#love yourself and put God first

[ceabu]

Your gamkar looks pretty red and not pale (no hate, I just don't get why would you call red rom "pale")

...dude

#ceabu's asks #LMFAO GET A LOAD OF THIS GUY #CANT TELL THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN RED AND PALE #GET OUT WITH THIS BULLSHIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTT #YES MOIRAILS KISS AND SMOOCH AND SO WHAT DOES THAT MEAN THEYRE RED????? #i will never ship gamkar in any other quadrant than pale so lets get that out of the way first because mY GOD #they are pale #nothing else #you might see pale as just guys being pals and besties who just need a pat on the head from their homie somethimes #but how i see it is #pale romance is the most important #you put ur whole faith and trust in each other share secrets you would never ever utter to anyone else you let yourself be vulnerable #AND WE R TALKING ABOUT TROLLS HERE ALRIGHT #REMEMBER TROLLS ARE AGRESSIVE CREATURES WHO KILL AND STUFF LOL #so yes moirails should def kiss and smooch because CHECK IT OUT DUDE #PALE IS A ROMANCE #AS IS BLACK AS IS ASHEN #JUST BECAUSE THEY DONT FUCK DOESNT MEAN THEY DONT LOVE EACH OTHER #pale romance my beloved no one gets you like i do

[anisohtropy]

kaveh’s really pulling the words out of my brain. this wip was supposed to be just quick practice writing kavetham before I start on my howl’s au for them, but it’s not done and it’s like 13.5k? what’s going on? how did I get here? this isn’t even a complicated wip it’s just my take on kaveh’s participation in the championship event 

idk something about depressed blonde man is making my brain go whrrr and kick out bangers like “guilt is as natural to him as breathing” and “the difference between martyrdom and surrender is nothing on the scale of the universe” like who comes up with that? not anyone who isn’t still unstable from finals that’s for sure anyway I’m almost done with it so watch out

#kavetham #kavehtham #haikaveh #kaveh #alhaitham #genshin #genshin impact #and i keep dropping bangers too #i have literally no right to be going this hard for a silly wip i started to distract me from finals #kaveh is going through the ringer #i am putting him through it #but its okay because unlike hoyo i will give him a boyfriend as compensation #fellas is it gay to know someone so well you don't need words to communicate #fellas is it gay to be desperately worried about your friend leaving you so you decide to leave them first after a major argument #but you end up living together later and oh god they're in love with you and you're terrified #also you're still blaming yourself for your father's death and your therapist is a literal god #kavehs so fucked up thank god haithams functional #one day ill finally finish this thing and be happy with it #im gonna shoot everyone with my nerf gun full of angst #itll be great #someone will cry for sure

[scopophobia-polaris]

i wanna send you a fun post cuz-- your comic with timie? love it. adore it. i like reading things that fuck me up a bit and the comic fucks me up a bit

oh can I tell you something that fucks me up? These pages right here, I think it turned a lot of people off because it looks shippy as hell but

My interpretation of the red string isn't wholly romantic

#If anything #uh. givennthe fact that when its brought up is skyward sword #its more of like....to ME. a bound by fate thing #in the game where eveyone is bound by fate by the machinations of 2 warring gods #i dont see it in the legend of zelda as being a super romantic thing #and arn finally realizing that timie is a sad pathetic wet cat kinda just #okay this may be a little silly but you know how language has power in Earthsea? well i love the entire concept of words having power #and sometimes the way you word things just #screws you over #like idk we can all agree the closer you put yourself near the hero of hyrule the more endangered you become yeah? #like im sorry im trying ti plan out shit in the next 3 chapters cuz i didnt like how disjointed the first 3 where #this is all a first attempt i aint perfect but i wanna just figure stuff out and get better

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

I am still thinking about tmagp 2, did you know that ep was written specifically for me?

#empty thoughts #the magnus protocol #tmagp #tmagp spoilers #daria tmagp #Daria if you are out there!!! Daria please if you are out there!!!! #But seriously the way an artist's obsession with perfection is combined with body issues #It would have never been enough girl!!! You would have never been satisfied girl!!! #And just the way she was trying so hard to preserve the one thing that she liked about herself #And that one thing was technically what was destroying her #And she didnt even care! She still believed what she was doing was ok and sane!!! #Girl you kept giving yourself plastic surgeries with your art kit!!! You need that therapy!!!!! #The way so many people would destroy their bodies to achieve the unreachable perfection! #Plastic surgeries! Dieting! Hair plucking eitc etc! Like!!! Like!!!!! #The way artists are never satisfied with their masterpiece!!! Only someone elses art!!!!! #Also! Also! Just the way her pain was literally exploited! First Ink5ouls literally streams her tortorous tattoo session #And she is given such a minimal choices!! Even for the artpiece put on her body!! And then OIAR records her therapy session!!!! God!!!!!!! #Love me a good Flesh episode #Insane episode i love it

[skeletoninthemelonland]

#i think i first listened to this song around the time Behind The Codes became an official project #My brain probably associated the feelings of excitement and fear with the song so ig that's why I love it so much #On one side. I love working on the Behind The Codes #there's an overwhelming amount of ways to tell this story: brainstorming. designing. animating. writing and rewriting until your brain- #starts to fry and get foggy with so many ideas. its both good and stressful to push your limits like this #On another side. I'm constantly anxious about it #I've always been afraid to admit the things I enjoy as well as the things that i create #You don't allow yourself to create and embrace new things even when you're essentially alone #and yes I'm aware of the fact that there will be people who won't enjoy the series- which isn't what bothers me #What bothers me is that I might regret certain decisions #'This is not the message I wanted to convey' #'This is not the story I wanted to tell' #The decision to share this song here is the clearest example of what I mean: #Part of me says: this song is so btc oh my god please put it at the end credits wait THERE IS A 2ND PART OF IT AND IT'S EVEN COOLER OOOAAAA #then there's the main thought: this song is so stupid. it's so corny in a way it makes me uhghu7ujhkjg.. #i won against my negative thoughts today. yay #this whole post is just me rambling and being anxious. i dont even know what to say hjdsfbwjkefkdsf #bye :waves: #starbstalks

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

i want to go ahead and write up A Whole Thing about how ricky's arc ultimately comes down to 'protect what's yours,' in a way that tbh manages to be kind of the opposite of the toxic masculinity that trope tends to embody in western media especially. but also it relies on several other major essays about the themes in this show that i need to write up first to tie them all together with it. ashdjsjdjdh. Help

#SDMItag #ricky owens #i'll probably try writing it up for now and then see which things it does turn out i'll need to establish first #but the tl;dr is that ~protect what's yours like a man~ tropes are all about Defending Your Assets from Outside Forces with Violence(tm) #and ricky's 'protect what's yours' is about love as in loyalty as in setting down your stake Here #committing yourself to the wellbeing of whoever or whatever you've chosen; being a support for them to grow and be safe and be free #'yours' as in your family your community your work your activism the things you've built #instead of 'yours' meaning 'i have the right to destroy this and exploit it and throw it away as i please. it's there for me to take from' #it's 'i have a duty; and that duty is not synonymous with Violence; it can be feeding and healing the people you love' #'it can be putting your foot down and removing someone's access to a person or thing you've chosen when they're exploiting them/it' #'it can be *refusing* to do violence' #it's 'you chose me and you were supposed to love me and instead you treated me like a thing that exists for you to use and ruin' #'well i wasn't. i'm not. and i'm going to be what i needed you to be and you weren't' #'i refuse to hurt what's mine for my own gain because i can and i won't let you do it either' #it fucking kills me and it makes what pericles does to him and forces him to do in retaliation that much more fucking tragic #there's so much dude oh my god #kill me #professor pericles #dyn: when i die i want you to die too #abuse cw

[unproduciblesmackdown]

truly something that, amidst facing / going through a dramatic Life Change ft. unavoidable emotional effects of that, there are instances where i can't conceal any & all degrees of being distressed / upset, & repeatedly getting "it's hard for me too" as a Direct Response to that: really something & a half how the asserted theoretical Sympathy of [i feel similarly!] is invoked so as to, oh you know, preclude sympathetic Treatment. such as that what would be More sympathetic in these instances would be to say Nothing, "if there's nothing but dismissal / making it first & foremost about someone else's feelings to say, don't say it at all" style

#reading also that original Lovelessness essay ''love is meant to make me human / love is also the mechanism by which my humanity #has been denied'' always preferring to have [sorry! couldn't fully bottle up this Emotiona externally manifesting at all!] Ignored rather #than ''nicely'' interacted with so as to Invalidate; Dismiss; someone's annoyed at you for having it; etc #for bonus context like we are not in the same boat with it. #not a case of ''the same situation; mine is worse though'' like no; fundamentally different situations here lmao. mine is worse #If You Feel So Bad. Or At All. then at least now do me the favor of Not Saying That; Repeatedly #their feelings put on me too in other ways. stewing resentment into lashing out; tossing out ''but i'm justified'' like ok! Your business!! #the ol like. If You're Going To Do Something Anyways then how you justify it to yourself is Your business / b/w you & your god as they say #& the last thing to do is be making it the problem of ppl Most Affected by what you're gonna do anyways & Also ask their Absolution..... #like if you need more moral support abt What You're Doing Anyways: turn to Anyone Else. even No One if you have to. #bit going tf through it when it's spilling over into Posting but such is life!! we all have that [the horrors. girl help] blogger on dash #again the tl;dr like oh you don't say. the [umm but have you considered? My Feelings! (they're so sympathetic at all. yor welcome)] is #the mechanism through which Really basic sympathy is being denied & replaced with [Saying Nothing would've been less hurtful] #misgendering me the other night too while Also all 'hey I'm trying to talk to the customer service. why are You going up & talking first' #(that was me experiencing the latter. i didn't say it but i was like cmon. my glasses are fogging up w/surgical mask (don't have access to #more effective masks so doing what Nonzero i can there) i'm a bit carsick i'm weathering a crisis. can i have anything here lol) #just Oh You Know. The Horrors.... #balancing ofc trying to endure trying to self soothe etc etc. with ''it's the horrors. it's gonna be horrific & you're gonna be affected'' #ah the [being kind to oneself] like also means knowing how reasonable it is to Not solo contain & endure & Cope Through everything.... #crushing a paper cup in my hands genuinely i would like to generously thank my virtual allies out here today. mic feedback #irl In Real Life? life is Real asf here & nobody Realer than them

[haeigoo]

BIG DAY FOR ANNOYING PEOPLE

aka me

#haechan #betcha dance cover #that’s baekhyun’s son fr #god i love him so much #hope he gets to do his own thing #like have solo schedules #as he’s done so much for the brand itself #hyuck put yourself first #☹️☹️☹️

[forcedhesitation]

I love that steve is in dbd because I do not have to give a shit about stranger things itself to get new material of him. I can just explore what his adventures in the entity's realm might be.

#dbd #thoughts about media #funnily enough I was introduced to him THROUGH dbd. and I liked him in dbd first lmao. #and it was only after months of deliberating whether I should bother watching the show did I actually do so. #I suppose it was worth it because mr. keery is just. so beautiful. #but god with every season the show got worse and worse. #it's genuinely more interesting to me to explore his character in the context of dbd. #because like. take it seriously- and it's objectively SUCH a fascinating setting to put a character in. #they are hunted over and over again by serial killers and monsters from many different universes. #they die in so many different ways. and have to watch the people with them die. day in and day out. #ultimately- getting yourself killed to protect your friends doesn't actually have purpose anymore. #not when it could lead to your friend dying anyway. or in an even worse way than you did. #it really transforms the meaning of sacrifice. of death. #so having the steve nancy and jonathan dynamic in this setting is INFINITELY more interesting than whatever the fuck the show is doing rn. #and I have lucy too. my ghOCtface born of my “never harm steve” playstyle. #and THAT. is SO interesting to me. because steve would NEVER normally fall in love with a person like lucy. #but they aren't in a normal place. experiencing anything normal. they're trapped in an endless cycle of killing and dying. #and lucy. lucy WON'T hurt HIM. but they'd still kill anyone else. including nancy. #so steve would hate him. at first. but how do you keep hating someone for killing your friends- #-when you're trapped in a place where death and pain ultimately mean nothing. whereas an act of mercy means everything? #it would be SUCH a complicated dynamic and I deeply enjoy trying to unweave how steve could ever love lucy back.

[mossy-rot]

emotional magic truly is the magic system ever. struggling to keep your emotions under control, watching as it lashes out of you. being so despaired that you can't even make your magic do anything. letting your emotions quite literally eat away at you, consuming you whole until there's nothing left.

#something something magic as an allegory for mental illness #mossy's rambles #text post #luci's rambles #i have about a thousand more thoughts on my magic system but oooh. ooh boy #necromancy is a real treat in this system and absolutely delicious for writing angst #you're telling me that your trauma literally manifests and your mental walls you put up show up as actual physical creatures- #-trying to protect you and hurting the ones you love in the process as they try to pull you from the throws of your own agony? #how about necromancy manifesting in a non visual way. feeling it squirm around in your body on your worst days #feeling like your insides are rotting and decaying when you're anxious on top of feeling nauseous #feeling the touch of spirits grabbing at your ankles when you can barely pull yourself out of bed in the first place #god i love this magic system #i got so excited i forgot to tag anything else #writerblr #writing #writer #dnd #fantasy #magic system #necromancy #worldbuilding #magic #necromancer

[quintsmachete]

what in the goddamn

#sorry i don’t usually post dumb takes i see but this one left me speechless #if you knew that you could never die you would not appreciate the things in life the same way #‘i’ll never get tired of having only good times 🤪’ and how would you know you’re having good times if you’ve never had bad? #what frame of reference is there? how would you know the meaning of non-suffering if you don’t have suffering to compare it to? #light does not exist without dark and vice versa #infinite good times do not exist you would just be existing neutral. the addition of a ‘good’ signifier implies that you have something - #to compare it to #another scenario: let’s say you’ve suffered before and magically are only able to have ‘good times’ for the rest of ur life #you would go insane. #and is it only you in this scenario? because then you wouldn’t feel grief or sadness when your loved ones die #the hurting of others would not enrage you #you would lose everyone around you because you could sympathize with no one and then not feel anything when you lose them #i genuinely can’t wrap my head around the idea that thinking death gives life meaning is ‘cope’ #coping with what exactly. #the fact that everything dies at some point? #op kept arguing in the notes about how immortals would have a different perspective and frame of morals #which is just like. why are you arguing and trying to bring yourself to an immortal person’s state of mind when you know being immortal - #will literally never be achievable? this is not putting yourself in the shoes of the first person to walk on mars someday. this is - #putting yourself in the shoes of idk. a god or something #immortality will never happen why are you trying to reach the hypothetical immortality mindset #sounds like you’re the one coping with the fact that you’ll die someday #beep beep ritchie

[timeloopedd]

this is just miscellaneous now

#<- becaus my younger dave design is in there #hm yeah i think my thoughts had junerezi intentions for the first one #also i think chica and sun would be best friends #uhh headcanon time! #to me momiji is genderfluid and akito is a transwoman #i need to continue reading to actually understand and how to go about her and tohru’s relationship #it’s like! yeah fb is basically those stories where the main character helps the characters and tells them #‘hey. you’re doing fine. no need to put yourself down PLEASE don’t put yourself down. i wish you could see what i see in you thatswonderful #<- ran out of space #it’s cheesy but god i love it to death #maybe it’s also nostalgic factor because my friend showed this to me in middle school #but i think between tohru and akito it wasn’t that simple and straightforward #it never really was between all the other characters either but i feel like they were more easier to talk with #as far as i know (which isn’t a lot and also i might’ve skimmed some stuff from wikia (which is a horrible place to get facts) oops) #akito has a pretty toxic ideation based on her upbringing. and she is very stubborn #but that’s where i’ll stop for now with my headcanons because again i haven’t finished or gotten to the other major parts of the story yet #also i forgot to add bi tohru real to me #homestuck #batim #fruits basket #fnaf sb #dsaf

[hussyknee]

Listen I love Ellen and Oscar but

June Claremont-Diaz 🫱🏽‍🫲🏻 Princess Bea

↓↓

✨ Parentification Trauma ✨

#listen I know there's many reasons this happens even with loving parents #but it's incredibly psychologically damaging to have to fill a parent's shoes for a sibling even if you're legally an adult #because your brain doesnt give a shit how legal you are #it just knows you're prioritizing playing a parental role when you need to be focusing on yourself #my most intense parentification trauma years was between 17–22 #it broke my heart that June left her boyfriend to be with Alex because she knew she's the only one who would prioritise him #and Bea pumping the brakes on her mental health spiral because her baby brother didnt have a functional parent left #granted that may have saved her but having to claw yourself back to sanity bc you have to take care of someone else is seriously non-ideal #and yeah I know that their brothers were worth it and they dont regret it #but they have so much reason to be burnt out and hold their mothers to account good god #women arent caretakers and protectors because we're just built naturally kind. it's because we get left to do the nurturing and caretaking #until it becomes second nature #for my part being a big sister is fundamental part of me and caretaking and protecting and nurturing is who I am now #but the inability to ever put myself first and take space when someone needs me #the inability to turn off the kindness tap even when it's running blood #the instinct to fix things and take responsibility for everyone #it's all incredibly damaging in the long run #''southern goodness'' baby that's the gender conditioning ideal #do you know how much repressed pain it takes to be that kind and gentle #firstprince #june claremont diaz #bea fox mountchristen windsor #parentification #child neglect #emotional neglect #feminism #gender conditioning #knee of huss #rwrb #red white & royal blue

[thatcrazycrowgirl]

Ok, so I kind of just had my mind blown again at the attention to detail in Syndicate.

As I was listening to one of the paperboys call out the headlines, I caught one I never heard before, where apparently John the Tosser announced that he was starting an “asylum for the poor”, was going to make things up with his father, and “sited a mysterious lady as his inspiration”.

Guys.

The devs actually thought up and wrote in a follow-up to the scene where Mrs. Disraeli is talking with John about his father.

What. The. Hecking. Heck.

#gods I fecking love this game #yeah; it's kind of stripped down in terms of gameplay but really shines in the worldbuilding #it's such a small detail that most people probably never even encountered #but the fact that the devs even put it in there in the first place is awesome #seriously; you want to totally immerse yourself in the world; take the time to listen to the newspaper kids #there's so much info and detail there #and it's actually really sweet that what Mrs. Disraeli said actually had a positive impact on the man #Assassin's Creed Syndicate

[minamotosousuke]

We’re getting to the point where Kou has to choose between everybody being happy OR his own happiness and I hope he chooses himself.

#or at least first #best case is him becoming a supernatural and getting to do everything he wants and everybody winning #but for the love of god kou please put yourself first

[shizuncomplex]

oh man i just had to draw these two ;—;

#my art #jasprosedavesprite #jesus christ that is. quite a ship name LMFAO #dersecest #art #ds #i...am not gonna tag j/sprose even tho it would be for my tag organization system cuz my tag for her would put this in the main tags #god drawing her was so fun though #do you ever think about how both of them lost the ones they loved and. now they're here and the ones they lost are alive but #those people have Another Them so you just yearn for the bond that made you sacrifice yourself in the first place #but it'll never be the same because they don't see you the same #i just think the two of them could find a lot of comfort in each other #i think jsprose being a sprite^2 would also probably put her a lot more in touch with her memories of ds's doomed timeline #i am ignoring jsprose's immediate canonical reaction to ds fusing with nep. i do not see it