#just go away and come back later

[mioakem]

No way I just got my period

#horrible timing #please I start school tmr #just go away and come back later #I’m gonna cry 😭

[buwheal]

I wanna give him a blanket. Can it maybe just materialize outta nowhere?

(I know fabric wrinkles suck to draw. You don't gotta 😵)

#i uh #i got carried away. Oops. wtf is wrong with this guy?? #Lmk if you need translations for the particularly glitchy part. #also just to clarify the physical glitch is not what /caused/ him to say that it just particularly irritated him and so he lashed out- #-before he could think ab it. i almost contemplated a frame of him apologizing & then i thought about it... he would not. nuh uh. #Last ask with this setting for now. It /will/ come back though because he sleeps there. #stayed up a little too late to finish this... i was so excited all day to do this one lmfao #it wasnt supposed to go past where he calls you a plethora of names but i needed to make it somehow transition back to the storefront later #thank you brave anon for your attempt. not really how it works here though. The fabric folds isnt really the issue lol. #as an apology you get the longest one to date. thanks o7. #spamton #spamton g spamton #[you've got mail!] #he switched up so quickly after it dissapated beause he realized he was just yelling at a camera... embarasing.. what a freak #going crazy in the tags today not sorry

[kaidabakugou]

the new girl at one of my favorite bakeries called me pretty this morning and it literally melted all my stress away 🥺

#kai.rambles #i was feeling sad bc my grandma is in the hospital and when i went to visit her they wouldn’t let me pass bc my license is expired #which okay ik that’s my fault but i took my passport with me just in case and the guy straight up told me that it wasn’t a valid form of id #and im like yeah tf it is ITS A PASSPORT and he said no #and while i was waiting for my mom to come down to the lobby an old lady came in and he turned her away for the same thing #and dudeee okay you turn me away fine fuck off but an old ladyyy??? at that age they don’t pay attention to that just let her pass #and then he argued with another woman bc she brought a flower arrangement and it had water so he couldn’t allow it HELLOOO??!? #so i had to leave and went to go get breakfast for my mom at least bc she stayed the night and i was supposed to stay the day #and when i came back to give her the food she told me that the nurse that was with my grandma asked what happened bc she wasn’t expecting #my mom to return and when my mom told her she immediately got so angry bc that same guy #didn’t allow her and a couple other nurses to bring in a cake for one of the residents #who’s birthday is today and they had a full on argument this morning #so it was all in all awful and now my mom has been there for more than 20 hours until later tonight when my aunt goes over :( #anyway this turned into a whole rant im sorry but im so mad bc i know for a FACT that a passport is a valid form of id #and he was just being a fkn dick #but the girl called me pretty and it took some stress off and she really liked my blush #and i liked hers so we had a little makeup 101 exchange and it was so nice at least 🥺 #and i have a couple cute asks to answer that have made my day as well so i’ll get to those in a few 🥰

[yaminerua]

I think the thing that fucks me up more about Lister’s dream is the hug that comes just before the kiss.

like the kiss moment itself is a tad awkward and it was probably kind of meant to be and it’s played a little silly for the dream sequence as they just smush their faces together (and also that puckering of Rimmer’s lips as they lean in lmao)

But I mean it makes me feral anyway bc I can’t believe they did that at all and I love the implication much later in Red Dwarf that dreams and hallucinations etc create their own universes so Somewhere out there there’s at least one universe where that moment was real and they’re fully canon somewhere;;;

But anyway the moment immediately before the kiss even happens gets me every time.

Like they’ve just said they both miss each other and the emotional weight of the moment becomes too much so Lister gets up and pulls Rimmer into a hug and Rimmer’s face destroys me bc it’s very much that ‘oh god…I’m finally home’ kind of hug.

Like he looks a little overwhelmed immediately, like all the air’s been knocked out of him by this first touch with Lister since that last goodbye hug in Stoke Me A Clipper. A hug itself is a kind of comfort he probably hasn’t experienced much of in the first place and certainly not one with as much emotional weight to it. The knowledge that someone missed him, that Lister missed him!! And the little sway they do in the hug, and the way Rimmer’s face softens hearing Lister tell him not to leave ever again. It makes my heart burst;;;

#Red dwarf #I want them to have had a moment like that when Rimmer DID come back from being Ace;; maybe the right moment didn’t come #or whether their own awkwardness got in the way. It’s not impossible for lister to move in instinctively for a hug then remember the dream #and awkwardly dial it back down to a handshake or something and push down the emotional vulnerability #esp given Rimmer’s attempts to quantum skip away again later it’s possible that theres a lack of an emotional welcome home that eats at him #like he could go away again and it wouldn’t matter bc he didn’t know how much lister missed him. It didn’t get the right closure #which culminates in the moonlight speech. The closest thing lister can get to being honest about needing Rimmer to stick around #it’s still too much in some ways to just Say What He Means and feels in straightforward ways #So we’re sun and moon and moonlight only exists because of both of us is the way to go

[thevoidstaredback]

I'mma rant for a second.

Someone please validate me.

I think I'm beyond justified when I say that no one listens to me.

This show (Come From Away) is running for three days. I've had the five shifts (4 on the weekend, 1 Friday) for three weeks. Counting my conversation with my parents a few minutes ago, I have explained what this show is, where I am, what it's about, and the history behind it 23 times.

6 times to my mom

4 times to my twin

2 times my older sister

3 times to my dad

8 times to my grandparents

What the actual duck does a girl have to do to get someone to listen to her?

All I'm asking is that people make an actual effort to remember what I tell them, especially when I talk about something I love.

My coworkers (4 of them) have asked what I know about it, and they all remember the basics of what I told them. They even listened to the soundtrack like I recommended!!

My sister won't even take ten minutes to listen to two songs with me. My mom doesn't even remember what the first song is called (I've told her 5 times now). I know for a fact that none of my family will listen to the music on their own.

I just want to share what I'm passionate about. I want others I know to share in the joy I find in this show and others.

And, y'know? I keep finding that this is a reoccurring problem. I can't bring it up to anyone, though, because they all tell me that I'm overthinking it or looking too much into it or seeing things that aren't actually there.

Humans are designed to pick out patterns in everything. We pick them out and we create them.

I see a pattern, I point it out, and I get told there's nothing there.

Either I'm gaslighting myself or everyone else is gaslighting me.

Someone please validate me. Please tell me I'm not crazy. Please put a name to these feelings because I'm going to shatter if someone tells me one more goddamn fucking time that I'm seeing a pattern where there isn't one.

I would cry like I want to, but that would ruin my make up. I have another shift in about 2.5 hours, and I don't have my makeup back with me, so that's a no go.

I'm gonna go read. Thanks for listening

#rant #vent #i'm upset #I'd cry but that would ruin my makeup #people are gaslighting me #or i'm gaslighting myself #or is it just me #come from away #in case anyone is curious #my top three (in order) for this musical are #screech #prayer #welcome to the rock #“me and the sky” is runner up for third #the cast and crew are amazing #i love them #i got to meet them all yesterday #i think i'm gonna tell supervisor B that i can't do the backstage position tonight #i love being backstage but my emotions are big right now #the earlier i can go home #the earlier i can have a good cry #or i'll defalt back to apathy for a bit #idk #i'll decide later

[sysig]

Hey. Read Roundabout. Love Awesome. (Patreon)

#Doodles #Wander Over Yonder #Commander Peepers #Emperor Awesome #Lord Hater #As always check the tags first but hgggg Roundabout is so gooooood <3 <3 #Absolutely the fic that convinced me that Awesome was worth thinking about more than he initially appears lol #The™ fanon interpretation to me <3 #Like the Eyesome stuff obviously (also the thing that convinced me to try out Eyesome and ended up loving it :D) #But also the Death Glare stuff! It's terribly cute the way Peepers and Hater go bouncing off each other haha ♪ #Plus there's just a lot of fun phrasing like the one I put in the caption of Peepers curled up haha #Everyone's characterized so fun! #Plus there's just something very fun recalling my first reread lol - I don't actually remember my first reading experience #But I do remember getting fic-hungry for it later down the line at a local Mexican restaurant and reading it on their wifi lol #It's so fun to finally be at a point where I can confidently draw them and then to come back to the story and ahhh <3 <3 Very enjoyable #The first two aren't tied to anything specific other than the basic concept of those two drinking together lol #Same size glasses but very different alcohol-to-body-size proportions lol ♪ Buying drinks for Peepers saves hand over fist! #We all know he could put it away like no one's business so really it wouldn't matter in the end lol #It was so fun to doodle him curled up ahh <3 His silhouette <3 <3 Toss a blanket over him! #And the Drama! The deliciousness of Peepers keeping Secrets from his Lord Hater! Ah! #It feels so in-character of him to have alone time away from the ship that Hater doesn't even notice until he's been away awhile ♪♫ #They're both adults ♪ They have aspects of their lives that aren't Entirely intertwined ♫ Until they do hehehe #Love 'em ♥ #Hater was fun to draw there too lol slowly getting used to him! I like his PJs haha

[en-chi-la-da]

anon, i like how you said “consider a positive to the last ask” and then still stuck with the night terrors idea lmao. anyways here’s these gay doodles

#took me a while to answer this one lmaO i got carried away i guess :) #danganronpa #i am posting this on my lunch break AS WE SPEAK ill have to come back and tag this more later! #sdr2 #hinadam #ari art #ask draw #ok im back UH the first pic was just for the setting i guess like. hajime + the others slowly working together to wake the others up and #get their bearings/memories back and attempt to recover from the despair they experienced/caused but they dont leave the island yet #they all just hang out lol #and like YEAH hajime may be the Ultimate Ultimate but he would still need help and support and his friends adn 🥺 #a night terror is still a night terror so its always nice to have another presence there to help you #even if youre a multitalented super genius lab experiment or an animal loving dark lord of ice :) #alright me go back to bed bye #gundhamronpa

[quietwingsinthesky]

See, the thing about the Amy episode that makes Dean’s actions so reprehensible is not only the part where he doesn’t trust Sam and goes behind his back to kill Amy or even the hypocrisy of Dean ‘you can’t change what you are so you’re going to kill someone eventually’ Winchester sparing the kid right after stabbing his mom, it’s that Amy is very explicitly supposed to be a Sam parallel. There is no other way about it, from the they’re both freaks part of it to Dean dropping the line about ‘the other shoe’ right before he kills her, she is Sam, how Dean reacts to her is supposed to give us insight into how he feels about Sam. And Dean. kills her.

The not very subtle subtext being that Dean is ready to off Sam if he goes too far off the deep end? He’s aggressive and mistrustful of Sam at every turn in the episode, lays the feet of it all at Sam’s hallucinations maybe leading him astray, but end of the day, Sam’s crimes here are A) was tortured in Hell and B) is traumatized by that in a way that makes Dean’s life more difficult.

And it is hard to watch. To spend this whole episode with Sam being completely functional on his own, making a rational decision based on past experience and on all the information about Amy he has available, and for the episode to end with, ‘but yeah, if dean thinks sam goes too far, he’s probably gonna kill him. because sam can’t change or be fixed, so it’s for the good of everyone that he be put down.’

#and then of course there’s the issue of the subtext setting something up that gets no resolution like. there is no point where dean is ever #really going to be able to kill Sam. no matter how bad his hallucinations get. not even a mercy kill crosses his mind later that season #which means that the Amy episode gets rewritten later from ‘explicit Sam parallel’ to ‘well we can use this for Brother Drama™️’ #god. god. and really what gets me about the Amy episode in general. like Thee Horrifying Part to me. #most of their hunts are very life or death. that’s how we get around the morality of it. either they kill the monster or it kills them. #Amy’s. not that. Dean tracks her down while she’s running and kills her while she’s asking him not to. #like if she had attacked him the scene would be totally different. but she doesn’t. she doesn’t even fight back. and he kills her. #like she has a kid and Dean is an unfriendly hunter in her motel room. it wouldn’t be out of the question for her to try to kill him #to protect herself and her kid. but she doesn’t. she doesn’t. I don’t know what you can take away from that except that she was telling #sam the truth about not wanting to be a murderer. if she won’t even try to kill Dean to protect herself. #there is no way to look at this episode that makes Dean come out looking good unless you’re willing to claim everything Amy said was a lie #AND that Dean would be right to kill Sam for *checks notes* Being Visibly Mentally Ill #fucked up. why’d they do this. #spn #dean winchester #sam winchester #amy pond #like to be clear if you’ve got a different view on this that’s. not the above thing I just said. please tell me. #because from where I’m standing Dean doesn’t come out of this clean in any way

[luvsavos]

i am once again apologizing for my lack of activity/responsiveness

my childhood cat passed away a few days ago which has just been more stuff on top of everything else for me to deal with to stress me out and upset me

i'll try to get back to stuff. Eventually. as soon as i can</3

#mar.txt #still very much upset about losing him，but it's kind of faded for numbness now #still not holding up great though especially considering how sudden it was #he was all fine and healthy and then just suddenly started to rapidly go downhill and within like. two days he was gone #he was so weak. couldn't move almost at all，his meows were barely just meow-sounding exhales. the last two things he did were #getting my attention so i would come to him，then attempted to crawl onto my lap and despite me being less than a foot away he couldn't make #it. so i brought him onto my bed on my lap with me. and then at some point later after another sudden onset of diarrhea (which seemed to #take absolutely all of his remaining strength) and i'd brought him back to my bed after cleaning the poop off of him he got my attention to #move his head so he could look up at me. and that's how he passed. looking up at me. #despite everything，he was purring. so weak and faint i could hardly feel it，but. he was purring，maybe until the moment he finally passed. #he was obviously suffering. and we couldn't afford to get someone to put him down so we just did what we could for him. #i'm glad that，at least，he was happy in his final moments. he wanted to be with me and i'm glad i could give him that. i HAD needed to go out #that day but i opted to stay home because i was worried he'd pass while i was gone. sure enough if i had gone out he would have. #i'm glad i could give him the comfort and company he wanted in his final moments. i'm glad i made him happy enough in them to purr even #despite how weak he was. i'm glad he didn't pass alone and possibly in pain. #ive lost a lot of pets in my life. but amos? he's only like. three years younger than me? we practically grew up together. ive known him his #entire life. no amount of being told it hurts to lose a childhood pet will ever compare to the reality of it happening. #i buried him outside my window. so he's close to home. #vent post? i guess?

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

why does everything have to be a hecking issue with my sister

#she keeps getting on my case about the Theatre Boy thing which I would just like to hecking leave in the past #she keeps getting on my case bc I wear short shorts and spaghetti strap tank tops AROUND THE HOUSE AS LOUNGE CLOTHES #she's like DO YOU EVEN CARE ABOUT MODESTY and I'm like YOU WALK AROUND IN SHORTS AND A SPORTS BRA ALL THE TIME #(possibly bc I thought I could get away with wearing lounge clothes with a long shawl thing overtop the other day to worship practice #but I did in fact change my trousers after my mama pointed out that it wasn't super modest) #she keeps making comments about how I do inappropriate stuff on my phone bc I... watch one(1) sitcom????? #shows like that are IRREVERENT AS HECK like come on of course I'm not going to be totally open with my kid sister about them #I am an ADULT I can make my own choices about what content I will put up with in media #I can make my own choices about clothing if I think my mom's idea of ''anything more than an inch above the knee #is immodest'' is silly and restrictive for my body shape and comfort level personally #like... why does she have to act so high and mighty around me? she's in MIDDLE SCHOOL and I know I haven't always been the nicest to her #but I'm making the effort. I'm trying to get along with her and what I get is disdain on the daily in return :/ #our mom said it's probably bc she was hoping I wouldn't move back in so she'd have our room to herself and now she's mad #that I'm back bc she has to share a space again and like I KNOW middle school ages SUCK I've BEEN THERE #but still I just. want to get along. but she picks on me and then I get frustrated and then I snap at her and it just doesn't end well #it's a nasty cycle tbh. I'm praying about it. #Lu rambles #personal #delete later

[daesungindistress]

GD's thoughts on Still Life's lack of promotions in 2022

#🥺😔 #so he (and possibly the rest of bb) wanted to do more with the song after all #probably yg held them back and down as usual #bigbang #gdragon #gd #still life #spring summer fall winter #the four seasons #gdivision #when all of bb renewed their contracts with yg in 2020 I was happy about the news #yet I remember a lot of vips being upset #not because they wanted bb to come to an end but because they didn't believe yg would give them the opportunity and attention they deserved #especially in the wake of burning sun #I think at the time I didn't fully realize just how stifling the agency could be toward their artists #now though... nearly 3 years later... that's changed #and I'm very excited to see what the guys will do for themselves now that they've broken away from yg #(still waiting on gd's contract news though... that's three down one to go)

[bccksmarts]

feeling super anxious on this blog lately and I don't know what it is or how to stop it anymore hshsdfhdsh

#✦ 𝐖𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐈𝐔𝐌 𝐋𝐄𝐕𝐈𝐎𝐒𝐀 ➜ ｢ Out of Character ｣ #✦ 𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐎𝐏𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐔𝐒 ➜ ｢ To Delete Later ｣ #⦗✦| wish the feeling would just go away but it won't #⦗✦| hasn't for a long time #⦗✦| i shouldn't even get this type of anxiety with it but it IS here and ignoring it is just getting harder #⦗✦| i don't want to take a break but i feel like one might be needed soon... but any time i take a break i forget to come back 😭 #⦗✦| that and other feelings that I WILL NOT put out or speak of #⦗✦| i will keep it bottled until I deteriorate #⦗✦| maybe i'll rewatch the movies or play HWL or something to help it 🤔🤔

[sysig]

It started with a whisper ♥ (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Crackship #Xigbar #Of all the crackships that I didn't expect I probably wouldn't have expected these two the most lol #I super wasn't expecting to feel So strongly about them this is like multi-tier Big Feelings in varying directions #One - ZEX - obvious (lol) | Two - Xigbar (hehe II hehehe) - I think I mentioned it like maaaybe once over here but I was Huge into KH #Specifically Org XIII specifically-specifically 358/2 it is the only game in the Kingdom Hearts line that I've beaten and probably ever will #Oh no wait that's not true I did play through all of the DS release of Re:Coded but like......does that count lol I think no #I played the intro of Kingdom Hearts II and shut it off after the bit with Roxas and Sora like - the egg scene how do I non-spoilers this #I own it and I will never beat it I am too sad I want only my Nobodies lol <3 #Kingdom Hearts had a big influence on me - that and Magic Knight Rayearth are a big explanation as to Why I'm Like This lol #Cough cough casting away the dark parts of your heart only for it to come back and bite you later and also The Gay™ lol #But AnyWay lol - Xigbar! #He wasn't my favourite-favourite - aside from Main Characters that'd probably go to Marluxia - but I still hold him very fondly!! #Definitely doodled him a good bit he's very handsome ♪ #And just - ah ♥ An old fave and a new(er) fave interacting and making each other happy and feel nice and play well I just fsalkfdf #As well as that being Max's body! There's something heightening about all these different aspects that was just overwhelming to me haha <3 #If it's not already obvious - yes this was the happy cries lol this is the only explanation I have haha #I feel very strongly about Them and Interactions and Feeling Nice and fjdslafsdf #Anyway! This isn't Just them! Just a lot haha ♪ #I have started a playlist lol - so far it's just this song - Everybody Talks - but some of the others from SCII playlist fit well too :) #The rest is just ZEX being cute hehe <3 ZEX not understanding what crying is is very interesting to me :3c No VUX equivalent? #Seems like they don't have the same kinds of chemicals like adrenaline et al so I guess a flushing system isn't as necessary! Interesting :D #ZEX fumbliness leading to him being a bit on the back foot is so cute hehe <3 He wants so loudly and openly but actually accomplishing it- #I also really like how he holds himself - all the tension through him to fight against new muscles and bone everything too alien! #I imagine his hands as being very rigid and all the fingers pulled together straight but that could just be how he describes bones hehe #Alien in there <3 Plenty to read into :3c

[1ovestay]

have had a very disappointing and stressful morning but at least i am sitting by the ocean with the sun shining on my face

#appreciating the ocean while i can before i move to canada in a week #i’m like . very upset and feeling dramatic and i think im within right to cuz it meant a lot to me #was meant to be going to the a15 action in my city and i had it all planned out #but i don’t have a car cuz my friends car broke down so i let them have mine early #and i planned to wake up at 5:30 and drop my mum off at work so i could have her car for the day #but then yesterday at the rally my friend was like oh i’ll come with u! #so after we drove back from melbourne i left my sign in their car (my car…) #and then this morning 5 mins before they were meant to pick me up they were like oh i’ve been called into work #which like understandable that they need the work but telling me 5 mins before u were supposed to pick me up…. 25 mins before the event… #anyway the next bus was so much later but i got on anyway after stressing a bunch #and i was like well even if im an hour late i still wanna show up #but it ended literally right as i got there im so upsetttt #i think the main reasons i’m upset is cuz this would be my last action in australia #cuz i’m moving in a week and i can’t go to this sundays rally in melb #and i was gonna give away my sign cuz i don’t want to throw it out but i can’t take it with me when i move #and i planned to participate in this for weeks n had it all sorted out i should have just gone with my own plans :( #anyway it is what it is i’m disappointed but i’m sitting in the sun by the ocean listening to day6 so it’s all fine really #p

[loverboybrightsideghost]

i really do love practicing 🎻

#i'm in music school so now it's a much more significant source of my already very significant fears #but practicing only feels stressful when i don't do it enough and i'm trying to 'catch up' #some weeks fly past me like hurricanes and i get to my lesson and i can't say i've made any progress and that fucks me up #and i don't think that's ever going away- like i'll always have weeks like that cuz everyone has bad days and bad weeks #from time to time #but when i plan correctly (which is becoming more and more the norm for me) my practicing is something im really proud of :) #i have a System. i didn't do very well before i had it and i would die without it now. #i get excited about learning! i get excited having realizations abt things to change or work on when i practice! #it feels experimenty a lot of the time and i like it!!! #i have a lot of catching up to do in terms of comparing myself to others but i'm not here for them i'm here for me #i will do my best and i will learn from others of course but my goals are to make my Me better first and worry abt other people later #i won't lose sight of that #<- and when it doesn't feel experimenty it can be calming to just be like okay ik what i need to do now just. Practice. Repeat. #i mean music is a fucking rollercoaster and sometimes you are at the bottom and i hate that but it comes w the territory #sometimes you're just Stuck but you do get past it and in those moments i just try to think back to previous times ive felt like that #ive felt horribly shitty before and gotten through it and come out the other side slightly better! #life is like that i think #anyways. hashtag iris loves music and being a musician 🙄 nothing new over here hehe

[sesamenom]

trying to figure out Lomion's relationships for the reverse gondolin au - so far I have Rog as his mentor instead of Eol and Celegorm as his "uncle". he's not particularly close with Idril, but Turgon helps him with the politics/statecraft stuff. anyways I can't figure out a marriage candidate for him for heir-identification purposes so

#silm #silmarillion #reverse gondolin au #not art #lomion #i dont really have any ship/sexuality headcanons for lomion #so idk who to stick him with #but he is the high king after all and does need somewhere for the crown to go in the case of his likely demise #maedhros can get away with zero children because he has plenty of brothers & cousins #but sadly lomion is an only child (or at least the only surviving child...?) #and by his reign most of his family has been wiped out #idril still sails in the au so she cant inherit #i think celebrimbor is the only close friend/family he has living after the destruction of gondolin?? #celebrimbor def would not *want* to be king but i could see him taking the crown in an emergency #so that sauron/morgoth/whoever would focus on him and give his family/people time to escape #the lomion/tyelpe idea actually happened bc i was thinking about if he should be obsessed with the opposite cousin the au #since idril is like 300some years younger than him and they didn't meet until much later #and anyways they're even more cousins-removed than russingon so it should be fine right? lol #the other main marriage option im considering is giving one of the other Lords a kid #maybe egalmoth can have a random daughter somewhere in there? #i don't want to make it too much of a 'random person + random heir kid' situation #so maybe he can just adopt a kid? but then if he dies early the kid is too young #(bc he doesnt have a kid when idril arrives) #also gil galad is younger here to make the timelines work #anyways and if he dies early and his kid is too young but he's also not married and has no siblings then idk who would be regent #bc by the end of the FA i'm aiming to have turgon & aredhel dead; elwing & earendil dead/departed; tuor dead; and idril sailed #and then that leaves like nobody alive family wise #aaagh help me i have no idea who inherits after him #like. does celebrimbor have to be king for a few hundred years? he probably would sooner dissolve the formal kingship than deal with that #or do i throw it back at gil galad? how does gil even get to gondolin?? where does he come from