#not..terrible?

[gothamcityneedsme]

that job post has me thinking like. god im so relieved im at where i am right now. i had a feeling while working on my education degree and having a lot of field experience that i may not actually want to work in the field. i was cautious. i considered changing my major to journalism (or a few other things) but ultimately didn't because i didn't want to get trapped in college forever + was on a scholarship tied to my degree + was double majoring (which I knew would look good in the future). so i didn't change my major and kept working, got through my student teaching (which was. a fucking nightmare era of my life jesus christ. if i wasn't already hesitating on this, like, student teaching was a 100% certainty moment for me).

then once i was out i took a gap year to recollect my sanity after student teaching, and i also moved out (i was able to do both of these things thanks to my money from my military training. 25+ weeks of pay that i didn't spend added up to enough for me to do those things).

and THEN i started job hunting for the 'boring office job' concept that i had first considered swapping my plans to in college. i started retail part time while i kept up my other job hunting, landed a sort of crappy job but one that paid a little better and wasn't too terrible. got laid off from that one so started hunting again as soon as they announced the layoffs, got lucky with a company i had been planning to apply for a job at in a few years or so anyways (wanted more general experience under my belt, but layoffs prevented that). got the job right before covid, and while i technically work at another company now, that's still the job i have. 100% work from home now, doing the same stuff, and it's mostly writing emails/scheduling payments/reviewing ledgers/etc.

it pays well and doesn't follow me after work hours, the timing is flexible and i can write or do some gaming on the clock because i tend towards bursts of productivity where i do a lot in an hour then sort of chill for a bit before doing more. i stay on top of my responsibilities so i have a lot of wiggle room since i'm not behind on anything (i only get behind when we swap regions up and i get assigned states that prior analysts didn't properly keep clean, lol, but even then a few weeks of dedicated work gets that shit down easy).

idk man. i'm just rambling about my life, this is stuff i think about a lot, because by god i am thankful things went this direction. even if i do lose this job, i am pretty comfortable in this field now so i feel that i could search within this field to find work that would suit me. i'm getting paid more than i ever would as a teacher or anything else, i have so much flexibility, and i'm even closing on a house (today!).

i still have a lot of worries, i need to save up money again (house deposit) and pay back my parents (house deposit). and i still have huge student loans i'm working on paying that eat up a lot of my monthly income, but im so excited to be paying towards a mortgage instead of rent, and someday my loans will be paid off

#shitpost #i did enjoy teaching. i enjoyed student teaching! #but it was so fucking TERRIBLE lol wow #and i never would've made the money i'm making now #long post #idk that post just made me think about my life #god am i thankful #my loans are still shit because i had to get a lot of private loans #because my parents are... not well off enough to help me #but well off enough that i didn't quality for barely any federal aid #my fed loans are only 30k lol and im not even paying those because of my private loans #but i am paying and once i have enough saved i do intend to start shoving more money at them as i can #as of rn i have 9 years left on my 15 year loans so like #not..terrible? #and once i have savings again. i can start shoving more money at them to get that down #just. thoughts. #also i managed to pay my loans even while working retail so. shuffling money around is possible haha

[myclericalromance]

i went to a tiny counterserve diner once and accidentally poured sugar instead of salt all over my hashbrowns and was eating them sadly anyways. the waitress took them away and started making me another one and I tried to protest, but she just snorted and said "we're not catholic here". now every time i'm doing something painful out of obligation i think about how that is not repenting, this body is not a catholic establishment, there is no nobility in suffering.

#edit: i know i did not invent the phrase no nobility in suffering #holy fuck this hit 50k are we all. doing okay. #please stop telling me about sweet latkes i knOW about them #this was a terrible horrible accident involving a sugar shaker with a very large opening that i mistook as being a salt shaker #there was a quarter cup of white granulated sugar on my hashbrown before i could even process my mistake

[ozziyo]

Tis but thy name that is my enemy.

#good omens #good omens fanart #good omens 2 #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #ineffable spouses #aziraphale #crowley #anthony j crowley #crowly x aziraphale #digital art #my art #my fanart #i made the mistake of looking at Sergio Cupido's Romeo and Juliet #and this sort of just Happened #so terribly sorry

[stealthrockdamage]

her cock was an undersea fiber optic cable and Brother i was a hungry shark

#TERRIBLE post sorry

[itsgonnagetinspiringsoon]

FUCK

#game changer #game changer season 6 #game changer spoilers #sam says #sam reich #lou wilson #jacob wysocki #vic michaelis #this is the worst thing I've ever seen actually #i almost cried #the sheer joy of Henry and the thought of not being allowed to see him #also sorry for the terrible quality of the video 😭 #pretty sure it's lagging badly but that's all i got 🥲

[krembruleed]

astarion is cheating

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #gale of waterdeep #wyll ravengard #karlach #astarion #shadowheart #lae'zel #halsin #half these fools cant lie worth fuck. terrible at cards smh #krem scribbles

[fuckdamn]

bugs when you lift up their rock

#lotte.txt #challengers #sorry for the terrible camrip quality but i needed to do this.

[scorndotexe]

i can't lie to you i loveee bad endings sometimes. what if nothing worked out. what if the characters gave into their worst instincts. what if they became worse. what if there's truly no hope left. what will they do out of desperation? who will they become as their worst selves?

#sorry. i'm compelled by terrible endings. #persimmon's rambles

[lgbtlunaverse]

Obsessed with characters who portray themselves as worse than they are. Who are lying to everyone including themselves about it. People generally assume if someone's lying about themselves they're trying to look better but sometimes they're trying to look worse. They attribute agency to where they had none, add intend to accidents, try to convince everyone that this is something they did instead of something that happened to them.

#this is about tenko bnha #but it is also about dahlia ace attorney #watch the nezumiVA videos on ace attorney trilogy they're great #anyway dahlia saying she (at like. 6 years old) apparently convinced her father to abandon her sister. hmmm #also everyone including herself thinking of her as the manipulator in control with terry when she was 14 dating a 20 y/o #anyway these characters both did do terrible things but feel the need to pile on more and remove nuance from where it exists #to convince themselves that this is what they really want. that they chose this. #it's about the loss of control it's about being a victim feeling worse than being a villain #at least if you were the bad guy you had autonomy #shimura tenko #shigaraki tomura #dahlia hawthorne

[creepedfinnart]

i mean i think she would've had the time

#my art #digital circus #drawing #art #doodle #meme #the amazing digital circus #tadc #tadc pomni #terrible gaem #i know the computer nor the mouse nor the keyboard isn't connected to anything i can't draw setups. im so sorry everyone

[jofiah]

Call me burger the. the way I court her... pound her

#uhhh #yeah #burg her #another terrible post that entered my mind fully formed

[svnflowermoon]

ok so i decided to try this bc everyone else is doing it and i seriously need motivation, so hello

if you get this to 15k (fuck that is a terrifying number, can you tell that I'm trying to make this absolutely impossible for you guys) by new years eve then i will finish the first drafts of:

my wlw christmas friends to lovers slow burn romance (it literally takes them like 8 years to get together)

my gay prince fantasy enemies to lovers mistaken identity forebidden romance

my dystopian queer found family extremely dramatic assassin story

edit: i am going to die. i can't believe you guys got it to 15k what 😭😭 im gonna have to start writing

#luc posts #writing #writeblr #current wip #writing wip #this is a terrible idea what the fuck #if this flops you saw nothing #if you get this to 20k i will cry i dony want to do this #fuck fuck fuck

[wolfythewitch]

Line up,,,,

#art #sketch #the magnus archives #tma #jonathan sims #sasha james #timothy stoker #tim stoker #martin blackwood #melanie king #basira hussain #daisy tonner #these clothes arent final i have a terrible sense of fashion

[bulkhummus]

do you understand how funny this is

#…….. cecil.. babygirl…. this queer knows ur terrible impact <3 #just genuinely so funny to me #maybe im just drunk but this is so fucking funny #and sad but we wont think abt that #wtnv #welcome to night vale #cecilsweep #sexymanotd

[itsgonnagetinspiringsoon]

Thank god

#oh im so relieved #genuinely felt terrible for the contestants #Henry the pig #game changer #sam says 3 #lou wilson #jacob wysocki #vic michaelis #sam reich #Sam you have redeemed yourself in my eyes

[thelesbianthespianposts]

imagine: you get your memories back after years of amnesia to find out your whole species is dead and earth doesn’t exist anymore. that the only thing left of your culture is your weird ex and his busted honda civic that barely even works that he stole from the government when he was 13. And he’s been taking members of an alien species for trips in his honda civic and they’re all like “woah it’s so cool” and you get upset because it’s NOT COOL it’s a honda civic, the turn signals don’t even work “wow it can go up hills” yeah OF COURSE IT CAN GO UP HILLS EVERY CAR COULD DO THAT. but they’ve never seen a car before so everything it does is the coolest thing ever. And your ex’s only tool is a fucking screwdriver which is somehow also cool to this dumbass alien species even though it’s a fucking screwdriver so you just look like an idiot screaming about how none of this is even cool it’s actually really shitty but your whole planet is gone so you can’t even prove it but also you’ve had a constant drumming sounding in your head since you were 10 slowly driving you insane. I would become evil too.

#This metaphor might have gotten away from me #Whatever #the master #toschei #doctor who #tardis #the doctor #Companion: wow it can actually fully reverse and go backwards! #The master: *seething bc EVERY CAR CAN DO THAT* #I would be so mad if the only thing left of my culture was my ex and his terrible car #That he doesn’t even have a license to drive #Tensimm #J watches drwho #I really wanna draw this but I don’t have any artistic ability due to there being no apples in my brain #Plus your ex kinda wants to fuck the car #P-14a