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[bxrn-thc-pxgcs]

🥖 - Hadley to Joe ( @storystartsanew )

Joe stopped for only a moment, just long enough to look down at the bread and then up at Hadley... then laughing, shaking his head. "Okay, I guess." He stood up and closed the hood of the car he'd been working on, reaching for his grease rag. "Good morning to you, too."

@storystartsanew

#joe | asks #joe | interactions #& hadley #memes never die | ask meme

[bumblingbabooshka]

St Voyager Memes: New Year Same Guys

#I will die on the hill that Tuvok is not a dad or father figure to like any of the crew except for Kes #because they're all adults - if he had to parent them I think he'd be irritated by it. #But kids??? Tuvok is scooping them up. #he had four of them he was mama ducking it around for who knows how long <3 #st voyager memes #st voyager #Maybe B'Elanna's the bad boy with a heart of gold and also the nerdy girl who hunkymcdreamy would NEVER ask to the dance

[faeriedaez]

MANIFESTING. COME ON BABY.

LIKE TO CHARGE

REBLOG TO CAST

#politics #us politics #mitch mcconnell #KY #kentucky #meme #death #DIE #DIE YOU OLD BASTARD #turtle #please #i've never asked before #ditch mitch #moscow mitch

[babyblueetbaemonster]

Every time I see your HoK, I imagine a tiny label floating over his head that reads "troubled" Do what you will with that information.

"You know, it's really obvious that you're not fine."

#i'm fine. just stressed about the daedra invasion and worried we'll never take back the amulet in time and everyone will die and... #bruh... #ask and i shall answer #you're right dear anon #he's visible troubled but will pretend nothing's wrong #baurus #hero of kvatch #hok #tes oc #oc: acelta #ah yes my hok is very sensitive and weight of the oblivion crisis will crash him very easily #traumatized overwhelmed and everything sad. these are the ingredients chosen to create a perfect little hok #i draw a meme #ask #L.A.Noure doubt

[misscammiedawn]

Papyrus (Is "The Garden" on that playlist?)

papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with?

CW: Discussion of severe mental illness and suicide.

I had my "mental illness indie playlist" on and for the record Pills & Good Advice by Left At London (her gosh darn magnum opus to living with a SPMI) is the song that came up.

This is legitimately one of my favorite songs of all time and helped me a ton during the worst portions of second puberty when our BPD symptoms were off the charts. Left at London does amazing music ranging from talking about the 2020 social unrest which includes the refrain "Fuck you and the slavers that you work for" or finding joy within having a dissociative disorder or the terror of discovering one. As well as one of the most uncomfortably accurate songs about Disorganized/Insecure Attachment in BPD (the Patreon only edit even including a voice mail that ripped my heart to shreds the first time I heard it.) and a break-up song that includes a lyric that takes me out every time I hear it:

And if falling in love is all that it takes To make you love the world You’ll be bitter when they go Because even infinity in its entirety Still can turn to nothingness When it's multiplied by zero

But let's talk about the song which actually showed up on my random, Pills & Good Advice.

The song is built upon Nat's experiences from being released from a mental care facility after a suicide attempt and the fear and insecurity of being released into the world with nothing but medication and doctors recommendations to keep her from trying to kill herself again.

On my first day out My familiar town Felt the same as in my dreams Crying in my sleep When the sun came down Thinking "I am cured, it seems" But I don't know my name at all But what else is new? Should I show my pain at all? If you only knew You could try to help Care is imprecise All that I have left: Pills and good advice

Each verse of the song fluctuates between moods and depictions of chronic mental illness from the bridge having rapid voices displaying her impulses to experience a high to escape the pain of existing versus the desperate desire to stay the course and get better and mirrored refrains of "Please hold me down" symbolizing both a self-destructive impulse to die and a terror; begging their partner to kill or save her.

The song includes depictions of Identity Disturbance, a BPD symptom where those suffering lack a stable sense of identity and require an external source to mirror and receive acknowledgement from; Nat sings on multiple occasions about not knowing who she is and viewing her support in this crisis as her "mirror". I imagine imposter syndrome for Nat's music/poetry may be invading some lines such as "I'm plagarizing everything, stuttering solioquies (who am I again?)"

The song is set in 3 parts with the third part being a descent where the line (Higher) is repeated after every line and Nat struggles with her suicidal impulses, concluding:

Spend too many of my minutes getting higher (Higher) I've attempted way too much to even count (Higher) I've been committed, but committed to the people that I love And if I try to love myself, I guess that I could live forever crying

Knowing the sickness is a part of her but she doesn't want to die, even if she wants to die; she cares too much about the people in her life (the committed/committed line is actually genius and one of my favorite in all of her discography) and the best thing she can do is commit to loving herself and continuing along with life in spite of the pain inflicted by her illness.

The ending is ambiguous to my ears and /@/ isn't popular enough for me to see a lot of discussion on interpretations.

But on my last day out Let me scream to God, Family, friends, and enemies "So what happens next? Is this what you want? All I am is dead to me" So I can't hear my voice at all What was I to do? Did I have a choice at all? Seems I never do You could try to help Care is imprecise All that I'd have left: Pills and good advice I could try to heal Care is imprecise All that you'd have left: Pills and good advice

On one hand, I view the song as a positive rally into accepting that SPMI are as the letters describe "Severe Persistent Mental Illness", fuck knows I've lived with the weight of those letters on my medical records. It doesn't go away. You just have to learn to live with it. To enjoy the joys before the despairs.

I chose to believe those last lines are saying that other people could try to help but in the end all the sufferer has is medication and therapy techniques, change must come from within and that to live with someone who suffers will cause pain too and all the person helping can do is receive the same level in care in return.

"You could try to help" vs "I could try to heal" with all that I/you having left being Pills and Good Advice.

But in my darker days I focus on the "on my last day out" and how the singer bemoans never really having a choice and all their work in staying clean being for nothing. In that read, I worry that the final lines are the singer giving in to their symptoms and attempting to kill themselves again, with the final line being less of a "we can get better together" and more of a "I know this will hurt you, have you considered seeking psychological help?"

I prefer my positive spin on it but that may be optimism winning out.

Either way, the song is fantastic and deeply personal in a way I almost feel like I'm intruding to hear at times.

Suicide is a topic of massive importance to me; it is also my number one emotional trigger. For the past few months I've had a draft I've been toying on about how I feel it should be discussed and ironically I am terrified to post it because of how sensitive the topic is. It's really hard to put yourself out there.

I admire this work of art because it really tries its absolute hardest to share a perspective of what it's like to be living with these conditions and feeling like no matter how much you reach out to other people, they can't truly help in the ways that you need. It's a song about terror, it's a song about healing and my god I hope it's a song about growth.

But it may just be a song about cycles.

#camden asks #ask meme #bpd #did #watch me post my trauma in public #albeit this isn't my trauma this time #but I do like it when art is made from places like this #I may very well be wrong about everything I have written here #and given the artist is small enough that she has a limited Tumblr presence #I hope this post never reaches her eyes #I'd die instantly if I misinterpreted a work of art in front of its creator

[dazais-guardian-angel]

went to my first con in 4 years on Friday to meet Kaiji Tang and got a Dazai autograph + video recording of him reading to me. He was the sweetest person (as I knew he would be) and interacting with him was lovely, but also at the same time oh boy it sure was an extremely stressful, ugly wake-up call of what it feels like to live in a world now where everyone around you has blissfully moved on from covid and can enjoy things normally and happily, while you'll forever be trapped in a hellscape of perpetual fear 🫠🫠🫠

#like. to be clear this was the first time i've been literally anywhere but doctor's appointments in 4 years #not just because of the pandemic but because of mental and physical exhaustion #so it was a Big Mistake to go from 0 to 100 and not ease myself into it at all #but at the same time........ it was a fucking hellscape of people. i don't think any kind of buildup could have prepared me for it at all. #it was so much less crowded in 2020 (ironically the very last place i ever went; literally on the BRINK of covid) #and now idk what it's become. a monster con. it was unbelievable. #but i was only there for less than an hour but i was so so so terrified that i very nearly left before even seeing him #i couldn't even fully enjoy meeting him as kind as he was because i was so anxious and distracted #and when i got back to the car i just fucking cried......... #the last five days i've just been sitting in fear waiting to feel Any sort of symptoms #i wore two masks and again was barely there for long but Still #and everyone around me was so chill as if everything was normal and No One was wearing a mask :))))) it's not fucking fair man :))))) #insert the 'they don't know' meme; they don't know how much covid can destroy your body even if you get a 'mild' case #i would never want to be that ignorant even if i wasn't disabled and didn't have reason to worry (but everyone has reason to worry!!!) #but also. ignorance is bliss and it just really fucking sucks man. #it really fucking sucks. why do they get to be happy and enjoying life and not /me?/ #why can't i do just ONE thing for myself without having it tainted by anxiety and fear that i'm going to die horribly??? #while they get to do fucking EVERYTHING??? #if they all just wore masks we could all enjoy ourselves much more comfortably than some of us are now #but no that's too much to ask from people 🙃🙃🙃 #shit sucks man. the world sucks. something that should be a happy memory for me was simultaneously the most awful experience #and i don't know how to feel about it now that it's over #he knew that i was afraid and at the end he told me that he hoped to see me again at another event someday #and that made me cry because it felt like dazai telling me to live. and i want to. but i don't know how to when the world is like this now. #i desperately want to be able to see him again someday but right now after how terrifying that was i never want to go to a con ever again.. #i wanted to ask him things about the manga and about dazai but i was being rushed and stressed so i couldn't ugh #(and doing that is hard enough anyway cause disability and i have to talk with my phone bahhhh) #at least i was able to give him my note *sigh*

[witch-and-her-witcher]

∇ Yenralt

Old Age/Aging Headcanon:

These two really hit their stride around 200 and after that they're taking in children of destiny regularly. They're like the foster parents for the exceptional, anyone who enters their home likely leaves it to complete an epic journey and WILL be featured in a formative legend for their time in history.

Ciri may assist, plucking children marked by destiny from time and space, leaving them with Mama & Geralt for a spell, and then place them back where they need to be with solid morals and self confidence - plus a biting wit.

#essentially these two will never die #theyre eternal mom and dad #no one can convince me otherwise and its kind of canon #emoji hc ask meme #anon #thanks anon!! #yenralt

[weidli]

[ID: an edited version of the Jenny Slate "I had to unfollow NASA" meme from Drunk History. the edited caption of image 1 is "I had to stop watching Außer Gefecht because it made me too crazyyy.", image 2: "It would just be like, So war das nicht gemeint, mit den getrennten Wegen.", image 3: "And I was like: (in caps) *screams*." /end ID]

this post is a lie i have not and will not stop watching außer gefecht

#it's not even just that line i could make 3467536452 different versions of this meme just for this episode #it's not my fault this episode makes me so fucking insane !!! just LOOK AT IT #there's fucking layers to EVERYTHING i am lying on the floor chewing glass #ivo and franz' argument. (which. like. i have so many thoughts about how the thing that makes it so hard hitting for both of them is that #it is an EXACT REVERSAL of their usual arguments. how the problem at the core of it is that ivo can't recognize the person franz is being!! #because he is missing a MAJOR DETAIL #and the cherry on top of it is that when he sets out his ultimatum (wenn du mir nicht mehr traust franz etc) franz DOESN'T back down #something something that margaret atwood line. i used to think i'd know you anywhere. but it's getting harder #but that is a whole nother essay) #(AND also ivo saying zwölf erbärmliche leben to franz' face when [REDACTED] is one of the people peschen killed. hhhhhhh) #everything about franz and peschen in the elevator. #the press conference scene. THE FUCKING PRESS CONFERENCE SCENE #FRANZ VISIBLY STARTING TO DISINTEGRATE WHEN THE GUY ASKS IF THEY'RE ASSUMING THE DEATHS WERE BY CONSENT OF THE FAMILIES #the reoccuring motif of trust!! ivo says franz if you dont trust me anymore .... franz saying carlo and ivo will figure out what was in the #spritze auf die ist verlass ... peschen saying believe me. what's in this syringe is your salvation #franz saying i'll never let you go. over my dead fucking body #HHT. THE SCENE WHERE FRANZ IS STARTING TO FEEL THE SEROTONIN EFFECT #AND HE JUST FUCKING. SLAMS HIS HEAD AGAINST THE WALL. WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WASTHAT #every day i think about this goddamn episode #tatort münchen #also the whole thing with. peschen WAITED. he fucking. he WAITED FOR THE MORPHINE TO TELL FRANZ THAT HIS FATHER LOVED HIM #WE CANNOT. WE DO NOT KNOW IF HE WAS FUCKING LYING OR NOT #NEITHER WILL FRANZ #among the many many things außer gefecht is about. it is also about the dead losing any chance to speak #franz will never know if anything peschen said is true #if josef's death was suicide or murder #AND then it is also about handholding. the humanity in the middle of horror!!! #i am a simple man i htink about franz and peschen holding hands and i make inhuman shrieking noises

[rainymoodlet]

gor'shak of the kalo'dari, high chieftain of the lost isles 🏝️

#ts4 #ts4 edit #ts4 trolls #ask meme #;ask #sim: gor'shak #;lbts outtakes #foxsimthings #thank you so much for the prompt!!! #sadly we'll never get to see him like this in the story but #he'd never want to be chieftain anyway omg the responsbility #no thank you #rako bout dies every goddamn die he'd never have the time to look out for everyone else #i MISS HIM SO MUCH THANK YOU FOR ASKIN FOR HIM

[bxrn-thc-pxgcs]

🥖 - Hope to Cassi ( @storystartsanew )

Cassi yelped, blinking, looking down at the bread then back up at Hope, before finally bursting into laughter. "I'm gonna tell your dad you assassinated me with bread."

@storystartsanew

#cassi | interactions #cassi | asks #& hope #memes never die | ask meme

[thehigh-waytohell]

"Can't we just pursue our lives

with our children and our wives?

Till that happier day arrives

How do you ignore

all the witches

all the curses

all the wolves, all the lies,

the false hopes, the goodbyes

the reverses

all the wondering what even worse

is still in store?"

#thwth #the high way to hell #believers never die #fortissimo #joe #so this is a departure from form #i'm aware #bernie meme: i am once again asking you to question my song choices #because look #i have so many thoughts about into the woods #and this is the climax song of all time #Youtube

[taxidermymaster]

【TAGS】

#🎯GENERAL: #【Boots Through the Undergrowth】 ic #【The Man behind the Beast】 ooc #【Beast of a Man】 c:Hunter #【Look into my eyeholes. What do you see?】 musing... #🪓BLOG: #【Let Me Live / Let Me Die】 threads #【Run Rabbit Run】 memes #【An Echo of Humanity】 ask #【The Tale of the Watcher's Woods】 headcanons #【Blinded by Imperfect Form】 art #【Friendly Fire】 crack #【The Strenght to Look into the Eyes】 ship #【Never Thought to See your Face Again】 promo #//mun's notes #🐗VERSES/CHARACTERS: #canon verse without any specific tag #【Huntdad】 AU #【Tasmansky Devil】 c:Six #【Witch of The Seas】 c:Lady #【Potato Face】 c:Doctor

[naivesilver]

25 pinowick

Sad blorbo time 💕 thank you

Spotify wrapped game: send me a number from 1-100, optionally with a ship or character, for a moodboard based on the song it corresponds to!

25. The Child, Pt. 1 - Jed Kurzel

#boywife-puppet #ask meme #pinocchio #pinocchwick #lampwickcore #you put me in a little bit of a bind since this is movie soundtrack music #but I sat down and got thinking #see this is in the background of a scene from the recent macbeth movie you know #a scene where a child witnesses something horrifying and life-changing #which our boys also did! poor them #and it sure changed their lives (for the worst) #never forget that they were kids never forget that it was mostly other people's fault #or die by my sword

[shoot-of-corruption]

🧋"Here, take this. I don't want it." Bakura tries to shove the cursed shake into Mariku's hands.

((Sorry, I can't take this seriously, lmao))

Send 🧋to give my muse a Grimace shake

He had been half thinking of stealing the shake from Bakura anyway, because it looked really appetizing.

Being given it by choice did ring some alarm bells though... Maybe it was poisoned? His laugh was more inwardly directed than anything else, but a wide smirk spread on his face.

If Bakura wanted to poison him, he had another thing coming for him!

"Awwww, geee, mista!" He mocked the other with a perfectly well-butchered impression and took a sip, grinning right into the other ones face-

"...."

#*pretends to die in unspeakably gruesome ways* #ic #grimace shake #grimace milkshake #GREAT TASTE! #X'DDDDD #ominor #omi nor #i am laughing my ass off #he's never gonna touch that shake again or he knew of that weird fucking meme #ask

[marzipanandminutiae]

15?

15. rank the methods of death: freezing, burning, drowning

Freezing (eventually you start to feel warm again, or so I'm told- sometimes so warm you start taking clothes off, even -and then you pass out and don't wake up. my current hoped-for death method is "in my sleep at like age 100, surrounded by loved ones, content and comfortable," but if it had to be something unpleasant, I'd immediately go hypothermia)

Drowning (yes, I know it's not peaceful like people used to say, but it's still better than...)

Burning (yeah, there's a reason this used to be the execution method of choice for people they wanted to really punish. yikes. count me out, if at all avoidable)

#ask #anon #ask meme #death #I can never kill myself; I took an oath to my sister during an especially bad mental health bout #and a bitch doesn't want to be foresworn #(also. you know. I don't want to die) #but I imagine being like...forced to choose a method at gunpoint wouldn't count so #under those circumstances this is my ranking

[aesfocus]

top five indie games OR games you don't post about much!!

*heavy breathing* indie games my beloved 1. Stardew Valley 2. The Long Dark 3. Astroneer 4. Coral Island 5. Slime Rancher

#I love indie games #I never post about shit like sons of the forest or 7 days to die or humankind of like the civilization games and stuff but love them #misadventures with aes #tthank you!!! #ask meme