#maybe the reason i was born

[aengelren]

“Eren took off first, Mikasa stayed behind him, and I was dead last.” Eren died first, Mikasa buried beside him, Armin kept visiting their graves as an old man until he joined them

Race towards the tree/chronological order they died in

#towards the tree on the hill #maybe the reason i was born #was so we coukd race towards rhat tree #Eren died first #Mikasa buried beside him after a long life #and Armin kept visiting them as an old man until he joined then #eren jaeger #attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #eren #aot #eren yeager #anime #mikasa ackerman #mikasa #levi #Armin Arlert #Aot end #the end #ema trio #Eremika #Eremin

[otaku553]

Procrastination doodles of sabo for the king sabo au :)

#one piece #sabo #king sabo au #I wonder sometimes if I keep thinking about this au because i like putting my blorbo through crushing existential nightmares #something something. it must feel so wrong to him. to be born like this and know that he’s not suppose to be there #but not having the memories of times in the wild with his brothers to contextualize why he feels wrong or where he’s supposed to be instead #directionless. knowing that he has to exist for some reason but not the reason that everyone around him tells him he should exist for #and continuing to try to bridge the cognitive dissonance through fallacy after fallacy until he is in too deep to escape #anyways. thinking about Him #Him is the academia mentality of ‘just keep going and you’ll eventually reach the light at the end of the tunnel’ #‘because you’ve tried so hard to get here and surely you must belong here because you’re so academically highly-achieving’ #does that make sense? maybe the parallel is a bit of a reach. I could write an essay about it tbh #I love this au lmao it’s both a lot of projecting and a great chance to be like ‘god I can make him so much worse’

[hanadoesstuffwrong]

Thinking abt the air nomads:

What if, after the war, once the dust has settled a little, Aang goes back to travelling, hoping that maybe he can find at least some trace of surviving airbenders. As an added bonus, he gets to do more of the exploring and wandering that he had to put on hold.

Toph goes with him ofc. She only just got a taste of real freedom and it was overshadowed by ever-present impending doom. While she's on speaking terms with her parents, she isnt quite ready to be back under their roof on a permanent basis. The rest of the gaang have their individual homes and responsibilities that they get back to, though they join for the odd field trip or adventure when they can.

So anyway, they're touring all over the world and over the years they notice just how displaced so many people have become. EK citizens who barely escaped the blaze but lost everything; FN military now decommissioned with no idea how to carry on; people looking for a new start in the hard-won peace. Maybe it starts with Toph heading back to Earth Rumble, where a group of young runaways scrounge for cheap fights to make a little money.

At each turn they find more and more people with no homes to return to and no family to protect them; runaways escaping the roles the war forced them into. Gradually, Aang and Toph start to see that they aren't so different from themselves. They just want a new start.

So they decide to give them one. They clean up the temples and set up villages in the surrounding areas (helps to be master earthbenders), where people can arrive and stay as long as they need. Travellers and refugees pass through in droves, sometimes choosing to stay and rebuild their lives there, sometimes continuing in their wandering with a guarantee that they'll always have a place to return to should they have the need.

Over time, the lemurs grow in number and even some flying bison calfs (hybrids with a relative species maybe?), can be seen in the skies. Whenever the founders visit, it isn't the same but Aang feels a little more at home.

The first time someone asks Aang to teach him his philosophies, and expresses his desire to become a monk, how can he refuse? Maybe it's a former soldier, somebody who's done terrible things, looking for a path to redemption. So Aang teaches him, and then he teaches others. And though they may not be airbenders, they are as earnest and faithful as any nun or monk Aang knew before. The temples become filled with new faces: Firebenders, Earthbenders, Waterbenders and non-benders all wearing Air nomad orange and yellow.

Aang always feared that it would be his responsibility to have airbender children, and the idea of forcing that on someone he loved terrified him. Maybe that's why he waited so long before acting on his feelings for his best friend, his travelling companion, his fellow-village builder and temple-restorer. How could they have a truly happy relationship with this pressure hanging over them? He wishes he could be content with the new way of things that he and his friends have created. But he knows that he can't be the last airbender forever...

Nobody knows why some children can bend the elements and others can't. Is it blood? Is it blessing? Is it the land in which you're born? Or is it the simple allocation of fates decided by the values and norms you're raised believing in? Is it enough to be surrounded by the culture and beliefs of the Air Nomads? Nobody knows...

All they know is that nobody sees it coming when the six-year-old daughter of two non-bender villagers from the Earth Kingdom and Northern Water Tribe sends herself flying twelve feet into the air with a sneeze.

#oops it became a taang au how did that happen #i just think it wld be neat if the air nomads worked more like irl monks/nuns #not necessarily celibate but still made up of people who choose to follow the way of life #instead of the iffy implications of all monks/nuns having no choice because they were born airbenders #i dunno it's iffy to me #taang #my posts #atla #atla headcanon #do we need to rewatch Ice Age 2 ppl?? #repopulation is not a good reason for two people to be together! #avatar: the last airbender #i do also think that given them being nomads the fire nation probably want able to wipe the air nomads out completely #bu they just had to survive in hiding/ in a very diluted form #maybe like the sun warriors do #airbender!Ty Lee my beloved #also wld reflect the themes of unity vs division well if there were more than just airbenders among the air nomads #like how a waterbender can be a ruler of the Fire Nation or a Firebender can run a tea shop in the Earth Kingdom #toph x aang #edited cos someone got upset at my introduction and while i reckon they were willfully misreading i didnt want anyone to misconstrue #to clarify -> any child of aang's wld be an air nomad but there's no guarantee they wld be an airbender #esp if he had a child with an earth or waterbender #and we see how this had a negative effect in canon #hope that clears things up xx

[bonefall]

Buzzardclaw's a whore you say ... My interest is peaked I love these types of gossips (In fiction)

Buzzardclaw is yet another Kit Save! WindClan is RIDICULOUSLY tiny, I had to SCRAPE this one up. Buzzardkit is mentioned in only a single page in Po3 Book 1: The Sight, where he is soothed by an unnamed queen who reveals his name. I decided that his mothers are Snapstorm and Stoneclaw, and the unnamed queen who soothed him was Snapstorm.

(THOUGH I am considering taking the unnamed queen and making her into a full character, tbh. I'm not kidding, this Clan is unacceptably small and it is ALL hands on deck. Maybe make her into a permaqueen type.)

WindClan NEEDED more sillies, because the majority of the cats in it are pretty harsh and serious, so I decided that this one was going to be sort of a hopeless romantic gossip girl type. He's really close with his Mi, Snapstorm, who's an Aftergathering regular at the Lake and likes trading. Because of her, Buzzardkit was getting acquainted with other cats from a young age and just kinda learned to play up how cute he is.

He grew up into a pretty kitty, too. Both of his parents are handsome mollies, and he managed to somehow get FOUR colors from between them. White, brown, black, and gold. It makes up for the fact he has very few scars, because he's a wuss.

He uses his charm and appearance to get people to do what he wants, but he has absolutely no ambition to follow up with this. What he wants is a nice blanket made of mole hide, or a good bit of gossip, or competitive scratchstone tips. Probably becomes a popular Honor Sire in his later years.

Just a fun, low-stakes dude in the background.

#better bones au #BB!Buzzardclaw #BB!Buzzardkit #Snapstorm is the BB repurposing of Snapper #A villain I'm fond of for absolutely no reason. He is SO funny #He's in one of Raven's things and he's like ''today i will teach the babies how to Murder'' #OBJECTIVELY hilarious character #Him and Snipe idk why I just love them and their designs. #I wish I could have slotted Snipe in somewhere too #I adore the ridiculously evil murder-loving BloodClan cats out of spite lmao #maybe I can like... further play polymerization to combine Snap and Willie and drag the four kits born in the Raven thing into Wind. #Sniffkit....... #It would be SUPER funny if Sniff and Buzz were the first litter #My sons. Handsome Harlan and Snot

[emberwritesinsight]

I know we all kind of assume Anthy and Akio are Indian because of the brown skin and bindis (Google tells me that while it's less common, men do wear bindis sometimes), and I agree, but also. "Dios" is Spanish, "Anthy" is derived from a Greek word, "Himemiya" is Japanese (I would theorize that her name hasn't always been "Himemiya", though she does seem to have had the name "Anthy" as far back as we're allowed to see into her past), and Akio drives an American car and plays jazz (a style of music that developed in America) over the radio in said car. Also, despite bindis being a Hindu, Jain and Buddhist thing, all the religious shit the two of them have going on (the martyrdom, Akio drawing a comparison between himself and Satan, Ohtori looking like a fucked up Cathedral and Dios appearing to Utena in a church) is Pretty Christian.

I know all of this is probably just a product of the writers not having a concrete idea of where they wanted Akio and Anthy to be from other than "not here" but it implies a lot of travel, which does kind of fit with Dios' whole "trying to rescue Every Girl Ever" thing.

Where do their names come from, anyway? "Dios" sounds like it could have been a name given to him by the people he saved. We never hear hide nor hair of their parents, they're fully irrelevant even by the farthest flashback.

#revolutionary girl utena #anthy himemiya #akio ohtori #shoujo kakumei utena #himemiya anthy #ohtori akio #rgu #sku #if i had to guess #i'd say they were born in india and spent their REALLY early lives there #and then started travelling #i think they've been to europe- maybe italy given anthy's weird obscure knowledge about Cantarella #also if they were the ones who BUILT ohtori (which seems likely given their influence over it) #then i would think they went to France at some point because HOLY ROCOCO BATMAN #and america. akio probably got The Car there. #and then eventually set up shop in Japan for. Reasons. #I don't know what the in-universe reasons could possibly be honestly but there they are #honestly i don't think they adhere to any religion besides the one they're living out.

[zabiume]

if i could, very gently, turn any popular perception in my circles over its head and examine it, it would be the perception that ichigo cares only about protecting his family and friends and not anyone else. i'd say this is true for maybe the first few chapters of the manga, and the evidence people usually give is his quote about how he can't claim to be superman or anything but he'll do as much as he can to protect people, but even then, i think this statement is more of a cop-out on ichigo's part than any indication that he's only dedicated to protecting friends and family. he's afraid of widening the pool because he's afraid he'll fail them. keep the circle small and the task is manageable. rukia rightfully calls him out on the hypocrisy of this very early on, and over the course of the series his aims do evolve to a point where, by TYBW, he's pretty explicit about wanting to save everyone.

i think the reason this comes up a lot is because of how it factors into ichigo's ending in 686. people pro-ichigo's ending cite the importance of family and friends as a reason why it works, but i do think it goes a little too far when people say they're the only people he cares about. especially considering ichigo is notorious for caring about people he met, like, 5 seconds ago (rukia), or caring about them to a point where he hasn't been able to forget the day they met (orihime), or even caring about someone after it turns out that they've been the enemy all along (nel). ichigo feels way too much to be comfortable limiting his goals, even if he did very much start out that way out of fear of failure. however, anti-ichigo ending circles take it too far too, with this notion of unfulfilled heroic ambition. i don't think ichigo wanted to be a hero at all, but being extraordinarily attuned to suffering and grief had been taking a toll on him pre-powers, and having powers was just a way to respond to that. the powers were only a means to an end—the end being that ichigo had to embrace his heart and stop projecting the grief of losing his mother onto the fear of losing everyone else. ichigo at 15 is not the same as ichigo at 18, because ichigo at 18 embraces the fact that he is someone who will help anyone if they come to him or if he himself is a witness to their pain. if ichigo's life is a universe with rings, his friends and family would be in his innermost circle, certainly, but you can bet the most random spirit is on his radar too, even if they're on the farthest, outermost circle.

in light of that, karakura town can best be described as his base of operations, or, specifically, the place where he rests. where he's doing mundane things like reading books or hanging out with his friends. the rest of his universe emerges and expands out from this center. so much of ichigo's soul is split into four, and the part that's human is definitely the one that wants connections and love that will live on well beyond his mortal existence. ichigo will live on though kazui, as any parent lives on through their child, but there's something really poignant about a boy too scared to accept responsibility for strangers growing into a man prepared to raise a child – arguably one of the most daunting responsibilities there is. he cares about everyone, but it's not unreasonable for him to want to sink his roots into the town where his parents met, where he grew up, where he met everyone who would become important to him etc etc

#i'd maybe buy the unfulfilled argument if he randomly kept visiting soul society for no reason but to my knowledge that's only ever happened #in bleach filler. and you all know how much i respect the sanctity of that lmao #we could also argue about the implied heteronormativity of a happy ending = a wife and kids but a) this is the heteronormativity genre #and b) i think it's still believable for ichigo's character to want a family considering his nurturing nature #obviously i ship ih so i like the thought of them growing old together but i think i'd like his ending even if he hadnt ended up w anyone #that man was born to be a father lmao #it all feels reasonable enough mainly bc of how ichigo has always had a LIFE beyond what he does as a hero #so it makes sense to me that there's something waiting for him during peacetime. that heroism isnt all there is for him #ichigo kurosaki

[arklay]

RESIDENT EVIL → THE WESKER FAMILY

To the public, little is known of the families behind some of the world’s most renowned bioterrorists, but the question remains: did they play a role in causing their children to walk down the path that they did? Or are these individuals simply ambitious criminals with delusions of grandeur?

For Diana Wesker (née Afanasyeva), her introduction into the bioweapons black market trade was upon discovering her employers were using her research into limb regeneration with salamanders to further their experiments in creating enhanced soldiers, instead of developing human therapies with which she was recruited for. Although the prospect of using biological weapons in the military did not appeal to her, the concept remained fascinating for her own selfish endeavours. Born on the 27th of October, 1963 in Sydney, Australia to Russian immigrant parents, Diana had harsh expectations placed upon her at a young age, ones that no matter how hard she tried she could never live up to. Her mother, Tatyana, was an unfeeling woman, absent for long stretches of time with little regard to how it affected her daughters, much more concerned with her craft as an accomplished opera singer. Viktor was no better. A strict man whose role as father and ballet master blurred, he pushed his girls to one day follow in his footsteps. Whilst Sofia enjoyed ballet, and went on to become a professional ballet dancer, Diana’s heart was set on going into the field of biology. She wished to make a name for herself, separate from her family – to which she succeeded.

Diana was married to former U.S. Marine, Dave Monroe, for only a year until he was declared dead in 1992 after succumbing to injuries sustained in a horrific car accident. Foul play was ruled out while Diana played the role of the grief-stricken widow, but in reality, she had snapped after years of mistreatment at her husband’s hands, and opted for something she could pass off as an accident to be free of him. For years she believed he was dead – and he was, legally – but that proved to not be the case when he found his way back into her life again in 1999. Unbeknownst to her, she had been lied to by the police and coroner, who were paid off by her employers when they took Dave’s body for themselves and used him as one of their first test subjects in developing supersoldiers. Before he could ever hurt her again, Diana’s second husband, Albert Wesker, tracked the man down, captured him and tortured him, before allowing Diana to get her violent and bloody revenge.

The origins of Albert Wesker’s involvement in bioterrorism, alongside his twin sister, Alex, are much different than that of Diana’s. The two hail from London, Canada, but unfortunately, they hold no memories of their lives there, nor what happened to their biological parents when they were eight years old. Agents of Oswell E. Spencer, an aristocratic billionaire and eugenicist, took the twins from their home and executed their parents as per Spencer’s orders. Albert and Alex were then placed in a home funded by the Spencer Foundation where they were given new names and a privileged upbringing. They had access to the best education possible, free to pursue whichever field they decided, but it was by no accident they both went into virology and bioengineering; at home, their adoptive parents – agents whom they believed to be their real parents – instilled them with the beliefs of Oswell E. Spencer, harbouring disdain for war and pestilence, and believing humans to be an evolutionary dead-end in need of a rebirth. They were only two of the hundreds of children “adopted” as part of what is known as Project W, a plan intended to develop an advanced race of human beings. The most promising candidates were headhunted by Umbrella Pharmaceuticals, the twins amongst them, where they went on to create bioweapons for the company founded by none other than the man who had handpicked them for his plan. The final stage of this was to infect the thirteen Spencer saw fit, however, only two survived; Albert received the intended effects, now possessing superhuman abilities, however, Alex was only offered more time to live due to her terminal degenerative illness.

In the summer of 1995, Diana was working undercover within Umbrella to gather development data on their projects for her company. Here, she had a chance encounter with Albert, an intelligence officer at the time, which permanently altered the course of her life. The two were never seen far from one another’s side, marrying in 1998, and they went on to become notorious in the bioweapons industry. The development of the Uroboros virus was where things took a turn for the worst. Although Diana’s infection was successful and she bore abilities that rivalled her husband’s, the plan itself did not succeed as they had hoped, and almost cost Albert his life at the hands of his former subordinates.

Now, they work within the shadows, with Diana declared missing and Albert believed to be dead. Their legacy, however, lives on with the mark they left on the world. As visionaries in their field, they influenced bioterror attacks carried out by countless individuals and organisations. In turn, they also inspired others to fight against such atrocities. One such person happens to be Albert’s son from a former relationship, Jake Müller, whose existence he was unaware of.

#mine. #oc: diana #pair: ewskers #click for better quality cause it's large & tumblr ate it ♡ #hii so happy birthday diana !! queen is 60 today :] #um. there's no template cause i made this from scratch...i couldn't find any i was vibing with so i was like you know what lmaoo #i'm sorry for the essay...it was meant to be just a short rundown of the family but well...that happened. typical leah fashion... #oh and guys. did you know that there's a limit to the amount you can put in one blockquote? that's why the rest is just left like that caus #i didn't like how it looked with a blockquote each paragraph...cause the spaces between were unever. you understand 😔 #with the tree i was also going to include weskids adoptive parents but i couldn't figure out how to arrange it all & make it look nice !! #cause i also wanted to have spencer in there as well cause he's a big reason why the weskids are the way they are...was maybe gonna include #sherry as well. like connected to jake (hehe) and then do her parents too but that would've made things so wide & it's already big enough #yes. i hc that albert & alex are biological twins. just for clarification there :] i don't think i added anything else that isn't canon or #implied with canon. cause the weskids were put in homes (or at least whatever ''controlled environments'' means) where they were monitored #by umbrella but were unaware of it. so yeah. i don't think i really changed much there !! #honestly i could've kept rambling cause there's alex's whole situation. there's my lore with jake's mum. there's way more with the ewskers #but it's already so long & i can't be concise so there's that lmaoo oh also diana's grandma. so much stuff #also meant to say the weskids birthday in that ramble. it's january 15 1960 :] they are capricorn sun leo moons but alex was born earlier s #their rising signs are albert is a scorpio rising & alex is a libra rising !! #had to redo the image cause typo on diana's birth year for some reason lmao so if that messed up the formatting i will sob

[mofffun]

Actually, Rita is afraid of the dark. They don't want Gira and the team to know, so they hid their left eye with King's Hotline and departed in an awkward walk towards the Underground Empire Bugnarok. While suggesting they turn back, Jeramie noticed. Rita screamed, but they still fulfill their duty as a witness until the end.

(tv asahi ep26 guide)

#kingohger #kingohger spoilers #ko26 #rita kaniska #kingohger ref #kopn #i wonder how much that walk is acting and how much is yuzuki honestly can't see #i just find it really strange that Rita is afraid of the dark. not saying they /can't/ be and maybe i'm a little unfair to deem it childish #but like. polar night/day should've made someone raised there (if not born) accustomed to irregular light supply? #and... photosensitivity (hc) #other than that Gokkan definitely sounds like they'll get regular blackouts either because of poor infrastructure or snowstorms #I suppose if they are still the 10-year-old in ep16 than it's reasonable they have one weakness being afraid of the dark :'(

[starrygardener]

It's was hard being romance replused and watching the majority of aro tiktoks being about wanting love.

It hurts a lot seeing only posts for a long time about only wanting to feel love and holy fuck I felt so alienated from the aromantic community for such a long time after seeing that.

Lucky I found a small group of people also like me and that how I found out the word to describe my aroness was replused.

#romance repulsed #aromantic #aro #for such a long time i felt so wrong #like maybe i wasnt aro and just grow up around toxic realships #which isnt wrong of course #but that not the reason my aro #i was born aro dumbass!

[sonknuxadow]

everyone is always making sonic a pegasus or a unicorn in their sonic characters as mlp characters art. but im an earth pony sonic believer forever i don't care what anyone says

#its because sonic is just some guy. whos super powerful for seemingly no reason #so i think its fitting that hes the most ''basic'' species #id argue that hedgehogs are the most basic species in sonic too #like yeah most of the hedgehogs we see are like ridiculously powerful or are special for some reason #but . theyre just such a common species across the cast #not saying every hedgehog character would be an earth pony though. i think sonic and amy make sense as earth ponies #but silver would be a unicorn for sure #and shadow i think should probably be an alicorn since hes the ultimate lifeform and all #maybe in mlp universe he can still be artificially created #like isnt the way it works that youre either born an alicorn because one of your parents is one (like flurry heart) #or one of the existing alicorns decided that you deserve to be made into one or whatever (like twilight and cadance) #maybe some people decided they wanted to figure out how to make alicorns on their own #and thats how shadow was created #idk. im just throwing ideas around

[layzeal]

everytime the US singlehandedly vetoes a UN resolution that could offer Gaza even the slightest amount of humanitarian relief i am reminded of that stupidass post that was circulating a few weeks ago about how "framing the US as unique type of evil in the world is soooooo unfair and actually just another type of US centric view you guuuuuys". tumblr leftist are truly its own breed

#you people are entirely ignorant to the sheer amount of damage your country can create with a tap of a button #and then get pissy when people affected by those choices call it out #like. you think US elections are stressful. imagine knowing the results can affect the fate of your entire continent and you don't even #get a vote. tell me how is this reasonable or fair #though i'm also saying this in the website that thinks eastern europeans who hold a grudge against russia are unreasonable so #who knows!!!!! #like no you don't need to self-flagelate or fall on your knees cursing out oh how much you hate having been born in this nation #but like. maybe don't try to sell that ''actually we're not THAT bad'' is somehow a progressive take. shut up. #i need to find that post again. god

[ask-wren-zhang]

For your ask post:

If they were ever granted one wish, what would they wish for?

Sighs in wistful lactose intolerance, "to eat a cheesecake." 😔

#rp #wren speaks #wren tries to be funny #writing the rest OOC bc Wren is very unlikely to say any of these out loud 😆 It's going to get a bit convoluted from here #and I really want to take this chance to add something more in depth instead of just something quippy as usual #a little backstory tidbit #Ok so Wren was born in Dublin but her family moved to Belfast #a violent and overcrowded city with deteriorating conditions at the time HL takes place (I did my history homework lol) #at some point Wren's childhood was plagued with riots and arsons #it's why she dislikes the spell Incendio 🔥 #yet even since attending Hogwarts #her parents for some reason insist on staying in Belfast #more than anything Wren wants her parents to see sense #that whatever academic or business pursuits they have aren't worth risking their lives every time they leave the house #and maybe convince the Ministry into relocating her parents to Hogsmeade #or at least somewhere nearby in Scotland where she can keep an eye on them #but her parents are as stubborn as a mule #and they don't write to her often #Wren has no choice but make do with the occasional letters from home #then go to bed every night riddled with anxiety #thinking whether her family made back home safely #😃

[spicyicymeloncat]

Sorry but gone evil s6 pirate jay would be so hot fr fr, I want him to get punched in the face repeatedly before converting a bunch of Ninjago citizens into his gay pirate crew and doing uhhh crime

#ig he wouldn’t be evil then #my s6 rewrite I want jay to have an identity crisis and actually be a pirate #to fit in with the theme of being forced to do something that Nya has #Jay resigns to a life of piracy #it’s kinda similar to a s12 rewrite idea I’ve had #bc he’s the only ninja who didn’t really have any pre-existing reasons to be a ninja #he just kinda picked it up #Zane didn’t know who he was - Cole had mummy issues - kai and Nya also had issues and hero complexes - Lloyd was born #but what was stopping jay from turning around and just living with his parents #especially since in this season his found family gets taken #and he’s just like fuck it ig I’ll just join Nadakhan’s crew and be a pirate bc he literally doesn’t even know who he is anymore #and maybe his self esteem takes a hit because he realises he was literally abandoned by rich people #idk #*gives jay a villain arc or two* #forgot to tag #ninjago #lego ninjago #Ninjago jay #ninjago rewrite #Ninjago s6 #Ninjago skybound

[bonefall]

Just curious, is Russetfur still Raggedstar’s half sister in this universe or are they completely unrelated now? Also do you have anything on Boulder? He was always one of my favorite background cats

If they are half-sibs, it's not relevant! They won't know or care.

Chelford cats are matriarchal. Sires don't inherently play a role in the lives of their children, and seeking that sort of company is something a parent keeps discreet. Uncles and brothers fill the role of "father" in raising the kittens, with cats tracking their lineages through mothers

So Russet has no idea who her father is and doesn't care. Ngl, I also just... don't care about Hal lmaooo

(Imagine writing a super edition about one of your most popular characters, with a story that people have been begging to hear in detail for years, and then dedicating the entire opening to her shitty husband's daddy issues. Couldn't be me.)

Instead, Russetfur is related to the leader of BloodClan at that time. Brick is her sister. I might make Hal her uncle or older brother.

The conflict that occurs between BloodClan and ShadowClan at this time will cause the leader to be killed suddenly, triggering the Frenzy, the period of time during which a new leader is chosen. Pinestar is already having issues over in ThunderClan, and starts seriously thinking about leaving to go help out.

(Though it's certainly not his last straw.)

In any case... if Russetfur and her buddy Boulder had been having second thoughts about Clan life, getting the BloodClan Leader killed and burned the hell out of THAT bridge.

Anyway.

Russetfur and Boulder are in danger during TigerClan. Serious danger. They were loyal to Brokenstar and were safe as long as they were good warriors, but Tigerstar had his eye on them.

So, I feel they may have supported Deerfoot's Rebels, but deniably. I want Blackstar picking Russetfur to be heavily based on her participation, but I also need her to stay safe.

(Might end up having her escape and take refuge with Mistyfoot...)

Boulder is a lot more passive. I like him a LOT and want to expand his role a bit, just because... I Like Him. Literally just blorbo lmao. It's funny how the fandom consensus is just, "this guy's cool!"

I go back and forth on when Boulder's kids are born, and who they are. But he WILL be having kids

I'm set on Whitethroat being one of them, and leaning towards Wetfoot being another.

If Wetfoot is one of Boulder's kids, Firestar knows Boulder as a concerned dad. Wetfoot is going to get a bigger role as a friend in ShadowClan and Deerfoot Rebel.

In my head, Boulder likes the community of Clan life more than the violence, but because he's huge and served under tyrannical leaders he gets forced into battles he doesn't enjoy.

He massively regrets following Russetfur, honestly. He doesn't want to leave and go rebuild his reputation in BloodClan... but he also wishes he never came here.

In my heart, TPB is like the WORST period in this poor guy's life. Background character going through an absolute WRINGER

He's anxious for himself, anxious for his friends, anxious for his kids. Loses Whitethroat. Might lose Wetfoot to the Plague. Serves under TigerClan, terrified that if he isn't a perfect warrior he will get killed.

(And he's right. His fear is warranted. If Russetfur does something, like if I go with her being a refugee in ThunderClan, HE is going to get punished.)

And, of course, he is eventually used by Tigerstar to open up talks with BloodClan.

Even though he has Sasha, Nightwhisper, and Jaggedtooth to serve the same purpose... Tigerstar chooses Boulder.

He doesn't trust Jaggedtooth after he "fails" to contain the prisoners that escape to ThunderClan. He "proved" his loyalty by following his order to execute Deerfoot, but Jaggedtooth is now at the bottom of the pecking order.

Sasha is being reduced to a mate Tigerstar can control, even though she served as one of his mercenaries. He doesn't give her ANY agency.

Nightwhisper is a stupid tool, in Tigerstar's eyes. He does not respect his intelligence, just his eagerness.

So Boulder is chosen. He's smart enough to translate properly, fearful enough to do what Tigerstar says, has lived long enough as a Clan cat... and if he HAS any remaining kids, there is the implicit threat that if Boulder tries something funny, his child is who will pay for it.

After TigerClan ends, I feel like Boulder is desperate to retire early, but also feels like he can't ask for it. He's only survived this long because of his usefulness. It would be hard to trust that he can just... not serve, anymore.

If I can scrounge up more kits for ShadowClan (IT'S SO SMALL), I also would like him to end up having another litter mid-Po3.

Hopefully one of the kids of his first survived, so I can play around with the harrowing dynamic of, "Our dad is so much happier while raising you... I envy my younger sibling's childhood."

And on a final note, Boulder is probably going to get a Warrior Name during TPB. It doesn't really make sense that he just keeps his old one, unfortunately, when Clan Culture is at its most xenophobic and he's in active danger. He'll get Boulder back as a request between TPB and TNP.

#Better Bones Au #BB!Boulder #BB!BloodClan #BB!Russetfur #BB!TPB #Maybe ill bust out the Bright surrogates for him... let him have Amber and Snow or Dew. I know I want Amber in Shadow for some reason #Also idk his warrior name yet. Maybe Cold-something. Ill probably have Broken force one on him. #So it's going to end up sounding edgy #Broken's names are edgy #Lmao his name is like. Sharpstrike or Edgeclaw or something #Just something wild and super unfitting for him #Leave him alone he just wants to be a dad #Born to grill cursed to murder #(SOBBING) i judt watn to grill pela ae i waant ro gri ll... #I made runny evil in BB so I needed SOMEONE to be the Saddest Fucking Thing in shadow

[enekorre]

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#M #Im feeling wonky #I messed up a friendship and im being used by a coworker and i feel like i may be betrayed for a 4th time #Those things are not related to each other #And then i for some reason read youtube comments #And that was a bad idea #Bc they were hating on swedish speaking finns #Aka my grandparents #Lots of misinfo too #If there is a video about someone getting threatened or beat up for their language #Why would you comment that they deserved it for speaking a language that has existed in that region for 800+ years? #And so so so much misinformation too #I don't know maybe im feeling ill bc i missed my train (earlier train was late) #Aurgha #Another sort-friend jokingly called me huuri or however it's spelled #He doesn't know that my family are swedish speaking finns #It was in response to me (also jokingly) suggesting he try speaking swedish with the finns he didn't understand #(he's born here in sweden to finnish family so he speaks 'swedish finnish' so he had some issues keeping up with finnish slang) #Like we are opposites but it's okay to hate on one group? I don't get it #Anyway just that he knew he'd get that response if he tried swedish... Even if it was a joke it still hurt #To know that one language isn't safe to speak unless you want hate and physical danger #Im having a midnight ramble again huh #Anyway everything is overwhelming gonna cry myself to sleep now bye ✌️ #Also the argument that 300000 people aren't that many: thats the whole of Iceland! #Should Icelandic just not exist anymore then?

[mainfaggot]

hi I cried while doing my spanish grammar exercises and then I packed my bag for tomorrows day on campus and then I had tea and then I put on a load of laundry and now im going to bed. i survived another stupid fucking day of emotional instability

#i do wish i was never born but today i had the most succulent pear ever like that shit was phenomenal #so idk maybe i shouldnt complain about my mothrrs haunting ways of loving me #-> me coming to normal conclusions with normal reasoning because i am normal #z.post