#oh lorne you really deserved better

[trainofcommand]

Flashfic written for @squidgiepdx's Pi-Day Drabble-ish-or-more-athon! (why not head on over there and leave a prompt or some flashfic?); prompt from @goddess47

A question of pie

(Lorne/McKay; T-rated)

Rodney walked into the meeting room, plate in one hand, fork in another, and a mouth full of the most delicious pie he'd had in...well, years probably. "Did you all know," he said, crumbs spilling from his mouth, and he didn't even care, "that Major Lorne makes pie? From scratch? The pastry and everything?"

"Yes, Rodney," Teyla replied, looking vaguely smug.

Well, Rodney figured she had a right to look smug if she'd known about the pie before him.

"Yep," Ronon said, nodding and leaning back against his chair, arms crossed. "Definitely."

Huh. Teyla and Ronon were in the know, apparently, and he shouldn't be surprised. They probably had their fingers in several...well, pies, as it were. People talked to Teyla. And Teyla talked to Ronon. They were their own little information sharing network.

"He makes great pie," Parrish added, maybe looking a little blissful.

What the hell was Parrish doing at this meeting? Oh well, Rodney shrugged it off. He had pie. It was amazing. Parrish had a right to look blissful. Frankly, Rodney was thinking about asking for this pie's hand in marriage or something. He would treat it right. And Major Lorne probably still had more pieces. This pie looked like it was...maybe a 6th of an average pie. It was a very generous slice. Rodney had been delighted when Lorne had handed it over, grinning, and saying, "No citrus came anywhere near it, Rodney."

Major Lorne. Rodney hadn't really ever paid him too much attention, aside from noticing a few key points: Lorne was a little sarcastic, good with a gun, kind of unobtrusive, he had nice dimples when he actually smiled. That kind of thing. Normal stuff.

But this pie. It added a new dimension to Lorne. An interesting dimension.

"Oh," Chuck said, walking into the room, datapad in hand. "Is that one of Major Lorne's pies?"

Rodney nodded, and Teyla, Ronon, and Parrish all hummed, "Mmmmhmm," in unison.

"Huh," Chuck said. "Nice. Lucky you, Rodney."

Yeah. Lucky him indeed. The pie was fantastic, better with every bite. And Lorne had said, "Hey, come by my quarters tonight, if you want some more." Boy, did he ever want some more. He couldn't wait for tonight.

And then Elizabeth and John finally - finally! - joined them in the meeting room, and it was about time, because Rodney was a busy man and he didn't have time to wait around while they futzed with dull logistical discussions or whatever. And also, he had finished his pie, and it was boring sitting around with nothing to distract him.

When the meeting ended - Parrish talked too much about some botanical nonsense, and Chuck took notes, and John kept looking at Rodney's empty plate and kind of smirk-frowning, which Rodney assumed was the way he reacted to not having his own pie - Rodney stood, said, "Not the best use of my time, thanks for that," and picked up the empty plate. He followed Ronon and Teyla out the door, said, "I am still thinking about the pie," and, "I don't even know what kind of fruit he used or what to call it." Mostly he was thinking of it as The Pie, putting it in a singular category, its own classification. It deserved it.

"Oh, Rodney," Teyla said, laughing lightly. "I believe Major Lorne called it his 'huk-up' pie, though I am uncertain what fruit it is."

Huh. He'd never heard of that kind of pie. Then again, he didn't usually bother to learn the names of the Pegasus fruits. Citrus and no-citrus was about as far as he got.

Later - much later - after a long day, and some interesting math, and a kind of boring dinner, and a visit to Major Lorne's quarters for more pie to make up for the dinner, Rodney lay flat on Lorne's bed, sweaty, wrung out, slightly stunned, a little giddy, and thought, oh, and huh, and holy shit, that really was the best pie I've ever had, and also the sex was amazing.

"Hey, Rodney," Lorne said, next to him. Rodney turned his head to the side. Lorne was grinning and he was still naked. So naked. Very, very appealingly naked. And his dimples were great. "You want more pie?"

Hell yes, he did.

#mclorne #lorne/mckay #pie #stargate atlantis #lorne/others #lorne kind of gets around i guess #pretty wholesome actually #my fic

[faithlesbian]

Oh bingo time!! - Angel/Lorne, and Darla/Dru

i would apologise for not answering this sooner but i was literally hanging out with you all weekend soo

Angel/Lorne

LOVE these two!!! lorne literally asked angel to an elton john concert and promised him itd be like they were the only two people in the room, and angel (autistic) was oblivious to the fact that was flirting. lorne's literally throwing everything he has at angel and its all going over his head. i think for angel it'd probably be a self-acceptance through the other type of thing for him to date another demon, but i really think lorne would have to learn to say No sometimes before it could actually be healthy. and normally im all for unhealthy but not for lorne :( he deserves better

Darla/Dru

oh my GOD do they make me insane. the whole thing about darla being dru's grandmother and then becoming her daughter and her lover... no ones doing gothic lesbianism like this. i think angel locking the two of them in the cellar with all the wolfram and hart lawyers as like a "go ahead, eat them" was one of the sexiest scenes on the show. however, i do think that even if they hadn't been yk set on fire, it wouldn't have lasted with just the two of them bc unlike angelus and spike, darla has no patience for dru being dru, which is actually why they ended up getting set on fire cause darla kept ignoring/dismissing what she assumed were non-sequiturs from dru that were actually premonitions. throughout that arc as well dru is like firmly in her dyke era taking interest mainly in female victims and she's really comitted to rebuilding their family starting with darla, but for darla i think dru is mostly a rebound, someone she's currently deeply infatuated with but doesn't actually get along with long-term. in the flashbacks she doesnt understand why angelus would want to turn this girl who's fully insane, she's often annoyed by the things dru says, and seems to only take interest in her in a surface level sexual/sadistic way. which actually compels me even more than if they were just basic sapphic vampire girlbosses or whatever cause theres an unequal level of emotional investment and they both feel so strongly in very different ways about the absence of angel from the relationship

#kissing u on the head for asking about these specifically #angel #lorne #darla #drusilla #asks

[cordiiceps]

TASK 04: PLAYLIST.

listen to the full playlist here. 

FAWN - CRYWOLF. in a flash the wicked won. oh the moment seemed so, moments seemed to clear  i'll rest your weary head beside my own. i will take these clothes and cover you my dear. god bless your soul, he has not blessed mine. / till you’re lonely and forlorn with all your oaths. you’re my heart, my rain, my poison, my fawn.

JOLT - UNLIKE PLUTO. and some will take the high road, i will go low. there's nothing left behind me, set fire to it all. the fury will fade and the images too. a world without you, that's what i need to do.

MOTH - DUA SALEH. i’m just getting settled in the den. making my amends with the devil in the ends. / i swear that i’m the man in the tower. i got a lawn chair to watch the bloom of the hours. you got a moncler. i wear the stink of the flowers. you got them big ben butterflies spring to devour.

I DO WHAT I WANT - MISSIO. i wish i could party like i used to when i was young. now i like to party by myself, i swear it's just as fun. / living the cocaine lifestyle is overrated. this isn't mexico, it's reality. and all of you party people don't get your feelings hurt. i'm incapable of being how you want me.

THE GUN - LORN. old wars, bad dreams. starlights must lead where they lay. new scars, dumb genes. my lady loves looking down at me. new name, no meaning. still looking for the same old feeling. 

THROUGH THE VALLEY - SHAWN JAMES. i walk through the valley of the shadow of death. and i'll fear no evil because i'm blind to it all. and my mind and my gun, they comfort me. because i know i'll kill my enemies when they come. / still, i walk beside the still waters, and they restore my soul. but i can't walk on the path of the right because i'm wrong.

INTRO (CREATURES OF HABIT) - GRETA ISAAC. however, if the spawn of a habit is mistreated.. guided by a trembling weak mind. the habit can inflame, and control of your very own desire can soon become out of control. the swelling of this dark defect can transform said habit into a disposition. an addiction. a sickness. a venomous enemy. / i'm caught in the same old ways. same old chain. don't want it.

BELLYACHE - BILLIE EILISH. my friends aren't far. in the back of my car lay their bodies. / my v is for vendetta. thought that i'd feel better. but now i got a bellyache. / the way i wear my noose like a necklace. i wanna make 'em scared. like i could be anywhere.

KEROSENE - CRYSTAL CASTLES. light of god dimming weak. nothing's wrong go back to sleep. lost the will at infancy. / i'll protect you from all the things i've seen. and i'll clean your wounds. rinse them with saline.

AFFECTION - CRYSTAL CASTLES. catch a moth, hold it in my hand. crush it casually. without past i can't disappoint. my ancestry.

LOVELY - BILLIE EILISH FT. KHALID. thought i found a way. thought i found a way out. but you never go away. so i guess i gotta stay now. / oh, i hope some day i'll make it out of here. even if it takes all night or a hundred years. need a place to hide, but i can't find one near. wanna feel alive, outside i can't fight my fear.

PATIENCE - LOW ROAR. sick of losing my patience. out of time, lacking rhythm. barely conscious, oversensitized. feeling weaker as i stumble around.

OUTLAWS - AU/RA. running out the door aiming for the waist down. pulling up the car, boy we're on the run now. had to wide the roads, light the fuse and stand back. all our hopes and dreams stuffed into this backpack. / see our faces on the posters by the roadside. we were the wanted ones long before the ink dried. we'll be fugitives, running from the mundane. you and i were just born to live in this way.

MINUS SIXTY ONE - WOODKID. minus sixty-one. have i every really loved someone? do i deserve what i've got? now the grid system's turned into traps. and the fear's switching sides. i own a million dollars worth of stock. but i still don't sleep at night. what is it that i've become?

19:00 - DANGER FT. TASHA THE AMAZON. wheels spinnin' on my way outta town, way outta town. they gon' look for me, look for me, i don't wanna be found. / they call me lost, maybe i'm lost, or maybe i'm finally found.

SILVER SCREEN - JONNY T FT. FOREIGN FIGURES. being me, i got to say is gourmet. maybe 'cause i just robbed the bank, ah. why do you still think that i'm charming? just here to crash another party. this tux is feelin' kinda starchy. but i like it. / i come on the silver screen. in a high-speed car chase scene. i could get away, but i love the chase, man. everyone's after me.

BLOODLINE - NORTHLANE FT. HEALTH. i can't escape you. no matter how far i run. i can't erase you. from who i've become. memories coursing through my veins. like the scars in yours, my roots remain. / i was raised in hell. i made it out by myself. i was raised to bleed.

WE ARE WHO WE ARE - MISSIO. it's not unusual to feel a little lonely. but sometimes loneliness can lead to better things. it's not unusual to feel a little guilty when sometimes guiltiness can show you a little more. why do we try to live a lie? it isn't worth it. who you tryna please? 'cause if it's me, it isn't working. we are who we are. that can be hard to accept. we are who we are. there's no reason to regret. we are who we are. life can be a punch to the chest. we are who we are. that can be hard to accept. you don't need to worry 'bout a thing. we are all fucked up human beings.

UGLY FRIENDS - POOLFIRE. i've made amends with my ugly friends. hard to pretend i like to be around them. and sometimes i want to take my fist and throw it through the wall. i know who my friends are and i don't like them at all. behind a beautiful smile all i'm thinking about is myself. when i'm with my friends i'd rather be somewhere else. / i can't feel anything anymore. not anything and i suck the blood from the dirt. wear it in my teeth. look me in my eyes. i-

OFF THE EDGE - HELLOVE FT. ZACK GRAY. i’m drowned in fears. i know i owe you one right into the sea of julia. i color my heart for you and set the walls on fire. now i've fallen into the same lies and i loath it. and i hope that i don't fold, i know. there's nothing here. and i’m holding on to what i lost. i know that. / working down my feelings just to say that i’m sorry. caught up in a maze of all the things that are not me. i buried my faults from you. i let the old grow tired. and i’ve already put my faith in how you saw fit.

#( n.v. ) tasks.

[takaraphoenix]

For the Ask Game, AtS?

Ahahaha, okay. Yeah. Can do that. I think. xD Thanks for playing!

favorite female character: this is a tough one, actually. On the one hand, I wanna go FRED because that's a character this show gave me. On the other hand, I wanna go HARMONY, because... everything wrong with AtS, the show actually gave Harm some really cool development and especially on the soul-lore aspect of things I absolutely adore that she just... she just stopped drinking human blood, for no other reason than that she wanted to?? That's a thing they made her decide, for no romantic motivation, no dramatic motivation, she just, for herself, decided to turn her life around. No chip, no soul, no nothing. I'm absolutely obsessed with that, honestly. So I think that my love for Harmony miiight edge Fred out there a little bit, even though I do adore Fred a lot (I also love Cordelia I really do, the women in AtS deserve so much better honestly and they're wonderful)

favorite male character: Real tempted to yell Spike at the top of my Spike-girlie-lungs, but I'ma refrain from it and say LORNE because this show gave me Lorne and I am actually obsessed with him though Gunn is also a really great one and I love him too

worst female character: oh Lilah always hated that bitch, the only woman on AtS where I didn't really care when they killed her off, sorry

worst male character: I mean I feel like I have to go with the bitch who stole Angel's baby and kinda ruined the show like I honestly feel like the baby snatching is when the show REALLY went downhill, I did actually enjoy AtS a lot, but then the baby stealing and prophecy around the baby that led up to the baby stealing was when AtS started to take a nose dive so fuck that hell-dimension living bitch

otp: Angel/Cordy. I'm still. I'm still mad at what they did to Cordy, individually and on her own account, but the way they slaughtered that ship was its own massacre. Having her sleep with Angel's son to bear some vicious demon monster was just. That dealt me psychic damage back in, what?, 2003?, and I'm still not dealing well with it. They really built up this ship so well and you thought "oh. oh wow. Angel's really moved on from Buffy, huh?", they actually made this work as a ship (which, ngl, solely based on BtVS that WAS a surprise ship that hit me outta left field!!!) and then they decided to tank it hard and honestly, with it, the show

brotp: Honestly, Fred and Spike. And IF CORDELIA HAD LIVED, we could have had a wonderful reunion of Harmony and Cordelia and let them be besties again, but evolved, for a whole season, and it would have been so glorious

notp: CONNER AND CORDELIA I DON'T KNOW WHY THAT EXISTED, SHE SHOULD HAVE BEEN HIS MOM

Movie/TV Show Ask Game

#Movie/TV Show Ask Game #send me asks #Angel the Series

[ragingpancake]

Ancients bless you for writing McShep. ♥️ I would LOVE to read something about John finding out Rodney plays piano o.o ... And maybe Rodney finds out John plays guitar O.O ... And m a y b e they start playing together 🥺🥺🥺 Or really anything involving them and their respective instruments; it can go wherever you want. ♥️

A/N: I'm so sorry for the delay on this! Thank you so very much for sending me this prompt! I hope you enjoy it! There are a lot of things he thinks he’d rather be doing at two am. Sleep, for one thing, because it’s been a long few days and while the bed the SGC had offered him at Cheyenne Mountain wasn’t as comfortable as the child sized bed he’d grown used to in Atlantis, it served the purpose well enough. But it’s not just the Pegasus Galaxy that hates them and so here he is, driving down the familiar streets of Fort Carson on his way back to the rundown bar he’d left most of his people at about four hours earlier. He’s annoyed, but he also understands: the memorial service for Carson had been rough, his loss felt more acutely somehow here on Earth than it had been on Atlantis and so despite the fact that the bartender had to call him to round up his group of misfits and herd them back to the base, he won’t be too hard on them. Pulling into the bar parking lot, he parks the borrowed car and climbs out, and even from here, he can hear the noise coming from inside and there are a lot of things he expects to find, but as he pulls the door open and steps inside, this is… one hundred percent not one of those things. “Sing us a song you're the piano man

Sing us a song tonight

Well we're all in the mood for a melody

And you've got us feelin' alright

Now John at the bar is a friend of mine—" Rodney spots him now and from his place at the piano, he falters, hitting the wrong keys in his haste to stand and wave, grinning broadly. “Hey! My buddy John! John! Hey! Come here!” John can tell, even from the doorway, that Rodney is completely wasted. His cheeks are flushed, eyes glazed, and Evan Lorne behind him isn’t in any better shape. The only one who appears to not be completely obliterated is Ronon, who’s leaning against the bar with an amused look on his face. John nods in his direction and walks over, never pulling his eyes from Rodney as he sinks back down onto the piano bench, resuming his rousingrendition of Piano Man while the left over stragglers in the bar hoot and holler, clearly enjoying the performance. “How long’s it been like this?” He asks Ronon. “Since ‘bout an hour after you left.” “Why didn’t you call me?” John asks and the look he gives the Satedan isn’t the most charitable. Ronon is not phased, merely shrugging one shoulder. “I dunno. Seems like he probably needed it. He’s had a hard time of it.” John can’t argue that. Out of everyone on Atlantis, he thinks Rodney was probably the closest to Carson. For all the ways they bickered and fought, there was a true friendship there, probably one of the most genuine friendships that Rodney’s ever had. Losing Carson was hard. He leans against the bar beside Ronon, arms crossed over his chest as he just watches, letting Rodney finish up and for the first time since the memorial, John really looks at him; he kind of wants to kick his own ass for not seeing it before, the weight of Rodney’s grief and guilt. Shit. “Yeah,” John sighs finally, making his way up to the bar stage before Rodney can be coerced into an encore performance. He supposes Rodney did need this. “Alright, buddy. C’mon. Time to go.” “But, but, but! John—” “Bar’s closing, pal. C’mon.” For a second, John thinks he’s going to have to enlist Ronon’s help in getting Rodney out, but it’s easy enough to manhandle him on his own, leaving Ronon to Lorne. --- The ride back to Cheyenne Mountain is mostly uneventful. Lorne passes out in the back seat, drooling on Ronon’s shoulder, while Rodney rambles incessantly about putting in an official request to bring a piano back to Atlantis, waxing poetic about all of the benefitsof music in regards to mental health. John placates him, promising he’ll make the request for the next Dedalus run and it seems to be good enough for Rodney who gives him a brilliant crooked smile. John hadn’t realized, until this moment, how long it’s actually seen since the last time he saw Rodney smile a real, genuine smile. Even though he knows it won’t last for much longer.

--- By the time they make it back to the mountain, it’s nearing 4am. Once again, Ronon takes Lorne, leaving John with Rodney and it’s easy enough to usher him back to John’s own quarters so he can keep an eye on him. Rodney’s gone quiet now and John imagines that the alcohol is starting to wear off, the feelings that Rodney had been trying so hard to suppress, creeping back in. “This isn’ my room,” Rodney slurs, and John shrugs. “I can take you there if you want. Just figured it’d be easier to keep an eye on you here.” “Oh,” Rodney says and not for the first time that night, John finds himself surprised by the scientist. He’d been gearing up for a fight, truthfully. Instead, Rodney trudges over to the bed and sits down, nearly pitching forward before John grips his shoulder, keeping him from toppling over. “Easy. I got ya.” And something shifts on Rodney’s face then. Here it comes, John thinks. “I should’a had Carson,” he says, voice strangely tight. “Fishing. We were supposed to go fishing. He wouldn’t have been in the city if I hadn’t—” “—Rodney,” John says, voice gentle. “You cannot go down this road, buddy. You know that. What happened to Carson is not your fault. You’re smart enough to know that.” “Maybe,” he says and he lets John guide him back down against the mattress. “But I should have gone. He was, he was a good friend, you know? So are you. Better than I deserve. So much better.” “That’s not true either,” and it’s these moments that the little cracks in Rodney are visible, the self-loathing thickening the air until it’s almost hard to breathe. “You’re a good guy, Rodney. A pain in the ass, sure, but you’re good. That’s why Carson liked you so much. He knew that. Even if you’re always trying to make sure no one actually sees you.” But they do. John does. He always has. “You gotta get some sleep, alright? We’re heading back tomorrow.” “Yeah,” Rodney agrees. “Yeah. ‘m tired. You should, you should sleep too.” “Don’t worry about me, buddy. Just get some sleep, alright? I’ll be here when you wake up.” And that’s all Rodney needs to close his eyes, the alcohol making it easier to drift into much needed sleep, leaving John to his own thoughts. There’s no point in sleeping now, he thinks. They’re due to Gate out in a few hours, so rather than even try, he reaches for the guitar he’d brought back with him, settling back into the chair across from the bed. He plucks the strings slowly, some long forgotten melody filling the quiet of the room as he watches Rodney sleep. They’ve lost a lot of people. Ford. Griffin. Abrams. Gall. Carson. Each of them have left their mark on all of them, carved into their hearts, their minds. John has spent so much time not letting himself feel, but tonight, it hits him all at once and for a moment, he can’t even breathe. They’ve lost. They keep losing and one day, he has no delusions about losing Rodney too, whether out in the field or to someone better than him, someone like Katie Brown. They have a finite amount of time, and it’s never been as clear to him before as it is now. Rodney is going to spend the rest of his life regretting not going on that damn fishing trip; John will regret not ordering Carson to stand down. It adds to the laundry list of all his other regrets, and he doesn’t think he has room for anymore. He knows what he must do. He settles back, strumming again against the strings, eyes never leaving Rodney’s face. Tomorrow, he decides. Tomorrow, when Rodney’s sobered up, when they’re back home on Atlantis, John will tell him. Maybe they can help each other navigate through the hurt, the loss, and for once… for once, they can deal with what they’re feeling together instead of alone. It’s at least worth a try.

#prompt fic #mcshep #pre-mcshep #fandom: sga #stargate atlantis #sga #john sheppard/rodney mckay #john sheppard #rodney mckay

[imaginesbymonika]

“Until they discover what a mess I truly am.”

Pairing: Pete Davidson x reader

Warnings: Angst, mentions of depression, fluff at the end

As a writer for SNL Y/N knew a bunch of famous people, she worked with almost everyone since she had started in 2013. The young woman began writing at the age of 17, being the youngest female writer in Saturday Night Live history. On the one hand, it was super fun, the thrill of working among people such as Seth Meyers or Lorne Michaels filled her with pride. At the same time, it was intimidating and occasionally mentally exhausting. It felt like she frequently had to prove herself to everyone, prove that she was worthy of being a writer for SNL at such a young age. She constantly had to work twice as hard.

The first person that looked at Y/N as an equal writer was John Mulaney. John treated her like an adult and whenever she happened to be in the writers' room with him, he always wanted to hear her ideas and opinions on scripts and previous shows.

He explained that he saw a piece of himself in her, and he knew exactly how tough the first year could be without having at least one friend.

To this day still, Y/N was incredibly grateful for him.

Over the years she had met a lot of writers, some of them grabbing her attention more than others. But at the end of the day, none of them seemed to be 'dateable'. John always wanted to set her up with one of his friends, but she always declined saying he was her friend, not her dating service. Until Y/N met Pete Davidson.

„Sorry, I’m late.“, he announced after entering the writers' room. He sat down on the opposite side of Y/N and flashed her a quick smile, before leaning back in his chair.

„I saw how you stared at Pete this morning.“, John later said as the two left the SNL building. She simply rolled her eyes and turned her head away from her friend, humiliated that her cheeks were burning up.

The very first-time Y/N realized she had developed quite the crush on Pete was after his proposal announcement.

He held up Ariana’s hand, while a huge smile played on his lips: “WE‘RE GETTING MARRIED!“. She could see the little tattoo behind his ear and sighed.

She could feel her heart breaking, but when his eyes met hers, Y/N smiled softly and nodded her head at him. Forming the word „Congrats“ with her lips.

From that moment on, she tried her best to get over him. Dating guys and having one night stands- Y/N did everything to keep Pete of her mind. She hardly saw him, during the time of his engagement, which was a miracle. But after the engagement was canceled, he was around more often. They sometimes made eye contact in the writers' room or at an after-show party. But Y/N kept her distance, knowing that once they would start talking again- her old feelings would resurface.

„Pete asked about you again.“, John explains while handing her a cup of coffee. „Thank you.“. Making her snap out of her thoughts: “Are you alright?“.

She simply nods: “Yeah, I’m fine.“.

„Did you hear what I said? Pete-.“.

„Yeah, I heard you.“, Y/N interrupts him, a bit more cold than she intended. She takes a sip before looking at her old friend apologetic: “John, you know how I feel about Pete- I don’t want to get my hopes up. He’s out there dating these supermodels, I just don’t-“, she pauses for a second: “I just don’t fit into that picture.“.

John, confused and a bit overwhelmed by her words swallows thickly: “Okay, wow. I never expected you to think that little of yourself-.“.

„Pete’s too good for me. Hell, he’s too good for anyone, really.“, she explains: “Let’s not talk about him. Please.”.

„That’s exactly what he said about her.“, Anna, John's wife, exclaims after Y/N left their apartment: “We need to do something about this mess.“.

„I don’t know.“, Pete says, holding a cigarette in his hand: “I mean, it’s not like I don’t find Y/N attractive... she’s really pretty, but I feel like she deserves more- better than this.“. He makes a hand gesture, pointing at himself.

„But Pete-.“.

„Look, I appreciate your concerns but - it’s always the same. I like a girl, we date then she gets to know the real me- like the real me. You know how fucked up I am. She breaks up with me.“, Pete explains: “And I don’t know, I can get it when they’re famous- like Ariana or Kaia...but a normal girl like Y/N? That would probably break my heart.“.

Anna and John exchange a look.

Y/N who walks into her office turns on the lights. One hour earlier she received a weird text message from John saying:

Sorry to text you this late, there’s some trouble at the office considering the sketch for tomorrow. Would be great if you could go there, rehearse it and look it over. Anna and I have our date night, so it would be you with another writer. Thanks. Love you.

„Hello-?“, a voice asks and Y/N lets out a high-pitched scream. She quickly turns around and sees Pete Davidson standing in the door frame.

„Oh my god, Pete.“, she says and runs a hand down her face. She can hear how he chuckles slightly. “You scared the living shit out of me. Don’t ever do that again!“.

„What? Say hello?“, he smiles and Y/N just rolls her eyes in response.

„I guess, it’s just you and me.“, Y/N points out and hopes that John was mentally preparing himself for what’s going to happen the next time they see each other again: “John said there’s some sort of Sketch, waiting here...but I can’t find one.“

„John texted you too?“, Y/N asks and her eyes widen: “Maybe he made a mistake?“.

„Nah, I don’t think so.“.

An awkward silence falls upon the two and after a few seconds Y/N walks over to her computer: “Maybe he sent me the script via E-Mail, let me check.“. Meanwhile, Pete sits down on the little couch and watches her.

„You should get a bigger couch.“, he exclaims and when Y/N looks up from the screen, he smiles at her. It makes her cheek blush and she quickly hides her face beneath the computer.

„Now... how’s life treating you?“, Pete asks and lays down, he stares at the ceiling.

Y/N sighs: “It’s okay, I guess. What about you? I heard you’re currently dating this actress. Kate. How’s that working out?”.

„No.“, he replies: “I’m not, we- well, she broke up with me a month later. I feel like they all think I’m a great guy until they date me and discover what a mess I truly am. Or maybe it’s the fact that Ariana said my dick is huge so- they want to check that out themselves. I don’t know.”.

The young woman stops typing and looks at Pete again, she leans back in her chair: “I hope you know, that’s not true.”.

“How do you know? I never showed you my dick. Or did I? If I-.”.

“Pete, you’re not a mess, you just have some mental health issues. If these women can’t 'handle' you that’s not your problem but theirs. You are a great guy and every girl would be lucky to have you by their side... I can’t seem to find an email, I’ll call John.“.She gets up from her chair and leaves the room: “I’ll get myself a cup of coffee afterward, you want some?.“.

Pete, speechless by her words slowly sits up straight on the couch. He never expected someone to say something so kind about him. He gets up and leaves the room. At the end of the hallway stands Y/N, slightly slapping the coffee machine.

„I can’t reach John, and this stupid machine isn’t working-.“, she says, frustration audible in her voice.

„Did you mean what you just said?“,he asks and Y/N looks up.

She stares at him for a few seconds: “Yeah, why-?“.

„This might sound ridiculous.”, he starts, crosses his arms, and leans against the wall:” But... did John talked to you about asking me out for a date?”.

As soon as the words leave his mouth the color on Y/N’s face disappears. She can feel how her mouth runs dry and her hands start to sweat.

“Because he talked to me about asking you out. And-.”.

“What did you say to him?”.

He wrinkles his forehead:” Of course, I said no.”.

“Oh.”.

Y/N can feel it. She can feel how her heart is breaking in ways she didn’t know were possible. If dying of a broken heart was a real thing, maybe now it would happen to her.

“Of course.”, she repeats his words and scratches her eyebrow.

“Yeah, I mean- you wouldn’t date me either. That’s probably what you told John.”, Pete chuckles but stops when he sees Y/N’s facial expression. His eyes widen:” Shit, no.”, he says, almost like a whisper.

Y/N rushes past him into her office before the tears are falling. She didn’t care. Not now.

“Y/N- I...”, he starts but the girl shakes her head.

“Go Home, Pete. I’ll call John and tell him I didn’t find the script.”.

“I just assumed we were on the same page.”, he says, ignoring what she just said:” Like, look at you and look at me- I’m too much of a jerk for someone like you!”.

“Excuse me?“, she replies, her voice growing louder with every second passing: “Since when do you decide what’s best for me?“.

„I don’t want you to get hurt, I’m difficult. Fuck, Y/N, you know that. We’ve been working together for such a long time now. If we would get together, I don’t know if I could survive you thinking the same way these girls think about me now.“.

Y/N sighs and crosses her arms in front of her chest, as if she was trying to protect the last bit of her heart: “You’re right, we shouldn’t get together.“.

„W-what?“.

„Pete.“, she slowly takes his hand, her voice breaking: “You need to work on your mental health, you can’t just jump from one relationship into the next. That’s unhealthy. But... I will help you. I will be there for you until you’re truly ready to date again.“.

A soft smile spreads on his lips: “That sounds good.“, he leans down: “One kiss, though?“.

„Sure.“, she replies:” You can get more than one..”.And when their lips meet, it feels better than she could have ever imagined.

#pete davidson #pete x reader #john mulaney #pete davidson imagine #pete davidson x reader #snl #snl imagine #imagine #x reader #pete x y/n #davidson #pete #john #mulaney #fluff #angst

[sleepypeaky]

Butterflies- finnsiah

wc: 972

finn shelby x isiah jesus

summary: finn is jealous that isiah and michael are friends, but for a reason

note about the ages: cannonically i think isiah and michael are the same age but i made him younger so it wouldnt be creepy, so michael was born in 1904 (18) isiah 1906 (16)  finn 1908 (14)

Finn sat in misery between his brothers.

Sitting between two drunk brothers who refuse to speak openly in front of you is bad enough. But in addition, everyone’s new best friend michael was out with isiah.

No one payed him any attention anyway, but now there was a new and better option to look at. So Finn felt even more snubbed than usual. 

But michael and isiah got to him deeper than the others. Even as much as finn pretended it was just a wish to be involved, he knew it was more than that.

But he also knew isiah must prefer michael. Not some family runt.

“Oi finn cheer up!” John slapped the boy on the back and handed him his beer.

“john not the booze again, ‘ez only a kid.” Arthur grunted.

Finn rolled his eyes and passed the nearly empty glass back to john.

The door to the private room opened and in walked a very ruffed up looking Michael and isiah. Finn felt his small breath catch as he saw the blood on isiahs hands and a cut on his face.

Upon arthurs questioning, they discovered the cause of the situation was some bastards wouldnt let isiah drink with michael.

A hot pool of anger grew inside of finn. 

“oi, which pub?” Arthur demanded.

“The marquis of lorne”

“Righ’ then.” Arthur and john got to their feet, finn followed suit only to be pushed back down.

He wanted to do something just this once, but it was in vain, theyd never let him.

Through his muddled thoughts Finn heard isiah sigh ‘shame, it was a good pub.’ So at least the pub would get what it deserved, finn thought.

--

A short while later, finn kicked the pebbles of the street as he walked home, not that he had to go home, no one was there.

Up ahead Michael and isiah were chatting as they walked. Finn stared longingly at the pair. 

“Fuck this.” he muttered.

He kicked a large stone and ran down the street home. This both used some of the anger he felt and took the pair away from his immediate sightline.

---

Michael watched in confusion as his cousin darted past them and into his house. Isiah had a similar expression of bewilderment.

“Wha...?” Michael started.

Isiah shook his head,

“No idea. Ill check on him later.”

Isiah brought Michael to his door and thanked him for helping fight at the pub. Then he doubled back to the shelby residence. 

The door was open as usual, and isiah let himself inside.

“Finn?” He called.

“He’s upstairs isiah.” A woman’s voice (probably esme) yelled back.

So he took the stairs up to the second floor and made his way down a fightfully dark hallway to finns room. There was light coming through the nearly closed door. He entered to find finn sitting on his bed, scowling.

“Oi wha’s the matter with you then?”

Finn turned his head away,

“Nuthin’s the matter, no’ that you’d care.”

Isiah got closer and sat down heavily next to finn on the bed, causing him to scoot away out of spite.

“Wait, are you upset ‘cause of me an’ michael?”

Finn turned his head back and glared into isiahs eyes.

“well everyone seems to care about ‘im more than me. Just thought you were different.”

Isiah took his hat off.

“Finn, tha’s not true and you know it. Me and michael are jus’ mates. He’s new here and needs someone to hang with. 

“Im just sick of being left behind! and by you of all people!” he was yelling now, and he could feel a prickle in his eyes as angry tears formed.

Isiah looked confused,

“Finn we’re pals, ill always be your mate.”

Finn wrung his hands, his emotions were reaching a breaking point.

“No its just-“ He stopped yelling. 

In an act of boyish courage he leaned down to the seated isiah and kissed him. 

Almost immediately finn realized the grave mistake he made.

He quickly pulled himself back and cowered into the corner.

“Oh god im sorry , oh god please....that didnt happen....”

He shook, frightened tears starting to dribble from his eyes, and went to run out the door when isiah stood and grabbed his arm. One swift tug brought Finn close to him and he, now the taller, kissed finn back.

Finn felt new tears mix with his own and butterflies, thousands of them, erupted in his entire body. It felt like warm wind was stirring through his body. It was euphoria, love, happiness; all overriding the fear he felt just moments before.

When their lips parted, Finn couldnt find the words to speak. Everything came out all jumbled.

“I... How long.... i never thought-”

His ramblings were silenced by a shhh from isiah as he pulled him into an embrace.

--

“Wha’ do we do now?” Finn whispered

He now lay beside isiah with his head on isiah’s chest.

“I dont know. i really dont know.”

Finn sighed,

“We could move ta london, i know ada is ok with people like us.”

Isiah nodded.

“Th’ would be nice, but i think we can make it here, im a blinder and you’re a shelby afterall.”

Finn looked up to him and smirked,

“quite the duo huh.”

--

Ada knew, tommy knew, john and esme knew, polly,... no word yet on arthur. his skull’s too thick. 

But by far their gretest champion was Michael.

He became the unofficial defender of isiah and finn, both because of their youger age, and also because he knew people wouldnt mess with all three of them.

No one dared speak or gossip about them alone, but when michael was there. No one even looked in their direction.

and all was as well as it could be

and they were happy

--

as always i suck at endings, hope you liked! Im also ready to write for any established!finnsiah things so i thought this would be a good beginning point

#finn shelby imagine #finn shelby x isiah jesus #isiah jesus #isiah jesus imagine #isiah jesus x finn shelby #finsiah #finnsiah #Peaky Blinders #peaky blinders imagine #peaky blinders fic #gay peaky blinders #isiah x finn #finn x isiah #finn shelby #michael gray

[tenrose]

Doctor Who Tag Game

Tagged by: @sopheirion​ thank you!!!

Favourite Doctor: Ten, ten and always Ten. I just love David’s portrayal’s of the Doctor more than I can say. I love the good, and I love the bad. I love when he’s being an idiot, when he’s flirtatious as hell with Rose (omg the memories) like you two get a room, when he finally snaps, when he’s a dumb oblivious as fuck and you want to smack cause he’s being an asshole, I love when he’s heartbroken. The faces David pulls are the best thing in the world. Like his ‘I don’t want to go’ ARE YOU KIDDING ME DAVID??? And the whole Doomsday episode, his blank face against the wall omg I’m gonna cry right now. And when this bitch has the audacity to disappear before saying it aaaaahhhh. But also the way he talk quickly and absolute nonsense. His ‘er’. When he’s being silly as hell with Donna, those were the good times. When he’s angry yelling, but also when he’s cold angry in the end of The Family of Blood. When he realize things and make the ‘oh i’m so stupid thing’ but also when he’s realizing sad thing like with the end of Donna. Bitch when he cries under the rain like some edgy boy, I cry too. His smile when things are getting exciting, but also the smile going into his eyes that is just for Rose and only Rose Tyler The various face he makes with Donna, all  the non verbal communication. Also when Martha decides to leave and you can see that he’s (too late) proud of her, and after that when he sees her again he’s being honest with her..The way he pronounces certain words if that makes sense???? Also David’s whole acting in Midnight, that was insane on so many levels. And least but not last : his iconic hair. I don’t think I need to tell more. And aside from that, I love all his season’s arcs, all his companions are my top three favourites. And of course, my close second favourite is Nine, cause without Nine, Ten wouldn’t be the Doctor he was.

Favourite Master: tbh I’m not that much into the Master, but I guess it’s Simm!Master cause I love his arcs. But I also love Missy as a character (not sure about her arcs though)

Favourite Sonic: I love both Nine/Ten’s sonic and Eleven’s sonic. 

Favourite Companion: aaaaahhhh not this question lmao. So I can’t really choose between Rose and Donna. I just love them both too much. So I’m not even a hardcore shipper of anyything by tumblr’s standards at least lmao, but the Doctor and Rose (both Nine and Ten) as been the first fictional couple I deeply rooted for (like I’ve enjoyed a lot of other ships before but never as harder and deeply) and that I still root for after all these years (in fact Clexa is the only other one that goes that hard, but everything else is just phases, they come and they go but they never stay). I love the tragedy of them, bitch who am I kidding, I love it that much cause it’s a tragedy lmao. I just love how they both make each other better, but also how they flirt like dumbass teens, how they communicate, how they cry for each other. BUT, and it’s very important, I love Rose for herself. She’s not just interesting because of the Doctor. She’s so relatable for instance? Like she’s not from a wealthy family, she clearly doesn’t give two fuck about fashion (or was it 2005 who was like this?), she’s not too smart, too pretty (ok she’s definitely is for me), too much of anything, she’s average. And I love this a freaking lot you can’t imagine. She has flaws, and yes that’s exactly what we want in a character. Yes she has moments when she’s being selfish (but who doesn’t? especially when in love), and yet she has some of the most beautiful selfless moments,sacrificing herlself in Doomsday is the best cause she was literally gonna end up in the void but she didn’t hesitated for one second. Also when she’s showing empathy for other people, she’s being caring and understanding. And she doesn’t take anyone’s else bullshit, she call them out, and that include the Doctor first. Just because she loves him doesn’t mean it’s gonna stop her from telling him to stop being a punk ass bitch. Also she evolved so much between s2 and s4, and I don’t think it’s character inconsistency, it’s just that it happened off screen. BY THE WAY I WOULD VERY MUCH A SPIN OFF ABOUT ROSE TYLER HOPPING WORLDS THANK YOU VERY MUCH @BBC!!! 

Now Donna? Where do I start? She’s also average, and also very relatable. In fact, personnally I think she’s the most relatable for me. Using humour, snark and sass to hide 10 thousands insecurities? Yes that’s the most relatable thing ever. Donna is the funniest character but she’s also the one who has the saddest ending in my opinion. Cause she grow up, she sees the world, and she understand that she is THE shit, she matters, she is important, and then she forgets all about it. That’s so cruel, and heartbreaking and angering, cause she deserved everyfuckingthing, she deserved the world. And her departure hit me so fucking hard. She’s going back to her life, thinking she would be not enough, I can feel that so deeply. Aaaahhh I’m hurting myself writing this. But she’s so amazing, she’s smart, thinking out of the box really make her so great, and she’s the one who take the least shit about anything. She stands up, yells, makes a scene, but she get straight to the point. Also she’s not the young and conventionally attractive companion and she knows that. And she’s so funny and sassy, and close to the Doctor. I mean she’s the Doctor Donna for a reason, she’s like a human version of the Doctor, with the sass, the babbling, the clumsiness. God I love Donna so much, I wish I had so much more of her. Also she has absolutely zero romantic feelings for the Doctor and the fact that they are the bitchy bffs of the universe is the best. 

Favourite Story: I love a lot of stories, but my favourite is The Stolen Earth/Journey’s End no doubt. The story is a perfect mix of happiness, having every RTD’s characters together, all my fave working together is the absolute best, and of sadness, the departure of Donna (I won’t re talk about it ok) and Ten letting Rose go AGAIN. And the fact that there’s everyone he loves in these episode but then he ends up all on his own. God why do I love being hurt so much??? And the Daleks are also my favourite villains (it’s just such DW bullshit as a villain tbh lmfao) so I have everything I want. Generally speaking I love RTD’s arcs, cause the sign are here the whole seasons (Bad Wolf, vote Saxon, the bees disappearing and she’s coming back) but it’s not a ‘HEY LOOK THERE’S SOMETHING FISHY TO SEE HERE HEYYYY’ or ‘WE ARE STARTING THE SEASON WITH ONE QUESTION, ONE PLOT POINT AND THAT’S WHAT YOU’LL WANT TO BE RESOLVED BY THE END OF THE SEASON’,  it’s subtle, it’s casual mention, and it’s when you’re in the last three episode that you’re starting to realize something is wrong...That’s one of my favourite type of writing ever (that’s probably why I love Sanderson’s books too). It’s not some mystery to solve, cause there weren’t any mystery to solve, because me, a dumbass viewer, weren’t even paying attention at first. But it’s here, it fills the plot. And when you see it you’re like ‘of course’. It’s not forced on me if I can say it like this. It allows me to see other stuffs. It’s not attention seeking I guess? But yes the end of s4 is my favourite story, all is in place. All characters do what they do best. There’s laugh and there’s tears, and I love it.

Favourite Soundtrack: everything Murray Gold has been doing for the show is pure gold and I think that’s a thing the whole fandom can agree upon. My artist of the decade according to Spotify is him, and considering I haven’t listened daily to his songs (except for some still regularly) I think that say a lot about how much I used to love both his music and the show at some point. My favourite of his are Doomsday’s Theme ofc, Love Across the Distant Stars, I am the Doctor, Rose’s Theme, Amy’s Theme, Clara’s Theme, Vale and cry. All of them. And that include the one soundtracks for episodes I don’t even like lmao.  

Dream Actor for next Doctor: I don’t know, why not John Boyega? He deserves to be the main character and be treated well, of a sci-fi show. 

Dream Composer: Murray Gold come back to me. Or I would love a glimpse of what Lorne Balfe could do.

Dream Story: Something that involves seeing Rose and Tentoo, and Martha as the Earth counselor, with Thirteen still having feelings for Rose. And Rose too.  But the plot? Idk lmao. However the end would be sad cause Thirteen would have to see Rose and Tentoo coming back to their world, and I would cry. Also Thirteen would aknowledge Martha as the smarter companion the Doctor had ever had lmao.

A Companion You’d like to see back:  Martha, but like not as a companion cause she made it clear that she would not come back, and that wouldn’t be fitting her character if she changed her mind. But she could always be accidentally stuck in the TARDIS, I mean it happened once. But really I would just love to have her coming to the rescue when shit on Earth goes too far and the Doctor needs help of a specialist. That’s Martha you need Doctor.

An Enemy/Alien/Creature you’d like to see again: I’m always here to see the daleks. 

If you could travel with one of the Doctors, which Doctor and why?: Ten? Because he’s my fave, but also Thirteen because I’m gay and I would like to take my chance lmao

#tag games #dw #this has been long sorry lmao #never awake my dw feels

[darrowsrising]

Red Rising Rage Review:

Ok, so @apex-aureate asked me to share my opinion on Pip's Read's 'Red Rising Rage Review'. Particulary what she thinks about Darrow.

Before all of that, I have to say that Darrow is my favourite character. My absolute favourite character! So take this with a grain of salt.

I'm not trying to change opinions or something, this is just my opinion of the review. I respect the reviewer's opinion in general.

I'll problably get hate anyway, but you asked for this and I'll deliver without sugarcoating (you know, like some people don't do with Roque...sorry, couldn't help it)

Now to the tea spilling:

First of all I have to adress the blasphemy: the Women of Red Rising aren't bland. And they don't exist for Darrow's sexual frustration. There was a single minor incident in GS when Victra tried to seduce Darrow. And that was all. He refused her and that was the end of story. He didn't use her in any way sexually (or otherwise) Victra went on and became one of the fiercest warriors in the Rising. Also, his love for Virginia was in no way only sexually orientated. And Holiday, Orion, Evey, Harmony, Pebble, Harpy, Aja etc. are in no way, shape or form there for Darrow's sexual frustration...he never, ever, ever sees them like that. I mean...did we read the same books?

Secondly, the reviewer is mad at Darrow because he is the only one who narrates. And she's mad that he's not a political person. Yes, he's more of a social-justice fighter, sorry he doesn't like to play political games with the lives of his people when he isn't even good at it. He himself admits Mustang is way better at politics than him, he's more of a man of action. Now, I think the charm of the trilogy is Darrow's pov. But I do understand that it's not everyone's cup of tea.

The reviewer is also mad that there are too many deus-ex-machinas in the series. And Darrow is a dick, because he holds back from the reader. Well, I think that this is a very subjective matter. In my opinion, Darrow holding back stuff from the reader is understandable because there are time gaps between the books, so of course he isn't going to make a recap of everything jist because you want to know everything. And all the mocking she did was really...inaccurate? I think that's the word. For example (if I'm not mistaken), in Golden Son, Darrow says that Cassius deserves his Morning Knight title because he is indeed amazing with his razor and Darrow feels like he would die if he fought like Cassius did - using kravat. But he uses the Willow Way, taught by Lorn himself in that time gap between RR and GS. So, I think this one is a matter of perspective. I loved it. She didn't.

Also, I think it's not fair that she reduced those instances to 'Darow makes deus ex machina plans and it's annoying'. The deus ex machinas work because it's not Darrow who just gets out of tough spots like a breeze. He's saved, he's helped all the time. Mustang, Fitchner, the Howlers, the PitVipers, they always save him from dying. Sometimes it's his own abilities to balance out stuff. But it is as realistic as possible, imo at least.

Also, I think it's not fair to say that enhancing a human being made us think that limb loss or other stuff are nothing. On the contrary, through out the trilogy there are explainatiin as to why people keep dying if we have such technology: Carving a Red to a Gold is very hard and not many survive (Darrow and Titus survived, but then not many survive the Intitute or the Academy - the risk of dying is always high and I doubt there are hundreds of Carved Reds), Carvings are really, really expensive (ask Fitchner), losing limbs isn't always going to end with Carving back the limb - mostly it is going to end to bionic prostheics - see Sevro is Golden Son and Thraxa in Iron Gold and thousands of soldiers in MS, there are Golds who believe in eugenics so they'd rather die or let their loved ones die than use advanced medicine.

Basically, the reviewer really, really doesn't like the 1st person narration at all that she channels that into Darrow. Or she doesn't like Darrow at all and she channels that into the narration. Can't really tell, so it's probably both. Anyway, after laying out how much she disliked the narration and the narrator, she said that Darrow is annoying, she wants to punch him in the face, he is boring, he is so damn self-absorbed and selfish.

My opinion on that is that...idk, did we read the same books? Yes, Darrow is a drama queen. Yes, Darrow is proud of his abilities. He also constantly reminds us that his image is exacerbated. There is a distinction between Reaper and Darrow. Reaper is an image that Darrow and his allies created to be god-like with the purpose of sending a message of hope and fear into the worlds. Darrow - the man - is just that. A man. He is a good friend (not all the time, but who is a good friend all the time), he is a good fighter, he loves to dance and eat strawberries. He genuinely loves his family, his friends, his love. He is from time to time way too focused on his goal that he forgets everyone else. He becomes self-absorbed once in a while. He forgets some important things - like when he was left alone for like 2-3 years and had to be reminded why he fights by Harmony. But that's not entirely making up his character.

Edit: there was also this thing that she disliked - Darrow seeming like he can read people's minds...I guess that is a matter of perspective, but I never even thought of that as a problem. And now that I think about it...I don't feel like it's such a big deal. Many 1st pov are like that. Plus, Darrow is sometimes so damn sure of what other people think and it ends up with him being wrong all along...so, I don't think it's a proble at all. But that's a matter of perspective too...although I think that's nitpicking to hell, but that's just me.

Another thing I noticed the reviewer didn't like was the fact that Darrow has beautiful monologues before battles and that's unrealistic, because he makes stupid decisions immediatelly afterwards ...err, have you ever read a war journal wrote by a soldier? I did. His name was Camil Petrescu, he had very beautiful monologues before he went to battle...where he fucked up and survived through a miracle. After that his carreer as a writer skyrocketed.

Anyway, my point is that...I don't understand why it's unrealistic. Believe it or not it seems to me easier to be contemplative and to philosophe like a true master when you sit in a duroSteel box which will send you into the stratosphere while enemies will shoot at you. I bet it makes you think a lot about life and death and warfare and love and why you are fighting and stuff like that. You know...exactly what Darrow talks about...idk, this again I think it is a matter of perspective.

Can I reitterate that the women of Red Rising aren't looked at from a sexual pov ? I'll hang myself with this one if I have to.

No but really, that's the only thing that propelled me into rage in that review. Darrow of Lykos? Seeing every female as a vent for his sexual frustration? Where? When? How? What the fuck? I can never agree with this. Ever! They are not there for him to get his dick hard! What the actual fuck! The guy refuses Pinks on a daily, why are we even debating this?

I get it that she didn't like the books that much. I respect that. I get it that people who say it's the best sci-fi are stretching it more than a little.

I also understand why she wants a 3rd person narration.

But her points about Darrow being selfish and self-absorbed (and generally a stupid jock tm), her opinion on the women of Red Rising (especially this one), her downplay of Victra's character (she's so much more than her hitting on Darrow that one time and I hate that I have to remind everyone of that, wtf) ar things that I can never agree with. This is so far from factual I can't even.

I'm not trying to be disrespectful or anything. And I'm sorry if it came that way.

Edit: the Women of Red Rising are amazing and the stuff said about them in this review are blasphemous. You can argue with me all you want, you can't change my mind, sorry.

Anyway, hope I don't get hanged for this one! Per aspera ad astra!

Oh, and if you want to, you can still send me asks with 'your opinion on...'. It is a tumblr game thingy I rebloged a while ago and this was @apex-aureate 's ask basically.

I tried to edit the mistakes I made, because I answered this on my phone. I also added some stuff I remembered from the review, but I didn't address in hopes to be as thorough as possible. Hope it is satisfying grammatically speaking. I'm not a native speaker, so if I made mistakes, please point them out and I'll rectify them.

#red rising trilogy #darrow of lykos #darrow au andromedus #reaper

[ifeveristoday]

Buffy Summers’s Diary (VIII)

Buffy Summers’s Diary VIII

Shout out to @gracenm for reccing this fic! I really appreciate that you comment on every diary entry. 😊

1 iced tea

1 not date

1 unexpected guest

38 days until I can go on my summer vacation

 There’s nothing to be done. I am clearly cursed and I should just retreat to the safety of a nunnery somewhere. Are there still nunneries around? Maybe I should check. Or an alpaca farm – they look cute and I could knit myself a sweater. To keep me cozy because I am not fit for human company, romantic or otherwise. That’s me, Buffy the social leper.

It wouldn’t have been so embarrassing if the beginning of the date, hangout was bad too – like Angel was late and we had a flat tire, or fires broke out on the promenade, something majorly inconvenient – but everything was fine. Angel arrived at my apartment exactly at twelve o’clock. I let him inside while I double checked that I turned off my stove.

‘This is nice,’ Angel said, looking around my apartment.

‘I know, it’s small,’ I tossed a blanket over the suddenly obvious wine stain on my couch. ‘Give me a second to put on my sneakers.’

‘No, I mean it – it feels comfortable. You get a lot of light here.’

‘That’s partly why I picked it – it’s really great in summer, all the sunlight streams into the living room. I just need to remember to draw the curtains at night.’

I slipped on my sneakers. ‘Okay. All ready – where are we going?’

Angel offered his arm. ‘It’s fairly close to my work – I eat there a lot.’

‘Sounds great. What’s the name?’

‘Caritas bar and grill.’

‘We’re going to a bar?’ I touched the crook of his arm carefully. I could smell the same cologne he used from the interview – it was a clean, kind of woodsy scent. Like the fresh air in a forest or something. ‘Are you going to be okay?’

‘They also serve non-alcoholic drinks, Buffy.’ Angel smiled. ‘And I’m on my lunch break – so it’s not really wine o’clock.’

‘Oh, right. I mean – I know you wouldn’t drink anyway,’ I could feel myself start to babble. My face started to heat up.

‘They actually have really good coffee. And I know what you meant. The temptation is there, but I’ve gotten better at ignoring it.’

‘How long have you been sober? Is that okay to ask?’

‘Yeah. It’s been seven years.’

He squeezed my hand as I let go of his arm so I could lock my door.

There was a slight shock. I jumped. ‘Sorry! Static – I knew I should have used more fabric softener.’

‘It’s okay, Buffy.’ There was a definite laughing tone in his voice – I looked at him, but Angel’s poker face was legendary for a reason.

‘So, what’s new with you?’

He led me to his car, a sleek black bullet of a machine and I stared at it for a minute. ‘Are you Batman, Angel?’

This time he really did laugh. ‘I’d be making a lot more money if I was.’

  So I survived small talk while Angel drove us to Caritas. We talked about work – he liked his job and looking up obscure laws to cite precedence for his briefs, I told him about Young Media pivoting more to video and growing our social media, which meant I had to make a twitter and Instagram account. Which meant I had to block a lot of troll accounts who kept on sliding into my DMs with filthy pictures.

‘I’m glad I’m not on social media,’ Angel said after I told him the latest entry into my ban hall of fame. ‘Email is about as technical as I’m willing to get.’

‘It has its uses,’ I shrug. ‘Mostly for porn and cat pictures.’

‘Well,’ Angel said after a long pause. ‘We’re here.’

He got out and opened my door while I was clicking my seatbelt free. Then my brain helpfully reminded me that I had mentioned porn and cat pictures in the same breath to Angel, and I froze.

‘Buffy? What’s wrong?’

 ‘I forgot how easy it was to talk to you. And that I usually said stupid stuff.’

‘You didn’t say anything stupid.’ Angel clicked his key fob and his batmobile beeped. ‘And I like that you’re comfortable with me.’

‘Oh,’ I said.

‘I missed being friends with you,’ he said softly. ‘It was chance that I saw you at your mother’s party.’

‘And I brought up Darla. I’m really sorry about that, by the way.’

‘You didn’t know. I overreacted.’ He cleared his throat. ‘Where do you want to sit? At the bar or outside on the patio?’

  Caritas was the coolest bar/grill/lounge I’ve been to in a long time. The owner, Lorne, happened to be one of Angel’s oldest friends. He comped my iced tea (nonalcoholic), Angel’s coffee, and our appetizers (mini tacos and pulled pork sliders). A small mountain of sliders appeared in front of Angel and he pushed the platter at me. ‘Lorne’s generosity at work again. Have some, please.’

‘Are you sure? I have my tacos.’

‘I’m sure. I’m surprised Lorne didn’t drown you in tacos too.’

‘I think he has a crush on you,’ I grinned and reached for a slider. ‘He’s been looking over at us the entire time.’

Angel glanced over at the host podium. Lorne’s dark green head swiveled the other way. ‘Huh,’ he said.

‘What, no man has ever hit on you before?’ I teased. I bit into the slider and I couldn’t help the small moan that escaped my mouth. ‘This is really good,’ I mumbled.

Angel’s gaze flickered to my lips. ‘Do I have sauce?’

He touched the corner of my mouth. ‘Just a little here.’ He wiped it off with his thumb, and then sat back in his chair.

‘It’s not that. It’s that we’re friends. Lorne flirts with everyone.’

‘He didn’t flirt with me,’ I pointed out.

Angel raised an eyebrow. ‘Do you want to be flirted with?’

‘Well, it’s not necessary, and it wouldn’t be real anyway. But it’s nice sometimes. I mean I know he’s gay, so it really doesn’t mean anything –’

‘Lorne’s not gay,’ Angel interrupted. ‘He’s pan -pansexual, he said. Something about falling in love with someone’s aura, not their gender.’

‘Oh. That’s lovely.’ I finished another slider and dabbed at my lips. ‘It’s poetic, even.’

‘Yeah. He’s a really good judge of character. Do you want more?’

The platter was empty, a smear of barbecue sauce the only evidence left behind.

‘I didn’t realize I was that hungry,’ I mumbled. ‘Sorry about that.’

‘Don’t be. They were delicious.’ Angel opened the menu again. ‘Do you mind if I order for us?’

‘You’re the expert – order away.’

That’s when the curse struck. I was lulled into a false sense of security and also halfway through a plate of butterfly shrimp and wedge salad when an exasperated voice jolted me out of my food coma. ‘Angel! There you are. Honey, I called you a million times. Did you forget our date?’

I knew that voice. It was a voice that had a black credit card and stiletto office shoes which were totally different from her going home stilettos.

I looked up. Cordelia’s immaculately made-up face met my gaze. She snorted. ‘Really? Her? Angel, when you said old friend, I didn’t know you meant Buffy Summers.’

‘You know Angel?’ I said just as he said, ‘Cordy, now is not the time.’

‘It is so the time,’ Cordelia said. ‘You told me if I didn’t hear from you at our agreed time, I was going to come and save you from the terrible date.’

‘This was a date?’ I said as Angel’s face went white. ‘Buffy – it’s not what you think –‘

‘You know her? Did you also know I work with her? Was this a joke you guys set up?’ I stood up.

‘Please, like I think about you after hours,’ Cordelia sniffed. ‘Angel, come on. I shuffled my appointment with Claudio, he can still fit me in if we leave right now.’

I didn’t bother to stick around to hear what excuse Angel gave. I just picked up my purse and ran out of there.

 My phone kept on ringing until I turned it off. Lorne might have shouted after me, but I didn’t hear what he said.

 Like I said, cursed.

I didn’t know I wanted it to be a date until Cordelia thoroughly squashed that idea underneath her pointy heel.

I thought we were on equal footing finally – we were both single and generally had our lives together – okay, maybe he was more put together than I was. But I was okay – work was fine, and aside from random gross intervals from strangers, I was enjoying interacting with people on social media. I felt like my old self – before all the pressure and the lying and control issues took over. Like I was seventeen again – but actually better.

 Obviously, that wasn’t meant to last. Goodbye with-it Buffy. Hello, sister of our perpetual Alpaca, can I set you up with a sweater? I am cursed and I deserve ice cream.

 The pounding on my door roused me from my chocolate mint chip sponsored stupor on my couch. ‘What,’ I grumped loudly.

‘Open the door, stupid!’

I sat up. ‘Dawnie?’

‘Yes. Open the door, my arms are about to break off.’

I walked over and peered through the peephole. My sister’s annoyed face looked back at me. She was surrounded by various suitcases.

I opened the door.

‘Did you forget to charge your phone or something? I’ve been calling you for the past four hours.’

‘What is all this?’ I waved my hand at her luggage.

She pulled the handle of her largest suitcase and pushed past me. ‘Duh, I’m moving in. Be careful with the purple bag, it’s got all my makeup in it.’

‘When did I agree to that? What happened with Dad?’ I picked up the purple duffel and nearly fell over. ‘Do you have an iron in here?’

Dawn’s voice floated out of my bedroom. ‘If you answered your phone like a normal person, you would know why I’m here.’

‘I turned it off.’ I dragged the rest of her luggage inside.

‘Okay, well – it’s a long story.’

‘So tell me, since apparently, you’re living here now. Couldn’t you stay with Janice?’

Dawn frowned. ‘Janice is going to grad school in Sacramento. I’m not moving to Sacramento.’

‘Wow. Good for Janice.’

‘Yeah it’s great.’ Dawn moved into my kitchen and started opening cabinets. ‘Where do you keep your glasses? I need a drink.’

‘No you don’t,’ I said on autopilot. Dawn scowled at me. ‘I’ve been legal to drink for three years now.’

‘Fine. That one. But I don’t have any alcohol in the house. It’s juice, water, or milk.’

‘Ugh, you’re boring.’ Dawn opened the refrigerator. ‘I’m here because Dad’s new girlfriend moved in, and there’s no way I’m living with that.’

‘Oh god. How old is this one?’ I sank into a chair.

‘Twenty seven,’ Dawn announced.

‘Wow. Only two years younger than me this time,’ I said.

‘Yes, she’s practically an adult,’ Dawn muttered. ‘I’m not here for the Hank and Shelly show.’

‘Her name is Shelly?’

‘No, it’s Michelle, but she prefers to be called Shelly.’

Dawn emerged with a carton of orange juice. ‘Dad swears that she’s the one.’

‘Like all the other ones. Got it.’

‘I’d have moved out sooner except all the nice places I wanted were way out of my price range and I didn’t want to have roommates.’

‘So you came to me.’

‘I’ve lived with you before. Sometimes.’

‘Uh huh. Well – I did say you could come over anytime.’

‘You didn’t, but I appreciate you lying to save my feelings.’ Dawn poured us both a glass of juice. ‘Do you know you have a huge barbecue stain on your dress?’

‘Damn it. It’s the curse.’ 

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#buffy summers's diary #buffy summers #btvs #buffy the vampire slayer #my fic #dawn summers

[sparrowsarus]

Stargate Atlantis- The Lost Boys; Or, Ford Deserved Better.

I feel "keep your army drugged" seems like a plan with very little long-term applicablity. Although, I mean, for a lieutenant, Aiden's showing a lot of tactical savvy here?

"We would have come for you."

Don't drug people without consent, man. They are allowed to be mad.

Lorne ILU. You aren't reassuring.

I feel Rodney would be more tolerable if you gave him something to do. But look, he has a new nerd friend!

Ronon bby.

"I'd Choose You" what is this, Pokemon?

"What kind of plan is this?" I mean that's valid.

"borrowed"

"That is a terrible plan-" "Rodney"

Fordy has a dart!

And he has such faith in AR-1; in Rodney, in Sheppard, in Teyla. Ugh. My feelings.

Poor Rodney, amphetamines are not his friend.

And Radek is here! I love Radek!

"That's why he's on my team in the first place" Cause the show nerfed him in the beginning of season 2!

Teyla my beloved.

Hello Mr. Dex.

"I wanna go home" brb sobbing.

BETRAYAL!

Poor Lorne, someone give him a snack and a juice box.

Sheppard is such a nerd.

RIP Jace :(

"Don't tell me what to do" brah.

"If you wanna live stay behind me" Ronon ILU

Aw, don't threaten Rodney, he's just scared.

BOOM

When in doubt, grenade!

Uhoh, captured!

Fucking battle bros!

this sniffing is terrifying.

She's a Killer Queen Gunpowder, gelatine Dynamite with a laser beam Guaranteed to blow your mind Anytime.....

Wraith fashion is something, eh.

"She didn't even tell me her name" buddy.

Ooh, Cat Fight!

"How many of those things do you got?"

"How many do you need?"

Heh, heh.

Oh no....Rodney, buddy. pal. overdosing is a thing.

DHew has some shoulders though eh?

Ruunnn aaawwwaaayyyyyy!!!!

Ronon and Aiden would make such a good team though!

ain't no one having a good time eh

In a perfect world, they would have clubbed Aiden upside the head and brought him home in Runner.

Man, girl is being real nice considering Aiden was a dick to her.

"What?"

"I don't know."

Their relationship in a nutshell. But they are friends! I love that!

This episode is a better drug PSA than D.A.R.E ever was.

Atta girl Teyla, stare down a wraith!

"No." I love you Elizabeth.

And Carson staying with his friend!

Oh no :( :( Aiden buddy :(:(

This poor woman. All of these women, actually. Dealing with these men.

Ronon has the emotional braincell.

"We're peaceful" you fucking liar.

The Clown War. ffs Sheppard.

Lorne, inviting Zelenka to come play! And Zelenka being "lol fuck no"

Neera...Girl....

yeah Rodney, do your job.

That was a hell of a once over, Neera.

Yay, it's Ford!

Say thank you, John!

I...hate what this show keeps fucking doing to Ford.

LET. HIM.GO.HOME!

I wanna read the books, but I really hate [redacted] as a pairing.

"Sheppard." He's so happy! Look at that smile!

Oh no :( :( He is so sad :(

Aw, they are all so happy.

"Why aren't you dead?" brah.

"Where's Ford" Rodney really expected John to bring him home :(

#Sparrow watches SGA

[sunnydaleherald]

The Sunnydale Herald Newsletter (Saturday July 7th 2018)

Jenny: Um, I might be a little late tomorrow. Do you think you could cover my class till I show? Willow: (smiling brightly) Really? Me? Teach the class? Sure! Jenny: Cool. Willow: (suddenly worried) Oh, wait. W-what if they don't recognize my authority? What if they try to convince me that you always let them leave class early? What if there's a fire drill? What if there's a fire? Jenny: (reassuringly) Willow, you're gonna be fine. And I'll try not to be too late, okay? Willow: (calmer) Okay. Good. Earlier is good. (smiles) Will I have the power to assign detention? Or make 'em run laps? ~~Passion~~

[Drabbles & Short Fiction]

Friends in Need (Crossover with Smallville/X-Men, Lorne, PG) by katleept

Starlight (Tara/Willow, G) by CarolinesEcho (shopgirl152)

[Chaptered Fiction]

(we could have had) Another Story (Chapters 1-6) (Giles/Ethan, T) by 23Murasaki

A Small Boat on the Ocean (Chapter 65) (Spike/Buffy, Oz/Willlow, Xander, T) by sandy_s

Wishing Changes Everything (Chapters 1-26) (Faith/Buffy, M) by declan4

Girls Who Deserve Better (Chapter 2) (Willow/Tara, Anya/Giles, T) by lilydaydreams

Mothers (Chapter 11) (Buffy/Faith, Joyce, M) by Forgotten Conscience

Hindsight (Chapter 95) (Spike/Buffy, R) by Toften

Save The Last Dance (Chapter 47) (Spike/Buffy, Adult Only) by Passion4Spike

Blonde Acrsoss The Pond (Chapter 6) (Spike/Buffy, NC-17) by -CarrieAnne-

The Vespertine Stars (Chapter 1) (Spike/Buffy, NC-17) by sandy_s

Loose Ends (Chapter 15) (Spike/Buffy, NC-17) by All4Spike

[Images, Audio & Video]

Artwork: Some Lorne artwork Including Wesley & Angel by xspike4evax

Artwork: she’s newly human and strangely literal. #anya by tarastheory

[Reviews & Recaps]

Buffy the Vampire Slayer 2x03 “School Hard” by goingrampant

Buffy rewatch: Who Are You (4.16) by elsalapizza

[Fandom Discussions]

Buffy's reaction when Angel becomes Angelus by myst-l-vie

Why isn't there more about Buffy/Angel/Spike by rahirah and by feliciacraft

Was Willow a Good Girlfriend by various posters

In a way what it Xander's fault that Buffy and Tara got shot and why didn't anyone blame him? by various posters

How old are Buffy Xander Willow and Faith in this season? by various posters

Why did Willow want to destroy the Earth just because of Tara? by various posters

Discussion of 4.14 "Goodbye Iowa" - Aired 2/15/00 (WB-US) by various posters

My Perfect World by Willow Tara

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Robot Chicken spoof: Sarah's real feelings as to why she quit. by MoonsSideBoob

Examples of Marti Noxon flames by GoingRampant

Angel's name by BarryM_96

[Articles, Interviews, and Other News]

SCREENRANT: Former Buffy the Vampire Slayer Showrunner Regrets Killing Off Tara by Thomas Bacon

#ats #angel the series #btvs #buffy the vampire slayer #meta #fan fiction #fanart

[darugha]

You are given command of a Federation starship. You must assemble a crew and you need to pick: a first officer; a science officer; a helmsman; a chief of security; a chief engineer; a chief medical officer; a ship's counselor. Whom do you pick for each role? You may pick from any Starfleet officer or affiliate; you may pick from TOS TNG DS9 VOY ENT DSC TAS and all twelve movies; you may pick from Prime, Kelvin, and Mirror universes. But, you cannot pick two people from the same show. Go!

(This question is awesome, I love you)

Okay - the hardest part here is that I can’t use two characters from the same show... that makes it kinda difficult.

01. First Officer - MICHAEL BURNHAM (DISC)

Yeah she’s a mutineer, but she’s also a moral and upstanding character willing to do what’s right, even if it’s hard. I love her. Was a tough pick against Kira Nerys (DS9) as I literally love everything about her or Emperor Georgiou (DISC) for mirror-universe campy eviliness.

02. Science Officer - DATA (TNG)

The perfect science officer. There’s really no other choice as he’s a fantastic character, both innocent and brilliant. If I had to pick a different it’d be either Seven of Nine (VOY) as she’s basically a walking tricorder or Saru (DISC) as he’s an adorable character and Kelpians deserve better goddamit.

03. Helmsman - HIKARU SULU (TOS)

Not my first choice if I’m honest but as per the rules, it’s Sulu. Even so George Takei’s great. Who doesn’t want a helmsman with a sword? My preferred choices were Nog (DS9) for his awesome piloting skills in battle or Tom Paris (VOY) everyone’s favourite kind of not quite bad boy.

04. Security Chief - ODO (DS9)

Probably one of my favourite characters in Star Trek. Who’s going to argue with a grumpy, love-lorn shapeshifter? The only other characters I’d have gone with were Tuvok (VOY) winner of the most sarcastic Vulcan award or Worf (VOY) so he can whinge about his honour some more.

05. Chief Engineer - B’ELANNA TORRES (VOY)

Another personal favourite. I love the temper and talent B’elanna has and how she manages to fix pretty much anything that goes wrong on Voyager. Has to be said Paul Stamets (DISC) for gay grumpiness or Rom (DS9) because as engineers go, he was brilliantly underrated.

06. Doctor - LEONARD MCCOY (KELVIN)

Dr. McCoy as depicted by Karl Urban, which was my favourite of the ‘Kelvin’ universe film characters, in all his wise-cracking doomy sarcasm. Would have preferred the EMH (VOY) as I love his rudeness or Julian Bashir (DS9) for genetically-enhanced fun.

07. Counselor - DEANNA TROI (ST:FC)

I don’t mean TNG Deanna. Oh no - I want drunk Deanna, sarcastic and exhausted Deanna. Empathic but ‘I don’t give a shit’ Deanna. I also debated Ezri Dax (DS9) because the character deserved better and Sylvia Tilly (DISC) because of her unwavering optimism.

[theclacks]

Angel Thoughts - (S4 E15-E18)

I can pretty much sum up my thoughts on these episodes by saying that Connor is officially, unequivocally, 100% objectively...

Okay. Okay. In all seriousness, these were probably the best crop of episodes in season 4 so far (thanks in no help to either Connor or Angel). So let’s dig in shall we?

BtVS & AtS Recap Master Post located here

Episode 15 (Orpheus)

My favorite episode of the bunch. Probably because of combined Faith and Willow power. Both of them just showin’ up to the club like “wham bam, thank you, ma’am.”

At first I thought the Orpheus stuff was going to yet more straight forward Angel flashbacks and I was like “come on, really? I am all good on the Angel flashbacks.” But then both Angelus and Faith were there to watch and it was kind of awesome.

Well, half of it was awesome. Half of it was groan-worthy.

The Awesome:

I love my Spike & Angel comparisons. I love how 100% set Angel is in his ways that his experience is the Universal Vampire Experience (TM). I love how he dissociates from his demon self enough that--not only do they have two different personalities--but Angel goes as far as to block certain memories as well. It’s fascinating. And it’s like, on the surface, it seems like he’s the “noble” one for doing this, that he’s so disgusted at his demon and the thought of being evil by association, that he’s keeping himself “above” it, but he’s really doing the opposite?

Like, to hearken back to Lies My Parents Told Me (and now I’m kinda wishing I’d done these two episode metas in the same post), if the First was in LA, Angel would have soooooo many triggers, like holy shit his team would be screwed. And Angel would never, ever face them... or at least, would never face them in a way where he assumed responsibility and accepted his actions as things that’d happened and are in the past and are therefore unchangeable, so stop letting them rule you and do you best with the things that are currently in the present.

And, it’s like, until he does that, Angel won’t ever “grow”, he’ll just get more and more self-mired in his own angst while Angelus continues to destabilize into more and more of a ticking time bomb in his sub-conscious.

Just... holy mental issues, Batman. No wonder his moments of perfect happiness only happen during sex; he’s too fractured and fucked up for them to occur any other way.

The Groan-Worthy:

So yeah. That diner scene. I didn’t get it.

Oh no, Angel fed on a human that was already dead? The horror? Was I really supposed to be as shocked and disgusted as Faith was? Like I get the need to add new scenes, but really? This was BY FAR one of the least questionable things Angel has done with a soul.

Like... why didn’t they show him palling around with Darla, Spike, & Dru again? Darla mentioned in 1900 he’d been killing murderers and thieves to put on a show of still being evil. Killing murderers is questionable, but thieves? Steal a loaf of bread, get chomped by a vampire? They could’ve done something with that.

Or, you know, they could’ve also just flashed back to this scene:

How many people died in that bout of violence? 20-30?

But no. We get “ohhhhhh noo, Angel fed on a dead guy!!!!!!11!1” and are expected to care. Like puhlease. Give me a break.

MEANWHILE BACK IN THE HYPERION

Willow coming to the rescue was great. The best thing about crossover characters/cameos is the chatter.

So yeah. Wesley & Willow’s scene was amazing. I loved how Wesley was like “you couldn’t possibly understand my pain” and Willow was all, “ummm... yeah, about that... I flayed a guy last spring.” And I think that more that anything hit home how you don’t need to be the dark & edgy, more adult version of a show to have serious shit going down.

Also I’m glad that the Willow/Fred UST was called out because through-out the whole episode I was like, “daaaamn Alyson.... you are standing in the same room as your husband and are having 9000 times the chemistry with Amy Acker than him rn.”

But all’s well that ends well and Angel’s soul is popped back in, just in time for Cordelia to come down the steps wearing an ensemble that just SCREAMS, “I AM EVIL”. Surely our heroes will notice?!?

Episode 16 (Players)

Spoilers, our heroes don’t notice.

I’ve really been snoring to death on the evil Cordy thing (mostly because I hate Connor and all of Cordy’s lines have been reduced to “but Connor! think about the baby! think about us!”), so I’m gonna focus on the Gunn & Gwen subplot. Or main plot? IDK, I liked it a whole lot better than the baby drama.

Gunn is fascinating. He’s like the Xander of the LA team, but if Xander had maintained his soldier experience/role? Although I hated the fact that the Gunn/Fred relationship drama was happening in the midst of all the other drama, I’m actually kind of glad it happened because it did/does expose key issues in both their self-perception of each other + themselves.

In Gunn’s case, namely that he’s not smart. Or rather, he’s not book smart, because Gunn is hella smart. He can think on his feet, he can improvise, he can strategize... but all that pales and his confidence wanes when put beside the others.

Because when’s the last time he had to play a part and be all sneaky? When’s the last time he gotta to devise a battle plan (Angel & Wesley are the ones always taking charge)?

This episode really took the kernel that was planted back in Supersymmetry re: Gunn accompanying Fred and trying to care about what she cares about even though he understands 0% of it vs Wesley openly being able to discuss her arguments and positions...

It’s like, no, a relationship doesn’t require both partners to understand the other’s job, but when Fred has dedicated her entire LIFE to understanding physic principles, it DOES create a gap. It’s this untouchable, unknowable part of her brain that will always be unknowable as long as Gunn remains uneducated. Which he will.

And that’s not an insult because, hell, even I’d be uneducated compared to Fred & Wesley, but it’s like...

To pull an example from my own life, I recently went on a first date that went really, really well. At one point the topic switched into movies and we literally spent the next TWO HOURS talking about movies. Talking about narrative, talking about cinematography, talking about editing, talking about film as a medium as a whole and how the best film stories are the ones that can only be told through film and it was AMAZING. And yeah, I just think of that vs other dates where I’ve asked the other person what kind of movies they liked and they’ve just said “eh, superhero movies are good i guess” or “i haven’t had much time recently for movies,” and it’s like, sure, not being passionate about movies isn’t a dealkiller, but film/tv love takes up such a HUGE part of my brain that NOT clicking with it is always going to leave a significant deadspace re: things that are frequently on my mind vs things I know I can converse about.

Yeah.

TL;DR, both Fred & Gunn deserve people that they can not only be cute and loving with, but also passionate. Like mentally passionate.

Episode 17 (Inside Out)

I hated this episode. I mean, yes. Woo Lorne, acting the bait but otherwise??

Ouch.

Like... Angel knew Cordelia was evil by the way she said “my sweet”? Really? That was your master clue-by-four? You know it’s lame when you have to do a flashback all Mr. Monk style and LITERALLY EXPLAIN IT TO THE AUDIENCE. 

IDK, part of me’s just remembering BtVS S3 Enemies and how damn good THAT reveal was.

But yeah. Oh no, Connor and Cordelia run off. Oh no, Angel angst.

And then Connor just continues to be THE WORST. Like kidnap a girl and ignore the voice of his dead mom and then murder the crying girl THE WORST.

Like JESUS CHRIST. Your dad and... pseudo-nephew? Is Spike Connor’s psuedo-nephew? That’s messed up. Anyway, Your dad and pseudo-nephew at least had the No Soul Get Out of Jail Free card. What’s your excuse?

And, yes, evil!Cordy has been brainwashing him, but not to this extent surely! Like Holtz was screwed up, but he spent 15+ years instilling right vs wrong into him. And even if was swayed into confusion, CRYING GIRL PLEADING FOR HER LIFE. WHAT IS CONFUSING ABOUT THAT?

CONNOR YOU ARE THE WORST.

And then everything continues to go to shit and Cordelia gives birth to Gina Torres.

End episode apparently.

Episode 18 (Shiny Happy People)

My one complaint is that it took way too long for the ball to drop. (Not surprisingly, I had this same reaction to Madoka Magica: Rebellion--30m in of wtf dreamland vs eventual dark reality.)

But then once it did.

HOLY SHIT, FRED. I LOVE YOU.

I didn’t realize how much Fred had gotten side-lined this season until this episode and that’s a tragedy because Fred slayed it in this episode.

And omg, that one cut to Jasmine’s true face. HOLY SHIT, HOLY SHIT, HOLY SHIT, WHY THE FUCK DID THEY DO THAT. I watched this episode right before going to bed. I was not prepared for that! I was not okay with that!

Like, even now, I am too scared and revolted to scroll back through the episode and rewatch/pause that scene.

I’m just wigged.

Completely wigged.

Gah.

But yeah. Currently Fred is the only sane one and completely segregated from the rest of the cast + 99.5% of LA. How is she going to get out of this one? I honestly have no idea and for the first time in forever Angel has ended on a cliff hanger I actually get a fuck about so as soon as I hit “Post” I am headed off to watch the next episode.

That’s it for now, folks! Until next time, I’m gonna close out on my favorite line of this set of eps.

#angel #angel the series #ats #orpheus #shiny happy people #clacks from theclacks

[rewatchablepodcast]

Join ReWatchable as we discuss Angel season 3, episode 21, “Benediction,” and Angel season 3, episode 22, “Tomorrow.”

Superfans: Caitlin and Maj Newbies: Ariana and Brittany

Fun Facts: Ariana has no fun fact. Maj found a video of Anthony Stewart Head performing Rocky Horror! Watch it here. Brittany found time to read! What?! Caitlin has an adorable niece, but she also may have given Caitlin a cold.

Angel season 3, episode 21, “Benediction” and Angel season 3, episode 22, “Tomorrow”: – Synopsis – Is this really Pete Campbell’s backstory on Mad Men? – Wesley… what is happening to you? – We’re very mixed about this Lilah business – Does Cordelia’s new powers make us excited or bored? – Leveling-up Cordelia did not find a hairstyle – What is happening to Cordelia on the 101? – Groo can’t make it in LA, but he would succeed in Vegas – Lorne, too good for this world – Will Lorne and Cordelia return? – Caitlin finds Holtz to be one of the best villains – But we can’t agree on this either – What do the superfans think of Angel and Cordelia? – Can we agree on ANYTHING? – Oh, yes, we can! – The character we feel the most for is the ghost – Dennis – HE DESERVES BETTER – Favorite Scenes x2 – Favorite Lines x2

Listener Feedback: – Who said what about Xander? – Maj rocks on Tumblr – The more you Connor the more you will like Dawn – Wes and Willow are rockin’ the husband-wife darkness

Brittany’s Brainstorms/Ariana’s Assumptions: – Buffy the Vampire Slayer season 6, episode 21, “Two to Go” – Buffy the Vampire Slayer season 6, episode 22, “Grave”

#POSTED BY: Maj #SHOW: Angel #ReWatchableEpisodes #ReWatchablePodcast #ats s3 #benediction #tomorrow #angel #cordelia #groo #fred #gunn #lorne #pancake gang #lilah #wesley #the groosalugg #linwood #gavin #wolfram and hart #justine #connor #holtz

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buffy

the character i least understand: like...anya probably? from a storytelling standpoint i don’t think the writers really agreed on what to do with her and from a relating standpoint she’s 1000+ years old and a former-then-again demon. they just didn’t really go into her character enough for me to say i understand her, and i think it’s easy to write her on a shallow level.

interactions i enjoyed the most: the easy thing to say is probably my ships right, and it is true that spike/buffy is my otp maybe mostly because i’m endlessly fascinated by their dynamics, but i also really love the og scoobies hanging out and especially the willow/xander friendship. beyond that i also loved tara&dawn and spike&dawn. and buffy&cordy, which i do ship but i brotp it more than otp most days. either way is good though.

the character who scares me the most: willow bc of below answer

the character who is mostly like me: willow. definitely willow. i’ve thought about making a photoset w characters i id w the most and she’d be dead center. i sometimes can’t even enjoy her character, especially at cringey moments, because of that, and i recognize that her worst qualities are some of mine too. i don’t think i’d try to destroy the world but thankfully i shouldn’t ever have the opportunity.

hottest looks character: faith? i totally change my answer every time bc i’m a cheating bisexual (this is the one scenario where that stereotype is correct)

one thing i dislike about my fave character: i’m going to use buffy as my fave here bc i’ll talk about cordy below. (i like to think about myself as having 3 types of faves in each fandom: the fave to watch, the one i id with, and the one i’d die for. buffy’s the latter.) writing-wise i dislike how we lose a lot of access to buffy’s inner mind. person-wise i guess her black-and-white thinking? it’s pretty necessary to her work and it’s obviously not as bad as like...riley’s but i think it’s detrimental to her in that she doesn’t seek out the help she needs. she wants to be all-slayer or all-buffy, she wants things to be all bad or all good.

one thing i like about my hated character: i guess my hated character is riley bc using a villain seems cheatish (i thought saying warren, and he makes star wars references). i actually have a lot in common with riley, which i’m not sure if that’s a good or bad thing, but i really like how he tried to be involved with buffy’s family? like obviously later in s5 that turned into him acting weird and entitled about it but at the beginning when he’s trying to befriend dawn and such is sweet and good. 

a quote or scene that haunts me: ummm all of them tbh. but to pick a random one i think a lot about the scene of buffy just staring at the water coming out of the faucet. also another water-related one, when i watch the body i’m always struck by the weird water purifier/cooler thing you see in their kitchen bc we had that exact same one in the house i lived in before my father passed away. getting personal i guess but the first time i watched it that floored me.

a death that left me indifferent: all of them affected me a lot i feel but jonathan’s definitely had less impact than i feel like it should given he’d been on the show for like 5 seasons by that point. and i like him as a character! i guess it got really subsumed into andrew’s character arc which kinda sucked, and it was played up more as a villain moment.

a character i wish died but didn’t: none of them i love my kids

my ship that never sailed: faith/buffy!!!! why...

angel

the character i least understand: maybe lorne? again like with the anya thing this is a character with a potentially fascinating backstory and a very unique perspective and we get just a little taste of it. love him though

interactions i enjoyed the most: i really loved the whole gang’s interactions tbh but wesley&gunn’s friendship deserves a special shout out. also doyle and angel did so much with that bond in so few episodes. and i also really liked lindsay’s interactions with angel for some reason, idk. maybe because he brings out angel’s petty side.

the character who scares me the most: probably angel, right? not angelus but when angel himself teeters into Badness territory. i’m both scared of him and scared for him.

the character who is mostly like me: either fred or angel. i get compared to fred a lot irl and online from people who’ve seen it mostly bc i have the same vague face concept as amy acker and also a southern accent, and i am in stem and whatever but i never felt like there was a lot there for me to latch onto. imo fred was a major missed opportunity too, they didn’t flesh her out nearly as much as they could have. anyway they’re both kinda awkward and introverted and same.

hottest looks character: uhhh it’s cheating to say faith here again i guess but i’m doing it anyway.

one thing i dislike about my fave character: so i love cordy to death (obviously) i loved her almost immediately on buffy and only managed to love her even more but obviously she is very self-centered and could be a better friend sometimes...i guess...and i’m not gonna mention the travesty of her writing in s4.

one thing i like about my hated character: i guess that’s gonna be wesley? who i don’t hate at all i just felt like everything started getting drawn into the Orbit of his Manpain in the later seasons BUT i love dorky!wes to death. like “rogue demon hunter” wes. that’s the wes for me.

a quote or scene that haunts me: like not to be obvious but the “nothing we do matters, all that matters is what we do” MURDERS me every time like i honestly find so much meaning in that. but i also think about cordy accepting the demon at the end of “birthday” and almost cry every time she’s just so brave and strong and willing to be better and i’m upset.

a death that left me indifferent: wes again? i’m sorry y’all are gonna murder me. it’s not that it left me indifferent but after cordy and fred died...and not long after lilah either and lorne is over here shooting lindsay...i didn’t have many emotions left sorry 

a character i wish died but didn’t: uhmmm none of them honestly except if s4 was a character

my ship that never sailed: WELL honestly angel and cordy never got to be together at all...but they did admit they loved each other...but my only other real ship here was wesley/lilah so idk, they were both tragic and barely happened so take ur pick, joss whedon hates my happiness :/ oh wait snap! i was actually a little invested in angel and kate before that arc got thrown out the window. so them i guess.

community

the character i least understand: excluding like...todd...of the main cast probably shirley. not that i don’t understand her exactly but it’s yet another case of writers not really knowing what to do with a character and her writing sometimes being very uneven. obviously it’s a comedy so i’m not expecting in depth explorations of every detail but i did feel like there were lots of blanks about her past/motivations/etc that just got ignored. still love her though.

interactions i enjoyed the most: well obviously i love annie/abed platonically or romantically...and i also ship britta/jeff so them too. there wasn’t nearly enough britta/annie which i also ship both ways. i also loved the weird dynamic with annie being pierce’s favorite...and shirley&jeff!! underutilized but always good. 

the character who scares me the most: hmm i was really worried about jeff for a while there.

the character who is mostly like me: annie tbh her perfectionism and drive and anxieties are just.....right there in my brain....always.  

hottest looks character: annie, alison brie is a flawless goddess of sexiness and humor. that said thanks to aforementioned identification i can’t crush on annie per se? but divorced from personality she wins for sure.

one thing i dislike about my fave character: so my favorite to watch is britta and i had a really hard time with some of her cringier psych-major material bc i’ve known so many irritating psych majors like that. mmmmmmmmnnnnnnnuuuugh. hard to sit through. good stuff but cringey

one thing i like about my hated character: i really don’t hate any of the characters? i guess picking pierce out of the mains i liked his moments of kindness and especially whenever he tried to bond w jeff. good stuff 

a quote or scene that haunts me: the whole ending of “virtual systems analysis” honestly...some Strong Identification w both annie and abed happening there.

a death that left me indifferent: i mean i guess if hickey really died in s6 as implied in that one screenshotted email or whatever that, since they didn’t go into it, but otherwise i guess when star burns [fake] died

a character i wish died but didn’t: uhhhhh none i love my kids

my ship that never sailed: annie/abed, i can’t shut up about it (that said i’m glad it didn’t sail tbh bc i don’t think i would have liked what the writers would have done with it probably but still)

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