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#ravyn rants
crsinclair · 1 year
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Gotta love it when people DON'T TAG THINGS.
Please tag triggers, content, and even SHIPS (for the Fandom side of tumblr). Otherwise people who use the filter function on this site ARE GOING TO BE SEEING POSTS THEY DON'T WANT TO SEE. LIKE I JUST DID.
Not a good start to a day for a person with a heart condition!
I know tagging seems like a waste of time sometimes but it HELPS others that have filters in place!
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shyslullabye · 2 months
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whos that girl?
𝄞 -im shy aka THE head tyongf, hii !!
𝄞 She/Her, 8teen ! soulaan. awkward. october libra
𝄞 i dont really have a direction, its mostly kpop and random speech and kdrama rants. i literally never know what im talking about
𝄞 ults- NCT(all units), billlie, p1won, ateez, svt skz, bnd, (g)-idle and more
𝄞 casuals- twice, epex, rv, riize, æspa, stayc, fromis, and more
𝄞 non kpop- ravyn lenae, megan thee stallion, doja cat, old p!atd, paramore, the weeknd, sza, childish gambino, and more
𝄞 DNI- company stans. all of the phobics, basic dni criteria. anti any of my faves tbh. solo keeho stans. ALL solo stans actually. yall can kick rocks.
𝄞 my sims finds acc
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jesushadhoestoo · 2 years
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The way I can just never find any nice aesthetic pics with BLACK WOMEN, its always a white, Asian, racially ambiguous etc. type looking girl.
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ravynfyre · 5 years
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Tear Gas Reality(tm)
I do not understand the concept of Tear Gas Reality(tm) - “You Can’t Possibly Understand The Thing(tm) Until You Have EXPERIENCED The Thing(tm) First Hand.”
The concept that people must experience suffering in order to understand how to be an actual compassionate individual is just... what? No. We can raise children to understand compassion without throwing them into a world where they have to grow up and experience what it is like to be terrified by being penniless, homeless, hungry, sick with no medical care, abused, and broken. To argue that it is IMPOSSIBLE for people to understand how to be compassionate until they suffer like you have suffered... that's just sadism wrapped up in pretty paper. That's just Tit-For-Tat because you want to make them hurt, too... NOT logic and compassion. COMPASSION DOES NOT HAVE TO BE EXPERIENTIAL OR PERFORMATIVE!!! You can teach compassion without having to torture the student, first. If you argue that you cannot? Then you are 1) incompetent, 2) a bully, and/or 3) ignorant. And maybe - probably - those three conditions all come from a place of injury from the things that you experienced when someone was NOT compassionate to you... But that does NOT excuse your apparent willingness to hurt another person in order to "teach them a lesson". Listen to what that last part sounds like: You want the student to experience harm to teach them a lesson about how harm feels so that they will not harm someone else. The classic "Tear Gas Scenario": Most agencies will not certify their agents to utilize tear gas until they have experienced the effects, first hand, of what tear gas will do to them. Can also be substituted with Tasers. Think REAL HARD about that... "I'm going to PUNISH YOU for the only reason so that you know how much this hurts. Theoretically, so you will remember and think twice about using this tool against someone else. Because you will know, now, how harsh this is." I don't know about you, but I already know how bad tear gas is, and I have never experienced it, nor would I wish it on anyone else. I have seen enough medical reports, enough videos, enough trauma reports, read enough first hand accounts from victims, that I am very well aware that it is a dangerous weapon, and I know how to rank it in an arsenal of de-escalation tactics, from talking, all the way up to real bullets, thanks. Just like I know what it is like to have no health care. To be poor. To be stalked. To be sexually assaulted. WHY would I wish any of those experiences on ANYONE ELSE in life, in order for them to learn to be compassionate to people who have experienced them? "I understand what it is like to suffer, and so, I would not wish that on anyone else; I will help them before they have to." To me, that is what we, as a society should be striving for, and what I think we are perfectly capable OF striving for. All of this, "I understand what it is like to suffer, so why should anyone else get help that I didn't get?" I don't understand this mindset, because THAT ULTIMATELY IS THE MINDSET BEHIND TEAR GAS REALITY(tm): "I didn't get it, so why should they?" It's just wrapped up in sophistry and pretty trappings that tries to pass it off as faux compassion and bullshit reasoning. No. It's reactionary schadenfreude is what it is. Just fucking own that bullshit, okay?
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sexyrasputin · 4 years
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She was the world’s biggest, stupidest idiot. Ace, her Ace, was in love with her. He loved her completely and utterly. And she had tried to take advantage of that.
As always, Ravyn had managed to be a selfish brat at the worst of times. No wonder her life had turned out the way it had.
Ravyn wasn’t paying much attention to where she was going, too distraught to focus, too careless to think, but she wasn’t surprised when she found herself knocking on Cal’s door. He wouldn’t be much comfort, but he would let her cry and rant and vent. Cal would let her wallow and be miserable, and then he’d offer some sort of solution. It was exactly what she needed at the moment.
There was no initial response after her knock, so Ravyn walked in.
“Hey, Ravyn,” Cal greeted, not looking up from whatever movie they were watching. He was surprised she hadn’t made a comment about his and Torin’s cuddling, but he wasn’t going to bring it up if she wasn’t.
Ravyn didn’t reply, collapsing into Cal’s desk chair as she wiped tears from her eyes. This, it seemed, captured both men’s attention. Ravyn wasn’t a crier. Ever. Cal had seen her cry maybe three times in the seventeen years he had known her. Torin had seen her cry maybe once. Maybe.
And now she was trying not to bawl.
Somebody was about to get murdered.
“What did Lev do?” Cal asked slowly, sitting up so he could get a better view of his cousin. She shook her head with a wry laugh.
“This time? Nothing, nothing important anyways. No, this was all me.” The two men shared a worried look. Neither of them had seen Ravyn make herself cry before. She’d upset herself by being an idiot, but that usually led to day drinking and then moving on. Not coming to Cal’s room and collapsing tearfully into his chair.
“Ray, what happened?” Torin asked, his voice gentler than usual.
“I’m officially the world’s biggest idiot,” Ravyn muttered. She let the tears fall freely now, giving up on trying to hold them back or wipe them away.
“Ravyn, what did you do?” Cal asked, his voice far less gentle than his boyfriend’s.
“I was so rude. So beyond cruel,” she explained, still not giving details. The two men shared another worried look, in part because Ravyn still hadn’t commented on their closeness, and also because she was owning up to being so horrible. She must have really messed up for her to own up to it.
“Ace is in love with me,” she spoke shakily after a few unsuccessful moments of calming herself.
“So he finally told you, what’s that have to do with this?” Cal countered. Torin glared at his boyfriend. That was not how things needed to be handled. Luckily, it seemed Ravyn didn’t care.
“He’s in love with me, and I tried to use that as a way of saving myself. I completely ignored his feelings. I was worse than Meg! I told him we should get married, that it was perfect, that I would finally be free from Lev,” she sobbed in reply. Torin untangled himself from Cal and walked over, pulling Ravyn up and into a bear hug. But this only brought more tears. Her voice and body shook as she tried (unsuccessfully) to explain the situation further.
“It’ll be okay. He’s gonna get over it. It’s Atticus and you, you two are too close to not figure this out.” But Ravyn shook her head.
“No, this was my last chance with him. I already almost ruined things with the whole Lev and Alice drama before everything fell apart. I’ve almost ruined things a thousand times before that. This was my last chance, and I just lost him completely,” she breathed out shakily. She didn’t have Ace anymore. She didn’t have her best friend. How on Earth was she going to survive, going to get out of this mess, if she didn’t have Ace? Not even to marry, just as her best friend, as her Ace.
Ravyn was pretty sure she had just killed any chance she had of survival.
This thought broke Ravyn further as she sobbed into Torin’s shoulder, body shaking violently. Neither of them had seen Ravyn like this before, and Cal had seen her at her absolute worst, after her mom died and she got kicked out at age ten for accusing her dad of murder. Ravyn had been angry with other people a million times before, and she’d been angry with herself before, too, but never like this. She’d never started falling apart because of something she (or anyone else) had done.
Cal didn’t say anything, but he didn’t have to for Torin to understand his thoughts. He didn’t think Ravyn would be able to piece herself together after this, not if this was her reaction.
“C’mon, Ray. Let’s watch a movie. You can crash here tonight so you don’t have to see your roommates, and we can get you ice cream and chocolate and stuff.” Cal stood, walking over to his cousin and pulling her into a very, very rare hug. Somehow, this and his words managed to bring a sense of calm to her. Maybe Cl didn’t have some magic solution, but at least she knew she’d never screw things up with him for forever. Same with Torin. With those two, she would always, always be safe.
She’d thought that was what she had with Ace, but that was before Ravyn had screwed everything up because of a crush. And look where that had gotten them all.
Yeah, Ravyn had lost the most important person in her life, someone who, as she sat there with Cal and Torin, had managed to beat out her closest friends in rank of importance. Ravyn was never going to have Ace again, and she wasn’t sure how she was going to survive.
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ariadnebridgestock · 6 years
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blog recs? 💘
hi anon! :)
ohh, okay!!! this is going to be long XD
and first and foremost, obviously, you have to be following the wonderful @cassandraclare, which you probably already are, to get updates and snippets, but if you are avoiding spoilers, you can choose not to, though blacklisting the tag is what I do!
blog recs + appreciation
so disclaimer first, there are so many lovely and nice people in this fandom that I probably haven’t met all of them yet or know all their names but the lovely and amazing people that I know of that you should definitely be following are:
my mutuals:
amber, @rosqles, definitely one of my favourite blogs and you are probably already following her, she is one of many who creates the most stunning edits in the fandom that I absolutely love and has just basically excellent content on her blog so you will never regret following her and she is someone I would love to get closer to since she is so lovely
silvia, @grishae, definitely one of my favourite blogs and you are also probably already following her, she is one of many who creates the most stunning edits in the fandom that I absolutely love even if I don’t know the fandom and has just basically wonderful content on her blog so you will never regret following her and she is someone I would love to get closer to since she is so lovely
ivy, @alinesgf, definitely also one of my favourite blogs, and has just basically wonderful content on her blog so you should definitely follow her fabulous blog and you will never regret following her and and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
ella, @ladyofroses, definitely also one of my favourite blogs, and has just basically wonderful content on her blog so you should definitely follow her, she is honestly fabulous for one, for tscwlwweek and and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
ej, @ligntwood, we’ve only been mutuals for a while but I absolutely love their blog, already one of my favourites, and they have amazing content and they love will so you should definitely follow them, they are so lovely as well, I love talking to them, someone I would love to get closer to as well
noor, @cordeliacvrstairs, definitely also one of my favourite blogs, and has just basically wonderful content on her blog so you should definitely follow her, she is honestly just fabulous and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
kian, @ashdcwn, definitely also one of my favourite blogs, and has just basically wonderful content on her blog so you should definitely follow her, she also makes fabulous and beautiful art and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
molly, @fcirfolk, definitely also one of my favourite blogs, and has just basically wonderful content on her blog so you should definitely follow her, she is honestly fabulous for tsc wlw content so that is just a blessing and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
hetty, @emmarosales, definitely also one of my favourite blogs, and has just basically wonderful content on her blog so you should definitely follow her, she also writes truly incredible fanfics and loves wlw ships that I love and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
ali, @ali-fairchild, definitely also one of my favourite blogs, and has just basically wonderful content on her blog so you should definitely follow her, she creates cute snap edits that I adore and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
brishti, @kitbblackthorn,definitely also one of my favourite blogs, and has just basically wonderful content on her blog so you should definitely follow her, she writes amazing fanfics that I love and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
mark, @henrysfairchild, definitely also one of my favourite blogs, and has just basically wonderful content on his blog so you should definitely follow him, he loves the last hours so much already like I do and that is just a blessing and he is someone I would love to get closer to as well since he is so lovely
kimmie, @cordeliaheronstairsx, I love her blog, she creates amazing edits and has wonderful content as well so you should definitely follow herand she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
macy, @tiberiusn, I love her blog, she has amazing content on her blog as well so you should definitely follow her and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
tina, @willherondaels, I love her blog, she has fabulous content on her blog as well so you should definitely follow her and she also makes really incredible art on her other blog and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
sammi, @lovelqces, I love her blog, she has amazing content on her blog as well so you should definitely follow her and she loves the lovelaces so that is just a blessing and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
laura, @isabellelovelxce, I love her blog, she has amazing content on her blog so you should definitely follow her and she loves lucelyn so that is just a blessing and she is just so fabulous, I love ranting to and with her about the show, and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
elena, @herondaleboys,I love her blog, she has wonderful content on her blog as well so you should definitely follow her and she is just amazing and loves herongraystairs like I do so that is just a blessing and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
zakkari, @llighttwood,I love his blog, he has amazing content on her blog as well so you should definitely follow him and he is someone I would love to get closer to as well since he is so lovely
tessa, @herwndale, I love her blog, she has amazing content on her blog as well so you should definitely follow her and she also writes incredible fanfics and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
@emmablackthxrn, asdfghjkl I didn’t realise I never asked your name so I am going to use they for now, anyway love their amazing blog and they love jemma/blackstairs and is someone I love interacting with and someone I would love to get closer to as well since they seem so lovely
@crristinarosales​, asdfghjkl I didn’t realise I never asked your name too so I am going to use they for now, anyway love their amazing blog and is someone I love interacting with and someone I would love to get closer to as well since they seem so lovely
grace, @aelineblackthorn, I love her blog, she has wonderful content on her blog so you should definitely follow her and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
rose, @immortaltsc, I love her blog, she has amazing content on her blog so you should definitely follow her and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
stephanie, @blackhtorns, one of my very first mutuals, I love her blog, she has amazing content and she writes amazing fanfics as well so you should definitely follow her and she is someone I would love to get closer to as well since she is so lovely
other fabulous editors and lovely mutuals blogs that I love seeing on my dash: 
sofia, @the-lady-of-roses, lovely blog and wonderful content, would love to get to know her better
ravyn, @miachblackthorn, fellow singaporean yay though she resides elsewhere and amazing blog and lovely content, would love to get to know her better
mia, @parabajem, one of my very first mutuals, wonderful blog and amazing content, would love to get to know her better
cress, @chrysseis, amazing blog and content, would love to get to know her better
sue, @lwdymidnight, wonderful blog and content, would love to get to know her better
katherine, @rosqstairs, lovely blog and content, would love to get to know her better
bianca, @blackhallow, we just became mutuals so I would love to get to know her better
@queenhelenblackthorn, wonderful blog and amazing content, would love to get to know them better
@shadowhunterworld, fantastic content and an amazing blog, would love to get to know them better
@fair-but-wilde-child, loves the last hours and matthew fairchild so that is just a blessing, would love to get to know them better
@hermionejohannalightwood, amazing blog and wonderful content, would love to get to know them better
@soamesandtrace, lovely people and an amazing blog with amazing content, would love to get to know them better
@helen-lady-of-thorns, lovely blog and content, would love to get to know them better
(asdfghjkl so sorry if I don’t know your name, feel free to let me know through my message or ask and let’s all be friends! ;) or just get closer because I would love to! and please do correct me if I got your name and/or pronouns wrong!)
my non mutuals:
rosey, @catarinalosss, definitely one of my favourite blogs and you are probably already following her, she never disappoints and always has amazing content on her blog so you will never be bored! her fanfics are especially wonderful and I love reading them and you would definitely as well and having talked to her on a couple of occasions, she is also such lovely person too
yana, @tessacarstairs, definitely also another one of my favourite blogs and you are also probably already following her, she is one of many who creates the most stunning edits in the fandom and if you especially love jem, her blog has the amazing content you’ll love and though we are not close, I can tell that she is lovely too
hannah, @matthiashelvar, definitely also another one of my favourite blogs, she is also one of many who creates the most stunning edits in the fandom and I love admiring her edits even if I don’t know the fandom, so you should definitely follow her for amazing content and though we are also not close, I can tell that she is lovely too
ale, @cristinqrosales, definitely also another one of my favourite blogs, she is also one of many who creates the most stunning edits in the fandom and I absolutely love them, so you should definitely follow her for amazing content, you won’t regret it and though we are also not close, I can tell that she is lovely too
alina, @jamescarstairss, also another one of my favourite blogs, she is also one of many who creates the most stunning edits in the fandom and she is one of the most rare people in the fandom who loves the morgensterns (not valentine though) which is such a blessing,so you should definitely follow her for amazing content and though we are also not close, I can tell that she is lovely too
nicole, @vlctorvale, also another one of my favourite blogs, she is also one of many who creates the most stunning edits in the fandom and I love admiring all her wonderful edits even if I don’t know the fandom, and her recent wessa edits are absolutely gorgeous so you should definitely follow her for amazing content and though we are also not close, I can tell that she is lovely too
julie, @ghansey, also another one of my favourite blogs, she is also one of many who creates the most stunning edits in the fandom and I love admiring all her wonderful edits even if I don’t know the fandom, and she loves will too so that is just a blessing so you should definitely follow her for amazing content and though we are also not close, I can tell that she is lovely too
other fabulous editors and lovely non mutuals blogs that I love seeing on my dash:
opal, @lovelaces-are-quiters, just followed you only recently but I have heard amazing things about you, love to get to know better
carmen, @andrrewminyard, her creations are absolutely stunning, love to get to know better
leslie, @liviablackthorn (I hope that’s your name), her moodboards are absolutely gorgeous, love to get to know better
son, @kittrook (I hope that’s your name), haven’t followed for that long but I already love the content she provides,love to get to know better
june, @kierancfthehunt, haven’t followed for that long either but she already has amazing content that I love,love to get to know better
lua, @kitiberius (I hope that’s your name), love seeing her on my feed when she does post,love to get to know better
tash, @doranhavilliard, haven’t followed for that long either but she already has beautiful creations that I love, love to get to know better
elessia, @tiberiusblacktorn, love seeing her on my feed when she does post, love to get to know better
@kiearktina @thewildhuntt @heronxdale @mostawesomepineapple @zaraphobic are also lovely people with amazing content that I will love to get to know better as well
(asdfghjkl so sorry if I don’t know your name, feel free to let me know through my message or ask and let’s all be friends! ;) or just get closer because I would love to! and please do correct me if I got your name and/or pronouns wrong!)
art blogs that post tsc fanart you should follow:
spring, @liqhtwoodx, she makes amazing and beautiful art so it’s definitely a must follow
tina, @tiilnna, she makes really cute and amazing art so it’s definitely a must follow too
cassandra, @cassandrajp she makes a lot of gorgeous official tsc art it’s definitely a must follow as well
@jaynere @phantomrin @oblivionsdream @ribbitsplace @camisala01-art @loweana are also lovely people with amazing art that you should follow 
there are too many for me to remember so these are just a couple of my favs!
networks you should follow:
@dailyjessa
@tscnetwork
@tscsapphicnet
@theinfernaldevicesnetwork @tidsource
@tdanetwork
if you watch and like shadowhunters (the tv show) as well, great networks that post it with book content as well are @nephilimdaily @tscsource!
incorrect quotes blogs you should follow:
@incorrect-tmi-quotes @incorrecttdaquotes @incorrectherondalesquotes @incorrecttlhquotes @incorrectmalecquotes @incorrectkierarkquotes @incorrectkierarktinaquotes @incorrectvampireduoquotes
there might be more but these are a few I can think of!
okay, this is the end, I really hope I didn’t miss anyone out…and like I said at the start, there are a lot more blogs out there that I have not had the pleasure to know of yet and this is just a really small number of amazing and lovely people in this fandom! and I really hope I didn’t make any typos in here…
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boschlingtumbles · 3 years
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Chapter 43
In the span of thirty minutes, Brienne had covered the entire first floor of the Sept of Baelor, the gardens, the courtyard and the seven shrines that dotted the grounds, and she had not so much as a single golden hair to show for it. “I called her, texted her, Ravyned her, left messages on her Ravengram, LinkedIn and Facebook pages,” Jaime rested his entire golden head on her shoulder. “I called two of her burner phones, I know she has more, but I don’t know the numbers. What if she was hit by a car?! What if she was hit by a car and has amnesia and is wandering through the streets of King’s Landing?!” “You’re not helping,” Brienne scolded, but she rested her own head on his anyway. Engaged to be engaged. Gods she loved this man. “What if Cassana knocked her out and shoved her in a locked room somewhere?” Jaime asked the world at large. “She wouldn’t do that,” Brienne protested tepidly. “Stannis shoved me in a locked room somewhere,” Jaime pointed out. Brienne was saved from having to respond by the approach of the very woman. “She’s come to gloat. Or to finish the job,” Jaime hissed. “She has not!” Brienne whispered back out of the side of her mouth. Out of the front of her mouth, she managed a wan smile. “Brienne dear, I hear you’re the maid of honor,” Cassana trilled. The less charitable part of Brienne’s mind (the part that sounded uncannily like Jaime) noted that Cassana hadn’t forgotten her name since she’d been told Brienne was a sapphire magnate. “Guilt as charged,” Brienne admitted. “She’s the guilty one!” Jaime growled under his breath. She stepped on his foot. “Finally, someone who can get things done around here!” Cassana put her hand on her hip. “We need to talk about my solo.” “Your solo?” Brienne repeated cautiously. “Yes, lights and sound. I want the entire dining room to go dark.  The audience buzzes. Hold it for exactly three counts and then a single spotlight. I’m on the dance floor. You’ll want a warm light dear, too artificial and I just wash out. This dress needs to pop you understand?” Cassana struck a pose, showcasing the white silk dress that continued to look uncomfortably like a wedding dress. “The spotlight should follow me as I serenade the guests, moving from table to table. Check the sound systems ahead of time, I despise when there’s too much base. You can manage that, can’t you?” “Mmm,” Brienne said neutrally. “I’ll finish with Robert and Cersei of course, the audience will eat it up. And then as everyone applauds, I move back to the dance floor. Then it’s time for my encore.” “Your encore?” Brienne managed faintly. “A good performer never leaves their audience wanting,” Cassana winked. “Kisses darlings, I’ll see you at the ceremony.” Brienne and Jaime looked at each other. “We have got to find Cersei,” Brienne said hollowly. “Only she can stop this menace,” Jaime agreed. “Maybe one of the other girls can help,” Brienne offered. They found Catelyn cornered by a reporter. “And what do you say to allegations that your husband actually fathered Ashara Dayne’s love child, not MP Brandon Stark,” the reporter shoved a tape recorder in her face. “I can’t discuss this!” Catelyn tried to get away. “Are you admitting it? Is that why your marriage was allegedly on the rocks?” The reporter followed after. Brienne was about to wade in, pink tulle dress or no, when Varys rounded the bend with two security guards. “Arrest that man!” He cried, pointing at the reporter dramatically. The reporter gulped and made a break for it as Varys rushed to Catelyn’s side, apologies abounding. “Maybe Lysa...” Brienne mumbled. They found Lysa in one of the picturesque grottos, sitting on a stone bench, cell phone pinned between ear and shoulder as she viciously pulled apart a flower. “I don’t see HOW I could have misconstrued what I saw Petyr! No, this time YOU LISTEN TO ME! We are done! I never want to see you again! And you’d better stop spreading those slimy rumors about Ned and Cat or... or... or my BOYFRIEND is going to beat you up!” Jaime and Brienne backed slowly away. “Melisandre’s usually good in a crisis,” Brienne ventured. “Good thinking,” Jaime said, eyes round. Melisandre was still where Brienne had left her, in the closet in the bridesmaids’ staging room. “Mel?” Brienne knocked hesitantly. “I’m in a bit of a pickle and I was hoping you could maybe...” “Ta da!” Melisandre flung the door open. Brienne goggled. Was that even the same dress?!?! The same color surely, but... What had once been crinkly layer after crinkly layer of tulle had been stripped away, revealing a silky and form fitting sheathe rather like a negligee that clung sinfully to Melisandre’s curves. Why you could even see her... Brienne hastily clapped a hand over Jaime’s eyes. “Nice dress,” Jaime said from behind Brienne’s hand. “You can’t wear that!” Brienne squeaked furiously. “What I think you meant to say was, ‘Melisandre you look ravishing. I could tear that dress right off you’,” Melisandre sniffed. “That’s too kind Brienne. But it took ages and there’s only twenty minutes before the ceremony so...” “Twenty minutes?!” Jaime shouted from behind the hand. “I can see your nipples!” Brienne yelled. “Take it off!” “Shan’t,” Melisandre said haughtily and waltzed out. “Twenty minutes,” Jaime said dully when Brienne removed her impromptu blindfold. Brienne looked at him. He looked back. “At least we have each other...” Jaime ventured. Brienne tried to smile. He was so sweet. “...Until Cassana kills us,” Jaime finished. “Stop,” Brienne groaned. “Please don’t make it worse. I don’t know if I can handle things getting worse.” “Hi,” Thoros Asshai knocked on the open door, sticking his head partly in. “Um is Melisandre here?” Brienne let out a deep breath. Finally. A way to snip one of her many loose threads. “I’m so glad you’re here!” She blurted. Thoros squinted at her. “...why?” He asked, sounding genuinely bewildered. “Melisandre’s shredded her bridesmaid’s dress into something that looks like a teddy, Cersei will be furious if she finds it. Can you make her at least put on a shawl over it?” Brienne asked hopefully. “Huh,” Thoros rocked on his feet. “I could possibly help you with that problem. If...” Brienne could have cried. Why was there always an if?! “you help me with Robert.” What?! “What?!” Jaime growled next to her. “What has that imbecile done?!” “Uh let’s not be too hasty to assign blame, which probably doesn’t need to really be given out at all,” Thoros scratched his head. “Highly counterproductive and all...” “Fine,” Jaime crossed his arms and glowered. “What have YOU done?!” Thoros straightened for a second like they might get into it, and then collapsed into his usual half-slouch. “Better to just show you,” he said glumly. Why did Brienne really not like the sound of that? They trailed Thoros down the hall to an area that was quite clearly off limits to visitors, and Brienne would have made some protest, if Thoros were not already pushing the door open into what looked like somebody’s study. “Tarth!” Robert exclaimed exuberantly, and then Brienne was being crushed into a hug. She staggered backward, partly with alarm and partly because Robert had immediately shifted all of his wait onto her, and appeared to be using her as a means of staying upright. “Is he...” Brienne looked at Thoros. “Completely shit-faced,” Thoros admitted. “Jaime! My brother in law! My brother from another mother! My braime? But that would be both of you...” “You idiot,” Jaime said. Brienne couldn’t really see him past Robert’s head lolling on her shoulder, but she assumed the remark was addressed to Thoros. “I might be impressed honestly. I’m not sure anybody has ever outdrank Robert before. I didn’t think it could be done. But if anybody could do it, I suppose I would have put my money on you. You stupid shortsighted irresponsible...” “Brienne,” Robert interrupted Jaime’s rant, unfocused blue eyes suddenly locking on hers. “Hi Robert,” Brienne said politely from inches away. “Brienne, I don’t have feelings for you.” “Oh,” Brienne blinked. “Well that’s good.” Robert nodded in solemn agreement, the movement threatening to send them both toppling over. “It is good. I love Cersei,” he said. Brienne frantically tried to look over his shoulder to summon a rescue from this conversation. “...an hour before his wedding?! WHY?! WHY would you ever think that was a good idea?! And don’t even get me started on...” “Cersei told me you had a crush on me,” Robert continued, and Brienne with a prickling sense of horror suddenly realized that this was not one of Robert’s usual non-sequiturs. “Oh no,” Brienne breathed. “That’s what I said,” Robert agreed. “Definitely Renly.” “What?” Brienne frowned. “The reason you were always hanging around our house was because you had a crush on Renly. Stannis and I both thought so.” “What?!” Jaime suddenly paused in his telling off of Thoros. “Brienne always had a crush on Renly,” Robert repeated again. “I thought maybe she’d have a chance because she kind of looks like a guy? Especially back in high school? Remember your hair was super short and you wore that ugly lacrosse sweatshirt all the time and...” “Thank you Robert,” Brienne tried to push him off but he only held on tighter. “But Renly’s just super gay. Way gayer than Thoros. Thoros, are you sure you’re gay? And then they just became really good friends. At least that’s what Stannis and I think,” Robert finished. Jaime stared. Brienne held her breath. “And I told Cersei that, and she said nuh-uh, she was right and you’d said as much to her.” ...and there it was. Brienne’s stupid lie to get Cersei off her back, come full circle back to the two guys who Brienne would have least wanted to hear it. Robert at least seemed serenely unphased. Jaime, in contrast, seemed like he’d be catching flies any second. (Thoros had taken a seat in an armchair and was looking thoroughly entertained.) “So just in case, I thought you should know,” Robert explained. “I don’t have feelings for you.” He patted her head clumsily. “I don’t have feelings for you either,” Brienne assured him through gritted teeth. “I knew it was Renly,” Robert nodded sagely. He turned toward Jaime. “So I think you’re safe. Brienne and I don’t have feelings for each other and Renly is super gay. I don’t know about Stannis though. Brienne, do you have feelings for Stannis?” “I DON’T HAVE FEELINGS FOR STANNIS!” Brienne squawked, shoving him at last off her. He windmilled lazily before catching Jaime’s arm for balance. “OR RENLY!” She added for good measure. “Are you sure?” “YES! THE ONLY PERSON I LOVE IS JAIME!” Thoros wolf whistled, and Brienne shot him a look. “Why don’t you explain exactly what happened here,” she said frostily, as Robert tried to give Jaime a hug. “I’m not sure,” Thoros admitted. “Stannis asked me to hang out with him before the wedding because they’d crashed their car. We were just doing some shots—like three or four, seriously, it was nothing but a buzz for this guy, I’ve been drinking with him for years, and the next thing I know he can barely stand upright. You have to help—if Cersei finds out that I got Robert hammered at the wedding, I don’t like my chances at survival. I promise I’ll get Mel to find a sweater or something, just fix him please?” “I don’t know how to fix him,” Brienne groaned. “Cersei would know but I can’t find her anywhere! And now the wedding is starting in twenty minutes, we don’t have a bride and the groom is hammered!” “Did you look in the second floor bathroom?” Robert asked sleepily from where he was now curling up in a recliner. “...what?” Brienne asked. “Like in high school, that’s where she goes when she’s upset,” Robert trailed off with a massive yawn. “This is a sept, it doesn’t have a second floor,” Jaime broke in testily. “Yeah it does,” Thoros frowned. “I was just up there, the staircase is further back in this admin wing. If you turn left, you can’t miss it.” Jaime and Brienne looked at each other. “Go,” Jaime waved his hand. “I’ll keep an eye on all of... this,” he gestured at a now snoring Robert. “I’ll find her,” Brienne promised. She hurried toward the door. Sure enough, there was a staircase. Once on the second floor, Brienne frantically scanned the corridor. There! Past a closet and several closed doors, were the instantly recognizable symbols a male and female silhouette. With a deep breath, Brienne pushed into the women’s restroom. A cursory look under the stalls revealed it was empty. Unless... A sudden twinge of suspicion and the tickle of a memory of her own from high school and Brienne was pushing in the doors one by one. When she came to the exact middle, it held fast. “Cersei?” Brienne asked, knocking. “Cersei, it’s Brienne, open up.” No response. All the same, Brienne could practically feel the presence of someone sitting quietly on the other side. “Cersei Lannister, open up before I knock the door down,” Brienne growled. There was another pause. Begrudgingly, the door clicked and slowly swung outward. Cersei sat huddled on the toilet, dress neatly folded under her. Her eyes looked a little red, but her makeup remained flawless. Brienne wasn’t even sure she would have known something was wrong except... The posture. Cersei always seemed to take up more space than such a slender person should be capable of. Whether it was her looks or her ego or the buoyant energy that seemed to allow her to sail through life impervious, when Cersei walked into a room, you noticed. This person, this pretty fragile facsimile of Cersei sitting shoulders slumped in a bathroom stall, eyes skittering anywhere but Brienne’s gaze, had none of that. “I’ve been looking for you,” Brienne said awkwardly. The understatement of the century. Cersei did not react in the slightest. “Cersei, you need to get downstairs,” Brienne tried again. “Petyr told the press that Ned and Ashara had a love child together and Cat’s being hounded by reporters. Melisandre ran her dress through a shredder, Robert had too much to drink and Cassana is wearing a white dress!” At that last remark, Cersei’s lip twitched in the faintest tremor of a sneer, but she remained unresponsive. “Cersei, I don’t know what to do,” Brienne tried to swallow the bubble of panic rising in her throat. “It doesn’t matter,” Cersei finally said, voice quiet and thin. “I can’t do this. Send them home.” “Send them home?” Brienne repeated back, resisting the urge to strangle her. “Why?!” “It’s all wrong. I’m supposed to have a baby girl. Genna Joanna Lannister,” Cersei looked up at her. “And now it’s a boy. I don’t know how to have a baby boy, Brienne. The nursery colors are wrong! I pre-enrolled a little girl in the best school in Oldtown and I can’t change the application, I’ll have to withdraw it! He doesn’t even have a name! I don’t know how to have a baby boy, Brienne, I can’t do it, I can’t!” Cersei’s breathing was getting shallower, her thing shoulders literally shaking. She was practically hyperventilating, and Brienne realized that if she didn’t get control of the situation now, it would be lost. She took a deep breath and sent a prayer to the Mother for forgiveness. Brienne smacked Cersei across the cheek. Cersei broke off mid-spiral and stared. A red mark was blossoming on her face, Brienne noticed with a wince. Well no going back now. “Did you just... hit me?” Cersei blinked. “Yes. And I’ll do it again if you don’t get out of that stall this instant,” Brienne said evenly. Their eyes locked. Mutely Cersei stood, and Brienne stepped out of the way to allow her to exit. “Now eat this,” Brienne pulled a power bar out of her handbag. “And don’t fake eat it like you did with that burger. I’m going to sit here and watch you until every crumb is gone.” Cersei looked at the bar in her hand as if Brienne had handed her a gun. “EAT!” Brienne barked in her best colonel-general voice. Cersei hastily began to unwrap it. “Now listen,” Brienne poked her. “I have seen you blackmail and bully and just... bend reality to your will. You have never let anybody stop you ever. If you want to resubmit your application to this school, who the fuck is going to stop you, Cersei Lannister?! Nursery paint schemes?! Are you kidding?! It’ll be blue before you get back from your honeymoon. And why do you even want to name your baby after your Aunt Genna?! She’s a pretentious cow who thinks I’m an embarrassment to the Lannister family name,” Brienne huffed, crossing her arms defensively. “What? No she doesn’t,” Cersei frowned, stopping mid-chew. “She does! I heard her at your engagement party! Jaime’s shaming the Lannister name according to her,” Brienne rebutted. “Don’t be silly, Aunt Genna wasn’t talking about you. She was upset that Jaime left you alone. It’s very rude to invite a guest and then spend the entire evening ignoring them,” Cersei explained, before swallowing and taking another bite. “Oh,” Brienne said, a tad stymied. “Well, I guess that’s alright then. I mean you could still name your baby after Genna without naming him Genna. Like Genner or uh Genes or um Gendry...” “Gendry,” Cersei said slowly. “That’s a nice name.” “The point is, the baby being a boy instead of a girl... that’s just a new plot twist. A challenge. You live for those! You’ll find a way to use this to your advantage and be an incredible mom, and win at that too, just like you win at everything else. But first you have to win at this. Your wedding. Because I did not come this far and put up with this much from you to stop inches short of the finish line. You are going to find a way to make this perfect or you are going to find a way to live with it,” Brienne said sternly. “Or so help me seven, I will drag you to the altar myself.” There was a pause as Cersei chewed and Brienne held her breath. “I’m done,” Cersei said, holding up the empty wrapper. “And?” Brienne ventured hopefully. “I have a fucking wedding to fix,” Cersei turned, inspecting her reflection grimly. “Good,” Brienne sighed in relief. “Because I don’t think I really had it in me to drag you to the altar.” “There’s just one thing,” Cersei continued to scrutinize the mirror. “What?” Brienne asked nervously. “You’ll have to do it again.” “Beg your pardon?” “You’ll have to slap me again. Left cheek this time please. It has to be even, otherwise it’ll look like some kind of makeup snafu.” “Sorry?” “Really Brienne, if you can’t manage a tiny old slap, I’ll just have to find...” Brienne slapped the other side of her face. “Excellent,” Cersei said briskly. “Now let’s go.”
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Ghetto Sage: Chicago's latest funky trio
Chicago has been one of the biggest hubs of creative and talented hip-hop artists for decades now, being home to rappers such as Common, Twista, Lupe Fiasco, Kanye West, Chance the Rapper and lots of other amazing musicians from both the lyrical and more melodic side of the culture. It's not surprise that in the past few years a few new artists have come into their own and are receiving attention for their latest albums - the trio, who is now known as Ghetto Sage, consists of the lyrical Saba, poetic Noname and melodic Smino, who althogh is originally from Missouri, blew up whilst being part of the Chicago wave. With all of them being friends, before artists who work with each other and all of them having their own distinct style, which is compimented by the other two's talent when collabing, they all released lesser known projects in 2016 and 2017, which were absolutely fantastic and addicting. They all really shone in 2018, when each of them released an album, which underlined their amazing style and showcased the young rappers ability.
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The first of the three to release an album was Saba, who released one of the best projects of the year with the extremely lyrical Care for Me. The project really is one of the best albums to come out of Chicago for decades and is constructed in an amazing sequence, telling the story of Saba's formative years as a teenager and young adult, growing up in the hood, full of emotion, regret and showcasing the inner turmoil which the rapper has to deal with even to this day. The storytelling project full of grief and anxiety tells the story of his cousin, Walter getting stabbed, him being a shy youth, getting robbed by his own cousins, but later getting hooked up with girls by them, wanting to fit in. Rapping from his more mature persona and age, Saba also focuses a lot on his current loneliness and existential worries - showcasing the paradox of feeling completely alone, when you're at your social and artistic peak. The entire album could be looked at as a memento to his experiences in life, with each song holding a part of him in its entirety and story. The production of the album focuses on very heavy and mellow rap beats, combined with lo-fi synths and chopped pianos.
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Later on in September of 2018, Noname released her album Room 25, again being one of the best rap albums of the year. Much more melodic than Saba's very heavy rap album, Noname showcases her excellent ear and love for jazz and soul, with the album having a very heavy neo-soul feel to it. She mesmerizes with her very unique rapping style, sounding as thought she's ranting and reading poetry, rather than just rapping, making her a very distinct artist. She explores topics going from politics and social issues, to exploring the femininity she was scared of and allowing a lover to get close to her on a physical level. Rather than sounding very mellow when exploring these personal subjects, Noname makes it sound as thought she's a very open person, ready to share anything, whilst at the same time remaining a very introverted and personal figure, with more questions arising after every song, rather than answers being given, keeping you very interested in the album and her sound. Building on the more personal and insecure topics about her feminine side, Noname also addresses the confidence she has in herself as a woman on "Montego Bae" with Ravyn Lenae, showcasing a very light-hearted and comedic point of view of her relationship, where she admits she knows she's the shit and her boy is all over her.
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The last to release, right at the end of November was Smino with his very nostalgic R&B project "NOIR". Taking on similar inspirations as Noname when it comes to using neo-soul and jazz, Smino flicks the samples in a much more upbeat manner, creating a very energetic and melodic choppy project, which is kept together by his fantastic voice, which sounds like honey after a pack of cigarettes - the beats and samples are very groovy, but at the same time chopped-up, with slight trap inspirations, which makes for a sound which captures your attention, due to its rough and unexpected nature. The warm feeling of the project gets cut through at multiple points when Smino experiments with his voice, often catching the listener by surprise when he whispers or mumbles, making you have to focus on what he's saying and catching unexpected rhymes, thanks to his vocal inflections. The homey, party album sounds like something you'd listen to whilst being in a bedroom with your closest friends, just nodding off with a blunt, having a deep conversation and noticing the small amazing features of the songs you're all queuing up on the Aux.
All the albums really showcase the personalities the rappers have, with each of them being very relatable to different audiences and just like in real life, the three different types of people they are work fantastic with each other as they experience very similar issues in life, just looked at from different points of view. I'd also advise to check out their latest collab song under their group name Ghetto Sage - "Haagen Dazs", as well as listening to each of them individually and finding out which of them is "your rapper".
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I saw the initial tweet about proms in Japan and I decided to finally say something. This has honestly been bothering me for a long while - as a POC that has been white-washed not only by the American government but by my own family, it is legitimately painful to watch as the anime and manga fandom slowly starts to white-wash itself.
If you don't believe me, go watch a popular anime. Turn on the subtitles and listen when they call each other by name. The names don't match up. It's incredibly jarring to listen to one thing and yet read another.
Full thread here if reading the text in the images is too much.
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seethebadways · 7 years
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Sorry I’ve been so inactive lately
I’ve been going through a lot lately.  Not only did the whole coming out, getting in trouble for meeting my ex online, having TERRIBLE grades (I'm talking 0s), being sent to my grandmothers because my dad wanted me “out of his face”, I also got fired on monday for something that went down MONTHS ago AND my dad has been tracking my phone calls which means that he know I’m talking to my girlfriend @etherealityx late at night (which is VERY VERY VERY BAD).  But at least my grades are all in the 80s, Ravyn and I have been madly in love and going strong for over a month (which is longer than any relationship I've ever been able to hold which is really sad i know).  My parents fr think I’m doing hard drugs like yes I smoke a lil weed every once in a while but it doesn't do anything but good for me.  Also they tell me I'm going to be a failure like every day lmao. Dunno this is my word vomit and it feel like tumblr is the best place to rant. I'm sorry lmao.
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Dark side of the Moon by Sherrilyn Kenyon is a hard cover and a first edition.  It is like new condition.  It was published in 2006 by St,Martin press.  it is also part of the Dark Hunter series. On the back cover:   Susan Michaels  was the hottest reporter on the Beltway Beat until she walk into a set up that ruined her reputation.  Now she's working for a small Seattle Paper, penning stories about killer moths and alien babies, convinced that her life couldn't get any worse....That was before an idea for a breaking news pieces brought her to a local animal shelter where she ends up listening to her sources rant about vampires an d gets coerced into adopting a cat despite her allergies.  But when the cat suddenly reveals himself to be a gorgeous and lethal shapeshifter, Susan realizes that there's far more at stake than a career.   Born into a world of predators, Were Hunter Ryvyn Kontis was betrayed by those he loved best.  Soulless, pitiless, he has spent three hundred years battling the Daimons who seek to subjugate humankind.  Against all odds Susan evokes in Ravyn feelings of tenderness. Desire. Love. and with the ultimate battle about to begin, this one very human woman holds the power to shatter both their worlds.   Youn can find this book on my ebay site or on SweetLadyDStore.com.
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ravynfyre · 3 years
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DUM-E's Extinguishers and ARRRGH!
okay, this is irrational. I KNOW this is irrational. But it still bugs me to no fucking end when people write in fics how DUM-E would deploy a fire extinguisher at/on/toward Tony and/or his stuff for the comedic factor, and they always use "white foam" extinguishers.
1) DUM-E has NEVER used a "white foam" extinguisher in canon. Not once. He used a CO2 extinguisher - Carbon Dioxide gas. At BEST, it would make flakes of dry ice.
2) There really isn't any such thing as a "white foam" extinguisher. Well, wait. There IS... but they come in SMALL canisters, like the size of a can of Aqua Net hair spray, and they are to be used EXCLUSIVELY on kitchen or garage fires where there is a FLAMMABLE LIQUID.
3) Even if anyone DID make "normal" sized "white foam" extinguishers, Tony would be SMART enough to NOT KEEP THEM IN HIS LAB as the use of one would absolutely destroy his shit, and could endanger his life, and even DUM-E's life, if deployed onto energized electrical equipment. He would keep CO2 extinguishers around, as they can be used on pretty much anything (although it's generally not advised to use them on burning paper products or other extremely lightweight burning material, as you are shooting a high velocity cloud of gas by using it, and doing so could, in theory, disperse the burning material into a larger area) Tony probably wouldn't even keep a DRY CHEM extinguisher around - or if he did, there would be a very MINIMAL amount of them, because the dry chemical powder, while useful on most burnables, causes a giant ass mess, and is NOT recommended around electronics and delicate electronic shit. Like, say the interior of an Iron Man armor?
BUT RAVYN! you ask, WHAT DO FIREFIGHTERS DO WHEN THEY NEED A LARGE VOLUME OF FOAM FOR A BIG BURNING LIQUID THING!?
Well, first off, burning liquids is not the only thing that needs some foam. Sometimes a fire of compacted solids - think a dumpster or a tightly packed brush pile - needs a little extra oomph to get the water to penetrate to all of the embers buried deep. In that case? We add a few cups of Dawn dish soap to our tanks. Yep. You heard that right. Dawn dish soap. It's called Class A Foam. Oh sure, there's some high tech versions, and versions that are made specifically for firefighting, but, basically? It's all Dawn. It's just a surfactant used to break the water tension and allow for better penetration of water into small spaces.
But if it *is* an actual FOAM we need in high volumes? We use a concentrate of Class B Foam. The most commonly used a AFFF foam, or Aqueous Film Forming Foam. And we don't add it to our tanks... we use something like a giant Miracle Grow hose attachment to inject the concentrate into the water flow *after* it leaves the pump... otherwise... well, think about what would happen if you dumped a bottle of hand washing dish soap into a dishwasher, and then let her rip, yeah? LOL. And on a big spill/fire, we can go through 5, 10, 20+ gallons of the stuff. We carry it by the 5 gallon jug on the rigs, and my department, at least, actually has a truck that carries 30+ gallons to bring to events that use more than a rig will normally carry.
So, yeah, I know it isn't as *funny* to have DUM-E use the appropriate extinguisher... the mental image of Tony covered in foam is cute (unless that has actually happened to you IRL, and lemme tell you, it's NOT "cute" at fucking ALL. It's not like shampoo bubbles or shit. It's clingy, irritating to the skin, and it *penetrates* everything) But seriously. Stop. Please stop. They don't even make extinguishers like that, and Tony would never allow them in his shop even if they did. The absolute logic fail on that shit is killing me.
/stupid rant about stupid fictional shit
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crsinclair · 1 year
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I need to know. For science.
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crsinclair · 1 year
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Saw this on Twitter (thankfully someone told me it was just a gag)
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And aside from thinking "Well damn that's a horrible thing to do to a child", my first thought was, "So that's what Baby Hizashi was put in by his parents and caretakers so he wouldn't blow their eardrums out again. The muzzle treatment really did happen, huh?"
Hey, if I had to be cursed with the dark thoughts, then so do you.
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crsinclair · 10 months
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Welp.
Welp.
Here we are again.
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crsinclair · 1 year
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So I reblogged this post about vampires a few days ago (a week ago? some time ago idk) and it made me remember this book I read back in junior high and I've been thinking about it and it's been bugging me because I can't remember exactly what it was called and I have no idea if I'll ever find it again.
Every time I tell people about this book they call me crazy, but I swear to god it's real: It was a non-fictional encyclopedia about Vampires that I checked out of the school library. I remember finding it, thinking it'd be a cool read, and taking it home with me.
Absolutely wild shit in there, y'all.
There were a few different ways for making vampires but one I remember the most because it stuck with me the longest: If you walked over a dead man's grave that was one way to wake them up and turn them into vampires. I remember going to a funeral a few years after that and walking over a grave because apparently there's no organization to graves and people nowadays just don't care if you walk over them or the memorial stones?? and thinking to myself "well these people are gonna crawl out of their graves and start sucking up blood".
There was an entire chapter dedicated to recognizing Vampires on sight, and I distinctly remember a whole page talking about when you saw a vampire in daylight you would be able to tell just by looking at them because there would be this other-worldliness about them, this unnatural beauty and light to them that would be almost impossible to describe. And I recall that page specifically because a few days later there was a discussion in my friend group about how "unrealistic" it was that the Twilight Vampires sparkled in daylight, and all of my friends laughed - but I spoke up and I started quoting that book I had just read and that if one put it into the context of "they sparkle because it's like looking at someone with other-worldy beauty then yeah, it makes sense to me", and all of them looked at me funny like "what the hell are you smoking you psycho?"
Also no mention of garlic that I remember. Definitely mentioned stakes! Don't remember in what context, but the book definitely mentioned stakes. Also silver. But not garlic. Sorry people who think garlic keeps vampires away, but apparently it don't.
And that book was old. I mean that thing was falling apart. The pages were yellowed and thick, they weren't cut by some machine - all of the pages were rough on the edges. If I close my eyes and think back I can almost feel the texture of them in my hands. The cover was red, the corners were rough, the binding was bent and a little bit broken. The title was simple, there wasn't any imagery on the book.
It was an encyclopedia of vampires, and I found it in the non-fiction section of my school library. I held onto to it for a week, and it was through that book that I discovered that when you checked out non-fiction books from the school library, for each day you held onto one the library would fine you $2.
For a 14-year-old whose family was on food stamps at the time, $10 was a lot of money.
(I was very, very lucky the librarian liked me because ho boy. I did not have a way of getting $10 guys.)
Anyway, I've never been able to find that book again. Nowhere. Anytime I try to look up "Encyclopedia of Vampires", I just find some newer books about vampires in mythology or in film or they've been interpreted throughout the years. But I distinctly remember this book being about Vampires as if they were real things, that could and would attack you, and that might need to be hunted down. No idea why a book like that would be in a school library and hiding in the non-fiction section among all the books about science and history, but there we have it.
I wish I could read it again.
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