#just thinking aloud but

[proto-language]

hrngnfghnfg

#just thinking aloud but #i dunno. kind of feel like the last Barrier between me and Normal Personness or whatever #is just. i feel so completely and utterly unable to feel empathy specifically with regards to children and childbearing and childrearing. #like. i have known ever since i was small that my parents lost other pregnancies before me and between me and my sister. and all i could #feel about that as a kid was 'thank god because i never wanted a sibling anyway' and 'uh well i never asked to be born soooo... so what' #and now as an adult. i know that it's a terrible thing to suffer a loss like that. #and i'd at least manage not to act inappropriately towards someone i knew if they were in that position. #but i still can't find any of the *feelings* about it. #which is strange because i usually feel Everything So Much. #i also still don't understand when people talk about like. instantly falling in love with their kid or whatever #like maybe i almost get it if it's a child you've gestated for nine months and then given birth to. #but i feel like people *must* be at least partially lying about it when it comes to things like adoption #because there'd be such a high psychological and social penalty to admitting that you felt anything less. #adoption in general drives me crazy like i cannot Believe that it's still just a really accepted alternative to having a biological child #when... any kid who has had to be removed from the circumstances into which they were born and given to new people #is surely going to be traumatised or have issues or however you want to put it. #and it can't possibly be the Same Thing as having a... fresh baby of your own. #anyway. i feel some sympathy for and plenty of logical understanding of children and parents. #but none of it makes sense to me on the level on which i usually connect with people. #and hell maybe everyone feels that way until they have a kid. in which case i think everyone #is wildly irresponsible for having those kids without knowing they're gonna like it or be good at it and hoping it'll just work out. lmao

[lazylittledragon]

can't believe we're all adults being forced into the club penguin level of censorship in 2024

#ramble #if you say unalive in front of me i will personally kill you with my hands #you just can't muffle and censor and hold someone's hand through some things #some things are horrible. and they should be spoken aloud and they should upset you. because they are horrible #the second we started kidzbopifying the world was the end of taking anything seriously i think #i'm not even joking i've spoken to people older than me who won't even say the world sex #this isn't the playground you're not going to get in trouble just let us say the word!!!!!! #how am i supposed to listen to you when you won't even say the thing you're supposed to be talking about #yes this is the fault of the platforms with their censorship rules but the fact that we all just go along with it like it's not dystopian #you do know it doesn't stop with cursing right. people are already having to censor queer terms because they get flagged as inappropriate

[lilislegacy]

percy has been called smart by hazel, reyna, and annabeth (twice).

to say he’s actually dumb is to disagree with those three women. and if you are disagreeing with 3 of the most knowledgeable, capable, and badass characters in the series… what are you even doing?

#stop saying percy is dumb #he is NOT #he just ACTS dumb #because he often says his first thoughts aloud before thinking #and his adhd has so many different effects on him #and because his adhd was never properly handled by his teachers #so #he grew up thinking he’s an idiot #but he’s NOT #percy jackson #annabeth chase #reyna ramirez arellano #hazel levesque #heroes of olympus #percabeth #pjo #percy jackson and the olympians #the son of neptune #the house of hades #the demigod files

[orobeori]

I was going to add more panels of a synchronized strangle attack by team broppy, but decided that enough was enough...

Anyhow here's how I think the battle at Mount Rageous should've gone, with the lovely happy trolls using the hair as weapons of destruction </3 I know that Branch is in his healing era but I still think he would've resorted to his more violent methods somehow (this time with Poppy's full support).

Also, the reason why Viva's still using the sticky hands is because of this one hc I saw that the Putt-Putt trolls lost the ability to stretch their hair due to malnutrition :D

#I might not draw it because drawing a crowd of Bergens sounds quite exhausting #but imagine they are celebrating a trollbergen holiday #and then one of them just thinking aloud #''everyone here besides the King and Queen has eaten someone we loved dearly!! :D'' #trolls #dreamworks trolls #trolls fanart #trolls movie #trolls band together #trolls 3 #trolls fandom #trolls art #broppy #velvet and veneer #trolls veneer #trolls velvet #trolls branch #trolls poppy #trolls viva #trolls clay #trolls john dory #trolls bruce #trolls floyd #trolls broppy #my trolls art

[bethiewhimsy]

i think the saddest part about the husk shaking from fear because of alastor scene is that he never seemed afraid of him until now. he felt comfortable enough to talk to him, to offer advice and even to bite back when alastor started picking on him. there’s scenes in which they tease each other. husk knows a lot about alastor that nobody else (not even the audience) knows, whether he was purposefully trusted with this information or not, neither seem threatened by it. before that, husk simply seemed regretful to be indebted to him, like alastor was just a burden to bear. i think that’s why his reaction to alastor in that scene was so intense. alastor had perhaps never treated him so harshly before. and that scared the shit out of him. and probably felt akin to some sort of betrayal or something. like being reminded of the awful truth (that alastor OWNS him, that he COULD kill him, that he’d be happy to)

#idk y’all im just thinking aloud here #it’s also very worthy to note that alastor DOES take husk’s advice. #idk i want to know more about husk & alastor’s relationship rlly bad #ALL THE ALASTOR ANAYLSIS POSTS GOT ME THINKING. #hazbin hotel

[tsukiboo]

thinking about the ongoing discourse on who’s the best eater in jjk when it’s clearly choso, getou, and toji in that order.. (me thinking out loud, maybe u can call these headcannons idk)

choso is the type to always no matter what put your pleasure before his, hell he won’t even think about himself when he’s going down on you. he takes instructions v well and listens to every to word to every whimper that comes out your mouth to make sure you finish everytime on his tongue. (major bonus points when you rake, pull, or tug his hair, he goes dumb over it. eyes rolling back, moaning as he eats you out, the whole nine yards.)

lemme tell you something. when getou ties up his hair it’s a WRAPP, i swear we need to give this man some credit. LIKE LETS LOOKS AT HIS FACE. HIS NOSE. PERFECT FOR SITT-… anyways. this man goes CRAZYY for face sitting, perfect opportunity to give some attention to your pretty thighs around his head. massaging them, pinching them every now and then, feeling how smooth they are as he tastes how good you are. ALSO. he’s definitely a man who keeps the art of fingering alive.

toji….now i don’t even like the man but i give props to where it’s due.. while toji appears to be the messy animalistic type, that’s exactly how he is ESPECIALLY when he eats you out. mans has little to no strategy and goes by what he feels like doing. he’s a cocky ass SHIT that always knows he’s doing exactly what he needs to be doing (i hate it sm) def thinks he prefers eating you out from the back, it’s something your ass being in the air that completely does it for him

#JUST SIMPLY THINKING ALOUD FOR A MIN #toji smut #jjk smut #choso smut #geto smut #toji fushiguro #choso kamo #geto suguru

[chemblrish]

11 March 2024

I was surprised that my solutions didn't crystallize over the past week to which my thesis supervisor said lightheartedly that it's normal and that he once waited for something to crystallize for THREE YEARS. I hope my solutions know I need to graduate some day.

#unrelated but i have this TERRIBLE habit of talking to myself while working in lab #i can't help it #thinking aloud helps me focus on what im doing #but today some of my precipitate stuck to the bottom of the beaker #and i just could not fricking scrape it #and i said 'you f electron piece of shit' OUT LOUD #and i have nothing to say in my own defense #(at least i was alone in the lab 😶) #mine #studyblr #chemblr #studyspo #study motivation #chemistry #thesis tag

[comradekatara]

modern au katara reads books “for fun” that are “engaging” and “enjoyable” and sokka (big finnegan’s wake head) is like “weak. i only read books that exacerbate my suicidal tendencies”

#i too only ever want to read books i find enjoyable fwiw but because i find most pop lit unbearable i do sound like sokka to people #who do not understand that reading shakespeare to me is like comfort food #sokkas hobbies much like everything else are filled with self inflicted struggle and anguish #he only wants to read the densest least acceissble literature (fiction & nonfiction) he can get his hands on #if he’s not in pain when ostensibly reading for pleasure then something is WRONG #modern au #katara #sokka #katara&sokka #i do think katara is also a big reader though #she’ll read anything and everything #nonfiction romance sff ‘classics’ etc etc #but then sokka is like ‘well audiobooks are cheating. actually’ #and she throws a rock at his head killing him instantly #(he doesn’t even believe that bc he reads aloud to toph constantly he just wanted to provoke her into throwing a rock at his head.)

[thief-of-eggs]

The potential of pre-Timkon featuring possessive friendships is not talked about enough.

Like, give me a Kon who shows up to every date Tim ever goes on, totally ruining the mood and claiming he thought he “heard danger”

Give me a Tim who somehow magically “needs Kon for a mission” every time that Kon is set to go out with someone.

Give me besties whose friendship borders on unhealthy because they just won’t fucking talk about anything. Give me a Tim who stares daggers at anyone who checks Kon out, yet who still denies he ever looks at Kon the same way. Give me a Kon who misuses his x-ray vision to keep eyes on Tim whenever they’re out, who is somehow always there whenever someone starts flirting with Tim.

Give me a Kon who purposely leaves his shirts in Tim’s room so that he might wear them, since he knows Tim doesn’t really look twice when getting dressed. Give me a Tim who secretly creeps into Kon’s bedroom to steal some of his cologne, sniffing his shirts before he leaves.

Give me two boys who are so obsessed with eachother that it’s so unhealthy until they talk about it!!! Give me two idiots so in love that they feel such deep-rooted irritation with the other, since neither of them will cave and talk about it!!

#i have so many thoughts about possessive friends timkon #i just think they should be aloud to go a bit insane before they start dating #as a treat #timkon #tim drake #kon el #dc

[streetcorner-2inthemorning]

Thinking about how in season 2, the Doctor asked Rose "How long are you going to stay with me?" He could have asked her that in so many ways. "How long do you want to travel with me?" "When do you want to go home?" But he chose those words specifically. And Rose could have answered in just as many ways. "As long as I live." "As long as you'll have me." But instead she said one word. "Forever."

And the sad thing is that her answer was truer than any other answer she could have given. Because whether she realized it or not she wasn't saying how long they would be together. She was telling him how long she would be with him. As a memory, as a ghost, in his hearts. No matter who the Doctor is or how old they get, somewhere deep inside their soul, Rose will remain. Forever.

#This is not a new speculation and im sure plenty of people have talked about this already but i dont care #I want to talk about it now and again because its in my mind #And no im not saying rose is necessarily more important than the other companions because that isnt true #and every companion the doctor has ever known and loved will stay with them always #but im just talking about this specific interaction here i guess #doctor who #oughhhhhh im still not caught up on the show so if for some reason someone does interact with this post #please dont talk about the later 13 seasons or the new specials. i havent seen them #retro thinks aloud #rose tyler

[funkily]

no cc should react to fanfic and if sausage did hed be the most obnoxious about it . despite this i think he should do it anyway

#i just think hed have a lot of fun reading it aloud . nothing he finds can be worst than the shit he says on the regular anyways #tbh if it was purely a self submission system or he got permission from each author i personally would be ok with that but i know thered #still be some ripple effects with like . his yt audience and stuff #babbleeng #mythicalsausage #mcyt

[orangewsunglasses]

i was thinking abt the new chapter and yes its a little worrying that fyodor is very possibly alive (icanttakethisanymore) but its also kind of funny to see dazai genuinely panic a bit for once and chuuya's just. there. he could literally not give a rat's ass. dazai's leg is broken and he's choosing to sit there and do nothing as dazai tries to drag out a dead body from under a wreckage. i literally cant help but love him

#i like that dazai speaks aloud about what hes thinking #for my thoughts to make any sense i usually have to do that too :3 #also i figured fyodor wouldn't be dead YET because it just felt like there was no way?? #i got no theories its vibes only man #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou gay dogs #bsd chapter 114 #bungou stray dogs #bsd dazai #fyodor bsd #chuuya bsd

[everybodyknows-everybodydies]

pacing the room. Orsimer using the suffix "-wife" as a gender-neutral community title indicating one's functional social position rather than an exclusively marital term. ex: "forgewife" meaning a master blacksmith, under whom aspiring blacksmiths train; these are the people overseeing your most important smithing jobs and making sure your up-and-coming smiths are just as well-versed in fine detailing as they are in practicality and function. a community wife is therefore an authority figure of a kind, yes, but also one who has chosen to give as much of themselves as they can to the community IRT their specific skills; community members who hold a level of authority necessarily have a corresponding responsibility to their people.

orcish communal living requires a level of bracing yourself against your neighbors/allowing your neighbors to brace themselves against you that differs from more individualistic societies, which necessitates that the nuclear family be less of a rigid structure. children are the responsibility of every adult - you get just as much instruction and discipline and love from your fifty not-blood-related aunts and uncles as you do from your mom and dad. who you go home to at night is your individual thread in the many-stranded rope that makes up the community; if someone in your household needs help, then, you're their most immediate line of support. taking on the role of a wife (again, used as a gender-neutral term) in the context of a marriage therefore is saying "I choose to share first responsibility for your wellbeing."

this distinction leads to some interesting intercultural miscommunication - an outsider unfamiliar with orcish culture hearing about the existence of a forgewife, huntwife, herdwife, etc., assumes the title is being used in the way they're familiar with and that the chieftain has several wives by marriage; an orc unfamiliar with outside cultures learns the word "housewife" and assumes the title is being used in the way they're familiar with.

#Mouse talks! #something like 'fishwife' at least is mutually understandable interculturally (though the nuance is different) #ESO giving that one pamphlet author the title 'Immigration-Wife'... validating me #more specialized governmental roles like that are likely only found in 4E in like. Orsinium itself. #okay NOW going to bed. just thinking aloud as it were!!

[achaotichuman]

Y'all, I have a question. Is it stated literally anywhere in the books as to why Lucien is the Lady of Autumn's favorite son?

We know he's the child she always wanted to have with her lover, but is that really it? I know there may be something about him being the kindest, but surely if the Lady of Autumn had been only showing such deep love, affection and blatant favoritism towards Lucien, then obviously he is going to be the kindest, and obviously his other brothers are going to be bitter and jealous. Afterall no one is born bitter, and no one is born kind either.

If anything, it just looks like the Lady of Autumn uses Lucien as her vision of what her life could have turned out to be, in a similar manner to how some parents live vicariously through their children.

I know it's not entirely the Lady of Autumn's fault, this is her coping mechanism for being in such an abusive household. But it would definitely contribute to the emotional neglect of Lucien's other brothers.

Also, another thing I just thought of, is it not possible that Lucien is not Helion's only son out of the seven brothers? Afterall, the Lady of Autumn had been having an affair with Helion all throughout her son's lives, so it's not unlikely that Lucien isn't the only Heir of Day, but that's just a random theory I thought of.

Really, is there anything in the books that says or implies another reason as to why the Lady of Autumn favors Lucien? Because I don't think there is. Which, if Lucien being the Lady of Autumn's favorite was a determining factor in him not being corrupted by Beron's abuse, suddenly the other brothers don't look nearly as irredeemably evil as we were led to believe.

I think this all revolves around the idea that you have to be born from a good person to be a good person. We see that a lot in Sjm's books, where someone is just naturally good/evil because of their heritage. And people born from bad people have to 'redeem' or otherwise pay in some way just because of who they came from. Or what they had to do to survive living in an abusive household.

Could just be poor writing, but I need to know other opinions on this. Why does Lucien deserve to be the favorite, and therefore the only inherently 'good brother'? Just because he was born from Helion?

Obviously, this is centering around them all as children, or when they were young, Lucien as he is in the present only deserves all the nice things. But I think it's a character point that needs to be focused on, especially if Lucien being the LOA's favorite gained him favor within the Court, or otherwise special treatment, even just emotionally, that his brother's never got.

#acotar #acotar headcanons #acotar rant #kind of #really just thinking aloud #pro lucien vanserra #lucien vanserra #eris vanserra #pro eris vanserra #lady of autumn #the vanserra brothers

[neolxzr]

no but like if you're still calling enstars bait and saying there are no canon queer characters in it ESPECIALLY after remplancer i think you need to look inwards a bit and examine what exactly your definition of queer media is

#cryn rambles #enstars #/nbh just thinking aloud #'arashi is the only canon lgbtq character' are we playing the same game #do they have to start making out onscreen and calling eachother boyfriends or whatever for it to count???? #thats stupid as hell!!!

[fluideli123]

Sonadow Fic Rec

Okay, before you jump down to the masterpieces listed below, I just wanted to state this:

These authors have given this phenomenal content for free, baked with time and effort. I have never once ignored this, hence why I try and comment on each and every one of these fics. However, my energy and ability to be verbose differs day to day. Some of these fics I have not given proper comments for, despite this, I will be on it the moment I can be. In the time being, (once I am able to find my comments on each of these fics) I will be sharing my adoration for them further in other posts (and most likely link back to this one).

With that being said, please, PLEASE take your time to check each of these fics out. If they're not your cup of tea? Valid! But hands down I have never dedicated myself to making a fic rec like this until now. But I MUST share and spread these works, they are much too dear to me not to, and I mean that from the bottom of my heart.

(All fics are listed by order saved in my bookmarks, not in the order read)

tangled threads and bite-marked shoulders by @rubyiiiusions

Words: 32,287 | Series | Complete

Shadow hissed in pain. The laser had just grazed him, but it still stung, and he instinctively gripped the wound it left on his arm. “You dare-” He stopped. The laser hadn’t hit him. In fact, it had struck Sonic, right on his lower left arm. So why did his forearm feel like it just got shot? He whipped around, fear climbing up his throat, and he suddenly became hyper-aware of something new. It was like a sixth sense, feeling the confusion that emitted from Sonic’s fur in waves as if it was his own. “What did you do?!” Shadow snarled. or, eggman accidentally soulbinds shadow and sonic, and no one has any idea how to undo it.

Sleepwalking by Tirainy

Words: 22,117 | Complete

'There is a strong arm curled around his torso, the appendage keeping him close to its owner, whose warm breath is ghosting over the back of his neck. Sonic is sure he went to bed alone the previous night, but he isn't worried about the intruder. After all, this isn't the first time this has happened…'

Secret Admirer by @trenchcoat-gecko

Words: 24,313 | Complete

Sonic understood well what it meant to be loved. He was a world-famous hero, after all; his presence never went unnoticed. For the most part, he lavished in that attention, he soaked it in and encouraged it. But not romantic attention. So, when the blue blur found himself falling in love? Well, the prospect was rather daunting, no matter how easy Amy had made it out to be. So maybe, just maybe, he should just take the easy way out...

Rose Drops Series by @magicstormfrostfire

Words: 122,489 | Series | Complete

Love, Intuition, and a little bit of magic ensues as Amy sends Sonic and Shadow on an unforgettable adventure.

Wolfboy by @trenchcoat-gecko

Words: 73,856 | Complete

World-famous monster hunter Shadow the Hedgehog has a job to do. It doesn't take long for the one-shot wonder to realize that this job won't be as simple as he'd expected: a small town, rumors of a lone werewolf, and a handsome, green-eyed, chronically-injured casanova who manages to worm his way into Shadow's heart... What starts off as a simple job turns out to be something much more life-changing.

Blizzard Bedfellows by @magicstormfrostfire

Words: 21,294 | Complete

When a rare blizzard takes over the island, Sonic is on the run to make sure a certain angry loner is safe and sound. Y-you know, because...uh that's what heroes do.

We never met but can we have a cup of coffee or something? by @whitejungle

Words: 3,630 | Complete

It's been almost two months since Sonic lost someone he didn't even know, but he can't stop thinking about it.

Clean Slate by nottheweirdest

Words: 155,880 | Complete | Note: Squeal pending and I am cheering you on author!! Whatever you decide I am excited to support you!!

Shadow has lost himself before. He knows what it's like to straddle the line between reality and false memories, but this time, it’s Sonic whose memory has vanished. A premeditated set of circumstances and an accidental injury leave Sonic with no memory of who he is, his life, or more importantly, his painful history with Shadow. It’s up to Shadow to remind the hero who he is in the midst of a global outbreak. It’s a chance for redemption. It’s a chance to right the wrongs of the past. It’s a clean slate.

say i reckon (i love you, for a millisecond) by @redamancering

Words: 30,205 | Complete

There’s a hand on his shoulder, barely making contact. A red gauntlet glows around the wrist. Sonic blinks, the pain having evaporated so fast he feels almost weightless. “Shadow?” Shadow’s breathing heavily. “Problem.” The retrieval of the ancient tech Shadow (and Sonic, in tow) has been sent to uncover takes a turn for the worst. In this case, the “worst” means… becoming physically and inextricably linked to each other. For the foreseeable future. OR: Metaphysical handcuffs, and general gay buffoonery.

Judge my sins, not my feelings by yellothebeeloved

Words: 228,479 | Complete | Note: Possible one-shots pending from the author for the series, I am here to support you author!! What ever you decide I'm here for it!

Maybe he's not meant to touch. It's the newest excuse he thought of in hopes that he could prolong the game a little more; a careful ruse to enjoy the bittersweet torture of seeing the days pass them by, while he pretends he doesn't seek azure blue whenever he's restless. At first, all he wanted to do was watch: but now the desire to touch, to have, to affect is at a point where he's not sure whether reaching for Sonic would truly be fruitless. He wonders that especially when Sonic's eyes light up upon seeing him. When he corners Shadow, when he invades his space and he touches and takes and then excuses it by calling it a fight. Shadow truly wonders then: if only he was brave enough to reach out, what would his grip find? Loose stars or a battle-worn body? Standing up, he glances at Sonic again, whose eyes have now met his own. There's something heavy in the eye contact, something Shadow doesn't dare name. Neither of them say anything, and yet Sonic's eyes move away from him again, like they did. Shadow warps away, hiding from the stars once more.

Child of Prophecy by @trenchcoat-gecko

Words: 139,321 | Completed

On the night the Mobius Castle was ransacked, the Queen received a prophecy. “One of three will not cry; send him down the river, for you can only save your kingdom if he does not grow up royal.”

Coming Home by nottheweirdest

Words: 55,740 | Completed

Shadow's life has been full of mistakes, some worse than others, but admitting his unrequited feelings to Sonic tops the list. He's spent the better part of a decade ruminating on his regret and hiding from feelings he couldn't bear to face. He never thought he'd see Sonic again, and he told himself that was for the best. Until now. At the bequest of his former rival, and in an attempt to finally get closure, Shadow has returned to Central City. The reason? Sonic the Hedgehog is marrying Amy Rose. And Shadow is invited.

#I hope you all understand how many of these I have been in call reading to my friends #How many I have tried to draw shadow and sonic for #how many of them inspire my own writing #How I have dreamed about these fics so often I wouldn't be suprised if it rivaled my time fighting sleep to finish them in mere days #Also the AMOUNT of times I've wanted to pull out my microphone and read them aloud #Even though I would be absolutely horrible at reading them like audio books but you know what? fuck it #For these fics I would read them aloud the best I can #GOD JUST #I cant imagine a world where I never read these and its scary to think if they were never shared #Mostly because they actually genuinely impacted me in meaningful ways #I've cried real tears and felt such genuine emotion that I've been changed #Even if it's int he smallest bit #But it happened ya know? #Just- god I love you fic authors sm #Your work is never lost not to me #fox speaks #sonadow #fic #fic rec #fanfiction #writing #fanfic #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sonic x shadow #sonic fanfiction #sonic underground #sonic universe #sonic prime