#mayhaps i am back

[zerotosixty]

You have no idea of the grip that you will find in Turn 1 braking, or Turn 3. So, I thought everyone will be a little bit cautious in Turn 3 with the grip level, and also just outside Turn 3 there is paint in the Aramco, so you have to be a little bit cautious there. So I thought about the inside line, it could work and yeah, we overtook those two cars. Definitely, that should be the overtake of the month, again. I hope.

— Fernando Alonso on his Lap 1, Turn 3 overtake on Alex Albon and George Russell (x)

#fernando alonso #f1 #formula 1 #aston martin #dutch gp 2023 #dutch gp #2020s #f1edit #dailyf1 #*s #*gifs #mayhaps i am back

[quirkle2]

i love putting my blorbos in silly little outfits

#qkdraws #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #mob #shigeo kageyama #mp100 shigeo #behold . a little fuckin guy #i think my fav is the froggy jacket. he looks so cute in it #confession i kinda half-assed the cat shirt cuz i was rapidly losing steam by the end of it #and also i didn't have confidence that i could make good-looking cat silhouettes so i just. didn't VGEYIAGV #im sosorry. been workin on a lotta art lately mayhaps i need a break #should get back to writin that mp100 fic i was makin. haven't looked at it in a couple days #also workin on a new character .. And that commission .... and So Many totk pieces i wanna make #oguhoguhgh i am just one little specimen i cannot handle all these experiments the mad scientists r putting me through /silly

[prattery]

I have this image of Merlin and Arthur fighting a losing war together. Arthur is bloodied and bruised, muscles trembling with fatigue, but he is still standing, grip firm around the hilt his sword, because he’ll be damned before he lets the enemy get within an inch of Merlin. Merlin is half-gone, gold flowing from his eyes and his fingertips in rivulets that sink back into the earth. The other knights can barely suppress a cower at the sight of him, but not Arthur. He is more god than mortal, but there is only so much one sorcerer can do against an advancing army of highly-trained mercenaries wielding extremely powerful magic, even with a warrior-king by his side.

#merthur #bbc merlin #merlin #merlin prompt #might write a whole ass fic around this At Some Point but for now.... do with this what you will #am i back on my bullshit? #mayhaps

[hashipebbles]

They are like two silly little cats,,,

#transformers #maccadams #mtmte #transformers idw #more than meets the eye #brainstorm #first aid #I have a lot of vague ideas and am trying to come up with a ships name possibilities #like man if I could write…I may try? but like no promises that I’d share because HDHDHDHDD #I haven’t written anything non school related longer than a paragraph in ages #but between these two and the overwatch ideas mayhaps I will try #hashi do art #brainstorm x first aid #I have a vauge outline of how these two would get together #OKAY BACK TO DOODLING

[hannahhasafact]

Yknow there’s just something so goddamn sad about Normal and his whole “destiny”

Like even when he wasn’t told about “not being a chosen one” and his sister being a “chosen one” he was still (presumably) treated differently because of it. Like throughout his life the way his sister was raised was vastly different than how he was treated surely thought obviously we never really “see” it. I mean for fuck’s sake, his sister is literally named Hero and his name is Normal.

And then for the finale to have it be revealed that the whole “destiny” thing was a scam (because of course it was) it makes sense his reaction is just like “huh.” Because even if it was a made up prophecy, it doesn’t change the way he was treated throughout his entire life. It doesn’t change the fact that he had this expectation of who he was and that’s how the people around him responded to him because of it. And he just has to continue to live with it, even if once again: it was made up to begin with.

So yeah I get why Normal even in the last little bit is just still a little sad all the time.

#ramblings #dungeons and daddies #dndaddies #normal oak #dndaddies spoilers #I’m not gonna proofread what I said to the internet it goes lol #am I thinking way too deeply about the pee joke podcast? mayhaps #but I just keep thinking about it man #hey Diana remember when I said Normal was just basically Will playing Henry again but as a teen? hoo boy #tempted to bring my replies back for this but also no

[kangals]

way back in 2014, probably a few weeks or months after you posted that picture of boone with the stick on his head, i checked your blog out and so dearly enjoyed all the dogposting that i followed. i think you were the first dogblr blog i actually followed at the time, but it's been ages and my memory is bad, so i'm not fully sure. it wasn't long before then--2012 i think?--that i had gotten a new dog of my own, a border collie. iirc he and boone were just about the same age.

in 2018 i lost that blog i'd followed you with, and a lot of connections with it. i didn't return until 2021, and when i did, i didn't refollow most of the old blogs; i don't think i even really went looking for them. it took me a while to get back into the swing of using tumblr.

last september, my border collie had a sharp health decline, and i had to say goodbye. it's not the first time i've had to put a pet down, but i think it was the hardest. i'm still not over it. even just typing this now, i feel raw.

then in march or so, i made a new fandom friend who knows you, and i enthusiastically recalled following you before and how much i enjoyed it. i didn't even know about stellina, and now there's kep too! but... i also didn't know you'd lost boone. i followed because i still really enjoy your blog, and i love your collies too. and butters!!! so glad she's still here!

idk what made me look tonight... maybe because i talked about my old border collie with someone today. i went looking for the posts immediately around when you lost boone, because i guess some part of me wanted to know what happened. i spent the better part of an hour (maybe longer?) reading posts from the weeks before the decline, and then the loss, and then the deluge of old boone pictures after, and i've been crying pretty much the whole time just reading your posts and tags about him.

and this is a long and windy way to get to saying thank you. i'm glad you shared your grief, though that seems like a weird thing to say. there's something cathartic about crying over someone else's dog when you still hurt about your own, and knowing you're not alone in that kind of sorrow. boone was such a beautiful boy. i'll never forget that silly post that made me check your blog out in the first place, or the years of posts i stuck around for after. i wish i'd remembered to follow sooner, but the archive is still there, and it's so fun looking through all those old posts about him and his quirks and antics. he was amazing.

sorry for the length of this, i just... really wanted you to know that he touched yet another life, i guess. and i've been so deeply enjoying your posts about stellina and kep. i know it'll be a year soon... i hope there's some peace in how things have gone since he passed, and i hope the anniversary isn't too hard on you. thank you for sharing him with us.

i've been on tumblr for 14 years and this is, genuinely, the nicest ask i think i've ever been sent.

thank you - sincerely. there's been a lot of times over the course of this blog that i've felt like i was oversharing, or talking about pointless things only i cared about. i still so frequently start typing out a post only to stop mid-sentence and delete it because i can't help but think "no one cares about this." possibly it's why i like to talk about my pets so much - they're not me, but i'm the one who knows them best, so i get to say "hey look at this" and ramble and have people say "i'm looking" back. when boone passed, i lost that filter and i poured my grief out into this blog because it was the closest outlet i had. and to have hundreds of people not only acknowledge this but to commiserate, to reassure, to share their own stories - that helped healed me more than i can put into words. it's exactly as you said: there's a catharsis in grieving together.

i am sorry you also had to say goodbye. i wish i could say it gets easier, but i think that would be defeating the point of grief. your grief is your love and damn it if there isn't any act more loving in the world than choosing to say goodbye to an old, loyal dog. you think of how dogs were domesticated tens of thousands of years ago, of how human society and dogs have developed intertwined, of how we have records of ancient greeks and romans carving loving epitaths on their dog's graves, of how a prehistoric dog's skull was found with a bone placed in it's mouth after death, and you wonder if grieving a dog isn't one of the most consistent experiences in the whole of human history that there is.

i'm glad to know that this could bring you some comfort, in some way. it's incredibly touching to know that you kept me and boone in your thoughts for all this time. i am doing ok - i've been reflecting a lot as we approach the one-year mark. i'm not sure if i'll be able to condense those thoughts down into coherent words, but i'll do my best. i hope that my silly little pets continue to bring you some happiness, and that you've found peace with your own grief.

thank you, again - this is extremely touching and means a hell of a lot to me.

#i know exactly what you mean about reading posts about other peoples loss and grieving in camaraderie with them. i do that too #also mayhaps i am nosy sometimes and want to intrude. i cant help my nature to be a looky-loo #which is to say: you should never feel like you are intruding for doing so back to me.

[zhongrin]

cw/tw. gif(s), child neglect, depiction of starvation & frostbite, suicidal thoughts

꧁

𝐆𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐀𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐭 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫: 𝐀𝐜𝐭 𝐈𝐈

Candour of Light and Shadows

Quest Started

I still think

Some people were born a shadow.

"ーHappy birthday, sweetheart!"

"Thanks, mama!"

"May Lady Tsaritsa bless my little snowflake so he grows up big and healthy... And may She protect you from all dangers and surround you with love and happiness!"

"..... Mama, what about-"

"Hold on, darling."

Every year, instead of burning candles, I burn the memories of you.

Every year, instead of huddling in front of a warm fireplace, I relive the memories of the icy grave you call home.

Every year....

I wonder.

Why didn't you just di̴̖̊ë̷̻͙́̒̿̆ that day?

Why did the gods pity you when your own blood couldn't care less?

Why you? Why me? Why us?

I dare not defy the fate bestowed upon me. This is the role we were bestowed with. The second option. The second best. The supporting role.

The shadow.

....

But maybe....

........

Just... maybe.

.............

Maybe all this time, I've been tricking myself, thinking I was undeserving. Of the spotlight. Of the warm fireplace. Of..... a home.

“....”

“Wha....?”

“Happy birthday, Cov!!”

“My my, did we catch you off-guard so much you were about to unsheathe your sword?”

“Ah... I'm..... sorry.......”

“It's fine, it's fine. More importantly, do you like chocolate cakes? I had no idea what kind of cake you'd like but since you love hot chocolate and cookies, I thought you'd like themー”

“......”

“Cov?”

“...........”

“Thank you.”

Maybe one day, I'll be able to feel truly worthy of this.

......

I guess…. Just for today, I can be the light.

𝐆𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐀𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐭 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫: 𝐀𝐜𝐭 𝐈𝐈 𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐞

Candour of Light and Shadows

Quest Completed

[ To be continued(?) ]

#rin's adopted children: coviello #rin's queue is serving tea #happy birthday my child my baby my traumatized pookie with trust issues #i somehow managed to finish this an hour before their birthday here #and i already said it on their last story quest but #it still baffles me that they're well liked. i love them (/p) dearly and i'm glad people find them interesting enough- #-to care about. idk. it just. i don't think i'll ever not feel awed about this #thank you always for the love and support to this character #more of them coming soon. maybe. mayhaps even more than them. maybe they'll get a brother and a sister soon #ps. i am swamped with stuff and has no energy right now. please know i'm not ignoring asks and messages but i'm just directing- #-the little energy i have to more important/urgent things. i'll be fine. will be back soon. hopefully.

[tshortik]

doodling some fake screenshots and thinking some thoughts. ideas. concepts, if you will. based on a fictional game setting i made years ago for my bachelor that i don't want to give up on just yet.

#original art #pixel art #fake screenshot #neon moon #i am not giving up on this concept i am still thinking of ways to turn it into something #i also miss gamedev a whole fucking lot rn #reinstalled unity and gonna get back into it again. do some tutorials. make some boring walking simulator prototypes maybe. #pixel art intrigues me rn.. it fits the setting but i am unsure about the vibe. might fit another project i have in mind better idk. #mayhaps still 3d but make it simple and retro look

[darehearts]

good morning  !  💛✨

#-gently pokes the dash- it seems so slow this morning! #but anywhomst! i'm really not sure what ill be doing today #so mayhaps........ i'll just go with the flow and not commit #to anything! ngl tho i feel like whatever i write turns out... #not as good as before but writing is like riding a bike so!! #i am sure it will come back to me. plus i've been trying to #recalibrate Jim-- too much of me bleeds into my writing #due to how similar we are lmao 🧍🏻‍♀️ ANYWAY ILY ALL SM #HAVE A WONDERFUL WEEKEND MWAH!!!!! #tbd

[rayofmisfortune]

I discovered you can get a Monty plush as a collectible in hw2 THAT IS INTERACTABLE????

I spend maybe 10 minutes playing around with him and messing with him until I- I threw him at a ballpit ball basket, expecting him to respawn back at where I originally picked him up

...

He didn't

The Monty plushie saga was short lived

#hw2 #help wanted 2 #fnaf hw2 #fnaf help wanted 2 #ray's gaming fails #is this a new tag? mayhaps #i was having so much fun with him as well 😭 making him sit on all the various surfaces and such #he's too far for me to get back to him i am in shambles *sobs* #ray's doodles

[snowangeldotmp3]

rebel robin: surviving the upside down

(in which robin gets taken along with will to the upside down.)

“Woah,” Robin says, her breath coming out like a puff of smoke in the frigid air. The blue atmosphere is worse outside, the asbestos flakes falling like snow instead of the stagnant flakes inside Robin’s house.

It’s Hawkins. All of Hawkins, reflected like some sort of mirror dimension.

“My house isn’t far from here,” the kid says, dodging the tentacles and making his way through the front yard. Robin follows close behind.

#stranger things #stranger things au #robin buckley #will byers #rebel robin: surviving the upside down #RETURN OF THE AU... #also the link takes u back to the tag heh i hope it works! i am computer illiterate #mayhaps i'll work on some flayed robin too...or clear out almost year old asks #working on a kas max one now :) #my moodboards

[musubiki]

need to think about something taffy and coco can do during the timeskip because i am now thinking it would be awesome if all mochis guild members joined an (at least partially) antagonistic purpose after she left and the timeskip begins with a bunch of missions trying to get them back

#i am still thinking about this as an rpg #gotta do 3-4 quests first getting your guild back before you can actually advance the main quest #lime -> m34th regiment #oscar -> madam springs #coco (and by consequence taffy) -> ???? #mochi would kick madam springs ass to get oscar back on board #its been on my mind to make some kind of overarching organization anyway #something like the adventurers guild in genshin #the people who post the commissions and you sign up for magic community jobs #hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm #i am only now thinking of the possibility of separating coco and taffy................................... #taffy does the (ive been fucked up my whole life and i need to figure some stuff out) trope and fucks off for a while #mayhaps????? eyes emoji????

[simplydnp]

for that one anon who asked for help for references, when i started watching dnp in 2020 i learnt a ton of lore from crack vids, cause they reflect whatever video was posted around that time+ phannie reactions, and its an easy way to understand jokes as well in the comments. also also, dan's top memes videos and i would recommend danisnotonfirevyou1 live show edits if you don't have the time to watch all the liveshows of dan ever, or just want to get reference.

great suggestions! the top memes videos especially are excellent records of phannie in-jokes.

thank you anon!

#not only are they great timecapsules theyre also hella fun #everyone riding for a 'top dan memes of 2023' i am not counting on it but i will cheer u on #mayhaps a break from tradition and its the top dan and phil memes of 2023 #oh no what they should really do is a reaction to phannies handling the hiatus and also the return announcement #look im a simple girl okay i just want to know more specifics about why dad left and why he came back alright #yes you read that right #dnp #c.text #dan and phil #answered

[sentientsky]

going into someone’s dms on instagram or wherever else just doesn’t hold the same energy as it does here.

idk,,,messaging a mutual thru asks or dms on tumblr just has a different vibe, yknow? it’s like being a little kid and knocking on your friend’s door in the middle of august and going “do you wanna look for bugs at the park with me? do you want to pick raspberries from the ravine and hold so so still that butterflies land on our wrists? the birds are always singing here and there’s no one who will do us harm. we can chase each other up the street, laughing, until the fireflies begin to flicker and the streetlights come on.”

#i am SO OVERTIRED can u tell #AM I A SENTIMENTAL BITCH?!?? SOMETIMES!!!! SHUT UP! #am i biased because my mutuals are lovely and excellent? mayhaps #mutuals #musings #Tumblr #something something I wish we could have been kids together. i would have iced the bruises on your back. #<- can’t remember who wrote that. not me tho

[be-bisexual-eat-hot-chip-and-lie]

the constant battle between “read new books and find new favorites” and “reread books with stories that are comfortable and worn in”

anyways i want to reread cemetery boys, red white and royal blue, babel, and the percy jackson books

but i also want to find new stories that will feel as welcoming as those

#books #i am but a sentimental bastard #i want to read all the books #and live in all the stories #but also i want to come back to the worlds that feel like home #percy jackson and the olympians #red white and royal blue #cemetery boys #babel rf kuang #i love reading #mayhaps reading is my escapism #my psychiatrist said its a healthy coping mechanism #so its okay

[egoarc4de]

lacho but it's kronberg's david and saul

#this is a very rough wip ... i kind of want to spend forever on this so that the lineart can be like. #chock full of detail #so much fabric is in the original painting so im trying to incorporate that #but i wanted to at least vaguely get the bodies down !!! #i have to get back to uni work but maaaan was it nice to just sit and work on this... #lacho #TURBOwip. even just blocking out the background is going to take forever #might change lalo's shoes to the classic blue moccasins HOWEVER i kind of am obsessed w keeping more of the original sandal vibe #also trying to figure out how to incorporate the gd. harp. thing. Pose #originally i was gonna change it completely so nacho was head down counting money #but i am trying this... #REMINDER TO SELF: put a vase of flowers somewhere. mayhaps in the space behind lalo's foot? #the upper foot #underneath the sill... maybe a chest. or a vault. smthn vaguely sinister #if i was going full crazy mode i would go with memento mori but idk if lalo's crazy enough to erm. #keep a human skull for decoration!!! #anyways