life. a love. #lit #the hunger games #everlark #otp: real or not real? #katniss everdeen #peeta mellark #text #tais toi lys #thgpost

[moeblob]

So does he, Gallagher.

#honkai star rail #hsr blade #gallagher #i based this off of how many times i used funny soda man to help be a healer with his poppin soda pop in SU #and then blade constantly just being blade as usual #its normally him saying unnecessary to my actual healer but #i kept forgetting gallagher heals and i kept healing when i didnt even need to so TECHNICALLY yeah it was unnecessary #but the amount of times blade was the recipient...... #i cant use like most of my newer units in story bc i cant ascend or i run out of leveling mats so i just #get them and toss them into simulated universe for funsies cause i can match their levels better #so thats where i tossed gallagher and he is genuinely fun to play as ? like i love his punches and kicks to start the battle #funny soda man is funny (to me) and im really behind in plot still #but last time i tried to play it on my laptop and got a kickass cutscene my laptop lagged and i couldnt even see it RIP to me #so now that its like ... me trying to play it on desktop ? #i mostly get on desktop for comms and if i do much else i feel like im slacking off even if i would take a break anyway #one day i can play more story plot stuff and actually meet the funny guys #also in case you know me for Not Having Boys in HSR i need to point out #i did pull Gallagher however same 10 pull got a 4 star girl copy for someone i never use and she is at e4 now cool #and i didnt even think of the irony as i started this i just like drawing blade and i wanted to draw gallagher #so when i already had the dialogue planned and am drawing i was like OH WAIT haha im funnier than i thought #(no i am not but we can pretend)

[a-dauntless-daffodil]

having Marina and Acht be old buddies separated for years like this was so RUDE

so WHY'D side order have to stab me in the heart with this friendship like that huh?? why'd they have to DO that!!!!

I AM UNWELL

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH

#splatoon 3 #side order #acht mizuta #dedf1sh #marina ida #AND THEY WERE OLD FRIENDS #!!!!!!!!! #AND THEY CARE SO MUCH #AFTER ALL THIS TIME #THE SYMBOLISM OF ACHT HAVING A WOUND THAT CANT HEAL #BUT THEN THEY MEET MARINA AGAIN #AND SHE DELETS THE WOUND #SO HER AND ACHT CAN JAM TOGETHER AGAIN #THE PARALEL OF MARINA BEING TAKEN OVER BY ORDER- BC SHE WAS SCARED OF CHANGE #AND ACHT DEALING WITH CHANGE BY FOCUSING ONLY ON MUSIC- ENDING WITH THEM GETTING SANITIZED #AND AND AND #ITS NOT JUST THEM HELPING GUIDE EIGHT AND PEARL #GOING UP THE SPIRE SAVED THEM TOO!!!!!!!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ooo fantasy au Poppy oooo there's so much empty space on this, it's killing me

rambles:

why is there lace? why does she have a neck corset? because she's Gorgeous and I'm the Artist Here. i will always inflict my personal tastes on everyone I draw. pretty bird <3

it's really difficult to put clothes on a bird... stream helped out a bunch with the colors & the leg gear! I imagine that the leather is durable, which is probably the only thing that gets her to traverse less Forgiving terrain. Thornbushes and itchy tallgrass can't hurt her! she's got "boots"! How Does She Secure Them, i hear no one ask. that's what neighbors are for, isn't it? and a skilled beak once she gets the swing of it.

her shawl remains largely the same due to my lack of imagination! i put a lil feather clasp instead of the shawl being tied together to give it a more fantasy-oriented look. i think i succeeded? i like to think so! i imagine that the clasp gives Poppy some stress, though. It's sharp! Ish. it's sharp by her standards!

Poppy's enchanted glasses allow her to "see" injuries and illness, both caused by magical & normal means. this is very helpful in her role as healer, but also extremely stressful - just because she can see issues doesn't mean she automatically knows what they are! to her, a papercut may be misinterpreted by the beginnings of a fatal infection! i like to think that she got tired of needing to hold the glasses in place over her beak and asked if there was a charm to keep them steady. and they confidently had their resident wizard spell them on - oops! the spell was a little too strong! they're now magically superglued on! yeah, those are never coming off.

she also has a magic bag that i imagine was a gift from her family when she left the nest! she'd never directly use it herself - what if she falls in? what if something nasty managed to crawl inside? - but the Neighborhood uses it as collective storage. it can hold a lot! supplies, books, tents, gold, even Julie when she's determined enough!

#'why are her legs broken' Technically! theyre bending the correct way for a bird #i would draw them normally but since this au is uhhhh #mmmm how do i say? theyre Flesh and Bone and Biological Creatures! #so... normal bird legs :]c #its like how everyone gets teeth here! except poppy. cause she's a bird. #and wally. bc home forgot. #but yeah. poppy <3 #i like to imagine her trying to make dinner at a campsite #im now Realizing that part of the appeal of fantasy aus for me is the camping #god i miss camping. take me BACK #but also dont oh my god dont make me go back i dont want to be a kid again it was terrible- #scribble salad #wh fantasy au #poppy really can do it all! #she cooks! she heals! she screams loudly and hides during fights! #she helps frank keep careful track of the party's collective Coin!

[wlw-cryptid]

I am once again thinking about having a big strong butch lay back in my lap to nurse after a long day

Telling them that I want to make Daddy feel better and pulling their hands to my chest, helping them pull my shirt away. They'd hum and humor me because not even whatever cool-headed calm exterior they put on will stop them from having their princess's heavy tits in their mouth, and I'd eagerly pull them closer. Once their mouth was full, I'd start start talking them through it. Telling them how good it feels in my soft, warm voice, telling them how much I love them. What a good daddy they are, what a good butch they are, how they take care of me like a good husband should. My body's here to take care of all their needs.

I'd go from holding their hand to rubbing their forearm to massaging over their hips, and their eyes would get heavy as they relaxed more and more into me. Sure I'd sigh and whimper and love how it felt, but my voice would begin taking on that other tone; the one that reaches into their mind and soothes all their thoughts down until they can only wait for what I tell them. Before they even realized it, they're preening at being called a good boy and I'm undoing their belt, slipping my hands under their pants and palming at their bulge. I coo about how hard they are, how sweet they are to me, asking them little things like "do I taste good, sweetheart? does that feel good?" just to make them nod and listen and obey more than anything else. When I stroke their cock through their nice black boxers, I want them to moan into my breast and whine out "more" and "please" until they can't take it anymore n remind me whose in charge

#anyways i got off thinking about this earlier #i just want to be taking care of daddy and Pretending like I'm being subservient as they actually drown in subspace #she speaks #i know this isnt fine writing but i wanted to share #it would be so healing to start a scene cooing for daddy. make them moan for mommy. n then switch back to them being in charge n mounting m #once theyre inside. coming back to their senses and me falling apart under them #i wish you all a very lactation kink. drink my milk and tell me how youll help me produce more #greatest hits

[turtleblogatlast]

Absolutely love the idea that it was April who got the boys super into snow days.

Like, pre-April, they probably would view the days as miserable, since as turtles they’re likely more susceptible to the cold and back then they probably had much less to keep warm with.

The cold altogether was just never good to them - and then April comes around and teaches them how to make a snowman. And when it’s done, she pelts them with snowballs. And suddenly, the cold is now fun, and they might still be shivering, but now they’re smiling too.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt headcanons #obligatory paragraph of text incoming- #but god I love April so much #I kinda implied it in this post but to go further - April is FUN #she’s energetic and quick witted and kind and overall just FUN #and that is so important!!!! #she as April O’Neil is the embodiment of friendliness and that alone got her four whole brothers for life #she’s just - she’s SO GOOD #she GETS the boys and gets what they need and will go about it in her own way #and likewise they’re exactly what she needs too - a group that matches her energy and vibes and gusto and everything #god I Love April #not even just the boys I love her relationship with splinter too #I personally think that interacting with a human being probably helps Splinter humanize HIMSELF #he adores his boys oh of course he does he loves them to the moon and back #but they are also a direct link to his trauma - and a direct reminder of what he now is #so I imagine it’s healing - to interact with a human and not only that but to see her interact with his boys too #I bet it brings a much needed sense of normalcy #and specifically it being April - someone who’s so accepting and kind and fun - I think she brought a lot of great vibes to the hamatos #and a new sense of normalcy that wasn’t there before #and in turn I bet this makes April feel more at ease too because- #the hamatos are WEIRD #and so is April! #and thus they’re so weird that it circles back around to being normal! #this is THEIR normal #they’re family your honor- #APRIL IS ALSO SO INCREDIBLY BRAVE BTW #like soooo brave and daring like she’s so cool???? #sorry she’s my second fave after Leo and I do not gush about her nearly as much as I should I loveeeee her

[transdimensional-void]

the thing is, if the unsullied really believed they were free, she would not have an army of 8,000. like, we are talking 8,000 individual human beings with 8,000 different backstories, personalities, hopes and dreams…

especially considering how traumatic their training is, there must be a (significant) number who would gladly leave fighting behind forever—if truly given the chance.

we know their training doesn’t really strip them of all individuality. some of them choose to reclaim their original names or make up new ones. in the past, when sold in too-small groups, their training would fade and they’d assimilate to whatever group they found themselves with. they do things like overindulging in food, stopping by a tavern for a drink, seeking out intimacy with women. in short, despite their traumatic pasts, they are still humans with human desires and motivations.

if they really believed they were free, some percentage would want to return home, some to travel to places they have always wanted to see, some to settle down, find love, raise families. some may be in love already and dream of a future together. some must have family who are also enslaved—like missandei—and dream of finding and freeing them.

but we’re supposed to believe that, given a choice to do absolutely anything they wanted with the rest of their lives, every last one of them chose to *checks notes* keep doing the same thing they were doing when enslaved? all of them? really? All Of Them?

unless, of course, they didn’t actually have a choice…

#it’s not like i expect d to really understand the psychology behind what happened to them #and dedicate resources to helping them heal from their trauma #and be rehabilitated and reintegrated into society #but especially with missandei there as a window into their individuality #she should be able to conceptualize them as individual people #with individual pasts #and individual futures #rather than simply as an army made up of soldiers #asoiaf #cw #slavery

[carefulfears]

one thing that stands out to me about the IVF arc is the way that, for as much as i make fun of her for asking her coworker if she can have his babies, scully asking mulder to be involved in the biggest process of her life (and the most important thing in the rest of her life) is such a healing and reverent experience. like he says “i’m absolutely flattered,” but it’s so much more than that. it’s like…spending your whole life feeling like you should’ve died at age twelve and then being told someone just wants more of you, more and more and more, in everything.

#it reminds me of 'sixth extinction' / 'amor fati' #when he quite literally was tied down and couldn't speak #and the way we hear him try to SCREAM when his mother just leaves him there #but his mind is Silent from the moment he hears scully in the hall begging to see him #and he couldn't crack a joke or run out the door #he literally just had to lie there and feel it #feel it on his Skin #her hand holding onto him #her tears falling onto his face #listening to the overwhelming depth of her fear that she is failing him and her devotion and her dedication to finding a way to help him #her Pleas for him to just 'hold on' #'i think that...if you know...if you could just find a way to hold on...i need you to hold on...please...' #everybody go listen to the civil wars' cover of 'talking in your sleep' #i don't think it can be overestimated how much of an impact that had on them and the lightness and healing in s7. that he Had to hear it #and then with the baby thing it's like...he CAN'T deny her that. he HAS to say 'yes' #there's no part of him that's capable of denying her something that she desires this badly. enough to ask for outright #and so he HAS to let himself be wanted and be invited into this unimaginably important and personal thing #let himself be a part of something bigger. be SEEN as someone who is valuable in a way that's bigger #and again he can't run from it and he can't deflect it and he can't hide from it. he has to just accept it #txf.txt #per manum

[creativesplat]

Stealing/ Affection: Link steals some time with Mipha after his death, and before his spirit rejoins his body in the shrine of resurrection.

#there was going to be a lot more of this but the general theme of this week is I had no time 😅 #and before his spirit rejoins his body in the shrine. #the idea that he coaxed her spirit out of her body one she was killed is a sweet one I think - maybe her spirit couldn't let go because she #wasn't able to admit defeat or she was trying to hold on so she could keep fighting or to see her father and Sidon and link one more time #but she was already dead and had no more strength to heal herself so link helps her 'cross over' as it were but is stopped halfway throug #? i guess because of the shrine. anyway it's not in Link's nature to leave his friends behind so I guess spirit link realised his fiancée a #d friends needed help (think the poe in ToTK) because the blights were holding them captive so he tries to help even though they've lost an #are all dead #because he's a hero and that's what he does #(and also he loves his fish and could never leave her when she needed help) #anyway some miphlink angst for y'all #but also hurt/comfort #because they both deserve it #I like to think they managed to steal a little more time together like Mipha had wanted #miphlinkweek2023 #miphlinkweek #miphlink #botw #mipha #link #ghosts #creativesplat draws #breath of the wild

[pianokantzart]

The Mario Brothers bunking in Princess Peach's castle long term after one of them/all of them experience a traumatizing event has to be my favorite trope.

#it's just so right #just the three of them clinging together to help slowly build each other back up #the physical resources needed to heal are more readily available in the castle sure #There's doctors on call. There's guards to summon if ever they feel unsafe. There's silent gardens to sit in and unwind. #but most importantly Peach wants to be immediately available to the bros in their time of need #she has a kingdom to run but she desperately wants to be there for them #it's just so 👌👌👌👌 so good

[lilliancdoodles]

Merfolk Fobo for @tastytoastz's Fitpac Mer AU fic 'Life is like the ocean, it goes up and down'. Click for better quality!

Design notes below the cut.

Master post of all designs for this fic

HOLY SHIT OK. So i know I did this to myself but Fobo was ROUGH to draw. Everyone gave me some trouble.

Foolish: - Great White Shark but gold - Foolish is always hard for me to draw cause everyone draws him differently. I decided to base him more off of the more human designs/ cc!Foolish for this to break up the yellow from the tail. - I didn't want to make him straight up metallic, so I gave him a goldish color

Tubbo: - Swordfish - Did you know that swordfish and marlins look very similar? Well they do, so i had to make sure that I was giving him a swordfish tail and not a marlin tail. (I redrew it so much) - I gave him a different shaped sail cause one big difference between swordfish and marlins are their dorsal fin. The tails are pretty similar, but the dorsal fin is different. (pic for ref further down) - The scars are from when he got caught in the ship rudder causing him to end up at Chume Labs ----------------------------------------- Marlin dorsal fin V Swordfish dorsal fin V

Sunny: - Fantail goldfish (I got more specific than just 'goldfish' cause i wanted to >:) ) - Flowy ruffled shirt with a cut out in the back for her sail. - This Sunny looks a lot different from my normal Sunny, but I like them a lot. - by far the easiest of Fobo Leo: - Purple Lionfish - Sail is like the spines of a lionfish but with webbing between the spines - Ears inspired by lionfish pectoral fin - The fin gave me so much grief... I wanted to have it face forward and not sideways, but I could not for the life of me get it to face forward and look good, so I gave up. - Red t-shirt with white collar. I didn't draw it here, but I imagine it also has a little white hood that has the Walter dog on it, but it might get in the way of her sail, so unsure. Also has a hole cut in the back for her sail like Sunny's

Also close ups of Sunny and Leo cause they're small in the group shot:

#qsmp #qsmp fanart #qsmp au #qsmp foolish #qsmp tubbo #qsmp sunny #qsmp leonarda #LCDoodles #I spent like an hour and a half making sure I was giving Tubbo a swordfish tail #I eventually went to swordfish taxidermy and that was pretty helpful #I managed to find pictures of what actual propeller scars look like #Unfortunately manatees seem to get caught sometimes so i found a (non gruesome (looks like it had healed a bit actually)) of that #Leo was fun but that tail fin annoyed the hell out of me #I love how it turned out though #she looks so cool #my algorithm must be so confused #I'll probably do the humans next #cause im all caught up on the Mers we've seen #I have an idea for most of them #Richas specifically so im excited >:D

[mosstrades]

Oh wait this is fucked up actually. Marcy grew up around Simon while he was actually already under the effects of the crown (both physically and mentally). He was already unraveling by the time they found each other, even if he still felt like he was 'himself', so Simon as we know him, regular-ass Simon, would be in ways a kind of stranger to her. Physically, in his appearance and presence decoupled from the effects of the crown; situationally, what with them not being in a barren wasteland and whatnot; emotionally and personally, with Simon maybe doing things or showing himself to be things that Marcy didn't know to expect. And add to that how much they've both changed over the course of their lives since they separated...

While Simon managed to see her life through Ice King's eyes for a while, I like to imagine the memory is fuzzy at best and entirely unreliable at worst, so — in a way, truly, their reunion is them getting to know each other all over again, in a new dynamic, but with the base of that same old, foundational relationship; that same old, old love.

And I'm so normal about it.

#(the reconnection of a grown up kid and her dad who she only knew as an active user after he gets out of rehab) who said that #<- projecting hard #adventure time #nick.txt #marceline abadeer #simon petrikov #fionna and cake #Do you think Simon has a strained relationship with self-expression and silliness after being IK. Do you think it makes Marcy think about #the Simon who raised her - always cracking jokes to help them both cope? #You ever think Marcy gets a bit weirded out by how... normal... post-canon Simon is. #Do you ever think Simon gets bouts of 'madness'* and she's like 'oh hey I know this guy'. #Do you ever think she tells childhood anecdotes from that time he wasn't there and he gets this heavy look of regret he cant quite hide-- #(at this point i have been shot with a tranquilizer dart) #*I think the relationship AT has with the complicated-ass concept of altered consciousness/'madness'/mental illness is really interesting #and has a lot of potential for expansion in fic #What with themes alienation from yourself and from others. What with the portrayal of what your being 'mad' 'does' to you/those around you. #What with themes of guilt and forgiveness and acceptance and responsibility and healing. #Like. If youre like me and you hc Simon as having a litany of mental struggles. At what point does that differ from #the magic-induced altered state? #and what does that look like and feel like? How does that affect himself and his connection to others? #I think its a very easily dismissed concept bc of how it brushes some pretty stank ableist tropes #but I also think it could be incredibly #resonant if treated skillfully and compassionately and realistically #to put it crassly #local man finally free of crazy-crown-curse discovers he has severe mental illness. like. the normal person kind. #has to deal with that. #tldr simon my friend simon my favorite he/she grandma who experiences psychosis <3 #and marcy my friend marcy my favorite she/they mitski stan who just wants love to surround her #the tags in this post are like three other posts. im right tho

[nellasbookplanet]

Okay I've talked about the tragedy of Laudna now let's talk about the tragedy of Imogen.

It’s been a while, but her moment in the Feywild truth exercise where she says "I think I’m tainted. I don’t know if I want to save gods that don’t love me" has really stuck in my mind. The thing is, I don’t think she’s specifically talking about the gods here, but rather summing up and projecting her entire experience as a ruidusborn. She isn’t thinking "Why aren’t I the gods' special little princess? Why haven’t they come to save me specifically?? You better love me or I'll let you die" (which we have seen does seem to be a common attitude in the Vanguard) This is her fear of being against her own will tainted by something evil. Her fear that, despite knowing how wrong it is, part of her longs for the power and belonging that comes with giving in to Predathos. It’s knowing that this thing is the antithesis of the gods, and that no matter what she does and how much she opposes it, it is still part of her. And because of that, the world doesn’t love her. Her mother left, her father can barely look at her, her own body will betray her with feelings and powers she doesn't understand, her community ostracized her, her allies view her with suspicion, the gods will not lend a hand in their own rescue when she asks despite Imogen putting herself and her loved ones in danger for their sake.

And Imogen is tired. Tired of being the bigger person, tired of resisting. Logically she knows the gods don’t hate her specifically but it ads up, and as the lure of Predathos does promise love and belonging part of her wants to give in because why should she risk so much to save a world that has never once tried to save her.

And that’s where she, as well as Laudna, get so interesting. They have deeply sympathetic reasons for their doubts and flaws, as well as for why they value each other so much higher than the entirety of Exandria (tl;dr because they have only ever gotten genuine understanding and unconditional love from each other). But that doesn’t mean it isn't flaws. It doesn’t mean Imogen, if she hadn’t met Laudna and the Hells first and realized the harm the Vanguard is causing and that their promises are ultimately lies, couldn’t have been drawn in by the Vanguard's ideas. It doesn’t mean they aren't wrong in blaming gods for bad things in their own lives, or in demanding special treatment. But it’s deeply understandable, which is the very reason they and people like them're such excellent targets for the Vanguard to convert. And once in the Vanguard, it doesn’t matter how tragic and sympathetic you are, you are still doing evil.

#critical role #cr3 #imogen temult #meanwhile Laudna's negative attitude towards the gods is a bit more complicated #in that she really does blame them for not saving her #she's repressing all of her negative emotions about her fate and situation but those feelings are still THERE #and lately they’ve been heightened due to the stressful situation of trying to save the gods #and laudna doesn’t want to save anyone she just want to chill and enjoy what little life she has #and so when the negative emotions do come out she projects them at the gods bc she needs SOMEONE to blame #and since she’s never interacted with a god they’re easy to blame bc in a way they aren’t entirely real to her #something that isn’t entirely real but very powerful can’t be a victim but it can be an easy scapegoat #bells hells travel past the divine gate and physically interact with the gods challange #it would be so juicy to see imogen and laudna be forced to face and process this projection of guilt against the gods they both share #i think it would help them realize that sometime randomly bad things will just Happen and it’s no ones fault #and in seeing that stop looking for someone to blame (both themselves and the gods) and start to heal #nella talks cr

[justaz]

sally kept the shotgun after the war but now gets celestial bronze bullets from camp and she defends her family and apartment against monsters with it

#plus it keeps rent down #pjo #percy jackson #percy jackson and the olympians #hoo #heros of olympus #headcanon #head canon #hc #sally jackson #BONUS: percy feels a lot more comfortable leaving for college in new rome since his mom has a way to defend herself and paul and estelle #if monsters ever swing by #plus if demigods crash at her place while running from monsters #she can help keep them safe so they can rest and heal

[zerodaryls]

it's so funny (read: sad) that if bigoted fuckheads didn't insist i was a woman simply by virtue of my body at birth, i'd probably be chill with she/her pronouns in addition to he/they. if my mom didn't insist i was her daughter, i'd probably let her call me that, and we could still have a relationship.

i'm nonbinary and 'gendered' words are hypothetically meaningless, but because there are so many people who are more interested in telling me who i am rather than lovingly and curiously letting me express my own sense of self, those words carry trauma.

there's no reason a nonbinary person like myself can't be a son and a child and a daughter. there's no reason a nonbinary person like me can't go by he, they, and she.

'she' is not a slur. 'daughter' is not derogatory. 'beautiful' 'pretty' 'gorgeous' 'feminine' are not insults.

to the contrary, they're parts of language that express certain facets of a multi-faceted human existence, like mine.

and i have this sad, mournful feeling that if it weren't for unloving, condescending people, i'd probably be down to be called any of those things alongside my usual masculine/neutral terminology.

but i'd rather die than let anyone tell me what i have to be called.

#i try to reclaim 'feminine' words for myself in private #calling myself 'babygirl' when i need to chill out. or saying i feel pretty. or going 'she needs help' when i'm struggling lmao. #but there's still so much fucking trauma in those words from the people who've forced them on me #who've snarled in my face that GOD made me ONE THING and ONE THING ONLY and that's a WOMAN (stepdad) #who've guilted me for taking their precious perfect daughter away as if i'm fucking dead (mother) #who've mocked me and everyone like me as if we're not the experts on our own sense of self (general transphobic public) #like. i'm not a fucking man. i'm not a fucking woman. i'm nonbinary. gender is absurdity as a concept. i'm done with it. #but being called a man or a son or a guy or 'he' or WHATEVER in that vein is fine and dandy because i've never had anyone say #'that is all you can EVER be'. or worse: 'that is what GOD made you to be and you have a ROLE to fill' #(christianity pls die approximately yesterday thanku 💖) #so yeah. idk. ranting yet again about Cis Audacity. #the complete lack of empathy. the lack of curiosity even. #the condescending bullshit. the 'i understand you better than you do'. the fucking AUDACITY. #i am the expert on myself. i am the ONLY expert on myself. period. no contest. not a debate. #i understand myself better than anyone else is CAPABLE of understanding me. #i could call myself 'she' and understand that i meant it in a nonbinary way. #in fact i could even see myself letting other trans people call me feminine terms at some point in the future. when i've healed more. #but cis people? probably not. they can call me 'he' or 'they' or they can fuck off & never get to know me because they don't wanna know ME #/end rant #any terfs/bigots that try to touch this post will be swiftly blocked and quite possibly cursed. have the day you deserve <3