#literally my latest posts are just that

[mimmixerenard]

Baby face von Schneider

Joke aside, I'm fond of this guy, his dnt design is so soft, somehow

#fanart #logh #logh:dnt #logh dnt #die neue these #legend of the galactic heroes #bernard von schneider #logh schneider #logh fanart #idk why I keep making logh portraits on my phone these days #literally my latest posts are just that #bernhard von schneider

[andthebeanstalk]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need. #the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist. #the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28! #a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents. #they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong. #and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives. #you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead? #or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of. #no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow. #i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong. #just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop

[cuteniarose]

Personally I find it really funny that based on what the twins said in the Book 2 finale re: having to tell their mom about what happened to Unalaq, it's literally canon that Unalaq's wife a) exists, b) is alive, and c) is just chilling in the Northern Water Tribe

She took one look at all the spirit fuckery her husband was getting up to and went "Well that's none of my business" and honestly I respect that

#oh and when I say spirit fuckery I mean it in both the literal and metaphorical sense. blame kat's latest raava and vaatu fic #yeah I'm just gonna start posting random LoK opinions on here now. this blog's been dead long enough #not really an incorrect quotes girly anymore sorry #not even a girl anymore. but you know #most of my red lotus and oc posting will remain on my personal blog though bc no one wants to see that #anyway. yes. Unalaq's wife. when I say the avatar franchise has a mom problem this is exactly what I mean #80% of characters don't have a mom. the moms that are alive either have little to no screen time or mentions #or they're basically Schroedinger's mom in the sense that they exist but not really #the exceptions being like. pema and suyin. and maybe senna though she also has very little screentime #my point is. the twins are younger than korra. I know avatarverse has a precedent for putting kids on the throne. looking at you zuko #but really we should have gotten unalaq's wife as chief of the nwt #introduced her in book 3 during the lead up to p'li's prison break #but that's just my objectively correct opinion #northern water tribe chief raspberry when #(according to avatar wiki her name is malina so I've been calling her raspberry in my head ever since I found out #malina means raspberry in russian that's why. probably in a bunch of other slavic languages too idk I'm not an expert #and she shares a name with katara and sokka's weird white stepmom from the comics which no sane person considers canon. so that's fun) #the legend of korra #unalaq

[non-un-topo]

I love you wired headphones I love you non-touch screens I love you thick laptops I love you devices with buttons I love you phones with non-glass edges I love you usb ports I love you dvd and blu-ray players I love you discs I love you cars that don’t have screens I love you menus you don’t need wifi to read I love you mp3 files

#so guess who will probably have to buy a new laptop for school and is not happy about it lol #this was going to be an 'i hate you etc' post but i want to love... ;_; still all of these statements are so snarky hfdhhgfg #i'm tired of it!!! tired!!! i might be the last person on earth who does not have data! i've never once had data on my phone! #stop asking me to scan a qr code or whatever! i literally cannot! #also i love love love you youtube to mp3. been my bestie since 2011 #hate the demand for students to have all the latest and best in technology at all times. and the demand to be available 24/7. #i need a good device so i can attend my zoom class AT school after an in-person class. amongst youngins who never use headphones. #what.... is the point babe. all of us are already at the school in-person. every uni has handled the pandemic so poorly #it's just confusion and lack of info all the time. meanwhile the students have to be fully prepared for anything and spend bank on tech #give me some $$ then school i worked my butt off for the grades pls i know you can do itttt #also ads if you target me i'm sniping you

[rosepompadour]

Their pink-papered bedrooms were furnished with thick carpets and ivory-painted furniture. As the sisters grew up, icons, paintings and photographs went up along the walls, and frilly dressing tables were installed. Fashion magazines that Tatiana ordered from all over Russia and from abroad covered night tables. The princesses took warm baths at night with perfumed bath water from Coty, and they scattered jewelry cases, manicure sets, and combs and brushes on their vanities. The blankets on their beds were adorned with their initials, and their wardrobes were filled with matching pink velvet kokoshniki encrusted with bows. It was all so much typical, girlish ephemera, but to the public, the four Romanov sisters remained as beautiful and inaccessible as storybook princesses.

#historyedit #historicwomendaily #romanovedit #otmaedit #otma #the romanovs #history #* #i just finished the latest season of the crown (late to the party!) and they did NOT have to go that hard with the execution scene #it made me feel so ill #my mom was like 'oh they won't show it besides it's too soon!' #and i'm swinging my post-work glass of wine all 'they're literally going into the basement right now! AS WE SPEAK!' #mom: 'is the basement bad?!' #me: 'the basement is TERRIBLE!' #i heard the gunfire start and i just tossed back my wine like 🍷

[kyurochurro]

I DONT USUALLY POST OCs HERE, BUT HEY LOOK I MADE A NEW SONA!!! :D their names gonna be Churpo! she’s an alien cat thing, living in the 25th century in a far off planet as a designer! Of course heavily inspired by 60s fashion trends but mostly a silly brand of retro futurism :3 I’ve been needing an updated one hehehe

#churro art #my art #doodles #my oc tag #oc art #original character #AHHH I NEEDED A MORE CASUAL SONA AND SHE CAME ALONG JUST PERFECTLY AHAHAHAA #don’t get me wrong I LOVEE my regular SONA Chark the shark girly #but she’s more of an avatar than she is a literal representation of me #so I though hey why not remedy that! and make a new one! since my latest obsession is Star Trek #and I’ve been obsessed with big hairdos and the funny little alien cat images for a while VGSHSVHXSHHSX #so it just kinda came along really well :D #I feel like when my pfp here is a persona and not my avatar I can post more relaxed like I usually like to do #as opposed to Twitter where I think I never got into the groove of posting whenever there #BUT ANYWAYS YESH I LOVE HOW THEY ENDED UP HAHA #Most of all the color palette and the outfit!! it came out so fashionable-secretary like I LOVE IT

[prismatic-ink]

So... Empires S2 is done. Fwhip just posted a finale video.

I can't be the only one who's... disappointed, right? I mean, he's one of the first people to post a finale video so we don't know if the other members wrapped up their stories in their finales well, but wow. The crown storyline was a rehash of Season 1 and nothing came out of it? Half the people didn't even get to be king!

The world is literally set in the same world as Empires S1 and we got so little of that easy slam dunk lore-wise besides some throwaways here and there.

There was no overarching story at all like last season, which is a shame because I feel like conceptually the characters are better this season.

I don't know, I felt like it was gearing up to this massive finale and instead, it just petered out. I do get the vibe that the members had gotten a bit tired of the server but I didn't expect this.

Well, overall the season was super fun fandom-wise, and I loved the dynamics and of course the crossover <3333

#empires #empires s2 #empires smp #fwhip #i loved the season btw dont get me wrong i just think that the end was so abrupt #i knew it was coming when Joel basically speedran his megabuild but I didn't expect the beginning of the end to literally be the day after #and theres no way Pix finishes his castle right? He said the season is ending mid may at the latest #I would actually be shocked if he finishes the madman #my post

[izzy-b-hands]

can we just like. leave each other alone at this point

#text post #if you like Izzy fine if you don't also fine just fucking. leave each other the fuck alone im so tired #use your block button liberally and stop messaging ppl with nasty shit #including the folks in my inbox who no longer care abt anon being on or not #i wanna think y'all are better ppl outside of this realm but telling me you hope i die homeless bc i like izzy is ridiculous #the messages are getting deleted and ignored as usual #this is the only post im gonna make addressing the latest round of incessant harassment in my inbox #some of my mutuals follow these folks so again. i wanna think they're just having a bad time overall and taking it out on me #which i would prefer folks not do but if even turning anon off isn't gonna stop you then go off i guess?? #but your time would be better spent doing literally anything else #make art for the characters on the show you DO like!! talk abt them and spread joy abt them!!! #you'll probably be happier for it and so will i bc i won't have to constantly clean out my fucking inbox on here

[that-was-anticlimactic]

like a ghost that won't wash off your skin

Now, though, there was no one left to heal.

Other than the few people left guarding Tengen, Shoko was alone on the grounds.

But Shoko wasn’t alone, not really. She had Kugisaki’s comatose body, the severed limbs that once were Inumaki’s left arm and Todo’s left hand.

Besides, she was never actually alone, not when she was constantly haunted by the ghosts of every body that’s laid on her table.

[or, shoko was one of the only ones who came back from shibuya, and she hates it]

✧3,091 words | shoko-centric✧

dedicated to @urostakako & @wlwjujutsu <3

#corey writes:) #there were no good emojis lol #hi guys this is dedicated to y'all because you guys prev tagged me on that post where i mentioned this fic and that actually inspired me to #finish it lol no joke this has been a wip for over a year and i got SO stuck on it that i gave up and thought i'd never finish it but #then shoko in the latest chapter and y'all's tags preving me... even if they weren't about the fic idea i mentioned they were what inspired #me to keep writing it and actually like... gave me ideas so thank you SO much because i truly loved this fic and the idea and like. #come back is SUCH A SHOKO SONG I WANT TO BASH MY HEAD AGAINST A WALL ahem anyways no truly thank you guys <3 #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk fanfic #shoko ieiri #ieiri shoko #jjk shoko #this fic is literally just shoko and nobara's body and memories i kid you not #also shoko and yaga deserve more love there are barely ANY common shoko tags and only ONE common yaga tag:/ #you know what? #yaga masamichi #he's mentioned enough lol #jjk spoilers #idk what else to tag this as lol i'm procrastinating haha #sorry guys this fic is a Mess and also. not the happiest thing ever lol #oh also wlwjujutsu if you have an ao3 i can gift it to you there as well! i know ari has one but i wasn't sure about you haha

[kyouka-supremacy]

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#I was to answer the latest Beast Anon gem today and??? Tumblr deleted the ask??????????????????? #I'm going to scream. I'm going to yell and shout and cry #I *am* waiting to panic because sometimes the Tumblr inbox is just like that and sometimes asks disappear to come back a day later but. #My God I am panicking #I just hope Beast Anon hasn't deleted I was literally going to ask them to merry me. The ask reply I had written literally opened with #“Beast Anon far from wanting to being too straightforward but. Will you marry me” #Beast Anon if you're out there. Don't leave me you're my greatest source of joy #If the ask isn't back in 24h I'm filling out a support request #Sorry I don't usually make this many rambles posts but I have class in two minutes and I know I can't focus because I'm too upset over this #Literally praying. I'm sorry for taking this long to answer but it's literaly because I've reread that ask sixty times #Beast Anon come back to me #There's literally a word document on my desktop named after you #Besides I *had* already written down most of the answer what to do now... I feel bad you deserve to be answered #I'm praying every god to have that ask back #random rambles

[stardestroyer81]

Pizza Tower has single-handedly made rats one of my all-time favorite animals and I am hereby coronating myself as the number one Bad Rat fan.

The 𝓡𝓪𝓽 𝓠𝓾𝓮𝓮𝓷, if you will.

#Star's Art #Fursona #Sheep Fursona #Pizza Tower #Bad Rat #Sprite Art #Coolness #Behold... s m u g s h e e b #For a short while I had the phrase 'number one Bad Rat fan' as my status on Discord #And just recently I had the urge to take that and make a small drawing based around it! #I thought it would be a cute idea to draw my fursona wearing an oversized shirt that read the such #Though I had a VERY specific way I wanted to portray myself... #... as a smol and smug chibi sheeb #Suffice to say I think I nailed it XD #I have a version of the art where my shirt is blank so if you want the template I'll send it to you! #That aside... I'm absolutely obsessed with the rats of Pizza Tower #Literally every time I see a Bad Rat or get to play as Gustavo and Brick I always get so excited and happy!! #I'm very much tempted to make a post showcasing the different varieties of rats you can encounter in the tower... #... though for now I find that this art properly shows my love for them! #Also this is technically the first look y'all get at the latest iteration of my fursona! #If you want to see it in its entirety... keep an eye out on my City Nights in Lorenzo sideblog 👀💙

[marsbotz]

goodnighttttt ^_^

#just remembered when i was on twitter and ended up making literally daily goodnight tweets. i was insane #im gonna try not to do that agin. my last goodnight. #but look at this horse its silly #jesus christ i was soooo ill on twitter. not even an effect of twitter itself just long term social media exposure does that to me #i get like addicted to ppl liking my posts. like bot even in a numbers way just i like ppl acknowledging me #if we go back further like 2017 iwas super fucked abt that LOL like literally every other dya like ‘does anyone like me 🥺’ LOLLL #i was likeee 15. man #i mean im still like that now if anything im getting worse w it again but immmm trying to not follow thru w stuff #lol watever ! [shruggles] #wait srry thats referencing arlly specific image. im not just being weird. lol #i thinkkk tmrw. tmrw. i want to be out of bed by 8-9 LATEST. and i need to do uni notes #but id also like to DRAW. and mayeb ill play some more hl #maybe a bit ambitious but oh well #ok anyway gn actually now

[mbat]

"this house is so full of ghost activity!!"

the house:

#my post #im still on my skeptic shit #ill never stop being on it #these people really go into houses and buildings that are at least 100 years old and go 'wow! theres so many noises!' #or 'the temperature just dropped holy shit' #or 'woah why is this thing swaying lightly on its own!/this item shifted!' #as if old buildings arent made the way they were back then and also as if they werent heavily used by the time this happens lol #'listen to this recording! it sounds like [word or phrase!]' the recording in question: [see image] #sometimes i can KINDA hear what they hear but if i dont see what word they think it was. it literally sounds like a shuffle or wind or like #someone maybe just breathing slightly too loud LOL #i will say that the latest ghost investigation video i watched did have one of these that did sound like a person talking more than like #almost every other example ive ever heard. but get this: i still think it was fake #because tbh. i still think they faked a few things in that video to make it more interesting. and it was just a whisper so #so it didnt sound like a particular voice. it just sounded like anyone whispering #and couldve been said by one of them or edited in later #cause iirc they didnt react to it in the moment. only in editing #sooo anywayyy

[egg-emperor]

I keep seeing stuff that reminds me that I need to finish that compilation of Frontiers Eggman that shows his ass is still as evil as ever and not redeemed/morally gray at any point throughout the story

ya know the one where I said it's hard to cut down because it's actually just super obvious and present throughout the entire game lol. it won't take that long I'm just picky about how I wanna cut it down

#I just don't really understand where that's coming from like #seeing Eggman as fatherly to Sonic in the games when as latest as Frontiers he was #literally laughing at him watching him die to cyber corruption lol #again do whatever you want in fanon but what is happening why are people acting like the Boom Sonic and Eggman dynamic is game canon #anyway my vid is just gonna be a quick and easy way to highlight what's really going on in the game #my post #dr eggman #eggman #dr robotnik #dr. eggman #sonic frontiers

[match-your-steps]

Ok I always thought the "I am ---" trilogy and the Clé trilogy were two separate things but I've also always been confused by "I am YOU," the featured track from the final "I am ---" album. Like, it's sweet and all, and it makes a little sense (the line "I see myself in you" really clears things up for that one tbh), but it's never really felt like a resolution.

If I think about it, though, the Clé trilogy seems to be another identity-finding journey that centers on separating your identity from others. I don't mean, like, uniqueness, but rather not relying on others for your sense of identity. If I'm right, then Clé is actually a continuation of the "I am ---" albums.

However, the I am WHO album kind of doesn't fit very well here, because the main featured track is "My Pace," which is about not paying attention to like. peer pressure and stuff and doing the things you want to how you want to do them instead without comparing yourself to others. That kind of feels like it fits better with the whole separating self from others thing Clé has going on.

I vaguely remember hearing that the other song they were considering making the main track for I am WHO was "Awkward Silence," which, don't get me wrong, I LOVE that song, but it does not fit the vibe of the album so I'm kind of glad they did not do that, but it's also about not feeling pressured in social situations.

I guess you could say "My Pace" and "Awkward Silence" fit the progression of the "I am ---" albums, in a way, because they're starting to realize who they are, but I feel like they're too far ahead for having a whole 'nother album left. To be honest, I've always thought "Question" fits the vibes the best.

Anyways, I have a sort of theory for how the progression goes and ties together between these 6 albums:

I am NOT - hold on a minute who do I really want to be? what do I want in life? are the things I want really the things people tell me I should/do?

Representative songs: "NOT!" "Awaken"

I am WHO - if I'm not who everyone says I am, then who am I? (starts discovering self a bit)

Representative songs: "WHO?" "Question"

I am YOU - forming a good relationship (of any kind; could be significant other, friend, parent, whatever), or perhaps returning to one. it could be like a new relationship they're very happy with or it could be reaching an understanding with the people they rejected in I am NOT. part of their identity comes from this relationship. a large part of their identity, actually, probably, because like. it's. I am you. uh yeah

Representative songs: "YOU." "I am YOU" "Hero's Soup"

Clé 1: MIROH - whoah guys I'm pretty rad amirite

Representative songs: "MIROH" "Victory Song" "Boxer"

Clé 2: Yellow Wood - wait actually something is wrong? life is not as easy as I thought (kind of like that)

Representative songs: "Side Effects" "TMT" (not gonna count any of the mixtapes bc they're really more like singles that just happened to be released in this album)

Clé: LEVANTER - I defined myself too much by my relationship with this person (maybe the person from I am YOU) and lost sight of what I wanted for myself, so when they left me (possibly in Clé 2) I no longer knew what I to do. However, I now realize this and can take hold of my desires for myself.

Representative songs: "STOP" "Levanter" (most of the other songs carry similar 'I'm gonna do what I want now' sentiments, however, they do not include the same ideas about breaking free as "Levanter" and "STOP," while it also does not in words, the fact that it is pretty close to being the same song as "Road Not Taken" from Clé 2 but with mostly different lyrics indicates a connection to the unsureness of that album with a sense of moving on from it)

From the resolution of the Clé albums, most of their albums follow a trend of confidence, like that in Clé: MIROH except they haven't gone back to an uncertain theme afterward. Not every song is so confident, but there were confident songs in the beginning, so why shouldn't it be the other way around?. Case in point: "Grow Up," from I am NOT didn't start with confidence, but it ended with it, and there's also "YAYAYA" from the album from even before their debut. In TOP, which, yes, is now like 3 years old or something (I'm really behind on their newer albums so idk what most of the songs are but I am literally actively working on it right at this moment) and was for an anime, there's "SLUMP," which was written/composed/arranged by Han and Chan so it definitely fully counts, and it's fully super not confident. Nevertheless, the fact that I knew all the songs up through, like, THUNDEROUS, and still had a really hard time thinking of less confident stuff means there's definitely a trend of confidence since the resolution of the clé albums.

#excuse me if my vocab is totally wrong i only have thoughts and no experience with proper expression #i have so many thoughts #btw they have a bunch of sad songs i could think of in later albums #but SAD is not UNCONFIDENT #it's SAD #there's a difference #anyways #i would love to hear thoughts if anyone else has them #also i want to say i have listened to songs from all the albums up through skz-replay #just not all of the full albums #so that is what i am working on #and yes i know perfectly well this means i have not heard any of the latest two albums or like. what 5 EPs?? #I'm literally working on it you guys #skz #stray kids #music #kpop #theorizing #thoughts #text post #long post #btw yes i have further thoughts about this #i love doing large-scale literary analysis on music #update: DON'T WORRY YOU GUYS I CAUGHT UP #I've listened to it all now

[my5hiningstars]

posting my lockscreen + last song i listened to + last pic i saved + last pic i took, thank u for the tag @leejinklies 😘

@seokjinsel @floralminho @jjongosaurus @hellofromthesmallmouse any of y'all want to or anyone else uwu

#technically not my latest photo i took but it's the latest photo that won't dox me so #also that's totally fine to tag me there soph i honestly don't even know anymorekdjdj #tag games #i recently changed my lockscreen so i'm loving the excuse to post itjdjdj #literally no pressure to post this tho friends i just am saying hi mostly ^^