#like. i just think they'd be neat is all

[trentcrimminallybeautiful]

nate and trent during s3/post-canon has got to be like. a hilarious dynamic. not to mention nate returning to richmond and like. trent crimm is also here. they're like yeah he's our emotional support biographer now. yeah he's been around all season. we like him now. they make the world's most awkward eye contact before both immediately fleeing in opposite directions.

#actually i think they would get along i would like to see it #but also how do you reconcile you both did something you super regret to hurt someone you both care about a lot? and like #how exactly that happened? how trent quit about it and also BURNED NATE AS A SOURCE? how nate was the one who made the situation? #etc etc etc. but like also i dont think. like. #i get fanon of trent being all protective or whatever but i like to think he's taken enough cues from ted that he's also just like. #i get it. hurt people hurt people. and nates like what you dont hate me? you LSOT YOUR JOB but like #no. trent doesnt hate him. how could he #also this is made ten thousand times funnier in a tedependent fix it fic because nate comes back full of regret and crying and like #trent crimm--who WROTE AND PUBLISHED THE ARTICLE HE FEELS SO BAD ABOUT--is just. Also There. #vibing. everyone likes him now. how the hell-- #and then when nates like [trying and failing to be casual] hey so um. why is. why is trent crimm here? #he gets the following answers: #a) he's writing a book about us! b) he's writing a book about ted! c) we think he and ted might be kissing. unclear #nate comes back to richmond and teds like oh trent? yeah hes my bf <333 and nates like hes your WHAT #also see: nate is a really sweet dorky and kinda anxious person and now hes kinda back there at this point except #hopefully with more self confidence and ability to stand up for himself #versus trent who always seemed so confident and cool. now letting himself be a sweet dork at the cost of being less confident/firm #like. i just think they'd be neat is all #let them bond over being dorks actually

[uncanny-tranny]

I just have to say that it's so weird reading how transphobes think of trans bodies as mutilated and gross when they never would have thought my body pre-transition was worthy. The "argument" of mutilated beauty that transphobes have tossed around is just a fear mongering tactic, because they don't tend to actually love or appreciate and see value in bodies that don't "neatly" fit into male and female, with no overlap and no nuances.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #i saw so many transphobes agonizing about a trans guy who developed acne from transition... #...they were agonizing about how he ruined his skin and beauty and how *they* didn't find him attractive anymore (how sad /s) #i read that and i realized... pre-transition i had a ton of acne (it's not gotten worse at all so far) #pre-transition i had very broad shoulders (to the point i was made fun of for how i'd act because of my broadness) #pre-transition i inherented most of the traits of the males in my family... #...and if i didn't transition - if i were cis? those same transphobes would think of me just as poorly and they'd hate my body and my soul #because it isn't about 'saving people'. it's about control. it's about manipulating the human experience into two neat boxes #and that excludes people like me. it excludes intersexness and natural variation in human bodies. #transphobia #transphobia tw #like this is shit i knew ever since i first interacted with a transphobe but it to this day blows me away

[mechieonu]

no bc it's soooooo so so funny how the movie first empathizes that kai & oogway were brothers in arms only to slap the "no homo" bandaid the second the narrative focused on just how good friends they were

#kai: i loved him #some DW executive: LIKE BROTHERS #i'm sorry its just SOMEONE took a look at how bitter-ex kai reads #that all the other masters are alung around his belt but oogway is kept to his heart; that he constantly talks to and taunts the charm like #he's actually there‚ that his MAIN MOTIVATION is 'he broke my heart‚ so i'm breaking his stuff' #& THEIR BANTER. #& realized they made their relationship a little tooooo homoromantic for their liking #i loved it‚ honestly‚ and i think it's precisely that heartache and spite that made kai such a neat villain #i wish they'd harped on it more #kfp #kfp 3 #kaiway

[icewindandboringhorror]

misc photo diary stuff.. also this unintentionally all matches sort of lol.. warm toned photos?

#image commentary in tags once again since they don't allow captions anymore and I feel weird using the alt text for that -- #1 & 2. A very pale dusty warm sort of sky. Love the tone of it. All shades of gray skies are amazing. #3. Some flowers outside of a building I walked by. I like the chunky petals and interesting muted color #4. bapy son enjoying the sunlight #5. Picture of a moon and I think two stars or maybe planets or something near it? :0 #6. little lines drawn onto the carpet with sunlight from the window blinds #7. The moon illuminating the clouds to an unuusally bright degree. Very inchresting.. It isn't even captured well in photos but in real lif #it kind of looked like everything in the sky was glowing #8. They had heart shaped strawberry biscuits at popeyes this February (I think for valentines day month?) #9. All of the various rocks I've picked up on the ground outside over the past few months. Now that I have a rock tumbler I'm always on the #lookout for interesting ones. Though I'm not sure what all of them are or how well they'd actually polish. I know there are rules about tha #and stuff lol. I do think it's neat how when they're all next to each other there's so many different patterns #and colors and stuff even though they were all taken from basically the same small span of just sidewalks and places along the city #I never travel to different states or anything or even go hours away within my own state. #photo diary

[todayisafridaynight]

I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me ���‍♂️ #@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ... #there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams// #recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 .... #and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)' #and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway. #tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀 #one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny. #and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

[misclogarts]

Day 3: Pajamas / Sleeping together / How they show affection (in tags)

again, bonus doodles under cut

#itlog's arts #d4dj #d4dj groovy mix #impostor miiko #miiko takeshita #komiiko #wespion ship prompt challenge #between all of the prompt fills so far thisnis my least favorite... oh well the prompt is cute but i dont like the colors i used here #they feel flat to me. anyways #komii is kind of the clingier one between the two and its basically like miiko's shadow most of the time #wherever miiko is they are too:) they dont like being away from her for too long #either way on the off chance that they wander off somewhere on their own (highly unlikely) miiko would look for them since she'd find- #-it being gone a little strange. having a buddy that shares your likes must be fun.. she'd probably drag them around to all of her favorite #places hahaha. anything she thinks is neat or something theyd like she shows them:) she likes taking them to places- #-just to see what they'd like #komii likes contact (hugging; holding hands; etc) so often they'll just like. cling onto miiko. it'd do that to its other friends too

[octoagentmiles]

i love ur octonauts safe foods post but that also brings the question: what are the octo-agents safe foods?

wonderful question my anonymous friend- apologies for the delay, please enjoy post 🤲:

Paani’s patties have nuts, seeds, and bugs in them, which all have kind of similar tastes—hear me out—they all taste nutty (yes, bugs have a nutty flavour, if you didn’t know), and possibly a little roasty or smokey depending on how they’re prepared. Paani’s safe foods probably consist of a lot of other grains, nuts, or butters (peanut butter, sunflower butter, almond/cashew butter, etc). He probably unironically enjoys pistachio ice cream. Can’t go wrong with a giant jug of straight up rainwater, either.

Tracker grew up the same way Barnacles did: In the Arctic with very little variety. So, their tastes are probably the same, or very similar. He enjoys simple flavours, and dishes with non-complicated seasoning. I also imagine he’s an extremely picky eater, despite being taught in the Polar Scouts to be prepared to “eat what you have to” in an emergency. He might like a couple obscure or odd things here and there, but other than that his palate is pretty limited. He likes knowing what to expect when he eats something (and in general), so he basically just eats the same foods over and over. He’s an EXPERT at cooking these foods.

Googled native Russian and Siberian cuisines for Natquik, and I’m seeing a lot of dough, pastry, soup, and salt (and a lot of other things, but they’re mostly meat and I’m going to pretend he’s vegetarian and so is everyone else, with the exceptions of Mr. Paani “The Bug Eater”, and Ms. Pearl “Eats Living Urchins Whole”). He loves savoury foods, as well as “earthy” flavours (below-ground vegetables, such as beets, potatoes, carrots (he might bond with Tweak over that one), or mushrooms) but can NOT tolerate spiciness at all; he’s worse than Barnacles in this regard. If he eats something too hot he will spit it out instantly, and be very dramatic about it. He also enjoys a cup of tea now and then, and he’s not picky about what kind; if it’s warm and got leaves in it, he’ll drink it.

I like to think that Calico Jack and Kwazii are alike in more ways than one thousand—and they probably have IDENTICAL tastes/safe foods. So, Jack loves sweets and sugars, but hates bitters. He hates citrus too (because he’s a cat), but has learned to tolerate it in all his years as a pirate. He chugs lemon juice like it’s milk, and he just ate a whole ghost pepper. You won’t catch him anywhere near a tangerine, though. (Disclaimer: Citrus is actually poisonous to cats in real life, which is why they hate it so much. This cat however, is fictional, and just thinks they’re icky.) CJ also canonically loves to cook and bake his own food, based on how many recipes he invented and passed down to Kwazii; such as pirate pie (real pie, see GBR for ingredients), pirate stew (main ingredient = kelp), and “pirate pie” (kelp and lima beans on toast), to name a few.

Ranger Marsh LOVES the Octonauts’ hot cocoa specifically, I don’t know if it’s the way the Vegimals make it, or what, but I’m taking this to mean the man is fan of chocolate. Dark chocolate. Meaning, he probably enjoys bitter things. Do not let him cook for Kwazii or Jack. I bet most of what he eats is foraged directly out of the Everglades’ thicket, so that would likely include weird and bitter berries, plants, and wild vegetables. I also headcanon that he taught Tweak how to make her famous chili, she just perfected it. Chili can taste like pretty much anything depending on how you season it, so you can bet he likes his extra bitter as well.

Okay now Pearl is probably the opposite of Shellington. I said that Shellington would enjoy intense or odd flavours (like extra hot sauce on cake), but dislike salty-anything because it reminds him of red urchin. He learned to like strange foods, as a result of being allergic to his species’ main source of nourishment (shellfish). Since Pearl didn’t have this problem, she didn’t need to branch out her plate; and thus would love salty things because it’s what she’s used to. She might dislike overly sour or sweet things, or generally “unnatural” or artificial foods. She’s probably not much of a chef, considering most of what she eats is stuff she literally picks off the seafloor.

Apparently a red panda’s diet is 95% bamboo, soooooooooooooooo... I guess that answers Min. She probably eats a ton of those bamboo biscuits, and that might literally be all. Bamboo tastes earthy, nutty, and slightly sweet, so if she were to expand her menu, she’d probably eat foods with similar tastes, or anything that has a good crunch to it. Y’know what? I bet she’d love a Paani Patty.

Ryla literally ate bat droppings covered in moss. Granted, the “droppings” were berries, but still. I don’t think she’s very picky. She doesn’t have any “safe foods”, because she’s a hardcore survivalist—she’ll eat ANYTHING (unless it’s poisonous then she’ll only eat it once). Wombats are strict herbivores, so she probably enjoys a good salad when she's not fighting for her life in a cave.

I think Koshi and Pinto are both stereotypical kids, who'll gladly inhale anything with sugar in it. Pinto specifically might have similar tastes to Peso, in which he'll also just eat... literally anything. Especially if it's weird looking. Koshi is a bit more sensitive to strong smells, so she'll only eat what she likes the smell of. She doesn't seem like someone who likes trying new foods, either. She likes sweet, or bland simple tastes.

#gonna try to get some old asks answered bc i'm feeling suddenly motivated #✨✨ #octonauts #ask #long post #food cw #octonauts above and beyond #octonauts headcanons #i wonder if they're ever going to address paani's bug consumption #like the other octonauts are clearly bothered by it but they're still nice to him about it #i just think it'd be neat if someone finally said something like ''bro my friend is in ur cookie'' hdSDJK ok not like that but ykwim?? lmao #i don't think he's out here hunting bugs (probably) but he IS making these patties himself. so he is at least finding these poor bugs #and picking them up. and throwing them in cookie batter. like???? my guy- #anyway. shout out to natquik for having the exact opposite taste buds as me sdfgh #in his defense he probly lived on rations for 30 years. let the man enjoy his bread and veggies <3 #for ranger marsh i ran to the alligator-shark ep to hear what he said was in the marshmallows. but all he said was: #''they've got everything gators like t' eat.'' #and uh. now i have questions. but idk if i want the answers- #pearl would lick a salt lamp and not regret it #imagine dashi taking pinto for a day‚ and peso taking koshi- they'd literally not know what to feed them fjdfhdk #ask to tag

[hella1975]

Oh Hella your DM sounds like a good one! Hope you have fun and that coin is amazing should we add practice the coin trick to your schedule? /gen

ACTUALLY YEAH PLEASE

#my dm is such an angel i was a bit worried at first bc he's the one that was flirting with me #but he's cooled off and even so i can tell it's more the harmless kind than anything i'll actually have to set boundaries on #and we had our first session last night and it was genuinely insane like he's SUCH a good dm #i was so so immersed the entire time like he had this one NPC and he puts so much LIFE into his ocs like accents and mannerisms #not just backstory/set-up and this npc stayed with us the ENTIRE 4+ hour session #and at the very end he KILLED HIM and it was done so well that one of the players literally teared up #and the rest of us were just sat there in gobsmacked silence #and it's a SUPER wild group too like it's hard for the dm to wrangle them all at times bc jokes tend to domino and get rowdy #so to have us all like that and on the first session no less was INSANE #he also introduced a dragon and i said to him afterwards 'im getting that dragon' bc i mentioned another time that im DESPERATE #to get a pet dragon or even just a dragon i have some dodgy deal with ill take ANYTHING #and he just very casually went 'oh you'll get a dragon' HELLO??? FUCK YEAH #like he listens to his players and he keeps us on track without being too strict and gets super enthusiastic about our ideas #and the rest of the group are all so cool like they're all either queer or neurodivergent or both #i just feel for the first time in maybe my entire life that im in a completely non-judgemental place for my interests #like in the nicest way possible they're all just a bit weird and it would be very hard for me to be the weirdest one there #and there's something SO cathartic about that like literally go ham bc they're not gonna be scared off yk? #like even if i had an interest totally out of left field that none of them shared i just know they'd be so welcoming of it regardless #idk. they're neat. i think this campaign is gonna be really fucking cool #ask #hella goes to uni

[many-gay-magpies]

come to think of it, tales of arcadia and bbc merlin would make a disturbingly fitting crossover.

#tales of arcadia #bbc merlin #toa #i mean. think about it. au where the merlin douxie and the gang finds in wizards is bbcm merlin who decided to fuck off and take like a #century-long nap or smth (and also looks old because being dragoon was good for intimidating people) and instead of being kind an asshole #he's just this. grumpy cantankerous old man that hits people over the head a lot #and when everyone goes back in time they ACTUALLY go back to the time when UTHER was still reigning and instead of the running gag being #douxie running around watching his younger self be a dumbass douxie isnt even there and they get to watch merlin be an incredibly powerful #twink instead. douxie is like YOU DIDNT TELL ME YOU AND KING ARTHUR WERE A THING and merlin temporarily turns him into a toad. #this leaves open the possibility for brilliant scenarios such as douxie (who in this au would have been merlin's apprentice #far post-arthur-mortem when gwen was queen and magic was allowed in camelot) seeing gwen as a servant and being like ''QUEEN GUINIVERE??!?'' #also instead of merlin being all insifferable about douxie having to ''earn'' his wizard staff he'd just be like GODDAMNIT YOU DONT NEED A #STAFF TO BE GOOD AT MAGIC. I ONLY HAVE THIS THING BECAUSE IT GIVES ME AN AIR OF GRAVITAS #idk how the trolls and trollhunters would fit into this but i just think it would be neat. #it has the potential to make the whole plot with uther marrying the troll funny as hell tho. funnier than it already was anyway #or wait possibly less funny actually. because in this situation trolls would be all civilized and cool and shit AND they'd be ANOTHER entire #group that uther's been trying to master. so it's yet another instance of ''oh woe one of the groups the king commited mass genocide against #is foiling a plot against him. moral conflicts aaa'' #bbcm/toa

[definitelyjunehomestuck]

still foaming at the mouth with excitement over pikmin 4 finally bein announced

#pikmin #pikmin 4 #they only included the three basic pikmin in the lil screenshot they provided so it makes me wonder what new pikmin there will be #cuz i personally don't think they'd avoid showin off any nonstandard types unless they wanted to keep what kinds we'll get a surprise #we should get at least two new types i imagine but that begs the question as to if the main game will omit the previous ones in story mode #cuz that's what they did between 2 n 3. they included the previous extra types in the game but didn't let u have em in the main game #i also wonder if they'll change the onion again #i kinda hope they do cuz the one they made for 3 was like. ''hey that looks neat! sure as fuck doesn't look like an onion tho'' #beyond the convenience of havin all ur pikmin in one spot i didn't rly like the change #lowkey i wouldn't mind goin back to the old onions entirely #also i wonder what the objective is gonna be for the new player characters #pikmin 1 was ship parts pikmin 2 was treasure n pikmin 3 was fruit #they included a lotta old human structures n objects in the reveal clip so i wonder if we'll be playin like. a xenoarcheologist or somethin #cuz at this point pnf-404 has to be pretty well known but it's also still poorly documented #beyond the xenobiology excerpts written by a man who's job is basically a space trucker #n the catalogueing of specifically only fruit by people who were in a rush to just get the fruit at all #nothing is actually *known* about pnf-404 #hocotate freight sold off a fuckload of human artefacts but didn't properly analyze like. any of em #the only real documentation on em is the highly exaggerated n largely untrue marketing done by the hocotate freight ship's ai #anyways that's my pikmin rant for today lol

[thecoolerliauditore]

something something 3rd life AU where jimmy takes martyn's offer and becomes the entirety of dogwarts' little brother for like six episodes 👍

#i just think it'd be neat #random thoughts #trafficblr #i just think they'd be all cagey at first and then be like oh we need to protect this one #skizz would've been SO SWEET with him #<-- ignore the he killed him in canon pls

[loverboybrightsideghost]

why does clark kent wear glasses though. silly answers only.

#superman #THIS IS NOT A SERIOUS QUESTION #i don't want a 'well you see his powers blah blah blah' answer i just think it's so funny that he wore glasses before he became superman #my theories are 1) he thought they were neat and was sad as a kid that he'd never have to wear glasses #so he started wearing them except now he can't stop wearing them otherwise people would be confused #and they'd figure him out as superman too so he's stuck w the glasses #2) his vision really is not good and 20/20 vision is a thing he has to put effort into doing so he doesn't do it all the time #3) in the same vein as 1: he wore glasses w a halloween costume in high school and someone he liked told him he looked cute with glasses #so he didnt stop wearing them and then he couldn't stop etc etc #bluebird.txt

[leatherbookmark]

no no but like. what do we think happened with jgy’s body in cql specifically

#shrimp thoughts #there is a fic that breaks my hear into a million of pieces that deals with A Version of the cql ending! it's remains by welcome_equivocator #and it kills the man #but that aside!! like. what. does he still get a burial/memorial tablet in jinlintai when he's everyone's most beloathed villain? #(isn't it fun that both jc and jl have had to/will have to pretend to suffer less after the loss of someone who technically Yes did all #those things but also WAS FAMILY. isn't it fun that jl's position in most likely unstable as fuck and that possibly speaking too well of jgy #could even damage his reputation/put him in danger of being considered someone who would follow his uncle's steps ISN'T IT JUST NEAT) #or. what. personally i made this post because i thought about jgy's body at the back of the temple and the body of his mother stolen and #destroyed from the back of the temple and had to mentally sit down #in my fic (based kindasorta on cql) nmj gets moved back to qinghe for a sect leader's burial and jgy replaces his mom in the coffin #in a move that left many less satisfied than they'd like to be AND ALSO FOR THE AESTHETIC AND THE FIC TO BE POSSIBLE #because ngl cql is a hundred times better of an ending for jgy than the actual novel where. i mean. nmj strongest fierce corpse etc #and where i just think that if they were like 'oops wait i forgot my phone' and opened the coffin an hour later... SIGHS HEAVILY :'/ #but. what happened Actually? i don't know. and i kind of do like it left unsaid as if gives us space to fill out #(just like. the space of lxc's absence...) but also. oh god. what happened. What Happened #(utter chaos in the tags.)

[puppys-rhythm-heaven]

i have very complicated feelings when it comes to ds' games in megamix because it's like. they definitely did their best porting them to button controls. but they just don't feel the same without tapping n flicking. especially when it, for example, makes cosmic rhythm rally really easy n boring when compared to rhythm rally 2. part of what makes ds' games so fun in my opinion is the flicking controls. most of them are fine without them, but they're still more fun in ds. i'd still rather play lockstep n frog hop 2 n fan club 2 n all those games in ds than in megamix even though they're ported fine and well. they did the best they could with what they were given but it just doesn't feel the same n isn't anywhere near being on the same level.

#puppy rambles #rhythm hell #ds #megamix #i love rhythm rally 2 it's one of my favorite games in ds n overall #but cosmic rhythm rally is so easy n nowhere near as fun either #granted there there's also the problem of the higher quality models honestly making it worse #i think them making the paddlers cosmo dancers instead is v neat #(n also explains cosmic dance being in the last set because otherwise that makes no sense it's so fucking easy-) #but the low-quality models in rhythm rally 2 add to my enjoyment of it #i mean that's more so a problem with fever's art style i think then them porting it- #i like fever's art style n all but also pixel art good #anyways with the button controls thing it makes me kind of feel like it's for the best we didn't get dj school n love lab n stuff #i love dj school n love lab as much as the next person (probably a lot more for dj school-) but like #idk if they'd be as enjoyable without the button controls #... okay dj school would be actually it just produces serotonin instantaneously in general- #i saw someone call it an instant serotonin factory once n yea that's true. same with space dance #anyways idk how they'd port love lab but it'd probably be not as fun #i guess using d-pad controls would be the best way to do it? but that feels like it'd be needlessly complicated #n again. probably not as fun #idk why they felt the need to rub salt in the wound of not porting them though #by referencing dj school n making pajama party's music so similar to love lab's #like. you honestly can't convince me they didn't do that purposefully #rhythm heaven LOVES references #they clearly know people like dj school. they know. they are just spiting us #idk i'm probably overthinking things. i like dj school a lot okay- #i wish it was in megamix. give me the gays #i love the dazzles but. should've been dj school

[teaboot]

This is gonna sound rather conceited but I feel like it highlights an issue we have in Art.

I'm good at art. I've never had a hard time making art. I started using crayons before I could walk. Painting, Beadwork, sculpture, sketching, stippling, whatever- once I have a feel for the material, it doesn't take long to start doing what I want with it. It's been a common theme my whole life.

(Y contrast I'm awful at things like dancing, performance, sports, etc- in all things there is balance, right?)

Now, I've taught myself to use so many artistic mediums now that I KNOW how to most efficiently integrate them into the brain database. Once you really *understand* a material, it's much like memorizing the layout of your house, or flexing a muscle, or something in-between- it becomes PART of your brain in a way I cant quite articulate. But to get there involves just fucking around for a bit doing nothing in particular.

And I've found, especially in group settings, that nobody seems to be able to see you make something badly and leave you alone. Even if you say you're fine, you don't want help, you're happy, you're having fun, it's fine, they gotta ride your ass and hover.

I was at a class the other day for something I hadn't done before. The medium was one I've never used, so once the instructor told us the basics I started experimenting with weight, gravity, texture, viscosity, saturation, temperature, etc. The instructor had given enough info to know what was dangerous and what was safe, and beyond that I just wanted to absorb what I could about it.

And no insult to the instructor, but they kept checking in. Which was fine the first few times.

But then, without asking me what I was trying to do, started giving tips. That I told them I was grateful for but didn't really need just yet. If I had a question, I'd ask.

But they kept coming over. And touching my shit. And manipulating my project. And touching my hands. And using my tools. Without fucking asking.

And this happens every time. EVERY TIME. And by now I know the best way to get them to fuck off is to make something way beyond their expectations so they know I'm capable, then go back to doing what I want.

So I did. I wanted to keep having fun and learning, but instead I made something beautiful that I really didn't want to make, and wasted my time, and really didn't learn what I wanted to learn at all. I knew the formula to create a beautiful thing, so I followed that formula the same way I have a hundred times before, and didn't get to try anything spontaneous or ugly or exciting, just so I could be left alone.

And I know when I was a kid, I was aware aware people saw me puttering alone on something ugly assumed I had a special issue and treated me like I was stupid because of that. (I was neurodivergent.) And at at time I knew that I could do a neat trick for them like a trained pony and they'd go, "Oh, surely they aren't defective if they can do something like that!" And piss off.

But what if I hadn't known how to do that?

What if I hadn't been talented, or "special"?

What if I'd been just any other average kid trying to learn, and I couldn't pop something pretty out of my ass to get them off my back?

My problem my whole life has been that I haven't been allowed to make anything ugly in peace. I'm capable of beauty, so I have to make beauty, or get stepped on. And once people see what I can do, they get loud about it. "Look at this! Look what they did! We all know who the best is, don't we?". And that used to feel good, but it's tiring.

And how many people like me just wanted to play? Just wanted to have fun and experiment? Who were having fun with no goal in mind, or just took longer to learn, who gave up because of all the obnoxious helpers breathing down their neck with no way to shake them off?

How many of us are made to feel defective because we aren't doing things beautifully?

I have a lovely piece of art I didn't want to make.

I think I'm gonna frame it.*

(*I think I'm gonna burn it in my yard.)

[thebibliosphere]

With hindsight, I probably should have realized I was polyamorous/ambiamorous sooner than I did. (And to be clear, I realized it pretty young. I just didn't have the terminology for it.)

Ignoring the fact that five-year-old me used to watch Signing In The Rain! on a loop and was already making up stories about Don, Cosmo, and Kathy all living together in Don's big house and *gasp* holding hands (maybe kissing), I was never any good at shipwars.

Like someone would ask me, "What's your OTP?" and I'd be like, "Well, I guess I like X/Y, but also Y/Z is good too..."

And they'd be like, "No. I mean your one TRUE pairing," and I'd just blink at them like, I'm sorry, I don't understand the question.

I'm sure they thought I was trying to stir shit or being deliberately annoying, but I just... couldn't wrap my head around it. Why did I need to pick one thing? There were multiple options with different things that made them appealing. That's like going to an all-you-can-eat buffet and just drinking water. Which is fine! If water is all you want, great. But you don't get to go to an all-you-can-eat buffet and judge people for eating different foods...

And when I eventually found out multi-shipping was a thing, I was like, "oh neat, that's what I do!" and while there was a definite feeling of having found my people, it was weird having the moral judgment from other people who seemed to think multi-shipping was a symptom of a greater moral character flaw. Like my inability to settle on just one thing meant I was more likely to cheat irl.

This wasn't helped by the fact that I... kinda already didn't care about monogamy? Not the way my friends did. I didn't mind that my then-boyfriend liked Sarah, too. What I minded was that he went behind my back and kissed her when he'd told me I couldn't kiss anyone else.

It was the betrayal of the agreement that hurt. Because we'd agreed. He'd asked me to be exclusive with him, and I did. And then he... didn't. And my friends couldn't grasp that.

It was all, "How could he kiss someone else?!" and my chief complaint was, "Why didn't he tell me first?!"

Anyway, if I could go back in time, I'd tell teenage me, you're not weird and amoral, you're just queer, polyamorous, and have ADHD, lmao.

#personal #thinky thoughts