#okay look. LOOK. i have it all figured out (no i dont)

[emo-trash88]

Hello! Its me again, i LOVED your Tyler and Aiden one and i'm back with one more. So think about it, Tyler knows baseball right? So why dont he use his bat skills? (is that what its called?) To beat the shit out of phantoms when they first go to the phantom dimension? Maybe something like thr reader gets pulled by a phantom and tyler crashed the phantoms head with his bat?

I love this! Fr this, like man, put yourself to use for once 😭 I'm putting this at like the first-ish part when they all get attacked on the bus.

Home Run

Tyler x Reader

Pronouns: Second person

Word count: 491

Tw: Uhhh bashing in heads??? also blood.

So this wasn't exactly how you expected to be spending your nights with your boyfriend. Usually you would've expected sitting with him in his bedroom watching some stupid cringy movie or you forcing him to play a random game you found the night before. On the other hand, you haven't really had a night like that with him since Savannah, so what did you honestly expect?

Well regardless of how you feel about being unable to live your best life, you don't have a choice. You lay in your bed, waiting for it to finally hit midnight, like it has every other night. As you lay there you feel your mind wandering, and eventually you start thinking about where you all were last night. The bus graveyard, you were all running. But before you can finish the thought, you black out.

Almost as soon as you open your eyes, you hear Ashlyn whisper "Duck" and you, along with the others, crouch down almost in unison. As you all get down everyone starts brainstorming how to get out of this situation, how to get away from the lurking phantom. You sit there silently, almost in a trance, anxiety coursing through your veins.

After about a minute of debating, Ashlyn perks up and her eyes widen slightly, a sight you've gotten used to. She hushes everyone and after a second says "Hide under the seats.". You along with everyone else start army crawling under the seats, peering out periodically to see if the phantom is nearby.

As you try your best to stay still, you hear a semi loud creak. A creak thats too loud to be safe. You cover your mouth with your hand, your breath becoming more frantic with each passing second. You turn to look behind you and before you can do anything, the phantom grabs you by the ankle, pain searing up your leg as you let out a scream.

"(Name)!" You hear yelled, too freaked to be able to figure out whose voice it was. You grab onto a seat above you and start trying to pull yourself up while (attempting to) kick the phantom away. You let out pained grunts as the phantom digs deeper into your ankle, managing to weaken your grip on the seat above you.

You almost give up, the pain becoming almost unbearable for you, but before you let go, you hear a crunch. A loud disgusting crunch. And almost immediately afterwards, the phantom lets go, letting you pull yourself up.

You push yourself out into the aisle, seeing Tyler panting with a broken wooden bat and the phantom laying limp on the ground. You look at Tyler, tears in your eyes either from fear or pain. "Ben! (name) needs help!" Tyler shouts, running to you and pulling you into his arms.

This is when you're finally able to look down, and all you see is blood staining your pants, shoes and socks. It's slowly dripping onto the floor of the bus like a melted ice pop. As you stare at it, almost everything stops. You know Tyler is trying to talk to you to make sure you're okay (you're very obviously not) and you can see Ben tending to your wound with everyone else either staring at you or the dead phantom. But none of it feels real.

After a couple minutes Ben finishes wrapping your wound and Tyler pulls you closer to him (if that was even possible). "Please don't ever do that again" he says softly and he genuinely sounds worried. You nod in agreement and for just a moment, this feels a little better than a cringy movie night.

Omg I'm so sleep deprived, but I hope this turned out good :)

#school bus graveyard #school bus graveyard x reader #sbg tyler x reader #tyler hernandez #sbg tyler #sbg #sbg (webtoon)

[mishapen-dear]

rough art tips to learn and then break at your leisure.

the distance between your eyes is roughly one eye. the corners of your mouth dont extend past the middle of each eye. ears are roughly in the middle of the tip of the nose and the eyebrow. the eyes are in the very centre of the head. the neck is just a Little slimmer than the width of the head (varies with fat distribution, but fat tends to build up under the chin). hair is easier to draw when you plot out the hairline and then where it parts. leaving appropriate distance on the side of the face (cheekbone area and back to ear) contributes to making characters look more realistic/hot as hell. i dont know specific tips for that so use reference. an amazing reference/study site is lineofaction.com . if you think of the face in planes it makes it easier to construct (look up tutorials). if you draw a spiral like a tornado it can help you figure out awkward perspective for extended limbs (look up foreshortening coil technique). tangent lines are when two lines intersect and cause visual confusion (when it looks like a line that defines an arm is part of the line that defines a building, for example) and avoiding them makes your art way easier to comprehend. quick trick to good composition: choose a focal point (where you want your viewer to focus), detail that area the most, and make sure various elements of the piece are pointing to that focal point. you can use colours to contrast hue, saturation, and brightness and make certain elements of your drawing stand out. drawing in greyscale can help you figure out values. using black in a piece isn't illegal but you should know what you're doing when you do use it- it desaturates a piece and if used as a shading colour can desaturate and dull whatever youre shading too. if you use almost-black lineart and then add black to darken the very darkest areas it will do a lot to add some nice depth. the tip of your thumb ends just above the start of your index finger- your thumb also has two knuckles and all your other fingers have three. if you see an artist doing something you like (the way they draw noses or eyes or hair or anything else) you can try to copy that and see if you want to incorporate it in your style <- this is ENCOURAGED and how a lot of us learned and developed our styles. there are ways to add wrinkles to faces and bodies without making the character look a million years old, you just have to keep experimenting with it. The smile wrinkles around your muzzle dont connect to your mouth or to your nose; there should be a small space in between smile or nose and the wrinkle line. eyes when viewed in profile are like < aka a little triangle shape. think of the pupil like a disk and apply foreshortening to it (it looks like a line when seen from the side instead of a full round dot). subtle gradients can add a LOT to a piece. texture can also add a LOT. look up Tommy Arnold's work (his murderbot pieces are some of my FAVOURITE) and zoom in. find those random little circles he added and try to figure out why he added them there. light bounces. there's lots of way light bounces. sometimes it even spreads through the skin. i do not know these light tricks yet but i want you to know that they exist. draw a circle to indicate hand placement, draw a straight line between that circle and the shoulder, and then (normally at a right angle) draw a straight line on top of that line to find the placement of the elbow. elbows are normally placed Just above the hip when standing and your arm is at rest. there are no bad colour combos if you're brave enough about it, just fuck with the saturation and brightness until it works. keep playing. try new things. add your own tips to this post if you want or even expand on some ive mentioned here. good luck go ham etc

#look at this post #the sum of almost all of my art knowledge #all that i can remember rn anyway lmaooo #shit i didn't mention the tips for backgrounds that i know #eh that's environment most of this deals with character work anyway #i learned most of this from tutorials and kind artists who like to talk about their work #i would not know NEARLY as much about creative shit as i do if it weren't for the people who were willing to talk about their skills #and their tricks and their observations. id be nothing without them i dont remember most of them but i am so so grateful for that kindness #so ig here ill spread that a little further #if you have any questions go ahead and ask i am a NERD about art okay i do not know everything but i am always willing to talk about what i #do know #art tips #one of the most important things for you to do as an experienced or beginner artist tho #is to PLAY #experiment #figure out what's fun and what looks nice and what looks nice faster and just. whatever the fuck you want to learn #it is SUCH a joy

[mistykaru]

i got stuff from the csp asset store and i wanted to play with it so this is a mess but i did have fun and i kinda dig the vibes

#andreil #aftg #the foxhole court #all for the game #i just thought the lil computer window borders were so cute #also okay listen my vision: #lmao i just wrote college au and completely forgot the canon story is in college pls #but like alt where neil does the photos bc he gets a camera #art majors???? #idk what's going on my vision is gone i am blind now #it was like a we pass each other on campus and a double take with warning signs is happening #i just thought the warning signs looked kinda cool #i also wanted the wavey thing to be a heartbeat w a skippy in it but i didnt know how to make it look nice it wasn't cooperating #and honestly i was getting tired of trying to figure out what should go in the space #i am not an aesthetic person idk how people do the fancy lil edits all the time #i draw i dont do graphic design i dont have the frog within necessary #myart #anyway im running away now bc idk how i feel about this bye

[volivolition]

suggestion do you have... any wants? like obviously you do but like? suggestion my guy my ourple boy. both the easiest and hardest to write. you need a skill to say something to move conversation along but it doesn't fit any skill in particular? about 80% of the time you can have suggestion say it and it will make sense. but like actually characterizing him... how do i define you dude... what makes your character tick... urgh. i dont get you yet. im trying to understand but you are difficult.

#chemi chats #there are some skills that i just dont understand yet and that just means i have to work on their character study chapter #im reading his bio and i think suggestion is a good manipulator and it's instinctive and he tries not to feel bad about it? #he's clever!! charming!! friends with savvy and drama. planting seeds in the mind and coaxing them to grow towards him like he's the sun. #a crude oil reservoir lying beneath a carefully laid flower bed. taps into the roots. the plants don't know any better than to drink. #he's great at sensing what makes people tick and uses that to his advantage. he needs goals to look forward to so he knows how to best #pull the strings to get them there. otherwise he's a bit aimless. he likes being useful. and since influencing others is helpful #he just keeps doing it? because it's what he's good at. and he tries to convince himself its fun and cool and just cuz hes charming and #it's his role as a skill and manipulation isnt thaaaat bad because it's helpful to them after all... but he does feel bad sometimes. #oh im listening to his voice lines and i just got to ''brother you should have put me in front of a firing squad'' and im sad about him now #but what do you want for short term little guy?? probably for people to like him. he likes chatting with people. i bet he'd like genuine #conversations with no strings attached but there's always some part of him filing information and tidbits away that he can't turn off #subconsciously figuring out things he can hold over them or how he can nudge them into thinking someth-/wait.../ no. no he's just talking. #he's /supposed/ to just be talking stop analyzing them stop falling back into that just have a normal conversation!! but he can't help it.. #hm. this is all really helpful for his chapter. he and empathy are very alike but also different. very interesting... #task: swept up #okay good talk everyone i think i understand him a little better now lmao?? still gotta figure him out some more hes not fully there but ye #also i think he goes by whatever pronoun you think he'd use. just ''oh what do /you/ think i am hm?? what /would/ i use; do you think?? :)' #funny fella. i love you.

[unexpectedbrickattack]

What is your HC height for the characters? Personally I see peppino as 4'11, he's teeny tiny while being hilariously buff

Hes even smaller than MY peppino! I dont have too many heights set in stone bc im prone to flipflopping 😔

Peppino is 5’1 (154cm) but i am Not immune to Tall Fat Men so like if i draw him as 6’ (182cm) dont @ me.

Pepperman is HUGE at roughly 7’4 (218cm) bc I like the idea of him just being a massive freak of nature. Why is he so big. Why does his face take up most of his body?? I want him to be tall but still capable of walking into establishments (with some patience)

Gustavo is like. I feel like i Want to make him 2’ (60cm) bc i make all of my gnome creatures incredibly small. But im only using them as a base so i feel like 3’3/3’5 (99/104cm) feels a bit better.

Brick is literally a bear to me. Like a grizzly bear with a rat face and hamnds…do what you want with this information.

Noise and noisette are both exactly 4’ (121cm). Theyre both little imps to me :) smaller than Peppino but bigger than Gustavo.

Vigilante is roughly the same height as Gustavo at 3’1 (93cm). Hes got alot of stretch n pull to his shape though so its not very consistent. If he makes himself tall he looks incredibly thin, and if he makes himself shorter he starts to look like a pancake. And this isnt a height thing but hes VERY heavy and VERY dense so trying to pick him up would damage ur back pretty badly 😭

I dont have a height for fake peppi bc i havent drawn him enough 😭 and i dont care about pizzahead enough to give him a height lmao

#answered #chattin #long post #//// #///// #i dont have a height for gerome bc i am thinking of a comic idea w him #and ill figure out what looks okay for him #same for the toppins #all under 3’ with the pineapple being the tallest and tomato being the smallest #oh i forgot about mr stick!!! #hes tall

[toytulini]

god I know this is like The Wrong Stance on AI. I know its not about whether the art is Real and Human or If It Has A Soul and how a lot of the arguments against it are the same bullshit arguments people made against digital art like I Know. I Knowwww. but god, I'm really sorry, not to post like one of those annoying poetry bloggers I cant stand (yall are valid, live your truth, theres nothing wrong with what you post I'm just a petty bitch who hates poetry. unless I dont hate it.)

But theres just something about the way AI art will almost certainly never be able to mimic the exact way my pencil leaves an indentation in the paper, the way some of the lines I can never fully erase cause I pressed too hard, theyll have to at least train them to draw with a physical pencil first, and sure, they could train it to draw with a pencil and even erase the exact same piece I drew, line for line, on a piece of paper with a robot arm powered by AI, but they can't replicate. idk. the lineage of lefty bitches in my family, and the way I grew up going through school with my entire left arm silver with graphite, from doodling on my schoolwork. not yet anyway. but I guess I do live for the day we make the ai sentient enough that we can traumatize it by giving it homework after kneecapping its executive functions so it copes by drawing a big tiddy lobster monster. sure

#toy txt post #reblogs OFF i dont trust yall to be normal with this one i do NOT want it getting notes #i posted part of this before in a chat to a friend but im feeling it again. so #i havent drawn my big tiddy lobster bitch in awhile i should draw her again #also yea SORRY im sure this is The Wrong Feeling To Have About AI but also sometimes im a little grateful that i dont think my style is #smth a lot of the ppl coding ai to make art find to be worth trying to replicate except maybe as like a fake progress shot on a piece #which is smth i used to be really insecure about. how unfinished all my art looks bc it isnt to the point i cant fucking watch #like speedpaints and shit bc i just start feeling stupidly insecure about all the points in the video where I Would Have Stopped and been #like. im not touching it anymore i dont want to ruin it #and ive been insecure about my inability to really do digital art with like a stylus and shit like the way i do it with a pencil #and i know that is just me needing to Practice it but being too frustrated by it #anyway i know its just a Tool and its Fine and the problem is the art theft and the labor problems of it but liiiiiiike #i just. #im sure there will be unique things and usages of ai as a tool and i genuinely hope that ppl can figure out a way to make one that isnr #isnt* just full of stolen content bc theres unique fuckin shit about like digital art programs u can write stupid poetry that you hate #about it. or stupid poetry that i hate. cos im the poetry hater. listen. i cant stress this enough: its fine. youre fine. keep posting your #poetry and reblogging shit that speaks to you. im just a Bitch okay Ignore Me #i should go draw bokrae like. eating a computer about this #the real reason for that graphics card shortage was bokrae ate them all when she was in the mood for a crunchy snack

[dandyshucks]

everyone pray for me that i did not just give myself food poisoning (;･∀･)

#i may have made a bad decision with the meat i cooked shdjdkl BUT I THINK IT'LL BE FINE #it was past the date on the packaging but it didnt smell or look or feel off at all so . i decided to risk it #and now im panicking bc i think perhaps that was actually rly stupid fhdkdl #but it was. so much money. i had no idea the date was so soon on the package when i got it from mum #I would've frozen it if I'd known dhdksl i should've looked #alas !!! i think it'll be fine tbh bc it genuinely did not seem spoiled at all so ... now we just pray #i had a fairly small serving of it and I'll see how i feel to figure out if the rest of it is safe to eat or not #im just fhdjdkl crying a little rn bc the past two days have been so awful and im so tired #i rly dont want to get sick on top of everything else going on #i would like one thing to go well fjdkdl just like. one thing. this feels like divine punishment for having the old lady group go so well #im just kind of losing my mind rn i think actually fhfkdl i have a therapy/counseling appt on monday though so we'll see if that helps #i do not have high hopes fjfkdl #MANNNN. can the universe give me a break PLEASE. I've been trying so hard the past three weeks to do well 😭😭 #im putting in so much work and effort fhdksl can i PLEASE have this one thing go okay djdksl i do not want to get sick !!! #if i do get sick then im just. hhhhh. idk djdkdl it's just one more thing to add to my pile of Bad ig djdkdl what can ya do djdkdl #i am going to pull myself together and stop crying and go play stardew maybe idk fjdkdl i feel like im starting to crack a little bit #augh. augh. i would love to catch a break djdkdl #dandy.cmd #vent //

[bulkhummus]

i still do think that kevin was never interested in whatever carlos was doing as long as he was distracted enough to stay in the desert other world.. like when it comes down to it their relationship was about enabling one another in both directions

#kevin was keeping carlos there #(and i dont mean he was the only thing keeping carlos there there were other things) #and carlos was giving things for kevin to report on #and they were using eachother to get back to where they once were sfter their faith and lives were stolen from them #or booted out of more aptly #kevin got to recreate the dillusion of having his own carlos reporting on things #got to play cecils role essentially #and carlos got to play hero and beloved town figured without worrying of never belonging #it was all about egos of two very selfish people #and ultimately it ends in selfishness bc kevin thinks carlos is leaving cecil and nv for him and db2 #and carlos is leaving beause the dow is no longer serving him or his interests #i mean like carlos was worried to that he didnt belong in nv and his faith was shaken and he couldnt return physically like i get that #and i think its fun to think about carlos leaving behind a town and a religion that he impart helped solidify either by accident or knowingl #bc he is a scientist and that rules his life and how he thinks and believes and functions #he was destined to destroy that big centipede god from the moment kevin started praising it #which feels symbolic of their friendship to me #i also stand by the belief that carlos was trying to convince himself he was having a good time and was okay while he was trapped there #(his whole convo with cecil abt changing the words they use) #there were probably moments he didnt look too closely at where he wondered if he WAS enjoying himself but the stuff in it devours makes me #feel like he was truly struggling and just ignoring it bc he had no other options #and i still think the moment his work is destroyed and clarifty smacks back into him like a train that he has nothing outside of his work #no life no colleagues no cecil and some kind of odd friendship with kevin predicated on being workaholics #like kevin is not a good person in narrative and carlos is……. a good person who keeps doing bad things #but both of them do things without consulting in others first bc they’re making assumptions for other people #ive been sitting here thinking about why carlos loves cecil but thats gonna be a different post probably #i think ive made a post abt it already but now im thinking sbout it in terms of comparing cecil and kevin and what kevin cant do for carlos #that cecil can etc etc #wtnv #welcome to night vale

[dragonballevolution]

IVE FINALLY FINISHED MY COLLECTION OF THIS DRAGONBALL EVOLUTION FIGURE LINE......!!!!! ALL SEVEN OF THEM... AND i got them with accompanying oozaru parts so i have the full oozaru fig too :3

#dragon ball #dragon ball evolution #dragonball evolution #merchposting #mine #this is probably the ultimate embodiment of ''Weird flex but okay'' but whatever. #i might attempt to start on collecting the other dbe merch at some point too but idk. i dont have infinite budget and all that #and theres things in this world more useful to buy than crude plastic fashioned after a bad movie #but whatever man #i should note i actually have the accessories to most of them but i was too lazy to retrieve them LOL #i dont recall if i have all the dragon balls though #also some general thoughts on them as figures: they look like shit but they're enjoyably posable #EXCEPT bulma. she is like nearly unposable its so fucked #the fu-lum i think is the best looking figure though i may be biased bc not a human face yknow #also it is like. GENUINELY fucked that theres no mai or chi-chi #like i get keeping it to 7 but could they not have like. swapped out one of the two gokus #or possibly. even though i like the fu-lum figure the most. swapped out the fu-lum #EVEN IN SHITTY LIVE ACTION WORLD THE MISOGYNY IS NEVERENDING #anyway all that aside im very glad to have got them all now. yay :D

[kellystar321]

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#periodical life updates #(<- NUMBER 3!!!) I FINISHED THE ANIMATION AND EVERYTHING FOR THAT PROJECT AND SENT IT OFF! super excited!! #it looks really cute! i tried my best and im mostly satisfied of where i landed <33 #it's my little sibling's birthday today!! it's also the first official meeting of lgbt club!! (the other event was a fun lgbt mixer) #my backpack smells bad. like mildew or mold maybe? urgh its awful and gives me a headache. i might need a new one. i dont know. urghhh. #my programming homework is due today!! yike!! but other than that my personal projects with deadlines are all done! #INIQUITY NOW THAT YOU HAVE TIME ARE YOU FINALLY GONNA WORK ON YOUR SELF SHIP BLOG?? YES!! HOPEFULLY!! #truthfully i /have/ been working on it on the side. it looks decent but the colors;;; i have always been pretty sht at color picking? #i can adjust with filters but without that im like. a little not good yet lmao. gotta do some studies sometime perhaps #BUT YAY EXCITED!! ive got some rambles and doodles and a tag system and f/o info which is extremely cumbersome (affectionate)!! #also i have new fandom ocs for the latest dimension 20 campaign and im so delighted heho <33 this campaign is literally so fun. #im watching it with my sibling when its done!! OOH ALSO I FIGURED OUT HOW TO PNGTUBE AND i will likely never use it BUT COOL!! #i dont like. talk. lmao. my art streams are 1) silent 2) rare 3) only shared with my siblings. pngtuber is a little useless. but CUTE!! #i got boba tea yesterday!! sandy bought it :3 <3 and we're having pho and cheesecake later and i might plan out a little excursion today? #like i might get a treatsie. OR i'll just sit on campus as usual and get a mango smoothie and draw for a while (or work on homework.) #(lets be honest its likely the former. i might get a little back into traditional? ooh or maybe i'll practice my asl?) HEY THOUGH. #ive been thinking about making a henrey stickmn (ask)blog to practice asl? like. no plot. just henry teaching ellie and charles asl #really funny considering my Real concept of an askblog for THSC. not ace or eca; but a secret third thing (⛎) ;) #then again since when have i EVER followed through on an askblog lmao?? damb im all over the place today. we're already hitting tag limit #okay!! 3 AM!! if im going early tomorrow i gotta eep! goodnight everyone i love you!! see you tomorrow if i have the energy and time!!

[dallonwrites]

did not write as much as i liked today but i made the playlist for the nanowrimo 2023 project that has a specific order to reflect the tones of the story and that's the closest i get to outlining before a draft so

#idk how to explain this from a I Dont Actually Outline Before Drafting Usually POV but #making playlists with a specific order feels like the first layer to understanding a narrative bc its like i can hear the tone of it unfold #i dont need to know what it will look like on page but i can look at a playlists body #and it feels like i can see the ebbs and flows of the narrative's tone/vibes/etc. the emotional movement #which for the type of stories i write that helps a lot LOL #making playlists that way kind of feels like ive put the story into a heart monitor. its not showing me all the vitals but its showing me #the movement of the story's core #OKAY WAITTT i think the best way to explain it is #i'm a very vibe driven writer but also vibes are very sensory to me #when i make a playlist its not just songs that remind me of the wip its songs that SOUND like the wip to me #i have a very deep sensory relationship to stories + sensory things connect me to the Vibes #and the more familiar i am with the Vibes of a story the easier it is for me to enter the story and then figure out what actually happens #which is why i prefer to discovery write most of the time bc being deep in the story like that #feels like a similar level of immersion that i get from things like playlists #PERSONALLY! #so when i make playlists in a specific order the songs usually group themselves together and it feels like i can hear how the story moves #through those groups without knowing what the events look like yet #playlists and moodboards etc are literally integral to me because stories usually start very abstract/vibey in my brain #rather than a clear idea and i need something more tangible/sensory to flesh it out

[spaghettiandart]

WAIT. WAIT. WAIT. A FNAF DAEMON AU WOULD GO INSANELY HARD.

(Rambling in tags)

#*opens up art app* #okay look. LOOK. i have it all figured out (no i dont) #william would have a bunny. because obviously. thematic stuff yknow. #i think michael would have a foxhound. like before his daemon settled it would usually take the form of a fox but after the bite... yknow #if the bite didnt happen it would have been a fox #vanessa's is a jackrabbit and gregory's is unsettled but usually takes the form of a lemur #now the interesting thing is that in some forms of media a daemon is a guiding spirit and in others its a manifestation of the human soul #now. bear with me here. #what if the animatronics from security breach gained daemons when they gained a certain amount of sentience. #what philosophical ramifications would that have in universe. #additionally: dead people. ghosts. their daemons would still hang around id think but not in the same form as before. #maybe the daemons are unsettled because the ghosts business is unsettled or maybe the daemons are more skeletal versions of animals #saying this because susie should still have her dog when shes in chica #cassies daemon would be unsettled but i think shes one of those middle school wolf girls. shell definitely have a wolf. look at her. #itd be hilarious to give CC just a giant bear in a future where he didnt die. #henry has a dog i can feel it in my bones he has a fluffy sheepdog #charlie... i feel bird energy. i do not know why. maybe something like a raven. death symbology yknow. #fnaf #not art #i should... write this all down #elizabeth and CC would unfortunately be unsettled when they die :( #elizabeth also gives me otter energy i do not know why.

[allylikethecat]

I just posted the All the King's Horses update and I tagged it as "Happy Friday!!" and realized I missed out on the golden opportunity of having On a Friday be my Friday update fic. Oh well

#allylikethecat #ally's thoughts #ally's musings #that cold from before I went to LA is back #because i never really got over it because i instantly got home then left for germany #i still dont have covid according to my doctor which is good #but i got home and instantly took cold medicine tonight #and now im having all kinds of overly deep fandom thoughts #i also just paid $20 to doordash myself a chocolate chip cookie #that hasn't arrived yet #because my friday night is WILD #and i am actively hiding from my friends so they cant make me do things #im also kinda afraid to eat food because ive had three allergic reactions this week and i cant figure out to what #but i'll eat dinner and then my lips will swell up and i look like kylie jenner which is not a vibe for me #so far so good today though #my chicken broth and egg noodle combo did not harm me #hopefully the cookie will be okay too #my mom thinks its olive oil #but idk #i hope its not olive oil i love olive oil so much #sorry for oversharing in the tags #my mother is still out of the country which means i cant call her while im driving to tell her about my day #and i miss her #so im over sharing in the tags instead

[volivolition]

what's the theme you're fucking going for here voliiii!!! what are you fucking getting at!!! what are you trying to say, what's the point??

#still working on this drama chapter in Swept Up. they're. confusing to work with? from an empathy standpoint at least. #skill who is trying to honestly understand the other skills VS skill who is just always lying and putting on an act. #and then theres the whole thing that im not going to spoil yet but the dynamic. fuck man. i dont even know what im trying to say here #lying is bad? no i dont care about that. honest communication is important maybe? i feel like i need a central theme for this. #and i dont want the theme to be ''empathy good'' because low-empathy people are also good and i love them!! and also: #empathy is a flawed character!! i try to portray this. i dont like moralism/centrism which empathy believes in and is the main skill for #empathy you stupid centralist (affectionate) i know this is just because you don't know how to make everyone happy. who can fix this? #you dont think you can fix this! you feel too much debilitating sadness to make meaningful change!! responsibilite to others more capable #still. i do depict empathy as often kind on a small level because i think that's in character. empathy just helps you understand. #i guess this fic is also a ''empathy doesn't mean kindness. kindness is a choice you can make afterwards but empathy just means empathy'' #but that's not a centralizing theme that all the chapters share. its also about vulnerability and the mortifying ordeal of being known #urgh. i'll think about it some more. knowing me its probably another ''love (in all forms) is the meaning to life'' type story lmao <3 #i need to make a skill chart for this harry. all i know is that Volition is his skill signature but Empathy is his highest stat #hyper-empathetic harry with the rsd that comes from adhd!! haha!! suffering. everybody fucking hate you. this is based on me btw lmao #i was working on voli's chapter which has a flashback and child empathy! new to the mindspace looking out through harry's eyes and crying #the world is full of sad people and it's just too much for a lil guy! the backstory i have planned for this like. huh okay. wild. anyway!! #oh shit ive made a fucking breakthrough with the drama chapter. its not a theme but its something i figured out at least. we stay winning!! #chemi chats #task: swept up

[mac-n-cheese-flavored-arson]

I got harassed by a cop today because I was pushing myself in my wheelchair in the road because the sidewalk is physically impossible for me to use in a wheelchair in my city (no curb cut outs AT ALL on extremely tall curbs) and he told me that if I got hit by a car it would be my own fault and I'd be legally liable for it, I genuinely fucking hate able bodied people AND cops

#I was as far on the side of the road as I could physically get #and when I told him that there were no curb cut outs so I physically couldn't use the sidewalk he said #'I dont care you still cant be in the road figure something out' #ended up just saying okay and then ignoring him and kept going #there was literally nothing else i could do but even if there were i wouldn't have because he pissed me off so bad #disabled #disability #wheelchair user #cpunk #cripplepunk #tags so that other disabled people can share in my rage and maybe I wont have to carry it alone #able bodied people please don't interact with this one post at all im looking for community and understanding right now

[toytulini]

fish died :(

#toy txt post #animal death #hes been. looking like shit and not eating and not showing interest in food for awhile and then #all morning today he was laying on his side just. worse than ever. i started trying to find some clove oil irl to euth him but fucking #nowhere has it. but then i got home and he was dead anyway so i guess thats moot #glad hes not suffering anymore. wish he wouldve just fucking eaten some god damn food instead of wasting away like that. hhh #i figured out why the tank feels so fucking CURSED and i couldnt get the nitrates down but idk i guess too late for him #or maybe that rando on reddit was right and the water was too hard and everything circles back to not being able to have an R/O filter #i dont fucking know #the cories and kuhlis and clown plec are okay for now i think. i think theyre fine. if they start having problems out of nowhere i really #might get superstitious for real about fish and just never talk about them ever again. god. logically i know its stupid And Yet