hello i am to bother you again
I was listening to the song ‘somethin’ stupid’ by Frank Sinatra and his wife and I thought of Rainy
thas it
ohhh my dearest neighbor, you've only added a song to my silly little playlist...
the song is definitely rainy! but it is also maverick... it's maverick AND rainy, its both of them... i wish i could explain, but i simply cannot put it into words...
all you need to know for right now is that they are very silly...
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ramblings on Li Ming (and Heart) and homosexuality
moonlight chicken has so many things to offer in terms of technical beauty and interesting themes but what i cannot stop thinking about is the different ways they approach homosexuality in the story.
we have Wen who has a rainbow flag on his desk and pictures of him and Alan on the wall. Wen, who openly flirts with Jim and has no qualms talking openly about his one night stand. Wen, whose step father knows about his sexuality and is close enough with him to discuss his love life.
Kaipa we don’t know too much about. But his mom knows and is supportive and some of the vendors and the chicken family seem to know. But if anyone was questioning in what reality this show is set with all the class discussion and corona featuring, his part of the story shows that homophobia exists and he is worried about how he fits in with his own family, the expectations of his mother and possible the awareness that he makes the family he has “different”.
Jim is arguably even more visibly gay than Wen in terms of what we see throughout the show. He opened the shop with his ex, they prayed at the temple together and even though he objected due to proprities sake eventually they loudly declared their love to each other and the whole neighbourhood knows. Wen somehow feels like he is living in the remnants of a bubble: his circle of friends seems very queer, his closest friend and the whole gym seem to be all part of that as well. This only might change now with him questioning his work and breaking up with Alan: some gatherings he won’t attend anymore apparently.
And finally, we have Li Ming. At school he doesn’t seem to open up to his classmates on most things and additionally is in the closet. While there wasn’t anything alluding to homophobic rethoric being spread at school we can see how the heteronormativity gets to him and feel that there must be good reason as to why no one knows. And it could just be how Li Ming is judging the situation based on vibes, we don’t know. His mother is or at least was homophobic but at the same time he is raised by his gay uncle who is surrounded by other gay people. And I love how it feels like this might have given him enough security to be comfortable with his own sexuality but how it also isn’t enough to shield him from the world at large.
With so many great shows coming out of Thailand and most of them getting more and more political it just feels so real and 2023 to me that Li Ming is part of a generation that knows who they are but still have to battle with the shadow that homophobia has cast way before they were born.
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✩ my destiel aus: a masterlist✩
brought to you by ao3 user dirtybackroad
squatter’s rights (T, 8.1k) : weirdo angel artist drifter cas meets solo-hunter dean in an abandoned house. dean flirts via references to movies that cas hasn’t seen, cas flirts via mind reading.
confirmation (T, 1.8k) : dean and lisa are set to be married. big irish catholic wedding and all. only problem, dean isn’t confirmed. enter priest cas.
under covers (E, 6.5k) : get your fake dating here! even more than fake dating, get your faked sex scene ( that’s a little more than fake ) here, too! inspired by and titled after an episode of ncis.
it started with a photograph (T, 3.8k) : bare the musical au ? boarding school. jock dean, shy cas. including : overuse of stained glass imagery and a first kiss.
you & i (T, 1.5k) : part two of the above bare the musical au. takes place during the song you and i (obviously. jesus, zo) angsty and closety and secret relationshippy. but kinda cuddly too.
changing my major (T, 1.3k) : college au, morning after cuddles
unanticipated consequences (E, 13.8k) : hunter dean, veterinarian cas. dean breaks into the clinic for some emergency medical care, finds a bit more than that, actually.
light my candle (E, 7.8k) : roommates to accidental kink discussion to confession of mutual pining for the last 12 years to hookup. part two is in the works (just an excuse to write the waxplay that i didn’t put in the wax play fic.) they frot.
candle in the mirror (T, 6.6k) : a young dean and cas gather in the woods of their small village and do some christmastide fortune telling. witchy boy cas anyone?
wall lovin’ (E, 2.7K) : dean falls for his neighbor, wholly due to the thin wall separating their bedrooms and his neighbor’s tendency to have really really loud sexual experiences. a bit dub-con as dean’s being voyeuristic but. i promise that cas doesn’t mind.
canonverse fics | sapphicnatural fics | misc. spn fics
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you know what it is…it’s the fact that will has been open about having OCD, anxiety, depression, dyspraxia and having su*c*d*l thoughts that i admire so much. being diagnosed with a learning disability (dyscalculia) and having depression & anxiety and dealing with su*c*d*l thoughts myself, it just makes me feel so seen.
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you know, its not brought up in fics often but ted is extremely well read. he doesnt brag about it, but hes read everything from f scott fitzgerald's b sides to ayn rand's doorstoppers to the sixteen book Ender series, etc etc etc. Ted reads about as much as we see Beard reading (which. in my head is a trait that was passed on, a new focus to sharpen the mind and keep him out of trouble and his mind off drugs, something Ted offered up as a coping mechanism for when his own dad died, a way to have fun and adventure and escape without ending up in jail like Ted himself had a handful of times before, scaring the bejeezus out of his ma.)
this turned into a mini fic and i lost my train of thought but point is, Ted reads So Much and more people need to pick up on this in fics please and thank you.
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My deep unceasing hunger for knowledge vs my inability to look at a dense paragraph of text without my eyes glazing over, fight
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Kid Kazuichi! I like to think she's never totally looked "normal," that the teeth were always sharp and her hair was usually a curly mess in between those times where her dad or grandma got some clippers and gave her a homemade buzzcut, but her hair grows back fast. When she was really little, with her long hair and her running around pretending to be a magical princess when she was away from home, a lot of people thought she was a girl...heh.
Judging from her conversations with Hajime, I got the sense that apart from comic books she was mostly into nonfiction like guides on building things or cars or history.
I have a lot of feels about Kazuichi's relationship with reading. When she was a kid, the library was a safe haven: mentally and physically, she could get away from her dad, teachers, mean kids, and just escape -and she is an escapist with a big imagination. But as she got older, it was hard to keep up with the other nerds in her class, who had an easier time focusing and understanding, and reading felt more brutal and insulting. There was a false dichotomy of being an advanced reader or being "stupid." At her breaking point, she couldn't keep up her grades any more and was burning out, and if it wasn't for Hope's Peak giving her a new chance she may have considered dropping out altogether.
Every time she tried to return to books, it would remind her of the stress of school. It also felt like she was leagues behind everyone else, that she was "stupid", and the shame would drive her away. But there is no rule that you have to only read books at a "high level" - when you're not in school, this doesn't matter at all. It's okay to admit that you have a disability and it makes it harder to read some books.
I hate that there's some discourse right now that makes people think it's wrong or somehow damaging to yourself only/mostly like media for children and teenagers, so I need to internalize more positive messages for myself. Anyway, media is supposed to be enjoyable, something you want to do, not something to keep up with social trends or to impress a former gifted kid with a superiority complex who misses the days when they could compete with you and feel like a big shot. You do not have to compete with them.
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