#negative words of doubt

[saltpepperbeard]

you know what i'm so tired of? the influx of negative clickbait articles surrounding the possibility of ofmd s3. i've seen things like "taika says he isn't sure whether he wants to return for the third season" and "the show will go on without ed and stede." and the worst recent offender was "stede might be the one to breakup with blackbeard in the third season" because it misconstrued rhys' words when he was talking about ed and stede likely reuniting with the crew.

and like...intuitively i know that they are all indeed just clickbait, and are trying to take advantage of everyone's desperation for any sort of s3 news. and also, i feel like the negativity is pointed and purposeful, because it gets people talking and subsequently spreads the article around faster/gives that particular site more attention.

but man do i hate it, because it does not mix well with my anxiety.

#OFMD #OFMD Season 3 #also it's so weird to me because i feel like the fandom would take off running with POSITIVE news--arguably even faster than negative #to quote an og fandom lol: 'hope. it is the only thing stronger than fear' #so you'd think they'd try and get a tidbit of positive thinking and focus on THAT instead #like 'the crew and our swashbuckling sweethearts may have separated at the end of season 2...but their stories with each other aren't over! #'they're all a family and will more than likely cross paths on the high seas once again' TYPE DEAL #AS OPPOSED TO TAKING RHYS' WORDS AND BEING LIKE 'oh lol stede is going to breakup with ed actually' #and not even ed because they always use bLAckBEaRd which instills an even deeper contempt in me tbh HSDJKLS #but it drives me bonkers bananas because i KNOW that wouldn't be the case #and i KNOW the show is the relationship #and i KNOW david said that they're done breaking up and that the third season would be focused on their maturing relationship #BUT EVEN STILL #//EVEN STILL// #ANY SORT OF WHISPER OF DOUBT GETS MY ANXIETY SHOOTING OFF AND I JUST SHDJKLSDLS #I SIMPLY WISH THEY WOULD STOP DOING: THIS

[keepingmyoptionsfluid]

You guys need to calm the fuck down. You're not better than new fans, you're not better than people who are happy bisexuals get representation. Go outside and touch some grass and stop being chronically online. You're making the fandom more toxic because you personally don't like a decision? Grow the fuck up

(who needs homophobes spewing hate us for this when we have so many militant buddie fans attacking anyone who is excited)

#911 abc #911 fox #911 #im not sorry for not holding back my words #this fandom had an amazing 12 hours and then so much negativity exploded within it #obviously i want buddie endgame but im just happy at the moment thay us bisexuals - especially bisexual men - are getting representation #and i dont hate bucktommy as a couple #its basically wish.com buddie #so i have no doubt buck might realise what he loves about tommy is basically that hes eddie but openly queer

[the-kipsabian]

would appreciate someone telling me my fic writing efforts are not completely in vain or whatever

#im trying. it just feels so meaningless #i dont even know if this fic will ever get posted cause im just so done with the disappointments #but the urge to write hit and i got down like a 100 words before the negative bad doubtful brain got to me again and just. yeah #is this really worth it? i honestly dont know anymore #i should probably take a nap. i know i just feel worse afterwards but. ough #night is an absolute mess on main

[constantvariations]

The Branwen bandits make absolutely no sense and every question I ask leads to more questions

Why do Raven and Vernal have advanced weapons while nearly every other member has basic traditional armory? Do they employ a hierarchy within the group? If so, how does one rise in rank? Is the competition brutal, perhaps even lethal?

How are Hunters a significant enough threat that its namesake twins went undercover at Beacon when they clearly steamroll over every obstacle pre-V5? Has Raven's reign made them stronger than her predecessor? How? Who came before Raven and why are they no longer around?

Why would Hunters be after a group of human bandits when their purpose is to fight Grimm? Is stopping man-made tragedy a part of the job because it prevents major Grimm attacks? How far would that authority reach? Would that clash with any local police force?

On a meta level, what do the bandits bring to the narrative? It would've been interesting to see an ideological clash between individualistic "survival of the fittest" and community-oriented "strength of bonds overcome all odds," but we didn't get that. Or we could've gotten some worldbuilding due to their unique nomadic nature outside the kingdoms' safe walls

Instead, the Branwen Bandits serve only a utilitarian purpose: bring Weiss and Yang together and send them to Ruby, house Raven until the finale, and be cannon fodder in a few action scenes

Yet another good idea poorly executed

#rwde #it doesnt even serve angst purposes for qrow bc its so vague and offscreen it might as well not exist #also im avoiding the word tribe bc i read a while back that it promotes negative stereotypes #iirc its bc white colonizers used it as a synonym for 'primitive savages' and using it still promotes that idea #the bandits dont seem to have any close relations w each other so i dont feel like clan works either but im not as sure on that one #ngl every time i hear clan my first thought is either the uchihas or warrior cats lmao #on an off note im wondering if im not receiving hate anons bc ive already blocked everyone who does that shit #almost wish there were notifications for how many blocked anons have tried to send messages lol #literally the closest ive gotten to anon hate was someone saying that the bees were better than violyn from arcade #they sent an lol after i responded so i highly doubt theyre someone who's gone after rwdesters w vitriol #anons send me hate instead of the others blogs pls i need a good laugh

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

@anachronistic-falsehood i genuinely wish i was lying right now

#dont even get me started on the post thats bashing other horror series #to be fair. to be completelt fair. to give them the benefit of the doubt #i dont think it was meant to be malicious. i think it was just a poor choice of words. #but that does not change the fact that it was worded horribly and genuinely is a MAJOR factor in why i am taking so much offense to genloss #but. yeah. little to no filler huh #as if the entire first stream was not filler. as if fucking. charlie slimecicke badly imposed on a goddamn towel is not filler #AND THE THING IS. THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH FILLER. #i fucking lovd 'filler episodes' of tv shows and wish there was more of themA #but when you have not even given yourself a base to stand on plotwise or characterwise or even . concept wise. #you cannot just do filler and expect it to be good!!!!! #genloss neg #genloss crit #also sorry im making all of these no reblog i would genuinely love to read tag rambles abt this #but you know how the mcyt fandom can be when someone dares to disagree with the majority opinion <3 #even if we're. objectively correct

[kingofthewilderwest]

Which fictional character that's not human would you sit down and listen to while they're gabbing?

Answered this as if it's a one-on-one convo instead of a public lecture, etc.

My tolerance for being gabbed at exists because I believe it's respectful. They deserve to feel good about their passions and have those met with attention. It feels amazing to scream about what you love unfettered. On the receiving end, it doesn't always mean I'm enjoying it or that I care about the topic. I also think there are limits... we have to bear in mind who our audience is, detect when we've bored them, or notice when we dominate to the point we're suppressing others and making things, inadvertently or not, focused on oneself.

It's a double wild card when it's a stranger. I've had some of the coolest one-sided conversations with people I encountered at a gas station. And I've had some of the worst. When I think about listening to a fictional character (a stranger) yab on, my instinctive answer is, "None of them? Sounds tedious." Not trying to be mean! I just acknowledge there are imperfect people who believe in being supportive, but don't necessarily relish unfettered monologues.

It's part of what makes me an imperfect friend. 😂😅 It's something I'm over-sensitive to and a hypocrite on. I'm self-conscious about it and trying to work on how I treat others and how to improve my attitude. I talk other peoples' ears off, realize it's selfish and too much, and then might grapple with impatience when I get gabbed at. Not fair when I've just yabbered - I'd rather improve my attitude so I enjoy it more often and can use these as real friendship connections instead of politeness.

(To be clear - there are times I like when friends go off and it depends on the relationship I have with the person.)

Mordin Solus can talk my ears off on any subject. My thoughts don't have any bearing if someone is human or not, so I'll put Newt Geiszler in, too. Newt going off on kaiju would be fun. Part of why I love those characters is their unfettered passion and way they talk. I guess those are my answers!

#unnecessarily long answer as always #non-dragons #analysis #ask #ask me #jayalaw #using words like 'gabbed' instead of 'infodump' for intended nuance - and no NOT to try to imply there's ALWAYS a negative connotation for #long rambles #i doubt the subtlety of my intent will come across #but there is nuance intended

[howifeltabouthim]

. . . the incredibly excruciating self doubts I get to the point that I find absolutely every manifestation of my 'self'—from the way I dress to the way I walk, sing, write, etc., profoundly embarrassing to the point that I want to completely withdraw.

Catherine Lacey, from Biography of X

#insecure #self doubt #second guessing #hard on yourself #negative self talk #run and hide #reclusive #withdrawn #the worst feeling #relatable #self conscious #identity #quotes #lit #words #excerpts #quote #literature #embarrassing #catherine lacey #biography of x

[starlooove]

Genuine answer tho kindaaaa because my entire point with the tim wealth thing is that even if the point about it not having much basis in canon was true (which. Lmao) it’s still gonna impact how he’s written by the writers and viewed by the fans; when it comes to writing stories a lot of people see middle class as the Relatable class which is precisely why I think those hardcore Tim Stans are pushing it so much

#im not gonna make it long bc like. if u get it u get it there’s not much u have to explain #but i am gonna say it’s very funny they don’t wanna say he’s broke #if his wealth doesn’t matter at all they could easily say he has nothing #but they’re too classist to say it #hard assumptions buuuuut im not giving plot points don’t impact character guy the benefit of the doubt #when it comes to monetary status there are implications that come with them #when it comes to the general public middle class has the most neutral implications #atp with so many convos on class consciousness and negative traits associated with the wealthy #it feels like they just don’t want Tim associated with that #imo that’s what makes him cool #the fact that he’s extremely intelligent but held back by limited world view which can cause him to fuck up his relationships (steph) #or be callous and cruel in his words (Jason when Tim was first starting as Robin) #i think him choosing to be Robin even tho he would’ve arguably been extremely successful otherwise #and choosing to have this worldview expanded in ways that he might not like (his arrogance biting him in the ass meeting ppl like Lonnie- #-learning to extend empathy and compassion in a way that might seem unnatural at first) is cooler than middle class kid picked up by #billionaire like the other 20 #plus i think him being written as the opposite of Jason was so intentional that to ignore it is stupid. not even explaining like c’mon man #but i think the parallels this creates with Bruce -did NOT have to do that shit ur life is WORSE bc ur doing that shit- are fun #like in conclusion if u wanna ignore that Tim’s rich fine whatever #but ur so boring and I’d rather watch paint dry than hear whatever you have to say about him #there’s too many bad things associated with both lower class and higher class for them to be comfy with tim in either #so they’re pushing for neutral middle #just like tim isn’t arrogant and rude at times but he’s also not a complete pushover #so he’s smart but he forgets to take care of himself #he’s not Bruce’s favorite because Bruce is so mean but he can’t be Bruce’s least favorite so he does everything for him #just bland takes on bland takes bc God forbid the rich white boy has some spunk #which is a massive disservice to his character btw. like i hate on canon Tim a lot but he’s interesting to me #it’s why takes like this don’t even piss me off or anything it’s just. so boring #evil opposite to ‘Batman is the man Bruce is the mask’ #ur so smart and profound I’d love to hear more. please tell me about how much tim loves coffee and worshipped Jason as Robin.

[foldingfittedsheets]

Im not sick, and I’m not healthy, but a secret third thing.

The friends we went to visit all tested negative on PCR but then began to sicken and test positive after we got home. My betrothed began to sicken the day we got back. I am… still okay? I think? It’s hard to know what’s chronic illness or early covid signs.

My current theories are:

I will sicken but my antiviral medicines are slowing my rate of illness.

Or

I still have covid antibodies from my august infection which are slowing my rate of illness (in this version maybe I don’t get any sicker?)

Or

Through a bizarre series of astronomically tiny chances I didn’t get enough exposure to either my friends family unit OR my betrothed afterward and I won’t actually sicken (this is just fucking ludicrous but my betrothed and I are masking, if by some miracle I don’t develop symptoms we’ll continue this practice)

#ramblings #if by some miracle I don’t get it I will be more grateful than words can say #but I doubt it #we’re gonna pcr test again in a few days because the first ones came back negative just like our friends did at first #covid #illness

[a-earthssprout]

... ; u ; I love you all so much. thank you for all the reassurance, lava, & support beneath my little vent ...

#( ❀ | ooc ) #( how lucky am I to be surrounded by such loving & encouraging & sweet people? #I might delete that post--just to remove the negative energy on it from the dash!--but I'll screenshot all of your thoughtful replies #before I do! so if that pesky little doubt ever enters my head again ... I'll just reread all of your kind words & let them #push it out! 😭 )

[solarisgod]

Guys who love their system mates so much ( Micah and I )

#* quick warning of r slur mention and /neg psychotic word use in tags /// #[ ✨ : Micah and I are 🤝 🤝 🤝 ] #[ I just love my cluster so much they have really helped me a lot over since last year discovering them ] #[ especially Amor ; they're extremely supportive and loving and I just :( !!! ] #[ being a system / plural can be so draining and mentally chaotic but. ] #[ I'm extremely happy and grateful we exist and I have them with me... ] #[ and I am extremely thankful too to have supportive and accepting friends here towards our plurality ] #[ honestly from time to time we would think about the two anon hate we received in June about our OSDD1 / Micah's DID ] #[ telling us DID / OSDD aren't real ] #[ even calling us psychotic AND r slur it's so... ] #[ also had a lot of doubts and judgement from many ex mutuals who ghosted us last year ] #[ when I discovered my cluster and talked about my plurality experiences more ] #[ I am really happy to be openly plural ( online at least ). some plurals choose not to ] #[ and that's more than okay too ; but for me with some of my more active starmates' approval ] #[ we're content to be openly plural and as long as we're collectively happy and comfortable with that ; then that's all that matters ] #[ it is daunting to be openly plural and talk / share about anything relating to plurality ] #[ it's also incredibly lonely to be a plural in the rpc as we don't really know anyone atm who's a plural too I won't lie ] #[ but truly we're always most thankful for the support and acceptance from our friends here that make us feel safe and content to be so ] #[ anyways. just been deeply thinking about plurality and my cluster and Micah's system and loving us all that is all 💖 ]

[cinnabeat]

im seeing people say azz would get mad at iruma for hiding that hes a human (if it DOES get revealed next chapter) and like idk i dont think he will. like azz and iruma had a whole Moment where iruma saw how nervous and uncomfortable azz was with sharing his own secret and iruma told him straight up he doesnt have to say shit if he doesnt want to just bc theyre friends bc theyre all allowed to keep stuff hidden even from the people closest to them. like he literally set himself on fire bc he was feeling So Much i dont think hes gonna get upset with iruma for hiding it

#at most i think hed be confused? #rattled? bc this is A Big Deal #iruma being a human i mean #like its more about what is azz gonna say or do if he does find out rather than him reacting to there being a secret at all #and anyways i doubt azz is gonna react negatively anyways like all that development and friendhsip and azz being So about iruma #and people really think hes gonna react negatively to this info? #id HOPE not like thats just. i dont like that its a cop out for more drama and doesnt reflect azz already established character #i would love to see azz kick kirios ass before he can finish but on second thought he looks a little Too startled #so my money is on either bachiko ameri or amaryllis #i wanna say bachiko bc there was a strange panel when kirio says therell be jo place for you #it shows sullivan all calm (?) and bachiko turning around like she noticed something and azz doing his best to break thru the barrier #so im gonna say bachiko will save the day and it has the added benefit that She Knows #also find it hard to believe amaryllis doesnt know where iruma is i feel like she followed him? bc shes a woman of her word and she promised #to protect him #anyways #i have Maby Thoughts #michi tag

[dyketubbo]

girl help my silly post that got some attention not only has a typo but has also found its way on a blog of someone whose ideologies i fundamentally disagree with

#god let endo systems be #syscourse is fucking exhausting. doctors hate all of us anyways #society sees all of us as crazy and the medical system thinks we should all be 'cured' #and youre busy going on acting as if its alright to doubt that certain type of people exist #and how they shouldnt be using the word system or whatever . #nontraumagenic systems have been apart of the online community since the 90s #and have likely been apart of the irl community even before then #the flaws of a few within the community should not determine how you feel about them as an entirety #(obviously not counting when the entire community is based around shit like bigotry but that does not define the endo community) #not to mention how much syscourse is just repackaged queer discourse but thats neither here nor there #anyways. syscourse is dumb #endo systems arent your goddamn enemy just because doctors dont believe that theyre real #come on. #mask mews #negative #ok to rb but dont be a dick

[silasbug]

i've been feeling a little weird lately. not quite real. reality seems fuzzy.

my head, ah. it feels like it's been stuffed into a pillow. everything is soft and muffled in this strangely oppressive (but comforting) way.

i keep having this thought that "i've been such a different person lately". i think i have. i've.. not quite felt like me. it feels off. it feels strange. but in a good way.

it feels like i'm gently floating along a river and, despite the usual pitfalls of depression (a snag of a branch or the nibble of a fish), it's felt fine.

the water is luke warm and normally i would be shivering, but i am too tired to shiver. it's that point where your body stops convulsing and gently eases into the cold. where you're glad that it stops trembling, because it became exhausting.

i just keep noticing it. (the change). i'm painfully aware of it sitting on the edge of my consciousness. it's gently waving at me. it doesn't feel malicious, but it feels out of place. (thinking about it in tangible terms like a being helps).

i feel light in the way that i feel when i no longer care about something. when i can let it go. send it off into the fog. let it fade. that sounds positive, but it's just been nothing. neither good nor bad. it's indifference.

and maybe there are some things i have stopped caring about, or have finally (subconsciously) decided to just leave and accept. "it is what it is". and for once, it just is.

the.. ache that usually accompanies that statement isn't there. it's not the *sighs hopelessly, wishing it could be different*.

i reckon i'm not making sense but my thoughts rarely do and i don't care. my brain is tired and i think it's done thinking. it's acknowledged that it is done thinking.

it's allowing for a strange sort peace. i feel calm. i wouldn't exactly call it content (but isn't it content, in a way? it is), but it feels like i could fall off the face of the earth right now and be fine. be okay. or feel nothing at all.

i could.. become a drop of water and join the puddle as a whole.

i'm buried beneath the leaves and i am happy to stay here.

it's closure.

i don't know why it feels that way or what caused this and i'm sure it'll stop feeling that way soon (hello darkness, my old friend, anyone?), but this is.. fine. for now. it's.. ah. certainly better than the alternative.

i'm sure the need and the will to struggle will arise again once the anxiety and the fear settle back in, but it could stay like this for all i care.

and i think i just realized that maybe i've just been basking in the feeling of fear leaving my body for the first time.

it's literally felt like i've been able to dislodge the metaphorical fear-stick that is constantly up my ass. just a little.

who knew not feeling afraid for once would feel like a dream? like unreality? all soft and fuzzy.

it'll be back something fierce. be nicer if it didn't.

i'd even give it a kiss goodbye if that meant it would leave me be.

anyways.

#yeah this is barely coherent. it's an uneloquent stream-of-consciousness because that's how i process #this is.. positive? i think #it's not negative for certain. just a little.. apprehensive #i.. ah? there's more i want to say but i forgot how words work #the biggest changes i've noticed is that i'm just somehow.. able to talk to people better? i'm still too scared to actually initiate #but when i have talked to people it's just felt fine and normal and natural while usually it feels anything BUT that #while i still worry. it settles in much later than it usually would. so i don't panic while i speak. #i still have the same doubts but it's been easier to say 'oh. ok. so what? what if they're playing you? what could you do about it? #why does it matter? why do you even care?' and i've just been able to. not care? since. it definitely creates some detachment but maybe #that's fine? i always got too invested in everything too quickly anyways. take everything too seriously. maybe this is good. #journal entry #personal

[flowerbeds-and-fairywings]

curls up inside the blanket fort. so yknow those times where you all of a sudden feel really bad and you’re not sure where it came from but it’s really hitting you hard … ? …. yeah

#i’m feeling really … i’m not sure what the word is. self conscious ? embarrassed ? doubtful ? about some of my f/o’s and :((( #and i overall had a big mood drop #maybe i’m just really exhausted ?? i don’t know #but. yeah :(( #vent tw #negativity tw

[howifeltabouthim]

She didn't know why she was crying. She deserved her fate. She deserved to be punished for her selfishness . . . punished for the bad deeds she couldn't help doing . . . punished for being herself . . . That's why her story could never change, no matter what pen wrote it.

Soman Chainani, from A Crystal of Time

#hard on yourself #negative self talk #punished #deserve your fate #contemptible #self loathing #doubt #fate #crying #being yourself #sad #the worst feeling #it never changes #inescapable #vicious cycle #stuck #trapped #quotes #lit #words #excerpts #quote #literature #sophie of woods beyond #the school for good and evil #soman chainani #a crystal of time