#normal as in i don't judge others

[ruestew]

I am going through my annoying stereotypical teen girl arc

And I'm THRIVING. 

I LOVE GOING TO THE MALL, I LOVE THE COLOR PINK, I LOVE GIGGLING OVER A BOY BAND (who haven’t made music together in years), I LOVE DOING MY MAKEUP AND I LOVE FANGIRLING OVER SILLY MEDIA.

Younger me would have despised the mere concept of becoming "like other girls”, but who cares?! I am like other girls, I’m human, I have interests and I am complicated, I’m not one-dimensional. We should all be able to express ourselves without the looming thought of being judged by some pricks who don’t care or understand.

#not like other girls #but actually i am #i am now a #girly girl #gender stereotyping #really skewed my sense of self #i wanted to be one of the boys so badly that i judged other girls #which is lame and i'm glad i'm normal now #normal as in i don't judge others #I mind my business #Shout out to the gnc ladies 😘😍 #I LOVE ALL WOMEN REGARDLESS OF EXPRESSION #The boy band I was talking about is Tally Hall btw #ruespew #rambles #TW caps #terfs dni #feminism

[craykaycee]

Don't mind me as I- *throws myself into SB*

Credit to fazbear.trash.panda on TikTok for their handunit/dreadunit dialogue

Part 2

#IT HAS OCCURED TO ME THAT MANY OTHERS HAVE SEEN THIS---- #I AM SO NOT NORMAL RN /POS #fnaf #fnaf sb #fnaf security breach #five nights at freddys #fnaf daycare attendant #moondrop #fnaf moon #glamrock freddy #fnaf vanessa #montgomery gator #cray kay art #I think I'll be sharing a few of my favorite memes over the next few days xD #the story was a self-insert b4 a Y/N don't judge me- xD #self insert #cray kay sona

[lil-gingerbread-queen]

So, I cannot show support to Palestine at my university (flyers for protest, the colors and the flag, you get it...) because it's "encouraging violence and antisemitism" but when my university was tagged with antisemitic symbols, they did NOTHING. When the students union was targeted with threat of violence and their office was destroyed, covered with neo-nazis symbols, they did NOTHING.

The Neo-Nazis student association (which has been multiple times reported for their hate-crimes) were distributing flyers at the entrance yesterday WITHOUT ANY ISSUES, because they support Israel.

#I'm so mad #france #palestine #And I will not talk about the caricature of leftists in a nazi uniform because we support Palestine #That's like so fucking disgusting how dare they compare people being AGAINST a genocide to Nazis #repeating to myself that murdering one of those assholes of the gov will only make it worse #don't fucking judge me on my violent thought I a French leftist this is normal to us we know this is the only way to get things done #bro look at the Marseillaise lyrics it's about fighting turanny and oppressors that kill your family #and you dare make France stand with Israel #I know things suck way more for other people but I am tired and scared about what France is becoming

[venacoeurva]

...I know people in this day and age think any collaborative effort can fix things, often despite reality (ex. the MULTIPLE tumblr blackout protests over the last like 10 years across different owners of tumblr that didn’t change shit),

but I think going out of your way to buy things from tumblr en masse as a “well then they’ll be profitable and won’t have to change things to resemble profitable sites!” as if the CEO/higher ups are personally going to see this and not AT MOST just go “oh we made money, sick, Anyway.” is just. the most naive and frankly 5-year-old level of problem solving unrealistic idea if you think about it for more than 5 seconds. People are just so blinded by naive optimism it’s painful.

Staff isn’t going to see your purchases and go on a full redemption arc and restore porn in spite of payment systems’ massive stigma against it or Apple’s restrictions and never ever try to mimic Twitter or TikTok again, or whatever the fuck you’re expecting, they’ll keep focusing on shit tweaks that resemble other sites because those are what keep investors who think they know tech and user wants hooked and they think new people from other sites will come over for that instead of the fact these people are typically escaping those kinds of features.

Staff isn’t your friend, their vying for support like they’re your buddy who is hitting hard times and has been here holding your hand all these years is deliberate corporate marketing, they’re an arm of a corporation that spits in the face of LGBTQ+ people and especially black people for daring to post about themselves while touting themselves as The Queer Site! A diverse site! Look at this AMA we’re doing with someone about Black History Month! and you’re doing nobody a service when you’re unintentionally rewarding a service for getting worse because they will not know nor care about your motives, they just care that they got money and will continue making it worse regardless of you. They’re a corporation, not a small business ran by 10 people who are trying their best. People throwing money at Staff already encourages them, let alone when you buy into the weird parasocial shit they try with us which will continue as they see success with that method.

Like the mere idea of everyone buying the crabs to gift to make the site profitable is just unrealistic (especially in this economy with such terrible inflation and in NA there are issues with the weather and fires, on a site that mostly consists of groups of people who are typically low income or unable to work???), it feels very much like the gofundme pages people set up to raise money for celebrities who have debts who will be fine regardless and definitely don’t need your help. Corporations and CEOs are not your friends, they never will be. They do not care about you and they’re not some poor uwu victim of circumstance.

TL;DR half-assed blackouts aimed at companies that don’t care (that I have seen over and over) and “cr*b day” type efforts are incredibly dumb and will change nothing, and they will not change anything, just encourage them since they see they’re making money during their current marketing schemes, if they notice at all. You pitying them like they’re a poor innocent person is exactly what the corporation wants.

If you want to make a difference give that money to an artist or lgbtq+ people who basically get flagged as mature for Existing, or people who get their posts flagged for criticizing the site, or something, someone who gets screwed over by this site on the regular. It will do far more good than that whackadoo type pipe dream and sit down and think for a second, please.

#I normally would not care but this is like. absurd levels of Not Thinking At All #grown adults saw that post about this and went Yeah!!!!!! #how the fuck did someone go ''we should ALL buy crabs to give tumblr money!'' as a solution to shit corporate decisions and it get as big #as it did. Do you guys THINK #or does staff really have it wrapped around your parasocialized finger with humanizing them like a suffering entity who is so so poor #vena vents #not art #And that's a good faith interpretation that the person who suggested the crab thing aren't friends with a staff member or are one or some #shit #we've seen people on or know staff doing some shit to subdue criticisms (especially by trans and black people). I don't trust that #That as a thing that mysteriously gets slapped everywhere on here makes me narrow my eyes #Apparently judging by others comments about it the OP suggesting it is also a pr*lifer and a lot of the people boosting it are bigots so. #enjoy supporting a cause ran by people who want you dead ig

[brittlebutch]

actually it's kind of funny how people will say Alex's fatal flaw is that he 'doesn't ask for help' and that it's his determination to handle things on his own that leads to his deterioration and eventual death when his whole introduction to the present-day timeline was a very literal cry for help that simply went ignored

#N posts stuff #like even if you think alex was lying throughout the entirety of season 2 and he was waiting from the Moment jay showed up #JUST to kill him (Which again i don't think makes much sense when he could have killed Tim & Jay immediately instead of #breaking Tim's leg. anyway) EVEN IF alex spent that whole time lying it doesn't actually change the fact that he would have at least #been Pretending to Ask For Help and if he wasn't lying then he was Literally Asking For Help and it doesn't Actually matter #what intention Alex had because the text is Ambiguous about Alex's honesty during season two; what isn't ambiguous is the way #other characters (specifically Jay) respond to him; like yeah - S2 Brian/Tim were never in one million years going to help Alex with shit #so sort of any argument that brings up Tim as someone who asks for/offers help is borderline meaningless in this era of the series #Jay had the 'opportunity' to help Alex (and i'll get back to that in a sec) but DIDN'T - Jay wasn't Interested in actually offering Alex #'help' bc Jay is ultimately curious about Answers and 'Offering Help' and 'Getting Answers' are two Wildly conflicting goals #Jay thinks Alex has answers and when Alex doesn't Offer these 'Answers' to Jay on a silver platter Jay gets pissed off and paranoid #and starts Stalking Alex bc he thinks it's 'Suspicious' that Alex won't give him the Answers (that Alex probably doesn't Actually have) #ANYWAY. ultimately this post is about how it's absurd when people argue #that individual character choices could have made a difference in the way this series played out - specifically wrt Alex #because EVERYONE in this WHOLE series are being affected by influences outside of their control ; including Brian Tim and Jay #so it's silly when people are like 'if ALEX had just made a different choice For Himself this could have all been avoided' WRONG. #bc Ultimately there's not really a way to 'help' someone else out of this situation - Tim tried and failed Repeatedly #the comics proved he even failed with Jessica - like MH isn't a horror situation where you can kill the big bad #'getting help' is a meaningless argument - what would successfully helping or getting help even look like? anyway. #the sub argument of this post is that Alex's biggest 'sin' is that he doesn't perform emotions the way other people want him to #like Alex is a character with a kind of flat affect - instead of LOOKING scared or grieved he LOOKS bored or angry #and everyone judges him based on that - so Alex is 'Suspicious' he's 'Lying' he's 'Guilty' but all of these deductions are predicated #on the belief that Alex isn't reacting to his circumstances the way a 'Normal' person would - so it MUST all be an act and so he's guilty #so everyone treats him like he's guilty until the end of season two when he's like 'Fuck it FINE i'll be guilty then' and so it goes #not a self-fulfilled prophecy but being Cornered Into a prophecy and then Blamed for it - SAD. anyway

[bottombaron]

whenever i think abt writing Nandor and i get going thru a series of sequences of him behaving like a well-adjusted, caring, adult i have to stop myself, backspace several mental paragraphs and remember that he's basically a semi-captive lion being observed in a nature documentary and he functions on 92% Id

#wwdits #what we do in the shadows #nandor #nandor the relentless #neat fanfic trick: if you're nandor is behaving ooc like a normal well adjusted empathetic human being just ask yourself #“what would a lion do in this exact scenario?” #and whatever the absurdity it's probably closer to the truth than not #anyways i have a lot to say abt the amorality of the vampires and how they simply don't function with the same human ethical thought #but that doesnt mean they dont care and love and have social behaviors of their own that shouldnt be judged less than #and will express those emotions in ways that might feel foreign to most humans #...is what i say to myself to keep from crying as i delete 3 pages of nandor talking out his feelings 😭😭😭 #(also brief note: when i say he functions on Id its not that he lacks intelligence or the capacity to use it along with his ego/super ego) #(as seen in the s5 finale) #(but rather he's an apex predator so his whole being is funneled into traits for hunting. not other things we think show intelligence) #(in the mordern non hunting/gathering world) #(which is partially why he's so disconnected from the world and struggles to find purpose in an environment that no longer values him) #(truthfully nandor is human but simply the definition of humanity has changed rapidly from what it valued centuries before) #(and leaves nandor lost) #(except for guillermo. his one connection to humanity and what anchors him to the modern world 🥲) #(...looks like i got lost in the tags again...)

[passthroughtime]

and they both missed. the absolute fucking gayass losers

#when the guy is such a narrative foil to you that you start to look ESPECIALLY lame #chewing on them why are they like this #like i don't know what they wanted to tell us but it looks gay af either way #not i'm never going to be normal i GUESS #kuwagami #judge eyes #lost judgment spoilers #like what the fucking fuck how else it must've looked when two random guys predict each other's moves like that #and they are so obvious to each other they make them both look stupid #i can't even fucking do this anymore #putting letters together one word at a time

[tearsonmarz]

Second time's a charm - Ethubs angst oneshot

This blurb takes place during Double Life.

Bdubs watched from a distance as his ex-joked about with his soulmate. He knew there was no changing fate, but he still longed for the days when he had all of Etho’s attention.

Bitterness began to envelope him as they walked off. The mental picture of the two hugging and enjoying each other’s company made him nauseous. He could come to grips with Etho being happy by himself. But seeing his arm wrapped around Joel was a too much for him. He had always understood that his favourite person in the world was beloved by all.

I mean, who could look at the man and not fall head over heels for him. Everything from his hair to the way he walked was eye catching. His voice deep and sweet like whisky. His eyes could stare into yours and you'd feel nothing other than a wave of comfort and love.

He never would admit it to Etho, but he was jealous. Bdubs missed the warmth that Etho brought into his world. The joy that they shared and their bond that felt unbreakable. He wanted to be the only one to see his smile; and he couldn’t stand to see Etho well off without him. He wanted to be Etho’s soulmate. But it wasn’t meant to be.

That didn’t mean that Bdubs wasn’t allowed to make his own happy memories. If anything, he was going to make the most out of his new companionship with Impulse. Even if his heart wasn’t fully invested yet.

#trafficblr #traffic series #life series #life smp #ethoslab #bdubs #double life #Couldn't sleep so I decided it'd be better to just write Betho blurbs #couldn't stop laughing while writing it #i have a problem don't judge me #so normal about them #double life totally didn't have 3 great love square dynamics #seriously how were the ranchers the only soulmates who weren't cheating on each other? #okay bye #ethubs

[starpros-sunshine]

When others enjoy things in an overly emotional and enthusiastic way I find it tacky and rebarbative. When I do the exact same thing though it's different. Then it's appropriate and justified. Obviously.

#mind you I am not ralking about the concept of cringe #I don't cringe #i just think it a bit silly #but to eaxh their own whatever makes people happy I suppose #as long as it doesn't harm anyone I don't care #but you have to admit sometimes it's really very silly #honey no you have not got it. you haven't even placed the order yet. #when I do it it's fine though #completely fine #the funny thing about this is that i really hate hypocrisy #see there's a fine line between self loathing and pushing an ego the size of the universe and I walk it perfectly #so perfectly in fact that they balance each other out #I don't hate myself I think I'm too good for that but I also don't like myself because lets be real. I'm really not It. #so what I end up with is a healthy dose of self criticism and a differential worldview #because who am I to judge #god I am so good at this being normal thing I really really am #delete later #I'm not awake enough to keep up the usual attitude of youthful cheeriness and charming idiocy you'll get your regular clownguy back by #well tomorrow probably #if the humiliation of self exposure allows me to make the return ans not just lynch this blog immediately #we'll see #not that it matters anyways

[meatmensch]

The people that have abandoned me really need to stop talking to me like they have any right to tell me what to do, or I swear to God, I'm gonna get the FUCKING hammer.

#inspired by my bitch of a mother sending me a text that basically said u need to get ur life together #as i always say! LET HE WHO IS WITHOUT SIN CAST THE FIRST STONE! #this woman's life is a dumpster fire #and she specifically said 'i won't financially support u. i'll always be there for u but that's a conditional statement' #which is INSANE because that don't make no sense AND she has NEVER financially supported me? genuinely why does she think she has any #fucking right...😭😭😭 #meanwhile. my dad. during the shitstorm that has been my family's existence lately. is being way more lax about me getting a job and moving #out than he has been in the past. because some fucks despite being shitheads aren't total assholes #this post is also inspired by my insufferable sister who fucked off to another fucking continent when i was 7 and treats me...well. exactly #how u would expect an upper middle class dumb jock to treat her awesome nerd little brother. and is always telling me i'm making #the wrong fucking decisions and judging me. #these ppl r so funny bc they think this is normal and that i will endure it bc the power of love or what the fuck ever. wrong! i have been #on the brink of cutting off my entire family since i was fourteen. now that i actually have the power to do some cutting off i'll be honest #i feel pretty great #it is all of course a horrible nightmare and i wish things were different etc etc etc. but in the words of supernatural. i was always going #to end up here. #while i am thinking about such things what's my other sister's deal? she has not reached out to me for years. it was like i turned 18 and #she was like ok who cares abt this dude now #which was incredibly bizarre and makes me feel like a stupid idiot who did something wrong but i know i didn't. and she was always the most #supportive of my siblings. i don't know what her problem is #in her defense her life has been weird lately. but 'lately' has lasted long enough that it's just her life now. and whenever i try to be th #one to reach out she basically gives me...nothing. #while i am thinking about such things i will acknowledge the slays. my one totally kickass sister who is the only other one of my siblings #who understands anything. i am rly grateful for her and she has been so good to me for so long especially during the recent shitstorm #she is moving very far away and that has brought up my abandonment issues but i genuinely am so happy for her and her family and she is ver #adamant about me visiting and PAYING for the visit (or at least doing the scamming that pays for the visit so i don't have to pay lol) and #making sure i'll be ok. #it's not all bad! i am going to be ok! there r so many people in my life who love me and love me in a way that makes sense to me and doesn' #make me feel like the world's worst man #personal log

[caffeinatedopossum]

Events of last night:

Me: *crying*

My girlfriend: what's wrong?? :(

Me: *struggling to form words* intrusive thoughts are bad... I don't want to talk about them because then I'm scared that they're true and you might think I'm awful

My girlfriend: ah I actually get that. I have those a lot. It doesn't mean anything though, intrusive thoughts are just like dreams. Like the things you do in them aren't really things you want to do, it's just stuff your brain comes up with.

#we then very heavily related over having the same intrusive thoughts and now I'm suspicious #thinking about when i told her i might have ocd and she said i didnt #and starting to feel like thats because... what if we both have ocd #it seems like she was basing her entire knowledge of conditions on people shes known with those conditions. which makes sense #but the person/ people with ocd had severe cleaning compulsions and the like #where as me and her obsess much more over morality #like its very clear we think about it so much. and idk what to do with that information #we both feel like the intrusive thoughts and obsessive ruminating are the only things that keep is from being bad people #or that prevent us from being bad people i guess. idk why that wording is just slightly more accurate #like people who dont think about these things (apparently all 'normal' people since this could be *an actual disorder*) #they're not constantly analyzing. trying to be aware. asking themselves questions about their true nature. judging those answers #theyre not really doing that with other people either. of course i could be wrong since im very clearly not a normal person. #but this is what i mean! im speculating about other people and acknowledging the ways i could be wrong and just trying to figure it all out #but it seems like no one does that and it doesnt *make them* bad people. it just doesn't prevent them from that happening either #like theyre just as likely to hurt people as the 'bad' person thats thinking the same way they are #and i cant ever be comfortable with me living that reality even when *this reality* is a waking nightmare #sure im tearing my skin off (good ole skin picking disorder) when im thinking about these things. sure im crying. sure i can't sleep. #sure it makes me feel like im constantly a horrible person and need to attone for everything ive done and havent done #sure. but then i turn around and say its helping me. because why else would my brain torture me? isnt it always about protecting me? #i don't know. all i know is who i dont want to be and what i dont want. so that exactly what my brain convinces me is real #i guess what it kinda comes to do is #would you rather live a reality where everything around you is superficial. your thoughts behaviors and thoughts. your reactions #all of them are things youre never aware of. you could be hurting people or you could be helping themm #you could even be hurting yourself. but you would never know. its a comfortable reality that youre never really aware of #OR would you rather live a reality aware of all those things. seeking answers and sometimes finding them. #trying your hardest to help others and better yourself and fix the broken things in this world #your reality is one where you recognize every threat that no one else does and it kills you inside because they wont always listen #theyre comfortable and you're stuck in a reality where you try and try and try but even when you succeed #your brain forms its own reality. a metaphorical jail. where you never get to experience the reality you fought so hard for #instead you exist in this sort of purgatory where you live out your own worst fears and the worst ways you could have failed

[wikagirl]

I finished the less important side characters. Just wanted to draw them so I had a visual ref for when I write them.

From left to right we have:

Nicolle, Gabriellas aunt and thus her fathers younger sister. She's the middle child and as you might be able to tell from her outfit, a professional ice skater. The glitter on her dress is supposed to represent a rising phoenix, a metaphor for being "reborn" after having to drop out of skating for a while due to overexhaustion and burn out and coming back better than ever. Her career is her life, she will not talk about anything else ever. Her sister does her hair for her.

In the middle we have Alexandra, the youngest sister to Nicolle and Gabriellas father. She does heavy wheight lifting, owns a sports clothing brand and organizes sports programms to teach people that sport can be fun without needing to be competitive or for wheightloss purposes. Also graphic eyeliner is a must and her outfit is inspired by 4-time olympic gold winner Serena Williams' adorable poofy tennis outfits. Sports wear can be cute and practical. For her physique I references Emily Campbell, britains first ever medal winning womens olympic wheightlifting candidate

And last we have Waylen. Waylen is an adrenaline junkie and a member of the Hale pharma private military. He has a whole arsenal of prosthetics for different pruposes and yes those are mantis blades from cyberpunk and the prosthetic legs are inspired by that one lady from the first kingsman. He went through so many body modificatiosn that the constant switching out of parts, medications post surgeries and his overall very low self preservation instincts took a bit of a toll on his body so now he has to permanently wear the bottom part of his airfilter mask or else he will literally suffocate. All the foods he consumes must be liquid and snorkeled in through a straw and a little hatch at the front of his mask. Thanks to the previously mentioned issues he has a almost non existant feeling of hunger, meaning that he often only realizes he should eat when it's allready to late and he tips over sideways. Depending on how much coffee he has in his system he can be a representaion of every song in the misery/cpr/reeses puffs mix. The only reason for why he hasn't been kicked out of the military and sent to early retirement yet is because he's good for the morale and knows what he's doing as long as he's in a team, on his own he suddenly looses all those braincells and turns into a "stealth is optional? nice *explosions*" type bingus.

#myart #ocs #I used to hate sports growing up because in school everything was competitive #and outside of school everything seemed to be with the sole purpose of loosing wheight #in fact you can be quite active in sports and still not loose a pound simply because muscle is heavier than fat #and also because diet plays more into wheightloss than training #so to everyone who keeps calling people who don't look “normal” (notice the “”) lazy and unhealthy: plz shut the fuck up and die <3 #you know absolutely nothing about the people you're looking at. their body their choice and now do me the favour and fall off a cliff #I'm really sick and tired of people trying to police other peoples bodies AND FEELINGS ABOUT THEIR BODIES under the guise of care #as you might be able to tell I didn't put as much work into these as the others since they are only side characters #that will only pop up once or twice #also since gigi is as ashy and pasty as the rind of a parmesan cheese and her aunties are significantly darker you can probably guess #she is mixed with her mom being what would be asian on planet earth and her dad is mixed black and something secret #and with something secret I mean this is still a work in progress #he'll be the bestest of best dads none of that toxic father figure bs in my house #he is inspired by christopher judge who was literally one of my childhood heroes in his role as teal'c in stargate btw #visually and personality wise I mean #a strong but still kind and caring for those he holds dear. maybe a bit odd to outsiders :3 #tw eating issues #tw ed #kinda #bc of waylens digestive situation? #side characters

[hylianengineer]

Just watched the new doctor who episodes and I fricking LOVE Fifteen!

#yes he's only had like ten minutes of screen time but i love him okay #i can tell already #the second thing he did was hug his past self #he's already the doctor to me #sometimes it takes a bit to click but fifteen did right off the bat #and i love his accent it's so good #did you know he's scottish? rwandan-scottish more specifically but now i want to hear gatwa's real accent because surely this isn't it? #it doesn't sound scottish. i can hear the rwandan influence but it doesn't sound scottish. #or maybe I'm just a terrible judge of accents i swear they all blend together after a while #sometimes I'll hear a british accent and not notice it doesn't match mine #i think I've spent too long around other accents and sometimes they don't register anymore. they're just normal.

[lebrookestore]

oh girl what the fuck

#so....i have investigated to the best of my abilities and i am still thoroughly lost so thats that #but what?? literally so much transpired ok so firstly soobin flipped seunghan off with his toes like what.... #SEUNGHAN WAS KICKED OUT OF RIIZE FOR SMOKING..... R U KIDDING ME LMFAO THATS SO????? #PLEASE he was doing normal dumb teenager things u should see the people in my college and literally every other college here #why do people drag any sort of celebrity for making normal human decisions #like yes it isn't good for you no shit it isn't but im sure he's mentally sane enough to know that #people who smoke are AWARE of the fact its not good for them trust me i have friends who are well aware #the consequences are on every single pack like they know #bro got kicked out for something literally millions of other people do like what kpoppies are insane and sm is stupid #secondly....i don't even know how to address the made in abyss scandal like it seems so messy what even #let me be so clear here if this allegations are true then i am absolutely disgusted and cannot even fathom what the fuck is happening #like woozi taeyong everyone what #but from what i have seen... and PLEASE DO NOT MISTAKE THIS AS ME DEFENDING ANYONE I AM SIMPLY STATING WHAT I HAVE SEEN ON TWITTER DOT COM #the copy that taeyong had of that manga was the censored version #does this help no not really but i don't really know enough about this situation i will look into it as much as i can i just have no TIME #ive also seen that all of them have been cleared??? so thats also something we should take into consideration i suppose #and the manga/anime is advertised as gore/horror etc ofc this does not excuse its contents literally what the fuck is that author on #but i have to state how entirely hypocritical it is to judge someone based off the media they consume because i know damn well #that a lot of people consume very fucked up content like dark fiction is a thing have yall seen the ya novels nowadays #that does not make the person who consumes it condone it...bc its fiction #at the end of the day these are men i dont trust them as delusional as i may portray myself on this hellsite #also i saw a tweet ab someone on twitter saying bc taeyong reads beserk and that is also a manga with incredibly dark themes he must be #fucked up #firstly a lot of manga/anime have dark themes but thats not the point #a LOT of people around the world have read that manga (im literally not talking ab taeyong here i promise) #literally people i know have #they KNOW how fucked up it is they dont recommend it to anyone and literally say read it at your own risk its fucked up #it does not mean they directly condone the shit that goes on in the manga they have quite the opposite stance actually #(beserk is also the nunber 1 rated manga of all time i know this my ex doesn't shut up ab it and neither does one of my best friends) #anyway i dont know much about this yet so i will look into it more; had no idea what was happening until five mins ago but literally wtf ma

[automatonkisser]

my brain is giving me such a hard time when it comes to ignoring/altering canon for my selfships because for the most part i also genuinely enjoy the source material and there's a part of me that can't stop feeling like meddling w it too much is disrespectful*, unless i feel like the changes won't actually affect the plot/narrative in any meaningful way, either because i can manage to work them into the story well enough or because the things i wanna change had very little impact on it to begin with (i.e. why i don't feel bad abt pretending shapesmith never died lmao)

#*FOR THE RECORD i don't think this is generally a bad thing and i don't judge other people for doing it #like w selfshipping in particular i also don't think it necessarily reflects on how people engage w media in general #it's kind of its own isolated little space to me #and like obviously altering the source through inserting ourselves and interacting w the characters and material is a huge part of it #and it's also smth that makes it appealing to me #because i love seeing the different ways in which everyone interacts w the characters and story in such a direct and personal way #but when it comes to myself it's always like. am i allowed to change this thing that i love for its inherent qualities #or will i end up turning it into smth unrecognizable purely for my own enjoyment. which is not smth i want to do to a thing that i love #y'know!! just me being normal abt media :) #💘.txt

[holdharmonysacred]

Started writing a post about unit blorbofication and story depth in FE in light of the latest round of past FEs VS 3H VS Engage discourse, someone remind me to go back to writing it later when I get my brainpower back.

#tl;dr preview i think what's going on is kind of a conflict between differing tastes in terms of Level Of Character Depth In Units #caused by the franchise's struggle with balancing the blorbo genre of emergent gameplay #it's definitely stupid to act as if character depth and intensive backstories are somehow exclusive to 3H #and all other FEs run on flat gimmick characters #BUT ALSO it's stupid to act like FE hasn't historically also run on flat gimmick characters #because the fact is that flat gimmick characters are just what happens in any game where the cast is too damn big #and the game doesn't have the colossal space needed to give everybody depth #+ the franchise's permadeath mechanics tend to impede the writers' ability to develop said units anyway #in 3H's case i would argue that it also has a problem with faux depth where the writers WANT it to be complicated and deep #but also it's REALLY goddamn obvious that they're interested in some parts of their story more than other #and that they bit off way way WAY more than they could chew when it comes to building their fantasy world #and these other issues just compound the problems that normally come with 'too big cast in a game where permadeath real' #it is kind of a sad reality that someone would fall into 'the players have to make up their depth' eventually #because it's just kinda impossible to develop *EVERYONE* if you don't have infinite ongoing serialized story space #but there are ways of managing that cast scope creep that the FE writers aren't quite good at wrangling #do to the aforementioned conflicts of interest in mechanics and general care #engage i haven't actually played yet or watched somebody else play so the best i've got is 'it's fun trash/trashy fun' #so i can't judge how it handles its own cast scope creep #but i get the impression that it falls back to flat characters and generic plot #which obviously isn't going to be very filling if you prefer meatier narratives and characters #but that's just how the nightmare tightrope of cast scope creep rolls