#like i am not one of them very obviously

[butchdonne]

like ive been hanging out with this one friend group since literally the beginning of the year and thats been fine!! but for some reason theyve collectively and silently decided that i am Not one of them and they dont wait for me at lunch time im pretty sure they have a group chat without me etc etc. and that would be ok were it not for the fact that it is now halfway through the school year and i have nowhere else to go because all the friend groups have already formed. so unless something happens that means i Gain a friend group by chance im basically stranded for the rest of the year (and probably next year too) and theres literally nothing i fear more than that

#what the fuck do i even do #there are people who like me and think im cool i have friends in my lessons but they have their friend groups!!! #i cant go barging in on them i cant just Appear and Insert myself into their group its too late for that #and besides my school is a labyrinth i dont even know Where to go #i just wanna know what i did that made them decide i didnt belong in their group uk #were my vibes just off or something? #because like. theyre not purposefully cutting me out but theres not no intention behind it #like i am not one of them very obviously #but they neglected to tell me this until it was too late for me to do anything else so now im stuck on the fringes of a group of people who #just about tolerate my presence. hmmm i wonder what this reminds me of. oh yeah not much just THE WORST YEARS OF MY ENTIRE FUCKING LIFE??? #and like they're not in the wrong these things happen but also i do not deserve to be treated like that #they may not know thats one of the things i loathe and fear the most but they must know its kinda shit #ok. vent over im done #(just cried for like 20 mins straight) #pip squeaks #vent

[sneez]

conrad veidt would make a great tragedian i think

#pathologic #conrad veidt #artwork #scopophobia #id in alt text #if any of you actually benefit from IDs id be very grateful to know if you prefer them in the alt text or in the post body! #anyway :D HIM #this is caligari-era connie obviously. i was saying this the other day but later connie would be a great saburov i think #i cant decide if i prefer the idea of him playing every tragedian or him being a very obviously incongruous tragedian who has just painted #his face to look like a mask and is hoping nobody will notice #also please ignore that the lighting doesnt make sense on the second one i used reference images lit from two different angles and didnt #notice until i had rendered it out because i always flip my canvas so often and im too lazy to fix it #anyway (part 2) i am still on my conrad veidt autism explosion and i am having a great time. i am having so much fun. i love he #i hope you are all well too my friends! term just finished for me so i am back hoam :D yaaay

[celestialrealms]

I just noticed Mephisto matches with Barbatos (who is matchy with Diavolo) in the anniversary outfits in his SSR memory card

These three were also the only three who had half masks in the masquerade event!!!

Anyway, The Royals with Mephisto chat group when? We got one for Purgatory Hall with Raphael..... it's just fair !!

And one for Mephisto and Diavolo as well, but also one for Mephisto and Barbatos too. because you can't tell me their relationship isn't deeper than the devs portray when Mephisto has lines like this about Barbatos's room:

#also obviously chat groups like thirteen + solomon or thirteen + barbatos (+ solomon) as well!!! #but i was pointing this out teehee #..........................Anyway I feel like if I were going to make a meta post about Barbatos at this point #it would definitely involve his biggest flaw being his past self-isolation #+ diavolo being the one to break it (and later mc) means he prioritizes diavolo(+mc) over everything/one else #and it's very clear he has difficulty getting close to people #i usually think it's funny tbh #but i think the context it makes me the saddest in where i'm like... momma go to therapy.... #is the obvious distance between him and mephisto despite being around as an adult in both his + diavolo's childhoods #while mephisto was being groomed to be diavolo's protector or whatever #i just feel like there's so much room to develop these threes' relationships #but the devs just don't want to do it because it interferes with the brothers getting all the screen time for no reason #+ how they only seem to want to make jokes about mephisto and diavolo's relationship 90% of the time #also just saying..... this being a flaw of barbatos's is also a reason i want him to interact with thirteen more #+ to know more about their relationship #because frankly she is a LOT like that too what with how she opens up exclusively to mc #......................... sowwy about the tag rant #i am simply cherishing and holding them autism style. #obey me barbatos #obey me mephistopheles #obey me diavolo #obey me #obey me nightbringer #obey me shall we date

[front-facing-pokemon]

#something is very obviously different about these two compared to my normal images on this blog. i acknowledge this #also the sv model is Really good. and since they always stare straight at the camera anyway… and no one pays attention to the background… #and the only high-quality phantump model i could find was so horribly shiny that its eyes were just white voids #in my defense‚ phantump always just stare straight at you in game #the lighting is different‚ yeah. that's probably the dead giveaway. beyond the background. but like. i'm the only being on the planet who #really likes phantump anyway. i feel like it's a generally forgettable pokémon to most folks #phantump #HELLO this one is a weird one. i have some explaining to do. so when i did this one i didn't know how to edit models really at all #and when i got the models for these‚ the xy models were super shiny. shiny to the point that it made their eyes fuckin invisible #and i decided that since you could barely tell it was phantump‚ i needed a different way to get these images #i remembered that in the SV dlc‚ every time you find a wild phantump‚ it just fucking. stares. at you. and i was like. aha #i kinda remembered because of the test stream that i did. tumblr user alligayytorr (am i getting the right amount of Ys) said #“haha i am getting a sneak peek” when i zoomed the camera in on a phantump. and i remembered that. and i was like. i can utilize this #and ended up using just an in-game screenshot of SV in replacement of the regular content. later on‚ after that #once we got into gen 7 and it became less and less reliable to find models‚ i had to learn how to edit them manually to remove the shine #i am a software dev. not a 3d modeler. this ended up coming down to editing the code of the models directly (which i ended up writing a #script to automate). now‚ today‚ january 22nd (the day of me writing these tags and updating this post)‚ i remembered this post was in the #queue and was not normal. so i went back‚ ran the script on the phantump and trevenant models‚ and unshinified them #then edited these two posts to be normal. i have left the original pictures i took under the cut for reference and as bonuses #because i really enjoy phantump. so that's why those images are there‚ and that's why these tags are here #just for posterity's sake‚ the folks who come here mostly for my commentary‚ i've left the ORIGINAL tags of the post when i initially #made it with the SV pictures up at the top (i wanted to rearrange them‚ but tumblr makes that Very difficult‚ so i left them as-is) #so if these tags are confusing to read i Apologize. but i hope now that you're at the bottom you understand what happened #i'm gonna go edit the trevenant post now

[letteredlettered]

Another post just reminded me of an important PSA

Sokka is a better Ron Weasley and Xander Harris than Ron Weasley and Xander Harris ever were

Katara is a better Hermione Granger and Willow Rosenberg than Hermione Granger and Willow Rosenberg ever were

Zuko is a better Draco Malfoy than Draco Malfoy ever was canonically, but Spike is pretty great, even though yes, okay, we know, Zuko's redemption arc will always be superior

fight me

#harry potter #avatar the last airbender #buffy the vampire slayer #sokka is also superior to han solo #but we can't go around saying katara is better than leia even though she is #and it's also hard to say that zuko is better than darth vader even though he is #like luke skywalker is a very special boy; it's not fair to compare completely different canons why would you do that #sokka is not a better samwise gamgee than samwise; on that they're pretty even #is the katara equivalent in lotr legolas hahaha just the best at everything and severely OP I guess it's true #gollum is a pretty good darth vader!!! but still no zuko #gandalf is obviously the superior dumbledore but has sincere rivalry with iroh #who am i kidding no one beats iroh? #but gandalf and obi wan could have some pretty great tea with giles #who am i missing #oh emperor palpatine voldemort firelord ozai sauron who cares about them. The Mayor probably cares about them. That's who #lan wangji is the new legolas katara hermione leia pass it on

[beanghostprincess]

Saw this on twt and felt the sudden need to do it!!! It's pretty much obvious just seeing my account but here you go

#wait i am going to explain stuff bc i can't never shut up #my first ship was zolu obviously for obvious reasons bc look at them (great explanation) #i didn't like sanami bc nami is a lesbian to me but now sanji is literally everything but a man so it's okay #zsn is funny bc i DO like it but it's very specific and i don't like the fanon version and i just generally don't really vibe with it much #but i used to ship them a lot and then the fandom kind of ruined it for me #i think i don't need to explain boa/luffy but shipping them is just. not it. for me. i hate it actually. they love each other SO much #but it's in a different way it's not romantic i adore their platonic dynamic #sabosanuso my beloved i wish more people shipped them #nami is a lesbian and zoro is gay and i don't like them romantically but their platonic dynamic is so important to me #save me canon saboala/frobin and opla PLEASE make namivivi canon i know you can c'mon #perouta my absolute beloved #sanusokayanamivivi (??) my fav ship ever tbh but this is just like. like a part of their whole polycule. my fav part #zolu is very high there tho it's like. one of my faves too #so this is it but i think all of these are pretty obvious if you follow me #one piece

[sensitiveheartless]

...K this is going to sound completely out of the blue, but this has been haunting me today —

#I have found a few things while googling but my results are inconclusive! <-(this might be because i am operating with very few braincells) #Has he ever consumed a fly on screen in any show or movie? Like #fully??? #sidenote but this burning question has led me to the discovery that there is an entire wiki section titled 'MUPPETS EATING OTHER MUPPETS' #...anyway do not be concerned my brain is just in a weird headspace because I haven't properly left my room since thursday morning lol #and obviously i'm going to stay isolated until i'm better! #in the meantime I will have muppet thoughts apparently #hmmm muppet au #...oh god. has anyone done a 'bsd where everything is the same but Dazai is a muppet'? #because that would be glorious #or wait #going by muppet movie logic I guess it would have to be one human with an entire cast of muppets so — #who would the human be??? #oh no oh NO hold on wait— #what if all ability users are muppets #and Dazai's ability is 'NO LONGER MUPPET' and he can poke people and turn them into full humans #HELP #senhart rambles #polls #i do not know what else to tag this with so i simply shall not

[floralstorms]

Oh yea... Posting stuff. I forgot. Well. I'll start with this Ig. Probably going to post the rest chronologically (oldest to newest) too, at some point that I'll try to make sooner than ..not

#my art #Dungeon Meshi #dunmeshi #chilchuck #Chilchack #chilchuck tims #Laios #laios touden #laios thorden #prismo the wishmaster #Prismo #Heather hefts the unposted art onto tumblr finally #Continued?? Edition #Dare I tag chilaios #It. It is to me. #I don't like these doodles very much. Maybe because they're a little old. I was still figuring them out here. Can't wait until I get to the #good ones .. these doodles are going to get more and more obviously chilaios/angst over time btw. #Uhhh #Am I missing any tags? Can't think of anything... Uhhmmm... #Yeah Idk if I should count this as chilaios. Again they are it is to me but like. It's reeeally vague here so Ig I won't tag that one. Yet #Alright Idk whatever can't think of anything yeet post it already Wrzos #Sgxhxncnfcjcjc

[clowningaroundmars]

my absolute fave thing to read in punkflower fics is lovesick puppy hobie brown

cool-as-a-cucumber hobie overthinking miles' every move, leaving lingering touches on him, longing glances thrown his way

certified BAMF hobie hanging by a doorway or window just a second too long before leaving miles

"skinny-hot" hobie refusing to believe someone as ✨️cool✨️ as miles would be into someone like him

badass punk hobie just yearning and pining and practically draping himself all over miles in desperate attempts but then pulling back all scared when anyone even hints that they should get together

god, i need pining lovesick loser hobie like AIR rn 😭

#mine #punkflower #spiderverse #can yall tell i am Not Normal rn #COOL HOT BADASS FUNNY HOBIE JUST!! *clenches fist* JUST!!! just fuckin swooning #like a victorian lady whenever miles does Anything #i mean do yall SEE the way he pays attention to and looks at miles in the movie? #i am unwell. i will never be able to emotionally recover from this #just... god. i love it #hobie brown spider punk just trailing after miles #joking with him and wrapping him up in all of the clothes he can manage to bring #practically screaming silently for miles' attention at every moment #showing off a lil bit when theyre swinging #dont get me wrong hobie is a very very cool guy. when miles isnt there #miles: shows up #hobie: immediately turns into the worlds biggest clumsiest clown to ever exist #miles: smiles #hobie: crashes into 2 walls a telephone pole and falls over a fence #bonus points if miles literally has zero clue the entire time #bc like obviously miles KNOWS hobie is ridiculously hot. this is canon #but SURELY someone like hobie has nooooo interest in him whatsoEVER right guys? …right? ahaha #IDIOTS the both of them #idiots in love #this is a trope i will never tire of ever #also the skinny-hot comment is a reference to the official atsv script #LOOK IT UP IF YOU HAVENT ALREADY #it is filled to brim with homosexuality and plenty of funny ass lines of miles being jealous #but miles my boy. my baby boy #look at me #you need not be jealous of hobie. YOURE the one in the middle of the love triangle NOT GWEN

[yang-png]

dc/rwby #1 is out and i am THRIVING THEY LOOK SO GOOD

#rwby #dc/rwby #i am so in love with blakes outfit #i love how all of them look like they're from different places too like blake very obviously belongs in gotham #yang in themyscira. weiss in metropolis. and im gonna assume ruby is supposed to be like... central city? bc the flash? #but barry isn't on the cover aghhh ruby's is the one that's mistifying me #maybe shes also supposed to look like a gotham hero?? or villain idk the rose vines up her arm remind me of ivy #WHO KNOWS. i dont

[sketchz]

aaaa I've always wanted to do one of these!! My blorbos over time my beloved....

I grouped em according to some stuff, labels under cut:

#isat odile #molly blyndeff #luke triton #katrielle layton #kazuma hikari #or something. sigh #megaman starforce 4 #sara chidouin #Sorey #cassandra tangled #Lan Hikari #Pit kiu #I am Not Tagging All of These #velvet tfh #timekeeper cookie #Yes that's wightbaking. the yugioh card #The OGs just mean the very first blorbos I've ever had. childhood blorbos #one time fling. was really obsessed with them for like. one period. then I moved on #I still put them in a special place in my heart tho; for past me #Hour long essay is self explanatory #''Sketchz wait how do you have an hour long essay for a character that doesnt exist out of a single concept art-' #by making his lore myself obviously #Sorry for putting Sorey of all people in gacha. I'm forcing it a little and Tales of Link was a game #yes the calamity trio get one space together. I'm limiting to one per game/show but I couldnt choose a favorite #I love them all ok #yes the final column I gave up on assigning a theme to them #Ahhh Katrielle. you deserve better

[pokimoko]

Listening to instrumentals from the silly doo-wee-ooo show is actually something that can be so painful.

#doctor who #doctor who music #murray gold #segun akinola #musings about music #this is specifically about 10's theme in vale decem. the long song in 11's regen piece. and clara's theme in face the raven / clara's diner #i get psychic damage everytime i simply hear the use of the motifs elsewhere because of the tragic associations those sadder renditions hav #obviously these songs aren't the only examples in doctor who but they are by far the most emotionally devastating ones for me personally #and obviously it isn't just leitmotifs either. basically hearing any piece that played during a sad scene gets to me. #how are you supposed to explain to your coworkers that you're tearing up because of instrumental sound association? #'yeah sorry these violins and humming sounds summoned vivid images of my favourite character dying/leaving and it made me sad' #love that composers can just straight up pavlov bell your emotions by getting you to associate a melody with a sad scene #an addition to this is doctor who instrumentals that make me nostalgic because I associate them with my own past #like 'this is gallifrey: our childhood. our home'. that song was one of my alarms for a good long while back when i was 15ish #so it kinda transports me back to that time in my life whenever i hear it. music really is its own little kind of time travel #i am very much looking forward to the continuing psychological damage murray gold will inflict upon me in the new season #and to have previously uplifting character leitmotifs used against me and forever be contaminated with sad feelings. love to see it #(also: not a instrumental but damn 'the stowaway' has no right being as good as it is. who knew a christmas sea shanty could sound so great #apologies for this probably niche-ish post (is it niche to know ost title's by heart? asking for friend). just feeling things about music

[oceanwithouthermoon]

https://x.com/d3kutism/status/1741579841764475157?s=46

it should be illegal to be this fucking stupid so loudly and confidently omg..

mfs on the internet preach about "media literacy" yet they completely gloss over the fact that the only damn things that kusuo "canonically" is are a tsundere, an unreliable narrator, and a fucking liar LMFAOOO.. babe thats like basic reading comprehension, im sorry..

EDIT: it should go without saying not to send a person hate just because of a silly post like this one(+i dont have any reach anyway so im sure it wouldnt happen, but i wanna say this nonetheless lol) but i would just like to say that i just checked and realized that this person is 15 years old, so like... yeah, too young to be arguing with grown people on the internet. dont take this too serious or send this person hate pls lol..

#nobody who isnt aroace is allowed to tell ME what character has to be aroace #yall forget that we aroaces (+ESPECIALLY autistic aroaces) dont want or need your ugly white knight savior bs #'oh but im aroace n i also think hes aroace🤓' ok?? should i care about your hcs? #have your projection hcs or your regular random hcs- i literalky DONT care #but it becomes an issue when u try so desperately to defend it like this #like babe u sound so dumb☠️ #its so confusing to me how u chronically online weirdos insist on making ur hcs canon #i promise u guys ur hcs dont have to be canon for u to enjoy them #its a VERY popular hc too like tf more do u want #im autistic and aroace and i say kusuo is demi and autistic #i am him and he is me so i know factually/j #so still on the aroace spectrum but either way i dont force my hcs on other people like u selfish weirdos do LOL #also this person and the replies being like 'just cuz not all autistic ppl r aroace doesnt mean none can be' YEA OBVIOUSLY? #UR ARGUING WITH THE WALL AND ITS CRAZY CUZ NOBODY EVER SAID THAT #literally not one fucking person said he cant be aroace- just that it isnt canon #do u even fucking hear urselves.. YOURE the ones saying he cant be anything other than aroace.. so YOURE the one doing the forcing.. #u guys love pushing ur stereotypes on others and then defending it to high fucking hell #anyway sorry i dont have a public twitter so im saying my piece here #the link looks suspicious as hell twitter pwease give me a better link #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #saiki kusuo #meows post

[stevethehairington]

i am once again thinking of a good omens wicked au, but this time instead of the obvious crowley as elphaba and aziraphale and glinda, im thinking of the OPPOSITE.

im thinking of how AZIRAPHALE fits elphaba's character in that he is an outsider amongst his peers and he's a little bit awkward and he's got so much faith in the almighty/the wizard. he's got "parents" (read: god) who expect so much from him and siblings who are ashamed of him. and he's got dreams! he wants to do big things! he wants to work hand in hand with and make the almighty/the wizard proud!

and im thinking about how CROWLEY fits glindas character in the sense that he's suave and charming and people are drawn to him. he knows how to talk to them and how to get them to do what he wants, and he's the one that teaches aziraphale things about the world (a la popular, like tempting aziraphale into eating meat and drinking wine and all these very human things he never would have thought to do without crowleys influence).

im thinking of how the two of them start out absolutely loathing each other, as mortal enemies, one could say... but how over time and as they bond more and more, as they see different sides of one another, that loathing turns into something else. something just as strong, just as passionate, but softer. gentler. sweeter. it turns into love.

and of course everything gets shattered when upon meeting his idol, aziraphale learns that god isn't what he thought she was. it turns out god is just a pipe dream. all there is is a floating head, the metatron, posing as god. and not at all the great and powerful entity aziraphale believed. and the metatron CANT help aziraphale, can't fix him. and thus the downfall of aziraphale begins.

#good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #wicked #go wicked au #i am ALWAYS thinking about a go wicked au #ALSO thinking about how in this version of the au muriel could be nessa #and honestly gabriel would make a decent fiyero but like if you took out the romance part LOL bc i cannot see CROWLEY esp falling for him #i can't see aziraphale either but like i could see him as more likely than crowley certainly #but anyways someone random as fiyero and then its like aziraphale thinks hes jealous bc he likes fiyero #but ACTUALLY its fiyero hes jealous OF bc fiyero is the one that has crowley fawning all over him #but then crowley doesn't ACTUALLY like fiyero like he thinks he does. hes just using him as a distraction from his REAL feelings #(cough aziraphale) #HONESTLY this all works BETTER for their characters imo than the og roles we automatically think for them #EXCEPT for the fact that like OBVIOUSLY the whole hell being the bad witch and heaven being the good witch makes more sense #PLUS if crowley was elphaba then when she goes Full Wicked Witch at the end that is very much The Fall coded #so like THAT works better that way #BUT you could always turn things on its head and make AZIRAPHALE fall in the end #idk theres a lot of logistics that would have to be worked out and some stuff that would have to be changed to fit these characters ofc #if an au were to be written anyways #BUT YEAH I AM THINKIN™️

[anotherpapercut]

I have a job interview in 1 hour and I think I might throw up

#been trying very hard for the past couple of hours to not cry hysterically in front of a class full of teenagers #partially interview nerves mostly the united states healthcare system #how am i supposed to not be suicidal in this economy #one of them may have noticed bc i realized she was looking at me at one point when i was staring at the ceiling #like trying to get the moisture put of my eyes without obviously rubbing them #and then she talked to me a bit before leaving which they never do

[elftwink]

you guys know that "landlords are leeches get a real job" is a haha funny bit you say to illustrate the hypocrisy of the rhetoric surrounding work and what qualifies as 'contributing' to capitalist society and not a coherent leftist belief right? you guys are saying that because it's funny to watch landlords sputter to come up with a response to the kind of attitude they have always subjected tenants and renters to and not because you genuinely believe your worth is determined by the money you earn under capitalism, right? you understand that once you believe it is possible for someone (even landlords) to be a 'leech' on society if they arent working (or aren't working enough, or aren't doing the right kind of work, etc), this will bleed into the way you think of everyone else too, right? you guys know that legitimate and meaningful critiques of landlords are not and can never be based on whether or not they are working because that is irrelevant to the fact that they own property for the express purpose of charging other people for access to shelter, which is a basic human need and shouldnt be controlled by the whims of Some Guy just because its his name on the deed... right???

#good idea generator #preaching to the choir on this one for sure i just sometimes see interactions on this website that worry me #like babygirl what about people who cannot work due to circumstance ability or both? ppl who will NEVER work? #do u think theyre leeches too??? you can SAY 'oh well i obviously dont mean those ppl' but like #the rhetoric was designed to be used against Those People specifically to turn YOU against THEM when youre on the same side #its funny to use against the ruling class but its not like. effective except as a snappy comeback #additionally what about landlords who do work?? who have dayjobs?? #landlords who do live in the property they rent. who rent out bedrooms or basement suites or the like #are these people no longer leeches? do you think this system of land ownership is fine if all parties have jobs?? #do you see what i am saying. it is not possible to critique capitalism as a system #while relying on the frameworks capitalism uses to prop itself up. #you will only EVER end up tacitly supporting the very thing you declare youre against