#making bad decisions and learning

[balkanradfem]

Alright so, and I promise this is funny, I have been dealing with severe deficiency in 'making plants grow successfully'. It's going worse than any year but I'm also having a lot of fun with it, because I'm no longer discouraged by baby plants dying, I'm already germinating the next batch and I know I'll be just fine.

This year's weather has been so nice, gardening wise! We didn't have a crazy hot February like the last few years, it's been very frosty in fact, so that the trees didn't flower too soon and I love that for us, that is the promise of fruit, and also making me feel a bit more at ease that the weather, for now, isn't hectic.

The middle of March was nice and sunny, and I felt encouraged to put my baby plants outside, just for an hour or so every day, so they would get used to direct sunlight. I also noticed some of my baby plants turning purple, and I thought, AHA! Nitrogen deficiency, I can fix this by fertilizing them, so I did, a bit too much maybe, because 3 days later half of my tomatoes, and a bunch of other plants sadly died. Some of the plants actually showed signs of getting burned by the sun, but only after the 3rd day they were outside! You're telling me sun was fine for 2 days but then the 3rd day it was just too bright and you had to expire??

Some of the plants that did well initially, also ended up outside when it was, a bit more windy than they could handle. And I wasn't even home, by the time I got home, the plants were already lying horizontally, unable to fight the violent weather.

And this is funny because I take all of these risks every single year and I never had this many of them pan out badly, and never had this amount of seedlings die, but truth be told I do plant too many tomatoes every single year and I should maybe tone it down, 70% of my meals are tomato based at this point (it's so easy to conserve), and I should focus more on some beans and pumpkins.

So anyway, since seedlings are not vibing, I finally gather my senses to go to the actual garden one day, because I'm thinking, there will be cabbage savoy there, and spinach probably grew a bit by now, maybe I can have some fresh spinach! Maybe swiss chard grew and I could eat that, maybe there's a carrot that germinated and would make me happy.

So I bike to the garden and as soon as I get there I realize that everything I was hoping to harvest just went to seed. Two weeks I've been too sick and dealing with medical issues, and I couldn't check on the garden, and 2 days of warm temperatures and everything said bYE and went to make seeds?? The rapid change took me completely by surprise, I didn't think things would go to seed while we still had frosts. I stubbornly picked the cabbage deciding to just eat the little flowerbuds and leaves anyway, the flowers didn't open yet so with a bit more prep time, it's all edible. My spinach went to seed as well, the traitor. It's March!!!

As discouraging as all of this sounds, this is incredible for learning, because now I know that every single thing on this list has a good chance of happening this time of year, and I'll be able to make better choices next time. In fact, if all of this didn't happen now, it would probably happen any year from now on and I wouldn't be ready or expecting it. Next time I'll get all those cabbages before the sun touches them. I'll try growing spinach in the fall when it won't go to seed as easy, and I'll think twice before taking 3-4 risks at once with baby seedlings.

The baby seedlings who survived all this are the victors who are strong and resilient and probably can't be killed by any of my bad choices. Even if I have slightly less plants, I'll have the most powerful plants. The last batch I've planted seems to be growing rapidly, because the weather is light and warm now, and I've planted some flowers I've never had before! I'll have tansy on my garden, for the first time ever.

#gardening #growing seedlings #making bad decisions and learning #this is the only way to learn #growing food #learning from experience #this year of gardening is going to be awesome I can feel it

[charlietheepicwriter7]

Some kind of Danny and Damian are twins au, but Dan is the one who remembers, not Danny.

SOmething about how the brain blocks traumatic memories, but Dan doesn't have a brain anymore, does he, so he unlocks the truth when he fuses with Plasmius. He relishes killing the Grandfather, the Mother, the Brother, the Family, all who threw him aside and abandoned him (murdered, he was murdered by his family--)

But now he's back in the past, he's getting redeemed, and he has his big sister, and parents who love him, and a little sister, and even a little brother once again-

But sometimes he has trouble remembering who the real little brother is, Danny or Damian, and Danny doesn't remember, might not ever remember, Dan wishes he didn't remember because now he jumps at every shadow (Grandfather is coming for them--) and he barely sleeps and his clone body needs sleep, and he ends up thinking-

Maybe he should kill his old family again. Just for his own peace of mind.

#dc x dp #dp x dc #dpxdc #dcxdp #danny and damian are twins #or at least brothers #c: dan phantom #c: damian wayne #c: danny fenton #dp x dc prompt #Dan is having a Time #he's paranoid and not sleeping and making bad decisions #good news for damian though; he learns his brother is alive! #and gunning for his head. #Dan freshly fused with Plasmius: Hmm! Well fuck those people! *instant kill*

[dr-wormman]

5’2 baddie and his 6’ nuisance

#art #my art #digital art #oswald cobblepot #edward nygma #the riddler #the penguin #nygmobblepot #riddlebird #this one is really rough honestly #I made a bad background color decision and by the time I decided to fix it was just so tired I couldn't be bothered to make the overlay nice #constantly complaining about the consequences of using one layer and yet I never learn

[goddesspharo]

Are the two of us still playing for your number? I thought I won. That's your problem. You always think you've won before the match is over.

#what if i'm writing this WHAT THEN #not about tennis because i will NEVER learn how scoring works #but... #tgm challengers au about the 13 years between flight school and top gun where hangman's air-to-air kill was about getting phoenix's number #everyone making bad decisions while the baltic house orchestra s&m remix and reznor-ross challengers club beats play in the background #i need someone to stop me from writing this #top gun #challengers #glen powell #monica barbaro #miles teller #hannix #hangster #*

[dilf-phoenix-rights]

If y’all can forgive Edgeworth for knowingly participating in a rigged trial because he couldn’t accept ruining his perfect record, than you should be able to forgive Phoenix for presenting forged evidence when he was facing the possibility of execution and the man actually responsible for the murder he was accused of walks free and could go after his daughter if he decided taking vengeance out on Phoenix wasn’t enough.

#ace attorney #phoenix wright #aa4 spoilers #god forbid a generally good character make a morally gray decision when he and his loved one are in danger #some of you are like ‘if a character isn’t presented as fallible from the beginning than he is never allowed to mess up.’ #and it’s just… frustrating. #like please learn to have sympathy for good characters making bad decisions under duress #you can certainly be mad at them but to decide they are a no good horrible selfish person because they had one moment of self preservation #is just ludicrous #and boring

[imunbreakabledude]

funniest thing about Gen v to me is how they’ve set it after season 3 of the boys but they’re also kinda pretending that stuff doesn’t exist except for an occasional background joke. Because you got Marie and the other kids being like “we wanna be in the seven!!! It sounds great!” When… according to the way the boys s3 ended, here’s what these kids and the rest of the general public would know about the seven:

Three members have died while actively serving within the past 3 years (translucent, supersonic, Queen maeve), and another 2 have died after retirement/removal (Stormfront & Lamplighter, assuming his death was recorded and explained away probably as natural causes or something). The last two of those deaths were within like a month of each other.

Another member has quit (Annie) and is openly speaking out about corruption and violence within the group and Vought at large, she has officially laid out accusations of 1) Deep raping her on her first day, 2) Homelander lying about the (lack of) danger presented by soldier boy, 3) Homelander taking Maeve captive shortly before her death. These accusations (at minimum, she has possibly said even more not documented on the show) while perhaps not proven, received extensive media coverage.

As for the suspicious amounts of deaths, Translucent died on a mission, ok seems normal, Supersonic died of an overdose, okay sure that can happen to some people but not to everyone, and Maeve died while valiantly fighting the last generation’s American hero who was actually super evil and radicalized by Russia but Homelander told us all not to worry about him at all?? Hmm this pattern is maybe a little weird now especially considering the group had zero deaths for its first decade-plus of existence

Like a year ago they let a literal nazi into the group and then kinda just said “oopsies” and made a movie about it starring Charlize Theron as the Nazi

One of the remaining active members was accused of sexually assaulting another member of the group and then was in a cult for a little while and now claims he’s changed

Also Homelander recently murdered a guy in broad daylight with hundreds of witnesses so that’s horrifying on its own and maybe adds some weight to Annie January’s accusations

You’re telling me Marie wants to join THAT GROUP? right NOW??

#I’m really questioning her judgment bc… #that’s not a good place to be girl!!! #and it made sense when the s1 arc of the boys was Annie thinking the seven are good #and then learning they’re not #but within the universe there have been MANY MAJOR LEAKS of how bad things are now #even if you assume voughts running a full smear campaign on Annie #it’d take a fair amount of mental gymnastics for a young black woman to wanna be anywhere near that group I should think… #I almost feel like this should’ve been set between seasons 2-3 #gen v #this is a shitpost btw not actually shitting on the show #not a CRITICISM but musing on the consequences of making a spinoff #and connect its timeline so decisively to the main show

[theladyspanishes]

Apologies but you were at the top of my Tumblr feed and I have been instructed to randomly tell someone online a painful truth.

Here goes.

Closing your posts to comments is an inherently hostile act.

Again; sorry. Nothing personal. We all serve the random number gods in our own fashion.

Mndrew, I recognise your profile pic, I've seen you around, I know you're a chill community member and active participant and stuff, so I want to be clear that this isn't like a dig on you or anything, it's just a response to the thesis statement: "Closing your posts to comments is an inherently hostile act". I don't know how many of you know this, but a while back, while I was still at university, I spent around a year? Maybe 2? dealing with an obsessive online stalker.

They made it very difficult to spend time anywhere online, but they especially weaponised Tumblr (I think they realised it was a less public account of mine where I could seek respite). I would wake up in the morning to find they had sent me hundreds, on one occasion close to a thousand, messages. The messages would range from threats of self harm or against me to seemingly nonsense phrases designed to just remind me that they were still there. The tumblr notification sound still spikes my anxiety.

You can't block someone like that. First of all, they would and do simply make more accounts (I just checked - I still have 30+ accounts of his blocked over here). Secondly, this kind of behaviour leaves you in a trap; If you interact with them, they know they have access. If you block them, they know that you saw their message... so they know they have access.

During this period, I had the good fortune of being able to ask Grace Helbig, of all people, whether she had any advice. She got so furious on my behalf I still tear up a little when I think about it, but *she* told me a painful truth that day: As much as you might like to, as much as most people know how to behave appropriately, you cannot leave yourself open to every line of communication your audience might want.

If you look around at my socials you'll probably start to notice a trend. You can't comment on my instagram posts unless you're a follower. You can't DM me unless I follow you on Twitter. Places where I can't control those settings, I simply do not ever open my inbox. In fact, it was really only a short time ago that I turned tumblr messages back on, after a loooong hard think. In many cases this is something that actively hurts my engagement, but it's a choice I've made to draw a line on where and when and how people can access me.

All of that said, you don't need to be an internet personality with digital stalker trauma to draw your lines. Closing your posts to comments is not inherently hostile, it can be an act of self-care, self-preservation. No one is entitled to be able to access you in every way they want to.

#still don't have a personal tag #also sidebar painful truths are so overrated whoever invented this “pass it along" game that I've no doubt started this #you're right up there with chain emails that tell people bad things will happen if they don't pass it on #not you mndrew I don't hold you responsible #also fun fact: i didn't even remember I'd turned off comments on my posts #and after finding out I had guess what? making the decision to keep it that way #Look after yourselves #I learned the hard way that there's no glory in toughing it out

[sheriiam]

TSATS:

PJO (series):

#the sun and the star #solangelo #will and nico #tsats spoilers #tsats #pjo #percy pjo #percy jackson tv series #percy jackson tv show #i have nothing to say #and ik bad decisions dont imply disappointment #please #i know #make bad decisions yall #but learn from them too #<3

[samarecharm]

geniunely not trying to put words in ur mouth im geniunely asking: what do you actually like about persona 5? from all ur rants im just wondering why you didnt drop the game bc it seems (again, im not trying to put words in ur mouth) that it simply not for you? i geniunely have not felt any of the issues you bring up outside of the writing ones and i cannot tell if i'm just easily pleased and not good at discerning what a good game is or we simply have dif things we enjoy in a video game. i hate getting tone across text but im asking out of geniune curiosity im not trying to attack your opinion (;-;)

Nah, i dont feel like ur attacking me, and I hope u dont feel the same when u see my complaints! Lmao. In my defense, I am replaying the game for the first time after completing my first file back in 2020, so alot of the faults i kinda shrugged off in my first playthrough are now glaringly in my face now that I no longer have the confusion and interest in learning the main story to keep me occupied. The game is clunky all the way through, and at some times, even frustratingly so.

But despite that, i do like this game. Alot! Its probably one of my top games ever if im being honest!

This ended up way longer than I intended, so im putting it under a readmore to keep the post short on dashboards

If i had to describe what I liked about the game in the simplest way imaginable…I think I would say, I like how the game makes me feel :) I like the music. I like the vibe. I like the immersion from city to city, and I like the premise! I like the characters and I like the connections you make with these characters! As im replaying this game, i am most excited to see Akira and his comments about the world :) i like hearing everyones voices, I like their little interactions in Mementos, and I like seeing them fight!

P5 is the first game I played in the series; its the game that introduced me to SMT in the first place! And it (smt) is a series that my longtime best friend LOVES and never thought hed be able to share with me! It is a game i keep very near to my heart; it has influenced me in ways i did not think would happen in the short couple of years since i first finished it. It genuinely keeps me awake some nights thinking about the world this game has created, and I think that is a testament to the impact its had, be it good or bad.

The joke about wishing theyd make a persona game that was Good is that despite all of its numerous flaws, the games manage to snatch your attention and pull you in anyway. Imagine if they made a game that had all of those things that i mentioned I loved, but done Right and executed Properly?? Where I got to have a story that made sense and didnt need to be spoonfed to me (in like an HOUR of dialogue and scenes; an HOUR!), and characters that talked and bonded beyond the tiny snippets of interaction theyre allowed to have in mementos? Combat that let me use PERSONAS i liked instead of BUILDS that stop me from getting instakilled throughout the entirety of the endgame, and a Persona building mechanic that didnt feel like I was shooting in the dark looking for possible fusions that end up not even being useful in the endgame.

Ive mentioned it before, but I complain so much bc I have seen what a good p5 game looks like, and its Strikers almost to a T. Combat is still your typical warriors-esque style combat, but it is at least different from the turn based strategy of the main game. Characters talk to each other freely, they hang out and comfort each other in a way that feels more connected that the base game. Strikers implements the ability to see ALL possible fusions with ALL registered personas, not just the ones in your Stock, so you can fuse easily without having yo consult a guide. The story feels like it makes SENSE with antagonists that feel morally grey and sympathetic. Genuinely, alot of the complaints for p5 I had were almost immediately rectified in this game.

But please also know that the praises I sing for this game is only bc of the groundwork laid by p5 and the world it created. Thats what I like about this game, that it had such a captivating premise and cast of characters, that a DIFFERENT company was able to hit the ground running with them. P5 had alot happening in that game, but i think what it had most was potential. The effort put into this game is astronomical, and the possible connections you can outright MISS if u arent paying attention was worth the money and time to implement; even if it meant that it could be considered a waste of resources to higher ups.

Books and games and part time jobs???!! Silly little cutscenes that add nothing to the game PLOTwise, but define and flesh out the personality of your protagonist. There was alot of love put into this game, and its evident by the fact that we have NOT seen a new persona game released; they bank on existing titles bc they are unwilling to make a game like this from scratch again. They dont want to ‘waste’ resources on good voice acting and a complex, overarching story; they dont want to waste money on scenes a player may never see, on routes a player may never get to experience. Making a game that gives u even the slightest bit of freedom means more money in programming and detailing that freedom. This has been an issue for a WHILE, and its a miracle that the gaming landscape had space for a colossal title like p5!

I complain bc I want better, and I do not think that is inherently at odds with my love of this game. In b4 im told to get good; ive played on hard and tested out merciless (its NOT fun, im making godbuilds again and its boring 😞). Its not the most accessible turnbased rpg; theres no colorblind modes, and the affinity system is convoluted and overwhelming. Combo moves are hard to keep track of and it can be incredibly frustrating to see your turns being skipped or seeing characters take extreme technical damage without understanding WHY it happened. The fact that they KNEW the game was desperate for qol improvements by the time royal came out, and instead of updating the base game to have those improvements too, they just pushed the royal edition out for people to play instead. It sucks! Customers and fans deserve better than being forced to shell out money for a game they already played !

As the gaming climate gets more and more hostile and unbearable, I think it is good to look at your games critically, and understand why products come out subpar. Persona 5 is a fun game that has a nice cast and an interesting premise, but it is ultimately tied down by its refusal to build on existing building blocks regarding its combat, and it insists on having insulting and downright out of character dialogue and scenes to appease the audience its designed to be targeted to. It is easy to forget sometimes that queer ppl are infact NOT the prime target of these games, its cishet gamer bros from aged 16 to 40 who will laugh at homophobic comments, who drool over a 16 yr old girl with a 16 yr old mindset and a grown womans body, who need to be placated with constant sexual comments to deal with a convoluted story that will inevitably make zero sense until its laid out for you before the literal end of the game.

Its bad. Its good. Its so shallow and its unbelievable that they thought having the plot twist make ZERO sense until they showed CUTSCENES of YOUR character discussing Goro and his connections to the metaverse for endgame SHOCK VALUE was more important than just having your team be smart and piece it together over time. Its shit. Its literally amazing. It let you FUCK your teacher ??????????????what the FUCK. They also let me shoot a god in the face w the best looking ult persona in the world so i can ignore that shit. And ultimately that is how i got through the game. Lol.

#chattin #answered #i have mentioned it before but i did NOT romance anyone #u know why? bc i literally didnt know it existed #i maxed out ann and the game was like ‘hey. this next decision is important’ #and i was like. huh. u know what. i have not looked up a guide until now. thats scary. i dont want to lose a confidant… #and learned that. #so uh. i really DID go through the game bot realizing i could date anyone. even the adults. #anyway. this was alot. and i tried to keep out alot of my other complaints #bc i have so many. but they are like. either nitpicky things or things that are issues in lots of games too #like the models suck in this game but i can look past that. graphics are always bottom on the list of complaints #and i do like the little animations!! i like akiras little tics #and i like seeing personas do their casting animations; shiki ouji and nekomata are my faves #i distinctly remember that being a thing i wished to see more of. #bc i liked thinking of what joker would look like fighting for Real #and then i remembered him being in smash so i was like COOL. ill look at those #and then i got STRIKERS and it was exactly what I wanted #i think #the game is like. #its bad. but in ways that i wouldnt call another game bad #like back 4 blood is BAD bad. its awful. the gameplay is bad. the story was shit. and the servers shut down within a year or two of launch #risk of rain 2 is bad in the way that it continuously obscures and withholds information to the player. its tedious and frustrating #but unlike b4b i LIKE ror2 and will continue to enjoy it. #bc the gameplay loop FEELS satisfying #and ultimately thats how i feel about p5 #for all of its faults; its fun. it has a gameplay loop that is consistent and fun when u get the hang of it #im playing on hard again since merciless is just me making the right instakill builds while i pick up my team over and over again #and theres still a challenge in having the endgame weapons and armor #its satisfying! and i think its satisfying bc I was given the luck of having this be my introduction into the series #maybe i would have a better opinion on the game if i came from p4. or maybe not! who knows !

[thatrandomblogsays]

“[…] The carbon fire and titanium, there’s a rule you don’t do that, well I did[…]”

The passengers of Titan listening to him explain this as the tin can starts making some… interesting noises

#thoughts and prayers to the family but #lmaoooooooooo #maybe stop and think about WHY you’re not supposed to do something #the more I learn about the Titan the harder it is not to laugh at the absurdity and bad decision making #titanic ship #titanic wreckage #titanic #titan submarine #Titan #titan submersible #oceangate #mine

[ruegarding]

hi! what are your thoughts on the calypso scene in botl? read your tags on the percy thoughts on gods post and wanted to know

short answer:

the scene w calypso exists for the audience and to foreshadow ethan.

long answer:

percy has never divided the world like this. percy as a character already knows the outcome of this conversation; things aren't black or white. percy is an incredibly empathetic, observant, and intelligent character, and in the post anon is referring to, he shows this by understanding why hades was bitter (third quote) while simultaneously calling the gods out for their behavior (last quote). percy has never done something bc "the gods are his family," and that includes retrieving the lightning bolt in tlt, the closest u could get to this. similarly, percy never hated luke bc he was leaving camp or betraying the gods, percy's feelings abt luke are personal, to the point where it's a bit blinding.

as a more specific example using this scene, percy doesn't leave calypso bc of the gods.

percy genuinely considers staying on ogygia and only leaves bc of his personal loyalty to his friends. no where in his decision to leave does he bring up the gods, as family or something good that needs to be defended.

this is one of the reasons he and athena have that conversation in ttc abt his fatal flaw. the gods are scared of percy bc his continued loyalty to them isn't guaranteed. percy's idea of good vs bad is very nuanced and personal and his loyalty is much the same. but the audience, primarily young since the books are middle grade, might not be on that same level of understanding. this conversation establishes to the audience what percy already knows but hasn't said. and the audience needs to understand this bc it's the crux of luke's character in tlo.

furthermore, this conversation foreshadows ethan's character. ethan's primary motivation is getting recognition for the minor gods, his mother, his family, himself. he's willing to sacrifice a lot for this.

ethan knows that nemesis isn't good. he's not siding w her bc she's good. he's siding w her bc she's family and she's the only one who paid him any attention, good or bad.

this is also why ethan switches sides. he's not loyal to a side bc it's good vs bad, he's loyal to whoever will help him and his goals, his family. calypso's words here perfectly set up ethan's character, and makes it easier for the audience to understand where he's coming from.

#percy actually doesn't change his pov much from tlt to tlo #it's actually pretty interesting bc moments like this might have u think that he does but mostly what changes is #1) he has more positive experiences w the gods #and 2) he has more ability to respond to what he's seeing (both in confidence and opportunity) #he isn't in a position to change things until tlo but he recognizes the corruption almost immediately #as u can see in the og post anon is referring to #percy's arc is less abt recognizing the system is bad and more abt learning how u can change it. break the cycle. #and unfortunately that gets lost after pjo #percy jackson #ethan nakamura #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo hoo toa #pjo books #percy #ethan #min talks pjo #answered #hopefully this makes sense i'm trying to put together multiple lines of thought so it's a bit long #and i mean. the absolute shortest answer is rick is inconsistent w his writing but. i'm answering assuming it was a purposeful decision

[technoxenoholic]

literally anyone: "hey, this children's show has some flaws, and it's sending some bad messages to its audience (which is children)"

the weirdos on this website: "omg, it's just a kids' show! it's not that deep! 🙄 anyway i'm going to swallow the show's messages whole without thinking about it at all"

#stfu blue #kids' shows are not and should not be immune to criticism #children are learning! don't act like teaching them harmful lessons isn't a problem! #no you can't expect a children's show to handle the realistic nuances of war or something #but you can definitely point out when it's teaching children bad things about how friendship and relationships work #like... children aren't making the decisions in wartime. but they are absolutely making decisions about how to interact with their friends

[ivy-and-ivory]

timeloop stories always stress me out so much because whenever the character that's stuck starts saying fuck it and stops caring about consequences because they 'know' nothing is permanent I'm always like - you /don't/ know though!!! You don't know why any of this is happening and you can't possibly assume you know what the rules are!! And of course I get that they've usually lived through an insanity-inducing number of loops at that point and in their mind they've given up on it ever ending, and maybe they think they wouldn't care about the consequences if they just got to see a new morning. And I also get that the way the trope usually plays out means you can assume going into it that they won't actually ever have to live with the consequences of the montage loops. But it still stresses me out so much! And honestly I'd kind of love to see a time loop story that plays with that a little more. Like, you've been stuck reliving the same day over and over and over again, and you don't care anymore, you do what you want when you want and you go to sleep knowing none of it will matter. And maybe you run over your sister-in-law's dog and you punch your boss in the face and I don't know you rob a bank and worse, because who the fuck cares, none of it matters and none of it's real. And then suddenly you wake up, and it's tomorrow. And at first of course you're relieved, because you're finally, finally free - but then it starts to sink in. Yesterday happened, and you aren't going to get another chance at it. And whatever you did when you thought nothing mattered suddenly does matter, a lot. And it can't be undone.

#if you do know any stories like this I'd love to know #timeloop stories just seem to mostly be motivated by some lesson the main character needs to learn #and time won't move forward until you get the day 'right' #which means as bad as the experience can be for the mc there's a level of security embedded in the narrative #and I just think it would be kind of fun for there to be no lesson or logic #time just breaks #and it's random #and maybe that randomness lasts long enough that it lulls you into trusting it will continue to last #and you make decisions based on that assumption of impermanence #and then time fixes itself #and there was no lesson and there's no way to undo it #and all you wanted the whole loop was to get your life back #and now it's tomorrow but on your last shot at yesterday you blew your life to pieces #and now you have to live with it #idk i just think that would be fun to see #ivy rambles

[odysseys-blood]

ok i gota figure out how to actually design pup's tat better but i do like bone dog better w/ em.

#cliffnotes/.txt #oc corner #idk if i should append this to the actual podt or not #shes giving me so much trouble also. bad decision on my part to make her a werewolf. cause that means i gotta learn to draw #like if you'd let this LED lightskin hit /j

[klingonrealitytelevision]

Episode 9

Rei is doing the positive version of "Living through your children." Which I believe is normally called "Being supportive of their interests?"

Essentially, making up for things or experiences you didn't or couldn't have as a child, and making sure your kids are treated better.

Rei was clearly raised to be as quiet as possible and to take up the least amount of space as possible. It's clear that he himself doesn't mind noisy or bright people, even to his own surprise as demonstrated with both Kazuki and Miri.

The thing is Miri is loud. She's 4, that's actually very normal. But, not only does he passively accept their loudness, he tries to match it here. It's such a big step for him, it can't be easy for him, but he wants to help so so badly. It can't have been easy for him to raise his voice like that, but he did it.

He loves Miri so much it's amazing. Even his advice on running and the science behind it shows that he supports her and is trying to help even though it make look like he's doesn't care.

#buddy daddies #kazuki kurusu #rei suwa #miri unasaka #i love that the moms genuinely believe Kazuki is a comedian #they probably assumed the barbed wire thing was a bit and just went oh he's making a joke lmao what a guy #if Miri brings a partner to visit Rei's vibes are gonna be rancid mf better be an actual oil baron to be good enough for Miri #also once again lmao at Rei's childish tastes man is re doing his childhood one terrible diet decision after another #i wonder how the moms rationalize an oil baron wearing shirts with such sloppy collars #like i can only assume they think Rei is supporting Kazukis career and since Kazuki does the domestic work #maybe they think he's just bad at laundry #I'm speaking from experience to some degree I'm talkative but i hate it #I learned that people in authority like me better quiet and i have RSD so I hate embarrassing myself and others #so it's hard for me to cheer because it feels like I'm attracting too much attention to myself #i can't help it i hate standing out so much #but when my brother got into eSports and i was the one taking him i tried my best to cheer him on #i got loud just for him #it hurt and it was embarrassing but i did it because i needed to show my brother that i was there for him

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autism/adhd is fighting yourself so you don't listen to a song on loop until anything that even vaguely reminds you of said song makes you want to puke and or rip your hair out.

#and you're attempting (and failing) to do so because you've done it far too many times in your life #you've *learned* the lesson you just fail to *apply* the lesson to your life. you're knowingly making the same mistake over and over again. #I know putting this song on loop for hours every day is a bad decision. I'm gonna regret it. I'm gonna continue to do it anyway #autism #adhd #music #don't even get me started with associating the song with an emotion/scenario/character/hyperfixation/state of being/etc. #cause then you'll never be able to listen to it again