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crazystargirl · 9 months

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jealous? i don't get jealous! ♥

NONE OF THESE LINKS BELOW ARE UPDATED

pt. 4 || pt.5 || nothing lmao

pairing ♥: spider soccoro x reader, spider soccoro x human!reader, jealous!spider soccoro x reader

word count ♥: 0.7k!

author's note ♥: at the end this time lmao

you and lo'ak walk back to the camp in silence, you can tell he's nervous or thinking. whatever but basically he had something on his mind

you stop and lo'ak stops and looks at you, confused why you stopped randomly

"Lo'ak you've been acting so weird this whole trip and don't use the excuse that you're thinking."

lo'ak moves closer to you and sighs, taking in your annoyed expression

"ive been thinking but i think im ready to tell you…y/n/n i really like you like not as a friend but y'know"

you're taken aback, no ones ever confessed to you before but if you're being really honest you've never seen lo'ak as anything more than a brother

"y/n?" Lo'ak says, moving closer to you to cup your cheek

on instinct you move away, flinching. the only person you've ever let do that to you was spider.

"Lo'ak im sorry but i dont see you the same way" you say

he looks dejected and hurt. you feel bad but honestly you've always seen the sully kids as siblings

"its fine" he says bluntly, turning around and walking off

you follow him until you guys get to the camp, seeing the rest of the group already there

spider goes over to you giving you a hug, after seeing your face

"hey y/n/n what's wrong" spider says rubbing your back as you hug him back

"can we go talk in private please?" you say looking up at spider

he nods and takes your hand and pulling you into a secluded area

meanwhile kiri and neteyam notice lo'aks face of disgust and sadness?

"hey lil bro whats wring?" neteyam says, putting his arm around lo'ak

"yeah you look like spider just squished your favorite toy" kiri says laughing, but then pauses "oh shit! did you confess to y/n??"

lo'ak nods and neteyam and kiri look at each other

"well clearly that didn't go well" kiri says snorting, she had made it clear when she had first heard lo'ak talking about y/n that she would like to never ever see them two in a relationship

"hey lo'ak its ok, y'know maybe you guys wouldn't have been good together" neteyam says, patting lo'aks back

little did they know that lo'ak was seething because he knew that it was obvious that y/n had rejected him and spider was probably going to confess to her

"spider and y/n are most likely gonna become a thing and well…damn thats gonna be awkward"

the three of them sit there thinking about what lo'ak had said until tuk pops out of nowhere

"Lo'ak it's ok if they like each other! mom says we have to be happy for each other even if it makes you sad" tuk says giving lo'ak a hug

the older sully kids look at her in shock, they've never heard tuk say something that wise

lo'ak nods, "thanks tuk, I'll keep that mind"

well lo'ak was right about what spider had in mind when you two went to talk private

when you two got to the secluded area, spider sat you down and cupped your cheeks

"hey baby what's wrong?"

"well lo'ak confessed to me and well…"

spider freezes, suddenly feeling jealous. did lo'ak confess and you accepted? (a/n ♥︎ - so sorry i have no idea what to call it)

"i rejected him but i feel like things are going to be awkward between me and him now" you finish, looking down

while you were looking away, spider was practically grinning because now he knew he didn't have competition anymore

he took your face in his hands and looked at you

"y/n i know this might be a bad time honestly I've been wanting to do this for a while so…will you go out with me?"

you start smiling like crazy and blushing, you've had a crush on spider for a while and you loved it whenever he was affection with you or called you baby or love even though yall weren't dating

"so i take that as a yes?" Spider says, grinning at your expression

"yes yes yes!! spider i would love that" you say

"well i would kiss you now now but y'know the exopacks" spider says hugging you tightly

you giggle at his response

"maybe we can kiss when we get back?" you say

"that we can do" spider said, stroking your hair, "i love you y/n/n"

"i love you too spider"

from a distance the sully family watched yall embracing. they were all happy for yall and wondered if this would change things but honestly who cared, at least you two were happy

a/n ♥︎ - AND THATS A WRAP BITCHES (i love saying that lmao), but i finally finished this series! tysm to everyone who waited around for each part and even more thanks to the ppl on the series taglist for giving me the motivation to write more parts. special ty to my bby cass for being so damn supportive of me, ilysmmmm. sorry if this is a bit rushed, i wanted to finish the last part so i could get started on the smau but ty again to everyone who's been here since may :))

series taglist ♥: @ok-boke, @spiderscrrowife, @myh3artttt, @multi-simp-page, @universal-s1ut

regular taglist ♥: @xyzstar, @ourloveisgod23, @dizscreams, @kaesworldxx, @bhk1234uwu, @nonniesworld, @lanaslittletwinkie

©crazystargirl 2023 || do NOT copy or repost my work without my permission

#spider socorro #spider soccoro #spider socorro x reader #spider soccoro x reader #spider socorro fluff #atwow spider #jack champion #ethan landry x reader #jack champion x you #jack champion x reader #spider soccoro fluff #fluff

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stateswscarlet · 8 months

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Hi!! thanks to you and your threads i finally manifested my sp after (wait for it…. this will be long!!!)

3 years of separation and 1 year of no contact!!!!!!!!!!!!

let this me a reminder to anyone out there struggling or thinking time matters. i was in such a lack state for years and had horrible things happen between sp and i but im telling you i took a healthy way to do this and remembered theres nothing i can do to “make” it happen. i reread so many of your threads and read edward art series from a new set of eyes and decided to calmly shift my state ONCE without the expectation of perfection, making something happen, waiting for the 3D, etc (all of which I did unfortunately for a year and a half and never manifested anything “big”) i just shifted my state FOR me 100%. in that moment i didn’t even care about sp, about 3d, about reflecting, heck i didnt even care if i shifted states right. i just DID IT. now ik what you and alia meant by “just do it” because THERE IS NO OTHER WAY.

anyways after i shifted my state (probably for the first or for real this time in my whole journey), i felt nothing unusual or different in a huge way (coz why would i? if im with sp i wont feel special all day) and i KID YOU NOT SCAR I think it was like maybe 3-4 hours later he (sp) CALLED me on “accident” THREE times. I was so confused as I didn’t have his number saved yet as I recently got a new phone, but then I got a text from him saying it was *his name* and if this number still belongs to me. I didn’t even panic or freak out or even think “omg i manifested this bc of my state!” i just approached it normally and replied saying it was my number. He then told me “suddenly” he keeps getting reminded of me and has been missing me for a while and wanted to see me. We decided to catch up after uni last weeks monday and it was SO GOOD. he “changed” in good ways and yes i will admit it was awkward at first because we hadn’t talked in so long nor been alone with each other but that went away so fast!!!! we kept seeing each other daily for a week and he confessed he likes me a lot, and I did too and told him ive been missing him. he said nothing ever compared to me and that the breakup hit him hard but he hid it from me. he said he has been missing me for a year now (proof that i actually shifted states and dealt with a “new” sp because a year ago he told me he dislikes me, is completely over the relationship and told me to move on because it had been 2 years at that point and he was thinking of seeing someone else). this week on wednesday he took me on a date to our old special place in my city and officially asked me to be his girl!!!!!!

so from shifting my state ONCE and all the way to relationship it took a little under 2 weeks.

oh also - just because in my story i only shifted my state properly once dont mean anyone else is wrong for doing it multiple times!!! a KEY part of the law is knowing that WHATEVER WORKS FOR YOU AND IS NATURAL TO YOU IS WHAT WILL “WORK”. whatever YOU ENJOY imagining is what will shift your state!!!! STOP trying to do everything and worry about stuff thats not yours to worry about and JUST IMAGINE.

thank you again to the loa/ss community and especially you Scar!!! I will most likely still be lurking and supporting you and my other favourites on twt but not as active anymore ;)

OMGGG CONGRATS ANONNNN 🥳 🎉🎊👏🏻🪅

this makes me sooo happy and proud thank you for sharing your success and how you did it!

#success story #manifestation #neville goddard #edward art #states #stateswscarlet

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spacerockwriting · 5 months

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Weekly tag wednesday!

Thank you Sky @skylerwinchester @dynamic-power @energievie @stocious

which character from any media would you like to have as a father?

I don't know??? Ya spacerock's got daddy issues.

if money, laws, time, and effort were no object, what animal would you want to have?

Giraffes! They're so derp I love them.

what is your Chinese takeout order?

Idk, i don't eat much chinese food. Like, hardly ever. I mostly just eat the fortune cookies they have there.

what's your favourite emoji? Uhh, I'm loving all the ones from the gallafic club.

would you rather have a library, greenhouse, or home theater in your house?

Home theater. Film major here. Love that idea. Also, we just ironically got a green house yesterday for my dads tree obsession.

what childhood tv show do you think of the most fondly?

Hmmm. Rugrats maybe? Had a shit ton of rugrats dolls and a rugrats birthday party. Rugrats or Blues Clues probably.

what was your tumblr like when you first joined?

I've been a tumblerina for a while now. Since 11? Then in college I moved to an RP blog, with my main, and a LarryStylinson blog. Had that until mid2013 when Lance and I went to a different South Park RP, along with my main &Larry. Once we broke into Indie RP I created a few more South Park RP blogs, then once Lance passed I slowly stopped using the RP account we associated with each other. Made my HP RP in 2014 after SP shit was getting too cliquey, then just kind of sidebloged all my blogs from there for being lazy. Reattempts at SP RP had attempts, but nothing beats 2013 so -shrug- Nothing will ever beat 2012-13 where the community was there, Gallaclub is the only thing coming close <3

what clothing style do you love but don't feel compelled to replicate yourself? Super dressy maybe? I do my best to wear whatever the fuck I want but I'm just, suits and shit aren't gonna be a thing I think. Except like, my wedding if that were to happen.

if you were plopped into a fictional world, which one would you know the layout of the best?

Maybe South Park? Hogwarts, too, but lbr fuck JK.

what is your favourite piece of art?

Like ART ART? I like Van Gouh's starry night. My mom went to the interactive exhibit and I love that. (She's also got some starry night socks and stuff. Plus she had a shirt with a van on it that said van go.) I also like Andy Warhol's stuff? Also love seeing greek statues but forever anxious I'm gonna be a clumsy spacerock and knock them over.

do you have a water bottle? what does it look like?

I've got a cup i bring to work that's Disney 100 and it changes color from blue to purple in the cold. It usually has mountain dew in it. Also I have a REAL waterbottle and its got Shibas on it and counts the level of water to 2 liters. But I hoard cups, always getting souvieneer cups bc im that person.

what fanfic trope is a quiet fave?

Found family is a quiet fav, and sometimes fluff. But mostly I want angst, I want plot.

do you carry a daily bag? what does it look like? what's the weirdest thing in it?

So I carry a bag for work, which has headphones, wallet, work badge, phone, some tangles, squishy giraffe, pens, 2 books: one notebook thing and Heartstopper Volume 4 is in it, and random junk that really needs to be removed lol. Outside of work I just wallet phone the end.

if you had to ship Mickey with another Gallagher, who would it be?

Hmmm maybe Lip? Or Carl would be funny too, but the Lip and Mickey enemes would be funny.

what is a fanfic trope you didn't expect to like and then very much did?

Hmmm. I dunno. AU's maybe?

Do you think s11 Mickey can still carry s11 Ian?

Yeah, if he tries to|has too. But it's very awkward and Ian gets a kick out of him trying.

who got custody of the killing bat when they sold the house?

The OG? Probably Carl. But they all get a killing bat as a housewarming gift for the nostalia. Every house gets a Gallagher killing bat, even Fiona's house in Florida.

I'm a day late so tagging everyone else.

#comet rambles

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risingsoleil · 1 year

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hey

what do you think would happen if somehow tenzin got to au world instead of lin (and tenzin from au world to canon)?

really can’t stop thinking about it since you start publishing the fic bc it would be so hurtful sad and fun like you know how awkward sometimes tenzin can act

maybe someday you’ll post small clippings from situations in which he would stuck into i’ll climb on cloud nine

Hey anon! Someone also suggested this as a oneshot and I've thought about it a little bit! I don't know exactly what will go down if this were completely written out, but here are some general ideas:

Canon Tenzin

He'll probably hear some distorted voices while getting carried back to the island, and see hazy visions of Lin by his side along with these new faces who look so much like her. Some of them are saying "Dad" and he is not coherent enough to ask who they are and he knocks out

I think the kids' feelings are really gonna hurt when they hear him say "You're not my children. I'm sorry, I don't know who you are." Lin is prob pissed lmao

When they find out he's not their own Tenzin, there's def gonna be an interview haha He has so many mixed emotions bc this is the life he envisioned and wanted with Lin, these are their children who he daydreamed about having. Here they are now, he's learning about their personalities and knows what they look like

All of the kids are gonna spar him bc how dare he break up with their mother and marry an acolyte in the same year? They're all gonna win bc they know how to beat him 🤣

Lin is gonna be the one who has the most difficult time with him. She wants her husband back, this is not the one she created a life and family with. Tbh for some reason, I can see her actually pulling away from canon Tenzin while the kids are the ones spending more time with him. The kids are familiar of their parents' history together, but Lin and Tenzin are the ones who lived it together (albeit different experiences with this switch) and they both take it the hardest

Despite her frustrations with him, she wouldn't turn her back on him. Just make him sleep in another room until he goes back to canon lol

He's also prob trying to stay in this universe ngl and Lin wants her airhead back

AU Tenzin

I feel so bad for him

While I think he'll be very cordial and civil when addressing Pema and her kids, it's quite obvious that he has no emotional connection to her or them. I can see Pema trying to spark that connection with him, but he's very clear on his boundaries that he's married to Lin and he has children with Lin and will remain faithful to her. While he may look like her husband, he's not.

Compared to AU Lin who has only two photos on her, Tenzin has multiple photos lmao he has a family photo and individual ones of the kids when they're all young.

He's trying to spend more time with Lin, but he's learning very quickly that she was hurt badly in this universe. She's the only connection he really has and he wants to be there to support her. Meanwhile Lin trying not to get lured by how much better this version of airhead is is getting a headache figuring out how he can go home to his family. But she's genuinely curious about their life together

Lin would act like she doesn't care about the photos, but inside she's studying it so intently. Wondering what they're all like, what their voices sound like, how the atmosphere feels if she were to ever meet them. Tenzin is hyping them up lol he prob also tries to hype her up and she's building up an extra wall

I think if he were switched, he wouldn't be in other world for very long. He'd prob stay for there for no more than a week? I really enjoyed this ask bc I haven't had the chance to think super hard about Tenzin switching xD if you have any other ideas that you want to see as a oneshot to expand on the CCC fic, feel free to send bc I only have a few atm 🥲 im gonna do a short one of pema being switched to AU world but this is after Lin gives birth to the twins just to be spiteful mwahahaha

#fic ask #linzin au #tlok

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miruac · 10 months

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002 | cold

masterlist

genre: strangers to friends to lovers, slowburn, some angst later on

pairing: casey ruang x yunmei qi

warnings: mild cussing

a/n: hello everyone! writing this a/n cureenrlt on my phone and im lying down rn, so there wre bound to be typos 😭😭 im sorry for the wait for this chapter, i wanted to pace rhe events properly and get the timeline right. i hope you all enjoy this chapter, now lets get to it!

I.H LIBRARY; 2:47 P.M

mom: [insert image]

mom: I didn't do this, ur father did

me: LMFAO

"hm?"

casey chuckled, pushing his hair back. it was around a week after orientation, and classes just started. yunmei and casey were in the library, studying together. they had just finished the minor work, and now it was time for a break.

"sorry, my mom just sent me a picture of some stuff my dad bought. he bought like, a new minifridge for the basement lounge when we already have like, two."

yunmei smiled, enthused at casey's family shenanigans.

"your family seems really fun, bet'cha miss them."

casey holds his hand out, glancing between her and the candy.

"yeah, i have a big family so it was hard to come here. but i couldn't turn down this offer, y'know?"

a hum of understanding emitted from yunmei as she rested her head on her arms. this conversation prompted yunmei to think; did she have anyone at home waiting for her? casey glanced up at her from his books, and at yun's stiff posture. he noticed her body stiffen up at the topic, unsure of how to advance.

"what about you, anyone waiting for you at home?"

"well, i have my brother and mom. my mom was working most of my life, so my brother practically raised me. haven't seen him in a while though, he's working overseas."

casey nodded his head as he popped another candy into his mouth. the two sat in an awkward silence, hesitantly waiting for each other to break the silence.

"shit, i forgot i have class."

"....skip?"

"are you really trying to get me to skip class? me? casey ruang, the model student with straight a's?"

"oh my god, you're so annoying."

"you know you don't mean that. anyways, catch'ya later?"

yunmei waved goodbye, tugging at his backpack strap playfully. casey grabbed his things and took a couple steps, before grabbing the candies and then running off. at this point, yunmei couldn't even bother with chasing after him. she could just visit the convenience store just outside campus.

I.H DORMITORY; 1:20 A.M

since the first day of classes, yunmei has been helping out at the school's broadcasting department. she signed up to host a podcast named goodnight central. through this club, yun wanted to develop her knowledge about public broadcasting. seemed simple enough, she thought. the description only said that you play music, and talk about certain topics occaisionally. only negative is, the podcast runs from 1:30 am to 2:50 a.m.

the time was now 1:20. yun's dorm room was dark, and the only lighting she had was from the various set up of string lights scattered around the plaster walls. with the limited time she had between classes, she was able to decorate a little bit more. yunmei had a platform double bed in the corner, white and dark navy blue polka dot sheets with matching white pillows. a pile of stuffed toys sat at the head of the bed where a big tiger plush took up most of the space.

yunmei connected the microphone to her laptop, which was linked to the broadcast server. clearing her throat, she adjusted her microphone so it was level to her mouth. it was already 1:27, and the waiting room for the podcast was already open. instrumentals played softly in the background of the podcast. yun took a deep breath, and clicked her mic on.

here we go...

;;

evil spawn #1(claudia): are u awake

me: it's 1:20 am you have school soon

me: are u okay?

evil spawn #1(claudia): stfu u worry too much

evil spawn #1(claudia): can u send me ur recipe for crepes? i forgot 2 write one for food n nutrition

me: ykw maybe i will if you apologize for telling me to stfu

evil spawn #1(claudia): ok fine sorry

me: ur lucky i went to a diff school <file attached below>

evil spawn #1(claudia): OKAY THANK U BIG BROTHER LOVE U

me: love u too, go sleep

insomnia. casey's old friend. the friend who kept him up at night, begging for attention. the friend who you can't shake off, even after years and years. tonight was one of the rougher nights, where he was tossing and turning all over his mattress.

the blaring green numbers on his bedside table displayed the time, which was 1:27 a.m. he tossed and turned, but still couldn't seem to fall asleep.

blip!

hey! you still awake? goodnight central starts soon, we thought you may enjoy!

a quiet blip from casey's phone distracted him from his state of exhaustion, and caught his attention. there in the notification bar, a blurb popped up advertising a podcast called goodnight central.

a good night? that's what i need, maybe ill give it a try.

another blip sounded from his phone as the software led him to the school campus app. quiet music played from his phone, instantaneously soothing his senses. the music stopped, then a soft voice began talking.

"good morning everyone, good morning? can i say that? anyways, hello everyone!"

casey chuckled at the host's mistake, finding it endearing.

"i'm q.y, and this is goodnight central; a podcast devoted to helping struggling sleepers sleep. uhh what do i say? oh theres music submissions? okay, bet. tonight's first song submission is a classic, back to you by nct 127! this submission message says, 'hi! just wanted to start off the year with a good song, and to get ready for the start of school insomnia and depression.' damn. really gonna hit deep on the first day of the podcast, hm?"

I.H FILM ROOM; 9:23 A.M

"damn, you look like shit. did you even sleep?"

"hey, it takes effort to look this good."

yunmei dropped her backpack on the floor beside casey's seat, slumping down on the chair beside him. it was colder than expected, and today had to be the day yunmei didn't bring an extra sweater.

casey was flipping through pages in his sketchbook, outlining a sketch with a pen. he had been into all of the arts as a child, and his parents were very supportive. so supportive, that for casey's twelfth birthday they gifted him with his own personal studio filled with musical instruments and art supplies.

the teacher still hadn't arrived, and the temperature in the room felt even colder. yunmei had curled up into a ball in her chair, she was now rubbing her hands together for warmth.

"you okay?" casey asked. his eyes seemed to have a glint of worry in them, or yunmei was seeing things.

"yeah, just kinda cold. i thought it would be warm." she shivered. "it's still early september and it's hot but i didn't expect the classrooms to be so...air-conditioned." yun replied, covering her nose as she let out a quiet sneeze. there was no answer from casey, so she felt mildly offended. however, when yun looked at casey he was already taking off his sweater and holding it out to her.

"gesundheit."

"...thanks."

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wowww caseys such a gentleman omg

#casey ruang #goodnight central #miruac #yunmei qi #fluff #podcast au #college au #oc #slowburn

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bunycube · 2 years

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!!! hi again (sorry in advance for the very long message ,_,)

wait so do you mean that there is not english translation of Lamento ? so like if i were to download it I'd need to play it in Japanese ? o.o and like find a translation and read from there at the same time !? heck :")

ominous yes!! but there's something really nice about it ??!!

💀💀 not me imagining Tetsuo as a cardboard box now ksndjdjdj i see what you mean tho still i love him nonetheless :') i think he's just a lil bit shy and quiet, keeps to himself alot.. i feel like he's never really had any close friends,, maybe any friends at all i liked seeing glimp of soft and gentle Tetsuo :') there were some really cute and tender moment with Youji too (well as cute and tender as it can be given the circumstances lolol) it's fun to imagine what they all could have been like without all this innerbeings stuff fuckin them all up

it's ok to feel so close to Youji even if you don't know why 😊♡ and YEAAAS i felt the same same same about Z!!!! :"))) very interested to hear more of your thoughts about him if you ever feel like writing them down 👀👀

skdjdjdj entire cities apart made me laugh but true :^) tho even if he left his dad and all that the hell within would still follow him,,, he can't help that he been dragged into all this by his dad and he literally has no escape ,_,

hahajjsjsjsjs i know now there are no sweet endings lmao i can't say i didnt know at first because i had been warned but STILLLLLL i wasnt expecting that from Makoto!!!!! for that end to be so unhinged x') i thought he'd be the less bad difjfjdj

i do like to also imagine something where they someone all get free from the nonsense and just get to have normal lives and happiness ;_;

LOL i dont remember the ugly outfit :"))) i wasn't sure about Rin at first like ,,,, what's his angle,,, he is just pretending to be nice,,, why so mysterious,,,, he did grow on me but idk idk

aw im sorry Nano's made you feel that way :'( i love him very much :'):

aaaa i wasn't sure what to think of Motomi in all the other routes i was very mmm🤔🤔🤔🤔mmm but when i did his route i was like !!!!😍😍😍!!!!!

yeah Akira was alright but Aoba probably remains my fav protagonist(is that the right word??) and and i loved Takeru alot too , before he died when he sees like his sister and his parents and ;_; made me cry lowkey wish he had a route too ~ aND IT'S OK I LOVE GUNJI TOO WOAA

i like Arbitro too a little for some reason there's just something about him ,,,,, but his route was really underwhelming to me ??? idk i was expecting more from him

NO NEED TO APOLOGIZE!! RAMBLE AWAY very interesting to read someone being excited about what they are talking about !! :)))))))

never apologize for long messages!!! i love em! response under cut

there IS an eng translation for lamento! its just a pretty long process to download it haha. i was saying that i had to download some dvd mounting thing to get it to work snfbsb the game itself is fully translated, no worriesbthere!!

yesyes its like kimda ominous but still calming w all rhe quiet sunset empty classroom vibez...you know....

😭😭 oh yeah i get u, i think tetsuo is just a reserved kid plus he prob felt like he didnt fit in very well? thats just me guessing but he seems like that kind of guy...i think hes the same as youji in that respect, both of them kimd of quiet n awkward n not teh type to easily make friends :) he does some pretty bad things but im like sigh well its this kind of game so ofc that happens...besides that i think hes just an awkward quiet kid who looks rly intimidating like hes not bad once u start talking to him. i lovednsome of his gentler scenes w youji, my favs when they were eating ramen and tetsuo picks out the bamboo shoots from youjis bowl bc he doesnt like them...it made me so 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 i also loved when youji was showing him pics of his nephew ...idk idk sp is so dark but i loveee gentler scenes like this its so 💔 to me that they manage to find moments of peace despite everything around them...

oh true i thought abt this too...no matter how far zenya runs away he can never escape bc the thing thats causimg all his problems is his own body, so he just cant run away from it or do anything abt it ;___; poor boy he never asked for this n his whole life is just doomed from tjebstart bc of his shitty father...

if i started talking abt why i like zenya we would be here ALLL LDAY and rhis post would literslly never end lol i just like analysing him and how everythign hes been through shapes his actions and behaviour n all hmmmm

OH YES...sweetnpool normal au :))) i lvoe to imagine it i feel like tetsuo youji n makoto would hang our together n zenya is that one guy no one invited but he jsut joined in anyway n the others dont rlycwant him there but well. hes there now

lmaoo this is the ugly outfit

ohh yeah i was thinking abt this yesterday too and aoba is hands-down my fav chiral protag!,$& i jusr love him sm his personality design everything is chef kiss hes so fun and lovely and means sm to me. hes very comforting to me personally as well and hes just a special boy...tho i love the other protags as well haha

OH YEAH i loved takeru too wtfff i wasnso sad when he died bc he had never had antthing good ivhis life n thenche dies SO BRUTALLY...and he jsut wantednto help his family it made me v sad :( they spent sm time on him i fully expected him to atleast have an ending so when he died i was like huh, wiat what 😭😭😭😭

ngl, arbitro makes me sick 2 my stomach for reasons u prob already know but he surprisingly isnt relevant ti the plot st all? so i keep forgetting abt him. i liked how campy his design was but thats it. hecmakes me sick !!! yeah jdbfbd

same for u! i lovenreading lomg responses haha i always ramble a lot so i feel less guilty if the person also writes a long reoly, beside its very fun to read and respond to!

#ask #ill put under cut wait i need to go on desktop #long post

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totallytrucked · 3 years

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Listen I love spring awakening but why is the obc soundtrack Like That

#its so awkward #all the boys sound the same #they all sound like they've been forced at gunpoint to make it #but i love the instrumental at the beginning of mama who bore me its sp pretty #maybe its because it was like 2 months into their run? idk #im blaming Steven sater because i can #also all the lyric changes #and song of purple summer being really weird #spring awakening #it was recorded in 2006 god

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heartache-onthebigscreen · 2 years

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Calum X Recovering Addict

Like I can imagine him taking them to DAA meetings, not being to pushy like most people would be. He doesn’t treat them differently like he doesn’t constantly treat them like a child, but instead is there and will listen when needed and drive them when asked and will maybe even attended if they really wanted him to

proud of you - cth

an: addiction is a heavy topic! and recovering is a long, hard process. if anyone reading this is suffering with addiction or just wants to talk, im always here.

summary: calum gets you through your addiction recovery, through every bump in the road. you’re having a particularly bad day.

pairing: calum hood x recovering addict!reader

warnings: addiction, mentions of drug use, angst, cursing, mental health

word count: 1.6k+

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You sit in your seat, tuning out whoever was speaking in your DAA meeting while anxiously tapping your foot.

You stare at the clock, waiting for the end of this excruciatingly long meeting you had to endure today. It’d only been about ten minutes, and a lot has happened in it.

Usually, these weekly meetings were fine. You got to be around people who understood your struggles and you were able to openly speak about your issues.

But today, the normal group leader wasn’t there. It was some old, judgmental bitch who made you feel small.

When you had mentioned what substances you used to abuse, the woman had sent you a look of disgust and disappointment, and hasn’t even let you talk after. You still had a lot of time left in this meeting and you are not for it.

This sent you into a spiral, and all you could think about was using to get yourself out of this funk, but you knew that wasn’t even an option.

You stand up from your seat and quietly exit the room, hoping that everyone thinks you’re just going to the bathroom. You walk a little ways down the hallway and pull your phone out of your pocket.

And you call the only one that treats you like an actual person.

“Hey babe!” Calum cheers into the phone, “what’s up? Did you forget something?”

“No,” you sigh into the phone, you bring your fingernails to your mouth and start to nibble, “I just- how far are you?“

“Not too far. Traffics bad,” Calum chuckles, “need something?”

“Can you- can you come back and pick me up?” You shakily ask.

“Why? What’s wrong?” Calum’s cheery tone alters into a more serious one.

“Nothing, this new lady makes me feel…bad. I don’t know. I just don’t want to be here, can you please-“

“Okay, YN, I’m on my way.”

“Thank you, I love you.” You let out a sigh of relief.

“I love you too. See you soon.”

You hang up the phone, feeling much better as you walk back to the room where the meeting is held. You walk over to your seat and start to gather your things.

“YN!” The group leader says your name, making you freeze in your place. “Going so soon?”

“Yeah- I just don’t feel well,” You lie as you let out an awkward laugh.

“Oh, you mind staying for a few more minutes while everyone finishes talking about their week?“

“Okay,” You grumble, wanting to rip that fake smile off the woman’s face. You still had a few minutes before Calum made it back anyways.

Waiting for a text from Calum saying that he was here makes you extremely impatient. You’re biting your nails, bouncing your leg, anything stimulating enough to ease your anxiety.

You can’t take anymore, you stand up from your chair and start to grab your things.

“YN, why are you in such a hurry?” The leader questions you with a brow raised.

“Just…not feeling well.” You reiterate.

“Are you sure?”

What the fuck?

“I don’t think I understand what you’re saying…” You trail off while you furrow your brows.

“You just seem…antsy is all. You have somewhere you have to be?”

You are taken aback by this comment. You know she thinks you’re going to go use, which is not the case at all. It’s actually unbelievable she’d accuse you of that, this was supposed to be a safe space. No questions asked.

Before you can open your mouth to speak, Calum walks into the room, swinging his car keys around his finger as his warm smile lights up the room, “good afternoon!” He greets the leader, he then turns to you, “ready?”

You quickly nod your head and start to head towards the door.

“Ah, this your dealer?” The woman comments, making you stop in your tracks and whip your head around to give her a bewildered look.

“Excuse me?” Calum’s cheery tone drops, his voice now sounding cold as he raises his brows at her.

“Calum, let’s just-“

“You know, I heard you a moment ago. I’m more than sure you aren’t supposed to be talking like that. This is supposed to be a safe space, right?” Calum crosses his arms and stands up straight, his demeanor causing the leader to cower a little in her spot.

“I- I never said anything-“

“You just called me her dealer. That’s not saying anything?” Calum challenges, “I suggest you get your shit straight. Do not ever accuse YN, or anyone else for that matter, of wanting to use. That’s not what they’re here for.”

A range of gasps is heard around the room. You feel your face turn beet red as you glance around the room.

But you notice your peers nodding in agreement.

“Everyone here is a person, just like you,” Calum adds, “there’s no reason to treat them any differently.”

He gives the leader one last look before he interlocks his fingers with yours and pulls you out of the room. You trip over your own two feet as Calum quickly walks through the halls and out the exit of the building.

His car is out front, he only lets go of your hand after he opens your door for you so you can get in.

Once Calum joins you in the car, he starts it and begins to drive off.

You sit in your seat, quietly fiddling with your hands. Part of you thinks you should have just sucked it up and dealt with the meeting, it’d spare him the anger he’s feeling right now.

But you’re also glad he had the guts to say something, you never in a million years would have.

You’re not sure what to even do in this situation, you figure you let Calum cool off for a moment, or let him speak first.

Dreadful moments pass by as you two sit in traffic. It really shouldn’t take more than 15 minutes to get home, but traffic there makes it quite the commute.

“M’sorry,” Calum finally speaks up. It’s more of a deep mumble than anything, he lets out a long breath and reaches over to stop you from picking at the skin of your hands, “I just hate when people make you feel bad. You’ve done nothing wrong, flower.”

“It’s okay,” you send him a small smile, “I’m sorry I called you- I just-“

“No, no, I’m glad you called. I don’t want you to suffer through a meeting like that,” Calum lightly chuckles, “we can just find something to do, it’s alright.”

“Oh, you’re not going to make me find another place for meetings?” You turn your head in question. Anyone who had helped you on this journey forced you to go to meetings and were basically on your ass 24/7. Not a hint of trust was there.

But with Calum, things had been different. Once you told him about your addiction recovery, he had treated you no differently. He simply offered you rides needed be, and he never brought it up unless you wanted or needed to talk about it.

He treats you like a person. Not some charity case. And that’s what you love about being with him.

“Babe, I’m not gonna make you do something you don’t want to do,” Calum shrugs, “you can make your own decisions.”

You nod your head in understanding, appreciative that he isn’t pushing anything on you. But you do believe you need some sort of meeting, whether it’s a different DAA group, therapy, anything to get through your recovery.

“I still want to go to meetings,” you say.

“Okay, we can find something when we get home.”

A week has passed since the whole spat with your previous group, even though that leader was temporary, you really just didn’t want to risk it.

So, Calum is driving you to a different place, different people, which is kind of scary, you have no clue what to expect.

You have been anxious all day long, being able to do nothing but sit still on the couch waiting for the inevitable appointment.

Calum has treated it like a normal day, he worked from home. He made you food, played with Duke, everything. He didn’t mention the meeting once.

Just a simple, “you ready to go?” when it was time to leave.

And now you guys have pulled up to the building, anxiety worsening in your gut as you stare at the new place.

“It’s okay,” Calum reaches out to fix your hair, “I’ll be back in a little bit, yeah? And you call me if you need anything.”

“I…never mind,” you breathe out.

Calum wouldn’t go in there with you, he definitely has better things to do than attend a Drug Addicts Anonymous meeting.

“No, what? You don’t have to do this y’know, we can-“

“No, no, it’s not that, do you…do you think you could come in with me?” You ask.

Calum sends you a warm smile, “of course, don’t mind at all.”

He moves the car from in front of the building to find a place to park.

While you two are walking in together, you grip his hand for dear life. All the anxiety and guilt continue to build in you as you near the meeting room.

“Calum, you sure I’m not bothering you? You don’t really talk about it much…I feel like you hate me-“ You begin to ramble, but Calum quickly cuts you off.

“Babe, I don’t hate you. You’re not bothering me, ever. I don’t talk about it much because…well there’s not much to talk about. All that matters is that I’m proud of you.”

And just like that, those four words from your favorite person causes your stress to evaporate.

Calum is proud of you, so at this point, you could do anything your heart desires.

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michu-writes · 2 years

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OK THIS HAS BEEN IN MY HEAD FOR SO LONG BUT MAIN 4 (SP) AND BUTTERS WITH A GHOST S/O THATS ATTACHED TO THEM (like,, if they go too far from them they start fading) AND WHEN THE S/O FINALLY HAS THE CHANCE TO MOVE ONTO THE AFTERLIFE THEY DECIDE TO STAY ?? TYSM ^^

A/N: I LOVE THIS SO MUCH WHAT?? I hope you like this, sorry for the wait!!! Btw this is not read proof because I’m too lazy so sorry if there’s any spelling mistakes and stuff-

Stan Marsh

• He never really thought he'd... Have a ghost as a s/o to say the least. He kept it a secret of course, and only really told Kyle. Stan knew that Cartman could NEVER hear about it, and you know why. As for Kenny, he'd just try to hook up with you too, it doesn't matter if you're a ghost.

• At first, he started to freak out the first time he saw you just appearing randomly in class beside him out of thin air. He thought he was just seeing things, you looked the same age as him, but he couldn't recognize you. So he just kinda ignored you. But when he realized you were actually a ghost, he wanted to know more about it. Like how you died, how it is to live as a ghost, etc.

• He was quite sad and shocked the way you died, he felt really bad for you even though he didn't really know you. But knowing that all your loved ones can't be around you anymore, that you can't really interact with the living anymore without freaking them out, that must be tough.

• Knowing that you have to stay near him or you'll fade, that could be a bit awkward at times. That means you basically have to be with him everywhere he goes, and literally EVERYWHERE. He was a bit annoyed by it sometimes, but grew used to it as time passed.

• And then sooner, you guys became friends, to good friends, to best friends, to eventually partners. Sure, he was unsure of the relationship, I mean a ghost dating a human? That's just... I dunno. But he doesn't care, and so don't you. He'd probably just run up to Kyle and be like "DUDE!!! IM DATING THAT GHOST NOW!" "What the fuck."

• But once walking home from school with you floating beside him, you came to tell him this awesome piece of information; "Stan! I'm finally able to move onto the afterlife!" you said excitingly, but almost disappointingly too for some reason. "Really? I'm happy for you, (y/n). You can finally escape from this hell hole, haha." He gave you a soft smile, which was a bit crooked of sadness. "....Yeah, I guess." Seeing that pouty look on your face, Stan asked what was wrong. When you said that you didn't wanna leave him, that you actually did want yo stay, he was so confused, but couldn't help but feel a bit fluttery inside. "What? Isn't it better to just go to the afterlife instead of being in a world where no one else than me can literally see you?" "Yeah, but I wanna be with you! I don't wanna leave without you, you're the first human I've interacted with after a long time, and I can't just throw it all away!" He was shocked and surprised, but really happy that you still wanted to stay with him. Honestly, everything would just go back to the shitty things like they always were without you, everything just has been way more interesting and fun now that you were here.

• He likes you a lot, and would do anything for you to not regret you decision.

Kyle Broflovski

• Imagine you were this one kid in class that no one really brought any attention of, like you were just invincible most of the time. People only knew you as quiet and weird kid of class. Though, one day you just disappeared. No one knew what happened, but then the news came. You died. How? They don't know, the school has kept your cause of death as a secret to not cause any harm for anyone, and that led for it to start a bunch of rumors about you. Saying that you died by accident, murder, hell even suicide. It was sick, Kyle thought it was sick on how people could just say that about a dead person. Sure, maybe some of it can be true, but it's still kinda fucked up.

• Then, there was this certain rumor that had everyone really spooked, even him. They said that those entering the class could feel your presence and hear your voice whispering to your ear quietly, they couldn't hear most of what you were saying, and that you were giggling and laughing. Though, it was just a dumb rumor, right? It's nothing too crazy.

• Yeah, no. He could literally see dark shadows of you everywhere and hear you whisper and everything what the rumor was saying. He thought he lost his mind. Everywhere he went, he could always feel you around him all the time. And when he finally got sick of it, he went off.

"Alright, (y/n). Just what the fuck are you doing!?" And no response.

"I know you're here, stop fucking around and let me fucking see you!" After still a few seconds of silence, he could see you slowly appear in front of him. He couldn't really recognize you at first, but it hit him eventually. The only thing that really changed was that your hair seemed to have grown a bit and that you look a lot more paler than usual, and that you're a ghost obviously.

• "Holy shit--!" "Yeah... Hello Kyle." He didn't know what to say, he didn't really expect you to come out. But there you are, standing right in front of him. So the rumors are true.

• He had so many questions after that too. He couldn't believe that you're a ghost. He thought he actually needed help. But it all passed eventually, and you became friends. When you said that you had to stay with him, that you're connected to him and can't who far away from or you'll fade, he thought it was hilarious but also kinda confusing and weird. Does that mean you have to watch him on the toilet and talk to his friends? Hell nah.

• But he felt really powerful around you, he could literally use it as an advantage to scare people off, especially Cartman. But of course, he really liked having you as a friend, you were actually fun to hang around with. He felt guilty for not ever having to talk to you when you were still alive, and that he just completely ignored you and literally just forgetting you were in the same class as him.

• But anyways, when you guys started to become closer and closer, he actually had a crush on you. A crush? On a ghost? That must've been the weirdest shit that ever happened to him. He'd talk to Kenny about this, and he'll be like "Woahhh. I mean they do kinda have a fat ass so I'm not really complaining." Then you scream at Kyle to punch Kenny in the nuts after that-

• But honestly, he knew a relationship with a ghost wouldn't work. Though it happened.

• It was a bit weird at first, but meh. It didn't really seem all that different to be fair.

• When you told him that you had the chance to move onto the afterlife, he got so sad. Do you really have to leave now? He'd do anything for you to stay, it was so fun to have you here. But then you say that you were still gonna stay with him? He couldn't help but let out happy squeals. He was so happy that you didn't leave, like he'd be nothing without you. He absolutely wouldn't like to not see you ever again, and he wishes that he could be there for you more back then.

Eric Cartman

• Since we're talking about Cartman, he'd be a total dick to you.

• Let's just take the same story as Kyle. He'd be the one who started the rumors.

• Would lay out pranks on you to make you fade away, but apologizes after it.

• Gotta admit that he'd be bummed that you have the opportunity to go to back to the afterlife, but acts like he doesn't care.

• This is all I got for him.

Kenny McCormick

• Gives the vibes of "Sex with a ghost" or whatever the song is.

• But anyways, imagine that you've met Kenny's ghost multiple times everytime he died, so he pretty much already knew who you are. You're also the only one who remembers his death, and he's happy about it. Just that you're a ghost...

• He definitely keeps it a secret between the two of you, that he can see you and such. He knows he would get picked on by Cartman and the others, and that they would probably not believe him either.

• Kenny probably doesn't even mind dying anymore, let alone being scared of it, because if he dies, that only means he can be closer to you as a ghost as well, but only for a day or two until he fkn respawns 💀. You're obviously worried and really shocked whenever you see him die, but yeah.

• Just like I said, he'll flirt with you even though you're a ghost. Oh, so you have to be close to him or else you'll fade away? That's just the best on his opinion. He'll be like "Close your eyes, I'm gonna strip naked right now." Or "Wanna see me pull out my 10 inch penis?" Like bro no-

• It's Kenny we're talking about though, not surprised tbh. But it does make you wanna punch him on the nuts if you were still alive.

• He's still very nice to you, it's only a tease.

• When it comes to the afterlife thingy, he doesn't care about your decision. Sure, he'd get sad if you left him, but afterlife is way better than staying here in the human world with him, so he wouldn't get mad or anything if you chose that instead of him. But when you did choose him, he was so happy and started to jump around and stuff. He thought he'd get lonely and skit without you, but now you're here to stay. Oh how much he wanted to hug you and toss you around, but can't-

Butters Stotch

• He'll be so scared of you the first time he saw you. Like he'll be running around and screaming like a chicken. He'd tell everybody about it, and Cartman would manipulate him into thinking that you're bad luck and it means that he'll die very soon because of being attatched to him. He'd get grounded by his parents too-

• But once you told him everything, he'll be like "Oh... I'm sorry, ghost. You know, Cartman is always messing around with me, so I'm sorry I thought that you were some kind of bad luck." And would probably ask to be your friend like 🥺

• Sometimes he forgets you're a ghost, and just starts talking really loudly whenever he's talking to you and everyone would look at weirdly, but he'd too busy talking to you to even notice. He's a really fun and talkative person, and he's really happy to have you here even whenever he's grounded.

• Butters would ask you anything about your past life, how you were, how you died, why you can't go to the afterlife, etc. He'd be really sad about you, considering the fact that you actually seemed like a friendly and nice person, he didn't want you to just pass in such a young age. Like that's just so sad. He'd even cry for you smh.

• But when he realized he had a crush on you, he'd immediately run over to the main four and ask for advice, completely forgetting that you were still there like "Oh lord.. What should I do, fellas? I can't date a ghost!" And Cartman would be like "Just go for it." And then secretly rip on him. And you'll just stand there behind him 🧍. Realizing you were there the whole time, he panicked and ran back home leaving the boys confused.

• That's how he met his ghost s/o <3.

• He'd start begging you to not leave him and come up with ideas quick when you tell him that you have the chance to move onto the afterlife, like he doesn't want you to leave. It was so much fun being around you, he was in the urge of tears, not letting you say a single word. You were the only friend who actually liked him. But when you did say you were gonna stay, he needed a lot of reassuring. He felt a bit guilty, but happy. He'll make sure that you're still loved even if you're a ghost, like no way is he wasting any other time. He admires you a lot, and he doesn't care if he gets bullied by it.

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funkymbtifiction · 3 years

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hi! i’ve read somewhere on your blog that unlike mbti, instinctual variants don’t exactly “take time to evolve” and is observable since young so now im doubting my stacking so/sp.

as i grew up i came to be more aware of the “social world” like the unsaid obligations or roles people take up as i watched the people around me so i know how i should act that would come off the “right” way and Grew to pay some mind in how i come across. But i never did care to be part of a larger “community” or felt that i needed to be involved with a “group” to find my place. in fact it rarely ever crossed my mind because i just didn’t care and when i think back to why i had a strong aversion to taking up class roles (especially leadership ones) i realized that the thought of having responsibility beyond Myself but even worse having to expand my energy over a whole “class” is just something i simply don’t know how to do or begin navigating and i just know in my bones i’d hate it if i had to do it (it wouldn’t be a job well done too). and i’m still like this at 17 but the difference is that i’m much more “appropriate” i would say unlike when i was 10 or so—when i was “mischievous”, more blunt, always approaching people (not a group of people more so of persons in my life) with my nonsense without second thought—but now i’d say i’m more reserved because of social anxiousness ( that i didn’t used to have because i’d be so unaware of people dynamics but now i over think it). my question is would this still make me a so-dom? (and since it definitely doesn’t feel like my 2nd stacking play area, does this make me so-blind?)

i did consider sx somewhere in my stacking which i think is possible because i relate to treating each friendship like a romance, liking the one-on-one focus and “merging”. but i’m awkward and as much as i crave the one-on-one intensity, i get anxious (and self conscious i guess) so really lame and dry small talk just spews out instead even though i fantasise about it all the time (ok maybe not all the time but frequent enough). so would that make me sx-blind instead?

So/sp sounds right. A lot of your arguments against it are misconceptions about the instincts. One-on-one is social. Social is developing relationships through sharing, communication, and spending time with each other. It has nothing to do with groups, really. That's a misconception about social. So/sp's don't join groups for their own sake -- they are picky about whom they spend time with, and don't see groups 'casually' the way sp/so's do. A “group” for a social is -- me and my family. Or me and my loved ones. As for being aware of a larger community, social doms know they are in one. If they go against it, they aren't doing it out of ignorance, but choosing to go against it. They are anxious about making the right impression, about interactions, and concerned with how they are coming across. It doesn't make them automatically assume or want leadership, especially if they have sp and are aware of drains on themselves.

If you want a somewhat dated but amusing reference, look at Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Buffy and Willow are social dominants. Me and my gang (friends), and I do stuff for wider society cuz it’s good. Xander and Angel are sp-doms (Xander, always worried about food, eating, my stomach, my safety; Angel always worried about safety for loved ones). And Faith is an sx-dom (doesn’t slaying just make you horny as hell?).

#question #enneagram #subtypes

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tyonfs · 3 years

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ayoooooooooo !!!!!

wassupppp???? I hope you are doing fineeeeeeeeeeee !!!!! so yesterday I was watching tiktok and I came across this story time and tbh is has kind of hilarious to listen to it.....and idky I really think mark or maybe the dreamies or maybe even taeyong might encounter this idky I just get that vibe...ofc in the au!

so this incident happened like during pandemic .... like the colleges and all are working .... basically the pandemic is there....but its very less and the lockdowns have been lifted so you can roan around

so it was like there is this uni girl ..... who is like chilling in the park doing her work on her laptop sipping coffee ..... looking around....not many people are there at that time....so this guy comes up to her and sits right next to h er.....so she shifts to the other side since....BRO COVID !!!! so she shifts...and he is like HEY !!!! she is like hey??? so he is like hi my name is...lets name him Joshua .....she like thinking....wwow the guts and like this guy is ballsy enough to come up to randomly and start talking ok..nice...likey likely.....so she also started making convo with him and they were like going with the flow.....so he is like your place or mine???? SHE IS SHOOK cause well they both are starngers and here he is having the balls to actually ask some random girl "so your place or mine!!!"....sbhe like what about no one's place???? like I barely know you so.....he like sure ....wanna take a walk around.????......and from the story I concluded she liked guys who were ... brave????? idk.... n e ways....so they are walking around the park and he like tell me something about yourself sp she tells her hobbies and likes and dislikes...after she finishes he like wow I didnt know you would tell me sooooooo m much about yourself ....wow....so she like...o k??....tell me about yourself,....so he holds her hand and looks around to check if someone else is there...and he whispers....."I am more of a ass kind of guy....and if you wear one of your skirts then I also am into spanking"......so literally tears her hands off his hold and is like shook and kinda screams and starts running away.....he is like wait wait wait you are not ... lets name girl2 Emily... she like .. Ummmm NOOOOOOOOO !!!! then she sees that he is wearing the same sweatshirt as her uni and she realises that they share same major (I forgot which subject) so he like "wait I am sooo sooo sorry... I mistook you as a call girl which I booked who said she was gonna be here and she described the clothing exactly as same as yours"....she was SHOOOK....apparently pandemic loneliness got to him real bad welp now that I wrote this whole incident I find it kinda dangerous and creepy too...but it was hilarious to listen to so ya which member do you think might encounter this kind of incident ??????? ~🫀(I am new anon to your page....like this is my first anon....I am a silent reader)

hihi 🫀 anon !! sorry for replying to this late i was packing all day yesterday 🏃‍♂️ but i hope you’re doing well too ♡

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omg a storytime IM READY 🧎‍♀️OKAY NGL I WOULD GET WEIRDED OUT IF SOMEONE DID THAT TO ME IN THE LIBRARY but why am i thinking of svt joshua 😰

HELP SPANKING WHATTDYDH AND THE CALL GIRL NOOO THATS SO AWKWARD HE JUST TOLD A RANDOM GIRL HIS KINKS NVM THIS ISNT SVT JOSHUA

omg i feel like this would happen to jeno and he would be so confused and not know what to do 💀💀 BUT I HOPE IT HAPPENS TO NONE OF THEM THAT SOUNDS KINDA SCARY LIKE GLAD HE BACKED OFF BUT OFMJGF IDK IF ID LAUGH OR CRY LOLLL

also welcome to my page anon !!! i’d love to put you down as a new anon hehe 🥰

#tyonfs asks #🫀 anon

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sweaterangst · 3 years

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I wish Anon was voiced by Alexander Hanly, but I also love his actual VA so im torn

oml anon i had to look up alexander hanly bc i didnt know who he was BUT UR SO RIGHT!!! i listen to his bit in the danganronpa hushed whispers VA reveal and his voice would suit anon so well!!!

hhh as for fnu tho :( aaaa i really hope neither he or sad panda studios is reading this lol bc i wanna say that i actually... am not the biggest fan of anon's voice in the fully voiced DLC. :0c ngl i've been meaning to talk about this forever so thank you for this ask anon LOL

i feel like fnu (anon's actual VA) messed up on most of the deliveries, the accent isn't really clear? and i'm not sure what the main problem is but i think its either bc 1. sps gave fnu unclear instructions on what the accent should be (they said "scottish/irish" in a livestream once, which was weird to me bc those are two different accents!!!) OR 2. fnu is just. bad at scottish accents. we just gotta accept that 😔 his delivery on most of anon's voice lines in the DLC sounds very stilted and awkward to me? :( no offence to either fnu or sps but that's not my boy,,,

of course, i might just feel this way because i was so invested in anon that i had a pre-conceived notion of what his voice should sound like based off what little we have of his voiced dialogue in the main game. but like. idk. i really just feel like his minimal voiced dialogue was just delivered better than his fully voiced dialogue. maybe it was becuase they rushed it??? oml man IDK im just a little cheesed about it to this day

#i meant to save this in drafts so i could add a read more on desktop but i accidentally. posted it. sorry.#no read more i guess LOL #bb anon #ask #anonymous

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clareguilty · 4 years

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Mercy or uhhh Albert Mason for the character ask! 💛

I’ll do both!

Mercy

Sexuality Headcanon: hmmm id say bi or lesbian?

Gender Headcanon: honestly anything works but i usually hc her as a cis lady

A ship I have with said character: MOICY MOICY MOICY

A BROTP I have with said character: mercy and mccree as best bros. they drive the high command crazy why does overwatch even hire child prodigies this was a terrible idea

A NOTP I have with said character: uuuh again i dont really have any lol

A random headcanon: I headcanon mercy as a top/dom usually, she seems very take charge and devoted to her partner, i cant imagine her as very submissive

General Opinion over said character: big mommy energy, excellent biddies, would be a good gorlfriend, shes difficult to play in game bc jeff nerfed the shit out of her and so she cant compare to any other support, i dont write enough mercy content

Albert Mason

Sexuality Headcanon: oooh he seems like a gay man (kinda awkward, eccentric, weird hobbies, fawns over arthur) but i can see him being interested in women every once in a while

Gender Headcanon: cis man, but trans!albert would be extra cuuute

A ship I have with said character: Albert/Arthur obvs! precious babies

A BROTP I have with said character: lol i dont imagine albert gets along with people very often but i can see him hanging out with other not intimidating gang members or maybe charles chateney (sp?)

A NOTP I have with said character: im not a boy who has a lot of NOTPS let me live lol

A random headcanon: there’s a future somewhere for arthur and albert where they have a gallery of arthur’s sketches and albert’s photos and they live far away from civilization and theyre both shy and silly but somehow they make it work and albert is scared of the man he knows arthur can be, but so is arthur, and they do all they can to put the past behind them

General Opinion over said character: sweetheart, absolute darling, albert please come back you dont know what you mean to me i’m worried for your safety and arthur needs you. rdr2 is a fantastic game i just wish it wasn’t a tragedy

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dreamy-stars · 4 years

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7/30/20

i’ve never felt this low in a long time, not even in sophomore year of college?? it’s like rly concentrated sadness and rly hit hard within the last month?

- i went through my first breakup, which affected me a lot more than i thought it would. it was so short lived i don’t even want to call it a relationship. i hate to admit it but it hurt so much bc it seemed like he wanted to be with me for a while. he has his reasons and he should take care of himself but i can’t help but feel thrown away without care? i wanted closure and he couldn’t even give me that. my self confidence went down the drain, and i kept questioning if there was something i could have done differently. i even contemplated if i was pretty enough XD can you believe i let a 5’6 man make me feel like this...pathetic...but yeah he rly has no emotional intelligence or something man cmon i wanna talk it out.. - it took me a while to get over him and now i dont miss him specifically, i just miss being wanted and having that connection? anyway my confidence was bad at this point and was feeling insecure in so many ways. maybe 3-4 weeks ago i started going down this dark hole, just questioning my purpose here. i’m not smart, pretty, or talented in any field. i felt kind of useless? just there... (even typing this im like tearing up hehe) comparing myself to ppl again..how i’m not good enough (in eng) just kinda wasting my parents money? and i think about if i were prettier i’d prob be treated better and those around me would pay nore attention to me? brings me to my next point :p - i feel SO lonely. it doesnt help that i went through a break up and the person i was talking to all day every day is suddenly cut from my life. my friends can contact me and stuff but i feel so left out sometimes. it’s not their fault, it’s just how my brain is ig lol. it felt like i was back in high school. i had acquaintances and was surrounded by friends but couldnt rly connect and be close to ppl. what i remeber most was being at the booth and being surrounded by girl friends and not adding to the convo at all. i felt so lonely and insecure i never want to feel that again. recently i felt it with my cousins who i have always felt close to. can u believe? i can’t rly explain it. but when sp brought her friends to the lake i felt ostracized. its so stupid for ne to feel that way, they’re literally strangers and i wish we could be like white folks that introduce each other right at the start of meeting new ppl U KNOW?? idk i’m so fucking sensitive LOL. like at least mai did it with her bf. I Am Nothing. like sp didnt introduce tp so why am i feeling like this. i guess its just me and my deep rooted trauma of being overlooked and forgotten! even when we went to the lake with just our cousins i felt SOOO SOOOOOOOO down and lonely, even more than before. i was sticking near ap bc it was kinda awkward still and i didnt want her to be lonely. i was just floating around and they played games and talked together and stuff and i felt invisible i felt so lonely even with so many ppl i love there. it didn’t help that they had sleepovers and hung out together so ich and never asked me. they even planned to sleepover later that night and didnt ask me. i wonder if it was bc i was neutral and stuck with ap? oh yeah i forgot that i couldnt go eat with them bc there was no room for me which is understandable but i still felt shitty and i think i cried that night :p it’s small insignificant things that build up for me and make me feel like an afterthought. it rly fueled my self confidence issue. AGAIN no one did anything wrong i’ve just been very sensitive and analytical of everything lately. it’s kind of led me to being distant with sp kinda like im testing her and seeing if she would reach out to me at all? its petty but i feel like she hates me fr 😂 might just be me. I Am Nothing...

ANYWAY ive been crying like pretty often just having these thoughts eat me up. it’s better now i think? it’s scary to admit but i’ve thought about dying so many times recently and i hate it. almost like it’s normalized to me now. it’s not that i would ever attempt but i understand what ppl mean when they want to disappear? i’m very blessed with loving parents and a healthy able body and a good living situation. i never want to put my parents and family through something that traumatizing. i haven’t properly expressed these feelings to anyone besides one watered down text to darwin. it was hard to even type the text, i ended up crying in the bathroom. i’ll have bad days and the thoughts creep up on me and i try to distract myself by watching stuff and it helps. i’ve been working out and dieting and i feel a lot better about myself and more positive. i’ve thought about therapy seriously but im hesitant still. if i still have issues i will, but talking through a screen and the risk of others hearing kinda turns me off. just processing my feelings and thinking about them extensively has helped me a bit but i think having a professional tell me about my feelings will make me feel better. idk how to bring it up at all, and i feel like my issues arent serious enough? but my brain been going cwazy :3

i’ve been having a rough time at home just doing a lot of nothing but being sad and working out.. i hope with school starting soon i can get out the house and be productive again! recently ive been dealing with the problem of “living for others” i notice that i care about the comfort of others and how i can satisfy them and appeal to others at my expense.. i’ve been thinking about how im not good enough for this type of guy to like me LIKE WHO AMMM IIII WHY DO I CARE...WEIRDO..... maybe im dragging myself too hard i dont think i do this much but i do be a nice comfy doormat for others :)

but overall i feel better than a few weeks ago i think! idk what that was about why is my brain like this....making irrational thoughts and hurting my own feelings...idk but it will be okay :)

#diary

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Riverdale 3.09 Thoughts *Spoilers*

- Choni ❤️❤️❤️ But “stealing from.the rich to give to, well, us” what? Cheryl… YOU’RE RICH. Give some of the money to the Serpents They need it a bit more than you do baby. BUT BITCH THEIR FIRST I LOVE YOU I’M—

- Five weeks of the quarantine… that would have made an INCREDIBLE story line? Seriously? It would have been amazing to see Sweet Pea being temporary king while Jarghead and FP were gone. But no… let’s just skip the good part? What the fuck kinda writing skips.a great plot?

- “All physical contact must be kept to a minimum?” um… literally WHY? There’s literally NO reason for that to be a rule? Also fuck off Moose no ones likes a tattle tale and we all know that you’re slumming it up with Kevin after school so leave my babies alone. Oh. it’s for the seizures? Really? Dude SEIZURES ARE NOT FUCKING CONTAGIOUS YOU STUPID FUCKERS OH MY GOD. Stop trying to keep then gays from being cute!!!!!!!

- The RROTC made the rules? Dude they don’t run the school lmao that’s NOT HOW THINGS WORK

- JOSIE SINGING!!! MY BABY VERONICA!!! UGH FUCK ME UPPPP

- VEGGIE. VERONICA IS LOOKING AT JOSIE’S INCREDIBLE SINGING WHILE REGGIE IS AWING AT VERONICA I’M—

- Ew and then my mood is ruined by bughead waking up 😷😷😷

- Betty put all of those girl’s… in HER house? THE COOPERS CAN BARELY TAKE CARE OF THEMSELVES LET ALONE THOSE GIRLS. Also don’t they fucking have families? And yes, Betty, that scream definitely would wake up your mom because they have those motherly instincts and they’d think their child was hurt, so ofc she’s going to wake up.

- They want to play… G&G… are you kidding me? I kinda get that it makes them feel better because that’s how they had it in SOQM but still WHY? JUST PLAY CLASSICAL MUSIC OR SOMETHING AND TAKE A BATH.

- Of course Jughead goes from his horrible leadership to “I left you too long” stfu right now your priority is the Serpents and who’s dealing the drugs (although I know who and uhhhh leave them alone he has to stay alive somehow)

- They don’t even have an elected Sheriff yet? WHY? SHERIFF KELLER DIDN’T DIE DID HE? THEN FUCKING REINSTATE HIM??? IT’S NOT THAT FUCKING HARD YOU STUPID FUCKS

- “Maybe that means that Archie could come back home” wE KNOW YOU’RE IN LOVE WITH HIM BETTY. Barchie!!!! ❤️❤️❤️

- Reggie ❤️❤️❤️ WOAH WHAT NO LEAVE HIM ALONE? HE ALREADY GETS ABUSED BY HIS FATHER! But aw Ronnie gets to take care of him I’m—

- Hiram really is trying to hustle his daughter wow so uhhh he does know that his daughter is the incredible Veronica Lodge, right? She’ll find a way lol we all know the queen can do everything

- “Has anyone ever told you you’re a badass?” Wow Reggie is so fucking into her I’m just 😭😭

- If Vegas gets hurt RAS will LITERALLY DIE. I KNOW WHAT HAPPENS AND I’M NOT READY FOR THIS. Also there’s no way Vegas wouldn’t have seen or heard the bear behind him but sure whatever. ARCHIE JUST BC SHE’S ZONING OUT DOESN’T MEAN YOU CAN’T HEAR HER. JUST DO WHAT SHE SAYS JESUS. Also how convenient that it suddenly doesn’t work.

- “They imprinted on me” Betty NEVER say that again that was gross as fuck. “But as their queen, they are your responsibility, not mine” bitch Betty can’t be a queen no matter how hard she tries, and she (nor Jughead) know how to take care of anyone but themselves so… Alice unless you want Betty to end up killing them, this is where you, as the mom, undermine her and take them to the farm. Of course I don’t trust the farm but it’s much safer than the Cooper house hold because they have the resources to spare, the Cooper’s don’t.

- Hey here’s an idea… since you can’t get to Hiram using the nuns because they took a vow of silence (cowards) then maybe… just maybe… OUT IT AS A CONVERSION THERAPY HELL SITE AND USE THAT INSTEAD? But we know Betty doesn’t want to save the gays so 😷😷

- I love Josie’s singing but why is she singing in an empty lounge? REST HER VOCALS.

- I used to love Hiram’s evil-ness but now he just shows up all the time and it’s getting annoying. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD END THIS FUCKING PLOT SO VERONICA CAN FOR ONCE GET HER OWN STORY THAT BETTY DOESN’T TAKE, THAT DOESN’T REVOLVE AROUND HER FATHER OR A GUY. SERIOUSLY. They have so much potential with literally any other character but still decide to force Bughead and their separate characters down our throats. Like at this point honestly just kill them both off Jesus Christ

- Jughead… this is a gang… they’ve always sold drugs? At least, weed, but still? You have to take into consideration that you were gone, and they were placed under quarantine, and they needed money. You can’t blame any of them for dealing with Hiram you whiny piss baby. Desperate times call for desperate measures.

- God it bothers me that Jarghead is such a lowsy king. When do we get Sweet Pea overthrowing him? pLEASE WE NEED IT SO TONI CAN LEAD BESIDE HIM. Maybe Swangs (even though I know what happens) and Choni can co-lead the Serpents

- Cheryl speaking facts! AND MY BOY FANGS. Jughead had NOTHING to say to Fangs and FP had to step up and cover for Jughead, because he was right. What else are they supposed to do? Gangs are supposed to do bad shit? Jughead has done ultimate horrible shit and suddenly he’s going to act like a gang is supposed to be clean? Jughead do your research that is not what gangs do. Also, if FP is going to be at every fucking Serpent meeting maybe he should, you know, take his spot back. He’s a MUCH better leader than Jughead, even though I’d prefer it be one of the founding members like TONI FUCKING TOPAZ or something.

- I love how no one really does the “in unity there is strength” thing. Like, they know they’re being lead to slaughter basically and FP is just letting it happen. Also, they’re running the gang into the ground. There is no more unity because JUGHEAD’S STUPID POWER-HUNGRY ASS ISN’T DOING SHIT TO HELP THE GANG. Also also Betty looks so out of place and awkward there. Can’t wait for Archie to come back and for her to realize that he almost died and then realize she can’t live without him and that she loves him and finally bughead can split for good and barchie can rise

- If Veronica paid why the FLYING FUCK did they go after Josie? FucK OFF HIRAM

- Polly you had to say his name. LEAVE MY BOY ALONE.

- FANGS CRYING STOP STOP STOP MY BABY BOY NO NO NO

- “We could’ve helped you” JUGHEAD YOU LITERALLY JUST BANNED CRIME. THE SERPENTS HAVE NO MONEY WHAT ELSE WHAT HE WAS SUPPOSED TO DO? Also they can’t get mad at him bc this was before Jughead got back and did the stupid crime law like a hypocrite

- DUDE FANGS DID THIS BEFORE THE FUCKING RULE YOU STUPID FUCKERS? LIKE??? DO YOU HAVE NO BRAIN CELLS?

- Oh Jughead has one brain cell left? I know he ends up being cancelled but he’s not… yet.

- CHONI BREAKING IN AND STEALING SHIT YES BITCH

- Why is Archie hallucinating playing G&G? Like doesn’t this mean he’s playing by himself? The fuck?

- Dead ass Cassidy telling Archie it sounds like his fault that all that happened, you can tell that this is Archie’s mind because he always blames himself for things that have nothing to do with him. Because we know that it’s definitely NOT his fault. None of it is.

- Cheryl just HAD to kiss the picture

- JERONICA. JERONICA. JERONICA. JERONICA. JERONICA. JERONICA. JERONICA. MY FANFIC IS COMING TO LIFE. JUGHEAD AND THE SERPENTS PROTECTING VERONICA YASSSSSSSSS

- I’m mad that they didn’t have Joaquin not actually die. Like, Sweet Pea and Fangs were close to him? They could have faked his death like what the fuck

- YES WE LOVE AND STAN LAWYER MCCOY

- How did Jughead know that Toni was involved? Cheryl was the only one who left a stupid calling card.

- THE TEARS WELLING IN TONI’S EYES STOP STOP STOP

- But he can’t fucking kick her out she’s literally a legacy. This crusty white boy needs to sit the fuck down

- Okay one, Cheryl why would you bring Fangs back into it? THE FUCK. Also, Jughead you can’t be disappointed in Fangs for telling SP even though you said not to tell anyone—best friend’s never count.

- SWEET PEA STANDING UP. FANGS CRYING. “Some leader you are” YES FANGS WHAT A KING. SWEET PEA BBY OH MY GOD

- “And the rest of us don’t get to go back to Thistlehouse” says the disgusting whiny piss baby who gets to sleep in his girlfriend’s house, in her comfortable bed while his gang lays in cots or some shit in tents. Get off your mighty high horse, Jughead. God, now they’re switching roles… Betty is kinda becoming SLIGHTLY tolerable and now Jughead is being so fucking annoying. Go back to how it was please.

- JERONICA. AND VEGGIE. EXCELLENCE.

- So Archie standing over Hiram and shit was all a fucking dream? Really? COME ON. Lol Hiram has a point though because everyone goes in and tells him their fucking plans. OMG THE CALLBACK TO THE FIRST EPISODE WAS GREAT. CALL BACK TO BARCHIE BEING ENDGAME YESSSS.

- So if Veronica ended up smashing the egg… then fucking give Fangs, Toni, and Cheryl their spots in the Serpents back since it was all for nothing anyways.

- I’m glad Cheryl and Nana Rose are housing some fo the girls but WHAT ABOUT THE SERPENTS YOU GUYS HAVE A BIG FUCKING HOUSE. Why didn’t she house some of them there? I mean it’s ooc for Toni not to be thinking of her fellow Serpents why wouldn’t she be like “hey babe you have a lot of room here what if we help house some of the Serpents” but uhhh apparently not.

- Hey FP shut the fuck up with this “she’s still a Lodge” shit because you all know she doesn’t associate herself with her parents anymore. Remember “you don’t have a daughter” or…?

- Jughead brought up when FP worked for Hiram. Hell yeah! But him saying he wants Jughead to be a better king than him? BITCH YOUR SON DOESN’T KNOW HOW TO RUN A GANG. HE SUCKS. HE’S STUPID AND RUINING THE GANG HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT? God never give your throne to blood family.

- Yeah, FP, you’re not made for the sidelines you’re made to RULE you stupid fuck. Maybe you should get back with Alice she makes you more stable and less stupid

- REGGIE’S LIKE “NOT THIS TIME BITCH”

- SWEET PEA WITH A BAT FUCK YEAH

- So… you threaten the gargoyle bitch but you don’t unmask him to see who he is? Are you fucking stupid?

- Wtf… he has to beat himself with a bat on his own bed? I am confusion… WHAT THE FLYING FUCK? THE BLACK HOOD AND HIRAM AND THE GARGOYLE KING HAVE DONE SHIT NOT YOU YOU BIG BAFOON. NO DON’T DESTROY YOU’RE GOOD HEARTED INNOCENCE. YOU’RE THE ONLY BRAVE ONE OF THE CORE FOUR. ARCHIE NO.

- If they make Archie unlikable the only good core four person will be Veronica.

- VERONICA SINGING ❤️❤️❤️ Oh fuck I know this song but I can’t remember where I’ve heard it!!!

- VEGGIE. SHE’S SO FUCKING HAPPY TO SEE HIM I’M— HE’S SO ENAMORED WITH HER. VEGGIE KISS. Why can they make their chemistry shown on screen but Bughead can’t? Like both couples are even dating irl, too…

- JUGHEAD YOU PIECE OF SHIT. He only uses Sweet Pea or Fangs when he has something he doesn’t want to do usually because it’s too dangerous for him (whiny piss baby). DON’T MAKE MY BABY BOY GO UNDERCOVER HE’LL FUCKING GET HURT.

- I’ve literally never hated Jughead more nothing he can do can make up for what he’s done in this episode bye

- What the actual fuck. This is so fucking stupid.

- Archie isn’t dead. If Archie dies before bitch ass Betty or Jiggaloo Jones I will literally come after RAS.

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