#like please i’m trying to sleep

[gloomyloomy]

me, minding my own business:

my brain: hey did you ever notice how zoro and sanji were designed to be connected by the number three? sanji’s name (san) meaning three, and zoro’s three swords and three earrings, being distinctive character traits?

me: i- where did this come from, i don’t even think about them that often..?? what the hell am i supposed to do with this?! hey- hey! come back here!!!

#like please i’m trying to sleep #i’m bothered because we all know oda doesn’t just do shit like this for the hell of it #this motherfucker is very intentional with his character design choices #he even made shanks and mihawk’s heights with a 1cm difference so people would compare them #and the same with king and queen #AND WOW GUESS WHAT #HE ALSO DID IT WITH ZORO AND SANJI IM SO SHOCKED. (NOT) #sanji is 177cm and zoro is 178cm tall #what am i supposed to do with this information #OH AND GUESS WHAT THEY ARE PART OF … #THE MONSTER TRIO #this literally offset me going to sleep by like 20 minutes #one piece #zosan #i guess?

[libraryofloveletters]

This is the loudest fucking construction crew I’ve see

#like please I’m trying to sleep #and I can’t even do that

[caregivingchrysalises]

oh beloved, i’m here, papa’s here, *softly cups your cheek with my hand* starlight hey, we’re alright, we’re going to get through this, i know it feels icky right now, but it won’t feel this way forever~ buba also knows how silly that sounds as you’re sitting in that sadness, i promise i do~ you’re doing the best you can i know you are love. *taking your hand and holding it* expressing your feelings is something to be proud of blossom, your feelings don’t make you weak~ and they certainly don’t change the way i love you. i will always be here to dry your tears or quell your fears my love, ‘tala isn’t going anywhere angel, i’ll be right here when you need me sweetheart.

#a fun fact about me is that i am actually quite sensitive and can cry at the smallest of things #crying is healthy #safe space #does this count as abandonment comfort #those late night thoughts consume but your charming prinx is here to comfort you #late night thoughts #trying not to be discouraged by my dwindling reach on this app #sometimes i wonder if the universe rly just doesn’t want me to spread my wings…. #if you liked this please do let me know #it’s too late to be in the tags waffling #agere caregiver #comfort #sleep comfort #comforting #agere comfort #age regression caregiver #caregiver comforts #sfw caregiver #age regression #agere cg #sfw agere #idk how to tag this #a wee bit tired methinks #sleepy #goodnight angel #perhaps the tags will continue to remain an unsolvable mystery (i’m trying my best)

[heybaetae]

hi

#hi #i am just popping on here for a second bc i’m not in the mood to be back yet but my queue is getting quite full #so i think i might have to unpause it soon #maybe tomorrow idk yet #just a heads up in case i seem active again i’m not really i just had a lot of stuff piling up 😭 #it will be a Huge shuffled mess so patience is appreciated!! #i apologize if you’re waiting on me but thank you for waiting regardless #please keep using my tracked tag for your creations #i will be back for real eventually #my mental health is quite terrible lately i still need time #it’s about to be a year since the last time i saw my sister before she passed so like. my grief is going through a crazy stage #i’m still not getting a ton of sleep #my brain is just Bad things all day #it’s all just really sucky but i’m trying to do my best 🙃 #i hope you are all well i miss you #i will respond to messages at some point too #there are very few which..well it puts things into perspective and validates certain feelings ig lol #it’s all good that’s something i’m working on internally #hopefully i get there #bye again for now 💕

[httpiastri]

mmmmmmmm yes. just yes. neck arms and hands all in one video? i couldn’t ever ask for more

#watching this video and cropping these pictures gave me so much energy 😭 #pls i really should sleep #im getting up in like four hours #lovely #hopefully i can sneak away from my course thing and watch the gp #but I’m trying not to get my hopes too high #arms anon the bottom middle looks very much like your emoji #coincidence? i think not #and @ lola !!! please let’s die together over this !!!!!!!! #because i very much am dying too #oscar 😭😭😭😭 #Oscar piastri #f1 #mclaren #formula one #formula 1 #osc hands osc neck osc arms

[mattodore]

this is what i do when i'm having bad days 🤺

#river dipping #mattodore as a coping mechanism 🧘 #i'm actually having a better day than yesterday i'm just grumpy atm from lack of sleep 🚆🚶 #i stayed up last night watching old jerma streams yk how it is #made a character page yesterday but i’m not sure if i want to keep it… the character pics are TEMPORARY!!! btw. #i gotta take new plain bg cas pics for it but i was thinking abt making my own cas poses first 🤔 #finally went back to finish writing the [redacted] scene with mattodore #have been super slowly adding more aesthetically pleasing images to theo’s text heavy board 🚬 #also this picrew having a blue and red background option 😋 #anyway… that’s my little update 🫡 #i’m going to make theo’s custom beauty marks today and then i’ll get in blender to make this mattodore pose that is. #just. dog motif. you know. you understand the dynamics i don’t need to say anything else. #i’d show it off but for some reason matthias’s ripped sims all are missing his teeth cc…? so. can’t. the teeth are important to the pose ☝️ #i’ll share pics when i actually go in-game later #‘later’ <- when i feel like turning on my desktop #i should do it soon tho that way i can slap new pics onto that oc page and see if i like it or not #i decided to try it out since it’s mobile friendly like my actual blog theme #like if you open up a browser on your phone and type in my blog or this character page’s url they both look nice ! #i hunted for my blog theme for agesss but i found this character page pretty fast #it’s nice… it’s relatively simple looking (the code isn’t tho lmao) which i like. sometimes character pages are just. a lot. #and i think i prefer simple over complicated atp

[lunarrosette]

Y’all I’m feeling so normal abt nark rn y’all don’t even understand

#dndads #dungeons and daddies #lark oak garcia #nick close #nark nation #i was trying to sleep #a read a fic right before #now they’re all I’m think abt #like they actually make so much sense as a ship guys #Anthony Burch you killed the little gay theatre kid give me these two #or implications please #I’ll take implications #I love implications #lunarrosette’s shit #shit post

[puppyeared]

Shit the fuck UPPPPPP

#IM TRYING TO SLEEEEPPPP #neighbours dog is so committed to being hthe loudest creature on the planet #please. Imbeggijg you I didn’t sleep last night let me have this. PLEASE #WHAT COULD UOU POSSIBLY BE BARKING AT FOR 30 MINUITES STRAIGHT #Im so tempted to just. stick my head out the window and start barking back #I used to be able to bark like a big dog when I was a kid. I’m so tempted #yapping #delete later

[aceofstars16]

It’s 7:30 in the morning and I’m exhausted but I don’t know if I’ll be able to fall asleep again any time soon….

It’s like I was *just* starting to heal from having my heart and trust shattered 3 years ago, and now it’s happening all again, only this time I don’t have the church to go to for comfort/prayer/encouragement. And instead of a friendship I had for 2-3 years, it’s a church I’ve been going to for TWENTY TWO YEARS

I feel like I’m living in the twilight zone, this can’t actually be happening, right?

(I’m not okay, I keep crying and I just want to wake up from this nightmare)

#I don’t even know what to tag this as I just can’t #I was literally just telling my counselor that I feel like I’ve never had the ‘years of plenty’ #only the suffering and trials…and now this happens to seem to confirm that #and it doesn’t help that I was already having trouble trusting the leader after last year #and now it’s like a big ‘I told you’ from my brain which isn’t gonna help me trust anyone in the future #I was already having a hard time taking chances and trying to trust again ans NOW THIS #I know I should at least try to sleep again I just…I don’t even know anymore #I’m not even gonna tag this as any normal stuff tbh #how about just #aceo get her heart broken again #not to mention I’m terrified I’m going to fallback into the numb empty depression pit I only just kind of got out of #and faith? bro I understand how people left the church or faith cause it is HARD to differentiate between the church and God #I’m still trying to pray and stuff I just feel so empty and I can’t do this again #it doesn’t help that the church claimed that they felt ‘lead’ to this crappy situation whatever THAT means #I only heard it second hand tbh…I just…can this stop please? can this all just be a horrible dream that I wake up from? please

[stergeon]

🦈❤️ (for that writer ask post)

🦈 Which character is the toughest to write?

i’m lucky in that most characters flow pretty easily for me, but i’ve struggled the most with writing ferdinand and bernadetta.

ferdinand’s voice is more challenging to execute than i ever anticipate it will be. i barely featured him in chapter 1 of muscle memory, but it was enough to stress me out. he has this particular tone i can’t seem to nail—he’s overly confident and sunny in a way that can come off as oafish, but that oafishness is usually hiding a clever and thoughtful truth.

in general, i like bernie, but she’s not my favorite lmao. pre-timeskip, i find her to be so tough to write as she spirals for nothing and can easily take control of a scene. it’s hard to keep her on task, and i worry about her coming off cringey. i’ve only made an attempt at writing her in echoes of zanado and i’m not sure i’ll do it again, though i’ll definitely give post-timeskip bernie a chance to shine at some point. gotta reward her for all that growth.

i’ve also taken a few stabs at writing locked tomb fics, but i simply cannot get harrowhark’s voice quite right, so those have yet to see the light of day. alas. maybe i’ll finish one eventually!

❤️ What is your favorite line that you’ve written in a fic?

hmmmmm. i don’t feel like i’m particularly skilled at crafting one-liners that stand out or are all that witty. i tend to either be partial to parts of sentences or entire passages that flow well. for whatever reason, i was pleased with the line in muscle memory chapter 2 about kissing the “soft plateau below her navel” even though it’s just describing a tummy lol. the words feel nice together.

i’m gonna cheat and throw a few out here. edelgard’s rant about the cats’ names in her majesty’s favored felines was so fun to write and still cracks me up. she’s so high-drama smdh. love her. there’s also a really stupid sex joke early in that story that’s not even a joke, per se, but also makes me laugh.

i think like you mean it contains some of my most primo navel-gazing angst, and i’m especially fond of the very last paragraph:

She held her like she was the other end of the tether, like she was the only thing keeping her here, like holding her could save her, could give her purpose, could make her worthy, like the heat-on-heat of their intertwined bodies could make meaning of all the things that didn’t make sense in this world. She closed her eyes, and held her, and begged the favor of an absent god, praying that she—that this—could be enough.

i also like this line from chapter eight of at the edge of the void:

And even without her love, he would still choose to make himself a planet and remain in her orbit, knowing full well he would be eventually swallowed by the gravity of a dying sun.

unfortunately, my neuroticism doesn’t let me like it that much because i’ve not put enough thought into whether anyone in fódlan, especially edelgard, has a concept of what gravity is or that suns (plural) can die. i won’t let me have any fun.

#fe3h #fire emblem #sterge.eml #wakingupclean #thank you for the ask!!! #i really posted that ask game and then proceeded to get stoned and sleep for like thirteen hours. OOPS #someone’s insomnia’s been acting up (mine) #i have some lines i’m Very Pleased With coming up in vesties chapter 5 and in a yet-untitled edeleth smut i’m chipping away at #that smut fic is gonna be a lot of fun. #i’m trying to only work on it after i get through some of the vickyvesties though #stergeon can have little an edeleth as a treat #but only after talking shit about silver snow

[buck-yyyy]

guess who just cleaned up a tiny portion of their room. everyone should be so fucking proud of me

#no really please be proud of me it was stupid hard despite only taking a couple minutes #like. task is easy. brain however? brain did not want to make things easy. brain has made that very hard the last few……. i don’t even know #how long just. everything had been hard for a while and i only just noticed #gonna try and maybe clean up part of my nightstand too idk #i’m sick of having to sleep with my phone and fan control next to my face because there’s no room on the nightstand #sigh #anywyas

[lilacevans]

i seem to have confused some people.

i just wanted to do an event to like, tie over the time while i got the intro and first couple chapters ready. reqs are based within the verse of course but are like, considered alt scenes or bonus scenes i guess

pete’s place will be a full length fic— idk how long a fic yet, but it will be a full fic + other goodies. this is not a one thing, thing. if that makes any sense.

i have a plan. y’all just sit back and waittttt

#also like #my marriage is randomly just falling apart #so #just give me a moment please #and i understand people are excited and i’m excited but the constant gimme gimme is kinda making me like #panic ?? idk #i’m so tired and stressed and idk what to dooo #it’s nearly 4am and i just can’t sleep so might just try and finish the intro and get it posted idk

[onedirecton]

Been having the most rotten sleep for the past few days

#please I would like to sleep through the night again instead of waking up several times 😭 #last night sucked because I could hear my neighbors walking around in their unit and I need to bite someone why are the walls so damn thin #and then I had nightmares about them 💀 great ! #ear plugs don’t even help sksjsjsjs I can still hear them go up and down their stairs #so I’m going to try white noise and less screen time before bed

[no-1-rosalind-lang-apologist]

Guess what I found on the internet today

#I don’t think this needs to go on the flf tag but yes it was flf #if you are seeing this I’m so so sorry you do not want to know #fanfiction about real people is. A Choice. #that was just something else entirely #I don’t know why I read that I felt obligated to though #I would never want to make fun of someone for something that they put a lot of effort into and I’m not trying to do that #however I also saw that at around 5:30 am and I did not sleep last night #also the amount of psychic damage that has caused me is truly unparalleled #I have so many questions and I want absolutely none of them answered #it wasn’t even smut or close to smut it was just a whole experience #I am absolutely terrified that the person who wrote that is going to find this somehow #if they do. hi. #how are you. I’m going to think about you for the rest of my life #not good thoughts not bad thoughts I just have a lot of questions but please don’t answer any of them #4555 words split into 3 chapters published in may 2023 #I think I texted my friend a whole book of me losing my mind after I saw it on ao3 and they haven’t responded yet 💀 #welp #please send help i genuinely have no idea what to do with my life now #i feel like i have seen everything

[floral-hex]

hi it’s my birthday tomorrow

#had to redo this since someone left a comment that bummed me out a lot #well… didn’t HAVE to but I didn’t like seeing the notification #guess I could have just deleted their comment… shit… didn’t think about that #hey uhhhh please don’t be mean to me about my birthday. I’m just a sad lil guy 🥺 #I already dislike my birthday. I hate feeling older. like I’m wasting my life. #it’s already usually an afterthought since it’s Christmas Eve #but with my mom’s surgery it’s even more of an afterthought and I’m so stressed and I have to take care of my bros and I’m just not great 😬 #like… what do I even want to do tomorrow? #I’d love to just sleep in and eat junk and maybe go see a movie #but I have to go drive 40 minutes to see my mom and if I try to cut the visit short I’ll just feel guilty #so… I guess I’m spending my birthday watching my mom shake and cry in pain 🤷🏻‍♂️ #which can be okay! I mean not okay but I can 100%… well… 85% live with that. it’s okay. it’s just a day. #but fuck does it hurt when people just ignore it or downplay it or make jokes about my birthday this year #people don’t have to care about my birthday. strangers online don’t have to care. it’s whatever. #and I’m not even mad at anyone in particular. I just… yeah.. I just can’t take negative jokes about it right now. #I’m trying not to be specific! I don’t want to be mean! nobody is being mean to me! it’s okay! #im just a sensitive baby that just wants people to be nice to him for the next 24 hours #…. I’m sad! #I think I’ll just be mean to everyone tomorrow #…. lol like I could do that. pfffttt I’ll bend over backwards for my family and I’ll be glad to do it. mostly. #it’ll be okay #days are 24 hours. I’m sure I can squeeze some good stuff in between the bad. that’s life babyyyy #and I love you and I appreciate you to no one in particular and I’m sorry I’m so sensitive #my mutuals are great #you’re all great. unless you aren’t. but we won’t talk about that. #ok you can ignore this #text

[crossbackpoke-check]

Hello, im wehaveagathering from my main blog, im kind of obsessed with your hockey poetry edits and I think your blog is great! I guess I kind of have a dumb question, where do you find the images you use for your edits? Did you say Getty in your tags?? I’ve gotten into making icons recently (and i have ideas for poetry edits hrrrghhh) but it’s hard to find high res images. Thanks for your time and I hope you have a nice day :)

first of all thank you so much 🥹 and second that’s absolutely not a dumb question!! i do pull a lot of images from getty and i’ll also download pictures from sports articles (i got a lot of the hugheses pictures from online access articles, for example), or sometimes from instagram/facebook/twitter if an account is public. freely admitting that i am not technologically advanced? inclined? in the slightest here, but the image editing software that you use and how you import/export photos with it makes a difference in the quality of them as well!

if you haven’t seen them yet, i would also recommend checking out @simmyfrobby @national-hockey-lesbian @hauntedppgpaints @tapedsleeves @starscelly and @captainbradmarchand’s blogs just off the top of my head!!! they might know more places to get high res images and also i love their work 💕🫶

#sorry can’t type hands all butterfly hearts i’m just out here like 🥰🥰🥰🥹🥹🥹😭😭😭💕💕💕 #@ everyone i tagged ty i love you i hope you don’t mind the tag 😘 also i KNOW i am unintentionally forgetting people so tag them at will #forgive me i am eepy. we are running on <4 hours of sleep and over 18 hours awake 🫡 #liv in the replies #join the club!!! join the club!!!!! we love the hockey poetry edits!!!!!! i’m so excited to see what you create!!!!! :))))) #the process of me finding images is very much like. either i have a vision in my head and i troll getty looking for it or my screenshots #if i know i have one l m a o but either way i am always 68 pages deep in a hyper specific search labeling my photos like ‘ohHHH buddy’ #‘menace 1 abd 2’ ‘but he’s not a cup winner’ ‘ohhhh the nolpat media scrums are rich earth’ #‘because WILLY WON’T CUT HIS HAIR’ ‘deJA FUCKIN MILK BAYBE’ ‘is it truly sn edit if u don’t find a devastating baby pic’ ‘yes MF last line’ #and so forth. like. glad it’s comprehensible to ME but if anyone else ever tried to use these photos based on file name alone i am so sorry #also i forget that y’all can’t see all of the metadata notes on photos to know where they’re from :/ i gotta be better abt making it clear #also on the note about image quality i just need to state for the record i am so photoshop whatever illiterate. #i learn one (1) new trick on GIMP a year maybe two if i am lucky & no i have never figured out consistent sizing 🫡 but the one hack for res #i HAVE figured out is that when i do edits i usually make a whole doc w/the poem lined up on it (helps me keep somewhat consistent sizing) #and then i export that document as a pdf and edit the pdf in the software instead of trying to screencap or jpeg or anything. PDF quality > #that is probably so convoluted lol if anyone has tips please lmk i am always learning #ANYWAY. rambling u did not ask for but is inherent to Me. #have a great day too!!!!! you literally made mine so 💕😭 #wehaveagathering #indecisor