#jesus christ get them out of my house

[inamindfarfaraway]

The Exorcists’ Masks of Virtue

The vast majority of Exorcists in Hazbin Hotel have a notable design element that other angels don’t: their masks are missing an eye. Specifically, the right eye.

I believe this is a reference to the Bible, Matthew 5:29. Jesus says, “If your right eye causes you to stumble, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell.”

He’s being hyperbolic. Mr Free Healthcare was not pro-mutilation. What he means is that you have to be willing to make sacrifices to prevent sin. The context of the eye metaphor is him condemning adultery and warning that even something as easy, casual and small as a look full of lustful intent can lead to further, worse sin if you don’t notice your sin, hold yourself accountable for it and do the work to not let it influence your decisions. This will probably be hard. It could be very, very painful. Changing your perspective can feel as horrible as plucking out your eye, so many people can’t bring themselves to do it. But although it won’t feel that way in the moment, it’s healthier for our general wellbeing in the long run to abandon traits and behaviours that damage ourselves and/or others.

(You may notice that Jesus’s teaching that you can have sinned, redeem yourself by giving up sin and thus escape damnation is the founding principle of the Hazbin Hotel. You may also notice that it contradicts everything the Exorcists believe.)

The Exorcists seem to follow this idea of painfully excising badness for the sake of the greater good devoutly to the point of placing it above teachings like ‘Thou shalt not kill’, with their job being to remove sin, in the form of sinners, to protect Heaven. Hence the missing right eyes. They’re a declaration of moral righteousness and inability to stumble.

But the truth is that the Exorcists all have their right eyes. Their flawlessness is a facade. Underneath, they are untouched, think themselves morally untouchable and, as shown by their horror and outrage when even one of them is killed, would much rather be physically untouchable too. This perfectly represents their complete unwillingness to acknowledge their own faults, let alone improve. They are never the ones who sacrifice. They force the sinners to sacrifice and don’t compensate it with any salvation. They metaphorically rip out the sinners’ eyes, but still condemn their entire bodies as inherently, permanently sinful. So they’ll just have to do another Extermination to get the other eyes! And another one to cut off their right hands! And so on until there’s nothing left.

The only exception to the rule is Vaggie, both in appearance and character. Her mask has the left eye crossed out instead. Even before her expulsion, she’s set apart to the audience as an Exorcist who has the capacity to, shall we say, see a different side of things. Her mask having its ‘sinful’ right eye reflects her understanding that the Exorcist worldview is wrong.

When she almost kills a demon child, her hateful vision clears. She discards the part of herself that’s an unquestioning, merciless agent of death, terror and grief… and as punishment for what Lute perceives as treacherous weakness, gets her eye plucked out.

Of course Lute leaves her with only the ‘sinful’ eye. It brands Vaggie forever as the inversion, a perversion, of what the Exorcists are meant to be.

You know, all this talk of eye removal in the Bible reminds of another line - ‘an eye for an eye’. Adam directly quotes it in “Hell is Forever”. He uses it to frame the Exterminations as Old Testament-style punitive justice; the sinners did harm and so they receive it. But putting aside the debate about how ethical the concept of revenge is, the entire point of taking an eye for an eye is that it’s proportional. The punishment fits the crime. If someone cuts your eye out, you shouldn’t murder their whole family in front of them and then slowly disembowel them to death. That would be the sin of wrath. You should just make them pay without excessive pain or collateral damage. This is the fairest form of revenge.

The Exorcists don’t do that! The Exterminations aren’t proportional to the wrongs of all they hurt, nor was Vaggie’s brutal punishment equivalent to her extremely mild insubordination. Lute literally takes Vaggie’s eye, and more, after Vaggie does nothing to her! That’s the opposite of the phrase! Adam and his soldiers are wrathful and cruel, deriving satisfaction from others’ suffering. But they just can’t stop going on and on about how disgustingly evil the sinners are, in total hypocrisy… despite some of the sinners being far better people than the genocidal Exorcists are… it’s like they’re obsessed with specks of dust in the sinners’ eyes when they have massive logs stuck in their own. Oh hey, that’s in the Bible too!

#both emotionally and symbolically i am rooting for vaggie or charlie to take out one of lute’s eyes #i was like ‘cool vaggie’s missing the opposite eye to her former mask!’ #and then i went back and saw that her mask was also different #and then i went down a rabbit hole of biblical mentions of bad things happening to eyes #i know god and jesus (and the holy spirit) probably won’t appear in the show #at least not in person #but i do cherish the mental image of adam and his genocidal army hanging out #when jesus christ bursts in with a whip #and gets all ‘you have made my father’s house into a den of thieves’ on them but an order of magnitude more intense #because HE SAID LOVE ONE ANOTHER #WHERE IS THE LOVE #HE SPECIFICALLY REQUESTED IT #i’m not christian! i’m a hardcore atheist! #religion is just as fictious to me as egyptian mythology #however i am also autistic and have major special interests in mythology and folklore #so here i am fervently writing analysis of the sermon on the mount #hazbin hotel #hazbin vaggie #hazbin hotel vaggie #vaggie #hazbin hotel exorcists #hazbin exorcists #hazbin hotel analysis #hazbin analysis

[sparklecryptid]

I had no patience for people policing other peoples ships before i went to library tech school and library tech school has make me a little bit pissy about the entire thing actually.

#its 1:47am i am not going to rant about it #but Jesus Christ on a cracker i hate how censorship has become common and almost mainstream if it’s ’for the right reasons’ #fuck you and fuck your ‘right reasons’ #there is no reason to deny someone the ability to create or access material that you don’t agree with #‘but-‘ i do not careeee about your arguement it is my job as a library worker to provide ACCESS TO INFORMATION FOR EVERYONE #‘but it has siblings that kiss!’ DONT CARE. BOOKS DO NOT DICTATE MORALS. MOVE ON. #‘but it has (insert other thing)’ DONT CARE. THE PATRON ASKED FOR THIS BOOK. THEY ARE GETTING THE BOOK. NEXT #‘but but but THE CHILDREN’ THE CHILDREN NEED ACCESS TO INFORMATION JUST LIKE THE REST OF US. I AM NOT PARENTING YOUR CHILD. #IF CONTENT MAKES YOUR CHILD UNCOMFORTABLE BECOME THE PERSON THEY GO TO TO TALK TO IT ABOUT #OR TELL THEM THAT ITS OKAY TO CLOSE THE BOOK AND PUT IT AWAY #IT IS NOT MY JOB TO MAKE SURE YOUR CHILD IS FOLLOWING WHATEVER RULES YOU HAVE ON MEDIA CONSUMPTION AT YOUR HOUSE #MY JOB IS TO PROVIDE THE BOOK.DVD.THING. THEY WANT #YOUR CHILD NEEDS TO LEARN HOW TO CONSUME MEDIA CRITCIALLY AND THAT SOMETIMES THAT INCLUDES #READING THINGS THAT MAKE THEM UNCOMFORTABLE AND THEN HAVING A SAFE ADULT TO TALK TO IT ABOUT #AND NEWSFLASH: IF YOU ARE NOT SEEN AS SOMEONE SAFE TO HAVE A CONVERSATION WITH YOUR CHILD WILL GO ELSEWHERE OR JUST #NEVER TELL YOU WHAT THEY ARE CHECKING OUT #anyway. turns out i did go on a rant. whoops. #moose rants

[goozeghost]

To celebrate 10 years in this god forsaken fandom, I redrew the og art of my fave paranormal investigators !

Singles and small rant below cut :P

Cannot believe it’s been a damn decade. This fandom and these characters have done so much to shape me and help me turn into the person- and artist!!- I am today, and I am forever grateful for the friends I’ve made along the way. (You know who you are 😉)

I cannot believe young Gooze looked at Johnny Ghost and said Yeah, that’s my entire personality now, and then it WAS. Now I’m an inducted thespian with a love for dramatizing everything, and for doing stupid voices, and a buncha other stuff. I even took his name, Johnny/Ghost. Which I suppose a lot of us have, huh?

Anyway if you’re looking down here, hi, here’s the first ever piece of fanart young Gooze did (that I can find)

(Yes, that’s Ghost and Jimmy. And yeah it’s bad, but I was a very young child. Let’s appreciate how far I’ve come, yeah?)

#taleblr #johnny ghost #johnny toast #venturiantale #jesus christ i cannot believe its been 10 years #the impact this shit has had on me… lord… #i will never forgive Them for turning out the way they did #but i can continue to love these characters and the Things they gave me #my love for theatre and drama and improv and doing voices. my love for the paranormal. my entire sense of humour. #johnny ghost literally came to my house and transed my gender and forced me to be hella annoying the rest of my life #also fun fact Johnny Toast was my first ever fictional crush ! and now i call scratch (his model) my wife. so. #thats just funny to me. JHGHGHDFS #i realized the other day it has in fact been 10 years. since 2014. i remember young me sitting in class doodling the vt logo frm memory #shit blows me away. young me had no idea what i was getting into #watching that shitty lil gmod rp channel. had no idea the person it would turn me into. #taleblr fandom i love you. i give yall big smooches. yall are amazing and i thank yall for indulging my silly art #ik. i havent been posting art long. but yknow. still.

[torchickentacos]

#vent post #ok to rb without screenshotting the tags but idk why you'd do that anyways #I'm once again wishing every fellow adult living with their parents a very 'I'm sorry o7' #mom's getting on my case about 'not wanting to be part of the family' #but if dinners are always silent and uncomfortable with all of us not talking then I think it's normal for me to leave the table #when I'm done eating. it's not 'not wanting to be part of the family' it's just not wanting to be somewhere awkward as hell lmfao #like oh okay sorry let me sit here for another fifteen minutes silently bc y'all ignore every conversation I try to start. jesus christ. #goddddddddddddddddddd fuck the housing market lmao #I love my family but I'd like them a hell of a lot more if I didn't live here #a little distance does wonders #anywaysssss sending love to everyone else who is perpetually stuck at home. esp oldest siblings and ill folk 🤝 #we'll get out eventually #no more silent dinners and people who find your optimism and attempts to lighten the mood to be juvenile #stay miserable and pragmatic and 'realist'. no joy or whimsy. fucking whatever. I'm not sinking down to cynicism. #what's the opposite of being the moody black sheep of the family lmao. I'm the only one who seems to enjoy being unserious #ok. vent over but fr anyone else stuck at home when they don't want to be: i love you and we'll figure it out in time. things WILL work out #delete later???

[unloneliest]

the problem of the matter is i did internalize so much of what ex friend believed about me. even though i knew he was wrong and knew what was happening and tried to stop it and if i took more action to stop it would have been abusing power i held in a way i couldn't live with myself for.

#A BAD PERSON TRYING TO RUIN YOUR LIFE WOULD'VE GOTTEN YOU FIRED AND EVICTED IN WINTER IN ALASKA YOU MOTHERFUCKER. WHICH I DID NOT DO #he was renting a room from my dad. for cheaper than he wouldve been able to find anywhere else. his brother was too #his brother didn't pay rent for over 6 months and my dad just forgave him the debt because my dad knew how much of a difference it wouldve #made when he was that age. and i had told him ex friend was family to me & my dad applied that to the brother too. bc he is a good person. #and one of the strongest parts of my support system. and i didn't say a word to him about what was happening until i knew he already had a #plan for when he would be ending ex friend's lease. so there would be no subconscious impact on ex friend's housing either #mgmt at work straight up asked me if i thought ex friend should be fired immediately multiple times and i'm in retrospect livid they put me #in that position but told them to go by the strike system in the employee handbook and to follow policy that ex friend knew perfectly. that #it couldn't be on me as acting assistant manager to choose #and after 10 months of workplace harassment i got a different job to save my life. ex friend didn't get fired. #he did saw trap shit to my brain!!!!!! jesus christ #he moved cross country to live with his long time gf he called his wife despite never having met irl. to a way more conservative state. #despite being gay. and she left him this summer lol #hadn't checked his twitter in over a year when it got pulled up frm an old link and i saw that. and when he was already at a low point too #me voice. oh no who could've seen this coming. from how you behave in every relationship in your life #may delete this in the morning. but i have to talk about it sometimes #i'm never reaching out for closure both bc he wouldn't give me any and because i know it would trigger him and i don't intentionally trigge #people. unlike him :) #vampire pit #like. i have to talk about it sometimes. i have to talk about it. #jam posts

[daz4i]

rocket sirens will have you noticing how so many songs you like have a high pitched droning sound in them that, when muffled, might sound like a siren and thus wake up neighbors who are currently more sensitive to it. oy vey

#i don't even mean actual siren sounds. which. songs like mama literally have in them #i also mean like the first few seconds of heavy news. imagine hearing it through a few walls. #it can sound like sirens from afar! i think! which might wake someone up more than just music would! #bc everyone's on edge and keeps an ear out to these sirens even more. #(speaking of. jesus christ. they put one right next to my building. and it's fucking deafening fr) #(had one today not long after i woke up and i swear i had a beeping sound going off in my ears for a bit afterwards. it's so loud) #(i get WHY they put it there. it's sometimes unclear if a siren is over here or some city next to us) #(and it has to be loud to. yknow. reach every house in the vicinity. but MAN. my poor ears 😭)

[cosmicrhetoric]

the really beautiful thing abt extended family visits is that i haven't even seen them yet and im already ready to rip my hair out

#calling me at 8 am like hi can we come over :) NO????????? we had a PLAN???? #and then getting guilted into getting my ass up and waking up my house and heading to rendevous with them only for them to text me like #LOL sorry we havent left yet HAHA #am i just going to sit in my fucking car for 20 minutes cause you guys wanted to change our itinerary???????????? at EIGHT AM?? #acting like theyre doing me a favor. jesus fucking christ. #AND I'm going to have to pay for breakfast cause im first daughter who moved out on my own income and its expected

[nerdie-faerie]

I've got two family events coming up during term time and I'm trying to decide if the trips are worth the cost by asking if my family is actually going to be attending them and my mum's response was 'I might be able to convince your dad if we know you're going :)' girl I'm not spending nearly £60 just to come down for the weekend only to then find out I'm going by myself

#+Extra #travel tag #one of my cousins has a babyshower coming up in may on a Sunday when i have class on Monday #i already know my mum isnt intending to go to that one and my aunt that lives in between me and them also isnt going so i cant go with them #its the most inconvenient of the two and i have to be home a week after so ive declined that one #but another cousin recently announced an engagement/housing warming party weekend at the end of april #and when my mum told me about it i asked if she was going so i knew whether or not to look into tickets #and she hit me with the 'might go if you do :)' girl im not risking £60 on a maybe especially cus getting there will be a nightmare #its not all the way down south with the rest of my family so its technically closer but if im travelling there i need to know #whether to come early and go all the way home so i can arrive with my family on the day or travel down the day of & get there a little late #in the day in the city where its happening and figure out how to get to the event by myself and sort out getting ready and everything #or like to not bother what so ever and theres no guarantee which day theyll go cus its both Saturday and/or Sunday #ideally id only go Saturday cus i got class first thing monday but i also dont wanna be there by myself #im not close with my cousins and my dad doesnt get along with my mums side of the family so its highly likely id be there by myself #which i absolutely do not want especially if im getting there late cus of relying on public transport #edit: itll cost between £50-£120 to travel o.o depending on how i travel #if i get the train the whole way cus its quicker and times are more convenient itll cost £120 for a return for a 3 hour trip #or i could spend £40ish to get there by train then £10 on an overnight coach back #which is cheaper than the £60ish it would cost to get coaches both ways and the travel times for coaches were ridiculous #but jesus christ 🤦‍♀️

[universalsatan]

kinda wanna set up a betting pool for the ao3 ship brackets. i don’t even know who with, i just wanna be right

#not like i have extra money. it really Is all about the Being Right 💅 #lets see… #MSR is going to dominate. obviously. this is mostly personal but they better absolutely demolish the rest of the tournament #hmm money’s on magnus/alec #then amity/luz. shoutout to those owl house lesbians or whatever for demolishing two hp ships in advance. extra money on them #ohhh fuck i dont actually know where to put my money here. fuck me #i might go with yuuri/victor to play smart. bc i have a feeling jack/ianto mightve been the same just to get larry out of the tourney #supercorp. finally the hp evil can be defeated. we can come together for this #uhhh bagginshield #… if i want to win money i will say blackbeard and stede. jesus christ #oh and im putting my money on wangxian bc im mostly sure a lot of ppl probably voted clint/coulson to spite reylo. bc i did that <3 #sasunaru sweep for side 2 round 3 #look. i have a feeling it’s cause there werent many advocates for hawaii five 0 and most of the votes came from anti wincests #so im putting my money on merthur. we can also defeat This evil #yeah catadora over steve/tony. down with marvel etcetc #hannigram over frerard. oh i guess the voter amount difference is much larger than i expected but supports my hypothesis #if i wanna win the bet. steve/eddie #spirk will fuckin sweep. as they should #OH GOOD. I MIGHT BE ABLE TO RELIABLY PUT MY MONEY ON TENROSE let’s fuckin go #dont get me wrong im still a hoe for aziracro. but tenrose hits me like a fuckin train. and nostalgia #and then. uhhh actually im not too sure. maybe the lesbians??? l #thank you everyone have a good night. #mandont

[camgoloud]

the unaffordability of one bedroom apartments in my area is something that can be so oppressive to me personally

#when i’m actively cooking something over a fire with earbuds in i’m not interested in having a five minute conversation with you. #when there’s visible food and grease all over the countertops that DOES in fact mean the kitchen should be cleaned soon yes even if we’ve #let it get worse than this before. if you want to send a text to the house group chat about pooling money to buy a new vacuum that’s great #and you can go ahead and do that without asking me while i’m busy exactly how you should phrase said text. if you use my knives you should #fucking PUT THEM BACK (three are now missing) and preferably without bits of food stuck on them though at this point i’m not even picky. #there are youtube videos about how to wash your dishes if you really can’t figure it out yourself it’s not the kind of thing you need to ask #your female housemate how to do. just. jesus CHRIST #my food is burned and i’m in a cranky mood and i can’t fucking take this anymore #my standards of cleanliness are clearly different from everyone else’s in this house which is just not a great situation to be in #god. anyway i’ve been feeling guilty because i’m finally starting to learn how to play the guitar so i’m going to be making a fair amount #of unpleasant noise in the house this year probably but tbh they can all just learn to live with it. #i am no longer feeling particularly interested in being considerate #caseyposting

[comic-sans-chan]

Big part of why Cardassians became colonizers and spread out to so many different planets (besides the fact that they suck) is because they have an overpopulation issue. They fuck and they fuck often and have kids often and throw them away like they're nothing. Orphans are very common and it's taboo but it's inevitable. Yes, family is everything, and that's why when you have a kid with someone you don't intend to permanently settle down with, that kid gets discarded. Kids outside of family units don't count as citizens. There are no single parent households without that single parent being a widow/widower. Proud legacy or bust.

Pregnancy and birth are not the long and painful processes that they are for humans and are in fact highly eroticized. Cardassians experience a burst of gluttony and lay eggs shortly after sex without any medical assistance. Those eggs get stuck in an incubator for months. Oftentimes that incubator is in an orphanage, so orphans never so much as lay eyes on their parents and familial bonds only start in earnest after hatching, so it's no skin off the parents' backs. 

This makes them sound like cold heartless assholes, because they are, but it should be noted that it is considered the morally correct and kind thing to destroy eggs after laying them and most parents can't make themselves do that. So, if an orphan egg is left to hatch, that is in itself an act of some complicated love. Except that the kids are then doomed to be chimney sweeps or gardeners or tailors or Obsidian Order agents banned from familial attachments or w/e. It is taboo to not destroy eggs, but it is common. 

#deep space nine #ds9 #my posts #i am meta-ing excuse me #trying to make sense of the gilora situation and that fucking ''i'm fertile'' line cuz jesus christ #the gluttony period is why gilora and ulani don't like cardassian cuisine anymore #that whole food scene is them basically saying they're always dtf but they prefer aliens (jadzia gets it) #this has been in my drafts for too long and it jump scares me every time i see it #i need it out of my house

[omarfor-orchestra]

"Non farlo piangere" girl he literally cries in his mother's arms when he's trying to fall asleep because he gets frustrated when he can't and now I'm making him cry???????????????

#i don't understand how they see this child thing #he's a child. he cries. sometimes he cries for things you have to say no about #like you must say no. why is it so hard for you to understand it and most importantly why the HELL am I the one who's somehow behaving #like the mother when she's not around #I'm so pissed off about this situation Imma scream one day #again. i love my nephew more than my honestly unworthy life for what I'm doing with it #but I'm 23 and i never asked to be a mother and i just want to do my things and have like a little corner for myself #and to be left alone for 5 minutes #which can't happen apparently bc I can't even go to the bathroom without my mother going 'let's see what auntie is doing!' #gurl what do you think I'm doing??????? #I'm so fucking tired #and once again why the hell does he have to sleep here tonight when his father is perfectly able to take care of him #i swear if i were to see him once a week I'd be more than happy but every day gets exhausting #and in the middle of it all i also have to listen to my mother scold me for no reason. no one ever says 'oh thank you' #jesus christ #I'll never EVER have children btw #and i hope I don't fall in love with a cis man because if this is how they are I'm very tempted to commit a murder rn #I'm tired out of my mind bc me and my mother had to cook and clean the whole house for tomorrow. do you think #my father raised a single finger despite knowing we needed a hand? #fuck them when i get financially stable enough to leave they'll see me once a year #if they're lucky #again. I can't have my therapist tell me all this things which i start to think about daily and leave me on my own for a whole week #bc then i go insane #sorry I'll prob delate this later #rant #i realize now the post doesn't make sense without context but i was trying to make him sleep and he cried a little #like he. always does btw but somehow today it was my fault

[jeezypetes]

Ahhhh the job I thought i didn’t get bc they never got back to me after my interview (which I thought went really well) just reached out to me bc apparently the person they tried to hire backed out.,.. and now its gonna be like another month of wondering if I’m gonna have to decide if I want to move to another state where I don’t know anyone. And i was kind of relieved when i never heard back bc I’m really happy here with my family and gf and friends but the fact is my job here is a contract with very slim hopes of developing into a real job with benefits and i live with my parents bc i love them and our house and our town but i know i have to seriously consider this opportunity bc it would be a good career move and i want to live a rich and interesting life. But I don’t want to talk about it with anyone irl because my dad has covid which has been my number 1 fear since the start of the pandemic (he’s 71 and immunocompromised but he’s doing well and not needed the hospital) and I just want to be able to only worry about that I can’t even talk about the job thing which i drove myself and everyone around me crazy with already back in October. Which is why I’m just posting it vjfdhk I’m being tormented by forces beyond my control i feel like this is the sort of thing it would be really helpful to believe in God about

#like people who say He has a plan which i guess is comforting but his plans are so inscrutable they may as well be random. but some people #think he wants the best for us??? which seems so unlikely to me I can’t even try to believe it #anyways i think my dad willbe fine but I’m worried about long term health issues which would make it really really hard to move away bc my #mom is already basically disabled. and i want the house I want it so bad but I can’t afford to buy it from them bc our neighborhood has #gotten sooo much more expensive then it was when they moved here in the 80s and i know they’re planning on selling it to fund their #retirement. but i love it here so much I want to live here forever and die here but its not realistic and maybe it would be easier if i #moved away and put down roots somewhere else and then it will be less painful when they sell the house and less painful when they die #i just want things ro stay likethis forever I’ve #spent so much time these past few years walking around this neighborhood its like the veins in my arms i can live other places i have for #years but they never get this deep im so scared for the futuy #future but there’s absolutely nothing i can do to stop it. except kill myself i guess but it’s #not nearly at that point yet ckgdf it would make a lot of people very upset. it is sort of comforting to remember though i have that option. #god i hope they don’t offer me the job I’m a wreck just thinking about it #i really haven’t made any special efforts to reach out to them or anything. obv I wasn’t their first choice i have no idea if I’m their #second. i think they really liked me but I’m guessing im younger and less experienced than other candidates #hi if ur reading this btw its me a stranger on the internet and you know something my closest friends and family don’t know. congrats #I’ll talk to someone in a few days when my dad is feeling better. really hope my mom doesn’t get sick too she’s been coughing a bit but #testing negative. idc if i get covid i actually hope i get it bc that will prove I didn’t give it to my dad asymptotically #that’s not a secret i toldmy mom she was like jesus Christ don’t think like that

[pepprs]

the renovation starts tmrrw (LOL) and i woke up from a dream abt it crying. awesome

#today is our last day having a deck and i genuinely feel sick to my stomach over it. ik it’s just a piece of wood and it’s falling apart but #omg like… o ur house is about to not be our house anymore. like the deck is where me and my siblings played w our best friends it’s where i #paced back and forth to get fresh air so many times ater losing my shit during lockdown and it’s literally about to be gone…. forever? ok!!! #and then the kitchen is going to go and im going to lose it genuinely. like this house is shitty and rotting and falling apart and its great #that we are getting a renovation finally but jesus christ i have lived here all my life and yeah i hate the kitchen but it’s home and you’re #just gonna tear it down and make jt 3x bigger like it’s nothing??? ok 😂😂😂😂😂😂 #purrs #literally im getting war flashbacks to losing the van which was never gonna drive again but it was my SPACE for all of lockdown and #it got fucking junked after being my sanctuary (as unpleasant as it was) for like 2 years not to mention OUR CAR that we did everything in a #and now we have my grandparents car and there isn’t a backseat so i don’t get room to breathe when they drive. and also my grandparents #house has officially been demolished to make way for a fucking mansion and the near total renovation of my high school is almost done which #means the classroom where i became a human being is gone and the office is going to get destroyed too when that renovation happens and we’ll #have to go make a home somewhere else. i know this kind of thing happens but it makes me want to start screaming. like yeah these #renovations will make life better for everyone (except the fucking mansion it’s bc my grandparents died and the developers are selfish and #cruel lol!!!!!) but the way so many of the spaces that have been important to me keep ending up getting destroyed after im done w them. it’s #comforting in a way bc it’s like oh no one else gets to have it be important but also no that ISNT comforting i want those spaces to keep #being sacred i want them to mean something to other people and i want to be able to go back and soak in the memories again. and everyone is #mad at me for freaking out the renovation but it’s like ok you come into our living space you destroy core parts of my childhood and also #create a situation where we literally can’t like eat or cook anything in the house for months like idk what we’re gonna do bc we don’t go #anywhere bc of covid except work for me and school for my brother so. idk. this whole thing SUCKS. i can’t believe it’s starting tomorrow #and i can’t believe the deck is about to be gone. pain and suffering and pain and suffering and pain and suffering.

[scottspack]

it’s so so so weird to go back home and visit normies living normie life and realizing that that’s so far disconnected from the life I’m living and that our goals and motives and day to day lives are so fundamentally different that it’s actually hard to relate to them and talk to them normally

#the normies in ohio: I want to get married at 24 :) and have a baby by 26 :) and put a down payment on a house :) #and be obedient to my cop husband :) #me: [vibrating out of my skin] DONT YOU WANT TO STOP BEING KIND. DONT YOU WANT TO JUST GO APESHIT⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ #GOD!!!!!!!! #I know that women’s liberation looks different to everyone a #and that not every woman wants the same thing I do #but Jesus Christ #the sheeple are stressing me out #I’m BEGGING people to leave their home town #or to AT LEAST make friends with people who look different from them and live different lives than them #god damn it’s so depressing to meet these people #THE WORLD IS SO BIG AND BEAUTIFUL AND SURPRISING AND CHALLENGING AND REWARDING AND EXCITING #AND YOUVE NEVER LEFT CLEVELAND OHIO⁉️⁉️⁉️ #and IM the freak at this SPD gathering???? #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHKEJDKSHCKErbekfkrlvslxuGHDLWHDKEHKFD

[bunnyb34r]

Cranky today :/

#my coworkers are fucking insane with how they treat animals like jesus fucking christ what is wrong with you??? that's a living animal not #a toy and no your cat is not a demon its fucking scared its in a new house and YOU KEEP SCREAMING SO OFC ITS GONNA PISS! #the one wants to give her kids dog away bc hes in college now and the dog is having major separation anxiety bc shes never been without him #SO OFC SHES PISSING INSIDE!! like why did you let him get a dog if you had planned on getting rid of it when he went to college??? #and im crabby bc there was a pallet of my shit at the other end but no one told me bc we saw blue label blue label = mens IT WAS CHILDREN'S #AND NONE OF THEM CHECKED UNTIL 6AM! like i could have had that shit out and done by now you fucking assholes like why wouldnt you check #when you were bitching ab not having anything to put out?? like okay blue labels YOURS so check what it is holy shit! #and this is after i struggled to repack 2 pallets of shit alone like... i hate yall so much #marquilla #at least i go home soon bc jfc im DONE.