#pls don’t make me do it anymore

[vellichorbindery]

New bind is a rebind of one of my favorite childhood books (and series). I actually wanted to throw this in the fire bc the HTV took me FOUR fucking hours, but overall it turned out neat.

#bookbinding #rebinding #inkheart #cornelia funke #rebind series #jules binds and cries at the same time #help I fucking hate HTV #pls don’t make me do it anymore

[whump-queen]

begging someone to hold a gun to my head so my brain will finally make me do my dishes, laundry, vacuuming, job applications, emails, messages,, just to get anything done at all without constantly wanting to die

#executive dysfunction is a fucking hellscape and I want out I want out I wantoutoutout #fuck my liiifee #seriously the threat of imminent immediate danger is the only way I can do fucking anything #executive dysfunction #the kind that makes me wanna BANG MY HEAD INTO THE NEAREST HARD SURFACE UNTIL I CANT SEE ANYMORE #death sounds preferable !!!!!!!!! #all those bullshit articles written by nt ppl like ‘MAKE A LIST!!1!1 BREAK DOWN UR TASKS!!!1!’ #THANKS BRENDA BUT ID RATHER PLUCK MY EYELASHES OUT ONE BY ONE #I literally gave my coworker $100 in cash the other day and said #’if I don’t have that report for u by tomorrow you get to KEEP THE $100.’ #because I COULD NOT DO IT OTHERWISE ID BEEN RIPPING MY HAIR OUT FOR WEEKS OVER THAT ONE THING #if u have exec dysfunction and have any tips for me other than putting myself in danger like - pls help ohmygod #legit a cry for help I don’t know what anyone would do but like #god damn a button that lets someone shock me remotely if I don’t do the shit i’m #supposed to do #I ACTUALLY NEED THAT IT WOULD SAVE MY LIFE HHAA #tw mental health #tw suicidality #adhd #tw implied suicidal tendencies #vent #personal

[callixton]

tbh i think what made tgwdlm so much more successful for me is how like. simple but effective the concept was and how well it combined content with form. i don’t think that either of the other hatchetfield musicals have really done that and it’s made them feel pretty shallow to me

#again i can respect the risks they’re taking in terms of scale #but the actual shows haven’t been working for me #black friday was entirely forgettable and npmd like. makes me a little embarrassed to like starkid #the horror at the end of tgwdlm felt genuine Because of the medium. i don’t really know how you’d replicate that #they also keep getting longer and i don’t even Know what they’re doing with that time #i am excited to see what they do next! i just hope they change the formula they’ve started using #starkid crit #<- pls god i am not trying to be a dick. #i don’t think ppl in fandom know to block crit tags anymore tho #ted talks

[daydadahlias]

any time i feel like my life is slipping away from me I remember the “open eyes right at twenty-three” line from take my hand and realize that im not even 23 yet. i have time

I’m going to say this in the most loving and compassionate way I know how

💙 you need to shut the fuck up 💙

im teasing but seriously the internet has so warped some of y’all’s perception of what age is and it’s genuinely so disappointing. If you are under 25, your goddamn brain is not fully developed and you need to chill out with this “im on the edge of my deathbed the second I turn 20” bullshit, especially if you’re a woman because media is constantly trying to convince you that you’re worthless if you’re not skinny and fresh-faced. Trust me, you’re fine. Your life is not slipping away. You’re literally not even a quarter into it. If you wanna come back and have this conversation when you’re 60, by all means feel free. But until then imma need you to buck up buttercup.

#I can’t stand ageism sorry pal it’s my number one pet peeve #it turns me into a monster #like you quite actually have your entire life ahead of you #if you’re younever than 40 I never wanna hear SHIT about you wasting your life #ageism in fandom is so pronounced it’s truly so sad #why does the internet act like women over 23 aren’t allowed to live their lives anymore ?? #calling 30 yo men middle aged?? #I need everyone to get it together asap lol #like be so srs rn #pigeon #anon #sorry I know you want me to validate ur feelings and be like yeah same!! but #no #I’m 21 bro I’m fresh as a damn daisy #and I also. don’t hate women so ageism makes me angy #ok yeah ur life is fine #uh. politely 💙 pls get over yourself RN shawty I’m begging #you are a lily in spring #wow do you like that word I invented before 40 #I meant to say ‘younger’

[jemmo]

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#can i just rant for a second pls #about life #I hate to be the kind of person to do this I don’t want ppl to worry or just be nice to me I’m not doing this to get anything in return on #I’m just doing this bc I need to get it out somehow and feel like its at least been said #bc I have no one I can say it to #I just really don’t know how to hold myself together at the moment #I don’t know how to have the strength to push to do all these things I need to do and want to do while still holding together every other #single fucking person in my life and being the person that gets all their stress loaded onto while not knowing how to fix any of it #I wanna be that person I wanna be someone you can go to but when it’s everyone all at once and it’s all these people around me that can’t #seem to communicate and make bad situations worse and I get they don’t have the strength to keep themselves together and face things with at #least a bit of a better mindset but god I can’t do that for everyone #it feels like everyone is falling apart and I’m the person in everyone’s life that’s trying to hold them together #and I really care about these people but I can’t seem to find the space for it all #not when on top of everyone having things that are shifting their life for me then to have my own life shifting too #all I wanted was peace just some rest before it all started happening I just wanted the summer to be easy and it’s not #I wanted this summer to be normal to be that last summer of family and it feels like I can’t have that anymore and I hate it #I hate that I feel alone #and I hate feeling like I can’t fall apart or put myself first bc I’m always gonna need to and want to be there for everyone else #I hate that I can’t cope #I hate that I can’t seem to live #that I can never muster up the energy or strength to do the things I want bc it feels like every force in my life is just pushing me back #down and I hate saying this bc it’s so selfish and mean but I hate being here sometimes #I’m so afraid and nervous to leave but at the same time I think about being out of here and only having to hold myself up for once #and to not be surrounded by this atmosphere that feels impossible to be in #I just need things to stop but they won’t and I literally feel like I’m out in the middle of the ocean with absolutely no idea of what to do #to save myself and I feel like I need to actually do something about it instead of just moving on and forgetting about it bc what if I just #drown what the fuck then #and yet I feel the overwhelming need to say at the end don’t worry it ain’t that deep tho I’m sure I’ll be fine just gonna keep going #lol just gotta get back on being that person with their shit together right fake it till you make it and all that #anyway bye sorry for just dropping this idk when I’ll be back on tumblr thank you to everyone that sent nice messages before they meant alot

[ryebreadlord]

im literally going dark. if there’s a video of coffees for closers tag me in it. otherwise i need to be left alone for like 24 hours to grieve.

#this is not a joke #(it’s kinda a joke pls grieve with me i need to be comforted rn) #can i say something insane #i don’t want to go to my shows anymore #like obviously that’s not really true but #the whole time im going to be thinking about how i will never hear coffees live #i don’t even give a shit about mikey way #there is nothing that fob can do to make this up to me #i am being dramatic and i don’t care im so so so upset

[pollenallergie]

me writing thousand-word drabbles to randomly send to my moots: :))

me when i remember all the unfinished wips i’ve got: :/

me when i remember that i haven’t written and posted an actual fic in ages: :(

me when said moots respond to the drabbles with the exact level of excitement/hype that i was hoping for: :)))))

me when i do actually post something and it gets minimal to no active engagement (reviews, unique tags, reaction pics, hype, etc.): :(

me when i remember that creating long, drawn out AUs with my moots and sending drabbles back and forth to each other is more fun and emotionally fulfilling because it means someone will actually actively engage with my writing by hyping me up and/or sending me their own thoughts and opinions and ideas instead of just leaving a like and (occasionally) a tagless/commentless reblog before disappearing back into the void: :/

#‘all engagement is good engagement’ sure… #but not all forms of engagement make me feel like a giddy teenage girl who’s crush just talked to her for the first time ever!!! #i appreciate all likes and reblogs and comments… i do… #but it’s hard to have the motivation to write actual fics when i get hardly any active engagement anymore #like getting 26 notes on a post… where 90% of them are likes 8% are reblogs without tags/comments and only 2% are reblogs with tags/comments #… man that shit is discouraging #don’t even get me started on the ‘we need more of this!’ ‘you should make this a full fic!’ comments #like how about we just enjoy the content i’ve posted and maybe like actively engage with it before we start asking for more??? pls??? #be honest… am i being too picky/too entitled??? or are my feelings valid??

[rozicheeks]

In the mood for someone to take their sweet time with me 🥺

#slowly exploring my body #maybe even blindfold me so I don’t know what’s going to happen #all I can do is *feel* #and react 🫣 #I want them to use every single toy #their fingers #tongue #see what makes me smile and giggle #what makes me moan #and scream #play with me until I’m begging for you to stop cause I can’t take anymore #and that’s when I want you to fuck my sore overstimulated little holes #tell me that ‘isn’t this what you wanted?’ #‘well it doesn’t matter what you want cause you’re *mine*’ #jdnsbsksnsjdjdjs #hi I would like to be owned pls #shut up rosie

[pastryjay]

Mildly worried that when OFMD season 2 eventually releases, certain fans will have set themselves such impossibly high expectations that they’ll get pissy if they are not fulfilled exactly. Certain fans want specific headcanons to be made canon for season 2 and I know some will get unreasonably mad if they are not made canon exactly how they invision e.g. bearded Stede. Then they’ll bring down other fans by posting about how they are disappointed over minor things or how their headcanon is objectively better than canon/ other fans preferences. When let’s be honest, sometimes fandoms can agree on great headcanons, but sometimes not so much. Or at least have headcanons that are great in indulgent fan content but wont fit the tone of the show and be in character. Some people are going to become so goddamn entitled, pedantic and demanding, I just know it. It happens in every fandom. 

Of course, most fans seem lovely and wont be like this at all but damn, even just a handful of annoying people can really bring down a fandom. Please, just be aware that if you have unrealistic expectations, it’s entirely on you if you are not satisfied with what happens. 

#Generally if I find that I don't like something about a show/ movie I won't put said criticism in the tag of the thing where fans can see. #Or I differentiate between whether what I didn't like is down to my subjective preferences or something objectively bad. #E.g. something I love to see in a show others will hate and vice versa #our flag means death #ofmd #Honestly I don't get involved with discourse anymore and haven't for a while #I will just block and move on if I see people being negative assholes but I still don't want to see it. #OFMD makes me very happy and is a great distraction from the stresses of life. I do not want to deal with shitty fans bringing me down. #There is nothing wrong with a bit of criticism! Just don’t be a dick about it. #Pls just be nice to other fans

[deus-ex-mona]

aiyuu nation losing frrrrr

#—or so i say，buying 2 copies of the novel anyway #(c’mon hw it’s not too late to change it to being a bl👀👀👀) #(just bc it’s not outright categorised as ‘bl’ doesn’t mean that it can’t contain bl elements right~? [clings to fragile shred of hope]) #but the summary does seem kinda gay ngl #mf ‘i’m able to give the best possible performance/stand on the best possible stage because my partner’s with me’… #the odds are kinda 50/50 on lxl finally becoming canon ngl. the slowburn has gone on for long enough!!!!! #pls honeyworks im b e g g i n g pls make them canon i can’t handle stupidxstupid anymore— #watch me churn out a questionable af tl for this novel (despite like 1000 other tlers already picking up this novel) solely for kicks #it’ll prolly only be in pdf form to avoid confusion though… maybe… hmmmmmm #come to think of it… do people even like my tls? lmaoooooooooooo #oh well! this is all just for fun after all~ please direct all complaints about me to my manager [points at picture of haseo] #these tags weren’t supposed to be this long i s w e a r. tumblr yeeted my og post off into the ether the first time :( #anyways… don’t stan loserxloser. stan frusu instead👀👀👀👀 #it is suiyoubi my dudes

[asexualjedi]

Hiding some to lay about some without my mask on. Before I must return to my family and wear a mask. Also fuck you WHO for that fucking dogshit “it’s not an emergency anymore it’s a crisis and you shouldn’t change any of your behavior” announcement bc now everyone’s like COVID’s over they said it’s not an emergency why are you wearing a mask.

#like they’ve left me be for the most part after I explained thst like that announcement doesn’t mean all it says it does but now my parents #aren’t wearing masks anymore when they go out #they used to #they wore surgical ones only but that was still soemthing now they think I’m just overly cautious and idk how to convince them my mom had #Alzheimer’s I don’t want her to get Covid again. like that would be so bad for her!! #also my dad is the care giver for my mother and my grandmother both who have a form of dementia he. like luckily he had Covid and mostly #fine but I’m so scared #and bc stupid Joe Biden Covid is over they. think it’s over which makes since the government told them it is but pls pls!! I don’t want them #to get sick they are already have so many health issues #all I can do is do my part and bring masks tell them what I can and wear my mask and #my dad tries to not go out much #but they still go out sometimes bc staying inside all the time was making things worse for my mom but at least at least they try to be #outdoors I jsut ahhh

[hellfireeddiemunson]

love how my mom only does something for me unprompted just bc she wants something

#i knew her asking if i wanted egg noodles at 10pm was weird #and then she literally waited til i got back to my room to TEXTTTTTT me and ask for $40 #like yeah i fucking GUES BITCH but if you don’t pay me back im going to scream at you until we both are crying and ur not gonna like it #im tired of her shit dude stop lying about what you need $40 for bc i know it’s not anything you ever say it is miss ma’am #lying ass bitch take my 40 and smoke it up i don’t care anymoreeeeeeeeeee #goddddd i just. am so done with her shit she’s selfish and fucking ridiculous i want to beat her fucking ass lmaooo i’m sick of her shit #tired of ittttt tired of her making my mental health be shit bc she can’t act right. not my fuckin issue anymore bitch do better #anyways i’m going to smoke weed and not be a stupid dumb bitch like my mom hehe #also i am making this post and bc i haven’t sent it to her writhin fucking five minutes she’s already texting me like a fucking freak like #‘are u sending it’ ‘or do u have cash’ ‘where are u sending it’ ‘i can get it off ur card’ BITCH CALM DOWN FUCKING CHEIST I HATE YOUUUUUUU #idk if or what i need to tag this as so if anyone needs me to tag this as anything specific pls let me know

[person4924]

how do u talk to your friend group that you’ve been in for four years but uouve always been the odd one out and the one no one cared about pretty obviously but it was okay cus u didn’t care before but now u kinda do and u know that they kinda suck and don’t want to fully be friends anymore but u physically can’t make new friends anymore and there’s too many memories to stop being friends but u also still eat lunch together but haven’t had a proper conversation with any of them about something other than school since last year and they don’t give a shit abt u so u just sit there awkwardly bc they are all talking and laughing with eachother but whenever u talk they go quiet and look sympathetic like they hate u and they know ur a freak and don’t have any other friends and will probably kys if they told u they hated u even tho u already know but they never rlly cared abt that before so why do they now

i’m just asking for a friend !!

#can everyone ignore this pls 😔 #it’s so frustrating tbh #it doesn’t effect me anymore #but i just don’t know what to do!! #bc i want to make actual friends who care and i can talk to without feeling naughous #but i literally cannot #so??? #rant

[allofuswantgwinam]

kind of wild to me that I live in a country that doesn’t give free healthcare to everyone but I see commercials all day long “go get your screenings” annd all that shiz… you can do that and it’s gonna cost you like $100. shit even if you do have healthcare it can cost you that

#like be fr #just admit we’re all screwed already #or give us free fucking health care #do it or shut up #im feeling grumpy about things rn #which ya know shocker right there #the world doesn’t make any sense to me #and the whole fake world love and peace bs I just saw on the Grammys #bye #fucking bye #this is why I try not to participate in this celebrity shit anymore #it’s all so fake #baloney #I mean I don’t think it’s allllll fake necessarily #but that shit was bs #and made me mad #like good job you had people from Israel and Palestine play fucking violins together #pls tell me what they proves or solves?? #absolutely fucking nada #nothing #makes me wanna scream