#oh my god my heart hurts

[spiralingdowwn]

I’m so, this took up the entirety of my Sunday. I can’t stop thinking about it please go read it

#blue lock #nagireo #reo mikage #reonagi #blue lock reo #nagi seishiro #figure skating au #best friends to strangers to rivals to lovers #oh my god my heart hurts #hurt/comfort #blue lock fic #fanfiction #ao3

[neurodivenport]

i love when ppl are just as unhinged as me in my comments its so funny

#oh my god my heart hurts

[coldbycrossfade]

did you think i was done im not done

this changed me on a subatomic level and ive never recovered for years

eros, eros, i know the rituals are intricate

#the band ghost #papa emeritus ii #nameless ghouls #i kmow his dick is big I KNOW IT #oh my god my heart hurts

[shepscapades]

Hey! i’m really into the dbch story and i was wondering if doc and xisuma ever tell bdubs the specifics of why etho lost his memories, cause if they do that is prime self blaming angst for bdubs

I’m inclined to believe they don’t. Actually (and maybe I should do a small comic for this so more people see it) I imagine, once a month or a few pass and they finally return etho to bdubs as reset, I imagine they are VERY serious about warning bdubs not to try to force Etho to re-deviate— they don’t go into specifics, but they probably tell bdubs that whatever happened had to do with something that was emotionally overwhelming, and that forcing him to redeviate/not letting it happen naturally could trigger the same error. They have no idea what could happen so bdubs needs to be very careful and let Etho find himself again on his own.

Whether or not bdubs gets impatient or can only go so long before he doubts it would be that bad if he tried pushing Etho in the right direction is another story.

But yeah. I don’t think Xisuma or Doc really… tell anyone that this happened. Etho’s error seemed like a very specific one-off scenario, so it’s not something the other hermits should be trying to avoid or be careful about happening to their own android friends, and the only thing telling people would do is make them worried about the situation. All they need to know is that etho was broken and that they need to be careful with him. I don’t agree with their decision to keep what happened to themselves but I understand it I think. Xisuma “i don’t want to worry the hermits” Void and Docm “eh this isn’t the first time I’ve replaced this arm, people won’t question it” 77

#that’s a lie actually I think xisuma ends up telling Cleo :> #but only because Cleo is very smart and I think they should be close in this au :] #but no she would clock Tired Overworked Existential Crisis Xisuma in an instant #Cleo calls them both idiots and gives them big hugs and tells them they need therapy. also that they’re welcome by her place anytime to talk #it’s very sweet and healing to me #this is where “all things end’’ on Xisuma’s playlist comes in actually #oh my god I got so off topic #BDUBS IS GOING TO FEEL GUILTY NO MATTER WHAT THOUGH #like okay. technically #the reason etho shut down is because he was freaking out that everything was his fault #(last life—not giving bdubs a heart— trying to win for bdubs and then losing— coming back to s8 feeling like he can’t face bdubs—> #ending up leaving him alone when the moon hit #and bdubs was hurt by these things. no doubt #but bdubs just wants his friend back and maybe he’s a little reckless about it #bdubs hides his emotions behind cartoonish frustration and complaining but he feels bad #he feels like he should be doing more to ‘save’ etho and bring him back even though he was to #told* he shouldn’t #dbhc ask #dbhc #dbhc bdubs #dbhc etho #dbhc doc #dbhc xisuma #ask #anon

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

SO. TO KICK OFF THE WEEK OF SPECULATION BEFORE THE UPDATE DROPS.

last night i had a bit of a Revelation. literally. i borderline woke up in a cold sweat with this realization. the way i lunged for my laptop to scream at friends... ough. lets get into it

so. i do believe I've made a couple of theory posts about Barnaby not being quite as receptive to his and Wally's "forced" best friendship as Wally - since the show wrote them to be friends instead of it happening naturally. i thought it might be a point of tension for Barn. i thought a lot.

YES SO I'M TOSSING (almost) ALL OF THAT OUT THE WINDOW!

the bios state Barnaby as Wally's best friend multiple times over. it had to be regularly reinforced. their colors were chosen to mark them as friends.

but Barnaby - presumably - can't see the bios, he wouldn't know the scripts. the friendship would be natural from his perspective. how would he know otherwise? even if the relationship started out synthetic, i don't doubt that it became genuine. in the context of their world and perceptions, realistically speaking Barnaby probably wouldn't sense anything wrong.

the reminders to be best friends weren't for Barnaby.

they were for Wally.

i'm starting to suspect that Wally is Barnaby's best friend, but Barnaby isn't Wally's. i think that Wally's "best friend" is Home - or at least Wally has a closer connection to them / Home is more important to Wally than anyone else is.

i remember reading this livestream trivia (from theneighborhoodwatch's doc, if you haven't their resources yet what are you even doing?):

and i assumed it was for Barnaby's side of the relationship. but it's not, is it? it's Wally's? and it makes too much fucking Sense! it fits! i can see it perfectly! i can feel things slotting together in my mind due to this shift in perspective, and i'm scared

Barnaby probably thinks the relationship is natural, just like how he thinks he's a real person in a real world. Wally probably knows that the relationship is a role, just like how he knows he's a puppet in a false reality.

that leaves me wondering how much of it is genuine on Wally's side. i don't doubt that they really are friends, but how deep does that connection go? in the interview, Wally sounded excited/proud about having a best friend, but how much came from a place of feeling, and how much came from a place of Fulfilling The Role? how much of it is performative? how much of it is a mask?

i've been seeing everything differently. Barnaby poses for Wally the most because he has good balance and is good at staying still, not because of favoritism or because he's Wally's best friend. in the 14 (15 including the hidden halloween) audios, Barnaby consistently seeks out Wally and checks in on him. Wally seems more casual about their relationship than Barnaby is.

i'm worried that Wally values Home & You/Us over Barnaby. that Barnaby is second or third place in Wally's heart. that Wally means more to Barnaby than he means to Wally. after all, only one of them needed their relationship to be reinforced on a seemingly regular basis.

i'm confident that Wally cares about / loves Barnaby, but the question is how much? to what extent?

#IM SO FUCKING ILL. #and by worried i mean Frothing At The Mouth. that would hurt so good. it would be delicious #i mean. it makes so much fucking sense. it feels Right! #and oh the ways this could hurt barnaby #i already suspect he has some Internal insecurities and shit but. oh man. if this is true it would break his heart wouldnt it #he has his hearts on his palms but wally's hearts are hidden on the soles of his shoes.... #god. no this. this. i cant start ranting and raving about what this means for barnaby and how i think it might affect him #the picture all the pieces of What We Know About Him So Far paint #all i'll say is. comic relief characters are always a tragedy under the mask. #wh speculation #homebogging #wh theory #welcome home speculation #welcome home theory #the way i was losing my absolute shit in discord. Man. #i am continuously in premature mourning over barnaby. #eddie might be doomed by the narrative but barn is Screwed by the narrative #poor guy just can't catch a break #also the idea. the Concept. that wally might consider you/us a closer/dearer friend than barnaby #is. its. well its devastating and juicy as Fuck! #there's. there's so much to unpack here im gonna be honest #for the first time since getting into this project im feeling like im starting to see a cohesive picture #the implications. the connections. the way it ties into themes. man... oh man... And It Makes. Sense. #barnaby knows wally better than the other neighbors - Besides Home - but how much more? #does he think he knows more than he does? i mean absolutely. wally is still hardcore masking around him. #wally doesn't confide in him not really #but man. Man. oh i understand why completely. at least i like to think i do #oh boy this is gonna kill me and im gonna like it #i had this realization and i felt my neurons shift just a little. just Enough. FUCK #barnaby b beagle. baby. i am so sorry but you're gonna have a hell of a fucking time

[taikanyohou]

"I never noticed until now that he feels this way towards me. I thought I was worthless. I shut my ears to it. What's this? My heart hurts. I can't breathe."

MY PERSONAL WEATHERMAN (2023). Episode 8.

#my personal weatherman #asianlgbtqdramas #asiandramasource #asiandramanet #dailyasiandramas #jdramasource #mlmsource #* #faiza gifs #yoh's gaze ...................... i cant look at it for too long otherwise ill lose that last bit of sanity in me ......................... #god oh my GOD. #my heart hurts. i cant breathe. TOUCHE. DITTO. LITERALLY EXACTLY YOH. WE ALL FEEL YOU.

[nomidreams]

something something about dead boy detectives what edwin's and charles' friendship is actually works in show so half of fandom won't even care if they end up romantic or stay friends. (almost won't care. we all love queer stuff. can't judge.) I, personally, just love their whole dynamic and for me it's totally understandable that charles went into hell for his friend and stayed on earth as a ghost so he can be with edwin. and I think edwin actually meant it when he said "he did not feel the same way but i think we're better friends because of it".

idk for me they're just love each other so purely. what's even a difference between romantic and platonic love?

#love is love #there's no difference as long as it warms ur heart #<- not my words btw #george said he don't think edwin is hurt by charles' words!! #i love then geogre talks about edwin btw #he just says my thoughts abt edwin #idk he doesnt know i exist but oh god he understands me so deeply #and btw charles literaly said “there's no one else no one else in the world who i will go to hell for” #!! #and i hate when somebody says that romantic love is “more” than a friendship cuz fuck no not really its all love #we cant live without love yes but it was never abt romantic love #dead boy detectives #dbd #dbd spoilers #edwin payne #charles rowland #chedwin #painland #paynland #edwin paine

[chrisbangs]

#chan #bang chan #stray kids #skz #createskz #cb97net #*gifs #*m #flashing tw #ik its so much flashing but #I COULDNT CONTROL MYSELF :(((((((((((( #LOOK AT BABU.. #LOOK AT HIM??? #LOOK AT HOW PERFECT AND CUTE AND WONDERFUL #my heart is his #ive literally come to the conclusion that my heart just belongs to him #im so sad #i love him so fuckin g much #it hurts oh my god im gonna cry

[evankinard]

guys I was joking and then I actually read the lyrics to this song and the smile dropped right off my face

#wait my heart actually hurts even thinking about it oh god #911 spoilers #evan buckley #eddie diaz #buddie #weewoo brainrot #911 abc

[kandavers]

you have that one amazingly angsty drawing of radioapple. It’s the one where Luci says “you can break my heart, it’s only yours to break” or something like that and alastor admits that they are only in a relationship because he has ulterior motives. What are his motives?

btw it literally made me SOB. Love your art sm <3

Oh, to be completely honest I did not think that far! I just wanted to project HAHAHA

If I were to think of something on the spot, said "motive" would probably be: he wants to Take Over Hell, and what better way to do that than to strike the Ruler himself?

...something like that. Not very set on it, but yeah!

#alastor wouldnt have told #lucifer he had ult motives if he didnt care about him even a little bit #kanrambles #ask #radioapple #secret story in the tags #when i was with my disgusting ex i said the same thing lucifer did. #oh how i was so madly in love with him. #sadly for my case he *did* ruthlessly break my heart. #i might even say my heart was shattered! #so that angst comic was just me going “what if he just told me he was going to hurt me? would i feel any better about it?” #that comic ended on a sliiiightly hopeful note too because some people in the reply said #so yeah! #i'm hopeful too #i'm not evil #i dont want lucifer to go through the same hurt i did. #sometimes i thank god that im not depressed or else that would have been the last youve seen of me tbh 💀 #alastor and lucifer will continue to love one another #they'll get the love i deserved but never got :')

[betterthanbatman1]

Screaming crying sobbing shrieking punching kicking yelling bawling weeping LOSING MY FUCKING MIND

#The small ‘I’m so scared’ surrounded by darkness- my heart is broken #That sound you can hear is the sound of my heart breaking #DC really thought hmm let’s just put Jason through hell that’ll be fun #I love angst don’t get me wrong #but this oh my god #It’s so heartbreaking but also I want to eat it #The ‘please…’ and ‘I’m so scared’ FUCKING RIPPED OUT MY HEART #I don’t care if this was Bruce or whatever the hell zur is possessed him- this fucking hurt #I want to hug him and tell him everything’s going to be okay 😭 #red hood #jason todd #batfamily #batfam #Dc really took the ‘family’ out of batfamily #batman #dc #dc comics #I once again forgot to queue this ahead of time

[s0ckh3adstudios]

SO A FRIEND WAS CHECKING THE WIKI AND FOUND AN UNUSED SONG. I'M LITERALLY GOING TO COMBUST. OMFG.

#HEY. HEY #THIS IS HURTING MY HEART TOO MUCH #OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD #sock talk #undertale yellow #FOR HIS DIARY?????????? #WAUAUSGHUGHGJFDJ #uty #uty dalv

[lucaplushie]

any bitter choco decoration fans in chat

#fnaf #luca draws #william afton #henry emily #willry #helliam #ough..this one hurted. a little bit. #also sorry i never know what to caption these #i love you bitter choco decoration #i was listening to the mizuki alt cover while painting this. if you even care </3 #also for ONCE i didn't forget the springlock scars that is INTENTIONAL OKAY!!!! this is prespringlock incident #every time i draw them kissing or holding hands or sitting in each others laps just know im lying #theyre both insanely repressed..theyd never get together..... to me. #i like to play pretend though #smashing them together like barbies rn #im gonna post this at 10pm when no one will see it because i promised you all willry for Christmas and i refuse to break my promise #oh my god my hands hurt so fucking bad #thats what i get for speedrunning this i GUESS #once again ignore the lighting okay for me heart emoji #IM BAD AT TAKING PICTURES #WAIT I FORGOT TO SAY #THE FUCKING UHH THE SHITTY LITTLE CRAYON DRAWING WAS INSPIRED BY MY DEAR FRIEND #@TOXIFOXX. SMILES CUTELY.

[cath-lic]

being religious is actually a good reality check sometimes bc occasionally i’ll start to care about something dumb on the internet and then be like. oh hmm okay this behavior is NOT enriching my soul. NEXT

#started to get upset cause i stumbled upon a terfy catholic blog #then sort of doomscrolled thru their posts #then was like oh actually. god doesn’t want me to hurt myself this way #if i can’t pull the sword out of my heart for myself #i can at least do it for god

[hamartia-grander]

Wyll breaking up with the player character if Ulder dies so Wyll must become the Duke makes me wanna throw up sobbing because he actually thinks that just because his father's first duty being to Baldur's Gate made him a Bad Father that Wyll himself will inevitably be a Bad Lover because surely no one could match love with duty if his father couldn't, unknowing he has more love in one hand than his father had in his entire body. fuck

#More in my reblog #“my father taught me more lessons than I can count” yeah dog they were called CAUTIONARY TALES 😭😭😭 #“pull me too close and I'm destined to hurt you” FUCKIGN. BITING YOU #“a champion's heart is as sharp as a new blade” SO CRAZY I GOT THIS SICK ASS ARMOUR. TRY ME. #I'm actually in physical pain over this. Wyll my love. #I need to rip ulder in two with my bare hands right now. #sorry I JUST saw the breakup scene for the first time today and I haven't stopped thinking about it it's making me ill with sadness #he didn't even break up with ME but it fucking feels like it goddamn #bg3 #Wyll Ravengard #baldur's gate 3 #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 analysis #oh my GOD and the fact that he offers one last dance. I'mgoing to ufckingexplode #and he spends five whole seconds just. holding the character. not even dancing. #I watched the version with him and astarion ofc I don't romance wyll myself (lesbianism) #makes me wanna write a fucking fic (derogatory) #why the fuck is everyone so ill over astarion when mr insane mental health issues is RIGHT here (i know why. but still)

[lollytea]

Toh leaked pilot making me cry over lost lumity potential

#as much as i love the addition of willow and amity having a relationship #it IS kinda clunky in canon #the original introduction of amity in this scrapped version is just SO!! #its so good oh my god #luz first meeting amity as ''the only person who ever stuck up for me'' and then getting her heart hurts #feels so much more personal in establishing their dynamic with each other #rather than her just being ''the girl who bullies my best friend'' #like its salvagable. kinda. BUT GOD!! This version with the human witch exchange student thing just feels so much smoother