@sorceryparable (continued)
> not that i blame your guy. i would also hate to be in here if i didn't have to.
he manages a sort of reedy whine- and, in true cas fashion (or perhaps true cat fashion, it was hard to distinguish the two) looks incorrigibly proud of himself for it.
> then again, whoever 'she' is- uh- i don't wanna know her either. whoever gets that amount of stress put on their pronouns is not someone id wanna...you know, meet in a dark alley. not that there's any of those around. don't wanna run into her in the employee lounge, if you get my drift- no, that doesn't have nearly the same ring to it.
> whoever 'she' is sounds scary as fuck. there we go. that's what i'm tryna say.
the next three notes are almost a scale- and, failing that only slightly, are not...wholly horrible to hear.
> oh, god. well, telling you now, 'pleasant' and 'musical' are not words ever used to describe me. so. sorry. in advance. um.
more by luck then judgement, he almost manages to harmonise with batt for a whole four seconds. that, or he simply excels at also playing with no real key or signature to follow. probably a mixture of both.
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my files for steam are literally so fucked idk how this happened. speaking as someone who doesn't know what the fuck they're doing,,, gonna just uninstall everything having to do with steam? and then reinstall from scratch? steam please have mercy?
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uhhhh cw? I talk about adhd struggles
the worst part about getting diagnosed with adhd is needing to come to terms that this is actually a real disability that I have that does affect basically every aspect of my life. it's fun to laugh along to adhd jokes and relatable content and think haha sorry my adhd makes me a lil funny silly guy sometimes. but. at the end of the day. this is a disability. and one I live with. and one that gets debilitating some days. and one that very much fucks up with my life and my plans more than I'd like to admit. acknowledging and admitting that this is a real thing that very much gets in the way of my life and makes things that are easy for others so difficult for me. that's genuinely the hardest part. cause once you do? it's hard to not feel hopeless. or scorned. like you've been dealt an unfair hand. and cause when you admit that, then you also gotta admit that youre spending the rest of your life working doubly hard than everyone else. and there's nothing you can do about it.
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more transition rambling
as upset as i sometimes get about not passing, i still love what transitioning is doing for/to my body so much. like i never get sick of seeing how hairy i’m getting, i’m impatient for more facial hair and so excited to have stubble and one side burn (and i would love for both side burns to come in.) my chest hair has started coming in the past few weeks and THATS been a thrill.
every time i hear myself singing and actually like how i sound? every time i laugh weird and sound like my brother, who i love so much? every time i see a friend for the first time in awhile
it’s just, life has been so hard for like, a year and a half now, and while i do think i’m finally on the upswing, there’s a lot of new trauma to deal with. but one thing i’ve learned from all this is how to take care of myself so, so well. i can love and care for myself now in ways i never imagined being possible. and having a body that actually brings me joy makes that so much easier.
and like, it’s especially resonant to have a body that actually brings JOY when i’ve had chronic pain since i was 12. when this all started because i got a new disability. my body can do less and hurts more and i still love it more. its harder to care for, but i’m trying harder.
transitioning has saved my life in SO many ways i could not be more grateful that i finally did it
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