#okay time to sleep again

[cowbutchbait]

to do list:

coffee

get pinned down to the bed by a butch eagerly grinding her crotch into my wet cunt

buy more pens

#goodmorning #okay time to sleep again #butch bait #lesbian #lesbian nsft #sapphic nsft #lesbian smut #femme4butch #femme lesbian #butch appreciation #bunny’s thoughts 𐚁⊹₊ ⋆ #butch lesbian #wlw yearning #wlw nsft

[napping-sapphic]

I just want to fall in love with someone who makes me feel safe like even when we’re angry or sad or upset i just want to know that both of us are still going to be okay

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #today was….not good #and at one point i had a moment #where i was just unbearably SAD and LONELY because i didn’t have anyone to call or talk to about it #but im still really hopeful it will happen some day #because all i want in this world is to feel secure #and for others to feel secure around me #and for everyone to feel secure around people they love #because it’s so painful and scary when you don’t #but one day im going to be warm and happy in someone’s arms and will barely remember this at all #im manifesting it #im completely okay btw things just got a little rough #and in the incredibly stressful and dramatic times i was experiencing my brain STILL had to be gay #im gay and i like sleeping #also yeah i said i wouldnt post after midnight again like two days ago but whatever #im sad and want to yearn on the internet we can make an exception tonight

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

+3 friendship with Jin Ling: He actively tries to dissuade you from further embroiling yourself in the homosexual allegations.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #jin ling #jiang cheng #nie huaisang #For real though it's so sweet how desperate he sounds when trying to save mxy's face. #Jin Ling genuinely likes this uncle! He's let him into his heart! #Why his uncle is so desperate to make his reputation worse is beyond him!!! #The same uncle who has time and time again proven to be genuine in his intentions and has been there for JL in so many ways! #JL wants to return the favour! Alas it is like holding a dog back from eating the onion chips on the ground. #I sure hope nothing betrays jin ling's trust in this new bond! #(and yes I am keeping NHS and JC's sleep wear in the next scenes. For the whimsy) #In other news - LWJ finally gets a little hand hold. Most likely it was a highfive that lasted a little too long. #But it counts okay? To him it counts. #Speaking of: I went sooooo long in life not realizing the 'hee hee let's compare hand sizes' was a flirt move. #I thought people were just genuinely curious about fingers and hands. But no. It's not that. It's a hand hold move. #I'm here for the science and research. You are here to flirt. We are not the same.

[courviknight]

happy holidays and a happy new year, @ko-rka!! i am your secret santa for @fmasecretsanta ^^

i drew for you emo punk ed fashion, cats, and stars... and let me tell you, it's been SUCH a pleasure drawing as i've listened to your mcr playlist!! i ended up liking a lot of songs on spotify back-to-back, but some of my favorites were "to the end" and "sleep"

i hope you like it, and i'm wishing you the best for the new year! :]

#fma #fullmetal alchemist #edward elric #i do apologize for making you wait for so long!! #and thank you again for the playlist!! i literally listened to it going like... why did i put off listening to mcr again this is literally #the type of music i've been looking for YEARS... the rock instrumentation and the raw vocals?? i have been missing out!! #its definitely going to occupy some brain groove for the foreseeable future... im looking forward to it >:] #i also hope ed's fashion is okay!! i think ed would have pins enforced w bottle caps to make em last! #i also imagine him to be the kind of person to embroider designs he thinks will look cool & also to repair his coat which #i imagine he loved ragged but refuses to replace; the top right img is based off of a time i left my coat out and a cat was sleeping in it #when i came back... joy be upon ye cats

[crybaby-bkg]

cw: Bakugou dies but comes back to life, “comes back wrong” trope, implied fighting, angst

When Bakugou died, you’re not sure how you went on living. Grief had taken over your life, sat you in the passenger side while it cruised off the highway into icy waters. And even then, you couldn’t find the energy to drown.

It’s why there’s a sudden uptick of energy when you’re promised to have him back. Some top scientists contact you months after his death, tell you to hurry down to the headquarters labs, come and rejoice for what you’re about to witness. And you’re horrified, to say the least.

“This isn’t my husband.” Are your first words when you walk in, watch the figure on the other side of the glass examine its own hands. It looks like your husband but—but his hair isn’t the right shade of blond all over. His nose bridge had a slight bump after a scuffle with a villain. He had a scar on his hand but—but it never looked like it was to sew a pinky beside the other fingers.

“Is that really my husband?” You ask next in disbelief, slowly entering the room. Bakugou’s head snaps up, his eyes a little brighter than you remember but—they hold so much emotion. So much memory, so much panic, so much guilt.

“I left you.” He mutters, his voice raspy and ragged, and you wonder if it’ll always be like this now. It makes you cry a little harder than it should, but you only embrace each other. He’s cold and his shoulders don’t hold the same mass and his back doesn’t carry the same scars. There’s one, jagged and rough, running down his back, and you think, you think that’s where they slipped a new spine in.

“Welcome back home.” You tell him, weeks after meeting him again, new and not totally—Katsuki. He’s stiff and he doesn’t immediately take off his boots when he enters, and it worries you. Makes you think if you’ve just let a stranger into your home, one that has stolen your dead husbands face. Makes you wonder if he’ll be as loving as Katsuki once was, or if he’ll become your monster looming over you with the guilt of not being able to rest anymore.

“I’ve missed you so much.” You whisper against his mouth one night, a little while after he’s moved back. You don’t know why you lay under him, why you let him nestle himself inside of you, why you let him hold you against his chest. Katsuki always ran his hands over your cheeks and neck whenever he held you like this, but this…man, only holds himself up with his hands resting beside your head. It’s alien, how he looks at you, how his hips are methodically measured with every thrust, how he kisses you every 8 seconds. You wonder if he’s more robot than Frankenstein monster.

“Why did you come back to me like this?” You ask him one night, barricaded in the bathroom away from him. You can hear his sobs on the other side, his pleading to be let in. He tells you he never wanted to come back if he had to be like this, that he’s sorry, please let him in, he misses the warmth of your skin, he’s never been so cold before, he’s never liked the cold.

“Is this considered cheating?” You ask yourself aloud one night, when Bakugou is forced back to the lab when he becomes too…un-Bakugou. To sleep with a man that is your husband in every way but? Your husband has been dead for a year now, and yet you stroke the chin of the man that tries so hard to be him everyday, but fails so miserably at it every time.

“I’ll come back to you right this time.” Bakugou promises to you when he’s strapped down to leave for the lab and before he’s sedated. But you don’t believe him—you never did. Your husband is dead, and this animated corpse has been nothing but a cheap mockery of everything you’ve lost and something you will never truly get back.

#I was writing this and then checked my dash and saw another post about this #and felt so guilty and almost didn’t post it aidjdkfj #but I love this trope too much to delete it!!!!! #I’ve written about this in my published book before and it’s one of my favorite things I’ve ever written #there’s just such a deep heartache about having to grieve someone #and then the grieving process being interrupted by the one you lost #and battling with their death even though you still look at them everyday again #but it’s just not right?? it’s not the same?? #they have the same face (kinda) but it’s truly not hem #not them* heck #it reminds me of a convo I had in a psych class about making a new cloned version of yourself #where the question was ‘is the clone/new version still you? or are they an entirely new person now?’ #and at first I said they’re still me you know? they have my face n body n memories #but my prof told me no!! after they have been cloned they are sentient and are now their own person making new memories apart from you #and I thought that was soooo interesting and it makes me fall in love w this trope every time #you’re my person but only a version. you’re who I love but a newer person. you’re not them. you’re everything I’ve missed about them #so heartbreaking I LOVE ITTTT #sorry I’m rapping it’s the sleep meds kicking in #okay bai #bakugou treats! 🍬 #—new treat in the streets! 🍫

[starry-bi-sky]

realizing i have. a lot of untapped trauma potential for clone^2 danny because i just Fully Processed Four Months Late the fact that his parents were capturing and torturing ghosts in the basement before he became Phantom. and the fact that he was on house rest for 2 weeks. during that time period. and he wasn't really leaving the house. he could hear their screaming through the floorboards

*points at clone danny* i can give you suuuuuuch a bad time babe ahaha. i've got two untouched years before you meet damian what fucks you up before then

#dpxdc #dp x dc #danny fenton is not the ghost king #dp x dc crossover #dpxdc crossover #dpdc #clone^2 #danny fenton is a clone #like i dont even need to traumatize you worse the pure explorative options from this aLONE is enough to feed me for a week. #like. tucks hair behind ear let me shatter you into glass pieces then glue you back together babe. i can put you back together so good. #i'm missing a few shards because some parts of you broke into such small pieces i couldn't pick them back up again so you'll be missing a #few chunks of yourself that you'll never get back but that's okay. you'll still be a resemblance of your old self :] #don't let anakin (me) listen to late night sad songs he makes angst. #hhh imagine being stuck in a house for two weeks where you can hear your parents torturing ghosts in the basement and not only that but #you're the only person who can undERSTAND the ghosts. how many times did he see his parents drag in a ghost with whatever capturing device #they made recently? iirc the thermos was like. brand new in episode one right? but gOD the trauma this alone would cause #nobody touch me im cooking rn i need to think about how this would impact danny. like obvs it would fuel into a developing obsession to #keep his parents away from ghosts and to help the dead but what *else.* i need to refine my becoming phantom ficlet i wrote back in winter #raaa #and like even after two weeks they were *still capturing ghosts* danny just wasn't in the house 24/7 at the time. #*but those two fucking weeks man* #i need to sleep on this first before i make any major moves bc i know im tired but i am having thOUGHTs

[papertowness]

admittedly one of my favorite things about house ( that also drives me up a wall ) is that something Really Big happens and then the next episode they like loosely mention it like wow wasn’t it crazy that that happened . anyway haha

#once again i’ve just finished s2 so don’t tell me about any plotlines i do not know ab ‼️‼️ #like okay i UNDERSTAND that so many things happen in episodes to keep you engaged but like #i want it to linger . #i want sore relationships that don’t fit i want i love you but i’ve looked into your eyes as you crumbled so i keep you at arms length #because i don’t know if i can be there to hold your hand the next time i don’t know if i can do that again #i want i love you but i can’t live without this piece of my heart anymore and you proved it #i want characters to look at each other both thinking of The Thing They Can’t Say #because of the thing that happened . #anyways this is about foreman almost dying this is about house getting shot this is about wilson sleeping with his patient #this is about chase’s dad dying this is about chase letting his patient die this is about cameron’s husband #this is about house’s parents this is about wilson giving up his job to defend house this is about stacy this is about #they have so much good ANGST that has the potential to make their relationships unhealthily dependent #and i . #i need to eat it up #house #house md #gregory house #greg house #hilson #houseposting #lgbtq #lgbt

[cynomain69]

✨Can I Offer You An Akademiya Romance In These Trying Times✨

#haino #cytham #me clawing at the doors to hyv hc once again: release the temple of silence lore from the vault #spantamad lisa and her scary junior cyno canon #let me let u guys in on my favorite hc #the temple of silence only exists in dreams #cyno has academic dispensation from the akademiya not to wear an akasha terminal while hes sleeping #religious exemption to dress in hermanubis priestly garb and conduct unnamed acts of worship to king deshret #hes descended from the priest kasala but the headpiece is custom commissioned because the specs came to him in a dream #made a deal with the akademiya to cooperate with the historians so that the ancients rituals from that time could be studied and preserved #okay delulu hours over #hyv i will do i want until you feed us the real lore!!

[quins-makeshift-menagerie]

Gentle reminder that my kofi link is in my pinned post. While The Other Q’s ER trip won’t financially destroy us it’s still going to be a big hit on top of having to get some major repairs done on the car before winter hits

#I #genuinely hate doing this #I wanted to open commissions instead #so people would at least get something in return that feels worth it #but i haven’t been mentally in the right spot to take those for months and this isn’t helping #at this point doing anything more than silly doodles to try and keep my spirits up feels exhausting #just gotta #hope things will be okay with Q and the car and everything else #sorry I’m just not doing so hot either #I’m still dealing with withdrawals from stopping my medication and now I’m getting a cold from sleep deprivation again #fun times #I’m so tired

[soullistrations]

The beginning of 17776 really is so interesting in the way that it sets up the rest of the story. The calendar backdrop was such a stroke of genius, because it forces the reader to focus on nothing but the passage of time and nine's increasing desperation and loneliness. and then when ten responds with 'i love you so much'--well, i still had no idea who these characters were, but i was already invested enough in them to feel anxious scrolling through the days where they weren't able to make contact with each other. and then, when ten tells nine not to contact them for 27 years, my first thought was, 'but that's a life! that's a life apart for two people who clearly care about each other'

and then the scroll through the days, once again forced to focus on nothing but the passage of time, leading straight into the reveal that these people aren't actual people with a lifespan of a century or less, and THEN the reveal that even humans aren't people with a lifespan of a century or less anymore, and the way that the reader has been interacting with the passage of time is so FUNDAMENTALLY different to how it works for the current denizens of the earth

just, what a great way to really bring out the focus of the story right from the beginning: how would we change, if the constraints and anxieties of finite time were lifted from us as a species?

#17776 #saw my post from my first read again in my notes and just got me thinking about this story again #it really was so good #rebamble #also the way that nine changes over the course of the story too! their desperation to be heard at the beginning #contrasted with their acceptance at the end that they can go to sleep and it will be okay because those they love will still be there #when they get back #so interesting #this story was such a good exploration of the concept of time!

[orykorioart]

TAZ Sapphic Week Day 5: Haunted

Couldn’t finish what I originally scheduled for day 5 (so itll have to be pushed back), but I still wanted to have something. So let’s have a quick experimental Lureen (if that is the ship name?) angst! Because that little scene in the GN really got me 😔✌️.

#i suppose this could also be interpreted as Lupcretia #Bc the ghostly figure is intentionally vague and distorted. So it’s up to your interpretation! #This... feels too angsty for Sapphic week. I’m sorry yall. Next days will be very cute dont worry #but then again the bingo does include Betrayal and Haunted. which are ripe for angst #taz sapphic week #taz #the adventure zone #tazb #taz balance #lucretia #maureen miller #anw. I had fun doing this. now back into my internship report woo (crying) #hopefully i will have time before i go to sleep to finish more for day 6 & 7 #also I hope the ID is okay - I’m not sure how I would best describe whatever this is #is Impressionistic even the right Art Movement. Its been three years since I touched that stuff.

[kaddyssammlung]

Someone zoomed in on him spitting on stage and went feral over it.

I do read all of your reposts...so that you know. I had to make a gif out it. It's arlready in here somewhere but not as gif

#sleep token #sleep token live #sleep token gif #don't make me feel weird okay...I do this all the time when I'm running and no one cares about me doing this #that and..why am I a lesbian again?! sry Vessel I see nothing s*xual with this

[b4kuch1n]

wizard of the sky

#pokemon #swsh #champion leon #ft. charizard #another wizard leon. hi its been so long #Im sketching! the next piece for work! and this is yet another break #I also did like two government gigs back to back this week lol. yall will never see any of that but #thats whats been attacking and biting me #but well! thats done with and this is too and I'm okay to do my work again lol #this is! literally the most basic design lol I just wanted to color something #and I love this blue-pink-orange range so. easy decision there #okay. its time for my cake break. and then sleep #have a good night lads! take a look at the sky sometimes

[crybaby-bkg]

Bakugou gets a boner whenever he fixes you food because you always seem to close your eyes, hum under your breath, and do a little dance in your seat whenever you bite into it. he fixes you a four course meal but now he’s rushing you to eat it in .8 seconds bc he keeps watching you and now his chub won’t go away :/

#my eyes burn I’m so sleeby #okay but I love him #and pictured him making me an everything heart shaped breakfast for Valentine’s Day #and me being half sleep but still devouring the food #rocking from side to side the whole time w my eyes closed bc that shut is bussin #and he immediately is bricked up #annoying caveman that I adore #okay gn I think I’m coming down with something #AGAIN #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #bakugou treats! 🍬

[ancientbygone]

and everything that's here is rising in tone and saturation it's an aching, it's a violence, it's a longing to erase the separation

a companion piece to Cicadas, of sorts. closeups under the cut:

#sleep token #sleep token art #sleep token fanart #sleep token vessel #sleep token him #bygone art #bygone beloved #eyestrain #eyestrain tw #ask to tag #this one took more time than i'd like to admit. i'm usually pretty quick with my art because i tend to get consumed by the process #but this time i was consumed by other things as well. i suppose it's good that i decided to take it slow #crywolf's new song (tenebrescence) inspired me to finish this. lyrics from it are also in the caption #also to stress it further this piece is connected to Cicadas in a way #same colors (in places) & composition inspired by page 1 & the theme is similar #Cicadas is about how every vessel is expendable and how there's always someone before and after and there always will be #this is about the change of a specific one. he was someone before and he will be someone after #and he'll be himself again. a different himself than he started as but himself nonetheless #it will be okay but it will be different but it will be okay #the intense feelings (good and bad) coming from your being someone else will go away but you will be okay and you will be you #ah fuck my eyes hurt

[findafight]

Au idea I'll probably never write:

Steve as seven au, BUT he escapes at the same time as El in season 1. They get separated after Benny's, when seven tells eleven to run and definitely kills a couple government agents to give her more time.

So the a plot of will being missing and Mike finding El? Standard canon except El is ALSO looking for her brother and is worried about him. She sees that he's mostly safe and tries to help find will but also insists she go to her brother soon.

B plot of barb and Nancy...idk I haven't really thought about how that'd work without Steve's kickback. Maybe they go to a party (like actual party not the five person hangout) together and get separated and no one notices barb disappear from the edge of the lawn. Idk

The C plot is seven, kinda bloody and definitely cold, wandering out into the middle of the street, and one Robin Buckley almost running him over with her bike. She immediately clocks "guy who seems pretty fucked up" about him, and offers him a ride to her house. But Robin has never been the most coordinated of people and biking with a(admittedly probably too skinny) teenage boy sitting in her package rack is hard, and combine that with a guy driving like the devil's after him, they end up swerving of the road.

Eddie steps out, apologizes profusely, and offers them a ride. seven is sceptical, especially when both of them pause when he tells them his name, but does end up in the van. He finally gets a chance to breathe once they get to the Buckleys', and Robin gets him some leftovers.

He sits in front of the tv set to a blank station, tucks his head into his shirt instead of blindfolds, and tries to see El.

He sees her older, with flowers braided through long hair, laughing. Too far. He sees her with short curls, a patterned button down, eating something in a cone beside a mustachioed man. Too far again. He sees her tiny, scared, holding his own small hand. Not far enough.

Finally, finally, he sees her as she knows her now, mostly, standing beside a group of children and in front of a monster in a large room.

Eddie and Robin have no idea why their new friend? Has turned the tv on to static and is hiding in his shirt, but figure he's had a rough day. He pops his head back out, blood dripping from his nose, and grins, telling them he knows where his sister will be.

Anyways blah blah blah El sees where people ARE Steve sees where people have been/will be (based on where/who they are right now. Futura is constantly in motion etc).

Idk season 2 would happen very similar as canon minus stancy break up (they never date and are just friends) (also Steve tells Robin and Eddie he and El are safe and they pass it on to the kids) El finds Kali, Steve fights demodogs, etc etc.

But I want a (pre?) season 3 scene where Robin and Steve are hanging out as soulmates do, door closed because they are discussing Sensitive Subjects (gay shit) and giggling like schoolgirls. Hopper, in all his disappointed dad glory, opens the door and starts in on a rant about keeping the door open three inches.

Steve, bitch that he is, just tilts his head to the side and says "but that is for when we are with people we date. I am not dating Robin."

Hopper, not yet picking up what's happening, sighs. "Kid. It's about propriety. You can't be alone with Robin, because what if you do start dating. Then it's. You have to set an example for El!"(it would be a nice move bringing up Older Brother Responsibility, except...well.)

"but we aren't. I am dating someone else?"

"still need the door open three inches, pal. When El is home, at least"(El is almost always home)

"we do! And you complain about the loud music!"

"wait. Who are you dating? I thought Nancy was dating Jonathan still. She barely comes over." Hopper please pick up what Steve is putting down oh my god.

(hop has forgotten Robin is there and she is trying very hard not to make noise but Steve keeps meeting her eye sometimes because dear god. truly an iconic moment in friendship history.)

"yeah obviously. Eddie comes over all the time, though."

"what does Ed- oooh. Ah. I see. That's why you keep the door open even though he complains."

Steve nods like Hopper is the dumbest man on the planet. He might just be. "Yes. Because you said El had to and she asked why I didn't have to so then I started to leave it open when Eddie was over. At least Eddie doesn't laugh at you to your face"

"Eddie laughs behind my back?"

"he said you didn't know we were dating but I told him of course you knew, the door is open three inches."

Hopper clasps Steve's shoulders and looks him in the eye. "Steve, I need you to keep telling him that. And not mention this very awkward conversation we had."

"because he was right."

"he doesn't need to know that."

That's all I got lmao (also check the tag ramble I added lol)

#steve Harrington #robin buckley #eddie munson #el hopper #platonic stobin #steddie #steve and el #steve and hopper #steve is seven #finda writes stuff #hopper versus his childrens' boyfriends and his ongoing mission to have SOME authority over them #but anyway i love steve is seven aus but only really see ones where he escapes before el so thought this would be nest #*neat. also i love hopper adopting steve fics hehe #hop goes to joyce after this and is like. okay so he didnt tell me but thats because he thought i knew am i a bad dad #'hop. what are you talking about' 'steve and eddie are dating' 'yeah. what about it' 'i didnt know' #'theyre all over each other' 'so are him and robin! i thought they were just affectionate!' 'oh my god' 'no one else can ever know joyce' #'eddie sleeps over all the time' 'robin does too' 'the nicknames' 'robin calls steve babe' 'the whispering?' #'once AGAIN he and robin ALSO do that. how was i supposed to know he was dating eddie when he and his best friend also do that stuff?!' #'okay. thats fair jim. but what about the kissing' 'joyce.look into my eyes. he also. kisses. robin.' 'are all three of them dating?' 'no' #'huh. on the lips?' 'sometimes. its a playful smack.' 'and eddie?' 'okay admittedly. now that i think about it. very different than Robin