#please support me in this trying time

[shoomlah]

any time I post a WIP it's a complete crapshoot as to whether it's gonna 1) totally invigorate my creative process, I'm workin' through the night and I can't be stopped, or 2) result in an inscrutable haze of endorphins that puts me in a contented-but-ultimately-unsatisfying artistic coma

#Anyway I'm not posting a WIP right now because I want the art to be done #please support me in this trying time #thank you to all my mutuals who let me scream about my art in DMs and on private twitter #you keep me sane

[piplupcola]

I don't have a lot of confidence in my art, but Roosterteeth and Achievement Hunter was one of the few things back in the day that got me to sit down & draw. I'm still really honored to be one of their guest artist for their 18th anniversary. You weren't always the best Roosterteeth, but thanks for inspiring this shy artist to keep drawing.

#pipart #roosterteeth #achievement hunter #probably my last roosterteeth post #digital art #dooleynotedgaming #despite all the horrible things they did there were still so many good people trying their best to make content to make people smile #i believe you cant judge a company by its people cos what you see on the surface is mostly corporate bullshit #but there are still a ton of artists and creators there that are genuinely kind and genuinely care about their audience and the work they d #take it from me who worked in EA the literally sewer of the gaming industry #there were so many good people there but in the end the decisions are all made by the higher ups and no one can do anything about it #they are still people who lost their jobs in what is current the worst time in the industry #so please be respectful and dont harrass them and if you can support them please do #rwby #camp camp #rvb #rooster teeth

[erabu-san]

Hmm I apologize again for the rant !

It is not the first time I am doing it. I might forgot to put "please don't tag it as ship" under my drawing of tighnari cyno. Please, do not !

I love them as best friend, I love them as brother/found family, I don't mind the queerplatonic relationship at all

But their romantic side make me pretty uncomfortable. No hate ! It is my own taste.

Shippers are always welcomed and I am so glad you like my content 💕 but all my art concerning them (unless I tag the ship) are purely platonic. I just ask for some respect of my taste and not reblog my art with the ship tag.

I don't want to block, because I am genuinely glad you enjoy my work and as a young artist, it means a lot for me. Thank you so much 🙇 !! But as a human, I can't deny how uneasy it makes me feel.

Thank you for understanding !

#rant #I blame nobody #i am clearly not used to block ): I should tho but I know those who tag ship are not mean at all </3 #it is fine if you don't know. #but i saw people reblogging my art with shiptag even if i said “do not” #my art is like my only safe place please respect it #this ship is so popular and I clearly stop to interact with the fandom because of that #i clearly ignore when I saw one in my timeline /dashboard becausz I can't do nothinf against it except masking the account #but I beg you. not. under. my. post. #not in my DM #why i feel obligated to justify myself 😭 #but yeah !!! the ship is valid and full of greenflag !! wholesome !! #but I only enjoy them platonically !!! please respect 😭😭😭 I SWEAR I AM DESESPERATE WHY IT IS SO HARD FOR SOME TO RESPECT THAT OMG #gosh on twitter someone said me “ignore ??? what did you expect ??? it is the most popular ship” #I AM TRYING I AM LITERALLY NOT SEARCHING FOR FANART 😀 #feeding myself with my own food #that's why I am so grateful for people who support me. thank you. 😭 #and how could I ignore a comment under my post ??? interaction are so important for me I read everything #ANYWAY SORRY FOR RANTING !!! IT IS CLEARLY A /NOTMEAN POST !!! #next time I won't forgrt “do not tag it as ship” #but urgh if I do this I have to do in every post ???? 🤨 #and what if I draw tighnari cyno kaveh but I don't mind ship with kaveh ??? 🤨🤨🤨 (plz still don't) #tHERE IS PLENTY OF CYN0N4RI ACCOUNT IF YOU WISH TO SEE MORE CONTENT OF THEM !! Please support them <<3 mine are platonic ! #but clearly. imagine you are obsessive about two characters <<3 #but their popular ship is the one who make you the most uncomfy 😀 #so you decided to just stop looking at fanart and not bothering anyone 👍👍 #but it came under your post and your DM 😟 #AAA SORRY I AM SALTY I SWEAR I AM NOT USED TO FEEL LIKE THIS ):< #anyway plz take care ilove you mwah 🥺🥺🥺🥺💕💕

[ra-vio]

Kainé, my beloved u_u

#nier #nier replicant #nier gestalt #kainé #kaine #i love her bro u_u i wanna replay so bad but my anxiety is through the roof and I’ve been trying so hard to lower it #ive been countering it by trying to draw #i need to 100% replicant again. i think it would fix me like genuinely #its gotta be on a new account too like with all the achievements not unlocked. ive done it twice already #its terrible. its the best thing on earth. i hate it. why would they do this. im so happy they did this #everyone talks about flower farming being the worst. no. flower farming is easy. #its the material farm that makes you wanna die #its me running the 15 nightmares for hours trying to hit the money achievement #if you wanna eagle egg farm dont do the aerie. do 15 nightmares #i can’t remember which door. i think i had a better time getting damascus steel there too #this is the worst grind in any video game ever but like. if they took this away from me? would actually be inconsolable #sir that is my emotional support material grind that makes me wanna die. please understand

[clarisse-doodles]

Cass + ballet 🩰 (ft. supportive siblings and good dad Bruce)

I love the idea of Cass enjoying dance. It's an outlet that allows her to express herself without words, and I think she would enjoy the highly technical aspect of ballet combined with its storytelling and emotional side. and as a former dancer I always have fun imagining my fav characters do ballet :)

#ft good older bro dick grayson. and supportive babs and steph. and good dad bruce #sewing pointe shoes in the batcave as one does #cass jus having fun #dick and cass bonding over how they both enjoy stretching and falling asleep in the strangest positions #the rite of passage of trying pointes for the first time #bruce watches her first performance and she gives him a big hug #listen yall when i saw that comic panel of cass seeing ballet for the first time and the way it just Made Sense to her #i havent been normal since #i also just love the idea that eventually cass decides to take lessons and makes friends and learns things she'd never considered because #i think she'd be able to replicate most of the steps just by watching because of her training but she would be coming from #a background focused on martial arts and fighting and not. art and storytelling #and i'd love to see that being explored more. cass using her athletic skillset in something so unrelated to vigilante life #creating beauty instead of causing violence #clearly i've thought about this too much #if you have fic recs PLEASE GIVE THEM TO ME #i haven't read a lot of comics either outside of the first half of cass' batgirl run so recs for comics abt cass welcome as well! #clarisse doodles #dc #cassandra cain #batfam #batgirl #black bat #dc fanart #ballet

[mitsukara7]

Ragatha when there are bootleg plushes of her before any official plushes:

(I also posted some Ragatha crossover fanart over on my main Sailor Moon fanart blog recently)

#Ragatha #tadc ragatha #the amazing digital circus ragatha #tadc #the amazing digital circus #amazing digital circus #bootleg #plush #plushies #Sorry for posting a hastily photoshopped meme when I usually try to do drawings and stuff #I promise I still make Sailor Moon stuff XD Just give me some time #I'm not abstracting I swear #I also swear I'll buy a real Ragatha plush as soon as they make one #Please hurry I'm tempted to buy this dumb thing in addition to waiting and buying a real one when they exist #support Gooseworx and Glitch Productions legitimate merch

[subsequentibis]

“i dont like cannibalism bc im normal” L + ratio + sorry youve never been in love + you probably dont even taste good + theres not enough leg to go around anyway

#ignore me #i normally would not post like This i try to keep it positive but i am so sick of ppl hating on whatever's gaining mild support #no debra we are not actually normalizing cannibalism we are a bunch of mentally ill people on tumblr #can we have fun without you calling us a bunch of degenerates & other fashy buzzwords. go back to disney+ #please learn to block people & filter words and your time online will improve tenfold i promise you #i have mutuals who post about things i Hate and i just filter the tags and keep it pushing #it is that easy!

[time-is-restored]

btw this might be me swinging a bat at a hornets nest but like. absolutely none of my disappointment from the tl finale comes from ship baiting or any relationships that didn’t happen (though to be clear, i think the tedbecca fake outs were meanspirited and served no narrative purpose - in noted contrast to the season's earlier jamiekeeley fakeouts, for example, which were explicitly there to demonstrate jamie's growth + maturity)

tedpendant is a really fun concept for me, and i LOVE the characterisation + thematic potential there!

but as someone who personally resonated with a lot of ted’s struggles, the idea that ted could leave richmond so… seamlessly, for lack of a better word, really doesn’t sit right with me. the thesis of the shows entire first season - assuming it can be said to have only one - was about how everyone needs the love and support of a community, whether that comes in the flavour of someone who hypes u tf up or someone who will relentlessly call u on ur shit (or, as happened quite frequently, both!).

rebecca, roy, jamie are the clearest examples as the characters with the most screentime: they were all deeply isolated and disconnected from the people around them, and that was making them miserable. the connections they made with the team, the vulnerability they finally allowed themselves to express (the ghost banishing ceremony comes to mind!), and them going on to want *more* out of their life are what made their arcs about *progression* rather than *regression*. without that clear theme of compassion + community inspiring positive growth in everyone who encounters it, there is, frankly, no season one.

my personal favourite scene from season one comes right after michelle walks away from ted, when they’ve agreed to get divorced. ted sits down on the bench looking gutted, and a little shell shocked - and beard sits down with him. hands him the drink, and they sit there together. silent, but together. to me, that scene is an implicit promise from the episode, to the audience: ‘it’ll be okay. it’s going to be hard, but ted isn’t alone, and his friends won’t leave him behind.’

it also makes it clear to the audience that ted isn’t the saintly-giver-of-grace who needs nothing in return, as one might assume on first brush, but rather that he’s Also struggling with his own shit (as is everyone, always, in real life!) and he has something he needs from the people around him too.

and looking at the text of s3, and the conclusion to his arc in the finale, i just don’t believe that he got it. he wasn’t just sad that he was leaving (which would be understandable!), he was completely closed off. unresponsive to the people around him reaching out, borderline confused as to why they were trying so hard!

(side note, while i completely respect the read of ted and trents last interaction being rather rude + ooc on ted’s part, i personally read a different motive into it. for me, it was more like… he didn’t understand where trents enthusiasm was coming from? like, he read that as trent being too invested in what other people think of him, and responded in a way that he hoped would emphasise that ted doesn’t *need* to laugh at everything trent wrote, bc trent Already Knows that he’s done something really cool and kickass, and he shouldn’t value anyone else’s reactions above that. basically, based on his demeanour in the episode, i genuinely don’t think it would’ve even occurred to him that trent was more invested in HIS reaction than he would’ve been with anyone else.)

again, looking purely at the text, the show had already established that ted has really strong depressive + avoidant tendencies, as well as panic attacks (largely triggered by his fear of not being ‘good enough’ in various roles, ie: a father). we saw one area he was able to calm HIMSELF abt these fears (worry for henry, which is a Hell of a choice considering the ending…), but in literally every other heightened moment, he had to rely on his support system to help him make the choices that he WANTED to make, rather than ones inspired by avoidance and fear (ie: confronting michelle abt jake, talking to his mum abt why she was visiting + his dads death).

and to be clear, this is a GOOD THING! we’re not supposed to go through life alone, no matter how bad OR well we’re doing. rebecca and keeleys friendship isn’t worth less for all the scenes where they’re both in good places. if anything, the opposite is true - it’s lovely that they both have someone who want to celebrate the achievements in their life!

and fuck it, we’re sure as hell not supposed to go through life with exactly one (1) person whom we expect to fulfill ALL of our emotional needs at all times either! like, im sure i don’t need to labour my point here, but tying everything to one (1) person in ur life doesn’t make u any less isolated than if u were going it completely alone, whether it’s a family member, a friend, or a partner. i won’t pretend to know the first thing abt what it’s like to be a parent, but i don’t think it’s unreasonable to say that no parent would be at their best if they had absolutely no support/camaraderie/general love provided to them from Anyone other than their child.

so when ted is SPECIFICALLY shown to be in a bad place, over and over again (did he come to terms w his fear to be close to henry overnight???????), and then removed from his community? of COURSE the audience is left feeling unsettled, and like the rug has been pulled out from under them. there was no time in this finale dedicated to how ted would still be in contact with anyone from richmond. no promises of visits, or phone calls - fuck, nothing about emails!! according to the text, we might as well assume this is a clean break (and the maybe-dream-sequence does Fuck All to assure us otherwise. if ted doesn’t go to beards wedding, what WOULD he go to????). and since the show has ALSO completely failed to give us even an IMPLICATION of who/what ted’s support system would be in kansas, there’s… a reasonable argument to be made that this is It for ted. that, after two seasons doing NOTHING but attesting otherwise, the audience is supposed to suddenly believe that ted can (and SHOULD!) pull himself up by his bootstraps, and cope entirely on his own.

that, to me, is a betrayal of the show’s premise. we were promised a show about how, no matter how dark things may get, none of the characters would be left to struggle alone. and then they ended the show with ted alone.

i don’t know. i guess if i had to give this post a tldr; if anyone has any gen fic/meta/Literally Anything in the pipeline, i would absolutely love to be tagged/directed towards it. i’ll be endeavouring to write something myself, as well, but it might take a while before i can return to my WIP, lol.

#this is the most measured version of this post i was capable of fghjskdjhgfdgjhsfd #the least measured one is just the aromantic flag with the ‘we are going to beat u to death’ meme overlaid #look ik this is hardly impartial wrt very small + insular communities like nuclear families #but its fucking impossible to go into media analysis and not bring Anything from ur real life in there w u #so im trying to forgive myself for being a little hashtag Vulnerable + Opinionated on main #in the spirit of what this show could’ve been lol #if not here then where etc etc #Ted lasso spoilers #Ted lasso meta #Ted lasso critical #also just to be clear here im being dead serious abt that last point #im spiritually doing the jamie run to demonstrate to u all how badly i want gen shit #please. p l e a s e . #okay wait last ramble here but. this is also why the lack of information we got on trent was so crushing to me #like ur telling me this man went through the incredibly painful + harrowing process of breaking out of his (comfortable! safe) shell + #cynical journalist persona. came out to someone VERY important in his life. and has done nothing but face the music wrt acknowleding #his past mistakes + endeavouring to be better and kinder. and we never get to know if he has ANY support through all that? at all? #is he dating? what's his family situation like? does he have full custody? any friends from work? any friends period????? #like i can should must and will die on the beard + roy + higgins + colins are trents best friends hill but #its like the premise of the show stopped mattering just in time for him to be left in a legitimately depressing limbo #like 'yes everyone needs love + support bc life is rlly hard. but we're tired of making a show abt that so This Is All Ur Getting #+ screw anyone's personal life that u didn't already see in s1. You Know Enough.' #anyway i love u all this is a very silly show and im gonna go play t.o.t.k for a few hours o/ <3

[moeblob]

@natakesgamingcorner aaaaaah thank you hello! This is many days late but I wanted to say thank you so much for sending this ! ;w; I got it after work during a rough day and it means a whole lot to me to hear this so I wanted to doodle a little more for you?? but uh when I was planning to doodle Hiruma on stream everyone in chat was like "WHY DOES HE HAVE A GUN IT'S ABOUT FOOTBALL" and. I didn't want to waste the entire time trying to draw a gun so I just did a bust up on stream.

But! I wanted to draw him with a gun because I realized people that follow me/know me for FE that don't know about the series don't know he just casually has a lot of guns. So. Yeah. Thank you again for the ask it means a lot that someone else knows both topics!

#eyeshield 21 #yoichi hiruma #sena kobayakawa #me trying to practice es21 in my spare time and failing sometimes and feeling awkward at my attempts? yeah! #anyway hi thank you this is so kind omg i dont think i expected to be one of anyones fave fe artists #thank you so much for the support i appreciate it please enjoy these doodles too i hope?? #idk who you like from es21 and im still p early on in the show so i might not know the character #but thank you so much ahhhhhhh this really made my day when i got it im sorry its so delayed #i have some wips for the series that just make me mad that my style isnt capturing the characters well #so there will be more eventually ONCE i figure out how to draw the characters lmao

[thisismeracing]

Since when did we start charging money on patreon for fanfics 😭😭😭😭 is this for real😭

hi, love. I haven't seen that many people doing the Patreon thing when it comes to fanfic, but it's pretty common for people who draw for example to set up a Patreon. I believe that everyone who does, just like myself, needs the money. I wouldn't be doing it if i didn't need to. I figured the Patreon setup was the best idea since it's not really that common for people to tip writers, we've been struggling with getting reblogs and comments, so you can imagine.

Right now, I'm applying and doing tests to get an internship, which still won't be enough because I'm also trying to apply for a master's. So, yeah, I'm really thankful for everyone who tipped me on ko-fi and subscribed to my Patreon, last month my savings were over, and the Patreon money was what helped me pay for some medical stuff I needed (Idk if you saw the whole mick schumacher's sick club, but yeah — huge thank you for everyone who subscribed/donated btw).

We often see fic writers as little robots who don't eat, drink, or sleep. We request stuff, and expect an instant reply, and when we get the content we don't even go back to the page to tell the writer our thoughts. We don't reblog, nor leave comments, but still, we expect them to keep writing and keep sharing everything as if it didn't take hours, sometimes days to come up with a 1k piece polished to what we think readers will like best. I hope I don't sound rude, I'm just trying to make a point because I'm tired of seeing writers deactivating, tired of seeing my friends getting writer's block and then people still demanding things.

On top of that, I'm still posting a lot here, from smau to blubs and long fic requests (and I won't even talk about how some pieces aren't even getting a hundred notes, which always makes me wonder if I'm doing something wrong, if my writing is bad, or if there's anything that I could do to make the reader's experience more enjoyable), and it takes a lot of time, it's even harder to balance the two profiles now, but still, I keep sharing some of my work for free. so please, please, don't make me feel bad about needing money. thanks ❤️.

#I'm still searching like crazy for the best internship that gives me enough time to study for my application and enough money to pay for + #the stuff that I really need #medical bills are expensive #school books and stuff are expensive #we do what we can #and I say we including other writers that relly on donations too #anyways #Im sorry for letting my heart run wild here but I really needed to share this because I'm tired #and I do feel a bit guilty some days for sharing paid stuff because I wanted everyone to read what I post #wanted everyone to enjoy it and gush with me about college!mick and ghost!lewis and so on #but right now that's the best way I found to deal with my current situation #so please please try seeing your writers side #and on top of that make sure youre supporting the people that are here everyday putting their hearts on each piece #and I mean support as in reblog and let them know you liked it and so on #if you can support someone with money thats great #but most of the times a comment and a reblog will make the writers days #it makes mine #I wish you guys could see the smile on my face whenever someone comes back like “hey Im the one who requested x and I loved it” #anyways Im sorry for ranting #I hope I did not come across as rude again #and Im not saying you don't reblog or support your writers this is more of a widely rant #<3 #millies inbox #anon #patreon #f1 fandom

[rexxdjarin]

also uhm can I just say I am kinda at a loss for what else to do to promote my work. I feel like ive tried everything and im still in a place where people just aren't reading it anymore and I feel like they don't care

people have their favorites and I get that but it just makes the fandom feel so small when everyone chooses to only support the same handful of people and not much else.

I guess all im asking is that people branch out. read new people, support other work because I understand how hard it is to work so hard on something and just see it sit there when others are treated so much differently. It hurts and I understand and I never want anyone to feel this way either.

I want this fandom to grow and for people to share and continue sharing ideas and not feel like only one person can write a certain character. I dont want comparative bullshit. i just want people to celebrate that we're all here creating shit equally.

#I guess thats what has made writing so hard for me lately #I feel like im pushed aside in favor of other stories #all the time. and because I wasnt the first to write for a certain character my story isnt as worth paying attention to #and we just cant be like this #because more writers and more support breeds more writing #more work more creators and more fandom #I just want to feel like im allowed to be here not that im occupying space that should belong to someone else #so yeah ive said my peace #im not trying to be an asshole but like can we just support others a little more please

[milkweedman]

I am sorry you've been harrassed by terfs, but the way you are currently trying to weed them out seems a bit misguided. As in, the vast majority of terfs are in fact ok with big hairy CIS men. The so-called men they are actively hating are trans women/transfem people. So by acting like you proclaiming your love to big hairy dudes is the best terf-repellant you seem to be missing the point at best.

i'd love to actually respond to your concerns or whatever the hell it was that you were trying to convey with this ask, but it has almost no basis in reality so i literally cant.

thats the one statement on how effective i think the banners are that has left my queue so far. which is: i hope it works but also have literally 2 other backup plans already in case it does not. i dont know why youre calling that "acting like [me] proclaiming [my] love to big hairy dudes is the best terf-repellant", because thats wildly off target from what i have actually said at any point. everything else youve said is also pretty much either dead wrong or ignorant, so im getting the feeling that you not reading has been a problem for a while.

(ive also not mentioned terfs this entire time--ive been talking about radfems and using the word radfems. they're not the same thing although there's large overlap. so like. thats strike two for zero reading comprehension, buddy. cause you are literally not talking about the group im talking about and youre also inventing whole new sentences that i didnt say.)

#obviously reading ability does not equal intelligence. more about the wild overconfidence of someone who didnt bother to check if they #even read a statement correctly #i misread things all the time which is why i also dont barge into strangers inboxes to insult THEIR intelligence #because i know theres always a chance im completely wrong and i dont want to be an asshole #anon you could give that a try #like what am i even supposed to say to this ? i dont think its the best terf repellant and have never said that ? #but if you know so much about them go ahead and tell us your suggestions for how to get rid of them #im skeptical that they will make any sense at all but im always open to new ideas #(feels nice to be condescended to doesnt it ? i assume thats why you were condescending to me so im returning the favor <3) #anyway other than this fool thank you all for the supportive asks im glad youre enjoying the banners ! so am i :D #way too soon to tell if theyre working (no radfems yet but i usually get a wave of them every couple months so i wont jump to conclusions) #but just as blog decor theyre already great #there are many many asks though and i dont enjoy when this blog is less fiber craft than other stuff #so im reading each one and appreciating them but please dont be upset that im not responding to them or posting them #i have the first 2 i got in my queue and then i got like 20 more so

[theygender]

Does anyone have any good book recommendations that talk about transmisogyny in a way that would be entry level to like. A 50 year old cis lesbian

#especially ones that talk about the ways that our society primes even trans allies to view trans women in a negative light #my mom is trying but i think she could use some help understanding in a way that i dont think i could just talk her through #she seems to think my gf is more like standoffish than she actually is and she thinks my gf is being rude when shes emotional about smth #and im talking her through it from the perspective of like #'as a human being and as someone who is all too familiar with homophobia please understand what this is like from her perspective' #but i feel like. theres some unconscious transmisogyny going on here and i really wish my mom could understand that #but i dont think shes ever even heard of transmisogyny before. she has no context #i cant try and talk her through it from that perspective bc she would need a lot of background to understand what im saying #and i dont think trying to explain transmisogyny theory in the middle of an argument would be helpful #if i could recommend her a good book under the context that it would help her understand me and my gf as trans people #and if she read through it and took the time to understand it which i do believe she would #i feel like it might help her to kind of analyze if the thoughts shes having are influenced by transmisogyny and start unpacking that #and also importantly i feel like she could look at what my gf is going through not just from the human and lgbt perspective im asking her to #but also from her perspective As A Woman #bc i feel like theres a missing piece there right now. my mom supports us and respects my gfs gender #but i dont think shes looking at these situations in context As A Fellow Woman #idk #rambling

[zoekrystall]

Got to all the dragon tear memories and noooo whyyyy did my guess with zelda doing it had to be right. More than dragon tears were shed oh dear hylia. Idk if I am just more emotional lately or if that close up with her dragon form crying got to me. She looks absolutely radiant as a dragon but whyyyyyyyyy. Idk if I like or hate it. It is interesting but my emotions </3 Let me at least get close to her as a dragon. I will fail but I will absolutely try to speed after her now.

#totk spoilers #Got to the last then her dragon flew by and I just said 'oh that looks way too close to zelda oh please not tell me I'm wrong'. #Went to the last tear but wasn't sure I was ready. Man. #There are still mems n story I wonder if that like changes or if she truly stays one and that's it #Hnnnnnnnn #Was smth w the last one I got being the 8 one w the three having a nice tea time #and then her dragon form flying above me and reveal the last one #Didn't cry much bc it's genuinely hard to let myself cry but nonetheless totk now counts as a game that made me #Which is an achievement #ganondorf sexy yadayada yes I agree but MY GIRL TURNED INTO AN IMMORTAL DRAGON SO THAT LINK CAN SAVE HYRULE #I might. Have stronger emotions abt zelink/zelda than I think huh. #I am an empath but only with fictional characters /hj #Link and zelda became like children to me. My darling daughter why did you do that. I get it but WHY #I could try to talk abt all this more eloquent all I say is I get why and support her decision. She knows what she does. #Link and me will not let it be in vain but ik you already have absolute faith in him #her dragon eyes truly mesmerize me they feel so full of emotions #a wild lux appears

[peniscat]

i'm inconsolable. what do you mean no more succession ever again? what do you mean it's over???

#please support me during these trying times

[ohmeadows]

When did you discover your love for writing?

this ended up being a bit of a story, so. sorry for length.

must have been around 2001? i went to a really underfunded school in a broke town and we didn't have anything to do after school ended, so i mostly went to my grandma's and read books she bought me. one day i came home and she'd bought the lotr trilogy, and it was a very difficult translation. it took me months of careful reading on her couch. then i finished it and it felt like my life transformed. i watched the movies as they released in the cinema, i didn't have any friends to hang out with on the weekend so i'd beg my mom to drive me to the nearest big town and let me watch fellowship of the ring again. i couldn't get enough, so i started visiting fansites for it and thus discovered fanfiction. my english wasn't great, but i couldn't stop thinking about writing something for myself. yes, mary sue/self-insert, whatever. yes, it was with legolas and aragorn and all of those.

my fanfics were, obviously, not good. but i had a good time making them. i connected with a community of writers who had a ton of advice to give out, who suggested books to read, movies to check out. while i'm not in touch with any of them anymore, i know some of them went on to become university professors and literary translators, and that's pretty cool. i honestly remember less of the writing as much as i remember the community i kept having on livejournal. on top of that, writing a journal almost daily was really good consistent writing exercise. i loved writing so much that it became The Hobby for me, and i kept the lj and a physical journal going at once.

#ask meadows anything #i don't see us having the same kind of writing communities anymore and it makes me sad #there's less support in general except being thrown into the deep end i guess #instead of everyone trying to contribute to the table #it's a bit of... glancing at each other's meals without supporting #i miss just talking with readers dm-ing me out of nowhere too #idk. times have changed. we're supposedly Content Creators now #churning out content to please the algo and metrics and ao3 machine