#so theres no reason to leave

[andragoras-in-vanity]

my head hurts, im bleeding still (more so than before i called ny clinic), im so stressed i want to cry cause i have no support and so much to do and all i want is my person cause everyone is in christmas mode and i cant handle this time of year alone again

#i never leave the house becuase its too exhausting and painful so i never get the chance to meet people #and theres nothing to do here and i swear this is the city of the worlds ugliest men anyway #so theres no reason to leave #and i cant use dating apps cause im trans and the only one thats actually decent to trans people isnt popular #and again some of yall are just the most boring people alive id rather kill myself than subject myself to that #like genuinely i cant fathom how these people are so average and so ugly all at once and all seem to have the same personality #like great okay i like dnd too but why is it your only personality trait #maybe your life isnt as empty as mine but its definitely not interesting either #like...i just want my one person #at this point thats all i want in life anyway cause nothing else is worth the effort #and instead i have to watch so many ungrateful people get what i desperately need #honestly do aby of you know what its like to have no idea when the next time if youll get to kiss someone? #youll get to like someone enough to want to? #but have no idea if or when itll happen when every atom of you feel likes its being ripped apart from want and need and #a history that hates you and your own body being unreliable and in pain? #i want to throw up over it all i cant do this any more and im sick to death of all of you who brag about shit you dont deserve #you had your taste of goodness sit down shut the fuck up and let some of the rest of us whove never had anything get a taste too

[dykedvonte]

There is something uniquely kind and disturbing that Benny and the Khans ambushed the Courier and brought them to a cemetery to be killed.

It's an unmarked shallow grave. They would've died with no name and no one to come to look for them, not a thought in anyone's head expect and afterthought for their killer. But in that, they are still laid to rest. No one they know will visit them but their grave will be visited, maintained at least by the townspeople of Goodsprings. Unresolved but not forgotten.

Benny did not choose the cemetery out of kindness, it was pragmatic as people are likely to not mess with a grave in a town like Goodsprings, fresh or not.

After all... It's rude to disturb the dead, though, what does that mean if they were never truly made to rest?

#something something bennys plans for the courier at the beginning are so impersonal but marked by little things that explore his thought #process cause honestly leaving the courier on the side of the road for a scorpion to get wouldve been better than so close to town but he #chose to make the khans bring you there and bury you #two bullets is usually enought and he had no reason to think youd live but he seems more thurough like hed def be like throw em in a scorp #nest but theres an odd amount of respect and letting you see his face before you get shot and making sure to bury you #most executions are less polite #fallout #fallout new vegas #benny gecko #benny fnv #the courier #courier six #the great khans #khans fnv

[koishisjumpscaremansion]

sinclair (plural)

#limbus company #lcb #limbus #sinclair lcb #I see people draw cinqlair and nclair together a lot so #theres no reason for this drawing i just wanted to draw my versions of them again #sorry i kind of gave up near the end lol #people always leave out bl sinclair in their drawings and im guilty of that too but my reason for doing so is that i dont have bl sinclair

[bonebabbles]

I keep starting and abandoning posts that go into my drafts, as I try to stay tasteful about how fucking revolted this part makes me. Like, I'm legitimately unsure if the very relevant trauma I have is making me see things that aren't here

But first we see that Star Flower is trying to ingratiate herself to the group, just after she reappears from chapter 5. Chapter 5 is about how Clear Sky is still abusive towards his son, and she comes in after stroking his ego, stressing how alone she is, and appealing to how she'll be loyal unlike his child. (She glances over at Thunder, directly implying this.)

Now in Chapter 9, she's babysitting and trying to care for Milkweed's kits (in spite of discomfort from Milkweed), taking a wet sleeping space away from the others, and pulling more than her own weight "without complaint." Putting herself through harsh sitations to prove her worth.

All while trying to appear extra attractive to Thunder, and later Clear Sky. Basically every man in power who can "protect her"

Like, am I going fucking crazy? With how we later find out that Star Flower was "promised as a mate" to One Eye's subordinate Slash, is... is that hypersexualization? One of the extremely stigmatized symptoms of sexual abuse?

She goes to find Clear Sky alone to throw herself at his paws, and he's very quickly attracted to how she promises to perfectly obey him, have no needs of her own, and finally be the perfect servant that he desires

"I don't deserve your trust because I am dirt. I understand you because I also regret something. I'd die for you. I'll never betray you unlike those who have."

This isn't manipulation. She means this. The story is playing their romance sincerely. She's comparing "betraying" Thunder by telling her own father about an assassination ambush to Clear Sky's history of child abuse, physical assault, and murder

She believes she's on the same level as this; a monster who murdered a childhood friend in a fit of entitled rage. She was a victim of One Eye who really believes that the way her father used her means she "understands" this monster, deserves this treatment.

And Clear Sky LIKES that.

He likes that she will have COMPLETE FAITH in him. That she will follow him WITHOUT QUESTION. That she will OBEY his orders. That's fucking verbatim, that's THE TEXT!!!

WHILE HE'S STILL CRYING ABOUT "ive tried to atone every day" FOLLOWING THE LAST TWO BOOKS WHERE THE ONLY SHITTY THING HE DOESN'T DO IS MURDER INNOCENT WOMEN

Am I insane?? Am I wrong??? Am I missing something here???? Why the fuck is the fandom takeaway "haha sexy girl steals his dad." Did I read the same book

#Csa mention #Did they once again do a misogyny so hard they accidentally gave their woman character trauma #My tip to anyone in a draining relationship. If your partner fetishizes that YOU would never leave or betray them unlike ''all the others'' #RUN. #There may be a reason their exes cut ties with them and they're praising you for ignoring red flags #Especially when your partner is significantly older and more experienced #Theres nothing noble about constantly suffering for the sake of 'loyalty' #Star Flower PLEASE get out of here you dont fucking deserve this you did nothing wrong #Bones reads dotc #Dotc hate #I thought i was just remembering things wrong when i was adding the subtheme of thunder having a connection to star via abusive dads- #-in my dotc rewrite. But no it's right there. It's in the text and it's something clear is attracted to #I abuse the shit out of my son and he left me once over it #But i can abuse this girl his same age and she won't run. Finally! A victim who won't leave! #And then they become mates and she births at least two litters #Cw abuse #sa mention #EDIT: I've changed the language just slightly #because the timeline COULD work out that starf was an adult when she was promised to slash for a very brief window of time #and hypersexualization is a symptom of trauma resulting from many types of sex abuse. Even that done when the victim was an adult. #it's just more common in CSA

[lottieurl]

shaunajackie + solaris by stanisław lem (1/?)

#yellowjacketsedit #96yellowjackets #yellowjacketsource #shaunajackie #part 1 cause i decided it looks better as its own thing but i have like 5 more quotes to use lmao #i spent way too much time deciding on placement of the text so let me just rant abt it #the idea is. first you see space around them and between them. TIME between them #and mountains both because of the space they remind you of #and in the show you immediately think of the hills and the snow #like that IS the reason #then they are close in the memory shauna sees but theres already a wall between them #jeff is what they are talking about #jackie is forced to stay with shauna in those memories jackie who was clinging to shauna so hard before it all fell apart #and then the last one is.. quite obvious i think. noose around her neck #she cant leave she made her entire life revolve around jackie built her life on her memory #i am being so incredibly normal whos gonna give me an award for being SO NORMAL #shaunajackie solaris #yellowjackets blogging

[moodymisty]

I very very rarely get upset on this blog, but this email pissed me the FUCK off. I’ve gotten quite a few messages with this tone before, but this one really set me off. It's been a shit week for me, and I didn't need this.

I spend hours a week trying to write shit for free for all of you, because I genuinely enjoy it and love it so so so much. Your ideas and comments make me so happy. But sometimes I need to take a fucking break.

Three days ago one of my birds suddenly went from alive and happy to seizing and dying in my arms while I comforted her the best I could, so I'm taking a few days off. Sorry if that's inconvenient for you.

Jesus Christ. And you guys fucking wonder why so many other writers are so fed up with the 'content' grindstone and just quit or hide in private discords. You don’t update something for a bit and you get people knocking at your door like you're fucking Wal-mart. If you can’t be bothered to add a few more words to your comment, why should I be bothered to write more.

Put some basic fucking human effort into communicating with the people who spend hours creating your self indulgence pieces out of kindness and a love of the community. How about instead of saying "MAKE THIS" you say hello and put some effort into your ask. You're asking someone to spend hours of their life writing something for you, not ordering chicken nuggets.

And if the person who sent this comment sees this? I'm sorry I'm this angry and you're the unfortunate target of it, but maybe next time you notice something hasn't been updated in a few months you remember that there's a human being with a life behind it before sending a one word demand for more. Shit happens. I highly doubt you can't find something else to read.

#I’d say delete later but I’m leaving it up so y’all see how so many interactions between writers and readers are now #theres so many good and fun readers but I get asks/comments like this at least a few times a week and I’m a small very niche writer #I delete any snooty/demanding asks or hate but this one pissed me the fuck off for some reason #I just feel like a hello or please isn’t too much to ask for #vent #not writing

[puppyeared]

i wanna post my skip to loafer art but i cant do it knowing ppl are gonna put it on tiktok and pinterest bc itd be like. bringing an invasive species ykwim

#my meds just kicked in so im feeling talkative but truly idk how to explain it #its like. with anything else id be more than happy to introduce it to ppl like monkie kid and mp100. witch hat maybe but its personal to me #but skip to loafer is special to me. and i feel bad for saying this bc other ppl do deserve to watch smth they will enjoy #hell the reason i got into it was bc my friend was kind enough to lend me her copy and i got hooked #its so ironic im saying this esp given how insecure i am abt depicting characters wrong. but i really dont want to look thru the tags #and see them on a 'can i copy your homework' tier list. or ppl getting mad abt why egashira mitsumi and shima cant just be a throuple #its just!! i wont stop you if thats how you like to engage with the show or how you interpret it bc ill just ignore it and leave u alone!! #and theres no objective wrong way of doing it!! and i know that interacting with the work is what forms a community after all!! #but keeping it tight knit is just easier for me bc nobody has to worry abt making each other laugh and we can enjoy it for what it is #fully aware im saying this as someone whos drawn monkie kid art with text post memes and owl house draw the squad templates #but at the same time i just. dont want to explain myself or give ppl reasons why shima and mitsumi are ace coded just bc it 'feels right' #fandom is a communal thing and it feels so hypocritical thinking this. too many conflictng thoughts that idk what to act on #yapping

[wormonastringtime]

yataposting. sorry

#in my non-humble opinion i understand yata's potential as a character better than the writers. in my opinion. #he thinks hes normal and that hes just putting up with insane shenanigans until one day he realizes that normal people would leave. #normal people would just dip. they would say its too crazy. they wouldnt stick around. they dont try to make any sense of the dynamics of #the rest of the cast. theres a reason zenigata didnt have an assistant for so long. or if he worked with people it wouldnt stick. u know? #my art #doodle #digital art #lupin iii #lupin the third

[mattibee]

its going to be really hard for me to stop using this site but... I might have to...

#coatlythoughts #between trans women being kicked off/leaving (rightfully so) #and the midjourney rumors #the bad is outweighing the good.. might not be any good reason for me to stay #especially since my pc cant nightshade/glaze.. i know theres webglaze but

[pickled-flowers]

Saw some of the grossest parenting today in the bus

#this dad was on his phone the whole bus ride ok #and his two kids were screaming arguing #at most he would periodically tell them to lower their voice while still on his phone #one time he told them to stop the one sitting next to him hit him 😭 and he went back to look at his phone with no reaction #my guy something is seriously wrong with you #your kids are screaming at each other doesn't even matter all that much that we are in the bus rn #theyre not just being loud kids you need to do smt!!!!!! its too early for this!!! i could hear them even with my noise cancelling headphone #anyways #ive never seen smt like this #and i work in a mall i see lots of parents and kids #idk smt really disgusting about a parent just not even interested in engaging with their kids #dude no wonder they're loud they probably want ur attention #also this one lady once who came in wjth a big stroller #and the store where i work has little moving rooms between the aisle so this woman decided TO LEAVE THE STROLLER WITH A KID INSIDE AT THE #FRONT OF THE STORE #the kids started crying and his hrother (toddler not in the stroller but not following the mom for some reason) started exploring and i #i had to watch them until the mom came back but like the woman just left them there??? #i just stepped in but what if i hadnt??? lady????????? #i see lots of cute interactions of course #like this little girl who came with who i think is her grandpa and he asked me to help her chose her next manga read 😭💖 #i basically work in a book/toy store #theres a lot of candy as well the kids love it #idk i like seeing kids being happy ok it is healing #like all the kids sitting on the floors deep in their books while the parents shop 😭😭😭 makes me smile every time top tier behavior

[sqlmn]

Lightning, water, and fire! Like forever before the plot starts. By the time the plot starts, the lightning and fire deities have been subjected to punishment by the two gods that picked them.

Oh (the fire deity) is first to be punished. They basically decide that since they're going to live for a long time, gotta set some long time goals! And they opt to be the wrath of the gods since most of the other deities are too 'soft' in their opinion. So Oh just. Smites humans. This isn't really a /good/ thing and in their defense mentally, they do it to help Ymber since he's the softest of them all. So their punishment by the gods is to be split in two, effectively halving the power of one into two. (Now they are in a male and a female body and use both male and female pronouns apart since they together make they but apart it feels weird to be they. But prior to the split they use they/them. Also the split bodies go by the names Ohiwe and Ohime.)

Fulj is the second to be punished. She falls in love with a mortal woman and that is a crime according to the gods. Mortals and immortals are not to be together and it will only bring suffering to both sides. So her punishment is her memories of the woman are stripped and her body basically broken to the point she can't remain physical all the time.

Ymber, unfortunately, is the one who blames himself for the discoveries and punishments. If he had only tried to restrain Oh more then maybe they would have chilled out and stopped before being punished. If he had only tried to persuade Fulj to not continue seeing the mortal woman so often perhaps she wouldn't have been punished. So he's just increasing the guilt on his shoulders every day that he remains unpunished since the elder gods have both laid down to rest. They can't enforce their laws anymore and none of the deities are keen on harming one another at this point. They just want to continue existing in peace.

#the daily life of a deity sucks #and then ymber falls in love with a human and is like welp this sucks and i understand fulj now #i also would have accepted the punishment for this #and fulj doesnt even remember the woman she was punished for and doesnt remember how she was before #so she is like hey ymber please just go and kiss the weird human i dont even like him but youre being mean by not kissing him #and ymber is just having the worst time of his life being encouraged by someone who used to be so happy #who he also encouraged to be happy once upon a time #also ohiwe and ohime pop up in the water city to bully ymber sometimes but its still in the way of #dude we like you please grow a spine its been a thousand years please grow a backbone and tell us to piss off #and he never tells them to piss off #also fulj has a long braid here but you cant really see it #and she loves to braid ymbers hair and he gets to braid hers when shes giggling and chatting about love #and a short while after the punishment fulj chops the braid off and ymber is like welp my friend is officially gone #and then he cuts his own hair and leaves to go develop his city alone in seclusion #and he sometimes just cuts it really short because hes still sad and soggy and thinks of fulj braiding his hair #and then she shows up one day when hes debating how long its getting and she smiles #and tells him he looks good with longer hair #so he kinda keeps it a messy short then it gets to be medium and he decides he can survive with medium but he couldnt do long again #but once again fulj is the reason for his life choices (and guilt) #also before anyone asks yes all the deities have a collar #its very important actually that they are collared its lore information thanks #and for what it matters - after oh is split both forms are just as tall #theres just two of them at half power but they are both tall

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#thinking about death again bc my dad texted an update on my mum #apparently she got a blood transfusion and threw up. thrilling stuff. but it just nudges at my head #bc it just makes me think. when shes gone its going to leave a trace. the outline of a person #i dont kno why i find that so upsetting. i just think about all the half completed scrapbooks that will whither away in my sisters old room #and it makes me cry. shell leave behind her incomplete scrapbooks. half tumbled rocks. containers of sea glass and lucky stones. digital #conversation thatll never be responded to. shoes and clothes #and memories. evidence of of a life no longer there to live it #and it just makes me sad i guess. i dunno. theres something sad about a project that will never be finished #a project doomed to be forgotten because it was only ever in the care of one person #but thats how it goes. what is is. nothing to be done about it but feel that sadness #i dunno. my head is full of static and frustration for unrelated reasons #but death pokes at my head during the day and i lose my already unsteady focus in an effort not to cry #im tired and sad and wishing my medication was working better #shes not even dead yet. im pulling a roman r0y and pre grieving. except for reals #unrelated

[asukiess]

who are your fave ml fandom artists and/or writers?

hiiii anon <3 thank you for the question! I honestly feel you could just look at who I reblog from, haha. I really love every artist and writer I follow. I love a variety of things and it's really hard for me to call people out specifically. additionally, I am notoriously slow at reading fics. I really try to read when I can!!

however, if you're looking for some non-exhaustive list of people in no particular order that inspire me personally, or that I stare wide-eyed at, here's a few:

coffeebanana, bittersweetresilience, rosekasa, nemali, selkie, isabugs, rwsdarw, hartwign, anna-scribbles, maridotnet, rimeah, mostmagical, fragileizy, aidanchaser

there are more people whose works I haven't got to yet of course. but hopefully you'll check these people out and what they rec too!

#asukies answered #you also run into an issue of leaving people out with questions like these #so again you can look at who I rb from!! <3 #this fandom is incredibly talented #also I started writing heartfelt little blurbs about these users but I didnt want others to feel theres was lesser or anything so #just know I did think about all the reasons I love u

[arvoze]

you don;t get to learn about this one either (you will). if i tell you this thing is about death and murder you would have to trust me

#luwel #mike #my art #the only reason i never posted abt this one before is bc theres like. #a lot to work out. #its a murder mystery thing but the murder and mystery literally doesnt matter at all #and they both leave before the case even gets explored :sob: #its literally just abt mikes reaction to being in a dangerous enclosed space with somebody who he #cares very dearly about and doesnt know how to deal with it #bc he's been near death so many times and killed someone himself so he's like. #in an absolute nightmare realm. but he has to just liek . #unfortunately forces himself to put his own worries and stuff to the side #(luwel has not been anywhere as close to actual violence like mike has and detaches himself from reality to the point where he just . #thinks that everything is fake and a play and wants to get involved with solving it bc he wants to believe it's fake #and mike's like hey uh. no. this is real i Cannot let you out of my sight) #the last image is outdated btw its when his outfit was based on primarina instead of flapple #luwels was always based on serperior

[mr-independent]

I'm very disappointed by the lack of fake marriage fics in this fandom. Ted is an immigrant. Visas expire eventually, and can be tricky, legally speaking. Obviously someone's gotta do a Proposal AU

#ted lasso #tedependent #come on...... 'it turns out its not easy to ruins someones life once you find out how wonderful they are' #honestly this could even be #tedbecca #something something teds visa is expiring and he has a trip planned to see henry and he cant go if he wants his visa to go thru #so *insert love interest* understands and wants him to see his child and stay in the country bc otherwise michelle will get full custody #or something idk thered be q compelling reason #so they are in the meeting with the lawyer who mentions marriage and the love interest blurts out 'ill do it' #so theyre dragged along to kansas (surprised that ted is rich even tho his salary in england is already insane?) and meet mama lasso #and michelle and dr johnson and henry et al #and have wild kansas adventures The Proposal style while the love interest slowly warms up to being in an actual relationship with Ted #and finally the LI decides theyre the one keeping ted in england away from his wonderful family and leaves and then #airport rom-communism ensues obvi

[sonknuxadow]

people who love to nitpick every little thing in sonic media and act like it's good criticism need to stop going "ummm why doesn't he just run. it's faster" every time sonic drives a car for any reason . its because he wants to gave a fun and fair race with his friends OBVIOUSLY . where is your joy and whimsy

#it especially annoys me when people say this about the first sonic movie #because theres like. several very obvious in universe reasons for why hes riding in a car youre just ignoring them #like for one iirc he first got in the car because he couldnt run at the time and tom picked him up put him in there and drove off #second. they literally stopped the car and sonic was given the chance to just run to san francisco #and he said that he didnt know where it was . tom said it was a straight shot there and when sonic tried that he ran into the ocean #so obviously he couldnt just run there on his own #third. sonic very clearly didnt WANT to leave earth he just felt like he had to so it makes sense that he'd take the longer route #and try to delay leaving for as long as he can whether hes actually aware of the fact that hes doing that or not #just because a certain thing seems like the logical choice to you doesnt mesn its the choice fhe character would make #you wanna criticize sonic sooo bad that youre ignoring the very obvious reasons sonic acts the way he does