#I ACTUALLY NEED THAT IT WOULD SAVE MY LIFE HHAA

[whump-queen]

begging someone to hold a gun to my head so my brain will finally make me do my dishes, laundry, vacuuming, job applications, emails, messages,, just to get anything done at all without constantly wanting to die

#executive dysfunction is a fucking hellscape and I want out I want out I wantoutoutout #fuck my liiifee #seriously the threat of imminent immediate danger is the only way I can do fucking anything #executive dysfunction #the kind that makes me wanna BANG MY HEAD INTO THE NEAREST HARD SURFACE UNTIL I CANT SEE ANYMORE #death sounds preferable !!!!!!!!! #all those bullshit articles written by nt ppl like ‘MAKE A LIST!!1!1 BREAK DOWN UR TASKS!!!1!’ #THANKS BRENDA BUT ID RATHER PLUCK MY EYELASHES OUT ONE BY ONE #I literally gave my coworker $100 in cash the other day and said #’if I don’t have that report for u by tomorrow you get to KEEP THE $100.’ #because I COULD NOT DO IT OTHERWISE ID BEEN RIPPING MY HAIR OUT FOR WEEKS OVER THAT ONE THING #if u have exec dysfunction and have any tips for me other than putting myself in danger like - pls help ohmygod #legit a cry for help I don’t know what anyone would do but like #god damn a button that lets someone shock me remotely if I don’t do the shit i’m #supposed to do #I ACTUALLY NEED THAT IT WOULD SAVE MY LIFE HHAA #tw mental health #tw suicidality #adhd #tw implied suicidal tendencies #vent #personal